Spanish spoken poetry: Venezuela will be free 💗🙏

Hey lovelies 💕,

I just had to write this poem about what’s happening in Venezuela right now. I made a spoken poetry video of it. It breaks my heart and I cry about it 💔😭 I always feel inspired to write when something touches my heart. I’m not from Venezuela and never been there but I can feel their pain. I’m a sensitive person.

I find it so hard to understand why someone would not want to help their citizens. It’s just so inhumane. The citizens need help, food and medications. There are so many people dying in Venezuela. I really hope a solution will come soon 🇻🇪🙏 You are not alone. The video is in Spanish because that’s the main language there. I also wrote an English translation.

This is the video of my poem:

Here’s the Spanish written version:

Venezuela será libre 💪💗

Voy andando por las calles

Me pregunto qué occure?

Veo los Venezolanos asustados

Les veo llorando y gritando

Me pregunto qué está pasando?

En pocos minutos me doy cuenta qué está pasando

El dictador Maduro está impediendo la ayuda humanitaria y los camiones con alimentos y medicinas en la frontera de Venezuela

Mientras tanto hay gente muriendose en Venezuela

Mi corazón se parte en cachos

Me preguntó porqué se ha llegado a este punto

La violencia sólo mata a personas y no soluciona nada

El amor siempre gana

Va a ver una solución pronto

Juan Guaidó y todo el mundo está con vosotros

Venezuela será libre!

Va a llegar el día en que los Venezolanos puedan vivir en paz

Si hoy luchan

Mañana tendran LA LIBERTAD! 🇻🇪💪💗


Here’s the English translation:

Venezuela will be free 🇻🇪💪💗

I’m walking down the streets

I ask myself what’s happening?

I see the Venezuelans being scared

I see them crying and shouting

I ask myself what’s going on?

In a few minutes I know what’s happening

The dictator Maduro is preventing the humanitarian aid and the trucks with food and medication at the border of Venezuela

Meanwhile people are dying in Venezuela

My heart falls into pieces

I ask myself how did it come so far

Violence only kills people and it doesn’t solve anything

Love always win

There will be a solution soon

Juan Guaidó and the whole world is there for you all

Venezuela will be free

The day will come that the Venezuelans can live in peace

If they fight today

Tomorrow they will have FREEDOM! 🇻🇪💪💗

Thank you all for reading and watching my poem about what’s happening in Venezuela. Do you have heard or read about what’s happening? Did you like my poem? Let me know your opinion. I’m here for you all. We are all in this together always! 💪💗 You are never alone.

Much love 💕,

xoxo Christina

Poem: That’s what real love is 💕

Hey lovelies 💕,

I was just in the mood of writing poetry. I would love to share my last written poem with you all. It’s about loving a person for who they are. I wrote it for myself and for every woman out there who may feel this way. We all want to be loved for being ourselves. I hope you will like this poem.

That’s what real love is 💕

She is vulnerable and sensitive

She is funny but oh so fragile

She is wild and crazy

She is beautiful and smart

She is romantic and creative

She is all you ever wanted

But

She is also the girl who cries herself to sleep

She can feel sad for no reason

She get anxious very fast

She has mood swings

She is sometimes hard to deal with

If you really want to love her you will have to love every part of her because that’s what love is about

Accepting the person for who they are and loving them unconditionally

Then you know it’s real love 💕

Thank you all for reading this poem. I loved writing it. I always get inspired at night. Can you relate to it? Did you like this poem? Would you love to see more poetry that I wrote on my blog? ✨ I would love to know your thoughts. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love 💕,

xoxo Christina

Fear of death

Hey lovelies 💕,

I wrote this post a few months ago. I wanted to share it now with you all. Today I will talk about one of my biggest fears in life and which is also a real trigger for my anxiety. I hope this blog post will not sound that weird but I just need to write my thoughts and feelings about this subject down here. This is the only safe space where I can just vent knowing that every strange thing I will write about will be accepted haha 😂. I’m going to talk about my fear of death. Fear of death is also named thanatophobia. I know I had/have this my whole life.

Since I’ve been little I’ve always been thinking about life and death. I was always wondering about life. Since I began to realise that we’re all going to die one day I completely paralised. It makes my anxiety disorder worse because every time I begin to think about this I feel so anxious. It’s pretty strange too because when I had a panic attack or felt so anxious I remember times I said to myself: “I just want to die. I can’t live with this intense pain anymore.” The thing is, I don’t want to die because I’m afraid of dying. I’m afraid of life too because of anxiety. It’s a constant circle of thoughts. The thought that we are all going to die and that the sun and just this whole world will stop one day too makes me really feel so anxious.

