Poem: This is what anxiety looks like

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

This blog post will be about a picture and a poem written by myself. So I never shared such an emotional picture of me crying but I just felt the need to do it. I have never been this vulnerable. The picture where I’m smiling on the left was taken yesterday afternoon. The other picture on the right where I was crying was taken last night. I was crying last night and feeling like I couldn’t cope with life. I keep being so anxious about getting one of my wisdom teeth pulled out. I really have to face this fear. I’m also on my period and not feeling that well. I’m also keep thinking about that I don’t have a job because of feeing anxious. These two pictures are just taken within a few hours of difference. I will now write a little poem about these pictures.

This is what anxiety looks like

Suffering from anxiety is being anxious but still smiling.

Suffering from anxiety means crying.

Suffering from anxiety is feeling nauseous.

Suffering from anxiety is having constant worries.

Suffering from anxiety is overthinking all the time.

Suffering from anxiety is feeling dizzy.

Suffering from anxiety is being afraid to die during a panic attack.

Suffering from anxiety is being afraid to leave your home.

Suffering from anxiety is cancelling plans with your friends.

Suffering from anxiety is not knowing what is wrong.

Suffering from anxiety is constant living between escaping your fears or facing them and feeling anxious.

Suffering from anxiety is being tired of feeling anxious all the time.

Suffering from anxiety is a hell.

Suffering from anxiety is being afraid of searching for a job or going to school.

Suffering from anxiety is being afraid of doing daily things.

Suffering from anxiety means feeling your heart beating fast.

Suffering from anxiety is hard because it’s an invisible mental illness.

Suffering from anxiety is not something choose.

Suffering from anxiety is an illness which you have to fight every day with.

I just wanted to write this poem because it’s related to these pictures. Having anxiety or any other mental illness or invisible illness is hard because you don’t see the illness. Just because someone is smiling doesn’t mean they are happy. They can feel anxious or be depressed. You don’t know what someone is going through. I also hide my anxiety behind my smile. People always assume I’m happy and that’s draining me. I just smile and laugh a lot because it’s part of my personality.

Of course, I’m also happy at times but there are also times I’m not and I still smile because that’s part of who I’m. I just want to let you all know that it’s important to not judge someone by their looks. Ask them how they are really feeling and be there for that person. They need your support. We are all in this together πŸ’ͺπŸ’•

Thank you all for reading this blog post and poem. Could you relate to it? Do you also smile because it’s part of your personality? Did you like my poem? I would love to know your thoughts. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

Spanish spoken poetry video: We are all Laura πŸ’œ (Violence against women)

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

Before I begin with this short blog post I would like to say that I have a giveway going on my Instagram. You just have to follow me there, like my picture and comment why you want to win. You also need to be Europe based. I just wanted to give something back. I’m so thankful for all your support and love I have on my blog and on that Instagram account. I love you all so much 😍😍😍.

Before I post some Christmas blog posts I wanted to post this blog post. I just needed to share this here. I also shared it on my Instagram: Poetry video. This is my Youtube account which I never use but I just felt the urge to share it there too. My video on my main account of Instagram already had more than 1500 views and more than 100 likes which is just so much wow. I have never made a video reading one of my poems before but tonight is the night that I’m going to do it. I wrote it in Spanish because it’s about a Spanish girl but I will also translate it in English down below. I just had to write about what happened. This poem is for all women who are suffering from violence against women in every form possible. You are not alone. Together we are stronger πŸ’ͺ. They will not silence us.

Laura is a Spanish girl who was only 26 years old when she got missed a few days ago in Huelva in Andalucia. That’s in the south of Spain. She was a teacher in that village. She was missing and never came back alive πŸ’”πŸ˜’. They found her body on Monday half naked. I have to say that there’s one mistake in my poem which is that she was running. Right now they are investigating how she died. I saw the Spanish news and they said one man which was a neighbor from her killed her. He already killed a woman a few years ago and was in prison. I really don’t know why they let this crazy man free.

He locked her into his car and wanted to rape her but she resisted. Then he hit her with something on her head. She died a few days later. We still don’t know where the body was the days she was missing. It’s just a horrible story 😒. Again, another victim of violence against women. With all my frustration and pain I’m feeling right now I just needed to express my emotions in this poem. You can read my English translation of this poem down below:

We all are Laura

She was called Laura

She only had 26 years

A year less than I’m

She was a teacher

She went running and never came back

She got murdered

We all are Laura

We don’t want to be afraid when we are walking alone at night

We don’t want to be afraid because we are a woman

We don’t want to have our keys in our hands to enter fast our home

We don’t that men see us as an object

We don’t want to live in a patriarchal world

We don’t want that the world judge women when they are getting raped

We want to be free, protected by society and treated with respect

Free, healthy and safe is what we want to be

It’s enough!

Not one more!

We are all Laura ❀

Spanish version:

Laura somos todas

Se llamaba Laura

TenΓ­a tan sΓ³lo 26 aΓ±os

Un aΓ±o menos que yo

Fue profesora

SaliΓ³ a correr y no volviΓ³ nunca mΓ‘s

Fue asesinada

Laura somos todas

No queremos tener miedo por la noche cuΓ‘ndo andamos solas

No queremos tener miedo por ser una mujer

No queremos tener las llaves en la mano para entrar pronto a casa

No queremos que los hombres nos vean como un objeto

No queremos vivir en este mundo patriarcado

No queremos que el mundo nos juzgue a las mujeres cuΓ‘ndo somos violadas

Queremos ser libres, protegidas por la sociedad y tratadas con respeto

Libres, sanas y salvas eso es lo que queremos

Basta ya!

Ni una mΓ‘s!

Todos somos Laura ❀️

I know almost none of my followers can speak Spanish but the words sounded better in Spanish. I wanted to share both the original Spanish version and also the English translation. Maybe, in the future I will also make a video of the English version.

Thank you all for watching my video and for reading this poem. Did you like this poem? What are you thoughts of the topic of violence against women? Are you also a feminist? I’m a feminist by heart and will forever continue to spread awareness about this topic. Together we can make a change. They will not silence us πŸ’ͺπŸ’œ.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

Hey, you. Don’t give up, okay? πŸ’•βœ¨πŸ’—πŸ™

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

We all need this reminder. As I’m struggling in life right now with having anxiety about the future, being nauseous all the time, job anxiety and just about everything I need to know to not give up. I wrote this poem a few nights ago because when I can’t sleep at night and feel bad is when I feel the most inspired to write. I love to write poems and want to write and share more of them on my blog.Β It’s pretty amazing how that works, right?! Writing makes me feel so happy. I will never stop writing. I just wanted to write this for you all. I hope it will give you some hope βœ¨πŸ™

We all need to know that we will find a light through our darkest times.

We all need to know that we can go through hard times in life.

We all need to know that feelings come and go.

We all need to know that life’s is about the little moments.

We all need to know that better things are coming.

We all need to know that life’s about finding the balance between the good and the bad.

We all need to know that life’s hard but we are thougher.

We all need to know that we are loved.

We all need to know that we aren’t alone in our feelings and thoughts.

We all need to know that there’s someone who feels exactly the same way as we do.

We all need to know that this too shall pass.

We all need to know that we will find a purpose in life.

We all need to know that being alive is the greatest gift of all.

We all need to know that true happiness is loving yourself unconditionally.

We all need to know that there will be a time where we find our happiness again.

We all need to know that we are warriors and that we won’t give up πŸ’ͺ

We all need to know that we are all in this together and that we will stick together ❀️

Keep going lovelies, never give up!

Thank you all for reading this blog post. Did you like this poem? Did it make you feel happy and inspired? πŸ’« I would love to know your thoughts. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Love you all so much πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

Poem: You are unbelievable enough πŸ’ž

Hey lovely community ❀❀❀,

I think I’m gonna share more poetry which I have made during my life. I love writing poetry. I liked writing poetry since I have been little. It just feels so good to write your thoughts and feeling on paper. I always feel so much lighter after I have written a poem. Just let me know what you think πŸ˜„. I hope it will inspire you all and bring some light into this sometimes dark world πŸ’«πŸ’ž

My personal Instagram is: christinax1993 and my poetry Instagram account is: seaofwordsx. I just leave this here if anybody is interested in it πŸ˜„ I share a lot of poems there but I wanna share more on my blog too. 

I made this poem for all my lovely, beautiful and amazing followers πŸ’– Especially the ones who are struggling right now and feel bad. Look in the mirrow and tell yourself that you are beautiful and enough because you are πŸ’œ Don’t let others or society tells you aren’t. You aren’t the scales on the weight, your mistakes and the pain you have suffered. You are so much more than that. You are a beautiful human being who light up this whole world just because you exists. You are capable of so many awesome things. The universe has your back πŸ’« 

Life wouldn’t be the same without you here. You have a purpose. You will feel okay again even if you feel like your whole world is falling apart. Feelings come and go. You are loved. You are never alone. If you feel lonely, look to the right and there I will be standing next to you, side to side. I may be far away but never apart πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’– 

I love you all so much with all my heart ❀❀❀

xoxo Christina

Pray for New York πŸ˜’πŸ—½πŸ’”

Hey beautiful bloggers πŸ’•,

Yesterday a horrible terrorist attack happened again in New York City after 9/11. I really cried when I heard about it 😒 What an awful world we live in. When will all of this end?! These people don’t need to be here on this planet. This time it happened in NYC, in Manhattan. 8 people died and many people are injuried by a van as always. My heart is breaking in pieces πŸ’” This just needs to stop. 

I have been in New York City two years ago and felt completely in love with this beautiful city πŸ’œπŸ’•πŸ—½ It’s an amazing international city with a beautiful history, culture, music, art, delicious food and so much more. New York City is one of my favourite cities where I have ever been to. I won the MLOW essay contest (will write a blog post about this and I wrote about it in other blog posts) and got to speak at the United Nations two years ago in July 2015. I will never ever forget this life changing experience. That’s why this hits me hard. It took place just 200 meter of the memorial of the twin towers. I have been to that sad place 😒.

When something awful like this happens, I need to write. I need to write all my thoughts and feelings down on paper πŸ’­. Writing always help me to feel better. So, I wrote this poem for you, New York City and its beautiful people πŸ’•πŸ—½ I hope you all like it β™‘

My prayings goes for all the people who have died and their families. My prayings also goes for all the people injuried. I hope you have a great recovery. 

New York City is the city of freedom, where your wildest and biggest dreams come true and where love beats hate πŸ’– 

New York City will forever have a special place in my heart. I send all my love to you πŸ’œ NYC will always have a place in my heart and I can’t wait to go back. NYC is sooo strong and can beat this πŸ’ͺ. This is just a beautiful, amazing city and international city. I’m here for you all. Any of my bloggers living in NYC, stay strong and safe please πŸ’• 

Hate will never win in this world. Hate will overcome all the love in this world. There are still soooo many good people out there like all people who helped yesterday in this awful terrorist attack. Think of all the good in the world. I know it’s hard. I know that after such a bad event happened its hard to stay positive with all the cruelty and injustice in this world. On the other hand, this only unites people and communities even more. We are stronger than hate and we shall win πŸ’–

This quote just fits perfectly by this blog post by the awesome man Martin Luther King, JR. Love will win πŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œ.

I love you all, stay stafe and strong πŸ’œ

Much love,

xoxo Christina πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•

Pray for Las Vegas πŸ˜’πŸ™πŸ’•

Hey lovely bloggers πŸ’•,

Today I woke up with horrible news. The mass shooting which happened on a country festival in Las Vegas was unbelievable sad. It makes me feel heartboken. It makes me feel so sensitive. I always cry when something like this happens in the world. I care so much.

In what kind of world do we live? In a world full of hate? In a world with violence?

I don’t wanna live in this dark world anymore 😒 I’m done with hate. I’m done with violence. I’m done with terrorism. I’m just done with everything. I’m going to wonderland and never going back…. 

Something really need to change in the American policy of gun control now to prevent events like this shooting in Las Vegas today. They just have to ban all guns. I really find it unbelievable how this man of 64 years old could have 10 automatic guns in his hotel room?! That’s just insane. I hope a solution will come in the USA. 

I made this poem for today’s tragedy. My heart is with all of you πŸ’œπŸ™πŸ˜’ 

Spread no hate, but love. Love your family and friends and say it and show it to them. Never take them for granted because you never know when will be the last time you see that person.

Much love & stay safe people πŸ’•,


Pray for Barcelona πŸ™πŸ’œ

Hey all β™‘,

I wanted to write this because I just feel so sad about what happened today in Barcelona, in Spain…. my home country πŸ’–

Barcelona, stay safe please πŸ™πŸ’• Again a terrostic attack… When wil this nightmare stop?  I keep asking myself why, why, why… And I cry because there is no answer. This is hate and violence. There is just no valid reason why people would do this too innocent people. I close my eyes. All I can feel is fear in my heart. I open my eyes and close them again. Now, I begin to feel a bit hope in my heart. Thinking about all the people who are helping the people who were injuried such as the police man make me feel a bit happier. There are still good people out there. We will fight against terrorism. All we want in life is to live in a safe world where hate will never win, love wins πŸŒπŸ’«

Much love,