Music of January πŸŽΆπŸŒΊπŸŒΈ

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

I listened to some amazing music in January. I will share all the new music which has been released that month in this post. I hope you will like it. I love the new album of Selena Gomez 😍. There are so many amazing songs in it. Also some other Spanish songs has been released such as from Rosalía and Shakira.

Lizzo – Good as hell

I just listened to this song because in the Spanish talent show OperaciΓ³n Triunfo some participants were singing it. I’m always late too listening to some songs haha. I really love this song so much! So much girl power! πŸ’ͺπŸ’œ More songs of this style please.

Jonas Brothers – What a man gotta do

The Jonas Brothers are on fire lately! 😍πŸ”₯ They are releasing so many good songs. I love this song and the video is so catchy too. I also really LOVE that their wives are in so many videoclips. It’s so cute. I wish to go to one of their concerts and sing and dance along every song of them.

John Legend – Conversations in the dark

”I won’t ever try to change you, change you
I will always want the same you, same you
Swear on everything I pray to
That I won’t break your heart
I’ll be there when you get lonely, lonely
Keep the secrets that you told me, told me
And your love is all you owe me
And I won’t break your heart

I don’t listen to John Legend that much but sometimes I hear a song I really love like this one. He is such a great artist. This song is so beautiful and touching. I love how he writes about love and how this music just make you feel that love. I feel a bit alone too while listening to this song because of being single. Deep down I crave for that one true love.

India Menzel ft. Evan Rachel Wood – Show yourself (Frozen 2)

”Show yourself
Step into your power
Throw yourself
Into something new
You are the one you’ve been waiting for
All of my life
All of your life
Oh, show yourself”

When I watched Frozen 2 I felt completely in love with this song and everything in this scene 😍✨. I relate to this song so much. I have to show myself more instead of hiding in this world. I hide myself because of being bullied in my teens. I am worth it and have the right to love and show myself. We all have our answers in ourselves. We just have to look into our hearts and find it. This song is just so wonderful. Frozen is amazing.

Kacey Musgraves – All is found (Frozen 2)

I find this song so relaxing and so beautiful too. I love Disney for their beautiful movies such as Frozen and for the beautiful music such as this song. It’s so touching and cute.

Taylor Swift – Only the young

While I was watching the amazing documentary of Taylor Swift called Miss Americana I heard this new song for the first time πŸ’–. I wrote about her documentary in this post. This song is SO GOOD!!! It’s a song with a message. We are the genereation who can save and change this world 🌍πŸ’ͺ. We may be young but we can do it! We have the right to speak up about anything we believe in.

Eva – Let’s twist again (OperaciΓ³n Triunfo 2020)

I love this Spanish talent show so I will share some nice covers which they sing in the liveshows. I love how Eva sang Let’s twist again by Chubby Checker. She did it so well and so good. She was wearing clothes from her grandfather haha so awesome! I love her expression and everything. Such a good performance. I wish I would feel so comfortable singing on that stage.

RosalΓ­a – Juro que

AAAHHH RosalΓ­a is back with some beautiful flamenco music! πŸ’ƒ It’s about a flamenco girl who was physically and verbally abused. She is back to her roots and I love it. I also love when she make songs in the genre of reggeaton but I love these kinds of songs more in her style.

Shakira ft. Anuel AA – Me gusta

I can’t wait for more new music of Shakira. I love her old songs so much such as Waka Waka and La Bicicleta. I also like this song. It’s catchy.

Selena Gomez – Rare

Finally Selena is back with a new album! πŸ’• I have missed her. She is such a good and genuine artist. She already released the amazing songs Loose you to love me and Look at her now. I love her new music. I will share my top three favourite songs of her new album with you.

Selena Gomez – Rare

I know that I’m special”

Beautiful song! This videoclip is also so beautiful. I love the colours, her being in nature and her dress. She is so special and so beautiful 🌸. We are all special in our own way. I love the message of this song so much. It also sounds so good. It’s really her style.

Selena Gomez – People you know

We used to be close, but people can go
From people you know to people you don’t
And what hurts the most is people can go

Another amazing song of Selena. I really feel this way too. We all loose people in our lives whether that is due to falling apart, grief or anything else πŸ’”. I find it hard sometimes to let people go but sometimes it’s for the best. Her voice is so beautiful. I love the beat in this song too.

Selena Gomez ft. 6LACK – Crowded room

This is such a relaxing song. I can feel those vibes. I love it when she sings those high notes. It all sounds so good.

BTS – Black Swan (Performed by MN Dance Company)

I cried while watching this beautiful, amazing and inspiring music video of the new song Black Swan by BTS 🦒. This is real music. It feels like the guy dancing feels like not fitting in with the others and is doing his own dance. That’s what I feel while watching it. I love the instruments and just everything. The dancers are amazing. So incredible beautiful! This is real art.

G. Soul – Bad habit

While I was listening to Black Swan I saw this song from G.Soul. Nice song. I don’t listen that much to K-pop but I really like this song and the beats of it.

The Original Rudeboys – Hypocrite

I’M SO HAPPY THEY ARE BACK! β˜ΊοΈπŸ‘ I missed them so much. I loved listening to their music. The Original Rudeboys was the support act of The Script some years ago when I went to see them. I love the songs Stars in my eyes, Travelling man and Blue eyes. I love this new song of them. They make such great music together and sing very well. I can’t wait for more music of them this year.

Racoon – Het is al laat toch

Racoon is one of my fav bands of The Netherlands. They are so talented. I loved when I saw them live in Haarlem once. I’m happy they are making music again. I really like this new song. I normally don’t like that much when Dutch artists sing in Dutch but sometimes it’s really good like this time haha. I just am more used to listening songs in English or in Spanish.

Thank you so much for reading this blog post and listening to these amazing songs. Which song is your favourite? What kind of music do you listen to? What was your favourite song from January? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

January favourites 2020 πŸŽ‰πŸ₯°βœ¨

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

It takes me a long time to finally begin to write this post because I have been sick since Thursday night. I was vomiting 🀒 and had diarrhea and it was really the worst 😭. I think it was a stomach flu. Today is the first day that I’m eating again. I drank some soup, bread and my lovely mother made a soup with veggies and potatoes. It’s the time of the year to get sick. I hope you are all doing well and are healthy. We always appreciate our health the most when we are sick. We really take it for granted many times. I do the same. I did a lot of nice things in January which I love to share with you all. I will share about the birthday celebration with my friend in Spain πŸ‡ͺπŸ‡Έ, Three King’s Day πŸŽ‰, eating delicious tapas with my friend in The Netherlands and faced one of my biggest fears. In this post I will tell you all about it.

Things I did with my lovely family πŸ‘ͺ:

Watching the beautiful Christmas lights in Valladolid πŸŽ„βœ¨

Hhaha this is the last time I will mention Christmas in one of my blog posts until it’s Christmas time again πŸ˜‚. In Spain they let the lights until Three King’s Day which is the 6th of January. I love to walk around the city that time of the year with my mother because it’s soooo beautiful 😍. In Valladolid there are way more lights than in Haarlem. The city centre is beautiful. The plaza mayor where the city hall is full of lights πŸŽ„βœ¨, a Christmas tree and some attractions for the kids. On the city hall you can read the words Feliz AΓ±o 2020 which means happy new year.

Celebrating Three King’s Day πŸŽ‰

I love to celebrate Three King’s Day. I have so many celebrations because I’m bilingual. On the 5th of January my mother and I saw the procession of the Tree Kings. They were throwing candies 🍭🍬 and greeting the children. There’s also loads of music. It’s a big fiesta in Spain. The shops are open until midnight so that the parents can buy their presents. There were also beautiful fireworks πŸŽ†. The next day, I eat a roscon de reyes which is some delicious sweet and typical sweet of this feast. I also got nice presents which was champignon soup haha, chocolate and a beautiful poetry book from Alfred GarcΓ­a which is a Spanish singer.

Bought clothes from Stradivarius ✨

I wanted to give my mother a present too for Three King’s Day but at the end I use it because it was a bit small for her. I bought online some clothes from a nice shop called Stradivarius. I love Disney so much so I bought a sweater of The Lion King 🦁 and a t-shirt of The Little Mermaid πŸ§œβ€β™€οΈ. Don’t you think it’s super cute?! πŸ˜πŸ’– It’s both so comfy – love it!!!

Faced my fear of going to the dentist πŸ’ͺ🦷

If it wasn’t for my mother I wouldn’t have been able to go to the dentist. Otherwise I would get pushed to go and that won’t work for someone who has anxiety like me. It’s strange to put this into my favourites haha because I don’t like going to the dentist πŸ˜‚πŸ˜’. Just the fact that I faced my fear and that everything went just so well was a big milestone for me. Plus the dentist is very handsome and caring and that makes it even better. I’m still anxious for the next three times I have to get rid of my wisdom teeth but hopefully it will go well too. I just hope to be less anxiety πŸ™πŸ€ž. I trust this dentist and his team which just makes the whole experience so much better. You can read how everything went in this blog post.

Watching Spanish series and talent show with mama πŸ“Ί

I LOVE TO WATCH SERIES WITH MAMA 😍. It’s really so fun haha. The worst is when we can’t sleep well because we are so into it. Everyday we watch the Spanish serie Amar es para siempre which is about the 70’s in Spain. On the 24th of January in 1977 there were some police men killing innocent lawyer who were working in an office in Madrid. They were from the communistic party. Right extremists police men came into their office and were looking for a man, didn’t find him and killed other innocent people. This happened in real life and is now showed in the serie. I didn’t know about this. It was really important because it was step into democracy in Spain. It was really horrible to see and some lovely actors died 😒. I had to cry a lot because of course these actors still live but they really killed innocent people which is just horrible. One woman called Cris lost his partner for the second time. Also that happened in real life. The lawyers now want justice and that they pay for what they have done. It’s so exciting now to see because we want to know everytime how it will go on.

We are also watching another serie called CuΓ©ntame cΓ³mo paso which is also about the past in Spain. It’s about a typical Spanish family living in Madrid. They are now in the 90’s. I find all these series so interesting because you really see how people were living that year. It’s so real, honest and so beautiful to wach. We also watch OperaciΓ³n Triunfo 🎢 which is again on tv. It’s Spanish talentshow where 16 concursants live together for three months in a singing academy. Every week there’s a liveshow and someone has to leave until the final where there’s a winner.

Hot chocolate time β˜•

I had a nice walk in the park with my mother when we got back to The Netherlands in January. It was pretty misty though but I loved the pictures I took. Afterwards, we enjoyed a delicious hot chocolate in the restaurant of the park. I love to live near to the park. It’s always so peaceful to walk there surrounded by beautiful nature.

Awesome things I did with my lovely friends πŸ’–:

Birthday celebration of my Spanish friend πŸŽ‰πŸŽ‚

Me and my friend went to eat in a restaurant for the birthday of one of our friends. We ate so delicious. I drank Radler beer. That’s like almost the only one I like and I don’t drink almost any alcohol. We ate delicious chips, croquettes, chicken, eggs with potatoes and jamΓ³n serrano and fish. I’m getting hungry now haha πŸ˜‚. I didn’t eat the fish haha because I don’t like it that much. It was nice to see my friends again.

Eating tapas in La Cubanita in Haarlem πŸ˜‹πŸ΄

I finally saw my lovely friend from Irak again. It was almost one year since we didn’t see each other. I missed her so much. I’m so happy our friendship is still the same every time we see each other. Time didn’t pass at all. Our friendship is strong and forever. I’m so thankful for our friendship πŸ’–πŸ™. She came to Haarlem and first she visited my parents. I’m so happy my family is her family too. In the evening we ate together in La Cubanita. I love that restaurant because it has delicious tapas. We could eat as much as we want for just one prize. We ate jamΓ³n serrano with melon, manchego πŸ§€ with rucula, sweet potatoes with curry, tomatoes with mozarella, carpaccio, bread with tapenada and alioli and croquettes. As dessert I always eat delicious vanilla ice cream with chocolate sauce and whipped cream. We loved it all so much!!! I can’t wait to eat tapas again with you, have fun and just see each other much. LOVE YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK πŸŒœπŸŒ›πŸ’žβœ¨

Other amazing things of January ✨:

Watched Frozen 2 and Let it snow β„οΈβ›„πŸ¦„

I watched two amazing movies. I finally watched Frozen 2 and omggg I loved it so much 😍😍😍. I love Disney and this movie is so good. The first one is still my favourite but this movie was also so amazing. I love the visuals, the music and just everything. I have all the time ahhhhhh in my head when they sing the song Into the unknown. Elsa is the best and Olaf is soooo cute. I also watched the movie Let it snow which is based on the book from John Green. It’s about different couples. I really liked it. Maybe it’s a bit cliche sometimes but it’s okay. I really want to read that book now.

Taylor Swift documentary Miss Americana 😍🎢

I want to wear pink and tell you how I feel about politics

THIS WAS SOOOO UNBELIEVABLE GOOD πŸ˜πŸ‘Œ. This documentary. I really cried. Tay tay is my fav artist ever and I couldn’t wait to watch this documentary. I loved her already as artist and as person but after seeing this documentary I could only love her more. She went through hell during her career as being a female artist. She stood up for her rights, went through sexual assault and had so much hate said to her. I admire her so much for being real, honest and vulnerable. I’m so happy of her being the artist of the decade πŸ’ͺ. She is such a rolemodel. I’m happy she is now happier and in love and living the life she have always dreamt of and doing what she always wanted to do. I’m also happy that she is now making music with her own credits which nobody can take away from her. I loved the things she said, her cute cat, her lovely mother which I hope will recover from cancer soon. I loved to hear some old songs in the documantary such as Delecate, Getaway car, Call it what you want, All too well and of course The Man and You need to calm down are awesome. LOVE HER SO MUCH AND WISH TO MEET HER ONE DAY AND GO TO A CONCERT. PLEASE UNIVERSE ANSWER MY PRAYERS THANK YOU HAHA πŸ₯°βœ¨πŸ™.