I remember times I was talking with my best friend about this subject and she said to me that she wouldn’t want to live forever. I also think that it will not be great if you see everyone around you dying and you are the only one who lives forever. Maybe, it’s okay that one day everything stops but still it feels scary and strange. I always thought like okay a person can maybe live 100 years so I was always counting how many years that person still could live before they turn 100. I know maybe this sounds really crazy haha but I always do that 😂. Then I think ohhh this person still can live 50 years for example and I get a bit happier about the fact that he/she still has many years to live.

When I’m getting really deep in my thoughts I also begin to think that this life is precious and fragile. One day you live, the next day you die. You never know when it will happen to you. I begin to think how amazing all those little things in life are as seeing the flowers blossom, listening to your favourite music, hearing the waves of the ocean crashing to the shore, listening to the singing of the birds and so many other things that we often take for granted. The fact that we are a human being that lives and breath on this earth is just a beautiful miracle ✨

I have also always been afraid of growing older because of this fear. I know I have to be happy about growing older because not everyone get that privilege. I know so many times that during my childhood kids would say: “I can’t wait to grow older”. I always thought to myself: “I want to stay this little forever.” Growing older for me also meant being bullied at highschool, my first break up, anxiety disorder and so many other problems in life. I loved being little and careless. Every year my birthday arrives I get anxious and begin to think about my life. One year less to live. I also begin to think about the fact that I’m not living the life I want and still not have achieved the things I dream of. I know I’ve time but it just makes me anxious to think of that time is running out.

The worst part of the fear of death is thinking about loosing my parents one day. I think that’s the worst part of it all. I can already feel the tears in my eyes coming. I’m crying right now. This thought sometimes keeps me up at night and I remember so many times that I was crying about this at night. I remember that I googled it so many times. I just don’t know how I would cope without my mother and father. I love them so much. Maybe, this fear comes also from my teenage years where I almost lost my father. When I was 11 years old my father got accute pancreatis because of taking a medicine for high cholestrol. This was a side effect of that medicine. He had to go through 5 surgeries in 5 years of being ill. Basically, they cut a lot of his organs because he had so many complications during these years. I almost lost my father when I was just 11 years old 😢. A few times he was really in life danger and almost died.

I just remember how I was crying and praying that he would live. This fear of death was so real because I just felt it in all my bones. I’m so happy he survived it. He has now diabetics because they also cut his pancreatis to have no infection anymore. He’s living with that illness and hopefully he will live many more years. He still goes to controls every year. Even though I have a better relationship with my mother because she understand me so well I love them both of course. The thought of loosing my father or mother is just the worst. They are the ones who brought you to life and loosing them will make you feel like you are loosing something of yourself.

The worst thing about it is that I know of course that this will happen one day. Also when I think of loosing my best friends, brothers, family members or other loved ones it makes me so unbelievable sad. I don’t want to live in a world without them. I know I will have to. I never went to a funeral until last year in October. Lisa, a girl from my choir, died from leucemia. I went with my mother to this cremation. It was really a beautiful ceremony. I only saw the closed coffin. I’m glad I conquered this fear and went for the first time in my life. I know I will always have this fear but hopefully it will become better within time.

Maybe, death is also our teacher. After I went to this funeral I begin to think about life. When people die around you it teach you that life is fragile and that you only have one life. “Love the life you live. Live the life you love” as Bob Marley says ❤️. We have to always listen to our hearts and follow our dreams. I long of inspiring people and helping other people in need. I want to make this world a better place to live in. I want to travel the world. I have so many dreams that I want to achieve. This life is beautiful and death is part of it. Life is everything between birth and death. I hope I can let my mind become more still and less anxious about this fear of death. Let us all enjoy life and be happy. That’s what matters the most.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. Do you also have a fear of death? Can you relate to it? I would love to know your thoughts of this topic in the comment section. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love 💕,

xoxo Christina

Music of January 🎶💕

Hey lovelies 💕,

I thought it was fun to write such a post as I’ve never done this before. I saw many bloggers writing such a blog post such as my amazing friend Chloe. Her music taste is amazing so everybody has to check out her lovely blog. In this blog post I will share you my favourite music which I listened to in the month January. You may know some of them and some not like my love for Spanish music. I hope you will all enjoy them.

Alfred Garcia – De la tierra hasta marte

Alfred Garcia was participating in the Spanish talent show Operación Triunfo which I love so much 🎤. Alfred Garcia is such an amazing singer, artist and lovely person. He plays piano, guitar and the trombone. During the talent show the 16 people where in an singing academy. This is one song from his new album named 1016. Alfred made 16 songs in the academy and put them together in one album. It’s just incredible that every song is composed by himself. De la tierra hasta marte means from the earth to mars. This is his first single and I love it so much 😍. The videoclip is also beautiful and so is his style.

