February favourites ๐Ÿ’ž๐ŸŒž

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

I’ve had a hard week last week with all what’s happening in the world right now. The pandemic of the coronavirus hit me hard. I wrote about all of it in this blog post. I felt really bad last week, my anxiety was sky high, cried a lot ๐Ÿ˜ข but since yesterday I feel a bit better. I feel a bit more hopeful, happier and calmer. Even though we are all suffering right now I find it important to feel all my feelings, the good and the bad ones. It’s okay to feel whatever we are feeling during this though time. I just have that feeling in my heart right now that we all will be well ๐Ÿ™. I believe in the good things coming. Bad times don’t last forever. That thought makes me feel more hopeful to get through each day. I also am doing a yoga challenge by Yoga Girl. It’s called #30daysofspace. I’m doing yoga and meditation every day ๐Ÿง˜โ€โ™€๏ธ. If anyone of you want to do this too, you can find the free classes on this website http://www.yogagirl.com.

So, I’ve said what I needed to say before I begin with this blog post. I will share in this blog post my favourites of February. Something positive to share is always fine. Some things aren’t relevant anymore but I will still share them. In this blog post I will share about the tickets we bought to go to Spain ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ, new stationery, presents I got from my friend and the walks I took in the park with my mother.

Things I did with my lovely family ๐Ÿ‘ช:

Bought fly tickets to Spain ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธโœˆ๏ธ

My daddy bought fly tickets for my mother and I to go on the first of April and at the end of June. Unfortunately, we can’t go on the first of April because of the virus ๐Ÿ˜ญ. Spain is also on a lockdown and no flights are going. Fortunately, we could changed the tickets to go at the end of May. I hope that will be possible. Otherwise we still have tickets to go at the end of June till September. We do really hope to just enjoy Summer time and that this is all over soon. I love Spain so much. I miss it. My daddy also is going in August. Let’s hope it’s possible. It would be also otherwise a waste of money.

Drinking hot chocolate with pie at the Hema โ˜•๐Ÿ˜‹

I love the Dutch shop Hema so much. I went there some days with my mother in February. We drank a delicious mint tea, hot chocolate together with a delicious piece of pie. I ate one time a pie of chocolate and my mother had one of apple. It was all SO yummy! ๐Ÿ˜

Walks in the park ๐ŸŒณ๐ŸŒž

I love to live near to a park. I love to take walks in the park. There were some sunny days so we enjoyed it even though it’s still cold. After the walk we loved to drink a hot chocolate and some tea at the restaurant. It’s all closed now because of the virus. I feel grateful to have had these moments. I’m sure they will come again in the future.

Valentine’s Day ๐Ÿ’˜

I was super sick on Valentine’s Day. I had to vomit many times and had diarrhea. I love that my parents always care so good about me. My mother bought a yellow/orange rose for my daddy and a card. For me she bought a cute stuffed animal and a card. It made this day much better. I really do think that this day is not only a day for couples but also a day to celebrate with your friends and family. It’s about celebrating every form of love ๐Ÿ’–.

Stationery shopping at the mall ๐Ÿ›’

I bought a pack of ojo cute animals stickers and emoji stickers. I love to use emojis so much. If I don’t use them I find it boring or sad haha ๐Ÿ˜‚. Furthermore, I bought hangtag stickers with a wildlife and spring theme. They also have some cute quotes on them. Lastly, I bought finelines in the colours of red, blank and blue, universe washi tape, 50 envelopes and glue. You never have enough stationery haha!!

Easter theme stationery ๐Ÿฐ๐Ÿฃ

I also bought some beautiful new stationery with an Easter theme in Action, my favourite shop here. I bought loads of stickers with an Easter and Spring theme. The foam stickers have cute bunnies, chickens and sheeps on them. The Easter sticker sheets include 190 stickers. They are all so colourful. I love them all so much.

Watching The Red Turtle & The Little Mermaid ๐Ÿข๐Ÿงœโ€โ™€๏ธ

I watched some nice movies with my parents. I watched The Red Turtle which is a movie directed by Michael Dudok de Wit. It’s produced by Studio Ghibli. It’s a kinda strange movie but I loved it. It’s beautiful made. Not much is happening in the movie but it’s very calming to watch it. I also watched The Little Mermaid with my mother. It’s really bad I hadn’t watch it before. I need to catch up on many Disney movies! I love this movie so much and I also have a shirt of it. I’m a mermaid forever ๐Ÿงœโ€โ™€๏ธ๐ŸŒŠ. I loved the music in this movie and the underwater world so much. It’s so beautiful.

Things I did with my friends ๐Ÿ’•:

Tickets for Eurovision Song Contest 2020 ๐ŸŽŸ๏ธ๐ŸŽถ

I could have not placed this now on my favourites because it’s cancelled but I still was happy about it. I also think that the tickets are valid for next year too. I bought tickets for the family show because the liveshows were much more expensive. I can’t wait to go next year with my friend! Eurovision is one of my favourite events in the year and seeing the Netherlands winning last year was one of my most beautiful days in life. Duncan made history. It has been 44 years since The Netherlands didn’t won.

Presents from my friend ๐ŸŽ

My dear friend Shame came to my house at the end of January and we also ate some delicious tapas. I still didn’t share the presents I got from her for my birthday last year and Valentine’s Day this year. She got me a beautiful mug with a picture of us this Valentine’s Day. I loved it!!! I also got a beautiful Christmas card, birthday card, foaming shower gel from Rituals and Dove products such as shower oil and body lotion. It smells so well and makes my skin so soft. I also got some violet nail polish which is my fav colour ๐Ÿ’…๐Ÿ’œ. I’m so thankful for these presents and for our friendship. Friends forevah! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ™

Other amazing things of February โœจ:

Yoga with Adriene at home ๐Ÿง˜โ€โ™€๏ธ

I’m doing a lot of yoga and meditation right now at home. It helps me so much to stay grounded and more calm. I love Yoga with Adriene. You can find her videos on Youtube. I love the yoga mat I got from my brother and his wife for Sinterklaas last year. I’m using it every day now. I love the videos of calming my anxiety, releasing back pain and shoulder pain. Adriene is so amazing, love her!

Buying stationery online at Etsy ๐Ÿ›๏ธ

So I love to support small businesses because it’s so important. They have much more cute and amazing stuff. They are mostly handmade. I bought beautiful colourful and floral ๐ŸŒผ print envelopes from the shop AmethystCardsShop from France. They are so beautiful. I’m really happy about them. I also bought beautiful writing paper with animals on it such as panda’s ๐Ÿผ, cats ๐Ÿฑ and foxes ๐ŸฆŠ. This writing paper is from the shop MikuCatDesigns from Spain. I really like it. It’s too beautiful to use it haha.

New serie Luimelia ๐Ÿณ๏ธโ€๐ŸŒˆ

There’s a new amazing Spanish serie which is called Luimelia. I already love the Spanish serie Amar es para siempre (love is forever). Amelia and Luisita are already being actresses in this serie. They are representing a lesbian couple in the 70s in Spain. I love them so much. They are so beautiful ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŒˆ. The spinoff of Luimelia is amazing as it shows their relationship nowadays. The serie also includes the theme of feminism, the lgbt+ community and social media. The episodes only last 10 minutes and there are 6 of them. It’s really nice. I loved it. They already announced a second and third season.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. What was your favourite thing from my list? Do you love my new stationery? Which Disney movie is your favourite? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

Coronavirus: Is this a wake up call for the world?! ๐ŸŒ

Hola lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

I know all we can talk about now in the world is the coronavirus (Covid-19). I wanted to post a blog post about some happy stuff such as some book reviews but I really need to talk about this. I have to describe my feelings and thoughts on it as I always do with important topics such as mental health, feminism, injustice in the world and other topics. I need to let my thoughts go and write it down here or I will feel that I explode ๐Ÿ˜ฅ. My mind is so full these days. I’m not doing okay.

So, I can’t sleep well anymore. I feel so bad and anxious. I’m crying every day ๐Ÿ˜ข. I don’t know how to cope. I have cramps in my stomach. It’s in times I didn’t felt so bad. This virus only increased my anxiety. How can I feel less anxious when the situation is getting worse every day and people are dying? I feel hopeless. There’s an outbreak of a pandemic in the world right now. The coronavirus feels like the flu but it’s worse because you have fever, cough and it effects your lungs. It all began in China in December. They eat a lot of strange food there such as living animals such as cats, dogs and whatever. My daddy said that the virus comes from bats. I’m of course not a doctor and don’t know much about viruses but all we know is that it’s spreading to every country. If I’m affected I could infect three other people.

I have sometimes health anxiety so I’m also a bit worried to get this virus to be honest. I think it’s normal that we are worried because our health is the most important thing in life. What I’m also worried about is the people who are vulnerable and the elderly people. My father for example has diabetics so it could be dangerous for him. What I don’t like about what’s happening now is that many people especially young people think oh only the old people die or the sick ones. That’s being so EGOISTIC. Writing this I feel tears in my eyes coming because I CARE. I care sometimes way too much about people, this earth and everyone because of being a highly sensitive person and also suffering from anxiety. I care about someone dying being 75 years old of coronavirus even though I don’t know that person. It could be your father, daughter, grandmother. Every one deserves a good life and deserves to live and be treaten well ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ™.

Everything is cancelled right now ๐Ÿšซ. In The Netherlands there are no concerts, theater, cinema, sport events happening anymore and all schools are closed. I’m worried about that Eurovision in May will be cancelled too. I hope to go another day. I was so happy when this year began because of this event and good stuff. I’m worried about my friends in Italy being locked down. Spain has now declared an emergency state. I’m worried about my family and friends there. They only can leave the house for meds, work or to go to the supermarket. My mother and I are supposed to go in two weeks but that isn’t possible anymore. Tonight they closed the borders. It makes me sad to not be able to go as we never experienced this. None of us does. It feels lik a movie but it’s happening and it’s real. Scary stuff ๐Ÿ˜ข. I just hope we can enjoy Summer time ๐ŸŒž in Spain because otherwise I will get so depressed and anxious. I don’t like Summer in The Netherlands because the sun doesn’t shine that much. I’m just always so happy in Spain. Holy week in Spain is cancelled too. I would have to go to the dentist in Spain too but right now it isn’t an emegerncy as I have no pain.

I’m a highly sensitive person, an empath and suffer from anxiety. This is maybe not the best combination in the midst of the Coronavirus. I care always so much about others and everything that it all affects me emotionally. I suffer more but I also love more. I’m here for all the ones in need. You can always talk to me. We are not alone ๐Ÿ’ช We are all in this together.

I just got inspired to write this post too because of Melissa Wells. Maybe everything what’s happening now is a wake up call for the damn world. Care about the elderly. Help people in need. Think of the ones working in the hospital sector and supermarkts. I’m seeing also very good deeds this week such as people donating blood in Spain for the people who need it. Doctors from China are helping Italy and Spain with medical products. The supermarkets are almost empty here and also in the rest of the world. I don’t find that at all funny. Maybe this pandemic virus is a wake up call for the world like that we have to be more compassionate, less egostic and think of others. Don’t buy so much stuff in the supermarkets because then someone else can’t buy toilet paper or hand gel or food. Think more of others than of yourself.

All people think of nowadays is me, myself and I. It’s the wrong way. We are all human and we all long for the same things such as food security, love, safety and being healthy. I also feel that this lack of control and uncertainty is making me more anxious. All governments and society thinks about is money and power. I’m a hippie by heart and just never feel like I approve with the society we are living in. Maybe more people feel that way.

Citizens have to be responsible for their actions too. In Italy and Spain they aren’t allowed to go outside or have fun with friends in some bar. Take these measures seriously. Many young people can’t die from it, but if you do get infected you can make others infected like people who are in a vulnerable state or older people. Your actions could be the death of someone else. Buy responsibly ๐Ÿ›’. My mother wanted to buy paracetamol today and saw everyone being greedy and getting them. That isn’t the way to handle things in life. I saw a picture where Italy has almost no pollution in the air and is clear. You see, we can fight climate change all together ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿค—. I saw people donating loads of blood in Spain. Good things happen every day. We can all make a change in this world.

I will stay mostly at home now. It’s time to slow down. It’s time to help others and not think of me, myself and I. Let’s be compassionate, solidair and less egoistic. Follow the health instructions. Don’t buy everything you see in the supermarkets because then there will be nothing left for others. We have to be all strong together and help each other. We are all in this together. I’m also anxious right now but I hope this situation will be solved as long as we take all measures seriously. Wash your hands well and focus less on social media. I also have to watch less news as that only increase my anxiety and doesn’t solve anything. We will see what will happening the coming days. Stay safe at home ๐Ÿก, read books ๐Ÿ“š, blog, watch series and movies ๐ŸŽฌ, or listen to podcasts. There are so many nice things to do at home. We don’t always have to be outside to have fun.

It’s time that countries work together with each other to combate this pandemic of Coronavirus. We are all together in this. 2020 is the year that will change our view of the world because of this health crisis. We will make it out stronger and hopefully we will learn to be more responsible for this earth and for all its people ๐ŸŒ๐Ÿ’•.

At the end, everything will be allright. Take care, stay safe and love because that will never be cancelled ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿค—โœจI’m here for you all. I love you all so much!

Thank you all for reading this important blog post. I hope it didn’t sound depressing. I just wanted to share the good and the bad like always. How do you feel about the Coronavirus? Are you anxious? How’s it in your country? What do you do to calm yourself down? I really need some support right now. Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

International Women’s Day 2020 ๐Ÿ’ชโ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ’œ

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

I always find it so important to talk about women’s rights especially today. Today it’s International Women’s Day ๐Ÿ’œโ™€๏ธ. Every day is women’s day but I find today just an important day to talk about feminism and women’s rights. I love to write poetry about this topic. I love to read about it. I love to speak up about it because we have the right to speak up. I will also share at the end a poem, a picture and a cover ๐ŸŽถ I made for this subject. I will not say happy International Women’s Day because how can we be happy when there are still so many women suffering in this world? How can we be happy when we are still afraid walking at night? How can we be happy when we are always afraid of something happening to us? There still needs a lot to be done to have equal rights between men and women.

There’s still no equality between men and women in this world. We have to raise our voice and talk about it. Men still earn in many places more than women. Men still consider women as objects. Men still keep catcalling women on the street. Rape, sexual abuse and violence against women exists. It still happens. It happens in The Netherlands, in Spain and anywhere else in the world. It has nothing to do with undeveloped or developed countries. This is an issue which effects the whole world ๐ŸŒ. I wish we wouldn’t live in a patriarchal world. To be honest, I’m sick of it. Women can be bosses too. We don’t need men to feel satisfied or be happy in life.

I have always been a feminist and also will be a feminst forever ๐Ÿ’œโ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ”ฅ. Women and men deserve the same human rights. It’s that simple. Some men always think that if you are a feminist, you hate men. That isn’t the case at all. Of course, men can be a feminst too because this isn’t just about women, it’s also about men. We don’t want to have the power over men. We just want GENDER EQUALITY.

Girl support girls always

I have to admit that I still have a wall around me because of my ex. It’s been 7 years since the break up ๐Ÿ’”. I dated some guys sometimes but just short and nothing serious. I’m afraid to get hurt again. I liked guys which just wanted me because they wanted sex from me and I don’t want that. They saw me as an object and even one time one said that they thought I was sexual attractive. I was like fuck off ๐Ÿ‘†. You see, I’m fed up with these kind of comments. I want to be seen as a women for my qualities which means being sensitive, romantic, creative, compassionate and for being intelligent and having a good heart. When I see a man or get to know one I think of these qualities of that person whereas men always focus on our physically.

To be honest, I don’t blame men for those behaviours because they can be changed. Those are not great comments of course. Those behaviours are thought from an early age. Boys and girls are grown up differently. Boys have to be strong and like men stuff like cars ๐Ÿš˜ and football and girls are grown up having to be like a princess ๐Ÿ‘ธ, being sweet and sensitive and loving all cute and pink stuff. It’s the wrong way to have grown up. The moment a child doesn’t feel like fitting in, he or she fall outside the box in our society. So, I definitely think these male-dominated behaviours of catcalling and seeing women as an object comes from an early age.

I really do think we have to raise boys and girls the same way. Tell them it’s okay to be and like who they want to like. Tell the boys it’s okay to cry. Tell the girls it’s okay to be a warrior. This will also cause less mental health problems in the future. There are more men who die by suicide then women because they feel they can’t express their emotions and don’t have the right to cry and talk about their feelings.

As you can see, there is still a lot to do with achieving real equality between men and women. I’m a feminist by heart and I find it important to raise awareness about equality always. Therefor I made a poem ๐Ÿ“ for this day and this poem relates to the picture where you can see me with tape on my mouth. I made this picture a few years ago for an assignment for school. It was for my minor of photography. We had to show a contrast with two pictures. I had chosen the topic of freedom. This picture is the opposite of how I’m able to live my life. This picture relates to my poem below.

Picture of myself showing how some women can't speak up

๐‘ฐ ๐’‚๐’Ž ๐’‚ ๐’˜๐’๐’Ž๐’‚๐’.
๐‘ป๐’‰๐’†๐’“๐’†๐’‡๐’๐’“ ๐‘ฐ ๐’ˆ๐’†๐’• ๐’‘๐’–๐’๐’Š๐’”๐’‰๐’†๐’….
๐‘ฐ ๐’„๐’‚๐’’๐’• ๐’˜๐’†๐’‚๐’“ ๐’˜๐’‰๐’‚๐’• ๐‘ฐ ๐’˜๐’‚๐’๐’•.
๐‘ฐ ๐’„๐’‚๐’’๐’• ๐’ƒ๐’† ๐’˜๐’‰๐’ ๐‘ฐ ๐’˜๐’‚๐’๐’• ๐’•๐’ ๐’ƒ๐’†.
๐‘ฐ ๐’„๐’‚๐’’๐’• ๐’ˆ๐’ ๐’”๐’๐’Ž๐’†๐’˜๐’‰๐’†๐’“๐’† ๐’‚๐’๐’๐’๐’†.
๐‘ฐ ๐’„๐’‚๐’’๐’• ๐’…๐’“๐’Š๐’—๐’†.
๐‘ฐ ๐’„๐’‚๐’’๐’• ๐’˜๐’๐’“๐’Œ ๐’๐’–๐’•๐’”๐’Š๐’…๐’† ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’‰๐’๐’–๐’”๐’†.
๐‘ฐ ๐’‰๐’‚๐’—๐’† ๐’•๐’ ๐’Ž๐’‚๐’“๐’“๐’š ๐’”๐’๐’Ž๐’†๐’๐’๐’† ๐‘ฐ ๐’‰๐’‚๐’—๐’† ๐’๐’†๐’—๐’†๐’“ ๐’Ž๐’†๐’• ๐’๐’“ ๐’‚ ๐’‡๐’‚๐’Ž๐’Š๐’๐’š ๐’Ž๐’†๐’Ž๐’ƒ๐’†๐’“.
๐‘ฐ๐’‡ ๐‘ฐ’๐’Ž ๐’๐’–๐’„๐’Œ๐’š ๐‘ฐ ๐’„๐’‚๐’ ๐’Ž๐’‚๐’š๐’ƒ๐’† ๐’Ž๐’‚๐’“๐’“๐’š ๐’”๐’๐’Ž๐’†๐’๐’๐’† ๐’˜๐’‰๐’†๐’ ๐‘ฐ’๐’Ž 20 ๐’š๐’†๐’‚๐’“๐’” ๐’๐’๐’….
๐‘ด๐’š ๐’‡๐’“๐’Š๐’†๐’๐’…๐’” ๐’‚๐’“๐’† ๐’‚๐’๐’“๐’†๐’‚๐’…๐’š ๐’Ž๐’‚๐’“๐’“๐’Š๐’†๐’… ๐’‹๐’–๐’”๐’• ๐’•๐’‰๐’†๐’Ž ๐’ƒ๐’†๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’Œ๐’Š๐’…๐’”.
๐‘ด๐’‚๐’“๐’“๐’š๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’ƒ๐’†๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’‚ ๐’„๐’‰๐’Š๐’๐’… ๐’Š๐’” ๐’”๐’ ๐’๐’๐’“๐’Ž๐’‚๐’ ๐’‰๐’†๐’“๐’†.
๐‘ฐ ๐’„๐’‚๐’’๐’• ๐’”๐’‘๐’†๐’‚๐’Œ ๐’–๐’‘.
๐‘ฐ’๐’Ž ๐’”๐’Š๐’๐’†๐’๐’„๐’†๐’….
๐‘ด๐’†๐’ ๐’‰๐’‚๐’—๐’† ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’‘๐’๐’˜๐’†๐’“ ๐’๐’—๐’†๐’“ ๐’–๐’”.
๐‘ป๐’‰๐’Š๐’” ๐’Š๐’” ๐’Ž๐’š ๐’๐’Š๐’‡๐’†.

๐‘ป๐’‰๐’Š๐’” ๐’Š๐’” ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’”๐’•๐’๐’“๐’š ๐’๐’‡ ๐’˜๐’๐’Ž๐’†๐’ ๐’๐’Š๐’—๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’Š๐’ ๐’Ž๐’‚๐’๐’š ๐’–๐’๐’…๐’†๐’—๐’†๐’๐’๐’‘๐’†๐’… ๐’„๐’๐’–๐’๐’•๐’“๐’Š๐’†๐’” ๐’๐’‡ ๐’๐’–๐’“ ๐’˜๐’๐’“๐’๐’….
๐‘ฐ๐’ ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’…๐’†๐’—๐’†๐’๐’๐’‘ ๐’„๐’๐’–๐’๐’•๐’“๐’Š๐’†๐’” ๐’•๐’‰๐’†๐’“๐’†’๐’” ๐’‚๐’๐’”๐’ ๐’”๐’•๐’Š๐’๐’ ๐’‚ ๐’๐’๐’• ๐’๐’‡ ๐’Š๐’Ž๐’‘๐’“๐’๐’—๐’†๐’Ž๐’†๐’๐’• ๐’•๐’ ๐’…๐’ ๐’˜๐’Š๐’•๐’‰ ๐’˜๐’๐’Ž๐’†๐’’๐’” ๐’“๐’Š๐’ˆ๐’‰๐’•๐’”.
๐‘พ๐’† ๐’‚๐’“๐’† ๐’‹๐’–๐’”๐’• ๐’†๐’™๐’•๐’“๐’†๐’Ž๐’†๐’๐’š ๐’‘๐’“๐’Š๐’—๐’Š๐’๐’†๐’ˆ๐’†๐’… ๐’‚๐’๐’… ๐’‰๐’‚๐’—๐’† ๐’•๐’ ๐’Œ๐’๐’๐’˜ ๐’•๐’ ๐’‡๐’Š๐’ˆ๐’‰๐’• ๐’‡๐’๐’“ ๐’˜๐’๐’Ž๐’†๐’’๐’” ๐’“๐’Š๐’ˆ๐’‰๐’• ๐’‚๐’๐’ ๐’๐’—๐’†๐’“ ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’˜๐’๐’“๐’๐’….
๐‘พ๐’‰๐’†๐’ ๐’˜๐’† ๐’”๐’‘๐’†๐’‚๐’Œ ๐’–๐’‘, ๐’˜๐’† ๐’…๐’ ๐’Š๐’• ๐’‚๐’๐’ ๐’•๐’๐’ˆ๐’†๐’•๐’‰๐’†๐’“ ๐Ÿ’ช
๐‘พ๐’† ๐’‚๐’“๐’† ๐’‚๐’๐’˜๐’‚๐’š๐’” ๐’Š๐’ ๐’•๐’‰๐’Š๐’” ๐’•๐’๐’ˆ๐’†๐’•๐’‰๐’†๐’“.
๐‘พ๐’๐’Ž๐’†๐’’๐’” ๐’“๐’Š๐’ˆ๐’‰๐’•๐’” ๐’‚๐’“๐’† ๐’‰๐’–๐’Ž๐’‚๐’ ๐’“๐’Š๐’ˆ๐’‰๐’•๐’” ๐’‚๐’๐’… ๐’๐’๐’ƒ๐’๐’…๐’š ๐’„๐’‚๐’ ๐’๐’“ ๐’˜๐’Š๐’๐’ ๐’†๐’—๐’†๐’“ ๐’•๐’‚๐’Œ๐’† ๐’•๐’‰๐’‚๐’• ๐’‚๐’˜๐’‚๐’š ๐’‡๐’๐’“ ๐’–๐’”.
๐‘จ๐’๐’ ๐’˜๐’๐’Ž๐’†๐’ ๐’…๐’†๐’”๐’†๐’“๐’—๐’† ๐’•๐’ ๐’๐’Š๐’—๐’† ๐’‚ ๐’๐’Š๐’‡๐’† ๐’Š๐’ ๐’‡๐’“๐’†๐’†๐’…๐’๐’Ž.
๐‘พ๐’† ๐’„๐’‰๐’‚๐’๐’ˆ๐’† ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’˜๐’๐’“๐’๐’… ๐’†๐’—๐’†๐’“๐’š๐’…๐’‚๐’š! ๐’€๐’†๐’” ๐’˜๐’† ๐’„๐’‚๐’ ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ

Besides, I also made this cover of the song La puerta violeta ๐Ÿ’œ๐ŸŽถ from rozalen. It’s such a beautiful Spanish song. Rozalen is such an amazing Spanish artist! This song is about violence against women and about freedom. She sings about drawing a violet door on the wall, running in the forest and being free and safe. It’s a song dedicated for the violence against women around the world.

I shared the cover on my instagram which you can find below.

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International Women's Day ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿ’œ . Yesterday it was International Women's Day ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’ชโ™€๏ธIt's been a long time since I shared a cover from a song ๐ŸŽถ. I made this cover of the song La puerta violeta from @rozalenmusic. It's such a beautiful Spanish song. Rozalen is amazing! This song is about violence against women and about freedom. She sings about drawing a violet door, running in the forest and being free and safe. ๐‘ท๐’†๐’“๐’ ๐’…๐’Š๐’ƒ๐’–๐’‹รฉ ๐’–๐’๐’‚ ๐’‘๐’–๐’†๐’“๐’•๐’‚ ๐’—๐’Š๐’๐’๐’†๐’•๐’‚ ๐’†๐’ ๐’๐’‚ ๐’‘๐’‚๐’“๐’†๐’… ๐’€ ๐’‚๐’ ๐’†๐’๐’•๐’“๐’‚๐’“ ๐’Ž๐’† ๐’๐’Š๐’ƒ๐’†๐’“รฉ ๐‘ช๐’๐’Ž๐’ ๐’”๐’† ๐’…๐’†๐’”๐’‘๐’๐’Š๐’†๐’ˆ๐’‚ ๐’๐’‚ ๐’—๐’†๐’๐’‚ ๐’…๐’† ๐’–๐’ ๐’ƒ๐’‚๐’“๐’„๐’ ๐‘ซ๐’†๐’”๐’‘๐’†๐’“๐’•รฉ ๐’†๐’ ๐’–๐’ ๐’‘๐’“๐’‚๐’…๐’ ๐’—๐’†๐’“๐’…๐’† ๐’Ž๐’–๐’š ๐’๐’†๐’‹๐’๐’” ๐’…๐’† ๐’‚๐’’๐’–รญ ๐‘ช๐’๐’“๐’“รญ, ๐’ˆ๐’“๐’Š๐’•รฉ, ๐’“๐’†รญ ๐‘บรฉ ๐’๐’ ๐’’๐’–๐’† ๐’๐’ ๐’’๐’–๐’Š๐’†๐’“๐’ ๐‘จ๐’‰๐’๐’“๐’‚ ๐’†๐’”๐’•๐’๐’š ๐’‚ ๐’”๐’‚๐’๐’—๐’ I hope you all liked this song and we can change the world little by little. Women and men are equal. We all deserve the same human rights. Let's all stand together to make this happen and take action. Yes we can do it! ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ

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I hope you all liked the poem and the song. It’s just so important to speak up for the ones who can’t speak up. We have to do it all together ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿ’–. We are all making a change every day by changing our thoughts and behaviour. We are all equal. Nobody is better. We are all human and deserve to be treated that way.

Thank you all for reading this important blog post about international women’s day, equality, human rights and feminism. I hope you all liked it and that it inspired you. Are you also a feminist? What do you think of equality? What do you think needs to change to achieve gender equality in the world? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

Just be yourself poem ๐ŸŒธ

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

I would like to share a poem I made a few days ago about being myself and I also shared it online. It’s been a long time since I shared a poem on here. I love to express myself with writing. I will show a picture of me with this poem I made. I had a nice photoshoot one day in Spain. This picture is already 6 years old haha but sssht ๐Ÿคซ I still look the same ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿคญ.

Picture of myself in Spain

I am sensitive.

I am caring.

I am beautiful.

I am creative.

I am inspiring.

I am strong.

I am lovable.

I am enough.

I am loved.

I am empathetic.

I am vulnerable.

I am honest.

I am open-minded.

I am intelligent.

I am sweet.

I am romantic.

I can be all of them.

I don’t have to choose between one of them.

Being human means being all of those things.

That’s the power of being human.

To be who you want to be without having to choose.

Being ourselves and loving ourselves unconditionally.

We are all human and matter.

Be yourself and love yourself.

Just be you.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope this poem inspired you to be just yourself with all your qualities and flaws. You are beautiful just the way you are ๐Ÿ’–. What do you think of my poem? What makes you you? Do you think it’s difficult to be yourself in our society? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

Music of January ๐ŸŽถ๐ŸŒบ๐ŸŒธ

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

I listened to some amazing music in January. I will share all the new music which has been released that month in this post. I hope you will like it. I love the new album of Selena Gomez ๐Ÿ˜. There are so many amazing songs in it. Also some other Spanish songs has been released such as from Rosalรญa and Shakira.

Lizzo – Good as hell

I just listened to this song because in the Spanish talent show Operaciรณn Triunfo some participants were singing it. I’m always late too listening to some songs haha. I really love this song so much! So much girl power! ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿ’œ More songs of this style please.

Jonas Brothers – What a man gotta do

The Jonas Brothers are on fire lately! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ”ฅ They are releasing so many good songs. I love this song and the video is so catchy too. I also really LOVE that their wives are in so many videoclips. It’s so cute. I wish to go to one of their concerts and sing and dance along every song of them.

John Legend – Conversations in the dark

”I wonโ€™t ever try to change you, change you
I will always want the same you, same you
Swear on everything I pray to
That I wonโ€™t break your heart
Iโ€™ll be there when you get lonely, lonely
Keep the secrets that you told me, told me
And your love is all you owe me
And I wonโ€™t break your heart

I don’t listen to John Legend that much but sometimes I hear a song I really love like this one. He is such a great artist. This song is so beautiful and touching. I love how he writes about love and how this music just make you feel that love. I feel a bit alone too while listening to this song because of being single. Deep down I crave for that one true love.

India Menzel ft. Evan Rachel Wood – Show yourself (Frozen 2)

”Show yourself
Step into your power
Throw yourself
Into something new
You are the one you’ve been waiting for
All of my life
All of your life
Oh, show yourself”

When I watched Frozen 2 I felt completely in love with this song and everything in this scene ๐Ÿ˜โœจ. I relate to this song so much. I have to show myself more instead of hiding in this world. I hide myself because of being bullied in my teens. I am worth it and have the right to love and show myself. We all have our answers in ourselves. We just have to look into our hearts and find it. This song is just so wonderful. Frozen is amazing.

Kacey Musgraves – All is found (Frozen 2)

I find this song so relaxing and so beautiful too. I love Disney for their beautiful movies such as Frozen and for the beautiful music such as this song. It’s so touching and cute.

Taylor Swift – Only the young

While I was watching the amazing documentary of Taylor Swift called Miss Americana I heard this new song for the first time ๐Ÿ’–. I wrote about her documentary in this post. This song is SO GOOD!!! It’s a song with a message. We are the genereation who can save and change this world ๐ŸŒ๐Ÿ’ช. We may be young but we can do it! We have the right to speak up about anything we believe in.

Eva – Let’s twist again (Operaciรณn Triunfo 2020)

I love this Spanish talent show so I will share some nice covers which they sing in the liveshows. I love how Eva sang Let’s twist again by Chubby Checker. She did it so well and so good. She was wearing clothes from her grandfather haha so awesome! I love her expression and everything. Such a good performance. I wish I would feel so comfortable singing on that stage.

Rosalรญa – Juro que

AAAHHH Rosalรญa is back with some beautiful flamenco music! ๐Ÿ’ƒ It’s about a flamenco girl who was physically and verbally abused. She is back to her roots and I love it. I also love when she make songs in the genre of reggeaton but I love these kinds of songs more in her style.

Shakira ft. Anuel AA – Me gusta

I can’t wait for more new music of Shakira. I love her old songs so much such as Waka Waka and La Bicicleta. I also like this song. It’s catchy.

Selena Gomez – Rare

Finally Selena is back with a new album! ๐Ÿ’• I have missed her. She is such a good and genuine artist. She already released the amazing songs Loose you to love me and Look at her now. I love her new music. I will share my top three favourite songs of her new album with you.

Selena Gomez – Rare

I know that I’m special”

Beautiful song! This videoclip is also so beautiful. I love the colours, her being in nature and her dress. She is so special and so beautiful ๐ŸŒธ. We are all special in our own way. I love the message of this song so much. It also sounds so good. It’s really her style.

Selena Gomez – People you know

We used to be close, but people can go
From people you know to people you don’t
And what hurts the most is people can go

Another amazing song of Selena. I really feel this way too. We all loose people in our lives whether that is due to falling apart, grief or anything else ๐Ÿ’”. I find it hard sometimes to let people go but sometimes it’s for the best. Her voice is so beautiful. I love the beat in this song too.

Selena Gomez ft. 6LACK – Crowded room

This is such a relaxing song. I can feel those vibes. I love it when she sings those high notes. It all sounds so good.

BTS – Black Swan (Performed by MN Dance Company)

I cried while watching this beautiful, amazing and inspiring music video of the new song Black Swan by BTS ๐Ÿฆข. This is real music. It feels like the guy dancing feels like not fitting in with the others and is doing his own dance. That’s what I feel while watching it. I love the instruments and just everything. The dancers are amazing. So incredible beautiful! This is real art.

G. Soul – Bad habit

While I was listening to Black Swan I saw this song from G.Soul. Nice song. I don’t listen that much to K-pop but I really like this song and the beats of it.

The Original Rudeboys – Hypocrete

byI’M SO HAPPY THEY ARE BACK! โ˜บ๏ธ๐Ÿ‘ I missed them so much. I loved listening to their music. The Original Rudeboys was the support act of The Script some years ago when I went to see them. I love the songs Stars in my eyes, Travelling man and Blue eyes. I love this new song of them. They make such great music together and sing very well. I can’t wait for more music of them this year.

Racoon – Het is al laat toch

Racoon is one of my fav bands of The Netherlands. They are so talented. I loved when I saw them live in Haarlem once. I’m happy they are making music again. I really like this new song. I normally don’t like that much when Dutch artists sing in Dutch but sometimes it’s really good like this time haha. I just am more used to listening songs in English or in Spanish.

Thank you so much for reading this blog post and listening to these amazing songs. Which song is your favourite? What kind of music do you listen to? What was your favourite song from January? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

January favourites 2020 ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿฅฐโœจ

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

It takes me a long time to finally begin to write this post because I have been sick since Thursday night. I was vomiting ๐Ÿคข and had diarrhea and it was really the worst ๐Ÿ˜ญ. I think it was a stomach flu. Today is the first day that I’m eating again. I drank some soup, bread and my lovely mother made a soup with veggies and potatoes. It’s the time of the year to get sick. I hope you are all doing well and are healthy. We always appreciate our health the most when we are sick. We really take it for granted many times. I do the same. I did a lot of nice things in January which I love to share with you all. I will share about the birthday celebration with my friend in Spain ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ, Three King’s Day ๐ŸŽ‰, eating delicious tapas with my friend in The Netherlands and faced one of my biggest fears. In this post I will tell you all about it.

Things I did with my lovely family ๐Ÿ‘ช:

Watching the beautiful Christmas lights in Valladolid ๐ŸŽ„โœจ

Hhaha this is the last time I will mention Christmas in one of my blog posts until it’s Christmas time again ๐Ÿ˜‚. In Spain they let the lights until Three King’s Day which is the 6th of January. I love to walk around the city that time of the year with my mother because it’s soooo beautiful ๐Ÿ˜. In Valladolid there are way more lights than in Haarlem. The city centre is beautiful. The plaza mayor where the city hall is full of lights ๐ŸŽ„โœจ, a Christmas tree and some attractions for the kids. On the city hall you can read the words Feliz Aรฑo 2020 which means happy new year.

Celebrating Three King’s Day ๐ŸŽ‰

I love to celebrate Three King’s Day. I have so many celebrations because I’m bilingual. On the 5th of January my mother and I saw the procession of the Tree Kings. They were throwing candies ๐Ÿญ๐Ÿฌ and greeting the children. There’s also loads of music. It’s a big fiesta in Spain. The shops are open until midnight so that the parents can buy their presents. There were also beautiful fireworks ๐ŸŽ†. The next day, I eat a roscon de reyes which is some delicious sweet and typical sweet of this feast. I also got nice presents which was champignon soup haha, chocolate and a beautiful poetry book from Alfred Garcรญa which is a Spanish singer.

Bought clothes from Stradivarius โœจ

I wanted to give my mother a present too for Three King’s Day but at the end I use it because it was a bit small for her. I bought online some clothes from a nice shop called Stradivarius. I love Disney so much so I bought a sweater of The Lion King ๐Ÿฆ and a t-shirt of The Little Mermaid ๐Ÿงœโ€โ™€๏ธ. Don’t you think it’s super cute?! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’– It’s both so comfy – love it!!!

Faced my fear of going to the dentist ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿฆท

If it wasn’t for my mother I wouldn’t have been able to go to the dentist. Otherwise I would get pushed to go and that won’t work for someone who has anxiety like me. It’s strange to put this into my favourites haha because I don’t like going to the dentist ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜ข. Just the fact that I faced my fear and that everything went just so well was a big milestone for me. Plus the dentist is very handsome and caring and that makes it even better. I’m still anxious for the next three times I have to get rid of my wisdom teeth but hopefully it will go well too. I just hope to be less anxiety ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿคž. I trust this dentist and his team which just makes the whole experience so much better. You can read how everything went in this blog post.

Watching Spanish series and talent show with mama ๐Ÿ“บ

I LOVE TO WATCH SERIES WITH MAMA ๐Ÿ˜. It’s really so fun haha. The worst is when we can’t sleep well because we are so into it. Everyday we watch the Spanish serie Amar es para siempre which is about the 70’s in Spain. On the 24th of January in 1977 there were some police men killing innocent lawyer who were working in an office in Madrid. They were from the communistic party. Right extremists police men came into their office and were looking for a man, didn’t find him and killed other innocent people. This happened in real life and is now showed in the serie. I didn’t know about this. It was really important because it was step into democracy in Spain. It was really horrible to see and some lovely actors died ๐Ÿ˜ข. I had to cry a lot because of course these actors still live but they really killed innocent people which is just horrible. One woman called Cris lost his partner for the second time. Also that happened in real life. The lawyers now want justice and that they pay for what they have done. It’s so exciting now to see because we want to know everytime how it will go on.

We are also watching another serie called Cuรฉntame cรณmo paso which is also about the past in Spain. It’s about a typical Spanish family living in Madrid. They are now in the 90’s. I find all these series so interesting because you really see how people were living that year. It’s so real, honest and so beautiful to wach. We also watch Operaciรณn Triunfo ๐ŸŽถ which is again on tv. It’s Spanish talentshow where 16 concursants live together for three months in a singing academy. Every week there’s a liveshow and someone has to leave until the final where there’s a winner.

Hot chocolate time โ˜•

I had a nice walk in the park with my mother when we got back to The Netherlands in January. It was pretty misty though but I loved the pictures I took. Afterwards, we enjoyed a delicious hot chocolate in the restaurant of the park. I love to live near to the park. It’s always so peaceful to walk there surrounded by beautiful nature.

Awesome things I did with my lovely friends ๐Ÿ’–:

Birthday celebration of my Spanish friend ๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽ‚

Me and my friend went to eat in a restaurant for the birthday of one of our friends. We ate so delicious. I drank Radler beer. That’s like almost the only one I like and I don’t drink almost any alcohol. We ate delicious chips, croquettes, chicken, eggs with potatoes and jamรณn serrano and fish. I’m getting hungry now haha ๐Ÿ˜‚. I didn’t eat the fish haha because I don’t like it that much. It was nice to see my friends again.

Eating tapas in La Cubanita in Haarlem ๐Ÿ˜‹๐Ÿด

I finally saw my lovely friend from Irak again. It was almost one year since we didn’t see each other. I missed her so much. I’m so happy our friendship is still the same every time we see each other. Time didn’t pass at all. Our friendship is strong and forever. I’m so thankful for our friendship ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ™. She came to Haarlem and first she visited my parents. I’m so happy my family is her family too. In the evening we ate together in La Cubanita. I love that restaurant because it has delicious tapas. We could eat as much as we want for just one prize. We ate jamรณn serrano with melon, manchego ๐Ÿง€ with rucula, sweet potatoes with curry, tomatoes with mozarella, carpaccio, bread with tapenada and alioli and croquettes. As dessert I always eat delicious vanilla ice cream with chocolate sauce and whipped cream. We loved it all so much!!! I can’t wait to eat tapas again with you, have fun and just see each other much. LOVE YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK ๐ŸŒœ๐ŸŒ›๐Ÿ’žโœจ

Other amazing things of January โœจ:

Watched Frozen 2 and Let it snow โ„๏ธโ›„๐Ÿฆ„

I watched two amazing movies. I finally watched Frozen 2 and omggg I loved it so much ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜. I love Disney and this movie is so good. The first one is still my favourite but this movie was also so amazing. I love the visuals, the music and just everything. I have all the time ahhhhhh in my head when they sing the song Into the unknown. Elsa is the best and Olaf is soooo cute. I also watched the movie Let it snow which is based on the book from John Green. It’s about different couples. I really liked it. Maybe it’s a bit cliche sometimes but it’s okay. I really want to read that book now.

Taylor Swift documentary Miss Americana ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŽถ

I want to wear pink and tell you how I feel about politics

THIS WAS SOOOO UNBELIEVABLE GOOD ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‘Œ. This documentary. I really cried. Tay tay is my fav artist ever and I couldn’t wait to watch this documentary. I loved her already as artist and as person but after seeing this documentary I could only love her more. She went through hell during her career as being a female artist. She stood up for her rights, went through sexual assault and had so much hate said to her. I admire her so much for being real, honest and vulnerable. I’m so happy of her being the artist of the decade ๐Ÿ’ช. She is such a rolemodel. I’m happy she is now happier and in love and living the life she have always dreamt of and doing what she always wanted to do. I’m also happy that she is now making music with her own credits which nobody can take away from her. I loved the things she said, her cute cat, her lovely mother which I hope will recover from cancer soon. I loved to hear some old songs in the documantary such as Delecate, Getaway car, Call it what you want, All too well and of course The Man and You need to calm down are awesome. LOVE HER SO MUCH AND WISH TO MEET HER ONE DAY AND GO TO A CONCERT. PLEASE UNIVERSE ANSWER MY PRAYERS THANK YOU HAHA ๐Ÿฅฐโœจ๐Ÿ™.

Donating money for Australia Red Cross ๐Ÿ‡ฆ๐Ÿ‡บ๐Ÿ™

I donated money for Australia Red Cross for the fires ๐Ÿ”ฅ which were happening there. It wasn’t maybe much but every euro counts. The situation is better but there is still so much to do as the fire destroyed everything. It makes me so sad for the lovely animals ๐Ÿผ๐Ÿฆ˜ living there and for the people. We can all do something to make this world a better place.

Receiving presents from Switzerland ๐Ÿ‡จ๐Ÿ‡ญ๐ŸŽ

We always receive lovely presents from the mother of my ex with Christmas. We also sent presents to them. This time it came when we just arrived from Spain. The big surprise with the presents was a letter where she wrote that my ex is going to marry this month in Singapor looool didn’t see that coming ๐Ÿ˜ณ๐Ÿ˜‚. I’m happy for him though. Thanks for breaking my heart but I still hope you are happy. Thank u, next haha. Our love was beautiful while it lasted but also had some things which I didn’t like. I wouldn’t tolerate anymore talking badly about women or some actions. I’m a feminist by heart and will always be. I loved the presents. My father got money to eat with my mother and I one day, my mother got soap, toilet bag and Victoria’s Secret fragnance and lotion (I will use it too haha love it!!!!) and I got a beautiful glossy toilet bag and perfume from Naomi Campbell Cat Deluxe. It’s awesome! ๐Ÿ’– I love all the brands they have in Switzerland and all the luxery but it’s soooo expensive always. Much better to get it for free. It’s so sweet of her to send to us so we are really thankful about that.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope you liked to hear about my favourites of January. What did you enjoy in January? What did you liked from the things I did? Did you also watched the documentary of Taylor Swift or Frozen 2? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

I just want to be truly happy

Hola lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

I need to write some thoughts I have lately on my mind down here. I always am 100% honest and vulnerable because this is my safe space. I’m so thankful for all your support and for all of you being there for me ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’–. It means the most to me. Right now, I just don’t feel okay. It’s not like that I feel really bad but I’m also not feeling really good. It’s a strange feeling. I also have headaches and can’t wait to soak up some sunshine ๐ŸŒž when I will go again to Spain in two months. This grey and rainy weather affects my mood and mental health so much ๐Ÿ˜ข. I will tell you all about it in this blog post. I hope I’m not the only one feeling this way.

I feel lonely lately because I don’t leave the house much and if I leave the house I just go to the park or go shopping with my mother. I don’t see my friends a lot ๐Ÿ˜ข. I feel isolated and bored. They are all busy. I just see some friends here or in Spain a few times in a month. Sometimes I feel I do all the effort in friendship/relationships. I’m so done with that because I can’t do that anymore. I’m a highly sensitive person and all my life I have felt that I love and do more for others than people do for me. I’m the helper. I’m the fixer. It’s nice to help others but I also would love that people do the same for me. Of course, I’m so thankful for my family especially my mother and my good friends in real life and online who are always there for me ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ™Œ.

I just wish to meet more people in real life too. I want to share my struggles and open up. I love to do it here online but sharing your stuff with a person face to face is the most vulnerable thing ever. It’s so good to do that and I really miss that right now in my life ๐Ÿ˜”. I love my pen pals, blogging friends and friends I know from the Yoga Girl community but those are all people living far away from me. I really would love to be able to teletransport myself so that we could be together having fun and talking about real life topics. I know one day that dream will become true even though it may cost some time ๐Ÿ™โœจ.

I also just feel like I’m just floating or trying to survive in life. I feel lost for so many years already and I just can’t see how to go out of that space. Lately I feel bored, uninspired and so tired about everything. I’m happy I faced my fear of going to the dentist last month in Spain but I still need to get three wisdom teeth out ๐Ÿฆท. I still need to face that fear three times more. I still need to get a job which just doesn’t seem to go well with me. I thought of maybe teaching kids English or Spanish. Life just feels like a never ending struggle. As I’m reading right now Looking for Alaska I feel that kind of struggle. It’s hard to feel it and to be in this space.

I also know that what I want from life is just to be truly happy. I want to be happy with myself. I have spend so many years being my own enemy that I’m done with it. It’s just to hard to heal in that way because whenever I feel anxious I doubt myself and say the worst things about myself. My inner-critic becomes loud and says that I’m not worth it, that I’m lazy for not having a job, that I’m not loved by anyone and that eventually everyone will leave me. This of course only makes me feel worse. Being bullied in high school caused me to have anxiety and these kinds of thoughts too. I have to listen more to my inner-bestfriend who tells me that I’m loved, worth it and that my worth has nothing to do whether I’m productive or not.

I also feel like I wouldn’t be happy with a 9 to 5 life or a routine. I feel like I would feel bored in one second. I want more out of life. I love adventure, travelling and meeting people which is sometimes a contrast of me having anxiety. Anxiety doesn’t form part of my personality even though sometimes I think it does because that voice gets so loud. The thing is that I have so many dreams but just never know how to make them happen because of insecurities, anxiety and just have no clue to make it all work. I would love to write a book ๐Ÿ“๐Ÿ“–, travel the world ๐ŸŒ, be able to surf the waves ๐Ÿ„โ€โ™€๏ธ๐ŸŒŠ and sometimes I even thought of being a singer. However, then I thought oh no that’s nothing for me because I don’t like attention. I don’t know if I would be happy if I would be famous.

Sometimes I love to isolate myself, hide myself, do yoga or meditation and just read books, write for my blog and write letters to my friends. There are also days that I like to go out, go to concerts with my friends and just have fun. I can be all of those things and don’t have to choose between one of another. I just wish I could really speak up more in real life and let myself seen. I have still a hard time doing that. I know it will make me happier in the long term.

Maybe we all know nothing of life and we are just trying to look like we have our life together when we don’t. Social media doesn’t give you a real view of what real life is. Sometimes I think of deleting it all as I tend to compare myself to others so much which ends up in feeling depressed and anxious of not having achieved certain milestones in life such as having a job, being married, having children and owning a car and a home. Then I always think to myself, is that what life is about? When you have all of that you are suppose to be “happy”. I really don’t know if all of that would make me happy to be honest.

Life for me is all about experiences, travels and connecting with wonderful people. I think what we miss right now in this society is trully being connected with someone and sharing our feelings. What I need right now is to be able to share my feelings and thoughts with someone. We all need to be able to laugh, cry, get a hug and have a real life connection. With the rise of social media this lack of connection is becoming a more serious issue. I love blogging and I love writing letters because the connection with someone is much stronger than writing a stupid whatsapp message. The next best thing is of course seeing that person. Maybe, that’s why I feel lonely too this month. I just wish that I can find my own happiness in life and achieve my dreams ๐ŸŒ . We all deserve to be happy. Anxiety will never win. I have to believe in myself more and know that I will achieve my dreams. Thank you all for always being there for me because really that means the most to me. One day I will give you the biggest hug ever. I love you all so much ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’ž.

Thank you all for reading my blog post. I hope you liked it and it inspired you in some way. Do you also feel lost in life sometimes? How do you deal with it? Do you miss connection in your life too? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

The 50 bookish questions book tag ๐Ÿ“š๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’ซโœจ๐Ÿ“–

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

This is going to be a different blog post then what I normally do as I have never done this before. I searched for a book tag on here and I came across some nice questions about books. I found the 50 bookish questions on this blog post. I really like reading and want to read more. I keep buying books but I’m a slow reader so it doesn’t work that well I guess haha. I hope you will like this tag. I’m sure there are more book lovers out there ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ“–. I already know some of my lovely blogging friends who love to read too. This is for all of you. I hope you will like it.

1.) What was the last book you read?

To love and let go: A memoir of love, loss and gratitude by Rachel Brathen (Yoga Girl).

2). Was it a good one?

YEAHHH OMG IT WAS AMAZING. ONE OF MY FAV BOOKS EVER ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜ญ. I cried so much.

3.) What made it good?

I don’t want to say a lot about it because I want to dedicate one blog post reviewing this book because it was so beautiful. It needs it’s own post. It was such a beautiful book because it was so raw, vulnerable and emotional. It was the real life story of Rachel about love, loss and gratitude. I love that in the hardships of life she finds gratitude. She just wrote this book from her heart. I wish to meet her one day and go on a retreat. I’m really amazed how good she can write about her experiences in life.

4.) Would you recommend it to other people?

Yes of course! This book will heal your heart whether you are going through grief or any other struggle in life.

5.) How often do you read?

A few days in a week. I just read sometimes. If I would have a busier life I would maybe have less time to read but I would still read.

6.) Do you like to read?

Yeahhh!

7.) What was the last bad book you read?

I think that must be The big sleep by Raymond Chandler.

8.) What made you dislike it?

I read this book years ago during high school. It was boring and I don’t like those detective stories. I also had to read it for school and when I have to do something I often don’t like it that much ๐Ÿ˜‚.

9.) Do you wish to be a writer?

YEAH OMGGG MY DREAM ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’–. I already consider my a writer because I own this blog but I would love to write books especially some poetry books. I hope to make this dream come true one day. If anyone has tips for publishing your own books and how things work I would love to know that.

10.) Has any book ever influenced you greatly?

Yes of course. You learn so much from books. The books which had the most influence on me are The Fault in Our Stars by John Green and To love and let go by Rachel Brathen. These are two beautiful books which tell a honest and beautiful story.

11.) Do you read fan-fiction?

No, I’ve never read fan-fiction.

12.) Do you write fan-fiction?

Nope and to be honest I also don’t think I’m that interested in this.

13.) What is your favourite book?

I have some favourite books which are Everything, Everything by Nicola Yoon, The Fault in Our Stars by John Green, To love and let go by Rachel Brathen and The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho. These are my three favourite books ever ๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ™.

14.) What is your least favourite book?

I don’t know. Maybe one I had to read during high school which is called The big sleep. I just didn’t like that story.

15.) Do you prefer physical books or ready on a device (like Kindle)?

Physical books always. I don’t have a tablet and to be honest it’s so much better to have a book in your hands. I love to feel the paper and smell it haha ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ“–.

16.) When did you learn to read?

I think when I began to go to school so when I was 4/5 years old.

17.) What is your favourite book you had to read in school?

I had to read The Kite Runner during high school. I loved it. This story was so touching, heartbreaking and everything.

18.) What is your favourite book series?

The Spinster Club Series by Holly Bourne. I still need to read some of her books from this serie. I’ve read Am I normal yet? and I loved it!!! In that book she writes about a girl who has OCD and suffers from anxiety too. It’s a book about friendship, love, mental health and feminism. It’s so good.

19.) Who is your favourite author?

I have so many favourite authors but my all time favourite are John Green, Rachel Brathen and Holly Bourne.

20.) What is your favourite genre?

Young Adult always ๐Ÿ’–.

21.) Who is your favourite character in a book series?

I really like Evie from the book Am I normal yet as I can relate so much with her thoughts about anxiety. I don’t have OCD but as I struggle from anxiety I can also make myself go crazy with so many things in my mind which aren’t even going to come true. It’s so exhausting. This book made me feel less alone.

22.) Has a book ever transported you somewhere else?

Yes, books always transport me to beautiful places and countries. I love to imagine myself in the stories and think about what would I do faced in a certain situation.

23.) Which book do you wish had a sequel?

Everything, Everything because when I ended reading it I felt like I wanted to know how the story would go on. It would be really nice to read that.

24.) Which book do you wish DIDNโ€™T have a sequel?

I don’t know. I think sequels can be good.

25.) How long does it take you to read a book?

Sometimes two weeks but often a month or a few months. I like to take my time to read some good books.

26.) Do you like when books become movies?

I love it! ๐ŸŽฌ I think think it’s really nice when they do it right.

27.) Which book was ruined by its movie adaptation?

I don’t know. I only know that when I watched Everything, Everything I thought that some things were a bit different than in the book. I thought it could have been better.

28.) Which movie has done a book justice?

The Fault in Our Stars was such a beautiful movie and was just like the book. It’s my fav book and movie ever. I cried, laughed and just had all the feels. I also loved the movie The Kite Runner but sometimes it was a bit hard to watch because of the things which were showed. I can’t deal with hard stuff as being a highly sensitive person. I also love the Harry Potter movies but I have to admit that I never read the books, just one. Maybe one day I will have to do that haha.

29.) Do you read newspapers?

Not that much. Sometimes I read it for the wheather, horoscope or some news which interests me such as Eurovision or news about feminism.

30.) Do you read magazines?

I love to read magazines especially the ones I buy in The Netherlands which are Flow and Psychology magazine. Flow is about mindfullness, slow life and being present. It comes with stationery and beautiful insights. I also shared in this blog post that I got some magazines of Flow for Sinterklaas. I also love Psychology magazine because it’s about mental health. I love to read about people who also suffer from anxiety because it makes me feel less alone ๐Ÿ™โœจ. I love to read about some tips how to go through it. It’s an inspiring and interesting magazine. For the rest I also sometimes like The Cosmopolitan which I buy in Spain. I like to buy it in the Summer for holidays on the beach. I’m not that much that girl who loves to read about the newest fashion trends but some stuff is nice haha.

31.) Do you prefer newspapers or magazines?

Magazines always because newspapers can be quiet depressing.

32.) Do you read while in bed?

Yeahhh always because it’s the best, safest, warmest and coziest place to read ๐Ÿ›๏ธ๐Ÿ’ž.

33.) Do you read while on the toilet?

No, but I use my mobile phone sometimes to read something haha.

34.) Do you read while in the car?

I can’t read in the car because I get sick but sometimes I can read in the train.

35.) Do you read while in the bath?

No, because I’m afraid the books will get wet. I would love to have a table which I sometimes see on Instagram posts to put your book on.

36.) Are you a fast reader?

No normally not. Just sometimes it happens that when I really love a book it can take me two weeks to read it.

37.) Are you a slow reader?

YES. I can take some months to read a book haha. I just want to enjoy it and not rush everything. I also want to really be present with what I’m reading and think about the story.

38.) Where is your favourite place to read?

In my bed, on the beach ๐ŸŒŠ๐ŸŒด๐ŸŒž (fav place ever) because it’s so calming to hear the waves crashing down the shore, and I also love to read in the garden in The Netherlands. I can’t wait for those days again in the sunshine. I need it.

39.) Is it hard for you to concentrate when you read?

Yes, so that’s why I prefer to read in a silent room, at the beach or at the swimming pool. I can easily get distracted by sounds.

40.) Do you need a room to be silent while you read?

Always otherwise I can’t read.

41.) Who gave you your love for reading?

I think maybe my father because he reads a lot, also writes books as he was a teacher of teology. He also used to tell me stories about witches and other fantasies before bedtime when I was little. He made them all up and it was incredible. My daddy has so much imagination haha. I find it fascinating to be honest.

42.) What book is next on your list to read?

Right now I’m reading Looking for Alaska by John Green. Next, I think I want to read the poetry book about mental health of my friend Andrew from Instagram.

43.) When did you start to read chapter books?

I don’t know, maybe I was 8 years old.

44.) Who is your favourite childrenโ€™s book author?

I really love the Dutch autors Jacques Vriens and Francine Oomen. I always loved to read these children books.

45.) Which author would you most want to interview?

I would love to interview John Green because I think he is such an interesting person and knows about mental health illnesses such as anxiety and depression. His books are amazing so I think it would be amazing to talk to him. He has such a beautiful inner world.

46.) Which author do you think you would be friends with?

Holly Bourne and Rachel Brathen! I love them both so much ๐Ÿ˜. Holly Bourne writes amazing books about mental health, feminism and friendship. I also love Rachel Brathen, Yoga Girl, so much. She’s my biggest inspiration in life so I think we would get along so well with. I would feel at peace when I met her one day and could talk about my struggles and just everything in life. I love her honesty and vulnerability so much.

47.) What book have you reread the most?

I’m a slow reader so to be honest I didn’t have reread a book. I only can think of maybe a Dutch book serie called The five which I read loads of books from. It was always so interesting to read. It was about children who have amazing adventures together.

48.) Which books do you consider โ€œclassics?โ€

Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen, To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee and The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald. I have to read the first two because I heard good reviews about them. The last one I’ve already read and a review is coming soon.

49.) Which books do you think should be taught in every school?

I think The Fault in Our Stars because it tells such a vulnerable and beautiful story about a girl and a boy with cancer which fall in love with each other. It’s a beautiful and touching story. You learn so much about life and the world with this book. I also think the Spinster Club Series books from Holly Bourne would be really great because it’s about feminism, friendship and mental health. Those are all important topics to talk about and learn about through books.

50.) Which books should be banned from all schools?

Books are amazing but I’m in favor of banning books which cause hate such as books of homophobia, racism and anything. If it wouldn’t benefit a person and would cause harm then it should be banned at school.

Thank you all for reading this blog post โ˜บ๏ธ. I hope you liked this book tag with loads of questions about books and reading. Can you relate to some of my answers? What kind of books do you love to read? What are your favourite books/writers? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

Music of December 2019 ๐ŸŽถ

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

Another blog post which is a bit late lol hahah but that doesn’t matter, right?! ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ’– I really had to share this one because some really good music have been released at the end of 2019. The new album of Harry Styles is so awesome. I also love the new album of Camila Cabello so much. Also some other good music has been released. I will share it all with you in this blog post.

Camila Cabello – Romance

The new album of Camila is so goooood!!! ๐Ÿ˜ I really wish to go to one of her concerts. She is coming to Amsterdam in June but I can’t go to all the concerts I want to go this year because it cost a lot of money ๐Ÿ˜ฅ. Her new album is lovely pop music with good lyrics and also of course romantic. I love all her songs. They are so good. She’s such a great singer. I already loved the songs Shameless, Liar, Seรฑorita, Easy and Cry for me. Here are my other three favourite songs of her.

Camila Cabello ft. DaBaby – My oh my

I love this live performance in The Tonight show of Jimmy Fallon. This song is so catchy and so nice! ๐ŸŽถ I really like it so much. She is also such a great performer.

Camila Cabello – Bad kind of butterflies

Such a nice song! I really like the sound of it. I just love everything okay haha ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ’–.

Camila Cabello – First man

You’re looking at me, while walking down the aisle
With tears in your eyes, maybe he deserves me
You don’t even know how much it means to me now
That you were the first man that really loved me, that really loved me
You really love me

THIS SONG IS JUST SO BEAUTIFUL I CRY ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜ญ. I also loved the performance she gave of this song in the Grammys. It’s so emotional as her daddy is there and she is singing this song for him. She also looks so beautiful in her pink dress. Such a goddess. This song is for all the fathers out there. Our parents are definitely the first ones that really loves us unconditionally. My daddy is the only man I trust. It’s not totally true but it’s to be honest it’s just hard to find a man you can trust.

Aitana ft. Cali y El Dandee – +

This song is sooooo beautiful ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’•. I have already listened to this song 10000 times. Aitana is amazing and Cali y El Dandee are also so nice. Together they sing beautifully. The videoclip is also so well made. It’s made in Argentina. I cried when I heard and watched it. It’s just the best. This song is about a first love that isn’t there anymore. She sings about that she knows that he isn’t coming back. She loves him more. She can’t forget him. I know this feeling so well. I’m happy that I’m not heartbroken anymore but I still don’t know how to ever love someone again because I’m afraid to get hurt again.

Lola Indigo – Luna

I love this song! Lola Indigo is such a great Spanish singer too. She only release good songs like this one. Luna ๐ŸŒœ is moon in Spanish. I love the moon and everything about it. She also has a tattoo of a moon. I would love to have that one day too if I ever get over my needle fear ughhh.

Sofia Ellar ft. Blas Cantรณ – Humanidad en paro

So beautiful! Sofia Ellar is one of my favourite Spanish artists and I also really love Blas Cantรณ which is going to represent Spain ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ in Eurovision this year. Sofia Ellar made this song a few years ago. It’s about speaking up about human rights when some people can’t. This song is about refugees. I think it’s really beautiful. Their voices are so unique together. I also agree about the message. We can all help each other ๐Ÿ™โœจ.

Harry Styles – Fine line

Finally Harry Styles released his new album Fine line!!! ๐Ÿ’– It’s so good. I also like every song of this new album of Harry Styles. I have to admit that I didn’t listen that much to Harry Styles but I began to listen to him more and I really like him. I love Sign of the times and also all the songs of One Direction. His new songs are so amazing just like he is as a person. Such a sweetheart. I also wish to go to one of his concerts one day with one of my best friends Chloe. It would be so amazing. I loved the songs he released before the album which were Watermelon sugar and Lights up. I will share now with you my other three favourites.

Harry Styles – Adore you

This song is just so amazing. I also loved that the voice you hear which is telling you a story is Rosalรญa. She’s a popular singer in Spain and internationally too. This videoclip, the song and just everything is amazing about this song.

Harry Styles – Canyon Moon

Staring at the ceiling
Two weeks and I’ll be home
Carry the feeling
Through Paris, all through Rome
And I’m still thinking back to
A time under the canyon moon

Aaaah this sounds like a country song and I love it!!! ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿ•บIt also sounds as a song from the 70’s or so. It makes me so happy. This song would be so good to make it on a playlist for a roadtrip during the Summer. I also love his whistles. It sounds so cute.

Harry Styles – Treat people with kindness

Maybe we can find a place to feel good
And we can treat people with kindness
Find a place to feel good

Treat people with kindness is what Harry Styles stands for. THIS SONG IS AMAZING. I love the background choir. It sounds amazing as well as his voice of course. Such a feel good song!

Maan – Ze huilt maar ze lacht

She is sitting here alone in the train
And she hides in her coat
She looks out of the window
And she wonders
How would it feel to be yourself
Because sometimes it hurts
But she cries but she laughs
She cries but she laughs 

She walks through a world that does not feel kind
Unintentionally she says things that everyone always says
Because things never go bad
Always okay and she talks along with them
And she laughs
She cries but she laughs

And now… she let’s it go

I don’t listen that much to Dutch music but this song is really so touching and I really cried so much hearing it ๐Ÿ’–. I feel it and the lyrics is so relatable. The videoclip was just released in Janary. This song is just so raw and vulnerable. I guess many of us can feel this way. I always laugh so people think I’m happy all the time which I’m not. Sometimes it can be a mask. I also sometimes make other people feel like everything is okay with me when it’s not. I just don’t want to bother people because I feel that sometimes I’m too much. I learned that it’s okay to be ourselves and that we can let our feelings go and just be ourselves. All our feelings matter ๐Ÿ™. There are always people who care about us and will love us for the way we are. We are not alone.

Taylor Swift – Christmas tree farm

“In my heart is a Christmas tree farm
Where the people would come
To dance under sparkling lights
Bundled up in their mittens and coats
And the cider would flow
And I just wanna be there tonight”

This song is so cute. Everything about Taylor Swift is just so good ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‘Œ. I listened to this song a lot during Christmas time. I also love the cute pictures from her and her family when she was younger. She looks so cute!!! She is still such a sweetheart and I’m so happy I live in a world where she exists, my fav artist evah. Yeah, I love her that much haha. I wish to see her live once.

Louis Tomlinson – Don’t let it break your heart

I like this song. It’s a really nice song and Louis sings very well. I don’t listen to much of his songs but I really like this one.

Thank you for reading this music ๐ŸŽถ blog post. I hope you liked some songs of this post. Which one was your favourite? What do you think of the new albums of Harry Styles and Camila Cabello? What was your favourite song from 2019? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

December 2019 favourites ๐ŸŽ„โœจ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿ’ž

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

This blog post is maybe a bit too late lol but that doesn’t matter, right? ๐Ÿ˜‚ I’m always too late for everything in life. I’m better from my wisdom teeth extraction which was two weeks ago. I still sometimes felt strange things in my mouth but I have to stop obsessing otherwise I get even more anxious about it. I’m in Holland again. The next time I’m in Spain I will get rid of another wisdom teeth ๐Ÿฆท until I have no teeth left haha no just kidding. I have to do it three times more. I can do it. Hopefully I will have less anxiety for the next times. I trust this dentist so all will be well ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ™. Now, I have a cold too but I guess it’s that time of the year. I hope you all had an amazing Christmas and I hope this new year begin well for you all. In this blog post I will share my favourites of December which are celebrating Christmas with my family, going to the Christmas market, getting nice presents, winning some things and so much more.

Things I did with my lovely family ๐Ÿ‘ช:

Celebrating Sinterklaas with the family ๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽ

I celebrated the Dutch feast Sinterklaas the 6th of December. It was a nice celebration and I got loads of amazing presents. I wrote a Sinterklaas haul post which can find here. I loved the yoga mat, Flow magazines and the loads of chocolate I got ๐Ÿ˜. I still have chocolate at home from this celebration hahaha ๐Ÿ˜‚. Does anyone of you wants some chocolate? ๐Ÿซ It’s still good until March or April. I always love to celebrate Sinterklaas with the family. It’s such a nice tradition.

My parents 43th wedding anniversary ๐Ÿ’’๐ŸŒน๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’

My parents had their 43th wedding anniversary the 23th of December. We didn’t do anything special besides that they went to church and I stayed home. I was already going to church on Christmas Eve. When they had their 40th anniversary we ate all together but maybe with the 45th anniversary we will do something with the family. It’s a special day which remind me that true love exists. I love my parents so much and I wish them many more years together full of health, love and happiness ๐Ÿ’ž.

Watching some Christmas movies with mama ๐ŸŽ…๐ŸŽฌ

I love to watch Christmas movies. I’m sad this Christmas we didn’t watch Love Actually. We were busy packing for Spain too so at the end we didn’t watch it. Maybe, I will watch it now haha that movie is my fav movie ever. We watched Elf, The Polar Express and The Holiday. I love The Holiday so much. It’s also one of my favourite movies. I wish my life could be like that too and I could meet the love of my life that way haha. That English cottage is just so cute. I love all the actresses and actors. So beautiful. I also loved the movie Elf as I had never watched it before. It’s really cute! The Polar Express is also a classic. I think I’ve read the book when I was younger too.

Christmas time with the family ๐ŸŽ„

We had an amazing Christmas with the family. I went to church โ›ช on Christmas Eve with my mother, brother and his wife. It was lovely. We went to their appartment on Christmas day and just relaxed. We ate dinner all together on boxing day. It’s always so nice when we are all together especially when my little niece who’s 4 year old comes. It’s play time haha! ๐Ÿ˜‚ We had a delicious meal of some meat, stewed pears which my mother made and delicious fruit and ice cream ๐Ÿจ. My daddy always love to put whipped cream into the mouth of my niece haha she loves it very much. Spending time with family is one of the most important things in life. You never know when will be the last time you seen them, so do it and love them very much. I don’t want to sound depressing but it’s the truth. Nothing is forever so we have to not take these things for granted ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’–.

New Year’s Eve in Spain ๐ŸŽ‰โœจ๐ŸŽ†

My mother and I celebrated New Year’s Eve in Spain with the family of Verรณnica. We had a nice time with the brother and her mother. We ate some delicious meat like chorizo, jamรณn serrano. There was also bread and different sauces like avocado and cheese sauce. We also drank some champagne which I don’t like that much. I loved the Spanish cookies more. Afterwards, me and the brother of Verรณnica played Mario Kart Deluxe and Super Mario with the Nintendo Switch ๐ŸŽฎ. I really loved it so much and I got nostalgic from the times I played it when I was little. Those were one of my favourites games. My favourite game ever was Super Mario 64 with the different worlds and rooms. Such an awesome game. Also The Sims is amazing.

Stationery shopping ๐Ÿ›’

I went stationery shopping with my mother earlier in December. Action is my favourite shop in Holland. It’s cheap and has so many nice stationery. I bought some foam stickers. I love those stickers because they are bold and have an amazing design. The design is made for a hippie girl like me with lovely feathers, dreamcatchers, beautiful colours and quotes. I also love the sticker sheets I bought which contains 28 sheets full of stickers with a mermaid design ๐ŸŒŠ๐Ÿงœโ€โ™€๏ธ. It’s so beautiful. Anything with a sea theme is always made for me. You could also use these stickers for bullet journals. For the rest I also bought some nice rhinestones. They look like pearls. I also love the gluemarkers which I bought but I still didn’t have use them. I hope it works. You could put some glue on a paper, then add glitter and it would be amazing to decorate cards for my pen pals with it.

Awesome things I did with my lovely friends ๐Ÿ’ž:

Christmas market in Haarlem ๐ŸŽ„

I went to the Christmas market in Haarlem with my best friend and her girlfriend. We had such a good time. I always love to go because these Christmas markets are really special in The Netherlands and in Germany too. I love to drink hot chocolate or gluhwein โ˜•. This time I didn’t drink anything. I only bought something to make hot chocolate with. We made some nice pictures with the Christmas tree and enjoyed the beautiful lights โœจ. All the things which are sold on this market are handmade which I love so much.

Winning the book (Un)limited by the mind by A.O.Ewen ๐Ÿฅ‡๐Ÿ“–

My lovely friend Andrew from Instagram always write such beautiful poetry. He wrote a book and I took part of the giveaway. I never win something from Instagram so this was really a big surprise. I was so happy to have won this book because it’s beautiful ๐Ÿ˜. I still have to finish it reading. I already read some poems and I loved it. I love his honesty and vulnerability. It’s a collection of his poetry about experiences with mental health. He suffers from anxiety and ocd. I can relate so much to his poems and feel less alone when I read it. It’s good that he wrote about the light and the darkness because that makes me feel hopeful that things always can change for the better. I wish also to write a book one day because it’s one of my dreams. Thank you Andrew for your Christmas card too and for our friendship. I also love what you wrote in the inside for me. I love you very much. I will always support you! ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ™

Receiving Christmas cards and presents from my lovely friends ๐ŸŽ„๐ŸŽ

I’m so happy with all the Christmas cards I got from my friends online and in real life. I love my blogging friends, my pen pals and family so much. I love to receive handwritten letters and Christmas cards so much. I also loved the Christmas presents I got from my pen pal Vikki which was a unicorn garden suncatcher and some cute key rings. I also loved the presents I got from Sophia so much. I loved the handmade jewelry, the nail polish ๐Ÿ’… (I used it for Christmas time yeahhh) and the turqoise wallet is beautiful. Also a big thanks to my lovely blogging friend Elsie for her beautiful presents. I loved the golden journal! I can use that to write some blogging ideas inside. I also love the cute pen and sweets. I’m so thankful for your friendship. Love you all! ๐Ÿ’ž

Other amazing things of this month ๐Ÿ’–:

Winner of The Goddess Collective Scholarship ๐Ÿ†

This year I joined again the Self Love Advent Challenge by Melissa Wells. She’s a bestselling Hay House Author, Worldwide Speaker, and the UKโ€™s leading Eating Psychology Coach and Self Love Expert, dedicated to helping you completely transform the relationship you have with yourself, your body and your food. I really like her community and her challenges so much. Every day until Christmas I posted something on Instagram and on her Facebook group for this challenge. One day it was about treating ourselves, another day it was doing self care and more. I’m happy to announce that for the first time I won something from participating in this challenge. OMGGGG asdfghjkl I won an amazing prize ๐Ÿ†. I won The Goddess Collective Scholarschip which is such a big prize. It has the value of more than โ‚ฌ550 for a year. This was definitely the best Christmas present ever ๐ŸŽ„๐ŸŽ. 

I’m so happy to form part of this beautiful community with all amazing goddesses โœจ๐Ÿ’— I will learn so much about goal and intention setting. There are also workshops about creativity, managing anxiety, female friendships, menstrual magic, finding your purpose, starting a business and so much more. There will also be moonology ๐ŸŒœ๐ŸŒ› readings and a book area ๐Ÿ“–. This is just everything what I need right now in my life. It will help me so much with everything. I really can’t wait to get started and really begin to improve my life, dive into the magic of the universe and follow my dreams. I also hope to meet all other goddesses and go on a retreat one day. I’m so blessed to have this opportunity. Thank you Melissa for being such an inspiration to do so much good in this world. Thank you for this beautiful community. We are all loved and not alone ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ™ Love you all! ๐Ÿ˜˜

New books ๐Ÿ“š

I bought two new books which are Looking for Alaska by John Green and The Places I’ve cried in public by Holly Bourne. I’ve heard always so many good reviews about Looking for Alaska so I’m happy to finally been reading this book. John green is an amazing writer. My other favourite writer is Holly Bourne and I couldn’t wait to buy her new book. I still have to read so many books of her. This book is about Amelie who loved Reese. And she thought he loved her. But sheโ€™s starting to realise love isnโ€™t supposed to hurt like this. So now sheโ€™s retracing their story and untangling what happened by revisiting all the places he made her cry. Maybe she can get over him if that way. I think it will be an interesting and heartbreaking story. I can’t wait to read it!

Enjoying a relaxing bath with Lush bath bomb ๐Ÿ›€

I enjoyed a nice bath with an awesome Lush bath bomb. It was called Goddess which reminds me of the song God is a woman from Ariana Grande. The bath bomb is heavenly scent, jasmine absolute seduces you into lilac and silver waters, while the darkness of oudh and the richness of sandalwood keep you there, lingering a little longer. Lila is my favourite colour and I love glitter so it was just a perfect bath time โœจ๐Ÿ’–.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope you all enjoyed reading about my favourites of December 2019. Byebye 2019 haha. What were your favourites from my post? Did you have a nice Christmas time with your family? Have you read any of the books I bought? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina