I faced my fear of going to the dentist for my wisdom teeth removal πŸ’ͺ🦷

Hola lovelies πŸ’ž,

This blog post is going to be so important for me because I have had this fear for three years almost and kept postponing it. This blog post is about my wisdom teeth removal which happened today 🦷. While my mother is sleeping and I’m resting in bad I’m writing this blog post. I’m also crying because I feel so relieved. I’m so proud of myself.

So today I faced one of my biggest fears in life which is going to the dentist to get my wisdom teeth out 🦷. One of them is out now. Still three to go but at least this is done. Gotta love Spanish dentists who understand my anxiety and who are just so lovely. Also never mind my face is big because of the anesthesia. You can see that on the picture below. I basically had no choice to go today because I don’t want anyone forcing me in Holland. It’s more expensive there and they also do it in the hospital. I find hospitals even more scary 😒. It reminds me when my dad was there and almost died.

I got a trauma from going to the dentist for a root canal treatment in The Netherlands because I got called childish and 15 years old. That resulted in me having a panic attack. That’s not a good way to treat your patients. I know they are not all like that but that experience just made me soooo anxious. There are good and bad dentists and doctors everywhere. You just have to find the right one. Finding one you can trust is so important πŸ’–πŸ€ž It really makes you more calm which is exactly what I need. That’s the most important thing.

I was so anxious the past days. I couldn’t sleep well last night and kept feeling anxious and nauseous. Today I woke up crying and really didn’t want to go but I know I had to. It’s bad when a fear is keeping you from living your life for so long. It’s been three years and it’s a miracle that I didn’t have any infections just yet. My mother said today that they changed the appointment to 4 o’clock in the afternoon instead of 7 o’clock in the afternoon. In fact it was much better because I always wake up so late so it would make me have less time worrying, crying and being anxious. I almost didn’t eat because I didn’t want to vomit because of anxiety. I drank water, some cookies and that’s it. I also took half of Valium πŸ’Š.

I’m SO happy I went here in Spain. They are understanding and know how to deal with people who have anxiety. I took anti anxiety meds before. When I arrived at the clinic today they gave me a tila which is a Spanish tea to calm you down 🍡. I was like wow what a service thank you so much. Then they said the dentist wasn’t still there haha he was eating, lol typical Spanish times πŸ˜‚ Then it was time for me to do it. I almost didn’t felt the anesthesia. I remember from Holland that I felt it. They also give me something to squeeze haha a little shark 🦈 . They calmed me down with some breathing exercises like breathing slowly. This definitely helps so much. I tasted something like pepermint which was nice. I closed my eyes too which was better they said. It was the dentist and a woman who helped him. They were both so friendly.

Then they said I would feel like a bee 🐝 was pricking me but I almost felt nothing. That was done and then the dentist took the teeth away. My head was going left lol so I had to change my position and said sorry they were like no it’s okay. I’m always so used to say sorry for everything. I didn’t feel anything only that it took some strength to get that fucking wisdom teeth gone πŸ˜‚ That teeth was being mean haha but at the end the dentist won yeahhhh πŸ’ͺ🀣 Lucky man πŸ€ I saw it and he told me if I want to bring it home lol I said no way. Some people want to save it.

I didn’t even noticed the anesthesia at all. It was so smoothly all. In less than 15 minutes it was all down. I didn’t want that 🦷 teeth so they threw it away 🀣. I told them I love them very much and they said the same to me 😍😭. They said I was being really brave. Those words meant so much I could cry there. The dentist is also very handsome haha. That’s just a big plus πŸ’–. I’m not falling in love or am I lol cray cray πŸ˜‚. I would love to meet one day someone who would love me the way my dentist treated me today. I just want people in my life who treat me with kindness, compassion and understanding. I don’t ask for much more.

I have to go again next week to know if everything is okay and to know that I have no infections. I know it isn’t fun going to the dentist but maybe this experience will somehow also make me overcome this fear of the dentist. I feel like this is a learning like Yoga Girl would say. This is much more than just a wisdom teeth removal. This experience made me believe again in the good in people. I think in some way the universe is giving me all these experiences with good people to cover up all the bad experiences in the past like being bullied and having a broken heart.

Now, I got prescribed antibiotics, ibuprofen for pain and another medicine for darmflora because antibiotics can also have some side effects. I hope I won’t have too much pain and these meds will help πŸ™. I’m not a person who takes a lot of antibiotics. In The Netherlands they would not give you antibiotics. I also thought it’s strange to take that before I have an infection but it’s better. The health care system in Spain is really good and I love their professionality. I also love that it feels like you are talking with a friend lol πŸ˜‚πŸ’– I wouldn’t say in Holland that I love them so much. There you give the doctors a hand. Here my mother gave him two kisses wishing them happy new year πŸ˜‚πŸŽ‰. I think that also helps to decrease anxiety. I don’t like people being so serious. Life is already hard enough. We need more fun and laughs.

I don’t have to spit for a day and the meds I should take

Maybe this isn’t a big deal for some people but for me it is. I want to be real about my struggles in life online and in real life. I have been with this fear for so many years that I really feel a weight is off my shoulders. I know I’m not done with it but at least one 🦷 is out byebye. I still have to get rid of three. Little by little they will be gone. This definitely increased my confidence. I’m so proud of myself. Anxiety didn’t win today. I won today πŸ’ͺ I called my daddy and he was really happy I went. I know my family wants best for us. He doesn’t want that I have an infection. Everything is well. I know my anxiety tells me so many stuff which isn’t true. At the end, this fear was worse than the thing itself. It’s always the same but that’s anxiety. I thought even that I was going to die or have a panic attack but nothing happened.

I’m thankful that there exists people who are human, understanding and have compassion because that’s really what this world needs 🌍. We need more kind people. Kindness is never a weakness but a strength. I’m not afraid anymore to show my sensitivity because it’s makes me human. I know that there always will be good people πŸ’–πŸ’–

I’m also so thankful for all the people who have always been there for me, my good friends, my family, all the people I met online like my lovely bloggers, pen pals, people from The Yoga Girl Community and The Goddess community. I couldn’t have done this without all of you. Thank you for your endless support. We can achieve anything we want with the help of others. We are never alone πŸ’– I’m so blessed to have you all in my life. We are all in this together πŸ’ͺ

Thank you all for reading this blog post. Do you also have a fear which you keep postponing? Do you also had to get rid of a wisdom teeth? What do think of my story? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all soon in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina


17 thoughts on “I faced my fear of going to the dentist for my wisdom teeth removal πŸ’ͺ🦷

    1. Thank you so much beautiful 😍 I appreciate your support so much. So true and hopefully I will keep beating anxiety step by step πŸ’ͺ I’m also always here for you. Love you πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–

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  1. Wait, I don’t know if I have missed it or not, but is it required for you to get rid of the other three? 😱

    And you’re right. It’s so hard to find a doctor that you can trust. So hard to find a dentist also who won’t β€œhurt” you as much as the others. If it makes sense. Hahaha some dentists hands are just really light..?? If it makes sense 🀣

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    1. Hahaha yes πŸ˜‚ I would prefer to not get rid of them but I have to do it because they are all with caries. The two lower wisdom teeth are half in them so that effects my gum. It’s better to get rid of them so that they don’t cause other problems in the future. I’m happy when it’s all done but for now I’m proud that I did one. I prefer to do it one by one as it’s also better for my anxiety. The dentist said the same thing. So true! Hahaha it’s true, it’s even better if he is as handsome as the one I have now πŸ˜‚πŸ˜ I trust him with my whole heart πŸ’–. I guess it will never be fully pain free but I almost didn’t feel anything so I’m really relieved about that

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  2. I am so proud of you !!! WELL DONE ANGEL. Seriously, this is such a big step for you and I am so proud πŸ’— I knew you could do it. That quote you included by Spencer Johnson is so so true, I always try and remind myself of that every time I’m freaking out about something. Nothing is ever as bad as we make it seem in our heads. Love you .xx

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    1. Awhhh thank you so much beautiful!!!! 😍 Your support and friendship means everything to me. You know how much I was struggling with this. It’s not over yet as I still have to get rid of three wisdom teeth but I do it all in little steps. That way it’s better to not get more overwhelmed by anxiety. Yes that quote is just perfect! I can totally relate to it. It’s just difficult when we are dealing with a lot of anxiety. Our minds can be a dangerous place to live in. Sometimes we just need a little help from the people we love to focus on other things. Most of the times everything will turn around just fine. I’m always here for you πŸ’– Love you so much xoxo

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  3. I am so happy you are confronting this fear! I know it is not easy for you, but you can now see that you can do anything and get through any problem! Very proud of you!

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    1. Thank you so much Kojo! πŸ’– You have always been there to support me and cheer me up. I can’t thank you enough. I’m feeling so loved and so blessed. You are so right. We are all in this together always πŸ’ͺ

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