Alfred Garcia – Album 1016

Here you can listen to all of his songs of his album 1016. I got his album for Three Kings Dat as a present. The number 1016 was his casting number during the talent show. These are all amazing songs which he composed. They are about life, love, cities where he got inspired, letting go and so much more. The inspiration for the picture of his album is a mix of Michael Jackson, David Bowie and Nick Cave. In his eyes you can see a light bulb which is how he call his fans. There’s a song I love so much which is “Que nos sigan las luces” which means “Let the lights follow us”. It’s one of my favourite songs together with “Londres”, “Wonder”, “Et vull veure” in catalan which he sings with Amaia Romero which is one of my other favourite people from the talent show, and “Por si te hace falta”. Every song has so much meaning and is so beautiful. I would love to go soon to one of his concerts and meet Alfred. I love honest, vulnerable and lovely artists as he is. He also suffered from anxiety and depression and always talks open about mental health which inspires me so much. He is always contributing to making this world a better place such as donating money and helping at Proactive arms which saves refugees or other good proyects. Real artists help other people and are there for them 💕. He definitely is.

Operación Triunfo 2018 , 10th live show – Somos

This year there was a new edition of Operación Triunfo and I loved it. This song is the anthem of this edition. Every edition all the 16 people make together one song that belongs to them. This song is talking about revolution, freedom and talking about how this generation is the force and the change. It’s about speaking up after being silenced for so long. I love the good vibes of this song so much 🎶. Makes me really happy when I listen to it.

Julia Michaels ft. Selena Gomez – Anxiety

“I make all these plans with friends and hope they call and cancel

Then I overthink about the things I’m missing

Now I’m wishing I was with ’em

But all my friends, they don’t know what it’s like, what it’s like

They don’t understand why I can’t sleep through the night

I’ve been told that I could take something to fix it

Damn, I wish it, I wish it was that simple, ah

All my friends they don’t know what it’s like, what it’s like

I got all these thoughts, running through my mind

All the damn time and I can’t seem to shut it off”

I love Julia Michaels and Selena Gomez. I’m happy Selena Gomez is back with this song with Julia. This song is such a bop. It’s so beautiful, inspiring and so honest. They both know what it’s to suffer from anxiety. The lyrics is just so relatable. I also cancel plans and then I feel bad for cancelling it because I think my friends will have fun without me. Sleeping is hard too because your mind doesn’t stop thinking. I also love the voices together and the sound. I love this song and I can’t stop playing it. It’s on repeat all the time. I hope they will make a videoclip of this song too.

Julia Michaels – Album Inner Monologue part 1

The song Issues is such a popular song from Julia Michaels which I love so much. Here you can listen to her first 6 songs from her new album. Her album is full of honesty and vulnerability. She talks about love, finding a new love and suffering from anxiety. I really like all of these songs. My favourite song apart from Anxiety is the song called Apple. It has such a nice melody and sound. I also love the song What a time so much together with Niall Horan.

Alvaro Soler – Loca

Alvaro Soler is one of my favourite Spanish artists. I went to one concert and I also met him once with my good friend. He is such a lovely person and artist. His songs are always amazing and full of love. This is one of his new songs called Loca. It’s about love. I love the music video too because Alvaro spent some years living in Tokyo so this video is also filmed there.

Ariana Grande – 7 rings

This song is of course included into this post. I have to admit that I had to listen to this song some times to actually like it because it’s just different than the other songs. I like Thank u, next and God is a woman more. This is also a good song. Ariana only makes good music and she’s just on fire with her music 😍🔥.

James Blake ft. Rosalía – Barefoot in the park

This is such a good song. The voices of James and Rosalía matches perfectly. I love Rosalía so much. She’s a famous Spanish singer, 25 years old, from Catalonia who sings new flamenco, folk and art pop songs. She is doing many colloborations with other international artists such as with James.

Miki, Eurovision Live Show from Operación Triunfo 2018 – La venda

Miki was also participating in the new edition of the talent show Operación Triunfo. There was a live show where Spain had to choose who and which song was going to go to Eurovision. I voted for Miki because I just love this song so much. Miki is so handsome and cute. I also love this song so much. This song is made by the Catalian band La Pegatina. Miki performs so well and bring only good vibes to the audience. I really hope this song will make a good position in Eurovision in May. This song is all about fiesta and about letting go of prejudices and just loving yourself. It’s a beautiful up tempo song which makes me so happy when I listen to it 💃.

Lady Gaga & Bradley Cooper – Shallow

In January I finally saw the beautiful movie “A star is born”. I couldn’t leave this song out in this music list. I have listened to this song for months now. It’s so beautiful. I love it so much. Their love story is also beautiful and this song fits perfectly for the movie and the story.

Taylor Swift – Love Story

This song is already 10 years old omgggg so many years 😂. It’s still one of my favourite songs of Taylor Swift 😍. I love her new album “Reputation” and I also bought it but I just can’t stop loving her old songs. It makes me nostalgic because I listened so much to her songs when I was together with my first love. I loved this song and “Fairytale”. I listened to this song during the movie “Letters to Juilet.” It’s such a beautiful song. I can’t stop loving it. The clip is also so cute and wonderful.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope you all liked it. I love to share music too because music is life. Which song was your favourite? Can you relate to my list? Which song/songs were you listening this month? I’m always in to discover new beautiful music. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love 💕,

xoxo Christina

January favourites 💞

Hey lovelies 💕,

I never did such a post before so I thought it’s the right time to do it. I got inspired by Chloe who mentioned it on one of her last blog posts. I also see it many times by other bloggers such as by my lovely friend Elsie. I think it’s fun to write a favourites post every time at the end of the month. Hopefully, I can stick with it. We will see ✌️ I will write about my favourites things this month such as some things I did, the things I bought, my favourite movies/series and television shows I’ve watched.

Most important things I did:

Three Kings day in Spain

I celebrated the Three Kings day also called Los Reyes Magos in Spain. I went to the parade on the 5th of January in Valladolid. It was beautiful to see. They also threw delicious sweets. I got some of them. At the end, there were fireworks which were so beautiful to see 🎆🎉 It’s typical to eat a roscon on the 6th of January which is a delicious sweet which you can see on the pictures. This day we got presents. I got the amazing CD of Alfred Garcia which I know from the Spanish talentshow Operación Triunfo.

Celebration of my friend’s birthday

I also celebrated the birthday of one of my good Spanish friends on the second of January. She was very happy with my presents 🎁. I bought her a make up set, perfume and a card with a polaroid picture of us. We ate delicious potatoes in 100 montaditos with our friends. The food is very cheap there and on Wednesdays everything is just only €1. We also went to the new Burger King and enjoyed a meal. I like to go to Burger King or McDonald’s but just once in a while because I know it isn’t good for your health.

Enjoying the first time snowing this year in The Netherlands

The first snow in The Netherlands was on the 22th of January. I made some amazing pictures which I also shared in my last blog post. I love snow. It makes the landscape so beautiful, magical and dreamy 😍❄️⛄ Nature is amazing.

Most important things I bought:

Stationery stuff and body lotion

I bought some stationery stuff last week in my favourite shop in The Netherlands which is the Action. I bought a cute sticker book with lots of amazing stickers. I love that so much. I also use it in my letters to pen pals, friends or family. I also bought a set of 12 postcards. I bought washi tape which I’m so addicted to buy. I bought one with a Valentine’s day print which covers lots of hearts. I bought stickers with a Summer theme which I like so much. It definitely sums up how much I love Summer. Lastly, I bought body lotion from Dove with smells like sea butter and vanilla. It’s so good to use this after showering or after having a bath.

Two vouchers to eat Mexican food in The Hague

I bought two vouchers through Social Deal to eat Mexican food at Havana in The Hague. That’s such a nice restaurant and also a bar where I went many times with my friend to dance. I’m looking forward to eat dinner there with one of my good friends 🌮💕. We didn’t see each other since October so it’s really time to catch up and meet up again. You can choose to eat fajitas, nachos, burritos, and have a delicious dessert such as churros, ice cream with chocolate sause and cream, or any other delicious dessert. I love Mexican food but I always ask to not give me anything spicy because my stomach can’t deal with that.

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Two vouchers to eat a delicious lunch at Cups and Leafs in Haarlem

Last weekend I also bought two vouchers via Social Deal to have a nice lunch with my best friend at Cups and Leafs. Cups and Leafs is a lovely tea and lunchroom in my home city Haarlem. I didn’t see my best friend since December. This deal is also three plates. The first plate is a soup, for the second one you can choose a bread with you want on it such as mozarella-pesto, chicken, just anything and have a dessert. I can’t wait to go and I will show you the pictures of the food and the nice time I had.

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A voucher to win a travel dream of €3000

While I was scrolling on Social Deal looking for places to eat I saw this deal. It was for free and you just had to click on it. I have now a voucher. In March they will announce the winner. You could win €3000 to use it for travelling or for anything you want. I would LOVE to win this! Who doesn’t love to win money?! I will of course use it for travelling as I want to see so much more of this beautiful world we live in. It will be difficult to win as there are thousands of people entering but you never know if you don’t try it. Wish me luck haha! 🤞🍀

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Movies:

A star is born

I finally saw the beautiful movie A star is born. I wish I’ve seen it sooner because it’s such a great movie. Bradley Cooper and Lady Gaga are amazing actors. They also sing so beautiful. I’ve loved all the songs so much. I don’t want to spoil many details for the people who haven’t seen the movie. It’s about a difficult relationship where he is addicted. Addiction is a real illness and I really hope everyone gets the help they deserve. It’s horrible to see your loved one going through that. Lady gaga is just beginning her music career in the movie. I loved how natural we see her. The songs are beautiful especially the song “Shallow” which I already listened to so many times. That’s going to be one of my favourite songs ever.

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The persuit of happiness

I saw this beautiful movie with my parents two weeks ago. I loved this movie. There was this beautiful quote which I’m going to share right here below. I loved the relationship between Will Smith and his little son. It was beautiful to see. This movie was also heartbreaking because it makes you think about life. It’s hard to know and see that there are so many people and children living on the streets. This really needs to end. I hope that we can all make a change to make this world a better place to live in 🌍. I loved the life lessons I’ve learned while watching this movie. You will see that even if you loose everything in your life and you fail, you are going to stand up and can follow your dreams. If you work hard you can make your biggest and wildest dreams come true ✨.

Letters to Juilet

I already saw this movie some time ago but I wanted to watch it again with my lovely mother. It’s about a girl named Sophie who dreams of being a writer and travels to Verona in Italy where she meets the “Secretaries of Juilet”. There’s a place in Verona where everyone leaves their letters to lovers or exes. The “Secretaries of Juilet” write all these people back. Sophie found a letter which is 50 years old from Claire and write her back. Then Claire and her nephew come to Verona to go on a trip with Sophie who is engaged. Claire wants to find her Lorenzo, first love, after 50 years. I really loved this love story. You have to see it yourself. It’s amazing. I always cry watching romantic movies because I love them so much. I wish my life would be like a movie with a happy ending. I also like the songs in the movie which are from Colbie Caillat and my favourite song Love Story from Taylor Swift.

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Series and television shows I have watched:

Pretty Little Liars

It has been such a long time since I watched again Pretty Little Liars. I was left at the first episodes of season 5 so I started watching it from there. I watched whole season 5. I still need to watch season 6 and 7. I’m also very excited for the spin-off of Pretty Little Liars which is called The Perfectionists. Pretty Little Liars is a TV serie which is developed by I.Marlene King. The serie is based on the book series by Sara Shepard. The series is about 4 girls, Aria, Hanna, Emily and Spencer who are investigating the disappearence of Alison. They begin to receive messages from someone mysterious who’s called “A” and threatens them all the time and wants to expose their deepest secrets. They have to found out who “A” is. The show is played in Rosewood. Sometimes I get so scared so I better not watch it again at night. It’s still a show about mistery and murder. If I heard something in my home I got scared after watching this serie hahah 😂.

First dates (UK)

I have been watching First Dates a lot with my parents. It’s every day of the week except during the weekend. We were watching last year First Dates from The Netherlands but know they only let us see the one from UK. It’s about couples who meet up and have a blind date together. They enjoy having a delicious dinner together and get to know each other. It’s very funny and nice to watch it. Sometimes they really like each other and sometimes it doesn’t end well hahaha 😂.

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Searching a dream house

I love to watch this show too with my parents. It’s every Friday. It’s about Dutch families who are searching their dream house in another country. It can be Africa, Spain, Portugal, Italy or anywhere else in the world. They let the family see three houses and then the family chooses one house which they are thinking to buy. I love it. You see such amazing countries, houses and cities. I would love to be able to one day buy my own dream house in Spain 😍🇪🇸.

Heel Holland Bakt (Whole Holland is baking)

Heel Holland Bakt is an amazing show we watch every Sunday. There is just one week left for the big final. It’s about 10 bakers who every Sunday bake. There are 3 excersises. They make such beautiful pies, cookies and just everything. I wish I could bake that well. The pies look and must be so delicious. Every week one concursant has to go away and one of them is considered the master baker. I think this show is also in more countries than just in Holland.

Thank you all for reading my blog post. I hope you enjoyed reading my January favourites. It was really fun to write. I hope to stick with this every month. What were your favourites from my list? What did you enjoy this month? Did you also watched anything of my list? Let me know. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love 💕,

xoxo Christina