Winter Wonderland – Photo Diary πŸ“·β„οΈοΈπŸ’•β˜ƒοΈ

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

My last blog post was a long blog post where I shared my favourite things of life from A to Z. I thought about writing a short blog post today. I want to share my first photo diary. I took this pictures in the park last Tuesday when it was snowing in The Netherlands. I took them with my mobile phone and edited them a bit but not too much. I like natural pictures. I hope you are going to like this pictures. I love photography and I want to share more of it on my blog.

Summer is my favourite season but I like snow even though I don’t like the cold haha πŸ˜‚. I love to hear the sound of crispy snow when you are walking. I love the snow landscape. It’s so beautiful. It feels like magic ✨ It just makes me so happy.

This is the view from my room – so beautifuuuul 😍✨

This is what we see when I open the door from my garden ❄️

The beautiful park covered in snow 🌨️

My lovely mother and I enjoying the snow πŸ’•

My mother also love the swing and looks so cute πŸ’–

We enjoyed a delicious hot chocolate & a tea in the restaurant in the park β˜•πŸ΅

I didn’t made this snowman but he looks so cute β›„

Enjoying a delicious Dutch fondue with my family at home 🍴

I had to include this picture as I had a lovely dinner at home with my parents on Wednesday. We had a Dutch fondue with meat, delicious potatoes and fruits. It’s a typical tradition they do in The Netherlands and we always do it to celebrate something. This time we just did it to enjoy it. It was so yummy! 😍😘🍴

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I had to share these beautiful pictures with you all. I hope you liked them. Which picture was your favourite? Do you love snow? Do you also find a snow landscape so beautiful? Let me know in the comments. I will speak to you all soon in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

A to Z of my favourite things in life πŸ’•

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

I always wanted to make this blog post. I saw many bloggers doing this too. I’m going to make a list from A to Z of my favourite things which makes me happy in life. I hope you are going to like this post and be inspired by it. I’m only choosing one word or more for every letter because it’s difficult for me to choose only one hahaha πŸ˜‚.

A – Art 🎨

I love art. The earth without art is just eh is one of my favourite quotes. It’s just so true. Art is beautiful. I love to go to museums and I really want to go more and enjoy paintings. I love every form of art such as paintings, photography, music, literature and dancing.

B – Books πŸ“š

Omgggg hell yeah books are one of my favourite things in life. I want to read more this year and for the rest of my life. You learn so much of life and from the world by reading. If people hurt you, books will always be there for you. You cry, laugh and just feel every feeling while reading a good book.

C – Cats & CuΓ©ntame como pasΓ³ πŸˆπŸ“Ί

I love cats. I used to be a dog person too because I was always carrying about the dogs in my neighbourhood in The Netherlands. However, I prefer cats now much more. They are so cute and fluffy 😍🐱😻 I don’t know if I would ever get a cat because I’m always travelling but I love to be around them. They are really cute except that random one cat who was biting me once πŸ˜‚

I love the Spanish serie CuΓ©ntame Como PasΓ³ so much. The actors are amazing. I also learn so much of the Spanish history with the serie. I cry, I laugh and just feel every feeling when I watch it. It’s about a Spanish family and shows how they live during that time. I can’t wait to watch the new season.

D – Dress πŸ‘—

I love to wear dresses in the Spring and Summer time. It’s basically my favourite thing to wear around this time. In Spain I can use them more because it’s much more sunnier than in The Netherlands. My favourite dresses are ones with flowers, my favourite green dress or jumpsuit.

E – Eating 🍴

I love food so much. I like to eat with friends or family at home or in a restaurant. I like to enjoy eating rather than to eat because you have to eat. Who doesn’t love to eat good food? πŸ˜‹ It’s such a nice pleasure.

F – Friends/family and flowers πŸ‘ͺπŸ’

Family is so important for me as well as my friends. Life is beautiful but also though so we all need a little bit of help from our family or friends. It’s so important to have the right people in your life who will love you and be there for you πŸ’•

I also love flowers so much. I love to see them blossom in the Summer months. Flowers are beautiful and they make me so damn happy 🌸🌻🌼 This picture is from the beautiful tulip park in Holland.

G – Grass 🌱

I love the smell of fresh grass and I love to sit on grass when it’s sunny. My favourite thing to do is laying in grass and watching the beautiful clouds go by. I also like to read a book on the grass.

H – Home and hearts πŸ‘πŸ’•

Home is where the heart is. I love home because it’s the place I feel the most safe. I love to live in a cozy home where I feel happy and at peace. I’m also blessed to have a home because I know there are many people living on the streets in this world. Thats just breaks my heart. We have to be happy of the things we have.

I also love hearts so much. They make me so happy. I always have stuff in my room covered with hearts. I also love to have clothes with hearts prints. I have to buy more of them.

I – Ice cream 🍧

Ice cream is one of my favourite things to eat in life. I love soft ice cream, italian ice cream and just everything about ice 🍦🍨. My favourite ice cream is italian ice cream and especially the chocolate, chocolate mint chip and coconut flavour. I also like to have a Mc Flurry at the McDonald’s. You can never eat enough ice and you can eat it whenever you want, not only in Summer. The picture below is from last Saturday when I enjoyed eating a delicious ice cream with discodip.

J – Juice🍹

I love when my mother makes natural orange juice or when we make together delicious fruit smoothies. It’s just the best. It’s healthy because it’s full of vitamins and also taste delicious.

K – Kiwi πŸ₯

I love eating kiwis so much. They are delicious and they are one of my favourite fruits. They are very healthy and full of vitamins too.

L – Love πŸ’–

Love is really the most important thing in life. You can love your parents, your husband/wife, your boyfriend/girlfriend or any of your friends. Every form of love is beautiful. Love is the essence of life. Life without love would be a hell. We can never have enough kindness and love in this world. Love just makes everything better in life.

M – Music & movies 🎢🎬

Music is life. I can’t imagine life without music. Music is always there for you. Music is there for you when you are sad, happy or just when you want to feel inspired. I love going to live concerts and meeting my favourite artists. I’m so blessed I live in this world where there are amazing artists and such amazing music to listen to 🎹🎧.

I love to watch movies at home. It’s been such a long time since I went to the cinema. I have to go again because I miss it. The last time I went I felt a panic attack upcoming so that’s why I don’t go anymore. I love watching movies because it makes you learn so much about life and transport you to another world.

N – Nature 🌍

Nature is just the most beautiful thing in this world. Nature is all that lives on this earth such as the flowers, trees and animals. I also love the different landscapes such as the mountains and the beach. I’m so blessed to live on such a beautiful planet. I also know that we have to take care of our planet. I can’t wait to discover and enjoy more nature this year 😍🌳 It always makes me feel so happy and calm. Nature gives us so many lessons such as to be present and enjoy the moment. This picture below is from the time I was in Mallorca. My favourite island ever! 😍 I can’t wait to go back. I have already been there 3 times.

O – Ocean 🌊

The ocean and the beach is my favourite place on this earth. The ocean is my home. It makes me feel so peaceful and so happy. I can’t wait to go to the sea soon and enjoy some surfing lessons and swim in the ocean. It’s the place where I feel young, wild and free. I love the quote of the surfer Laird Hamilton which is this one: “The biggest sin in the world would be if I lost my love for the ocean.”Β This is definitely that one quote which let you see how much I love the ocean.

P – Pizza, pasta, photography & Pretty Little Liars πŸ•πŸ“·πŸ’•

Pizza is my favourite food. I also love pasta so much. I love to eat this food so much. Who doesn’t love to eat a delicious pizza or delicious pasta? I always eat mini little pizzas at home. I also eat a lot of macoroni at home which my mother makes. She also makes a delicious natural tomato sause which makes it even better 😊

I also love photography. I have many cameras which includes a polaroid camera and a lomography camera. I want to make and share more pictures also on this blog to let you see my love for photography. My brother also loves photography for his whole life and has now his own wedding photography company with his wife.

One of my favourite series is Pretty Little Liars. I love to watch it even though sometimes I get scared. Who’s A haha πŸ˜‚ This serie is about 5 girls where one of them Alison get missed and they are trying to solve this mistery. There’s a person called A who’s blackmailing and stalking them all the time. They have to find out who it’s but things get complicated and people get murdered. I love all the actors and it’s such a good serie. I’m almost at season 6 now.

Q – Quotes πŸ“

I love quotes so much. We all need a good quote to live by. I find so much inspiration in beautiful quotes. Sometimes I find them on social media, on Tumblr, in a book or while watching a movie. It feels good to read a quote when you feel sad and want to feel less alone. They also makes me happy and feel inspired ✨

R – Rainbow and roses 🌈🌹

I love to see a rainbow. I think it’s such a beautiful wonder of nature. There always come sunshine after rain which is just like life. After bad times good times will come.

I also love roses so much. They are my favourite flowers among with beautiful daisies 🌼 Roses are so pretty to see and also smell so well. My favourite rose is the red rose.

S – Sun, Summer, sunflowers, singing and surfing πŸŒžπŸŒ»πŸŽ€πŸ„πŸ˜Ž

I had to think of so many things with the s. I already wrote ocean by the letter o so I didn’t use the sea here. I love the sun which gives us so many good vibes and warmth. Summer is my favourite season because of the sunshine and more daylight. Life is just so much prettier and better in Summer.

One of my other favourite flowers are also sunflowers. I love to ride along the sunflowers fields in Spain. In The Netherlands there’s less sunshine so they don’t grow that well as in Spain. Hopefully, one day I can make some beautiful pictures there and share them with all of you.

I love singing and surfing. They are one of my favourite hobbies. I used to sing in a choir in The Netherlands for 11 years. I really wish to sing more again. I also would love to go to a surf camp again in Spain this Summer. It’s been more than two years since I surfed. I also am craving that so much.

T – Tea and travelling 🍡✈️

Tea is my favourite hot drink. I always drink it even on hot Summer nights πŸ˜‚πŸ”₯ I just love drinking tea so much. My favourite brand is Yogi Tea because it contains quotes full of wisdom and also tastes delicious.

I love travelling so much. It’s my favourite thing to do in life. You learn so much from travelling. You learn from other new cultures and languages. Besides, meeting new friends is also so great while travelling. Travelling makes you have an open mind and I’m always into a great adventure alone, with friends or with family 😍

U – Underwater & universe 🐬🐳✨🌜

I love the underwater world. I don’t know if I will have courage to dive one day but I like snorkeling. I did that in Mallorca some years ago. I was amazed of seeing the beautiful fishes. The underwater world is also scary because of the unknown and there also creepy animals in the ocean. I still love to remind myself of the beautiful animals and corals there are in there and also the ones who still aren’t discovered yet. I also love swimming. It makes you feel so relaxed and calm.

I love astrology and I also love the universe so much. I love the stars, the moon, the sun and all the planets. It’s amazing how we live on this blue planet. It feels like a miracle. I love those Summer nights where I’m watching the stars and just think of how beautiful life is. I love the mistery of it.

V – Vacation πŸ–οΈπŸ•οΈπŸοΈ

Who doesn’t love to go on a nice vacation?! I love holidays. I love going away to a place I don’t know anyone & where I have never been. It always make me feel excited. There’s so much to see and do in this world. The world is waiting for you so whenever you get a chance take that vacation and goooo have fun πŸ’•

W – Writing and watermelon βœ’οΈπŸ‰

Writing is one of my biggest passions. That’s why I also began this blog. I love to write about topics I’m passionate about such as lifestyle, mental health, feminism, travelling, books, self care and self love. I also love to share more poetry in the future. I have always been a writer. I wrote in my diaries when I was younger. I still have some journals and I love scrapbooking. I also like to write handwritten letters. I also won some prizes while writing essays or poetry.

Watermelon is my favourite Summer fruit πŸ˜πŸ‰ I eat that so much in Spain during the hot Summer days. It’s so refreshing and so yummy.

X – Xmas & xoxo πŸŽ„πŸ˜˜

Xmas also known as Christmas is my favourite time of the year. I love Christmas because of spending time with your family, eating delicious food and feeling that Christmas spirit.

I love xoxo because I always use it to send texts or here on my blog. It means kisses and hugs. I also love it because it reminds me of my other favourite serie which is Gossip Girl. It’s about a group of friends that live in New York City and involves a lot of drama and gossips “You know you love me. xoxo Gossip girl.”

Y – Yoga girl πŸ§˜β€β™€οΈ

My biggest inspiration in life is Yoga Girl also known as Rachel Brathen. She’s a famous Swedish international yoga teacher who lives in Aruba with her husband Dennis and her little girl Lea Luna. I still am going to share a blog post I made about her soon. I love how authentic, vulnerable and honest she’s. I love her postcasts and everything she shares on the internet. I also want to take some yoga lessons again as I only did it twice and loved it. Hopefully one day I can go to a yoga retreat in her studio in Aruba πŸ˜πŸ‡¦πŸ‡Ό That would definitely be a dream coming true. I also love that I’m in the Facebook community group. We are never alone. We can all be a Yoga Girl and inspire and help others πŸ’•πŸ™.

