Reflection on 2018 & happy new year to you all! πŸŽ‰βœ¨πŸ’•πŸ’«

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

Happy new year to you all! βœ¨πŸŽ‰ In this post I will talk about my 2018 and will show you how I celebrated New Year’s Eve. I’m glad I don’t have a cold amymore but just tonight I got my period so yeah that also sucks 😭 I’m glad I take medication for the cramps because otherwise I wouldn’t survive it. Besides, I’m also being anxious about my appointment of getting one of my wisdom teeth pulled out this week. I keep postponing the appointment. I know I have to do it but I’m so scared. H e l p. I also don’t want to do it in Holland. Here in Spain it’s much cheaper and the dentist understands my anxiety but I’m still so afraid and I just feel like I can’t cope. If anyone have some more tips to survive it I will be forever grateful πŸ™πŸ’• I can always take medication for anxiety if that’s enough to help me cope with it.

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We are already in 2019. A year has flown by. As usually I want to reflect on my year with this post and also write some important things for you all. Every year has its ups and downs. Every year consists of good things and bad things which happen to us. The most important thing is how we react to all these things. I know how hard it’s to stay positive in this sometimes dark world. I just keep believing that there are so many good things in the world and that there are indeed so many good people. You just have to find your tribe. I’m so glad I did.

I’m so happy with my blogging community, mental health community, Yoga Girl community and the goddess revolution community. I’m thankful that I joined these communities this year. They made me feel less alone and so much happier. If I’m in Holland I will maybe go to a meet up with some yoga girls. I also really wish that we will continue to all be friends and hopefully one day we will all meet ✨ I know the universe brought us all together for a reason which is to be connected with awesome people, share our struggles and feel supported.

I learned a lot this year. I learn every day from this world. This year I realized that there are truly lovely people who care about you and want you to be happy. I learned that it’s better to have a few good friends than a million of fake friends. The ones who love you will always be there for you no matter what. I learned that true love exists when I saw my brother getting married in August in Spain. I learned that this life is an adventure. Sometimes we win and sometimes we loose. We learn from every experience. I also learned that it’s okay if I’m not where I want to be in life. I still have a long way to go. I will find a career I love and will keep growing. It all takes time, pacience and trust in myself. I have to love myself, believe in myself and know that I can make my dreams come true such as working and living in Spain ✨

I also went to my first feminist strike in Valladolid, in Spain on International Women’s Day on the 8th of March with my mother. This was such an empowerful event. I never went to a demonstration before. I really wish 2019 will be the year that less women will be suffering from violence. I wish that women and men have the same human rights. Together we are starting a revolution. This is just the beginning. 2019 will be the year where women can be themselves, love themselves and love each other πŸ’•

This year I also learned that music is the best thing in life 🎢 I would be lost without music. I went to so many amazing concerts such as the OperaciΓ³n Triunfo 2017 concert in Madrid with my friend Maria πŸ’• OperaciΓ³n Triunfo makes me so happy and full of life. I also enjoyed the concert of Pablo Alboran, Chenoa, Hombres G and Celtas Cortos with my mother in Valladolid. I also enjoyed so much the concert of Sofia Ellar with my friend Maria. I can’t wait to see her again. It was so lovely to meet Sofia and get a picture with her. She’s the best and I can’t wait to see her singing again 😍

This year I began to read again a lot which I loved to do so much when I was younger. I will continue reading this new year. I also kept writing and being creative. I hope to create more amazing content on this blog. Writing is amazing. I travelled to Madrid, Granada, Santander and Somo. I discovered Somo which is a beautiful surfing village in the north of Spain. In 2019 I really want to go to a surf camp again πŸ„β€β™€οΈπŸŒŠπŸŒž. I didn’t go surfing for more than two years. I miss it so much. It’s also so good for my mental health. The sea is my home and cleans my soul. The beach is my favourite place on this earth. I can’t wait to travel to more amazing places and meet more amazing people.

Somo, Santander (September 2018)

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Granada, Andalucia (July 2018)

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La RΓ‘bita, Mediterranean Sea, Granada (July 2018)

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Madrid (March 2018)

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Maybe for some of you this year was a hard year. Maybe some of you have lost someone close to you. Maybe you just didn’t felt okay and were struggling. I’m here for you. It’s okay to grief. It’s okay to not be okay. It’s okay to feel sad. Feelings change and emotions change but it all takes time. Try to not be hard on yourself next year. Remember, I’ll will always be there for you πŸ’• I hope you will invest in self love and self care this new year because that’s the most important thing that matters. I also encourage you all to surround yourself with people who love you and who bring you only good vibes because you deserve that ✨.

I celebrated my New Year’s Eve in Valladolid, in Spain. I decided to not go out with my friends. I also didn’t go out last year. I used to party every year but I don’t feel in the mood anymore. I have to do what feels good to me. I went to the hairdressers in the afternoon to cut the dead ends, my bangs and they made curls in my hair. I love to look good for myself. I dressed up at home and did my make up. My mother and I went to the house of the mother of the wife of my brother. We celebrated all together New Year’s Eve: Rafael, my mother, VΓ©ronica, VΓ©ronica’s mother and her brother. We enjoyed eating delicious Spanish food.

We ate cheese, jamon serrano, chorizo, bread and chicken. I didn’t eat the fish because I don’t like fish so much haha πŸ˜‚ At 12 o’clock we watched the television and ate the 12 grapes. We also had champagne πŸ₯‚. It’s a tradition in Spain to eat the 12 grapes. They say it brings luck. We watched television where we were hearing beautiful music and we played Spanish card games. I really loved it so much. I love playing games with my family. At 3.30 am my mother and I went home and we stayed in watching some television. We went to bed at 6 am pretty late but doesn’t matter because it’s a special night. I’m glad I didn’t go out because as soon as we were home I got my period haha. On New Year’s Day we just stayed in and chilled. I saw the movie Grease. I just love that movie & the music so much 😍 I also saw the movie Paper Towns which I love so much from John Green. I already saw this movie with my best friend one day and loved it.

l wish you all an amazing new year full of love, happiness and luck πŸ€βœ¨βœŒοΈ Stay strong & stay safe. We are all in this together πŸ’ͺ I love you all so so so much ❀️. Thank you all for reading. How was your New Year’s Eve? Did you stay at home or did you went to a party? Which are your goals or dreams to achieve in 2019? I would love to know. I will speak to you all soon in my next blog post.

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Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

I wish the political crisis in Spain is over soon… my heart hurts πŸ’”πŸ˜’

Hey lovely bloggers πŸ’•,

Catalonia is a region of Spain and wants to be indepented. Last Sunday there was a illegal referendum in Catalonia. The governement of Catalonia will declare that Catalonia will be indepented from Spain on monday. Most Spanish people are against it. Even people living in Catalonia are against it. There is a minority. I really hope this situation will be solved by the Spanish governement soon.

Hopefully, the leaders of Catalonia will be in jail soon. They are responsible for dividing the Spanish people and creating hate in our society. I’m so done with it. I just feel the need to write because my heart hurts πŸ˜’πŸ’”. 

Spain is its culture. Spain are the beautiful cities. Spain are the churches. Spain is its beautiful nature. Spain are the regions. Spain are the painters, writers and the singers. Spain are the citizens. Spain are the villages. Spain are the tapas and the fiesta. Spain is the goodness of the people. Spain is the king, police and military.

Spain is everything to me… πŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’• 

What is happening right now in Spain is breaking my heart. The independism of Catalonia is not going to be good for anybody. My heart is breaking when I see the hate which is creating to anyone who wear a Spanish flag. They call these people fascists. They don’t understand what the difference is between patriotism and nacionalism. To be a patriotist is being proud, being a nacionalist is thinking that your village is better than the other one. There’s a great difference between being proud & thinking you are better than others. 

I’m really proud to be half Spanish and half Dutch. I’ve grown up in two amazing and beautiful countries. In two democratic countries. I also feel a global citizen. We all belong to this world. It’s much better to be all united to beat wars and terrorism.

The hate between people only cause wars. Violence and hate is not the answer. I believe in a united Spain. A Spain which is based on democracy. I believe that the Spanish government is going to solve this problem soon. At the end, we all want the same that’s living in freedom and peace. 

I love Spain and want a united Spain! πŸ’•

Much love,

xoxo

I just want a united Spain πŸŒπŸ’•

Hey lovely bloggers πŸ’•,

I just want to write something which is happening now in Spain. To make sure, I don’t want to talk that much of politics on my blog. I don’t want to spread hate. Today, I just feel the need to write because I’m feeling bad these days. This subject is just touching me really hard.

Spain is a constitutional monarchy. Spain has many autonomous regions such as Basque Country and Catolonia. They have their own language and government. Catolonia wants to be indepented from Spain. Today on the first of October they wanted to do a referendum but this was against the law. However, they did it but it was a illegal referendum. The police men were acting just the way they have to act.

So, today I woke up crying and so fucking anxious. I felt that my heart was beating so fast…. What’s happening is Spain today is fucked up 😒 I’m really scared. This isn’t good for my anxiety…. Hopefully I will feel okay soon. So many people and police men were injuried. I just hope thay both parties are going to talk and that there comes a solution.

So, as you know I’m half Spanish, half Dutch. I grew up in this two countries. To be honest, I have always felt more Spanish than Dutch. I was born in The Netherlands. When there were football matches for world cup or europe cup I remember that people were angry and bullying me for not supporting the dutch team. I felt scared and discriminated. Since then I never posted on social media that I am for the spanish team. Now, I don’t fucking care anymore.

I feel more spanish than dutch, because that’s just the way I feel. Nobody can judge me on that. All the time I had to go back to the Netherlands from holidays in Spain I cried so much. I always wanted lo live in Spain. Some people say to me well there’s a economic crisis blablabla you can’t find work. You know what I say to them now?

I’m 24 years old, I’m not a fucking baby anymore. One of my dreams is to work in Spain and live here. I already lived in Spain for a half year during my exhange and this last half year for my internship. I’m deeply in love with Spain. I’m going to find work in Spain and nobody is going against my dream πŸ’œπŸ’«βœŒ Even though I feel more spanish than dutch, I also feel that I’m a global citizen. 

I don’t know if I should stop watching the depressive news today. It ain’t no good for my mental health. I feel so sensitive today. I always am so sensitive. Maybe I care too much about politics?! I used to not care at all. Since I have spoken at the UN I feel the need to express myself. I used to be afraid of saying my opinion. Now, I don’t. We can’t be silence when something happens in your country. We have to speak up and demonstrate and fight for our human rights.

This subject thouched me hard because I know the history of Spain with the dictator Franco. We don’t wanna go back, do we?! In these hard times countries have to be united in order to beat terrorism and war. We all have the right to feel safe without discrimination.

I just really hope everything will be okay again in Spain. Both political parties need to talk. I really hope they come to a solution. They aren’t acting like adults now. They have to come to a solution to have Spain united. Democracy and no discrimination!

Spain developed in 40 years so much and I’m thankful for all of that. I love Spain and I hope that it will stay one country πŸ’œ

Freedom, equality and brotherhood ✌

Much love,

xoxo