Hola lovelies 💕,
Last Friday one of the most famous DJ’s named Avicii died. This Swedish DJ was just a legend, a genius, a beautiful human being. I spoke about his death in this blog post: R.I.P. Legend DJ Avicii 💔🎶😢 I never knew this news would hit me so hard. I don’t want to repeat myself but today I’m going to write about Avicii again and that’s not crazy to grief about someone you have never met such as a celebrity. I gues I’m not the only one who have experienced this. Does anyone of you have experienced this one day? I would love to know your story in the comments.
So many legends die so young such as musicians, writers, actors, singers, models….. I can name a few important names who have left us so early which are Michael Jackson – 50 years old, Whitney Houston – 48 years old, Amy Winehouse – 27 years old, Marilyn Monroe which is one of my favourite actresses died when she was only 37 years old and many more. Marilyn Monroe was born the first of June just like me. I could add many more to this list which is really sad. Most of the famous people die because of suicide, being alcoholic and taking too much drugs. They all face a lot of stress and anxiety in their lives and in order to cope with it they use those methods which makes their health worse. The death of Avicii came to a shock to me. I guess to all of us. The whole world couldn’t believe it. I really like house music mostly because of him. His style of Electronic Dance Music was just so amazing. His songs were so inspiring and happy. It always made me have a smile on my face. He was loved by the whole world. This weekend there was a tribute in Stockholm, the place he came from. Some of his music was played and all his fans were crying. They were remembering him. Also in The Netherlands, the Dom Tower in Utrecht played some of his songs and in Spain during the Pre Party of Eurovision Alfred and Laura played Wake me up in Sala Riviera in Madrid. I saw it on the internet and it was so beautiful to see how we all know the lyrics and sing it out loud.
He was loved by the whole world. I never knew I was going to be so sad for so many days and grief about someone who I’ve never met. Of course, I also have gone through some grief when my Spanish grandmother died but I was too young to understand death. I will write a blog post soon about why I’m so afraid of death. It’s a phobia in my life. I’ve never went to a funeral in my life. My parents said that I was too young to go. It’s not crazy to grief about a celebrity even though you have never met them. I guess many of us feel connected to some celebrities. I feel connected to Avicii because of his songs and lyrics. I played the songs all the time. My first love, ex boyfriend was a huge fan of Avicii and his favourite song was Seek Bromance with the edit of Avicii. I don’t know if he’s still a fan because I don’t talk to him anymore. I always listened to this song with him and it became a part of my life.
The fact that Avicii died at such a young age, only 28 years old hits me really hard because sometimes it feels like we are just surviving through life but not really living. I feel that way sometimes. I can relate to his lyrics from The Nights so much like: “One day you”ll leave this world behind so live a life you will remember”. I really want to live this way but yet my anxiety don’t always let me. I’m feeling happier than a few years ago but I still need to find myself. I need to get my life together but I’m scared. His lyrics helps me to go on and to remind myself to live a life I’m happy about. Also the lyrics about the song Wake me up relate to me. “Feeling my way through the darkness guided by a beating heart”. I’ve experienced a lot of anxiety in my life which made me difficult to see the light but at the end there is a light and your life has a purpose even though sometimes you may not see it. I also love the sentence: “Hope I get the chance to travel the world and wish that I could stay forever this young”. I do hope to travel around the world as much as I can, as far as I can and as long as I can. I love this sentence too: “Life’s a game made for everyone and love is a prize” I trully believe we are alive to love each other and that life is worth it 💕
This weekend I watched the documentary on Netflix of Avicii which is called True Stories. I made me think about my life because he was also going through a lot of stress and anxiety in life. The reason why he died is still not released. I just really hope it isn’t suicide. I wish people would care more about each other and ask more often how are you doing. I wish people would ask that in the way to help someone and not because they are interested and just wanna judge you. In this documentary you see that Avicii was really vulnerable, sensitive and also an introvert. His manager Ash pushed him sometimes to keep touring but he couldn’t do it because he felt ill. He was afraid to dissapoint his manager, agencies and fans. Sometimes I feel that way too in my life. I’m always afraid to dissapoint people. Besides, Avicii had pancreatis just like my father had. That’s also a point why this death hits me hard. My father almost died when I was 11 years old. I will also make an apart blog post about this. Long story but I will tell it short. He had to go through 7 surgeries in 5 years time with many complications. Now, he has diabetis but he’s alive and that’s the most important thing which counts for me. Avicii also had to go through surgery and they took his appendix and gal bladder out. My father also don’t have the gal bladder anymore.
In the documentary True Stories, I also saw how he suffered from anxiety and stress just like I do in my life. It’s really sad that not much people understand this. It’s still a stigma and needs to end. I feel like suicide, depression, anxiety, eating disorders etc is even a bigger stigma in the famous world then in the non-famous world. People just assume that famous people have their lives together and that everything’s perfect when it isn’t at all. I guess they have so much more stress to go than a normal person. When you are famous, you don’t have any privacy. Avicii started to drink alcohol because he felt anxious when he had to go on stage. A few drinks of alcohol made him feel a bit happier and less anxious to do his concerts. I really can understand him but it wasn’t good for his health. He came in a negative cycle which contribute to pancreatitis. I liked the documentary because it showed the real life of Avicii, his ups and downs. It showed that he had his own struggles just like we all have. We assume that famous people are some kind of gods with perfect lives but it isn’t true a all.
I didn’t know I could go through grief so hard when I don’t know Avicii. I’ve never met him. I’m a fan but I’m not his family or friends. Now, I know that it isn’t crazy to grief about a celebrity. Your grief count. Your feelings are valid. I went to his concert in Amsterdam on the 22 of February of 2014. It was just so amazing. I could feel all the energy and good vibes. I’m sure I can find the videos and pictures on my computer but they are in The Netherlands. I will forever cherish this beautiful moment. I’m so glad I went to this concert. It was €70 I think but it was definitely so worth it. Now, we can’t go to his concert anymore. It’s really sad. I read some news that he had almost finished a new album. I hope somebody will release this album to enjoy the new music of Avicii.
It’s sad that we can’t enjoy any concerts of him anymore. He stopped touring in 2016 because of his health problems. Now, he died…. At least, we have the legacy of all his music and we can always play it. I hope he’s in paradise now. We will never ever forget him. His music will make our tears dry and make us happy. Good vibes only! 🎶💕 Music is life! 🎤❤🙏
Thank you all for reading this blog post. I’ll speak to you all soon!
Much love 💕,