Z – zzz 😴

I love sleeping. Sleeping is also so important for your health. If I don’t sleep enough I can’t function well. I get more anxious and feel bad. Sleeping feels peaceful as it makes you forget your problems for a while.

That was my list from A to Z of my happy and favourite things in life. Of course, there might be more things but I didn’t want to add more. This post is already long haha. I hope you all enjoyed it. Could you relate to my my list? What are your favourite things in life? Let me know in the comments. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

Being sick, sad and confused πŸ’­

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

In this blog post I will talk about how I’ve being sick this time of the year. I will also talk about feeling sad and lonely. I will also write about feeling confused of making a certain decision which will change my life for the better or for worse. I hope that with writing this blog post I can make somehow my mind up or at least feel a bit better after I’ve written this.Β I’m not doing well lately because I’m sick. Before New Year’s Eve in Spain I had a cold. I got this cold in The Netherlands. I thought that I was done with being sick. I got my period after that which also sucks. Then my mother got sick with coughing so much, vomiting and also having fever.

Last Tuesday I got sick again and I think I have the flu because I have not been eating anything only drinking, my muscles hurt, I feel very weak, sneezing, running nose, fever of 38.4 degrees and coughing all the time. Sometimes I’m even afraid of coughing because it makes me feel like I almost am going to vomit even when I didn’t eat anything these days. I also had to travel this week without eating anything. I only drank water, citrosan which is a Dutch medicine (hot drink with lemon and paracetamol) and a Spanish kind of soup with vegetables and pumpkin. It was delicious and I waa happy to be able to drink that.Β I hope that I feel better soon. It’s already the fifth day that I don’t eat anything. I hate not being able to eat because I love food πŸ˜πŸ˜‹. If I don’t eat I soon feel dizzy or weak. My father for example can go many days without eating and still feels strong πŸ˜‚ He is such a lucky man hahah. Unfortunately, my body doesn’t work that way. I’m happy that my lovely mama bought soup, tissues, hot drink, honey and lots of other stuff. I hope it works to make me feel good again.

Being sick also increase my anxiety like I begin to worry more about my life. Lately, I also feel sad because I don’t feel supported in life by my real life friends. I talked to some of my good friends and nobody talks to me back. I’m feeling so lonely and also angry because I’m always there for everyone. When I’m feeling bad nobody is there for me. It’s just how I feel. I’m so done with feeling that way. I also expected one good friend coming to visit me in Valladolid. It never happened and didn’t wrote me back. It makes me feel sad 😒.Β I feel more supportive by my online internet friends than people in real life. Maybe it’s just a sign of the universe that those are the people who matter. You will see who belong in your life just with seeing their actions and not their words. Words are broken promises. I hope I will meet many people from this blogging community, mental health community, Yoga Girl community and many more communities this year. I would love to have deep talks with you all, have fun and go on adventures. I’m sure we will have an awesome time πŸ’•βœ¨πŸ‘Œ

I’m also feeling confused lately. I applied for some jobs via a Dutch website who helps people find a job abroad. I applied for a job in Athens, Barcelona and Lisbon. So, a few days ago a Dutch recruiter called me when I was in Spain. I was very anxious to receive this call because I hate calling. I definitely have phone anxiety. The call went very well. I liked the job in Lisbon the most because they would pay you the appartment there and help you with everything. You would live with your co-workers. With the other jobs you have to find your own appartment and do everything on your own.Β The call was just the recruiter that gave me general information about everything. She said that I had to complete some tests afterwards and that she would send me my cv to the Dutch recruiter in Lisbon. She also said that during the selection time I will have to send a certification of my degree. I’m glad she was very friendly and that the call went well. We talked for like 10 minutes. There were no awkward silences only just one time but then soon we talked again. Next week I will have a call with the Dutch recruiter in Lisbon. First she said that the call would be in English but then she said that it was a mistake and that it will be in Dutch. That’s much better. I also really don’t like to talk English when we can talk Dutch. That just feels strange to me. She also seem very nice and even send smilies in the emails.

We will discuss the online tests I made during that call. The first test was about answering some customer service emails. They want to know how I react with an angry customer or just someone who has a problem. I had to answer two emails in Dutch and one in English. The second test was a speed test. I had to write down what I was seeing but then my laptop crashed. I couldn’t make the test again. The third test was a Dutch grammer test which was sometimes even difficult hahaha πŸ˜‚ I’m so used to talk Spanish or English. The fourth test was a test about my knowledge of English. I wasn’t that bad I think. The last test was a test about computer knowledge. I think I also was pretty good at it haha. I hope I made them all well.

The thing what makes me confused is that I have never worked before or lived abroad in a place which isn’t my home such as Lisbon. The Netherlands and Spain are my two homes. I don’t know if it will be a good idea to move abroad while suffering from anxiety and being far away from my family and friends. I don’t know if I would cope well. Also, I don’t know if I see myself living with co-workers in one appartement. I love to live in my own home. I’ve never lived with people who I don’t know only with a family once in Spain. I love to have my own space and feel uncomfortable sharing a home with people I don’t know or can trust.

The thing which also keeps me thinking is that I searched the company Teleperformance on Glassdoor. I would be working for them for a Dutch project such as bol.com website at the Customer Service Sector. I saw so many negative reviews that I got very anxious. They said that it’s better not to work there because the environment is horrible, that you are treated like you are a number and robot and that they won’t treat you well. What more alarming was the fact that I read that the co-workers take marijuana and cocaine during work and also at the appartement. I also read that they are noisy. I don’t want to live with those kind of people. I wouldn’t feel comfortable and happy. They also said that the management and organisation of this company is very bad. With all of this said, I really don’t know if I should trust this company and work here if they hire me. I also read online that people can be really negative on the website Glassdoor and maybe not everything is true but it’s still negative information of the company.

Next week, I will get that call from the Dutch recruiter in Lisbon. She will discuss my cv, the tests I’ve made and also give me information about the company. Maybe, I have to say something about these negative reviews. I just don’t know if I should go for it if I get this job. I have never been good in making decisions. I think that still deep in my heart I have to keep searching for a job in Spain because that’s what I want the most. It also feels more safe for me. Even though I didn’t heard back from some jobs I just have to keep going and send my cv. It’s my dream to live and work in Spain so I gotta keep chasing this dream, right? 🌠✨

Thank you all so much for reading this blog post. I hope it wasn’t too messy πŸ˜‚ I just had so many thoughts and feelings to explain haha. Can you relate to my feelings? What would you do in my situation? Did you heard about the company Teleperformance and would you trust the negative reviews? What would be your advice for me? I would love to know your thoughts or opinion as it will help me so much. Thank you so much already for holding space for me πŸ™πŸ’•

I love you all so much πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

New year goals for 2019 βœ¨

Hey lovely bloggers πŸ’•,

It’s never too late to write some goals down for this new year. Hopefully with writing this post I will stick to them and it will motivate me to reach them. I don’t like that much the new year, new me thing because I still feel the same but it’s just a different year not that much changed hahah πŸ˜‚ I prefer to stick with goals that I want to achieve this year. I also think that working to achieve goals also gives you confidence and strength. Reaching a goal is awesome but I think the way to reach those goals is also important. In this blog post I will write about my main 10 new year goals for 2019 ✨. My goals are not in any ranking.

1) Cope better with anxiety πŸ™

This is for me such an important goal to reach. I don’t know if I ever will be anxiety free but learning how to cope with it is important in order to feel good. If I have to try therapy this year then I will have to do that even though I’m scared. If I have to try other medications for my anxiety disorder then that’s okay too. I also will keep reading good self help books 😊. Hopefully I can also sleep better and have a better sleep schedule. I also want to take some yoga lessons and keep swimming. Moving my body definitely release anxiety and makes me feel more calmer and happier.

2) Face my fears πŸ’ͺ

I really have to face my fears this year rather than running away from it, escaping or hiding myself all the time. It’s my comfortzone to run away from them because I don’t know any other way to live life but it isn’t okay. I have to get my 4 wisdom teeth pulled out but I will do it one by one. Just writing about it already gives me anxiety. I need to do it this year in Spain. I don’t want to keep postponing the appointments until I really get pain and need to go urgently. The dentist here is really nice and understanding. I can do it and everything wil be okay πŸ’ͺ

3) Getting my first job πŸ’°

I’m scared of working because I never worked before. I only did an internship of 5 months here in Valladolid, in Spain last year. It was in The International Relations Office of the University of Valladolid. It was really nice. I did a great job. Working feels for me a big responsibility. I’m afraid to fail or that it will be too much to handle with having anxiety. I also keep applying for jobs but don’t hear anything back. I need to keep going. My dream is to work and live in Spain so I really do hope I can make this dream come true ❀️πŸ‡ͺπŸ‡Έ Just last week I also applied to one job in Lisbon, Portugal. This week I will get a call back. I have been thinking that maybe it’s time to go outside my comforzone and just go for it. I’m nervous but also excited about it. It’s from a Dutch Website which is called Grenzelooswerk and they help you with everything.

4) Keep reading good books πŸ“š

I’m beginning to read again like I used to do when I was a child. I love it. It makes me feel so happy and calm. I love to read great books and forget the whole world around me. You learn so much about life, the world and just everything from reading πŸ“–. I will keep reading this new year. If anyone has some tips of books that I need to read they are very welcome. I love the books of John Green, poetry books from Rupi Kaur and The Spinster Club series books from Holly Bourne.

5) Writing great content on blog πŸ–‹οΈ

In this new year I want to continue writing more amazing posts for my blog. I want to write book reviews, my own written poems, singing covers and more posts about lifestyle, mental health, feminism, travelling, and self love. These are the most important themes of my blog. I hope you will all like it. I will also maybe look for a new design for my blog even though I find it difficult to make that. I hope that it will work out πŸ™

6) Asking for help when I need it πŸ’•

This is also an important goal for me to reach this year. If I struggle with finding a job or with my anxiety I need to know that it’s okay to ask people for help. If I can’t do something on my own it’s okay to admit that you need help. We all need help sometimes in life. I always thought that asking for help would mean that I’m weak and not strong enough. I’m learning that asking for help is a good thing to do and also takes a lot of courage. We are all in this together πŸ’ͺ

7) Go to a surf camp in Spain πŸŒŠπŸ„β€β™€οΈ

I didn’t go surfing for more than two years and I really miss it so much. I went a few times to a Surf Camp in the north of Spain and I loved it. I have to admit that I got scared of the big waves and I didn’t like some surf teachers pushing me through that fear. However, there are many surf camps with great teachers here in Spain who won’t push you that way. I love surfing even though I still can’t surf waves. I’m still a beginner. I had my own wetsuit but it’s too little now to wear 😭 I will buy a new one. Just being in the ocean, having fun and meeting new people is awesome. It’s such a great experience and I can’t wait to do it again this Summer 😍 I love the sea so much but I fear the amount of water and I fear drowning even though I can swim well so this goal is also about facing my fears.

8) Going to amazing concerts 🎢

Music is life 🎡🎼. I’m the happiest girl in the world when I listen to my favourite artists at a concert. I also love to meet them. These memories are for a lifetime. I can’t wait to go to more amazing concerts in Spain or in The Netherlands depends where I’m living. Going to concerts with my friends is one of my favourites things in life. I don’t like to be surrounded by many people so I’m never in the front line but I enjoy listening to live music so much. Without music we would all be so lost. For every mood there’s music to make us feel happy, less alone and inspired ✨

9) Travelling to new places 🌍

Travelling is also one of my favourites things to do in life ✈️. Travelling makes me so happy and so full of life 😍 This world is so beautiful and so magical. I love to discover new places, new countries, new cities and meet amazing people along the way. You learn so much from travelling such as going out of your comfortzone, speaking a foreign language or learning from another culture. I can’t wait to plan some exciting travels this year in 2019. Hopefully, I will also get a well paying job this year to save money for all the trips I want to make with my familiy, friends or alone. Keep on travelling πŸ’• Travel as much as you can, as far as you can and as long as you can. The world is yours.

10) Surround yourself with good people πŸ’–

It’s so important to be surrounded by good people instead of toxic people. They aren’t worth your time. Investing in good friendships or relationships is the best thing you can do. I’m thankful for my good friends, family and all the friends I met online. They only spread good vibes, love me for who I’m and respect me. That’s my tribe πŸ’• I can’t wait to meet more amazing people this year. I love to have fun with my friends and also love to have deep talks. When you surround yourself with good people you also feel more inspired and happier in life. Toxic people will only make you feel bad about yourself and will make you feel unhappy. Life is too short for negative vibes ✌️

Thank you all for reading this blog post. Did you like my goals? Can you relate to my new years goals? What are your goals for 2019? πŸŽ‰βœ¨ Let me know in the comments. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

Poem: This is what anxiety looks like

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

This blog post will be about a picture and a poem written by myself. So I never shared such an emotional picture of me crying but I just felt the need to do it. I have never been this vulnerable. The picture where I’m smiling on the left was taken yesterday afternoon. The other picture on the right where I was crying was taken last night. I was crying last night and feeling like I couldn’t cope with life. I keep being so anxious about getting one of my wisdom teeth pulled out. I really have to face this fear. I’m also on my period and not feeling that well. I’m also keep thinking about that I don’t have a job because of feeing anxious. These two pictures are just taken within a few hours of difference. I will now write a little poem about these pictures.

This is what anxiety looks like

Suffering from anxiety is being anxious but still smiling.

Suffering from anxiety means crying.

Suffering from anxiety is feeling nauseous.

Suffering from anxiety is having constant worries.

Suffering from anxiety is overthinking all the time.

Suffering from anxiety is feeling dizzy.

Suffering from anxiety is being afraid to die during a panic attack.

Suffering from anxiety is being afraid to leave your home.

Suffering from anxiety is cancelling plans with your friends.

Suffering from anxiety is not knowing what is wrong.

Suffering from anxiety is constant living between escaping your fears or facing them and feeling anxious.

Suffering from anxiety is being tired of feeling anxious all the time.

Suffering from anxiety is a hell.

Suffering from anxiety is being afraid of searching for a job or going to school.

Suffering from anxiety is being afraid of doing daily things.

Suffering from anxiety means feeling your heart beating fast.

Suffering from anxiety is hard because it’s an invisible mental illness.

Suffering from anxiety is not something choose.

Suffering from anxiety is an illness which you have to fight every day with.

I just wanted to write this poem because it’s related to these pictures. Having anxiety or any other mental illness or invisible illness is hard because you don’t see the illness. Just because someone is smiling doesn’t mean they are happy. They can feel anxious or be depressed. You don’t know what someone is going through. I also hide my anxiety behind my smile. People always assume I’m happy and that’s draining me. I just smile and laugh a lot because it’s part of my personality.

Of course, I’m also happy at times but there are also times I’m not and I still smile because that’s part of who I’m. I just want to let you all know that it’s important to not judge someone by their looks. Ask them how they are really feeling and be there for that person. They need your support. We are all in this together πŸ’ͺπŸ’•

Thank you all for reading this blog post and poem. Could you relate to it? Do you also smile because it’s part of your personality? Did you like my poem? I would love to know your thoughts. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

Reflection on 2018 & happy new year to you all! πŸŽ‰βœ¨πŸ’•πŸ’«

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

Happy new year to you all! βœ¨πŸŽ‰ In this post I will talk about my 2018 and will show you how I celebrated New Year’s Eve. I’m glad I don’t have a cold amymore but just tonight I got my period so yeah that also sucks 😭 I’m glad I take medication for the cramps because otherwise I wouldn’t survive it. Besides, I’m also being anxious about my appointment of getting one of my wisdom teeth pulled out this week. I keep postponing the appointment. I know I have to do it but I’m so scared. H e l p. I also don’t want to do it in Holland. Here in Spain it’s much cheaper and the dentist understands my anxiety but I’m still so afraid and I just feel like I can’t cope. If anyone have some more tips to survive it I will be forever grateful πŸ™πŸ’• I can always take medication for anxiety if that’s enough to help me cope with it.

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We are already in 2019. A year has flown by. As usually I want to reflect on my year with this post and also write some important things for you all. Every year has its ups and downs. Every year consists of good things and bad things which happen to us. The most important thing is how we react to all these things. I know how hard it’s to stay positive in this sometimes dark world. I just keep believing that there are so many good things in the world and that there are indeed so many good people. You just have to find your tribe. I’m so glad I did.

I’m so happy with my blogging community, mental health community, Yoga Girl community and the goddess revolution community. I’m thankful that I joined these communities this year. They made me feel less alone and so much happier. If I’m in Holland I will maybe go to a meet up with some yoga girls. I also really wish that we will continue to all be friends and hopefully one day we will all meet ✨ I know the universe brought us all together for a reason which is to be connected with awesome people, share our struggles and feel supported.

I learned a lot this year. I learn every day from this world. This year I realized that there are truly lovely people who care about you and want you to be happy. I learned that it’s better to have a few good friends than a million of fake friends. The ones who love you will always be there for you no matter what. I learned that true love exists when I saw my brother getting married in August in Spain. I learned that this life is an adventure. Sometimes we win and sometimes we loose. We learn from every experience. I also learned that it’s okay if I’m not where I want to be in life. I still have a long way to go. I will find a career I love and will keep growing. It all takes time, pacience and trust in myself. I have to love myself, believe in myself and know that I can make my dreams come true such as working and living in Spain ✨

I also went to my first feminist strike in Valladolid, in Spain on International Women’s Day on the 8th of March with my mother. This was such an empowerful event. I never went to a demonstration before. I really wish 2019 will be the year that less women will be suffering from violence. I wish that women and men have the same human rights. Together we are starting a revolution. This is just the beginning. 2019 will be the year where women can be themselves, love themselves and love each other πŸ’•

This year I also learned that music is the best thing in life 🎢 I would be lost without music. I went to so many amazing concerts such as the OperaciΓ³n Triunfo 2017 concert in Madrid with my friend Maria πŸ’• OperaciΓ³n Triunfo makes me so happy and full of life. I also enjoyed the concert of Pablo Alboran, Chenoa, Hombres G and Celtas Cortos with my mother in Valladolid. I also enjoyed so much the concert of Sofia Ellar with my friend Maria. I can’t wait to see her again. It was so lovely to meet Sofia and get a picture with her. She’s the best and I can’t wait to see her singing again 😍

This year I began to read again a lot which I loved to do so much when I was younger. I will continue reading this new year. I also kept writing and being creative. I hope to create more amazing content on this blog. Writing is amazing. I travelled to Madrid, Granada, Santander and Somo. I discovered Somo which is a beautiful surfing village in the north of Spain. In 2019 I really want to go to a surf camp again πŸ„β€β™€οΈπŸŒŠπŸŒž. I didn’t go surfing for more than two years. I miss it so much. It’s also so good for my mental health. The sea is my home and cleans my soul. The beach is my favourite place on this earth. I can’t wait to travel to more amazing places and meet more amazing people.

Somo, Santander (September 2018)

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Granada, Andalucia (July 2018)

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La RΓ‘bita, Mediterranean Sea, Granada (July 2018)

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Madrid (March 2018)

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Maybe for some of you this year was a hard year. Maybe some of you have lost someone close to you. Maybe you just didn’t felt okay and were struggling. I’m here for you. It’s okay to grief. It’s okay to not be okay. It’s okay to feel sad. Feelings change and emotions change but it all takes time. Try to not be hard on yourself next year. Remember, I’ll will always be there for you πŸ’• I hope you will invest in self love and self care this new year because that’s the most important thing that matters. I also encourage you all to surround yourself with people who love you and who bring you only good vibes because you deserve that ✨.

I celebrated my New Year’s Eve in Valladolid, in Spain. I decided to not go out with my friends. I also didn’t go out last year. I used to party every year but I don’t feel in the mood anymore. I have to do what feels good to me. I went to the hairdressers in the afternoon to cut the dead ends, my bangs and they made curls in my hair. I love to look good for myself. I dressed up at home and did my make up. My mother and I went to the house of the mother of the wife of my brother. We celebrated all together New Year’s Eve: Rafael, my mother, VΓ©ronica, VΓ©ronica’s mother and her brother. We enjoyed eating delicious Spanish food.

We ate cheese, jamon serrano, chorizo, bread and chicken. I didn’t eat the fish because I don’t like fish so much haha πŸ˜‚ At 12 o’clock we watched the television and ate the 12 grapes. We also had champagne πŸ₯‚. It’s a tradition in Spain to eat the 12 grapes. They say it brings luck. We watched television where we were hearing beautiful music and we played Spanish card games. I really loved it so much. I love playing games with my family. At 3.30 am my mother and I went home and we stayed in watching some television. We went to bed at 6 am pretty late but doesn’t matter because it’s a special night. I’m glad I didn’t go out because as soon as we were home I got my period haha. On New Year’s Day we just stayed in and chilled. I saw the movie Grease. I just love that movie & the music so much 😍 I also saw the movie Paper Towns which I love so much from John Green. I already saw this movie with my best friend one day and loved it.

l wish you all an amazing new year full of love, happiness and luck πŸ€βœ¨βœŒοΈ Stay strong & stay safe. We are all in this together πŸ’ͺ I love you all so so so much ❀️. Thank you all for reading. How was your New Year’s Eve? Did you stay at home or did you went to a party? Which are your goals or dreams to achieve in 2019? I would love to know. I will speak to you all soon in my next blog post.

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Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina