Happy two year blogging anniversary! πŸŽ‰πŸŒ»βœŒοΈπŸ˜πŸŽˆπŸŽ‚

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

Today I want to talk about something really important which is about this special day. Today my blog turned two years old! πŸŽ‰ I’m so happy about it and also feel very proud of this accomplishment. To be honest I always get easily bored and also quit easily when things get hard. I’m happy that I sticked around and never gave up on blogging because it makes me so happy. I wouldn’t know where I would be without my blog. I can’t believe how fast time is going by. They always say time flies when you are having fun and that’s definitely true. I will share you in this post some of the reasons why I started blogging, some words about my appreciation for you all and some funny statistics like I did last year in this blog post πŸ’•.

Yeahhh the official announcement! πŸ˜πŸŽ‰
The collage I made for all of you! 😍

I’m just so happy that I kept blogging and never stopped. I used to blog more but now I prefer to post 4 or 5 times a month. I don’t have another blogging schedule. I prefer to post just when I have inspiration and want to. I never want to turn my blog in something that I have to do. I do it because it’s fun and I love it. Blogging makes me so happy. I love to interact with you all. I never knew that I would meet so many amazing and beautiful people like you all are 😍 You all mean the world to me. I really wouldn’t know what I would do without you all.

I also always felt the need to write πŸ“ . I have loved writing since I have been little. I used to write in a diary when I was younger. I still have so many journals and notebooks at home but I don’t use it that much. I only write there sometimes some poems or use it as scrapbook. I want to use it more or make a bullet journal. I always say that I’m going to that and at the end nothing happens πŸ˜‚. I find blogging easier to do so whenever I have some thoughts or emotions I want to let go of. I always use my blog for that.

I never knew that my blog would grow so much and would attract so many people. I love to write about mental health, self love, feminism, travel trips, photography, poetry and books. I love to not have a niche as I love to write about a lot of things. This year I wrote some book related posts such as hauls and reviews. I also love that I share almost every month a music post about the music I loved that month or new music which came out 🎢. I love to discover new music too. I would love to share more singing covers as I love to sing and I would love to share that more with you all 😍🎀. I also thought of making a YouTube channel but I still don’t know if I will ever make that happen. If anyone has any ideas of posts you want to see on my blog, please let me know.

I’m just so grateful to have you all in my life πŸ’—πŸ™ . I like that my blog is growing and that I get more followers but what’s more important than all the numbers are all the friendships I’ve made through blogging. You guys are da best and mean the most to me. I love my real life friends, pen pals and the friends I made through blogging. This community is just so powerful and so beautiful ✨. Everytime I feel my life is turning upside down and I feel like the clouds are crying with me I turn to my blog and I begin to write about everything what’s on my mind no matter how dark or heavy it’s.

You are always there for me and listen to me. I appreciate that so much. I love your advice but what I love the most is just to know that I’m not alone in my struggles and that theres’s someone who understands me and cares about me even when we never have met. I truly believe that online friends are real friends too. I can’t wait to meet you all one day. We will ALWAYS be friends ❀️🌹. I don’t say that just to say something nice. I really mean it.

I keep saying that nowadays we live in such a fake world where we are told to hide our feelings and not be vulnerable. We are told not to share our struggles because it’s better to not fall apart. Well, sometimes it’s good to fall apart and to cry. We have to let everything go. For me, singing and writing is a beautiful form of letting my thoughts go. It’s a way of healing. We all have our own ways of how to go through life. I think it’s important to have that because otherwise we hold everything in ourselves which at the end is much worse. We can’t have all our thoughts in our mind because at the end we will explode. We have to let it out in any form which works for you.

I also would like to share now some nice statistics of this blogging year. I hope you find them interesting too haha πŸ˜‚ . I have so many more views and visitors compared to last year so I’m really happy about that.

Some blogging statistics:

Followers: 379 (Last year I had 212, so I gain 167 followers yeahhh!)

Blog posts: 158

Visitors: 5239

Views: 9742 (Almost 10.000 wow!)

Best day: April the 7th, the day I got the most views

Day most popular: Friday, yeahhh weekend vibes! (19%)

Hour most popular: 9:00 PM (7%)

Some of my blog posts wich are the most popular and got the most views were:

The differences between everyday anxiety and an anxiety disorder (65 views)

Today it’s my 26th birthday forever young yeahhh (66 views)

April favourites (73 views)

Loving you is a loosing game (86 views)

Do you think it’s possible that some people are born to give more love than they will ever get back in return (534 views, this post is from September 2017 and still get so many views which I’m very proud of)

Top 10 countries that have visited my blog:

I find this such an amazing thing to look at when I look at the statistics. So many people from all over the world visit my blog 🌍. It’s crazy! I think it’s amazing. Sometimes I also see countries which I don’t know such as Swaziland, Lesotho or The European Union lol that’s not a country. I exactly know which bloggers friends visit my blog when I look at the stats haha. Thank you all so much! πŸ’•

1. United States (1682 views)

2. United Kingdom (792 views)

3. Netherlands (597 views including me when I’m there haha)

4. India (431 views)

5. Canada (294 views)

6. Spain (288 views including me)

7. Australia (218 views)

8. South Africa (151 views)

9. Ireland (144 views)

10. Philippines (86 views)

Thank you all so much for following my blog and for giving me so much love with all the comments and likes you give me. I’m thankful for all the lessons I learned this year. I still don’t know if I ever am going to earn money with blogging. What was funny one day when I was at home in Holland with my family was that my father said how you could earn money while blogging. He said that it must be something for me as he knows I love to write. I never told him as I don’t want everyone to know about my blog. I just love this safe space where I can share freely without being afraid of judgment. I love that like almost everyone on here are people who I don’t know in real life. I would love to meet you all but I just love that I can be 100% myself and be honest without thinking oh no that person knows me from this, I can’t say that. This is my blog without any filters. It’s just the truth.

However, maybe in the future I would love to upgrade my account to premium or even business to have more space and to design my blog better. First, I need money for that. I just will keep blogging my whole life. Sometimes I will blog more and sometimes less. I will always stick to be myself. I never want to impress people. I just want to help others in need and heal myself too while writing. Everyone here is welcome no matter what your religion, sexuality, race or nationality is. We are all one. We are all human. I hope you will all follow this adventure called life with the ups and the downs with me. I love you all with my whole heart β™₯.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. What do you love about my blog? What kind of changes or topics would you love to see on my blog? Do you also think that writing can heal our hearts? Do you also think that internet friends can be real friends too? Do you think we will ever meet in person? I would love to know your thoughts on this. I will keep writing from the heart. Always. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

I love you all so much, to infinity and beyond, to the moon and back πŸ˜πŸ˜πŸŒœπŸŒ›πŸŒŸβœ¨,

xoxo Christina

Reflection on 2018 & happy new year to you all! πŸŽ‰βœ¨πŸ’•πŸ’«

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

Happy new year to you all! βœ¨πŸŽ‰ In this post I will talk about my 2018 and will show you how I celebrated New Year’s Eve. I’m glad I don’t have a cold amymore but just tonight I got my period so yeah that also sucks 😭 I’m glad I take medication for the cramps because otherwise I wouldn’t survive it. Besides, I’m also being anxious about my appointment of getting one of my wisdom teeth pulled out this week. I keep postponing the appointment. I know I have to do it but I’m so scared. H e l p. I also don’t want to do it in Holland. Here in Spain it’s much cheaper and the dentist understands my anxiety but I’m still so afraid and I just feel like I can’t cope. If anyone have some more tips to survive it I will be forever grateful πŸ™πŸ’• I can always take medication for anxiety if that’s enough to help me cope with it.

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We are already in 2019. A year has flown by. As usually I want to reflect on my year with this post and also write some important things for you all. Every year has its ups and downs. Every year consists of good things and bad things which happen to us. The most important thing is how we react to all these things. I know how hard it’s to stay positive in this sometimes dark world. I just keep believing that there are so many good things in the world and that there are indeed so many good people. You just have to find your tribe. I’m so glad I did.

I’m so happy with my blogging community, mental health community, Yoga Girl community and the goddess revolution community. I’m thankful that I joined these communities this year. They made me feel less alone and so much happier. If I’m in Holland I will maybe go to a meet up with some yoga girls. I also really wish that we will continue to all be friends and hopefully one day we will all meet ✨ I know the universe brought us all together for a reason which is to be connected with awesome people, share our struggles and feel supported.

I learned a lot this year. I learn every day from this world. This year I realized that there are truly lovely people who care about you and want you to be happy. I learned that it’s better to have a few good friends than a million of fake friends. The ones who love you will always be there for you no matter what. I learned that true love exists when I saw my brother getting married in August in Spain. I learned that this life is an adventure. Sometimes we win and sometimes we loose. We learn from every experience. I also learned that it’s okay if I’m not where I want to be in life. I still have a long way to go. I will find a career I love and will keep growing. It all takes time, pacience and trust in myself. I have to love myself, believe in myself and know that I can make my dreams come true such as working and living in Spain ✨

I also went to my first feminist strike in Valladolid, in Spain on International Women’s Day on the 8th of March with my mother. This was such an empowerful event. I never went to a demonstration before. I really wish 2019 will be the year that less women will be suffering from violence. I wish that women and men have the same human rights. Together we are starting a revolution. This is just the beginning. 2019 will be the year where women can be themselves, love themselves and love each other πŸ’•

This year I also learned that music is the best thing in life 🎢 I would be lost without music. I went to so many amazing concerts such as the OperaciΓ³n Triunfo 2017 concert in Madrid with my friend Maria πŸ’• OperaciΓ³n Triunfo makes me so happy and full of life. I also enjoyed the concert of Pablo Alboran, Chenoa, Hombres G and Celtas Cortos with my mother in Valladolid. I also enjoyed so much the concert of Sofia Ellar with my friend Maria. I can’t wait to see her again. It was so lovely to meet Sofia and get a picture with her. She’s the best and I can’t wait to see her singing again 😍

This year I began to read again a lot which I loved to do so much when I was younger. I will continue reading this new year. I also kept writing and being creative. I hope to create more amazing content on this blog. Writing is amazing. I travelled to Madrid, Granada, Santander and Somo. I discovered Somo which is a beautiful surfing village in the north of Spain. In 2019 I really want to go to a surf camp again πŸ„β€β™€οΈπŸŒŠπŸŒž. I didn’t go surfing for more than two years. I miss it so much. It’s also so good for my mental health. The sea is my home and cleans my soul. The beach is my favourite place on this earth. I can’t wait to travel to more amazing places and meet more amazing people.

Somo, Santander (September 2018)

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Granada, Andalucia (July 2018)

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La RΓ‘bita, Mediterranean Sea, Granada (July 2018)

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Madrid (March 2018)

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Maybe for some of you this year was a hard year. Maybe some of you have lost someone close to you. Maybe you just didn’t felt okay and were struggling. I’m here for you. It’s okay to grief. It’s okay to not be okay. It’s okay to feel sad. Feelings change and emotions change but it all takes time. Try to not be hard on yourself next year. Remember, I’ll will always be there for you πŸ’• I hope you will invest in self love and self care this new year because that’s the most important thing that matters. I also encourage you all to surround yourself with people who love you and who bring you only good vibes because you deserve that ✨.

I celebrated my New Year’s Eve in Valladolid, in Spain. I decided to not go out with my friends. I also didn’t go out last year. I used to party every year but I don’t feel in the mood anymore. I have to do what feels good to me. I went to the hairdressers in the afternoon to cut the dead ends, my bangs and they made curls in my hair. I love to look good for myself. I dressed up at home and did my make up. My mother and I went to the house of the mother of the wife of my brother. We celebrated all together New Year’s Eve: Rafael, my mother, VΓ©ronica, VΓ©ronica’s mother and her brother. We enjoyed eating delicious Spanish food.

We ate cheese, jamon serrano, chorizo, bread and chicken. I didn’t eat the fish because I don’t like fish so much haha πŸ˜‚ At 12 o’clock we watched the television and ate the 12 grapes. We also had champagne πŸ₯‚. It’s a tradition in Spain to eat the 12 grapes. They say it brings luck. We watched television where we were hearing beautiful music and we played Spanish card games. I really loved it so much. I love playing games with my family. At 3.30 am my mother and I went home and we stayed in watching some television. We went to bed at 6 am pretty late but doesn’t matter because it’s a special night. I’m glad I didn’t go out because as soon as we were home I got my period haha. On New Year’s Day we just stayed in and chilled. I saw the movie Grease. I just love that movie & the music so much 😍 I also saw the movie Paper Towns which I love so much from John Green. I already saw this movie with my best friend one day and loved it.

l wish you all an amazing new year full of love, happiness and luck πŸ€βœ¨βœŒοΈ Stay strong & stay safe. We are all in this together πŸ’ͺ I love you all so so so much ❀️. Thank you all for reading. How was your New Year’s Eve? Did you stay at home or did you went to a party? Which are your goals or dreams to achieve in 2019? I would love to know. I will speak to you all soon in my next blog post.

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Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

Concerts, a funny moment meeting your favourite artist and bonfires of Saint John πŸŽΆπŸ”₯

Hey lovely bloggers πŸ’•,

I already wanted to make a blog post about two amazing concerts I went to last month. This blog post is going to be about those two amazing concerts I went to. I don’t think anyone will relate to these two artists: Pablo Alboran and Sofia Ellar because they are Spanish. However, I love to share my music taste and soon I will also post a beach/Summer play list. I also am going to talk about the night of Saint John which is a typical feast in Spain. I hope you are going to enjoy this blog post.

I already bought the concert tickets of Pablo Alboran in Febraury because he’s a popular singer in Spain. I went to his concert on the second of June, just one day after my birthday. It was the best birthday present from myself haha and for my mother. I wanted to go with a friend but she couldn’t go so I went with my mother. Pablo Alboran is on a tour to promote his new album “Prometo” My mother is now in love with him too haha. Damn, I felt I was walking on the moon or Saturn as one of his songs says during his concert. This concert is going to be in my list of best concerts I’ve ever went to like omg asdghjkl I love you so much Pablo 😍 I wanna marry you. He’s 29 years old and comes from Malaga. He’s very handsome, cute and his voice is just so beautiful that it makes me feel in love. I’m a fan for so many years and I love all his songs so much. I bought the concerts tickets in February just when they began to sell them. Finally, I saw him live which is just a dream that came true. This was my best birthday present.

I will show you some of his songs from Youtube. I hope you like his voice as much as I do. Music doesn’t have any barriers. Even if you don’t know the language, the sound and the voice can make you feel something. I love going to concerts in Valladolid, my home city. This place was just 15 minutes away from my house. I could walk to it. There were thousands of people but I had enough space to dance and sing. I really like that. The concert was also outside which I enjoy more than inside concerts. It wasn’t even cold at all. It was around 20 degrees yeahhh. I get that festival vibe ✌

Pablo Alboran – Saturno (From his new album Prometo, I love this song so much)

Pablo Alboran – Te he echado de menos (From older albums and one of my favourite songs ❀)

His songs are so beautiful and really thouch my heart and soul. They are about life and love. The lyrics is just so beautiful which I can’t even describe with words. He’s honest, sensitive, caring and I appreciate him so much. Hopefully, one day I can get a picture with him and talk to him. That would be a dream. Thank you for an unforgettable night. I also bought a sticker and bracelet to have a memory of the concert. I danced, I sang and I felt so alive. I live for concerts because music makes me feel so alive which is the best feeling ever. I can’t wait to see you again!! I love you so SO much πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•

I also went to the concert of Sofia Ellar on the 22th of June with my lovely friend Maria. She was born in London and has the Spanish nationality. She launched her music career in Spain. She’s almost my age. She’s just 24 years and launched her career a few years ago just on her own. She became famous through Instagram and Youtube. It was such an amazing concert omgggg asdfghjkl. You know that moment in a concert where you are just so happy living in the moment and forget the whole world?! I had that all the time. She sang songs from her new album named Nota en do such as Nota en do, Mundos…? and Ana and older songs such as Verano con lima, Amor de anticuario and Rock’n’roll de chiquillos. I will you share some of my favourite songs below.

Sofia Ellar – Amor de anticuario (My favourite song ever πŸ’•πŸŽΆ)

Sofia Ellar – Mundos…? (From her new album Nota en do, I love this song so much)

Sofia Ellar – A Spanish little place (From her new album Nota en Do, she sings English this time which I also love)

First Rosco, a singer who also was playing in her band was playing a song from his album and then he sang the song La Llamada from that awesome movie which I still have to watch. I loved his voice. Then the concert of Sofia began. I love her and her band. She’s just so amazing. I love her voice, her songs and her music is just so beautiful. She write beautiful songs and can play so good guitar. She creates such a good ambiance. An artist have to make me feel something and she definitely does that. I loved the stories she told. She’s just so real, authentic, honest and a hippie girl like me πŸ’•βœŒ She had two big dreamcatchers on stage. One moment she even came to dance and sing with all of us downstairs.

This was the moment she came downstairs and danced and sang with us:

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This was the best moment of the concert. I never been to a concert where the artist just come downstairs and dance and sing with us. It was so beautiful and omggg I get emotional every time I see this video and remember this moment. This song is called Amor de anticuario and I love this song so much. It’s one of my favourites. She sings I’m that girl who is tired of offices and who lives her life singing this song. It just reminds me that Sofia Ellar is so real, beautiful and so sweet. She always says we are her family and yesss we are! It’s so important when an artist is on the same line as us. She also took her shoes off one moment and sang barefoot. I find that so awesome! I love you so much xoxo ❀️❀️❀

I was also so happy to meet her afterwards with my friend and I got a picture with her. She also liked my posts on Instagram or send hearts and she said I love you too through a private message on Instagram. Meeting and getting a picture with your favourite artist is awesome. It always happens when I’m going to concerts which take place in little places. I’m going to tell you now a funny story that happened that night. It was so great to meet Sofia. We had to wait for like a half hour after the concert ended. The security man said in an angry tone that we could enter the room of her but only two at a time. So, me and my friend entered and I said Sofiaaaa and we gave her a hug. She was so sweet. I had a black bag and when I wanted to get in the position to make this picture, my bag was in the way and let all the beer bottles and alcohol falling down on the ground and in Sofia’s bag. I hoped nothing was wet. I said that I’m so sorry and she said that it didn’t matter and she smiled.

Hahah, this only happens when I’m in the room lol πŸ˜‚. The man who was taking a picture said look what the one in the green did. We took a picture and Sofia said that they had to go soon so that’s why we had to do it quick. I would have loved to talk longer. It felt like we were her friends. I love that she’s so close to her fans. I can’t wait to go again to a concert of her. I will never ever forget this amazing concert. Thank you for everything πŸ˜„ You are da best! I wish her good luck with the rest of the concerts.

I shared this story on Instagram and then she liked my post and wrote: πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚you two were so sweet !! Nothing went wrong. Just smile!! I felt so happy when she wrote that and I wrote her back and said: Aaaah thank you so much Sofia 😍😘It was funny hahah. I love you ❀ You can see it here below:

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During the concert I also bought some beautiful earrings of feather which I already wanted to buy since a long time. I love them so much. They were a bit expensive €8 but so worth it. She always wear these earrings of feather in her hair.️ I loved the merchandising and wanted to buy everything hahah. I’m a hippie girl forevah. Hippie vibes always ✌

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So these were my stories about the two concerts I went to in June. Now, I’m going to tell you shortly about the night of San Juan which took place on the 23th of June. That night we celebrated San Juan also called the bonfires of Saint John. Spain is celebrating this night in all cities and especially on the beaches. Here in Valladolid we celebrated it by the river Pisuerga where there’s like a beach with sand. It’s not a real beach hahah a fake one but it’s great. It’s really a magical night & it’s also the shortest night. It’s typical to have bonfires. There were bonfires and a big one, and you could throw some wishes that you want to come true. You could also write a note with all negative things which you want to burn. I did this and it felt so goooood. I also enjoyed the music. It was a great night with my friend. I went with Maria Martin, and other people which I didn’t know.

I hope you all enjoyed this blog post. Do you also love to go to concerts as much as I do? Did you like these songs which I posted? Did you also had a funny moment like me when you met your favourite artist? Have you heard of Saint John before and do you celebrate it? I would love to know.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

My brother is getting married! πŸ’‘πŸ’πŸ‘°πŸ˜πŸ’ž

Hey lovely bloggers πŸ’ž,

I have some exciting news to share omggg. My oldest brother Rafael (39 years old) is getting married next year in August with his beautiful Spanish girlfriend called Veronica. They know each other because of me hahah. I matched them together. The wedding will be in Spain which is sooooo amazing! πŸŽ‰πŸ˜πŸ’•πŸŒˆπŸ‘°πŸ’‘πŸ’ 

Spanish weddings are really different than the weddings I went in The Netherlands. There are much bigger and more people come. There will be 80 people. In Spain people are catholic and many people marry in a church. Afterwards, all the people who are invited are going to eat together and dance πŸ’ƒπŸŽΆπŸŽ€.

My other brother called Edward married a few years ago with Elke when I was in Spain doing my exchange semester. I came back to The Netherlands for the wedding. It was so beautiful and emotional, damn. I cried my eyes out. I even sang at the wedding. I was so anxious but I did it well. I sang the first couplet of When I came down to the river to pray and afterwards we sang all together with a few people. Two years ago Elke got pregnant so I’m a happy aunt! My little niece Noanne is two years old now. I can’t wait to see them again. I didn’t see them now for one year because I was doing my internship in Spain and am living in Spain now. I’m going back to the Netherlands to spend Christmas time with my whole family. I really can’t wait, happy vibes! πŸŽ„πŸ’žπŸ˜ 

Rafael, me, Edward at the wedding of Edward and Elke

Edward, Elke and Noanne live in Geldrop, in the south of The Netherlands near to Eindhoven. Rafael and Veronica went this weekend to visit them. Rafael proposed during a love photoshoot Veronica and gave her the ring. Edward and Elke are wedding photographers and they take beautiful pictures. You can see their website which is called Azcona fotografie. Rafael booked the hotel NH in Eindhoven to spend this weekend there with Veronica after proposing her.

Asdfghjkl I’m so excited for their wedding next year!!!! πŸ‘°πŸ’‘πŸ’– My lovely niece Noanne will also come. She will be three years old by then. I just love weddings so much. It’s just so beautiful to be there on their special day with all the people you love. They are going to marry not in the church but in the beautiful castle of FuensaldaΓ±a, a village near to Valladolid. Valladolid is the place where I’m living and where my mother was born. The castle is sooo beautiful. The ceremony will be there and then afterwards we will eat all together in a restaurant with delicious Spanish food. I hope I will sing again at their wedding, who knows πŸŽΆπŸ’ƒ

At the castle of FuensaldaΓ±a with me, my mother, mother of Veronica, Rafael and Veronica

The beautiful castle in FuensaldaΓ±aπŸ’ž

It’s going to be such a wonderful day. I can’t wait to buy a beautiful dress and go to the hairdresser and all stuff hahaha πŸ˜‚πŸ‘—For the wedding of my brother Edward I got a beautiful purple dress from a friend. This time I would love to buy a dress but not too expensive. There are so many shops in Valladolid and I still have plenty of time to look for a beautiful one so no stress hahaha πŸ˜‚.

I wish my brother and his girlfriend a life full of happiness, love and luck! πŸ€ May all your dreams come true. I wish you many more years πŸ’–πŸŒˆβœŒ

Much love to you all πŸ’ž,

xoxo Christina