We meet everyone for a reason βœ¨

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

Good news! ☺️ I feel somehow much better than some weeks ago were I really didn’t see the light at all and felt hopeless in life. It sounds pretty depressing but feeling anxious 24/7, feeling like you can’t breath, being nauseous all the time is really a hell. I hate anxiety so much 😭. It strange that I feel better now here I’m here in Holland because I’m always happier in Spain. To be honest, I never felt so low, depressed and anxious in Spain. I think because I associate it with going to the dentist which I didn’t do. I know it wasn’t a good idea to isolate myself for more than a week at home. In this blog post I will tell you about someone special I met on the airplane ✈️ back to Holland from Spain. I will tell you also some other travel stories. Oh how I love travelling 🌍. It’s the best and on those moments I can distract myself from my anxiety and meet people who really will change my life. I have to document these moments here on my blog because I’m afraid that otherwise I won’t remember them anymore. They are too precious to forget about them. In the moments that I felt so bad I even thought about not blogging anymore for a time but then I thought that would be a loss because that’s what I love to do the most. I have to keep doing the things I love to do or I would feel worse. Everything which brings me positivity is important to do πŸ’«.

So before I talk about the flight of a week ago back to Holland I want to talk about the flight I took in September. I was in Spain πŸ‡ͺπŸ‡Έ during the whole Summer and my mother and I got back to Holland in September. There was this guy sitting next to my mother in the other row who looked very friendly. He was around 36 years old. We had such good talks. He talked about how I could maybe find a job in Holland in a Dutch company and from there find a job in Spain. He said that I didn’t have to be insecure. He was Spanish and was working and living in The Netherlands. He gave me so much inspiration and so much good vibes, just what I needed in that moment. He told me that he was bullied too at school just like me. He told me that I’m a smart girl which can speak three languages: Spanish, English and Dutch and also graduated my studies. I know he is right about that. It’s just that I always feel so insecure and have a low self esteem. I guess that’s because of anxiety too. I never know what to do when people compliment me or say that I’m pretty. I got his FB but now never spoke again to him. I really liked talking to him with my mother.

Then I went again to Spain a few weeks ago with my mother. I was sitting next to a girl from Uruguay. I also have her Instagram now, haha I hope people don’t think I’m desperate to meet new people. This is just me being myself. My mother is also social as I’m. I’m not that girl who loves to isolate herself. It’s what my mental illness does to me. We talked a lot about the world, her country and my countries. We had such a nice talk. I always love to talk to people from different countries as we can learn so much from them.

So a week ago, we travelled back from Spain to Holland. I’ve never been that anxious to travel even though I’m always scared of flying. It’s just because I have felt so low all this time. I took valium many nights to sleep and also a bit for flying. I was just so afraid of having a panic attack and of course that didn’t happen. Most things we fear don’t happen, it’s just our minds which are playing tricks with us. Before we were at the airport we met a lovely woman at the train station. She talked about the political situation in Spain and said she is a journalist. She even gave her number to us and said that whenever we are in Madrid again we can drink something with her. Things like this always remind me of how many good people there are in this world ❀️🌍.

Later at the airport my mother saw a man who she knew from when she was working as a stewardess in a Spanish airline. He was working in the cafe we ordered a salad. What another beautiful coincidence was that I met my lovely Spanish teachers at the gate where I was waiting with my mother to fly to Holland. They came back in the same airplane and were just about to go to a conference. I didn’t see them anymore since I graduated my studies European Studies. I love them all so much πŸ’ž. I really miss that feeling of being a student in my life right now because I feel lost now in the big world. I told them something about being anxious and they told me that I’m a smart girl and that every little step is a step forward. I could also keep networking. I know finding a job in Spain is more difficult than in Holland as there’s more unemployment in Spain and for jobs in the public sector you need to pass a difficult exam which can take years. They still remembered how I spoke at the United Nations and did my internship at the University of Valladolid. We took a selfie and they would show it to another teacher which I also love so much.

Now comes the most important story I wanted to tell from the first place. I hope I didn’t ramble way too much haha πŸ˜‚. A week ago was the best flight I have ever had in my life because of someone special I met. You all know I’m a romantic and highly sensitive girl. I make up so many stories in my mind which is how I imagine the world to be, that rainbow coloured world where people are happy, flowers blossom and the sun is always shining πŸ˜πŸ’πŸŒžπŸŒˆ. That is the world which only exists in movies, books or in my mind. It’s pretty curious because maybe a week before I already dreamt of meeting a boy sitting next to me in the airplane. So I was already nervious thinking who is going to sit next to me at the window seat when a guy was going to sit next to me. We immediately begin to talk with no end. My mother also talked to him and find him very friendly and open.

It was one the most intense, beautiful, honest and inspiring talks I’ve ever had in my life ✨. I have had some really good talks in my life with people I love but with a stranger who you just met in the airplane not. This guy was so lovely, so cute and just so amazing 😍. Can you fall in love at first sight? πŸ’˜ I know I’m always so intense and have to be careful to not get my heart broken again but this connection we had in those few hours was so strong. We looked at each other many times. He listened carefully to what I had to say and me too. We talked about our lifes. He smiled a lot. We laughed a lot and made jokes. It’s in times that I haven’t felt such a strong connection with someone. He is an artist, 33 years old and works and study in the film industry 🎬. He has to travel a lot and goes to film events to present his documentaries. I find all of that so interesting. I love creative people with an open mind.

He loved my bracelets and touched them. We talked about our exes and everything. I’m always so open and sometimes that can be bad but I guess this day it was okay because he was also so open about everything, political view, his life and values. The way he looked at me made me nervous as I really felt such a strong attraction. It’s been so long that I didn’t have felt that. What I also loved about this guy is that he was honest and seemed sensitive. He also reminded me of a friend of me in Spain. He made me feel so calm and so peaceful. When I told him about how my ex wanted that I had to wear high heels because that would make me confident as he said, he said that it was wrong to change someone. He is so right because for me wearing high heels makes me feel unconfident.

Then we also talked about where he came from which is Basque country. I have my Spanish family living there too. We both had long distance relationships. Everything was such a coincidence and we seemed so similar as I’m also creative. He told me about that he also enjoyed surfing and swimming in the ocean. What I loved the most about our talk was when we began to talk about spirituality. I’m so in to that and not all my friends are. Since I’m reading the book “To love and let go” from Yoga Girl, I’m even more into that. I don’t think I believe in all things but I love astrology, the law of attraction and I believe the universe gives us what we want at the moment we need it πŸ™. He was talking about Ayahuasca ceremony. I don’t think I would ever try it as I think it would be dangerous for a person suffering from a mental illness. He told me I could do that but I didn’t told him all about my anxiety. It’s a kind of tea you drink where you go through a spiritual journey. You feel like you are going to die and then at the end you find the light again. I also read that in the book of Yoga Girl. It sounds very intense and it would make me so anxious to be honest.

This guy also told me that he did a tarrot reading. I always was very skeptical of it but somehow I feel like I could believe in it a bit. He told me he was an Emperor and that means that he likes to make feel people safe and make his dreams come true. I told him that once I was told to be a Mediator or helper and he said that fits me well. He is also an aquarius β™’ as zodiac sign and I’m geminis and I know that those zodiac signs are compatible. A friend of him also told him that he could get along well with geminis β™Š. I really like to believe in that.

I just felt so in the moment during this beautiful talk. I wish the flight would never have ended. I always get attached so much to people. I have his number and wrote him a message that it was nice to meet him and sent him some pictures we made. I really do hope we will meet each other again as he lives in Amsterdam until next Summer. He gave me a kiss on the cheek which is a normal Spanish way of greeting and also a hug. I never felt such a strong connection with someone. I do believe we meet all the people in life for a reason. They will teach us something. He texted me back a few days later and said he loved to have met me in the airplane too. He said seldom you find such honest and genuine people like me. He is thankful to have met me and also thanks me for the pictures I sent him. I also sent him a text back a few days later and told him the same. I also said that if he ever wants to meet up he can say that to me. The thing is, I also don’t want to be needy or obsessive as I can be really intense. I learned that from being in a relationship with my first love and other crushes. I do believe that whatever will be, will be. We don’t have to force anything. Anything which is meant to come into your life will come without forcing situations.

This universe is beautiful 🌌✨. This life is beautiful. I’m just so thankful for these special moments as they come in the moments I most need them. It’s like the universe is saying to me that my story isn’t over yet and that I can be happy and that good things will come my way. I really also know that I don’t have to get my hopes up but I just feel this fuzzy and warm feeling in my heart. I’m so thankful for everything. Thank you life for the hard and beautiful lessons. It reminds me that we are all here for a reason. I need to believe more in the universe and let it unfold itself. Stop controlling. Letting life flow. I just feel my heart full of gold right now 🌟.

“I believe in the good things coming πŸ’•”

Thank you all for reading this inspiring and long post. I felt very inspired to write this. What do you think of all of this? Do you believe we meet people for a reason? Are you a spiritual person? Do you believe in love at first sight? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina


15 thoughts on “We meet everyone for a reason βœ¨

  1. This is such an inspirational post….it’s so lovely your getting out there in the world..meeting new
    people, I believe one day you’ll meet someone who loves you for who you are, no matter what fear you may endure β™₯️ They sound like pretty awesome guys Hopefully next year I’ll be travelling to meet different people and learn a different language 😊 …take care…thanks for sharing πŸ’›πŸ’šπŸ’™β€οΈπŸ§‘ πŸ˜ƒ

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    1. Awhhh thank you so much lovely! 😘 I really do want to believe that there’s someone out there for all of us. We all deserve love. Love is the most beautiful thing in life. I hope you will go to amazing places too. Travelling is amazing! 😍🌍 You are so welcome lovely. Lots of love ❀️❀️❀️

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  2. Awww Christina, this was such a lovely post!! It’s so nice that you’ve met people who inspire you ✨ and even if you don’t stay in contact with them you were smart and got the details to do it so the option is there when you feel up to it πŸ˜„ Couldn’t stop smiling as I read this, it’s nice to see you so happy, the universe definitely knew you were in need of cheering up and you went ahead and made it happen by being open to sharing yourself with these people, hopefully this will happen a million times more ❀️xx

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    1. Thank you so much for your sweet message Elsie! πŸ’ž I really appreciate your beautiful and kind words. You are so right. Those talks really inspired me and I also needed them whether they want to stay in touch with me or not. It’s always nice to meet open-minded and authentic people in this world. You are so right. The universe always has our back ✨ I hope so too. I also hope to meet you one day and have beautiful talks with you. I’m so happy to know you and for being my friend. Love you 😘 xoxo

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  3. This was so inspirational and such a lovely read – I truly do believe everything happens for a reason. Reading your posts it’s always so good to see that you can distinguish your mental illness from reality e.g. “Most things we fear don’t happen, it’s just our minds playing tricks on us”. The story of you meeting that man is so beautiful and I’m so, so happy for you, sometimes all it takes is one person to change our whole perception on things. The world is beautiful ❀️ I’m proud of you for always being yourself. You are so amazing. Love you .xx

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    1. Thank you beautiful for your lovely words 😍 I’m happy you liked reading this post. Means the world to me. Yes you are so right. However, when I’m in a bad moment it’s easier to think that all the things we fear will most likely happen but of course if we think realistic it can’t be true. That’s so true! ✨ It’s nice to meet people so honest because we can learn so much of them. I’m so blessed to be friends with you so thank you universe β€οΈπŸ™ You are the kindest. Love you so much 😘 xoxo

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  4. I’m glad you’re feeling better.
    and WOWWW. I would love to meet you in a plane, you’d make long flights less boring and amazing. I’m very introverted but I feel like we’d click as good friends though!! ❀

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    1. Thank you so much for reading πŸ’•πŸ™. I’m also happy to feel a bit more positive. I’m sure we could be good friends. I’m between introvert and extrovert, depend on the situation.

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  5. I LOVE THIS SO MUCH! I’ve already seen the short version on your instagram but I’m so glad you shared this amazing connection with us! This is sucha faith in humanitu restored kinda story omg! I hope so much more can blossom from this encounter! Ahhh i am so happy for you christina!!

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    1. Awhhh thank you so much lovely! πŸ’• Yes you are so right. We need to have more connections like this in real life as they are so needed. I’m so happy with your sweet words. I also hope something more come from this but at least the universe is giving me some signs when I needed it the most. Love you πŸ’•

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