Stop making a taboo about having periods

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

I just had to write this blog post because I feel bad these days because of my upcoming period. I find it important to raise awareness about having our periods. I’m going to talk about period pain and periods in general. I already talked about it one day. I don’t understand why we don’t talk more about it and why it’s still considered a taboo when it’s something natural. I think we have to talk more about it so that women don’t feel alone while suffering each month from heavy pain, blood, mood swings and everything which comes with having our periods. Men often say that women get crazy when their period is coming well we aren’t crazy, our hormones are making us feel that way. It’s not something we choose for. I find it always so disgusting when people say that we like to be completely mad. If they would suffer from it, they wouldn’t say that because then they would know how it feels. You never know what’s someone is going through until you feel those feelings and those experiences by yourself.

So, Saturday night I experienced so much pain that I thought OMG I will die. I was sitting on the floor covering my tummy. My body was IN SO MUCH PAIN. I cried so much. I know almost certain that it has to do with my period coming and pms. It isn’t normal though. I have always had painful and heavy periods. I know I’m not the only woman suffering through this 😭. It’s so hard. The strange thing is that I never felt it that way and I still don’t have my period. I think it’s pms because for the rest I’m not sick or anything. I also feel angry and emotional. I also feel way more anxious before my period. I also have read that it’s because of our hormones. They make us feel like crazy. I always have mood swings before period and I’m so hungry. I just ate a pizza πŸ• last night haha. I craved it so badly πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‹.

There’s still a taboo talking about it. I know some men don’t like to hear it and find it gross. I remember one time I was on my period during high school and I always bleed so much. I knew my jeans were a bit red 😭. I wanted to go to the toilet but they didn’t let me. I didn’t say I had my period. I found it so uncomfortable. I also have heard of men who are super supportive and that makes me so happy. The friends I have in my life who are men are very supportive and care about me. That’s the direction we have to go. Well, it’s the most natural thing ever of being a women which has to be respected. Maybe if women had more information and resources, pain and other issues surrounding our moon would be more manageable. We can’t fix a problem when we can’t talk about it. Talking about it helps to raise awareness and will make us come to a solution all together. I also agree that women have to get more benefits surrounding their periods like free days at work and that pads, tampons and every other product for our periods doesn’t cost anything anymore. We don’t ask for it. Condoms are often given for free but we have to buy these products which also cost so much money. It is definitely not fair at all.

Years ago, women had their period always in sync with the full moon 🌜. That’s why they also call it our moon. It goes in sync with how we feel too. Before our period we may feel more emotional, heavy, sad, angry or just feel that something is off. That means the end of something. When our period begins we begin a new life, a new cycle. Maybe my period is coming on the full moon this Thursday. When I read this somewhere on the internet I felt in awe 🌝. The full moon has definitely an effect on us. I sleep worse the night before and feel more emotional. It’s so beautiful to think we can bring a life into this world. We women are magical creatures of the universe βœ¨πŸ’ž and have to embrace this with our whole heart. The thought of one day getting a baby is beautiful but at the same time it overwhelms me. I don’t know how to take sometimes good care of myself. How would I be able to take care of a child? Also, I’m afraid of getting pregnant and giving birth. I already feel so bad with having my period every month. How would I survive giving birth? I don’t think I’m the only thinking this. I also find it good that women don’t have to have children because it’s their choice like to do abortion too. Every women has the right to decide what to do with their bodies.

I think I will have to check this problem soon because what I felt last weekend was the worst 😒. I’m always anxious about going to the doctor so I don’t go only when I really have to. It gets worse every month. I hope I don’t have anything serious or like endometriose. I know many of my friends also suffer this way and some women don’t feel much. They are definitely the lucky ones. I wish my life was pain free, oh how a different world would that be. Sometimes I wouldn’t be able to walk because of so much cramps. I’m happy I have Aleve meds which is Naproxen and helps very well. Otherwise I wouldn’t be able to cope at all. I just don’t know if I would like to take birth control because I also read some bad stories with side effects. I don’t know if that would be good for my mental health. I just don’t really know what is good or bad for my body.

I just really think we have to talk more about our periods without any shame. It’s 2020 and it’s about time to stop hiding our feelings or thoughts on important topics such as this one in the world. Only then we can come to a solution and feel less alone in our struggles. I’m so happy my mamita is always there to comfort me. Also, my daddy understands me because he sees me suffering every damn month 😒. I wish everyone has a person that is there for them. No one has to deal with hard stuff in life alone. No women has to go through this alone every time of the month. I hope you have friends, family and other loved ones who are there for you when you feel bad during that time of the month. You deserve that love and compassion so much. Your feelings are valid. You are not alone πŸ’žπŸŒˆπŸ™. You are loved. I love you all.

Thank you all for reading this important blog post. I found it important to talk about this subject. How are your periods? Do you take meds or birth control? What are some tips to ease the pain? I’m always here for you. Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

March favourites πŸ’•βœ¨

Hola lovelies πŸ’•,

I’m back with my favourites from March. It was a good month until we got all locked down at home. I was struggling so much by that time. Now I feel a bit more calm. It feels more normal when of course life is not normal. It was nice to have some fun in March. It was nice to have seen some people which I didn’t see for a long time. I’m missing them now 😒. In this blog post I will share about meeting my best friend and her girlfriend, seeing the baby of my friends brother and having a new laptop.

Things I did with my lovely family πŸ‘ͺ:

Visiting the baby of my friends brother πŸ‘Ά

We visited the baby of my friends brother. They are also our friends. We went to their wedding. My parents are also friends with their parents. The father of the child has a brother which is bff with my brother since they were little. They were in the same classes. It was so nice to see the baby RyanπŸ‘ΆπŸΌπŸ’–. He is so cute and lovely. He is so calm too and sleep peacefully πŸ˜΄. We ate beschuit met muisjes together with tea which is typical to eat in The Netherlands. They were blue because it’s a boy otherwise it’s pink for a girl. I love this tradition. We also loved the 4 cats, my fav is the orange cat haha Garfield! πŸ˜πŸ± They are so fluffy and cute!!!! It was nice to see the wedding pictures too. It’s been already 7 years since we were on their beautiful wedding.

Pancakes time πŸ₯ž

After visiting the baby we ate some delicious pancakes at home. I always love to eat them so much. My daddy makes the best pancakes in the world. They were delicious as always! πŸ˜πŸ˜‹

Walks in the park 🌞

It was very sunny in March and even more now in April. I love to walk in the park with my mother which is just around the corner of my house. It’s nice to be in nature always. I love to go on walks where we see the cows and the mills which is a typical Dutch landscape. I also saw some beautiful pink flowers.

Eating a delicous disco dip ice cream 🍦

I love disco dip ice cream so much 😍. It’s so typical to eat this here. I ate it at the Hema when it was still open for ice cream. Right now, the restaurant is closed. You can still get ice cream in some other places though. I love this so much. It’s also so good for my teeth lol not. It’s so delicious. I love the crispy taste of it. Also it looks so beautiful.

New stationery from Euroland πŸ›οΈ

When I went shopping I bought some nice stationery from the shop Euroland. I bought a sticker set which has some beautiful theme stickers from Spring time, cats and quotes. I also bought a set of 6 envelopes with liners. I love it all.

Watching the movie Aladdin and It could happen to you 🎬

I watched Aladdin with my mother. I had never watched it haha how bad. I loved it so much. I love the music and just the whole movie. Such a great movie. I can’t wait to watch more Disney movies because I love them so much ✨. With both of my parents I watched It could happen to you. It’s about a police officer who promises to share his lottery ticket with a waitress in lieu of a tip. This police officer is married. I loved this romantic movie so much. I didn’t find it that clichΓ© like other movies. There was a really great story line and I loved the actors.

Things I did with my lovely friends πŸ’•:

Seeing my best friend and her girlfriend πŸ˜πŸ’–

I saw my bestie and her girlfriend again on Friday the 13th which was definitely a lucky day. I went by bus and was a bit scared because soon after that we got into a lockdown in The Netherlands. I’m just happy I saw my best friend again after three months πŸ˜πŸ˜­βœ¨ In these dark and hard times in the world I always feel at most peace by your side. I literally am crying now. I love you to the moon and back, to infinity and beyond πŸŒœπŸŒ›. It’s rare to find someone who understands you. I’m so blessed to have you in my life forevah. As long as I have you by my side everything will be all right. Thank you and your lovely girlfriend for cooking delicious Indonesian food!!! It was a bit spicy which I can’t eat because I get an upset stomach but it was okay haha. If it was really spicy I would have died lol. Take care you both, see ya soon! πŸ‘‹πŸ€—

Beautiful pen pal letters πŸ’Œ

I love my pen pals so much. I always get such beautiful mail which make my day much better 😍. There’s nothing more beautiful than receiving a handwritten letter and some nice goodies. I love arts and crafts. Being creative is the best. It inspires me and is so good for my mental health. I’m happy for the letter I got from Agata which came all the way from Poland. I loved it so much. I loved the writing paper. I loved the quotes on that paper which looks like it’s burned. I have never seen that before. Thank you for the rainbow bookmark. I will definitely use it soon. It’s so cute! ☁️ Thank you Chloe for your mail like always. You are so creative!!!! A real artist. I love the gemini β™Š card. You knew that I would love it too so much. I love the universe ✨. Your letter was beautiful. I like the stickers, the drawings and the bookmark. Another one for my collection haha! I also really liked the moon with my name. I’m going to have it in my room. Love you to the moon and back. I’m so thankful for our friendship. I know we will meet soon.

I’m also thankful for the amazing mail I got from Rosie. I’m so happy to be friends with you. I loved everything you sent to me always especially the quotes, the little friendship card and your letter of course. I decorated my room with some of the quotes you have sent me. We are all in this together always. I’m sending you all my love. Thank you lovely Sophia for your beautiful letter. I love the rainbow sticky notes, the stickers and just everything. What I love the most is your cards with quotes on it which you always make. They are so inspiring and beautiful. Keep being you because you are awesome.

I  L O V E  Y O U  A L L πŸ’–

Other amazing things of March πŸ’–:

Buying beautiful stationery online πŸ›’

I bought some beautiful stationery online. I love to buy on Etsy because I support small businesses that way and they have the cutest stuff ever. I bought a floral A5 lined notepad and A6 notepad from Abby Cook Illustration. It looks so beautiful with the flowers πŸ’. I will use it for writing letters for my pen pals. I also bought cute washi tape with panda design from Petite Pink Boutique. Lastly, I bought an awesome space mystery box from Callaby Crafts. It includes samples of washi tape, three washi tape with universe design, dream notes, stickers of the moon 🌜and a pen. I loved it all so much! 😍 I love the universe so much.

New laptop πŸ’»

My daddy finally bought a new laptop because the other one was broken. It’s a Chromebook from the brand Acer. It works so well. You have to install first the apps and then you can use it. The screen is beautiful. It’s better than Windows or Mac because you don’t get any virus. I’m so happy with it. The next time we go to Spain we will bring it with us.

Officially Spring time πŸ’πŸŒžπŸŒΌπŸŒ»

Spring begin the 20th of March 🌞. I’m always happy with the beginning of Spring because I love Spring and Summer is closer which is my favourite season ever. However, I hope that we are able to go to the beach this Summer and go to the swimming pool. I need that 😒. Spring is such a lovely season. I love Summer but I hate heatwaves haha. They make me sick really. I love 20 degrees and just enjoy the days in the garden now. I love to see the baby animals and see the flowers blossoming. Nature in Spring is so beautiful. We let the dark Winter ahead and embrace these days with hope and light. We need it so much this time.

International Women’s Day 2020 β™€οΈπŸ’œ

I always find this such an important day. International Women’s Day is every day not only on March the 8th. However, I find this day an important day to raise awareness. I’m a feminist by heart forever and will always stand up for the same rights between men and women. Right now, I’m reading a book about sexual harrasment and controlling behaviour which breaks my heart because I know that many women have to suffer through this in life. This really has to stop. One day I went to a feminist strike in Spain which was awesome πŸ’ͺπŸ‘­. You can read it in this blog post. This year I made a poem for this day which you can find here.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope you are all safe and sound at home. I really do hope better times are coming because we all deserve it so much. What was your favourite thing of my list? What’s your favourite season? Do you like my new stationery? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

Music of March πŸŽΆπŸ’–

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

I didn’t write a blog post for music in February just because I was doing other stuff like yoga, meditation and reading. I also don’t feel well this whole week. I have headaches, feel dizzy and have cramps 😒. I don’t know what it is but hopefully it will pass soon. Also my gum in my lower wisdom teeth hurt. I still need to get rid of three wisdom teeth but I would really love to do that all in Spain. I miss Spain so much my heart aches and wish to hopefully go soon πŸ‡ͺπŸ‡ΈπŸ™. Of course there are great dentists everywhere but when I trust someone and had a great experience I don’t like to change that. Everything went so smoothly in January when I got rid of one wisdom teeth. I also wouldn’t like to go to the hospital here because in some cases they don’t do it in private clinics. However, I’m also enjoying the sunshine these days in the garden and my walks in the park with my mother. In this blog post I will share my favourite music from March which includes some amazing Spanish songs and amazing new songs from Demi Lovato and Dua Lipa too. I hope you will enjoy it 🎢.

Sophia Kruithof – Alaska

Sophia Kruithof won The Voice of Holland season 10 in The Netherlands. She sang her own song Alaska in the finals. It’s such a beautiful and touching song. Her voice is so beautiful and so touching. I love her honesty in the way she sings. She is a deserved winner.

OG3NE – Kinda wanna

This is one of their songs of their new album Straight to you. I love this song so much. The home isolation version is so beautiful. It’s also so difficult to sing that way. I wish to go to one of their concerts when all of this is over. I love these girls so much. This Dutch girls group is really something to be so proud of! When they sing together it sounds so good. I love the harmony between their voices so much 😍.

Jeangu Macrooy – Grow (Eurovision – The Netherlands)

”Don’t take it personally
Don’t be offended
Don’t mind my mood
Changing like the weather
God knows I try to hold it all together
I’m getting older
And it ain’t what I thought it would be

One day I’ll find
Some peace of mind
And then I’ll stop being afraid
I won’t make it through the night”

Even though Eurovision will not take place this year in The Netherlands I really loved this song. Again The Netherlands comes with a beautiful song. I didn’t know Jeangu before but he already sang for The Passion here. This song is so beautiful. I love his voice and the gospel at the middle. This song is for all the people suffering from a mental illness or feeling bad in life πŸ™. He wants to let everyone know that we have the right to feel whatever emotion we are feeling. He hopes this song makes people feel a little less lonely in their search for happiness. He thinks that openness and honesty about how we really feel will ultimately bring us closer. I so agree with him. Such a beautiful message.

Demi Lovato – I love me

Oh, why do I compare myself to everyone?
And I always got my finger on the self destruct
I wonder when I love me is enough (yeah, yeah, yeah)

The queen is back with a beautiful new song! πŸ‘ΈπŸ˜ I’m so happy Demi is back and happy because she deserves that so much. This is such a feel good song and such a beautiful feminist song. I also found myself comparing myself way too much to other people which makes me feel worse. We are all enough and a 10 out of 10 hell yeah. I also love the flashbacks of Camp Rock and Jonas Brothers in the video.

Dua Lipa – Physical

This new song of Dua Lipa is so good! I love the whole vibes and the sound of it. I feels a bit like the 80s with the lights and everything. It’s so catchy.

The Original Rudeboys – Better days

I’m so happy they are back because I love them so much. This is such a great new song of them. It just makes me feel relaxed and chill. I can’t wait for more new music of them.

RosalΓ­a – Dolerme

RosalΓ­a is back with a beautiful Spanish song. Her voice is so beautiful and sounds like an angel especially when she sings those high notes. I love this song! πŸ’•

Sofia Ellar – Tan solo soy real

Tan solo soy real is the live album from Sofia Ellar. She has included the songs which she sang live during her concert in Wizink Center in Madrid. I would love to go again to one of her concerts. She is one of my favourite Spanish artists ever. Her songs are so pure and honest. She is an amazing singer-songwriter. I will share some of my favourite songs of this live album below.

Sofia Ellar – Mundos

This song is so beautiful! πŸ’– I love it. It’s so good and definitely brings the good vibes of the beginning of the concert. I wish I was there so that I could enjoy it too. The instruments also sounds so amazing.

Sofia Ellar – VersiΓ³n de cobarde

This song is one of my favourite songs of her because it’s so pure and honest. She had a lovely cat named Dorian who got lost and passed away. She wrote this song for her passed cat. Such a sad story but such an amazing song. You can feel her emotion through this song.

Miriam RodrΓ­guez – No sΓ© quiΓ©n soy

Wow such an amazing song! Miriam wrote this song about people suffering with Alzheimer. It’s about not knowing who you are and not having memories. It’s so sad but she sings it beautifully. I find it really important that artists sings about this theme because it’s important to raise awareness and help the people who suffer from this horrible illness πŸ˜’πŸ™.

Victoria – Tears getting sober (Eurovision – Bulgaria)

”Strained but my tears are getting sober now
And I’ve been here before so
Weight that I’m holding on my shoulders
I’m gonna let it go”

This song is SO BEAUTIFUL!!!!! ✨ I love this song. I’m sad that Eurovision is cancelled this year because maybe this song would have won. I agree with people saying that maybe she got inspiration from Billie Elish. I think there’s nothing wrong with that because every artist has their inspirations. This song is so mysterious, wonderful and really makes you feel a lot of emotions. The video is so wonderful made, so simple and yet it captivates you straight away. I love when music does that to you.

Davina Michelle – Beat me (Official song F1 Grand Prix)

I have nothing with Formule 1 races but this year it would be here in The Netherlands. It’s now cancelled of course. The Dutch singer made this song for the races. I really like it. It sounds really good.

Anne – SaltΓ©

I love Anne from the newest edition of the Spanish talentshow OperaciΓ³n Triunfo. When they were in the singing acedemy they produced their own songs. This song is so cute!!! I love her voice. I love the pure and honesty of her. This song is really just her essence which I love so much.

Chica Sobresalto – Oxitocina

Chica Sobresalto also known as Maialen was participating in the same talentshow as Anne. She was already an artist before she entered the academy. This song is just WOW amazing!!!! I love it because it sounds a bit pop/rock 🀘. She writes and produce such great songs. She has so much personality in her songs and she is always herself. I love those artists the most who are completely themselves on stage and in life.

Jorge Dexler – Codo con codo

Jorge made this song for what’s happening now in the world with the Coronavirus. He sings about hugs that will come again and that all will be well again. It’s a song with a beautiful message which we all need to hear right now.

Thank you all so much for reading this blog post. Hopefully you listened to some of these songs. I hope you liked them. What was your favourite song? Which is one song you listen to often? What was your favourite song in March? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

International Women’s Day 2020 πŸ’ͺβ™€οΈπŸ’œ

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

I always find it so important to talk about women’s rights especially today. Today it’s International Women’s Day πŸ’œβ™€οΈ. Every day is women’s day but I find today just an important day to talk about feminism and women’s rights. I love to write poetry about this topic. I love to read about it. I love to speak up about it because we have the right to speak up. I will also share at the end a poem, a picture and a cover 🎢 I made for this subject. I will not say happy International Women’s Day because how can we be happy when there are still so many women suffering in this world? How can we be happy when we are still afraid walking at night? How can we be happy when we are always afraid of something happening to us? There still needs a lot to be done to have equal rights between men and women.

There’s still no equality between men and women in this world. We have to raise our voice and talk about it. Men still earn in many places more than women. Men still consider women as objects. Men still keep catcalling women on the street. Rape, sexual abuse and violence against women exists. It still happens. It happens in The Netherlands, in Spain and anywhere else in the world. It has nothing to do with undeveloped or developed countries. This is an issue which effects the whole world 🌍. I wish we wouldn’t live in a patriarchal world. To be honest, I’m sick of it. Women can be bosses too. We don’t need men to feel satisfied or be happy in life.

I have always been a feminist and also will be a feminst forever πŸ’œβ™€οΈπŸ”₯. Women and men deserve the same human rights. It’s that simple. Some men always think that if you are a feminist, you hate men. That isn’t the case at all. Of course, men can be a feminst too because this isn’t just about women, it’s also about men. We don’t want to have the power over men. We just want GENDER EQUALITY.

Girl support girls always

I have to admit that I still have a wall around me because of my ex. It’s been 7 years since the break up πŸ’”. I dated some guys sometimes but just short and nothing serious. I’m afraid to get hurt again. I liked guys which just wanted me because they wanted sex from me and I don’t want that. They saw me as an object and even one time one said that they thought I was sexual attractive. I was like fuck off πŸ‘†. You see, I’m fed up with these kind of comments. I want to be seen as a women for my qualities which means being sensitive, romantic, creative, compassionate and for being intelligent and having a good heart. When I see a man or get to know one I think of these qualities of that person whereas men always focus on our physically.

To be honest, I don’t blame men for those behaviours because they can be changed. Those are not great comments of course. Those behaviours are thought from an early age. Boys and girls are grown up differently. Boys have to be strong and like men stuff like cars 🚘 and football and girls are grown up having to be like a princess πŸ‘Έ, being sweet and sensitive and loving all cute and pink stuff. It’s the wrong way to have grown up. The moment a child doesn’t feel like fitting in, he or she fall outside the box in our society. So, I definitely think these male-dominated behaviours of catcalling and seeing women as an object comes from an early age.

I really do think we have to raise boys and girls the same way. Tell them it’s okay to be and like who they want to like. Tell the boys it’s okay to cry. Tell the girls it’s okay to be a warrior. This will also cause less mental health problems in the future. There are more men who die by suicide then women because they feel they can’t express their emotions and don’t have the right to cry and talk about their feelings.

As you can see, there is still a lot to do with achieving real equality between men and women. I’m a feminist by heart and I find it important to raise awareness about equality always. Therefor I made a poem πŸ“ for this day and this poem relates to the picture where you can see me with tape on my mouth. I made this picture a few years ago for an assignment for school. It was for my minor of photography. We had to show a contrast with two pictures. I had chosen the topic of freedom. This picture is the opposite of how I’m able to live my life. This picture relates to my poem below.

Picture of myself showing how some women can't speak up

𝑰 π’‚π’Ž 𝒂 π’˜π’π’Žπ’‚π’.
𝑻𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝑰 π’ˆπ’†π’• π’‘π’–π’π’Šπ’”π’‰π’†π’….
𝑰 𝒄𝒂𝒏’𝒕 π’˜π’†π’‚π’“ π’˜π’‰π’‚π’• 𝑰 π’˜π’‚π’π’•.
𝑰 𝒄𝒂𝒏’𝒕 𝒃𝒆 π’˜π’‰π’ 𝑰 π’˜π’‚π’π’• 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆.
𝑰 𝒄𝒂𝒏’𝒕 π’ˆπ’ π’”π’π’Žπ’†π’˜π’‰π’†π’“π’† 𝒂𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒆.
𝑰 𝒄𝒂𝒏’𝒕 π’…π’“π’Šπ’—π’†.
𝑰 𝒄𝒂𝒏’𝒕 π’˜π’π’“π’Œ π’π’–π’•π’”π’Šπ’…π’† 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒔𝒆.
𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒐 π’Žπ’‚π’“π’“π’š π’”π’π’Žπ’†π’π’π’† 𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 π’Žπ’†π’• 𝒐𝒓 𝒂 π’‡π’‚π’Žπ’Šπ’π’š π’Žπ’†π’Žπ’ƒπ’†π’“.
𝑰𝒇 𝑰’π’Ž π’π’–π’„π’Œπ’š 𝑰 𝒄𝒂𝒏 π’Žπ’‚π’šπ’ƒπ’† π’Žπ’‚π’“π’“π’š π’”π’π’Žπ’†π’π’π’† π’˜π’‰π’†π’ 𝑰’π’Ž 20 π’šπ’†π’‚π’“π’” 𝒐𝒍𝒅.
π‘΄π’š π’‡π’“π’Šπ’†π’π’…π’” 𝒂𝒓𝒆 π’‚π’π’“π’†π’‚π’…π’š π’Žπ’‚π’“π’“π’Šπ’†π’… 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 π’•π’‰π’†π’Ž π’ƒπ’†π’Šπ’π’ˆ π’Œπ’Šπ’…π’”.
π‘΄π’‚π’“π’“π’šπ’Šπ’π’ˆ π’ƒπ’†π’Šπ’π’ˆ 𝒂 π’„π’‰π’Šπ’π’… π’Šπ’” 𝒔𝒐 π’π’π’“π’Žπ’‚π’ 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆.
𝑰 𝒄𝒂𝒏’𝒕 π’”π’‘π’†π’‚π’Œ 𝒖𝒑.
𝑰’π’Ž π’”π’Šπ’π’†π’π’„π’†π’….
𝑴𝒆𝒏 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 π’‘π’π’˜π’†π’“ 𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒖𝒔.
π‘»π’‰π’Šπ’” π’Šπ’” π’Žπ’š π’π’Šπ’‡π’†.

π‘»π’‰π’Šπ’” π’Šπ’” 𝒕𝒉𝒆 π’”π’•π’π’“π’š 𝒐𝒇 π’˜π’π’Žπ’†π’ π’π’Šπ’—π’Šπ’π’ˆ π’Šπ’ π’Žπ’‚π’π’š 𝒖𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒍𝒐𝒑𝒆𝒅 π’„π’π’–π’π’•π’“π’Šπ’†π’” 𝒐𝒇 𝒐𝒖𝒓 π’˜π’π’“π’π’….
𝑰𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒍𝒐𝒑 π’„π’π’–π’π’•π’“π’Šπ’†π’” 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆’𝒔 𝒂𝒍𝒔𝒐 π’”π’•π’Šπ’π’ 𝒂 𝒍𝒐𝒕 𝒐𝒇 π’Šπ’Žπ’‘π’“π’π’—π’†π’Žπ’†π’π’• 𝒕𝒐 𝒅𝒐 π’˜π’Šπ’•π’‰ π’˜π’π’Žπ’†π’’𝒔 π’“π’Šπ’ˆπ’‰π’•π’”.
𝑾𝒆 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 π’†π’™π’•π’“π’†π’Žπ’†π’π’š π’‘π’“π’Šπ’—π’Šπ’π’†π’ˆπ’†π’… 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒐 π’Œπ’π’π’˜ 𝒕𝒐 π’‡π’Šπ’ˆπ’‰π’• 𝒇𝒐𝒓 π’˜π’π’Žπ’†π’’𝒔 π’“π’Šπ’ˆπ’‰π’• 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 π’˜π’π’“π’π’….
𝑾𝒉𝒆𝒏 π’˜π’† π’”π’‘π’†π’‚π’Œ 𝒖𝒑, π’˜π’† 𝒅𝒐 π’Šπ’• 𝒂𝒍𝒍 π’•π’π’ˆπ’†π’•π’‰π’†π’“ πŸ’ͺ
𝑾𝒆 𝒂𝒓𝒆 π’‚π’π’˜π’‚π’šπ’” π’Šπ’ π’•π’‰π’Šπ’” π’•π’π’ˆπ’†π’•π’‰π’†π’“.
π‘Ύπ’π’Žπ’†π’’𝒔 π’“π’Šπ’ˆπ’‰π’•π’” 𝒂𝒓𝒆 π’‰π’–π’Žπ’‚π’ π’“π’Šπ’ˆπ’‰π’•π’” 𝒂𝒏𝒅 π’π’π’ƒπ’π’…π’š 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒐𝒓 π’˜π’Šπ’π’ 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 π’•π’‚π’Œπ’† 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 π’‚π’˜π’‚π’š 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒖𝒔.
𝑨𝒍𝒍 π’˜π’π’Žπ’†π’ 𝒅𝒆𝒔𝒆𝒓𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒐 π’π’Šπ’—π’† 𝒂 π’π’Šπ’‡π’† π’Šπ’ π’‡π’“π’†π’†π’…π’π’Ž.
𝑾𝒆 π’„π’‰π’‚π’π’ˆπ’† 𝒕𝒉𝒆 π’˜π’π’“π’π’… π’†π’—π’†π’“π’šπ’…π’‚π’š! 𝒀𝒆𝒔 π’˜π’† 𝒄𝒂𝒏 πŸ’œπŸ’œ

Besides, I also made this cover of the song La puerta violeta πŸ’œπŸŽΆ from rozalen. It’s such a beautiful Spanish song. Rozalen is such an amazing Spanish artist! This song is about violence against women and about freedom. She sings about drawing a violet door on the wall, running in the forest and being free and safe. It’s a song dedicated for the violence against women around the world.

I shared the cover on my instagram which you can find below.

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International Women's Day πŸ’ͺπŸ’œ . Yesterday it was International Women's Day πŸ’œπŸ’ͺ♀️It's been a long time since I shared a cover from a song 🎢. I made this cover of the song La puerta violeta from @rozalenmusic. It's such a beautiful Spanish song. Rozalen is amazing! This song is about violence against women and about freedom. She sings about drawing a violet door, running in the forest and being free and safe. 𝑷𝒆𝒓𝒐 π’…π’Šπ’ƒπ’–π’‹Γ© 𝒖𝒏𝒂 𝒑𝒖𝒆𝒓𝒕𝒂 π’—π’Šπ’π’π’†π’•π’‚ 𝒆𝒏 𝒍𝒂 𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒀 𝒂𝒍 𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒓 π’Žπ’† π’π’Šπ’ƒπ’†π’“Γ© π‘ͺπ’π’Žπ’ 𝒔𝒆 π’…π’†π’”π’‘π’π’Šπ’†π’ˆπ’‚ 𝒍𝒂 𝒗𝒆𝒍𝒂 𝒅𝒆 𝒖𝒏 𝒃𝒂𝒓𝒄𝒐 𝑫𝒆𝒔𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒕é 𝒆𝒏 𝒖𝒏 𝒑𝒓𝒂𝒅𝒐 𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒅𝒆 π’Žπ’–π’š 𝒍𝒆𝒋𝒐𝒔 𝒅𝒆 𝒂𝒒𝒖í π‘ͺ𝒐𝒓𝒓í, π’ˆπ’“π’Šπ’•Γ©, 𝒓𝒆í 𝑺é 𝒍𝒐 𝒒𝒖𝒆 𝒏𝒐 π’’π’–π’Šπ’†π’“π’ 𝑨𝒉𝒐𝒓𝒂 π’†π’”π’•π’π’š 𝒂 𝒔𝒂𝒍𝒗𝒐 I hope you all liked this song and we can change the world little by little. Women and men are equal. We all deserve the same human rights. Let's all stand together to make this happen and take action. Yes we can do it! πŸ’ͺπŸ’œπŸ’œ

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I hope you all liked the poem and the song. It’s just so important to speak up for the ones who can’t speak up. We have to do it all together πŸ’ͺπŸ’–. We are all making a change every day by changing our thoughts and behaviour. We are all equal. Nobody is better. We are all human and deserve to be treated that way.

Thank you all for reading this important blog post about international women’s day, equality, human rights and feminism. I hope you all liked it and that it inspired you. Are you also a feminist? What do you think of equality? What do you think needs to change to achieve gender equality in the world? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

Just be yourself poem πŸŒΈ

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

I would like to share a poem I made a few days ago about being myself and I also shared it online. It’s been a long time since I shared a poem on here. I love to express myself with writing. I will show a picture of me with this poem I made. I had a nice photoshoot one day in Spain. This picture is already 6 years old haha but sssht 🀫 I still look the same πŸ˜‚πŸ€­.

Picture of myself in Spain

I am sensitive.

I am caring.

I am beautiful.

I am creative.

I am inspiring.

I am strong.

I am lovable.

I am enough.

I am loved.

I am empathetic.

I am vulnerable.

I am honest.

I am open-minded.

I am intelligent.

I am sweet.

I am romantic.

I can be all of them.

I don’t have to choose between one of them.

Being human means being all of those things.

That’s the power of being human.

To be who you want to be without having to choose.

Being ourselves and loving ourselves unconditionally.

We are all human and matter.

Be yourself and love yourself.

Just be you.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope this poem inspired you to be just yourself with all your qualities and flaws. You are beautiful just the way you are πŸ’–. What do you think of my poem? What makes you you? Do you think it’s difficult to be yourself in our society? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

Speak up for the people who can’t πŸ’ͺ

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

Today I just wanted to talk about something important. I will talk about how important it is to speak up for the people who can’t. Many people in our world can’t speak up for their human rights because they may live in countries where there’s a war and are afraid of speaking up. There can be consequences of speaking up. I will talk about many subjects related to this. I hope it will inspire people and make this world a better place to live in πŸŒβœ¨πŸ™

I was thinking about this topic when I was listening a few days ago to a postcast from Yoga Girl. It was about the abortion ban in some states in America. This is going on right now and it’s really scary. It felt good to hear this important topic which I also agreed on. I believe that every woman has the right to choose to do what they want with their body and whether they want to have children or not. I don’t want that we are going backwards in history.

It’s really terrifying what’s happening in America. This abortion ban will be bad for all women. Even women who are raped will not have the choice to do an abortion. It’s just a horrible thought for women to have a baby from being raped. You can choose to not do abortion for yourself but to ban it is just not aceptable. It’s a human right. It feels like they are now making a political issue of it. That’s why it’s so important to speak about this. We can’t just accept this. I was happy to go to the first feminist strike in Spain last year and speak up about all the injustice we women have to suffer. We live in a patriarchal world and this just has to change.

This subject isn’t only about women. Speaking up implies in many subjects. Racism still exists and people who say it doesn’t are just afraid to speak about it. They ignore it when it is there. I loved the postcast of Yoga Girl where she talked about white supremacy as I agree so much with it. It feels like an uncomfortable conversation but we have to talk about it and discuss it.

I don’t want the benefits of being a white person. I just want everyone in the world to be equal. I want them to have the same human rights. I want everyone have the same school and job opportunities. I don’t accept people of colour being rejected for a job. I have a good friend of Irak and I hear her stories. She had to leave her country because of war just like many people from Syria and other people from other countries are doing right now. I believe there has to be a good migration plan in every country. Some countries almost don’t accept immagration whereas other countries have an overflow. There has to be a better system for all where everyone feels comfortable, happy and equal.

Also I made this poem below for this blog post and also shared it on my Instagram Sea of words. I hope you will all like this poem. Being bullied made me scared and anxious to speak up. It made me be silenced. I still have a hard time to speak up but I’m learning it because it’s so important to do.

We have to speak up for the people who can’t speak up. I always love to see people speaking up about important topics such as mental health because it makes me feel less alone while struggling from anxiety. If we speak up about an important topic or issue it will make other people feel less alone. It also inspires other people to speak up and to make this world a better world to live in 🌍✨. Even if it makes us scared we have to speak up. Let’s do it all together! Yeahhh, we can do it! πŸ’ͺ

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope it all inspired you and you loved it. What do you think of speaking up about important topics? Do you also speak up in life? Are you afraid of speaking up and how do you deal with it? Let me know lovelies 😘 I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

Let’s talk about sexual consent and my experiences with it

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

I find it important to talk about feminism, self love and everything related to it on my blog. As I’ve been reading the awesome blog of Ashley I read an important post about sexual consent which inspired me to write about it. April is Sexual Assault Awareness month. There’s no better time to write about it and also about some of my experiences regarding to this topic. I don’t know if this is too much information to share but I will share it anyway. That’s what my blog is for, to be always vulnerable, open and honest.

Sexual consent is agreeing to be sexual with someone. The two of them have to agree on it. What I often experienced and saw around me happening was that when a women don’t say NO or just isn’t sure it means she says yes. I have never been raped but I know there are so many women in the world who have been raped and even murdered. It isn’t their fault yet society still blames the victim which in many cases is a women. When I was reading what sexual assualt means I was thinking about my own experiences. I always thought that the things which men did to me wasn’t a big deal compared to a women who have been raped. I began to realize that my experiences were also not okay. Not because someone else has it worse doesn’t mean the things you experience don’t count. It all count because you feel it and have experience it.

“Sexual assault is any type of sexual activity or contact that you do not consent to. Sexual assault can happen through physical force or threats of force or if the attacker gave the victim drugs or alcohol as part of the assault. Sexual assault includes rape and sexual coercion.” In the United States, one in three women has experienced some type of sexual violence. If you have been sexually assaulted, it is not your fault, regardless of the circumstances. This the real definition of sexual assualt from the website https://www.womenshealth.gov/.

So this made me think because I have experienced this in my life. I have experienced this with the only relationship I have had in my life. I remember that there were times he just wanted to have sex and I just didn’t want. You can’t force someone, right? I also was crying sometimes and we fight about it once or twice…. I told this once to a mental health worker a few years ago and said it wasn’t okay what happened in my relationship. It wasn’t a bad relationship but these things weren’t okay. I remember how my ex said that if he didn’t had sex before 18 he would go to the red light destrict. Maybe, it was a joke but I still didn’t like those jokes. He told his friends that we have done it when it wasn’t the case. I think men are ashamed to not have done sex in their friend group and don’t want to admit it to them. I find that so stupid.

Men always have to act cool surrounding there friends. I didn’t experience rape but if I would be again in a relationship I will set more boundaries. If someone doesn’t respect me and want to cross my boundaries then for me it’s exit. I don’t want a toxic relationship. I also don’t want to talk bad about people because my two year relationship was really great and it was the only one I ever loved in life but you learn from things you experience. People also do change. We all grow up and learn from our mistakes in life.

When he broke up with me I had a broken heart and didn’t how to survive in life without him. I found comfort in kissing random boys which didn’t give a f*ck about me. I was naive and innocent, which I maybe still am a bit but I’m getting better in knowing which people to trust. I was broken and lost during my exchange period in Spain. I was running through the streets late at night, drunk and calling my ex. Of course he didn’t pick up the phone. I just remember that last night I was in Spain partying and that night I was kissing a boy. I only remember that I drank much and that the next morning I woke up sick and had to vomit. I’m so thankful that I’m over those times and that I don’t drink anymore.

I just remember how awful I felt that morning because I felt like something happened the night before but I couldn’t remember it. I knew I was kissing a boy and he was touching me. Maybe, this sounds stupid but I was so afraid that I was pregnant. That didn’t happen thanks god but then I asked that boy on chat if he touched me and he laughed and said yes. I wrote him a message and laughed back. I’m thinking of that now and think how stupid I was too laugh about that. I had to speak up for myself and confront him that it wasn’t okay what he did.

I felt horrible and so guilty because all I felt was that it was completely my fault. I should have not accepted those free drinks. I should have behaved. I should not be at that party that night. I should not have kissed him. Why does women always think this way? Really why? Just because I drank and kissed him didn’t mean I wanted that he touched me without my consent? It’s just not okay. Women are still considered sexual objects in this society and are still in society’s eyes responsible for everything what happens to them regarding sexual assault, harrasment and rape. I find that so hard to understood and it makes me SO angry. There are so many cases in the world where a man don’t end up in jail or don’t have to go many years in jail because they say that the woman didn’t protect herself or because the law still think it’s our fault. We can’t defense ourselves. We just want to feel safe and protected by the law but what if the law even don’t trust us? Then we are really lost in this patriarchy world.

I just wanted to share my experiences in the hope that it helps all women out there πŸ’œ. You are not alone and you will never be. No is no and when you don’t say anything it’s also no. You decide your boundaries. It’s your body and your life. I hope the ones who suffer from violence against women in any form can get the help they need, professional help, speaking up about it, can talk about it with friends and family members who are there for me and respect them. I mostly hope that we can all feel safe in our bodies, with our lives and in this world. I hope one day we don’t have to feel anxious when walking down the streets at night in fear of our own lives. I really do hope we can all make this world a better place to live in 🌍. I will forever be a feminist, speak up about these topics and hopefully one day make a big change for you all, my sisterhood πŸ‘―β€β™€οΈπŸ’œ.

Thank you all for reading this important blog post. What do you think of sexual consent? Do you agree with me? Did you also experience any form of sexual assault in your life? Let me know in the comments. You can always message me too if anyone wants to talk about anything. I’m always here for you all. We are all warriors! We are all in this together, always! πŸ’ͺ

I also want to wish you all a happy Easter as it’s Easter time! πŸ‡πŸ°πŸ£πŸ˜Š May you all enjoy this beautiful Spring season, eat lots of good food, delicious chocolate eggs πŸ₯š and spend time with your loved ones πŸ’• I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

Poem for International Women’s Day β™€οΈπŸ’ͺπŸ’œπŸ‘­

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

I always need to share something on this important day: 8 March. Today it’s International Women’s Day. I find it important that we all think of how women are treated in the world. Even if you live in a developed country like I do, women are still being raped, discriminated or sexual harrast. It can happen in any country on this world. There’s still not 100% equality between women and men even though it’s better than in the past. It also depends on where you are in the world. In some countries women still aren’t able to go to school or travel alone. I see women getting murdered or raped in Spanish news often. There’s still so much to do so that we can feel save on the streets.

Last year, I was in Spain with my mother and went to the first feminist strike in Spain. It was one of the best experiences in my life. That march completely made me change the way I thought of sisterhood. I saw women being united, felt loved and soooo strong. I even made a friend which was amazing. It always feel like we have to compare with other women when it’s just so important to all support each other so that we can have equal rights. This year there’s again a feminist strike in Spain and I’m so sad I can’t be there. If you want to check that post and have an impression of that day you can go to this post.Β 

In this post I want to share a poem I made and recorded via video. I find it important to write about it. I’m a proud feminist! πŸ’ͺβ™€οΈπŸ’œπŸ‘­ I will forever support human rights and equality of women and men.

This is the spoken poetry video:

This is the same poem but then written:

International Women’s Day πŸ’œ

Today it’s International Women’s Day

This date is important every day not only just today

I’m a feminist by heart

Being a feminist means equal rights for women and men

It doesn’t mean that one gender has the power over one

It just means that there’s equality and freedom to be ourselves

It means to have the same human rights

Women are still discriminated, being raped and have a high rate of being murdered

What do we want?

We want to feel safe when we walk down the streets

We don’t want men catcalling us and making us feel uncomfortable

We don’t want that society always blames us for being raped because of what we were wearing or what we were doing

We want to love ourselves and feel free in our bodies

We want to be less afraid of something happening to us

We want to feel protected by the law

All we want is that society treats us with respect, understanding and love

Is that too much to ask for?

I’m sure we can all change the world, the moment we speak up about it

We’ll not be silenced anymore

Our time has come

We are not alone

We are all in this together! πŸ’ͺ

Together we will create a world were women and men can live in harmony, peace and love for the rest of their lives

Yes we can! ❀️πŸ’ͺ

Thank you all for reading this blog post and for watching my video. Did you like my poem? Are you also a proud feminist? Did you ever go to a demonstration or march on International Women’s Day? Let me know in the comments. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

Reflection on 2018 & happy new year to you all! πŸŽ‰βœ¨πŸ’•πŸ’«

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

Happy new year to you all! βœ¨πŸŽ‰ In this post I will talk about my 2018 and will show you how I celebrated New Year’s Eve. I’m glad I don’t have a cold amymore but just tonight I got my period so yeah that also sucks 😭 I’m glad I take medication for the cramps because otherwise I wouldn’t survive it. Besides, I’m also being anxious about my appointment of getting one of my wisdom teeth pulled out this week. I keep postponing the appointment. I know I have to do it but I’m so scared. H e l p. I also don’t want to do it in Holland. Here in Spain it’s much cheaper and the dentist understands my anxiety but I’m still so afraid and I just feel like I can’t cope. If anyone have some more tips to survive it I will be forever grateful πŸ™πŸ’• I can always take medication for anxiety if that’s enough to help me cope with it.

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We are already in 2019. A year has flown by. As usually I want to reflect on my year with this post and also write some important things for you all. Every year has its ups and downs. Every year consists of good things and bad things which happen to us. The most important thing is how we react to all these things. I know how hard it’s to stay positive in this sometimes dark world. I just keep believing that there are so many good things in the world and that there are indeed so many good people. You just have to find your tribe. I’m so glad I did.

I’m so happy with my blogging community, mental health community, Yoga Girl community and the goddess revolution community. I’m thankful that I joined these communities this year. They made me feel less alone and so much happier. If I’m in Holland I will maybe go to a meet up with some yoga girls. I also really wish that we will continue to all be friends and hopefully one day we will all meet ✨ I know the universe brought us all together for a reason which is to be connected with awesome people, share our struggles and feel supported.

I learned a lot this year. I learn every day from this world. This year I realized that there are truly lovely people who care about you and want you to be happy. I learned that it’s better to have a few good friends than a million of fake friends. The ones who love you will always be there for you no matter what. I learned that true love exists when I saw my brother getting married in August in Spain. I learned that this life is an adventure. Sometimes we win and sometimes we loose. We learn from every experience. I also learned that it’s okay if I’m not where I want to be in life. I still have a long way to go. I will find a career I love and will keep growing. It all takes time, pacience and trust in myself. I have to love myself, believe in myself and know that I can make my dreams come true such as working and living in Spain ✨

I also went to my first feminist strike in Valladolid, in Spain on International Women’s Day on the 8th of March with my mother. This was such an empowerful event. I never went to a demonstration before. I really wish 2019 will be the year that less women will be suffering from violence. I wish that women and men have the same human rights. Together we are starting a revolution. This is just the beginning. 2019 will be the year where women can be themselves, love themselves and love each other πŸ’•

This year I also learned that music is the best thing in life 🎢 I would be lost without music. I went to so many amazing concerts such as the OperaciΓ³n Triunfo 2017 concert in Madrid with my friend Maria πŸ’• OperaciΓ³n Triunfo makes me so happy and full of life. I also enjoyed the concert of Pablo Alboran, Chenoa, Hombres G and Celtas Cortos with my mother in Valladolid. I also enjoyed so much the concert of Sofia Ellar with my friend Maria. I can’t wait to see her again. It was so lovely to meet Sofia and get a picture with her. She’s the best and I can’t wait to see her singing again 😍

This year I began to read again a lot which I loved to do so much when I was younger. I will continue reading this new year. I also kept writing and being creative. I hope to create more amazing content on this blog. Writing is amazing. I travelled to Madrid, Granada, Santander and Somo. I discovered Somo which is a beautiful surfing village in the north of Spain. In 2019 I really want to go to a surf camp again πŸ„β€β™€οΈπŸŒŠπŸŒž. I didn’t go surfing for more than two years. I miss it so much. It’s also so good for my mental health. The sea is my home and cleans my soul. The beach is my favourite place on this earth. I can’t wait to travel to more amazing places and meet more amazing people.

Somo, Santander (September 2018)

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Granada, Andalucia (July 2018)

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La RΓ‘bita, Mediterranean Sea, Granada (July 2018)

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Madrid (March 2018)

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Maybe for some of you this year was a hard year. Maybe some of you have lost someone close to you. Maybe you just didn’t felt okay and were struggling. I’m here for you. It’s okay to grief. It’s okay to not be okay. It’s okay to feel sad. Feelings change and emotions change but it all takes time. Try to not be hard on yourself next year. Remember, I’ll will always be there for you πŸ’• I hope you will invest in self love and self care this new year because that’s the most important thing that matters. I also encourage you all to surround yourself with people who love you and who bring you only good vibes because you deserve that ✨.

I celebrated my New Year’s Eve in Valladolid, in Spain. I decided to not go out with my friends. I also didn’t go out last year. I used to party every year but I don’t feel in the mood anymore. I have to do what feels good to me. I went to the hairdressers in the afternoon to cut the dead ends, my bangs and they made curls in my hair. I love to look good for myself. I dressed up at home and did my make up. My mother and I went to the house of the mother of the wife of my brother. We celebrated all together New Year’s Eve: Rafael, my mother, VΓ©ronica, VΓ©ronica’s mother and her brother. We enjoyed eating delicious Spanish food.

We ate cheese, jamon serrano, chorizo, bread and chicken. I didn’t eat the fish because I don’t like fish so much haha πŸ˜‚ At 12 o’clock we watched the television and ate the 12 grapes. We also had champagne πŸ₯‚. It’s a tradition in Spain to eat the 12 grapes. They say it brings luck. We watched television where we were hearing beautiful music and we played Spanish card games. I really loved it so much. I love playing games with my family. At 3.30 am my mother and I went home and we stayed in watching some television. We went to bed at 6 am pretty late but doesn’t matter because it’s a special night. I’m glad I didn’t go out because as soon as we were home I got my period haha. On New Year’s Day we just stayed in and chilled. I saw the movie Grease. I just love that movie & the music so much 😍 I also saw the movie Paper Towns which I love so much from John Green. I already saw this movie with my best friend one day and loved it.

l wish you all an amazing new year full of love, happiness and luck πŸ€βœ¨βœŒοΈ Stay strong & stay safe. We are all in this together πŸ’ͺ I love you all so so so much ❀️. Thank you all for reading. How was your New Year’s Eve? Did you stay at home or did you went to a party? Which are your goals or dreams to achieve in 2019? I would love to know. I will speak to you all soon in my next blog post.

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Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

Spanish spoken poetry video: We are all Laura πŸ’œ (Violence against women)

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

Before I begin with this short blog post I would like to say that I have a giveway going on my Instagram. You just have to follow me there, like my picture and comment why you want to win. You also need to be Europe based. I just wanted to give something back. I’m so thankful for all your support and love I have on my blog and on that Instagram account. I love you all so much 😍😍😍.

Before I post some Christmas blog posts I wanted to post this blog post. I just needed to share this here. I also shared it on my Instagram: Poetry video. This is my Youtube account which I never use but I just felt the urge to share it there too. My video on my main account of Instagram already had more than 1500 views and more than 100 likes which is just so much wow. I have never made a video reading one of my poems before but tonight is the night that I’m going to do it. I wrote it in Spanish because it’s about a Spanish girl but I will also translate it in English down below. I just had to write about what happened. This poem is for all women who are suffering from violence against women in every form possible. You are not alone. Together we are stronger πŸ’ͺ. They will not silence us.

Laura is a Spanish girl who was only 26 years old when she got missed a few days ago in Huelva in Andalucia. That’s in the south of Spain. She was a teacher in that village. She was missing and never came back alive πŸ’”πŸ˜’. They found her body on Monday half naked. I have to say that there’s one mistake in my poem which is that she was running. Right now they are investigating how she died. I saw the Spanish news and they said one man which was a neighbor from her killed her. He already killed a woman a few years ago and was in prison. I really don’t know why they let this crazy man free.

He locked her into his car and wanted to rape her but she resisted. Then he hit her with something on her head. She died a few days later. We still don’t know where the body was the days she was missing. It’s just a horrible story 😒. Again, another victim of violence against women. With all my frustration and pain I’m feeling right now I just needed to express my emotions in this poem. You can read my English translation of this poem down below:

We all are Laura

She was called Laura

She only had 26 years

A year less than I’m

She was a teacher

She went running and never came back

She got murdered

We all are Laura

We don’t want to be afraid when we are walking alone at night

We don’t want to be afraid because we are a woman

We don’t want to have our keys in our hands to enter fast our home

We don’t that men see us as an object

We don’t want to live in a patriarchal world

We don’t want that the world judge women when they are getting raped

We want to be free, protected by society and treated with respect

Free, healthy and safe is what we want to be

It’s enough!

Not one more!

We are all Laura ❀


Spanish version:

Laura somos todas

Se llamaba Laura

TenΓ­a tan sΓ³lo 26 aΓ±os

Un aΓ±o menos que yo

Fue profesora

SaliΓ³ a correr y no volviΓ³ nunca mΓ‘s

Fue asesinada

Laura somos todas

No queremos tener miedo por la noche cuΓ‘ndo andamos solas

No queremos tener miedo por ser una mujer

No queremos tener las llaves en la mano para entrar pronto a casa

No queremos que los hombres nos vean como un objeto

No queremos vivir en este mundo patriarcado

No queremos que el mundo nos juzgue a las mujeres cuΓ‘ndo somos violadas

Queremos ser libres, protegidas por la sociedad y tratadas con respeto

Libres, sanas y salvas eso es lo que queremos

Basta ya!

Ni una mΓ‘s!

Todos somos Laura ❀️


I know almost none of my followers can speak Spanish but the words sounded better in Spanish. I wanted to share both the original Spanish version and also the English translation. Maybe, in the future I will also make a video of the English version.

Thank you all for watching my video and for reading this poem. Did you like this poem? What are you thoughts of the topic of violence against women? Are you also a feminist? I’m a feminist by heart and will forever continue to spread awareness about this topic. Together we can make a change. They will not silence us πŸ’ͺπŸ’œ.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina