Music of August 🎶❤️

Hola lovelies 💕,

I feel like it’s been a long time since I posted a blog. I’ve been feeling depressed, a bit anxious and bad as you could read on my last blog post. I woke up and the whole week I felt this way. It’s not just that I lack a purpose in life. I feel the suffering and the state of the world SO much because I’m a highly sensitive person. It’s okay to feel but sometimes it gets way too overwhelming. I’m happy to feel again lighter and more hopeful. Here’s to better times ahead 🙏✨. I guess especially in these times we have to keep this hope alive because otherwise we wouldn’t be able to cope. It’s too much negative news all the time. It’s okay to take a social media break. Do what feels good to you. I’m back in The Netherlands since a few days. I already miss Spain 😢🇪🇸. Hopefully we will be back soon.

In this blog post I will share you my favourite music of August which includes the AMAZING album Folklore by Taylor Swift 😍🎶, some amazing Spanish songs by Aitana ft. Morat, Lola Indigo and much more.

Taylor Swift – Folklore

OMGGGG MY FAV ARTIST EVER RELEASED A NEW ALBUM JUST AS A SURPRISE!!! 😍😍😍 She announced it and bam there it was. Taylor Swift, the queen of the music industry 👸👑 as known was the artist of the decade. I really love her so much. I love her as a person SO much and also her music is just the best and most beautiful. I loved her last album Lover so much. This album was something totally different and less pop which was really nice. I also missed at times the country Taylor. This is one of my favourite albums of her and I keep listen to it on repeat. I can’t stop it. It’s way too good. She sings about so many stories. She is THE person to write them. I also wanted to make an apart blog post for it later. She wored together with Bon Iver, The National en Jack Antonoff. I love this alternative album SO much 🥰. Its perfect for the end of Summer and beginning of Autumn. It makes me feel nostalgic, sad and it has mistery in it. All my songs are my favourite haha I can’t choose but I will try to choose my favourites which you can listen below.

Taylor Swift – cardigan

”Vintage tee, brand new phone
High heels on cobblestones
When you are young, they assume you know nothing
Sequin smile, black lipstick
Sensual politics
When you are young, they assume you know nothing”

THIS song and the video is so amazing! WOW so beautiful!!! 😍 She directed this all by herself. She choosed the clothes, make up and just everything. I’m so impressed and also not because she literally can do everything. The visuals are out of the world. I love this song. It brings me such a great sense of calm. She also looks so beautiful. The scene in the forest and in the sea are my favourites.

Taylor Swift – the last great american dynasty

And they said “There goes the last great American dynasty”
Who knows, if she never showed up what could’ve been
There goes the maddest woman this town has ever seen
She had a marvelous time ruining everything

This is another amazing song which also has such a great story behind it. It’s about a woman from St. Louis who is named Rebekah West Harkness. She is a famously wild heiress who once owned the Rhode Island coastal mansion that Swift purchased in 2013 for about $17 million. I really like this connection so much. She always have so much stories to tells us in her songs.

Taylor Swift ft. Bon Iver – exile

I think I’ve seen this film before
And I didn’t like the ending
You’re not my homeland anymore
So what am I defendin’ now?
You were my town
Now I’m in exile seein’ you out
I think I’ve seen this film before

This duet is SO beautiful with Bon Iver!!! 😍 This is one of my favourite songs ever. The low voice of Bon Iver blends really well with Taylor in this song. It’s a sad song and makes me feel so much. This song is about a doomed couple rehashing their relationship. It beings very low and when they sing together it explodes which is my favourite part ever. You can feel the emotion in it. This song is just in prefect harmony.

Taylor Swift – betty

But if I just showed up at your party
Would you have me?
Would you want me?
Would you tell me to go fuck myself
Or lead me to the garden?
In the garden would you trust me
If I told you it was just a summer thing?
I’m only seventeen
I don’t know anything but I know I miss you

The songs cardigan/betty and august are a ‘Teenage Love Triangle’. James and Betty are two teens who were dating, but over the summer James started secretly sleeping with another girl. Betty found out about the affair from Inez, and tried to break up with James but it sounds like they got back together in the end. ‘Cardigan’ is from Betty’s point of view, lamenting the loss of young love. ‘August’ is from the perspective of the other woman, who had the secret summer affair with James. And ‘betty’ is all about James trying to get Betty back. Taylor is so good in storytelling. This song sounds so country which I really did miss these years. I really love this song. I also like the harmonica too. It makes it even better.

Aitana ft. Morat – Más de lo que aposté

Aitana is becoming such an amazing artist since she participated in the Spanish talent show Operación Triunfo. This song is so catchy! It’s so amazing 😍. Also, Morat is an amazing band from Colombia. This collab is again a hit.

Rvfv ft. Lola Indigo – Trendy

Awesome song again from Lola Indigo! I love the cowboy vibes 😍🤠👢 She dances and sings so well. I love all the dancers so much. The choreography is amazing.

Eva B – América

Eva became third in Operación Triunfo this year. She has so much personality and charisma. I love the videoclip and this single of her fits her so well. I can’t wait for more amazing songs of her.

Jawsh 685 x Jason Derulo – Savage Love (Laxed – Siren Beat)

I always heard this song on the radio in Spain and immediately loved it. It’s so catchy and uplifting! 😍 It really makes me happy to listen to. It’s been a long time since I listened to Jason Derulo.

Miley Cyrus – Midnight sky

“I was born to run, I don’t belong to anyone, oh no
I don’t need to be loved by you

Miley is back with such a masterpiece! 😍 I really like the whole vibes of this song. I love her low voice. It sounds SO good!! I’m happy she is back with great music.

BLACKPINK ft. Selena Gomez – Ice cream

This is an amazing collaboration with the Kpop group BLACKPINK and Selena Gomez. I love ice cream 😍🍨. Hahah this song makes me want to eat one. I really like this song.

Lola Indigo ft. Danna Paola y Denise Rosental – Santería

Wow this song and video is SO awesome! 😍 Three powerful women together 🔥 This song relates to a religion that was developed in Cuba. The videoclip is amazing. The performance is so good!! This is a perfect song to dance on and also makes you feel empowered as a woman 💃♀️.

Amaia Romero – Cosas interesantes para decir

I’m so happy Amaia is back with some new music. It’s so good! 💖. It’s a great pop song which makes you happy. I’m so happy she always stays authentic and real. Her voice is always so sweet which I love so much.

Amaia Romero – La victoria

These two songs were recorded directly in the studio. I really like this one too. The instruments are also amazing. I can’t wait to see her live one day with her band. She sings about people looking at her but not seeing her. She also sings about how not everyone tells the truth which is so relatable nowadays.

Nea ft. Felix Jaehn – Some say remix

I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH!!!! 😍😍 I heard it so much on the Spanish radio. The chorus can remind you of the song Blue da ba dee by Eiffel 65. It’s really such a relaxing song.

BTS – Dynamite

What a great new song of BTS! I can’t wait to see what they have in store with their new album. I’m sure there will be more amazing song in it like this one. BTS never fails in making amazing music. They are such cuties too. Thank you for making this world a better place to live in.

JoJo ft. Demi Lovato – Lonely hearts

I really miss some more music with Demi Lovato. I really liked this collab with JoJo. I really like when they sing together. It sounds very well. Maybe it’s not totally my style of music I would listen to but I like it.

Thank you all for reading and listening to these amazing list of songs. What are your favourite songs of Folklore? Which song do you like from my list? To which artist do you listen to often? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love 💕,

xoxo Christina

Music of March 🎶💖

Hey lovelies 💕,

I didn’t write a blog post for music in February just because I was doing other stuff like yoga, meditation and reading. I also don’t feel well this whole week. I have headaches, feel dizzy and have cramps 😢. I don’t know what it is but hopefully it will pass soon. Also my gum in my lower wisdom teeth hurt. I still need to get rid of three wisdom teeth but I would really love to do that all in Spain. I miss Spain so much my heart aches and wish to hopefully go soon 🇪🇸🙏. Of course there are great dentists everywhere but when I trust someone and had a great experience I don’t like to change that. Everything went so smoothly in January when I got rid of one wisdom teeth. I also wouldn’t like to go to the hospital here because in some cases they don’t do it in private clinics. However, I’m also enjoying the sunshine these days in the garden and my walks in the park with my mother. In this blog post I will share my favourite music from March which includes some amazing Spanish songs and amazing new songs from Demi Lovato and Dua Lipa too. I hope you will enjoy it 🎶.

Sophia Kruithof – Alaska

Sophia Kruithof won The Voice of Holland season 10 in The Netherlands. She sang her own song Alaska in the finals. It’s such a beautiful and touching song. Her voice is so beautiful and so touching. I love her honesty in the way she sings. She is a deserved winner.

OG3NE – Kinda wanna

This is one of their songs of their new album Straight to you. I love this song so much. The home isolation version is so beautiful. It’s also so difficult to sing that way. I wish to go to one of their concerts when all of this is over. I love these girls so much. This Dutch girls group is really something to be so proud of! When they sing together it sounds so good. I love the harmony between their voices so much 😍.

Jeangu Macrooy – Grow (Eurovision – The Netherlands)

”Don’t take it personally
Don’t be offended
Don’t mind my mood
Changing like the weather
God knows I try to hold it all together
I’m getting older
And it ain’t what I thought it would be

One day I’ll find
Some peace of mind
And then I’ll stop being afraid
I won’t make it through the night”

Even though Eurovision will not take place this year in The Netherlands I really loved this song. Again The Netherlands comes with a beautiful song. I didn’t know Jeangu before but he already sang for The Passion here. This song is so beautiful. I love his voice and the gospel at the middle. This song is for all the people suffering from a mental illness or feeling bad in life 🙏. He wants to let everyone know that we have the right to feel whatever emotion we are feeling. He hopes this song makes people feel a little less lonely in their search for happiness. He thinks that openness and honesty about how we really feel will ultimately bring us closer. I so agree with him. Such a beautiful message.

Demi Lovato – I love me

Oh, why do I compare myself to everyone?
And I always got my finger on the self destruct
I wonder when I love me is enough (yeah, yeah, yeah)

The queen is back with a beautiful new song! 👸😍 I’m so happy Demi is back and happy because she deserves that so much. This is such a feel good song and such a beautiful feminist song. I also found myself comparing myself way too much to other people which makes me feel worse. We are all enough and a 10 out of 10 hell yeah. I also love the flashbacks of Camp Rock and Jonas Brothers in the video.

Dua Lipa – Physical

This new song of Dua Lipa is so good! I love the whole vibes and the sound of it. I feels a bit like the 80s with the lights and everything. It’s so catchy.

The Original Rudeboys – Better days

I’m so happy they are back because I love them so much. This is such a great new song of them. It just makes me feel relaxed and chill. I can’t wait for more new music of them.

Rosalía – Dolerme

Rosalía is back with a beautiful Spanish song. Her voice is so beautiful and sounds like an angel especially when she sings those high notes. I love this song! 💕

Sofia Ellar – Tan solo soy real

Tan solo soy real is the live album from Sofia Ellar. She has included the songs which she sang live during her concert in Wizink Center in Madrid. I would love to go again to one of her concerts. She is one of my favourite Spanish artists ever. Her songs are so pure and honest. She is an amazing singer-songwriter. I will share some of my favourite songs of this live album below.

Sofia Ellar – Mundos

This song is so beautiful! 💖 I love it. It’s so good and definitely brings the good vibes of the beginning of the concert. I wish I was there so that I could enjoy it too. The instruments also sounds so amazing.

Sofia Ellar – Versión de cobarde

This song is one of my favourite songs of her because it’s so pure and honest. She had a lovely cat named Dorian who got lost and passed away. She wrote this song for her passed cat. Such a sad story but such an amazing song. You can feel her emotion through this song.

Miriam Rodríguez – No sé quién soy

Wow such an amazing song! Miriam wrote this song about people suffering with Alzheimer. It’s about not knowing who you are and not having memories. It’s so sad but she sings it beautifully. I find it really important that artists sings about this theme because it’s important to raise awareness and help the people who suffer from this horrible illness 😢🙏.

Victoria – Tears getting sober (Eurovision – Bulgaria)

”Strained but my tears are getting sober now
And I’ve been here before so
Weight that I’m holding on my shoulders
I’m gonna let it go”

This song is SO BEAUTIFUL!!!!! ✨ I love this song. I’m sad that Eurovision is cancelled this year because maybe this song would have won. I agree with people saying that maybe she got inspiration from Billie Elish. I think there’s nothing wrong with that because every artist has their inspirations. This song is so mysterious, wonderful and really makes you feel a lot of emotions. The video is so wonderful made, so simple and yet it captivates you straight away. I love when music does that to you.

Davina Michelle – Beat me (Official song F1 Grand Prix)

I have nothing with Formule 1 races but this year it would be here in The Netherlands. It’s now cancelled of course. The Dutch singer made this song for the races. I really like it. It sounds really good.

Anne – Salté

I love Anne from the newest edition of the Spanish talentshow Operación Triunfo. When they were in the singing acedemy they produced their own songs. This song is so cute!!! I love her voice. I love the pure and honesty of her. This song is really just her essence which I love so much.

Chica Sobresalto – Oxitocina

Chica Sobresalto also known as Maialen was participating in the same talentshow as Anne. She was already an artist before she entered the academy. This song is just WOW amazing!!!! I love it because it sounds a bit pop/rock 🤘. She writes and produce such great songs. She has so much personality in her songs and she is always herself. I love those artists the most who are completely themselves on stage and in life.

Jorge Dexler – Codo con codo

Jorge made this song for what’s happening now in the world with the Coronavirus. He sings about hugs that will come again and that all will be well again. It’s a song with a beautiful message which we all need to hear right now.

Thank you all so much for reading this blog post. Hopefully you listened to some of these songs. I hope you liked them. What was your favourite song? Which is one song you listen to often? What was your favourite song in March? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love 💕,

xoxo Christina

Feeling that I’m not honest & shocking news about Demi Lovato😢

Hey lovely bloggers 💕,

Right now, I’m on my holiday in Granada and actually wasn’t going to plan a blog post. I’m on holidays and wanted to write after holidays and share my travel post. I will do that when I’m back. Today’s blog post is about the fact that I’m not honest with a friend.

So, everything was great yesterday as we had a big trip of 7 hours in the bus. Today we enjoyed eating great food and we saw some views and the beautiful city Granada. I even made a friend today. I will tell you about it in my next blog post. At 8 o’clock my mother and I went to my friend his house here in Granada. I already got a bit angry when I said fucking and he said don’t curse. I don’t like when someone says that I can’t do something. It’s my life you know. We are friends not lovers. My ex always said to me what I’ve to do and I hated it. He droved us to his house at the beach. Everything was allright by then I guess.

His father and mother said that there are jelly-fish in the sea. My friend said that he got biten once. I really don’t want to experience that. We didn’t go into the sea. We only walked and were just watching the beautiful sea. I was talking about a Spanish singer which lost his cat and that cat died and then he said okay and like he wanted to end the conversation and not talk about anything bad. So I was like okay. Then we talked about something else. Then suddenly he said: “Do you still take that pills”? He meant my antidepressants of course. I didn’t want to answer and said: “Which ones”? Then he said: “Those”. I don’t know why he didn’t said the words. I said: “Yes almost silently”. I felt like crying. He said: “okay” and talked about something else. I also lied about the fact that my sleep schedule is good again. It isn’t. I said we woke up at 10 today but my mother and I woke up at 12 😂😂😂 I really sleept well last night in the hotel. I hope to get any sleep tonight but would be difficult. It’s so hot here in the room with my mother and there’s a baby from the neighbours screaming and crying 😡. I don’t want any kids lol every time I hear that. I hear the sounds of the waves, that’s making me peaceful.

You may think I’m 100% honest about suffering from anxiety, being a mental health advocate and taking antidpressants. I’m not. However, I always have been honest with this friend but I think he also don’t want to talk about negative things so I better don’t talk about it. I’m sorry I’m sometimes a negative person even though everybody thinks I’m happy all the time while I’m not. I cry a lot. Anxiety make me feel that way. I know it isn’t good to be honest. After that I felt so bad. I could feel in my heart racing and I could feel my body shaking and crying but I didn’t wanted to cry. I let some tears but I think he didn’t saw it. I turned my eyes all the time and looked to the stars.

I feel guilty for not being honest with a friend that I felt anxiety again and felt like crying. I just couldn’t. That left me feeling worse. I needed to cry so hard but I didn’t want to cry in front of him which I did a few years ago and never have a problem with that. Just sometimes I prefer to cry alone but I also cry easily in front of people. I don’t know why I couldn’t that moment.

It makes me feel so bad that I feel this way as I’m at the beach and have to be happy. I have to be happy?! Is that even normal what I’m saying? I don’t have to be happy all the time when I can’t. It hurts me to feel this way because I’m always happy at the beach but sometimes I also cried at the beach. The sea makes me emotional and sensitive if that makes sense. Maybe, I just need to clean my thoughts and emotions with the salt water. My period is due for friday and always the days before my period I’m always so sensitive and cry about everything and just for no reason. I feel that my tummy is hurting. I really want to swim in the ocean 😢 It’s been a year. I hope I can swim tommorow in the sea and will have to be careful for the jelly-fish of course.

Then we went back to the appartment with his parents and my mother and we ate delicious dinner. Then my friend also said that I had to eat more because I ate to little. Well, I just like to eat what I want. I had enough. I get anxious when someone says that to me. Just leave me alone. Then my mother began to talk after dinner about death and stuff. Yeah, like normal talks about life. I don’t know why that’s wrong. My friend just said okay and went to his room and closed the door. It feels like he can’t talk about hard stuff. I don’t know what it’s. It’s pretty strange.

I don’t know. I just feel that I’m rambling about everything at once. I also feels this way because it hits me hard the news of Demi Lovato. This is what I wrote last night on my Instagram of @seaofwordsblog.

I got in shock when I heard the news tonight that @ddlovato took an overdose and ended in a hospital of Los Angeles 😭 The media said that they found her unconscious and treated her with Naloxone, an anti-overdose medicine, after possibly taking narcotics. This is really so sad news. The good news is that she is alert again, breathing and in a stable condition.

She struggled with addiction of drugs and alcoholism in the past. She battles with bipolar disorder and bulimia. This is often documented in her music. She have helped so many people battling with their own struggles and mental health illnesses. She helped me too with having anxiety. Her lyrics and music is so good. She’s just 25 years old like me. So young. She has a beautiful life ahead. She’s one of my favourite singers ever. I hope to go to a concert once she has recovered. Her music mean so much to me. She’s such a sweet, lovely and such a beautiful person ❤❤❤

I wish Demi really the best. I love the quotes from this collage which I found. This is just so true. Just because someone smiles doesn’t mean they are happy or that they aren’t struggling. Demi Lovato is a famous person and just because she is famous doesn’t have to mean that her life is all perfect. You don’t have to be strong all the time Demi. I know you are so strong but I really do hope you get the help you need. You deserve that so much 💕

Your friends, family and fans will never ever leave you behind. We’re here for you. We love you. We wish that you get well soon. Take all the time you need to recover. I know it will be a hard battle but not impossible. You can do it 💪 We are all warriors like your song says ❤

This message is for Demi and for anyone who’s struggling right now in silence. I hope you get the helo you need. Remember, you are not alone. You are loved. We are all in this together 💪❤ We are all lights in the universe even though it may can seem all dark. We will shine into the darkness and find that light again. We will be okay again. Trust me, we will. It will take time but we can get there. I love you all and stay safe 💕

I hope that I can find the light too again. I really want to be honest with others as I’m with myself. I’m so sorry if I can’t be that today. Tomorrow will be another day. If anyone have some advice then it would be helpful. I’m sorry if this blog post got nowhere. I just needed to write this here. Writing is such a beautiful way of healing and processing emotion. I also love to sing and let everything out. I can be okay too and I hope Demi Lovato and all others who are suffering now can be okay too. I just cried in my room and my mother is sleeping and feel a bit better. When I need to cry I have to cry. Letting everything in will only make me feel worse.

Thank you all for reading this messy blog post. I hope you can all understand me. I love you all so much and thank you all for being there for me. This is my outlet for everything that I can’t say out loud but can in writing.

I love you all so much 💕💕💕,

xoxo Christina