Today it’s my 27th birthday! ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŽ‚๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽโœจ๐ŸŽˆ Forever a gemini child โ™Š and hippie girl yeahhh! โœŒ

Hola lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

IT’S MY BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!!! ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŽ‰ OMG 27 YEARS YOUNG. I feel old lol ๐Ÿ˜‚. I have sometimes pain in my body like period cramps, back pain, feeling nauseous, teeth problems, suffering from anxiety but lol I still lived 27 years so I guess it’s okay. I feel like a grand mother ๐Ÿ‘ด sometimes. This blog post will be about my birthday and some things I learned these years. It’s a kinda strange birthday because of this pandemic and lockdown but it’s also special. It’s the first birthday in 4 years that I’m again in The Netherlands celebrating it and not in Spain. My good friend is sleeping here. My brother, his wife, my bestie and her girlfriend are coming today but of course with distance. Better, than nothing. I miss face to face connection so much. I missed seeing them so much ๐Ÿ˜ญ.

I sometimes feel a bit depressed, anxious and emotional with my birthday because of society’s expectations. In 3 years I’m 30 years old but I still feel like a ”baby” in the world. I don’t have a job yet, no hushband, no baby, no driving license, no car or don’t own a home. Does that make me unsuccesful? Does that make me not worth it in this society? I just hate that society create those rules. It only makes me feel depressed and create more anxiety. I am where I am in live and it’s all okay. I’m realizing now more and more that who I’m is more important than what I do.

If there is one thing I’m realizing now during this pandemic and just this year in general is that I have to choose for myself. I have spent so much years of my life doing what other people expected of me. I have spent so much time in doing things I don’t like or being with the wrong people. It only drained me and made me feel bad about myself. I have wasted too much time in toxic relationships. It wasn’t worth it. I realized afterwards that all these people and boys had one thing in common: they didn’t deserve my love. I give so much to people and didn’t get that same amount of love back. They weren’t worth my time. If only I knew then what I know now I would not have done certain things or wasted my time on the wrong people. I failed, I learned and I grew from these mistakes. I will try to not repeat them in the future.

I have always hide myself and I still do that at times and I’m done with it. I hide myself because of being bullied ๐Ÿ˜ข. Not many bullies seem to know what the consequences are of bullying. It’s really the worst for your mental health. I still suffer sometimes when someone is laughing or talking a bit loud. Then instantly I think it’s about me but of course it isn’t true. Anxiety is also being caused of being bullied. I’m done with hiding myself for who I’m. I’m happy that I’m being myself know more and more online and also in real life. I have the best friends in real life, online and family in the world ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’•.

I want to be completely myself in everything I do and in everything I am in life. I have always been afraid of growing older because of being afraid of death. I also talked about that topic in this blog post. Now, I’m realizing that growing older is also a privilege. Not everyone can grow older because of sickness. I have also been afraid of aging because I always thought I have to be a certain way in life. I can’t like or do the things I like now in a few years. Well, that’s a misconception. I will forever be the hippie girl โœŒ, mermaid and wild child I’m ๐Ÿ˜‚. I will not change for anyone. I WILL BE MY CRAZY SELF. I will keep reading young adult books ๐Ÿ“š, blogging, penpalling, surfing ๐Ÿ„, travelling the world, singing ๐ŸŽถ, loving the sea ๐ŸŒŠ, listening to my favourite artists such as Taylor Swift, Ariana Grande, Julia Michaels, Sofia Ellar, Duncan Laurence, Aitana, Amaia, Alfred and keep having fun with my friends. I will keep being myself which means being romantic and sensitive. I’m a highly sensitive person and feel every emotion and also suffer more. I can’t take that away from me because otherwise I wouldn’t be me. Growing older doesn’t mean I have to change about what I like or not. I just grow wiser.

This year I faced one of my biggest fears which was going to the dentist to get one of my wisdom teeth pulled out. I’m SO proud of myself for doing this!!! ๐Ÿ’ช It’s a big achievement for me. I spent years in anxiety and I still know I have to get three out. The first step is there. It went all so great because of the lovely dentist and his team. He knew exactly how to support me and take care of me while I had so much anxiety. You can read it here. Sometimes I feel some problems in my teeth because I still have to get rid of three. I prefer to do it in Spain but we postponed our trip because of the pandemic. Maybe we can go in the Summer if it won’t be dangerous for any of us. I’m just really happy to have faced this fear. I hope with the next visits I will feel less anxiety. I know anxiety will be there always but hopefully a bit less now I know how things go. That’s also the reason I prefer to go in Spain because I know the dentist. I find it hard to trust again in someone new. It’s nice to go to some familiar places.

This year I also have had some amazing good times with my friends and family ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’ƒ. My last birthday was amazing because my friend from Granada came to visit me for the first time in Valladolid. Me and my Spanish friends ate all together in a creperie. We had such a great time together. I also enjoyed my time with my Dutch friends in Haarlem in November. I came back from having a hard time in Spain and being so anxious about having to go to the dentist and just life. It was nice to be able to enjoy some time all together eating delicous tapas in La Cubanita. In January I ate there again with my good friend. I also had a nice time with my family eating all together and celebrating birthdays. I really miss that but I know that time will come again.

I also travelled to beautiful places this year which were my second home Valladolid in Spain โœˆ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ. I’m so blessed to have that in my life. I love my Spanish friends and family so much. It’s home. I even feel more at home there than in The Netherlands where I have been born. Home is also where your favourite people are. I love both countries so much but Spain always more haha. In July I travelled again for the 4th time to Granada, one of my favourite cities in Spain. I have a good friend living there. My mother and I went to his appartment at the beach and also enjoyed the city itself. We always have an amazing time and I really can’t wait to go back!!!! ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŒŠ It’s a tradition to go each Summer but we don’t know if that will be possible this year. I also travelled to Gijรณn which is in Asturias for the first time in August with one of my best friends in Spain. We had such a great time. We enjoyed the beach, had great fiestas haha, eat delicious tapas, went shopping and had such a great girl time.

It was years ago since I went with a friend again on a holiday. I really missed it and I can’t wait to do it again. I still remember that night we met some cool guys which invited us for drinks without anything in return. No bad boys for once yeahhh. They were partying with us the whole night. It was so much fun. One of their friends was about to marry. I just can’t wait to travel again to new places in Spain and wherever in the world because travelling makes me so happy and most importantly, it makes me feel ALIVE!!!! You make new friends, have fun, learn about different cultures and learn more about life and this world we live in ๐ŸŒ.

Right now, I just submitted a story for a contest which is called ”A sea of words” just like my blog like what the hell?! The European Institute of the Mediterranean tagged me on a post in Instagram. Otherwise I would never have found it. My instagram for my blog is also called that way. It’s a contest which is every year and the topics can be about gender equality, climate change, environment or just anything related to make this world a better place. This year it was about young people faced with climate change in the Mediterranean and the 2030 Agenda for Sustainable Development. First I wrote an essay but it wasn’t what they ask for so I had to change it into a story which was a bit more difficult. The story I wrote is about me being in the sea with my boat and then suddenly being stuck surrounded by plastic bottles. Then a man comes to help me and talks about how important it is to take action. I have always had that inner voice inside of me who says to take action and give some ideas. I already won an essay contest in 2015 and spoke at the United Nations in New York City ๐Ÿ—ฝ so I thought why not try again even though my inner critic is loud sometimes. The jury is now reviewing the stories. The 10 best winners will go to Barcelona at the end of September for free and will have a creative writing course and dicuss their ideas. It’s really so amazing. I will keep you informed if I win and if it’s even possible to travel.

A few days ago I also submitted my two poems ๐Ÿ“„ about vulnerability and strength for the organization MIND in The Netherlands. This organization helps people with mental health illnesses. My poems are about the sea and about being bullied and how that made me stronger and about accepting myself for the way I’m. The winner will be chosen online from the best 5 and the winner gets a poetry award. The 5 winners can speak their poem in an event. All these things make me super anxious and are so outside my comfortzone but I have to do it because I love writing and I know that I’m good at it. I have to stop bullying myself that I’m not good or smart enough. I will keep my fingers crossed โœŒ๐Ÿ™.

With all of these things I do and did in the past, I’m just being myself and embracing the person who I’m which loves to write, do yoga, sing, surf, travel the world, read and help other people and hopefully making this world a better place. I love La Pachamama!!! ๐ŸŒ๐Ÿ˜ Thank you all so much for forming part of my life. Thank you all for being there for me in good and bad times. I love you all so much. I wish you all peace, love & happiness! Forever young, wild and free! โœŒ๏ธ We are all childs of the universe. This life is a gift โœจ Let’s hope this new year of life will be amazing too!

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I’m so happy to have you all in my life. Do you also join writing contests? Do you think 27 years is old? Do you think society creates rules for us? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina


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  1. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ๐ŸŽ‚ Forget about society, you’re carving the path of your own life, you are an amazing person and shouldn’t be defined by others expectations โœจ They create “rules” but some are meant to be broken as we’re all unique and can’t thrive within the same mould. Best of luck in all of those competitions! Hope you have an amazing birthday and make loads of memories surrounded by loved ones, have a slice of cake for me! ๐Ÿ˜‚ Take care ๐ŸŽ‰โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ

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    1. Thank you so much beautiful! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’– You are so right lovely. I hate it when I always compare myself to others. We are all different and our life paths too and that’s totally okay. Thank you so much lovely! I will let you know what happens with the writing competitions which I entered! ๐Ÿ€ I had a beautiful birthday and spent time with my lovely family and friends. It couldn’t be better. The strawberry pie was delicious ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŽ‚. Love you loads xxxx

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  2. This is a great post ! It’s beautiful and sad all at once, Don’t care what society thing, you’re free bird here ๐Ÿค— and If gotta chance come to India ๐Ÿ‡ฎ๐Ÿ‡ณ๐ŸŒธ Take Care , Enjoy !

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    1. Thank you so much! ๐Ÿ˜˜ I’m happy you liked this post. You are so right. I’m forever a hippie girl and have a free spirit. Oh yes, I would love to go! Lots of love from The Netherlands ๐Ÿ‡ณ๐Ÿ‡ฑ

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  3. Happy birthday! I hope you had a great day!

    Donโ€™t worry about what society thinks. Itโ€™s not important. Being yourself and standing out in society is what makes you unique, so keep being you!

    I am glad you are enjoying things like going out with friends. It is good to find joy especially during these hard times. I am also glad you are writing and entering competitions. I know you will do great!

    Thinking of you โค๏ธ

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    1. Thank you so much my friend! ๐Ÿ˜˜ I had such a nice birthday with my familiy and friends. You are so right. I hate those rules created by society because at the end it doesn’t make us happy. We have to live our life how we want and do what makes us happy and not what society wants of us. I will keep being myself yeahhh โœŒ. Thank you so much. I will let you know if I will win any of these writing competitions. Stay safe you too. Love you โค

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  4. Happy Birthday! ๐Ÿฅณ๐ŸŽ‚ Hope that you are having cake to celebrate this special day. I had a sprinkle donut so I celebrated in spirit! ๐Ÿฉ

    I hear ya! I also have teeth problems and need jaw surgery…. I guess as adults we still have to endure things that are totally unfair. ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ

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    1. Thank you so much beautiful ๐Ÿ˜ My birthday was amazing. I spent time with my family and friends. Aawhhh so delicious. I love donuts ๐Ÿ˜‹๐Ÿฉ. Oh really? Good luck with that. I hate to go to the dentist so much ๐Ÿ˜ข I’m praying for us it won’t hurt much ๐Ÿ™ I’m here for you xxxx

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  5. Happy Birthday, gurl!! May God bless you and keep you happy and healthy โค๏ธ No matter what age you are, you can still be the childish and crazy (I’m talking about myself too ๐Ÿ˜‚)

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  6. “On this day a queen was born” YES girly โค๏ธโค๏ธ a queen was born indeed !! I am so sorry that this is late and delayed, as I am with most things because I’m absolutely USELESS and do not keep up with social media at all. I hope however you had the most wonderful day as you truly deserve it and this post was beautiful. I’m so proud of the beautiful person you are and will continue to become – if only there were more people like you in the world. xxx

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    1. Awhhh thank you so much beautiful! ๐Ÿ˜โค๏ธ It’s never too late haha I forgive you sweetie ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’•. I can understand you. You are not so into social media which is better. I’m happy you liked this post. I will share more in my favourites post. I had a beautiful day with friends and family ๐Ÿ˜. At least some things are a bit more normal now. Aawwh thank you so much ๐Ÿฅบ You are so cute. Love you loads ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–

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  7. Sorry.. Iโ€™m a little late..writing a comment..โ™ฅ๏ธ .but it definitely doesnโ€™t make you unsuccessful because you donโ€™t have a job or a husband, a baby, or drive a car!!!
    You are still young lovely christina..and still have your whole life ahead of you..live the life to the fullest and happiest and thatโ€™s what your doing…!! YOU GO GIRL๐Ÿ˜Š
    In time you will have a job, drive a car and get married…and when that happens you can look back at this and think…wow I had the best time of my life despite my anxieties…that I fear…and now here Iโ€™am…with a beautiful family of my own…stay strong and positive…๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’•…

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    1. Awhhh lovely you already congratulated me! โค Thank you for commenting again! That's so sweet of you!! You are so right lovely. It's just that society always have those expectations which only makes us feel unhappy and worthless. I agree with you! โค We also have to just enjoy life right now because we don't know what the future will hold for us. Just living each day for what it is and be happy with the things we have right now. Being grateful is so important especially during these though times in the world. Be safe lovely ๐Ÿ™‚ Thank you for being there for me always. Love you โค

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