Donating money for Australia Red Cross πŸ‡¦πŸ‡ΊπŸ™

I donated money for Australia Red Cross for the fires πŸ”₯ which were happening there. It wasn’t maybe much but every euro counts. The situation is better but there is still so much to do as the fire destroyed everything. It makes me so sad for the lovely animals 🐼🦘 living there and for the people. We can all do something to make this world a better place.

Receiving presents from Switzerland πŸ‡¨πŸ‡­πŸŽ

We always receive lovely presents from the mother of my ex with Christmas. We also sent presents to them. This time it came when we just arrived from Spain. The big surprise with the presents was a letter where she wrote that my ex is going to marry this month in Singapor looool didn’t see that coming πŸ˜³πŸ˜‚. I’m happy for him though. Thanks for breaking my heart but I still hope you are happy. Thank u, next haha. Our love was beautiful while it lasted but also had some things which I didn’t like. I wouldn’t tolerate anymore talking badly about women or some actions. I’m a feminist by heart and will always be. I loved the presents. My father got money to eat with my mother and I one day, my mother got soap, toilet bag and Victoria’s Secret fragnance and lotion (I will use it too haha love it!!!!) and I got a beautiful glossy toilet bag and perfume from Naomi Campbell Cat Deluxe. It’s awesome! πŸ’– I love all the brands they have in Switzerland and all the luxery but it’s soooo expensive always. Much better to get it for free. It’s so sweet of her to send to us so we are really thankful about that.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope you liked to hear about my favourites of January. What did you enjoy in January? What did you liked from the things I did? Did you also watched the documentary of Taylor Swift or Frozen 2? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

I just want to be truly happy

Hola lovelies πŸ’•,

I need to write some thoughts I have lately on my mind down here. I always am 100% honest and vulnerable because this is my safe space. I’m so thankful for all your support and for all of you being there for me πŸ™πŸ’–. It means the most to me. Right now, I just don’t feel okay. It’s not like that I feel really bad but I’m also not feeling really good. It’s a strange feeling. I also have headaches and can’t wait to soak up some sunshine 🌞 when I will go again to Spain in two months. This grey and rainy weather affects my mood and mental health so much 😒. I will tell you all about it in this blog post. I hope I’m not the only one feeling this way.

I feel lonely lately because I don’t leave the house much and if I leave the house I just go to the park or go shopping with my mother. I don’t see my friends a lot 😒. I feel isolated and bored. They are all busy. I just see some friends here or in Spain a few times in a month. Sometimes I feel I do all the effort in friendship/relationships. I’m so done with that because I can’t do that anymore. I’m a highly sensitive person and all my life I have felt that I love and do more for others than people do for me. I’m the helper. I’m the fixer. It’s nice to help others but I also would love that people do the same for me. Of course, I’m so thankful for my family especially my mother and my good friends in real life and online who are always there for me πŸ’–πŸ™Œ.

I just wish to meet more people in real life too. I want to share my struggles and open up. I love to do it here online but sharing your stuff with a person face to face is the most vulnerable thing ever. It’s so good to do that and I really miss that right now in my life πŸ˜”. I love my pen pals, blogging friends and friends I know from the Yoga Girl community but those are all people living far away from me. I really would love to be able to teletransport myself so that we could be together having fun and talking about real life topics. I know one day that dream will become true even though it may cost some time πŸ™βœ¨.

I also just feel like I’m just floating or trying to survive in life. I feel lost for so many years already and I just can’t see how to go out of that space. Lately I feel bored, uninspired and so tired about everything. I’m happy I faced my fear of going to the dentist last month in Spain but I still need to get three wisdom teeth out 🦷. I still need to face that fear three times more. I still need to get a job which just doesn’t seem to go well with me. I thought of maybe teaching kids English or Spanish. Life just feels like a never ending struggle. As I’m reading right now Looking for Alaska I feel that kind of struggle. It’s hard to feel it and to be in this space.

I also know that what I want from life is just to be truly happy. I want to be happy with myself. I have spend so many years being my own enemy that I’m done with it. It’s just to hard to heal in that way because whenever I feel anxious I doubt myself and say the worst things about myself. My inner-critic becomes loud and says that I’m not worth it, that I’m lazy for not having a job, that I’m not loved by anyone and that eventually everyone will leave me. This of course only makes me feel worse. Being bullied in high school caused me to have anxiety and these kinds of thoughts too. I have to listen more to my inner-bestfriend who tells me that I’m loved, worth it and that my worth has nothing to do whether I’m productive or not.

I also feel like I wouldn’t be happy with a 9 to 5 life or a routine. I feel like I would feel bored in one second. I want more out of life. I love adventure, travelling and meeting people which is sometimes a contrast of me having anxiety. Anxiety doesn’t form part of my personality even though sometimes I think it does because that voice gets so loud. The thing is that I have so many dreams but just never know how to make them happen because of insecurities, anxiety and just have no clue to make it all work. I would love to write a book πŸ“πŸ“–, travel the world 🌍, be able to surf the waves πŸ„β€β™€οΈπŸŒŠ and sometimes I even thought of being a singer. However, then I thought oh no that’s nothing for me because I don’t like attention. I don’t know if I would be happy if I would be famous.

Sometimes I love to isolate myself, hide myself, do yoga or meditation and just read books, write for my blog and write letters to my friends. There are also days that I like to go out, go to concerts with my friends and just have fun. I can be all of those things and don’t have to choose between one of another. I just wish I could really speak up more in real life and let myself seen. I have still a hard time doing that. I know it will make me happier in the long term.

Maybe we all know nothing of life and we are just trying to look like we have our life together when we don’t. Social media doesn’t give you a real view of what real life is. Sometimes I think of deleting it all as I tend to compare myself to others so much which ends up in feeling depressed and anxious of not having achieved certain milestones in life such as having a job, being married, having children and owning a car and a home. Then I always think to myself, is that what life is about? When you have all of that you are suppose to be “happy”. I really don’t know if all of that would make me happy to be honest.

Life for me is all about experiences, travels and connecting with wonderful people. I think what we miss right now in this society is trully being connected with someone and sharing our feelings. What I need right now is to be able to share my feelings and thoughts with someone. We all need to be able to laugh, cry, get a hug and have a real life connection. With the rise of social media this lack of connection is becoming a more serious issue. I love blogging and I love writing letters because the connection with someone is much stronger than writing a stupid whatsapp message. The next best thing is of course seeing that person. Maybe, that’s why I feel lonely too this month. I just wish that I can find my own happiness in life and achieve my dreams 🌠. We all deserve to be happy. Anxiety will never win. I have to believe in myself more and know that I will achieve my dreams. Thank you all for always being there for me because really that means the most to me. One day I will give you the biggest hug ever. I love you all so much πŸ˜πŸ€—πŸ’ž.

Thank you all for reading my blog post. I hope you liked it and it inspired you in some way. Do you also feel lost in life sometimes? How do you deal with it? Do you miss connection in your life too? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

The 50 bookish questions book tag πŸ“šπŸ’žπŸ’«βœ¨πŸ“–

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

This is going to be a different blog post then what I normally do as I have never done this before. I searched for a book tag on here and I came across some nice questions about books. I found the 50 bookish questions on this blog post. I really like reading and want to read more. I keep buying books but I’m a slow reader so it doesn’t work that well I guess haha. I hope you will like this tag. I’m sure there are more book lovers out there πŸ˜πŸ“–. I already know some of my lovely blogging friends who love to read too. This is for all of you. I hope you will like it.

1.) What was the last book you read?

To love and let go: A memoir of love, loss and gratitude by Rachel Brathen (Yoga Girl).

2). Was it a good one?

YEAHHH OMG IT WAS AMAZING. ONE OF MY FAV BOOKS EVER 😍😭. I cried so much.

3.) What made it good?

I don’t want to say a lot about it because I want to dedicate one blog post reviewing this book because it was so beautiful. It needs it’s own post. It was such a beautiful book because it was so raw, vulnerable and emotional. It was the real life story of Rachel about love, loss and gratitude. I love that in the hardships of life she finds gratitude. She just wrote this book from her heart. I wish to meet her one day and go on a retreat. I’m really amazed how good she can write about her experiences in life.

4.) Would you recommend it to other people?

Yes of course! This book will heal your heart whether you are going through grief or any other struggle in life.

5.) How often do you read?

A few days in a week. I just read sometimes. If I would have a busier life I would maybe have less time to read but I would still read.

6.) Do you like to read?

Yeahhh!

7.) What was the last bad book you read?

I think that must be The big sleep by Raymond Chandler.

8.) What made you dislike it?

I read this book years ago during high school. It was boring and I don’t like those detective stories. I also had to read it for school and when I have to do something I often don’t like it that much πŸ˜‚.

9.) Do you wish to be a writer?

YEAH OMGGG MY DREAM πŸ˜πŸ’–. I already consider my a writer because I own this blog but I would love to write books especially some poetry books. I hope to make this dream come true one day. If anyone has tips for publishing your own books and how things work I would love to know that.

10.) Has any book ever influenced you greatly?

Yes of course. You learn so much from books. The books which had the most influence on me are The Fault in Our Stars by John Green and To love and let go by Rachel Brathen. These are two beautiful books which tell a honest and beautiful story.

11.) Do you read fan-fiction?

No, I’ve never read fan-fiction.

12.) Do you write fan-fiction?

Nope and to be honest I also don’t think I’m that interested in this.

13.) What is your favourite book?

I have some favourite books which are Everything, Everything by Nicola Yoon, The Fault in Our Stars by John Green, To love and let go by Rachel Brathen and The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho. These are my three favourite books ever πŸ’žπŸ™.

14.) What is your least favourite book?

I don’t know. Maybe one I had to read during high school which is called The big sleep. I just didn’t like that story.

15.) Do you prefer physical books or ready on a device (like Kindle)?

Physical books always. I don’t have a tablet and to be honest it’s so much better to have a book in your hands. I love to feel the paper and smell it haha πŸ˜‚πŸ“–.

16.) When did you learn to read?

I think when I began to go to school so when I was 4/5 years old.

17.) What is your favourite book you had to read in school?

I had to read The Kite Runner during high school. I loved it. This story was so touching, heartbreaking and everything.

18.) What is your favourite book series?

The Spinster Club Series by Holly Bourne. I still need to read some of her books from this serie. I’ve read Am I normal yet? and I loved it!!! In that book she writes about a girl who has OCD and suffers from anxiety too. It’s a book about friendship, love, mental health and feminism. It’s so good.

19.) Who is your favourite author?

I have so many favourite authors but my all time favourite are John Green, Rachel Brathen and Holly Bourne.

20.) What is your favourite genre?

Young Adult always πŸ’–.

21.) Who is your favourite character in a book series?

I really like Evie from the book Am I normal yet as I can relate so much with her thoughts about anxiety. I don’t have OCD but as I struggle from anxiety I can also make myself go crazy with so many things in my mind which aren’t even going to come true. It’s so exhausting. This book made me feel less alone.

22.) Has a book ever transported you somewhere else?

Yes, books always transport me to beautiful places and countries. I love to imagine myself in the stories and think about what would I do faced in a certain situation.

23.) Which book do you wish had a sequel?

Everything, Everything because when I ended reading it I felt like I wanted to know how the story would go on. It would be really nice to read that.

24.) Which book do you wish DIDN’T have a sequel?

I don’t know. I think sequels can be good.

25.) How long does it take you to read a book?

Sometimes two weeks but often a month or a few months. I like to take my time to read some good books.

26.) Do you like when books become movies?

I love it! 🎬 I think think it’s really nice when they do it right.

27.) Which book was ruined by its movie adaptation?

I don’t know. I only know that when I watched Everything, Everything I thought that some things were a bit different than in the book. I thought it could have been better.

28.) Which movie has done a book justice?

The Fault in Our Stars was such a beautiful movie and was just like the book. It’s my fav book and movie ever. I cried, laughed and just had all the feels. I also loved the movie The Kite Runner but sometimes it was a bit hard to watch because of the things which were showed. I can’t deal with hard stuff as being a highly sensitive person. I also love the Harry Potter movies but I have to admit that I never read the books, just one. Maybe one day I will have to do that haha.

29.) Do you read newspapers?

Not that much. Sometimes I read it for the wheather, horoscope or some news which interests me such as Eurovision or news about feminism.

30.) Do you read magazines?

I love to read magazines especially the ones I buy in The Netherlands which are Flow and Psychology magazine. Flow is about mindfullness, slow life and being present. It comes with stationery and beautiful insights. I also shared in this blog post that I got some magazines of Flow for Sinterklaas. I also love Psychology magazine because it’s about mental health. I love to read about people who also suffer from anxiety because it makes me feel less alone πŸ™βœ¨. I love to read about some tips how to go through it. It’s an inspiring and interesting magazine. For the rest I also sometimes like The Cosmopolitan which I buy in Spain. I like to buy it in the Summer for holidays on the beach. I’m not that much that girl who loves to read about the newest fashion trends but some stuff is nice haha.

31.) Do you prefer newspapers or magazines?

Magazines always because newspapers can be quiet depressing.

32.) Do you read while in bed?

Yeahhh always because it’s the best, safest, warmest and coziest place to read πŸ›οΈπŸ’ž.

33.) Do you read while on the toilet?

No, but I use my mobile phone sometimes to read something haha.

34.) Do you read while in the car?

I can’t read in the car because I get sick but sometimes I can read in the train.

35.) Do you read while in the bath?

No, because I’m afraid the books will get wet. I would love to have a table which I sometimes see on Instagram posts to put your book on.

36.) Are you a fast reader?

No normally not. Just sometimes it happens that when I really love a book it can take me two weeks to read it.

37.) Are you a slow reader?

YES. I can take some months to read a book haha. I just want to enjoy it and not rush everything. I also want to really be present with what I’m reading and think about the story.

38.) Where is your favourite place to read?

In my bed, on the beach 🌊🌴🌞 (fav place ever) because it’s so calming to hear the waves crashing down the shore, and I also love to read in the garden in The Netherlands. I can’t wait for those days again in the sunshine. I need it.

39.) Is it hard for you to concentrate when you read?

Yes, so that’s why I prefer to read in a silent room, at the beach or at the swimming pool. I can easily get distracted by sounds.

40.) Do you need a room to be silent while you read?

Always otherwise I can’t read.

41.) Who gave you your love for reading?

I think maybe my father because he reads a lot, also writes books as he was a teacher of teology. He also used to tell me stories about witches and other fantasies before bedtime when I was little. He made them all up and it was incredible. My daddy has so much imagination haha. I find it fascinating to be honest.

42.) What book is next on your list to read?

Right now I’m reading Looking for Alaska by John Green. Next, I think I want to read the poetry book about mental health of my friend Andrew from Instagram.

43.) When did you start to read chapter books?

I don’t know, maybe I was 8 years old.

44.) Who is your favourite children’s book author?

I really love the Dutch autors Jacques Vriens and Francine Oomen. I always loved to read these children books.

45.) Which author would you most want to interview?

I would love to interview John Green because I think he is such an interesting person and knows about mental health illnesses such as anxiety and depression. His books are amazing so I think it would be amazing to talk to him. He has such a beautiful inner world.

46.) Which author do you think you would be friends with?

Holly Bourne and Rachel Brathen! I love them both so much 😍. Holly Bourne writes amazing books about mental health, feminism and friendship. I also love Rachel Brathen, Yoga Girl, so much. She’s my biggest inspiration in life so I think we would get along so well with. I would feel at peace when I met her one day and could talk about my struggles and just everything in life. I love her honesty and vulnerability so much.

47.) What book have you reread the most?

I’m a slow reader so to be honest I didn’t have reread a book. I only can think of maybe a Dutch book serie called The five which I read loads of books from. It was always so interesting to read. It was about children who have amazing adventures together.

48.) Which books do you consider β€œclassics?”

Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen, To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee and The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald. I have to read the first two because I heard good reviews about them. The last one I’ve already read and a review is coming soon.

49.) Which books do you think should be taught in every school?

I think The Fault in Our Stars because it tells such a vulnerable and beautiful story about a girl and a boy with cancer which fall in love with each other. It’s a beautiful and touching story. You learn so much about life and the world with this book. I also think the Spinster Club Series books from Holly Bourne would be really great because it’s about feminism, friendship and mental health. Those are all important topics to talk about and learn about through books.

50.) Which books should be banned from all schools?

Books are amazing but I’m in favor of banning books which cause hate such as books of homophobia, racism and anything. If it wouldn’t benefit a person and would cause harm then it should be banned at school.

Thank you all for reading this blog post ☺️. I hope you liked this book tag with loads of questions about books and reading. Can you relate to some of my answers? What kind of books do you love to read? What are your favourite books/writers? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

Music of December 2019 πŸŽΆ

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

Another blog post which is a bit late lol hahah but that doesn’t matter, right?! πŸ˜‚πŸ’– I really had to share this one because some really good music have been released at the end of 2019. The new album of Harry Styles is so awesome. I also love the new album of Camila Cabello so much. Also some other good music has been released. I will share it all with you in this blog post.

Camila Cabello – Romance

The new album of Camila is so goooood!!! 😍 I really wish to go to one of her concerts. She is coming to Amsterdam in June but I can’t go to all the concerts I want to go this year because it cost a lot of money πŸ˜₯. Her new album is lovely pop music with good lyrics and also of course romantic. I love all her songs. They are so good. She’s such a great singer. I already loved the songs Shameless, Liar, SeΓ±orita, Easy and Cry for me. Here are my other three favourite songs of her.

Camila Cabello ft. DaBaby – My oh my

I love this live performance in The Tonight show of Jimmy Fallon. This song is so catchy and so nice! 🎢 I really like it so much. She is also such a great performer.

Camila Cabello – Bad kind of butterflies

Such a nice song! I really like the sound of it. I just love everything okay haha πŸ˜‚πŸ’–.

Camila Cabello – First man

You’re looking at me, while walking down the aisle
With tears in your eyes, maybe he deserves me
You don’t even know how much it means to me now
That you were the first man that really loved me, that really loved me
You really love me

THIS SONG IS JUST SO BEAUTIFUL I CRY 😍😭. I also loved the performance she gave of this song in the Grammys. It’s so emotional as her daddy is there and she is singing this song for him. She also looks so beautiful in her pink dress. Such a goddess. This song is for all the fathers out there. Our parents are definitely the first ones that really loves us unconditionally. My daddy is the only man I trust. It’s not totally true but it’s to be honest it’s just hard to find a man you can trust.

Aitana ft. Cali y El Dandee – +

This song is sooooo beautiful πŸ˜πŸ’•. I have already listened to this song 10000 times. Aitana is amazing and Cali y El Dandee are also so nice. Together they sing beautifully. The videoclip is also so well made. It’s made in Argentina. I cried when I heard and watched it. It’s just the best. This song is about a first love that isn’t there anymore. She sings about that she knows that he isn’t coming back. She loves him more. She can’t forget him. I know this feeling so well. I’m happy that I’m not heartbroken anymore but I still don’t know how to ever love someone again because I’m afraid to get hurt again.

Lola Indigo – Luna

I love this song! Lola Indigo is such a great Spanish singer too. She only release good songs like this one. Luna 🌜 is moon in Spanish. I love the moon and everything about it. She also has a tattoo of a moon. I would love to have that one day too if I ever get over my needle fear ughhh.

Sofia Ellar ft. Blas CantΓ³ – Humanidad en paro

So beautiful! Sofia Ellar is one of my favourite Spanish artists and I also really love Blas CantΓ³ which is going to represent Spain πŸ‡ͺπŸ‡Έ in Eurovision this year. Sofia Ellar made this song a few years ago. It’s about speaking up about human rights when some people can’t. This song is about refugees. I think it’s really beautiful. Their voices are so unique together. I also agree about the message. We can all help each other πŸ™βœ¨.

Harry Styles – Fine line

Finally Harry Styles released his new album Fine line!!! πŸ’– It’s so good. I also like every song of this new album of Harry Styles. I have to admit that I didn’t listen that much to Harry Styles but I began to listen to him more and I really like him. I love Sign of the times and also all the songs of One Direction. His new songs are so amazing just like he is as a person. Such a sweetheart. I also wish to go to one of his concerts one day with one of my best friends Chloe. It would be so amazing. I loved the songs he released before the album which were Watermelon sugar and Lights up. I will share now with you my other three favourites.

Harry Styles – Adore you

This song is just so amazing. I also loved that the voice you hear which is telling you a story is RosalΓ­a. She’s a popular singer in Spain and internationally too. This videoclip, the song and just everything is amazing about this song.

Harry Styles – Canyon Moon

Staring at the ceiling
Two weeks and I’ll be home
Carry the feeling
Through Paris, all through Rome
And I’m still thinking back to
A time under the canyon moon

Aaaah this sounds like a country song and I love it!!! πŸ’ƒπŸ•ΊIt also sounds as a song from the 70’s or so. It makes me so happy. This song would be so good to make it on a playlist for a roadtrip during the Summer. I also love his whistles. It sounds so cute.

Harry Styles – Treat people with kindness

Maybe we can find a place to feel good
And we can treat people with kindness
Find a place to feel good

Treat people with kindness is what Harry Styles stands for. THIS SONG IS AMAZING. I love the background choir. It sounds amazing as well as his voice of course. Such a feel good song!

Maan – Ze huilt maar ze lacht

She is sitting here alone in the train
And she hides in her coat
She looks out of the window
And she wonders
How would it feel to be yourself
Because sometimes it hurts
But she cries but she laughs
She cries but she laughs 

She walks through a world that does not feel kind
Unintentionally she says things that everyone always says
Because things never go bad
Always okay and she talks along with them
And she laughs
She cries but she laughs

And now… she let’s it go

I don’t listen that much to Dutch music but this song is really so touching and I really cried so much hearing it πŸ’–. I feel it and the lyrics is so relatable. The videoclip was just released in Janary. This song is just so raw and vulnerable. I guess many of us can feel this way. I always laugh so people think I’m happy all the time which I’m not. Sometimes it can be a mask. I also sometimes make other people feel like everything is okay with me when it’s not. I just don’t want to bother people because I feel that sometimes I’m too much. I learned that it’s okay to be ourselves and that we can let our feelings go and just be ourselves. All our feelings matter πŸ™. There are always people who care about us and will love us for the way we are. We are not alone.

Taylor Swift – Christmas tree farm

“In my heart is a Christmas tree farm
Where the people would come
To dance under sparkling lights
Bundled up in their mittens and coats
And the cider would flow
And I just wanna be there tonight”

This song is so cute. Everything about Taylor Swift is just so good πŸ˜πŸ‘Œ. I listened to this song a lot during Christmas time. I also love the cute pictures from her and her family when she was younger. She looks so cute!!! She is still such a sweetheart and I’m so happy I live in a world where she exists, my fav artist evah. Yeah, I love her that much haha. I wish to see her live once.

Louis Tomlinson – Don’t let it break your heart

I like this song. It’s a really nice song and Louis sings very well. I don’t listen to much of his songs but I really like this one.

Thank you for reading this music 🎢 blog post. I hope you liked some songs of this post. Which one was your favourite? What do you think of the new albums of Harry Styles and Camila Cabello? What was your favourite song from 2019? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina