I’m not good enough πŸ’­

Hey sweeties 😍,

Today I wanna talk about something which has been stuck in my head for so long. Today I wanna talk about the thought: I’m not good enough. I have to confess that I have had this thought my whole life. I always have had the fear of not being good enough. I have wasted a lot of time in thinking that I’m not good enough. I think it’s also because I have been bullied that I feel this way. If you haven’t read this story yet, you can read that story here: My story of being bullied

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I think many of us have this thought in the back of our minds. That fear of not being succesful enough, not smart enough, not beautiful enough…. I think that society also creates this thought. Especially women always have to be thin and look a certain way to be good enough. I see that on social media accounts, magazines and on television. I just see that everywhere. I think this is also the reason why many women start a strong diet, fitness to loose weight and develop eating disorders…. They will never feel good enough because they are not doing fitness to feel good about themselves. They are doing fitness to look a certain way to feel good. They will never obtain that goal, it’s just an illusion. Even if they loose some weight, it just will never be good enough. They continue and that is really dangerous for their health. I like to swim, do yoga or other sports and afterwards I feel good about myself. I don’t do it to loose weight or look a certain way. That’s the big difference. Of course, this can also happen with boys but there are still many more women who suffer from this problem.

We have to look a certain way to feel good about ourselves. It’s just bullshit. I know sometimes I look to other girls and compare myself way too often. I would for example see a girl who looked perfect in my eyes and instantly think like why can’t I be as beautiful as her, wear awesome fashion as her…. I’m not very good in matching oufits and I’m always kinda jealous about girls who dress so perfectly well. Why can’t I be like her? Sometimes I meet people and they tell me about their career and perfect life. Then I always feel like a failure. Thoughts as why can’t I do awesome things in life and am I really a failure come up. I have to know that life isn’t perfect and that everything we see on social media ain’t not true. We all have our ups and downs in life even though you only see the highlights on social media.

Why do I always feel like I’m not good enough? I learned about self love and self-care these years but I still have to work a lot to feel like I’m good enough and worth it. I don’t have to be another person or look a certain way to be good enough. I just have to be myself, wear what I want and love myself the way I’m.

I also had this thought a lot when it comes to boys. When I had a boyfriend from 17 till 19 years old, I felt like I was worthy of love and felt good enough. This was a kinda stupid thought because I’m already beautiful and not just because I have a boyfriend. I always thought somebody had to love me to feel good enough about myself. When he broke up with me, I felt really lost because I never learned to love myself. Everything happens for a reason. The break up learned me to love myself for who I’m, to respect myself, to set boundaries and to know that I’m good enough. I also learned that I first have to love myself before I can love someone else. I really love the quote β€œWe accept the love, we think we deserve” from the Perks of being a wallflower – Stephen Chbosky. I love Emma Watson and Logan Lerman so much. I encourage anyone to read the book and see this beautiful movie. After he broke up with me, I felt really insecure and had a low self esteem. I attracted the wrong boys because I thought that that was the love I deserve. Now, I learned that I deserve someone who would really respect me and my boundaries, love me for the way I’m and just have a safe and loving relationship.

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I know there are still so many of us struggling with body image. I find that so incredible sad. We are born out of love and have to embrace our bodies. Our body is our temple and is beautiful just the way it’s. Society creates this image that we have to look a certain way to be beautiful. I hope you all are trying to learn to embrace your body and love yourself. You are loved, you are worth it, your body is beautiful and so are you ❀ I know I still have to learn a lot about this subject but every step forward is a big accomplishment. I have to try to stop comparing myself to others and know that I can be myself and be beautiful.

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I hope this blog post will help all the people who are struggling right now with their body image and with the thought of not being good enough. Remember, that you are not your thoughts. You are beautiful just the way you are. I advice you to practice self love every day and be surrounded by good people. For example, when you wake up and look at the mirrow you can look at yourself and tell yourself you are beautiful. Maybe, this will have a positive effect on yourself. Start doing little things which will replace this negative thoughts about yourself into good thoughts about yourself πŸ’• I know it’s hard but we are all in this together πŸ’ͺ❀ You can all achieve amazing things in life!

To end this blog post, I will share this beautiful song from Selena Gomez & The Scene. I love the lyrics so much because it’s exactly about what I have just written about. Her song is about being your own beautiful selves ❀❀❀You don’t have to be like anyone else. You don’t have to be a beauty queen but just your own beautiful self. Selena Gomez is such a role model for self love πŸ’• I love her and her beautiful songs so much. I’m going to make a blog post about self love songs soon because there are so many beautiful songs out there.

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I love you all so much πŸ’•

Much love ❀,

xoxo Christina


20 thoughts on “I’m not good enough πŸ’­

  1. Ahhh Who Says! I love that song, even though it came out such a long time ago it’s one that will always be one of my faves, it has such a great message. This post was amazing as always xxx

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  2. I’m having this problem at the moment with my writing career. As for Perks of Being a Wallflower, I read this book as a teenager so when the movie came out a few years ago, I was so excited. Especially having Emma Watson. It took them forever to come out with a movie, though. Because I read it years & years ago!

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      1. Emma Watson is amazing. Before the Harry Potter movies, I loved the books & always felt like Hermoine. Emma did a great portrayal. & I think she’s a wonderful feminist. She uses logic. & she represents the true ideas of feminism. I hate when the media only uses radicals to portray feminists. That we all hate men, that trans aren’t women, that everything is against women. We’ve come a long way but we still have obstacles & I feel like the radicals are ruining our movement. Sorry for my rant! Haha.

        The book The Perks of a Wallflower hit close to home. Because as a teenager, I was the wallflower that hung out with the wild kids, trying drugs, but I was never the life of the party. I was just there.

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      2. Your comment is really beautiful! πŸ’• Thank you for it. I agree so much with your thoughts. I love Emma Watson so much and I love to be a feminist like her. Yeah, I also dislike the idea that society doesn’t get us and think that we hate all men.

        I also am shy yet I also love to party. I’m between. There’s nothing wrong to be just the way you are. It’s okay if you were a wallflower πŸ’•

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  3. Great post and yes I can feel your words ringing in my head. They are so inspiring and they really make me feel good about myself! And yes I love Selena for her Who Says! Absolutely love the lyrics!!! ❀ ❀ ❀ ❀ ❀

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    1. Thank you so much beautiful! 😍❀ Everybody deserve to feel good about themselves. Self love is so important. I also love Who Says so much πŸ’– That song makes me really happy

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