Birthday haul πŸ˜πŸŽ‚πŸŽ‰πŸŽ

Hola lovelies πŸ’•,

This blog post is a bit too late haha but that doesn’t matter, right?! My birthday was on the first of June. I really wanted to write and share this with you. I got amazing presents and cards from my friends and family all over the world πŸ‘¨β€πŸ‘©β€πŸ‘¦πŸ‘­πŸ‘«. In this blog post I’m going to share the beautiful presents and mail I got. I got amazing things like an aroma diffuser with essential oil, DVDs, a book, stationery and many more things.

From my daddy ❀️

I got the book πŸ“– “Only love can break your heart” from Katherine Webber. I already wanted this book since a long time. The cover is SO beautiful!! It’s a story about love, loss, the desert and friendships. The DVD of The Greatest Showman is amazing. I love that movie so I’m happy to have it at home now to watch it whenever I want! 😍 The music is amazing. I’m also happy with the 6 shampoo Pantene Pro-V for straight hair. It’s my favourite shampoo. I always use it. I also got a lovely card with sunflowers 🌻 on it.

From my mamita 😍

I got such amazing presents from my mother. I got a beautiful beach card with all names of places I want to go. I would love to go to Fuerteventura one day 🌊🌞. I got a case for my sunglasses, purple nail polish, beautiful silver earrings 🌜, Summer pj’s, Snoopy t-shirt which is so cute and loads of beauty products. The conditioner from Schwarzkopf is amazing as well as The Batiste dry shampoo, Vogue Girl deodorant and AndrΓ©lon creme which makes your hair soft and shiny ✨. The psychology magazine is always something I read during the Summer days. I also got a stickerbook from Flow. It contains stickers from flowers, animals and everything from nature. I also loved the Yogi Tea I got with the flavours Forever Young and Bed Time which contains chamomile and valerian. It’s easy to calm down with such a delicious tea in the evening.

From my brother Rafael and VerΓ³nica πŸ’•

I loved the personalized card I got with a chicken on the front. In the inside there was a beautiful picture from their wedding party with the family. It was very beautiful. I got the DVD from The beauty and the beast. I had never watched that movie before. I love Emma Watson so much 😍. I got birthday candles, inflatable coaster for drinks, sticky notes, flower seeds πŸ’ and of course hand gel. That’s a present I use a lot nowadays haha πŸ˜‚. We all do, right?!

From my brother Edward, Elke and Noanne ✨

I got a beautiful box from them which arrived a few days earlier. Of course I opened it on the day of my birthday. They called it the yoga wellness box. It really was so beautiful 😍 I got a letter from them and a cute drawing from my almost 5 year old niece. They are all into sustainable products which I also love so much. I got Weleda shower cream with lavender, a purple candle, bake mix to make chocolate muffins 🧁, relaxation tea with camomile, oven baked with veggie, Tony’s Chocolonely sea salt chocolate which is fair-trade and puffed spelled. I got a foam roller too. I didn’t know for what it was but my brother said it’s for yoga πŸ§˜β€β™€οΈ. I can’t wait to use it. I also got a beautiful deck of cards. I’ve always wanted one. This one is called Love your inner goddess oracle cards to express your devine femine spirit. It’s such a beautiful one to work with ✨. It’s s great way to connect to our sacred feminine. The messages and the energy from these cards are beautiful and wild. You can find good witches, mermaids πŸ§œβ€β™€οΈ and other beautiful cards in it.

From my bestie and Nathalja 🌈

From my bestie and her girlfriend I got a lovely card with an 😘 emoji. My bestie always calls me besje and I call her apple. I love cozy names hihi. I also got stickers with the alphabet, markers and aroma diffuser with essential oil which also gives 10 different colour of lights. I always wanted to have one. I got the essential oil lavender, vanilla, wild flowers πŸ’ and sea breeze 🌊. It makes me feel peaceful and it smells so well. I hope to sleep better because of it. I also got as a surprise a beautiful balloon 🎈. I loved it so much. I asked some people if it was a present from them haha but at the end my bestie told me it was from her, haha so cute!! πŸ’–

From Guillermo πŸ˜„

I got a lovely letter from Guillermo. He wanted to give me a card too but he couldn’t get it because it was during lockdown. I loved the Spanish letter. It was beautiful! πŸ’•

From Chloe 😍

From Chloe I got such beautiful presents. I had to cry when I unwrapped them. I got a beautiful card with a pie on it. I got pencils, outline stickers and a to do list notebook. I got a beautiful necklace with a tibetan charm which has a lotus on it. It’s the sign of yoga πŸ˜πŸ§˜β€β™€οΈ. I also loved the keyring with my initials the letter C and a surf girl charm πŸ„β€β™€οΈ. What I loved the most and cried SO much about was the picture of Spain in a picture frame. She knows how much I miss Spain 😭πŸ‡ͺπŸ‡Έ. Just writing this makes me cry again. I really can’t wait to be in Spain again. Until I’m not there Chloe made this for me on the computer. It’s beautiful. I have it in my room now. All the presents were so personalised. I love Spain, yoga, surfing and stationery. I love you so much and I can’t wait to finally meet each other. I’m so happy you are one of my best friends forever πŸ’ž

From Sophia πŸ₯°

I got a beautiful key ring plate which I will use for earrings, a fruit notebook 🍌🍍, Guatemalan worry dolls which you lay under your bed and take your worries away (which I SO need!!) and a beautiful hanger with the moon on it 🌜. I also loved the cute card. Loved it all so much! I love you loads πŸ’žβœ¨.

From Vikki 🌜

From Vikki I got a beautiful mirrow with a sun and moon on it πŸŒ•. It’s beautiful and so handy too. I love to always have a mirrow in my bag. I also got a ceramic hanger of a wing which is so cute. The personalised card with my picture is also so lovely. I love you and I’m thankful for our beautiful friendship 😍😘.

From Agata πŸ’–

I got a cute card with some beautiful flowers from Agata πŸ’πŸ˜. I also got a cute rainbow notebook 🌈. I will keep writing forever of course!! It’s my passion and is in my veins haha. I loved the cat pop up, animal face mask and the nail files. I really needed them for a long time because the ones I had were already old. Thank you so much lovely.

From Rosie πŸ’

The stationery I got from Rosie was amazing. I got a notebook, lovely floral 🌻🌼🌷washi tapes, sticky notes and floral print tags. I also got a card, face masks and a wallet. I loved it all!! I’m always here for you ❀️.

From Anna

I got a beautiful card from Anna too which I put with my other cards. It’s in German. I loved it so much. I love to have pen pals all over the world. I’m sure one day we will all meet each other 😍

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I’m so happy with my lovely friends and family which I all love SO much!! 😍 What’s your favourite thing of my haul? Do you also love personalised gifts? Do you also use a diffuser with essential oil? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

Today it’s my 27th birthday! πŸ˜πŸŽ‚πŸŽ‰πŸŽβœ¨πŸŽˆ Forever a gemini child β™Š and hippie girl yeahhh! βœŒ

Hola lovelies πŸ’•,

IT’S MY BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!!! πŸ˜πŸŽ‰ OMG 27 YEARS YOUNG. I feel old lol πŸ˜‚. I have sometimes pain in my body like period cramps, back pain, feeling nauseous, teeth problems, suffering from anxiety but lol I still lived 27 years so I guess it’s okay. I feel like a grand mother πŸ‘΄ sometimes. This blog post will be about my birthday and some things I learned these years. It’s a kinda strange birthday because of this pandemic and lockdown but it’s also special. It’s the first birthday in 4 years that I’m again in The Netherlands celebrating it and not in Spain. My good friend is sleeping here. My brother, his wife, my bestie and her girlfriend are coming today but of course with distance. Better, than nothing. I miss face to face connection so much. I missed seeing them so much 😭.

I sometimes feel a bit depressed, anxious and emotional with my birthday because of society’s expectations. In 3 years I’m 30 years old but I still feel like a ”baby” in the world. I don’t have a job yet, no hushband, no baby, no driving license, no car or don’t own a home. Does that make me unsuccesful? Does that make me not worth it in this society? I just hate that society create those rules. It only makes me feel depressed and create more anxiety. I am where I am in live and it’s all okay. I’m realizing now more and more that who I’m is more important than what I do.

If there is one thing I’m realizing now during this pandemic and just this year in general is that I have to choose for myself. I have spent so much years of my life doing what other people expected of me. I have spent so much time in doing things I don’t like or being with the wrong people. It only drained me and made me feel bad about myself. I have wasted too much time in toxic relationships. It wasn’t worth it. I realized afterwards that all these people and boys had one thing in common: they didn’t deserve my love. I give so much to people and didn’t get that same amount of love back. They weren’t worth my time. If only I knew then what I know now I would not have done certain things or wasted my time on the wrong people. I failed, I learned and I grew from these mistakes. I will try to not repeat them in the future.

I have always hide myself and I still do that at times and I’m done with it. I hide myself because of being bullied 😒. Not many bullies seem to know what the consequences are of bullying. It’s really the worst for your mental health. I still suffer sometimes when someone is laughing or talking a bit loud. Then instantly I think it’s about me but of course it isn’t true. Anxiety is also being caused of being bullied. I’m done with hiding myself for who I’m. I’m happy that I’m being myself know more and more online and also in real life. I have the best friends in real life, online and family in the world πŸ˜πŸ’•.

I want to be completely myself in everything I do and in everything I am in life. I have always been afraid of growing older because of being afraid of death. I also talked about that topic in this blog post. Now, I’m realizing that growing older is also a privilege. Not everyone can grow older because of sickness. I have also been afraid of aging because I always thought I have to be a certain way in life. I can’t like or do the things I like now in a few years. Well, that’s a misconception. I will forever be the hippie girl ✌, mermaid and wild child I’m πŸ˜‚. I will not change for anyone. I WILL BE MY CRAZY SELF. I will keep reading young adult books πŸ“š, blogging, penpalling, surfing πŸ„, travelling the world, singing 🎢, loving the sea 🌊, listening to my favourite artists such as Taylor Swift, Ariana Grande, Julia Michaels, Sofia Ellar, Duncan Laurence, Aitana, Amaia, Alfred and keep having fun with my friends. I will keep being myself which means being romantic and sensitive. I’m a highly sensitive person and feel every emotion and also suffer more. I can’t take that away from me because otherwise I wouldn’t be me. Growing older doesn’t mean I have to change about what I like or not. I just grow wiser.

This year I faced one of my biggest fears which was going to the dentist to get one of my wisdom teeth pulled out. I’m SO proud of myself for doing this!!! πŸ’ͺ It’s a big achievement for me. I spent years in anxiety and I still know I have to get three out. The first step is there. It went all so great because of the lovely dentist and his team. He knew exactly how to support me and take care of me while I had so much anxiety. You can read it here. Sometimes I feel some problems in my teeth because I still have to get rid of three. I prefer to do it in Spain but we postponed our trip because of the pandemic. Maybe we can go in the Summer if it won’t be dangerous for any of us. I’m just really happy to have faced this fear. I hope with the next visits I will feel less anxiety. I know anxiety will be there always but hopefully a bit less now I know how things go. That’s also the reason I prefer to go in Spain because I know the dentist. I find it hard to trust again in someone new. It’s nice to go to some familiar places.

This year I also have had some amazing good times with my friends and family πŸ˜πŸ’ƒ. My last birthday was amazing because my friend from Granada came to visit me for the first time in Valladolid. Me and my Spanish friends ate all together in a creperie. We had such a great time together. I also enjoyed my time with my Dutch friends in Haarlem in November. I came back from having a hard time in Spain and being so anxious about having to go to the dentist and just life. It was nice to be able to enjoy some time all together eating delicous tapas in La Cubanita. In January I ate there again with my good friend. I also had a nice time with my family eating all together and celebrating birthdays. I really miss that but I know that time will come again.

I also travelled to beautiful places this year which were my second home Valladolid in Spain ✈πŸ‡ͺπŸ‡Έ. I’m so blessed to have that in my life. I love my Spanish friends and family so much. It’s home. I even feel more at home there than in The Netherlands where I have been born. Home is also where your favourite people are. I love both countries so much but Spain always more haha. In July I travelled again for the 4th time to Granada, one of my favourite cities in Spain. I have a good friend living there. My mother and I went to his appartment at the beach and also enjoyed the city itself. We always have an amazing time and I really can’t wait to go back!!!! 😍🌊 It’s a tradition to go each Summer but we don’t know if that will be possible this year. I also travelled to GijΓ³n which is in Asturias for the first time in August with one of my best friends in Spain. We had such a great time. We enjoyed the beach, had great fiestas haha, eat delicious tapas, went shopping and had such a great girl time.

It was years ago since I went with a friend again on a holiday. I really missed it and I can’t wait to do it again. I still remember that night we met some cool guys which invited us for drinks without anything in return. No bad boys for once yeahhh. They were partying with us the whole night. It was so much fun. One of their friends was about to marry. I just can’t wait to travel again to new places in Spain and wherever in the world because travelling makes me so happy and most importantly, it makes me feel ALIVE!!!! You make new friends, have fun, learn about different cultures and learn more about life and this world we live in 🌍.

Right now, I just submitted a story for a contest which is called ”A sea of words” just like my blog like what the hell?! The European Institute of the Mediterranean tagged me on a post in Instagram. Otherwise I would never have found it. My instagram for my blog is also called that way. It’s a contest which is every year and the topics can be about gender equality, climate change, environment or just anything related to make this world a better place. This year it was about young people faced with climate change in the Mediterranean and the 2030 Agenda for Sustainable Development. First I wrote an essay but it wasn’t what they ask for so I had to change it into a story which was a bit more difficult. The story I wrote is about me being in the sea with my boat and then suddenly being stuck surrounded by plastic bottles. Then a man comes to help me and talks about how important it is to take action. I have always had that inner voice inside of me who says to take action and give some ideas. I already won an essay contest in 2015 and spoke at the United Nations in New York City πŸ—½ so I thought why not try again even though my inner critic is loud sometimes. The jury is now reviewing the stories. The 10 best winners will go to Barcelona at the end of September for free and will have a creative writing course and dicuss their ideas. It’s really so amazing. I will keep you informed if I win and if it’s even possible to travel.

A few days ago I also submitted my two poems πŸ“„ about vulnerability and strength for the organization MIND in The Netherlands. This organization helps people with mental health illnesses. My poems are about the sea and about being bullied and how that made me stronger and about accepting myself for the way I’m. The winner will be chosen online from the best 5 and the winner gets a poetry award. The 5 winners can speak their poem in an event. All these things make me super anxious and are so outside my comfortzone but I have to do it because I love writing and I know that I’m good at it. I have to stop bullying myself that I’m not good or smart enough. I will keep my fingers crossed βœŒπŸ™.

With all of these things I do and did in the past, I’m just being myself and embracing the person who I’m which loves to write, do yoga, sing, surf, travel the world, read and help other people and hopefully making this world a better place. I love La Pachamama!!! 🌍😍 Thank you all so much for forming part of my life. Thank you all for being there for me in good and bad times. I love you all so much. I wish you all peace, love & happiness! Forever young, wild and free! ✌️ We are all childs of the universe. This life is a gift ✨ Let’s hope this new year of life will be amazing too!

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I’m so happy to have you all in my life. Do you also join writing contests? Do you think 27 years is old? Do you think society creates rules for us? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina