Body positivity: I’m thin and that’s okay 💕

Hey lovely bloggers 😍,

Today I want to talk about body positivity. This is such an important subject. There are still so many people suffering with this subject. Women and men suffer from this subject. We often think that only women suffer from not feeling good enough in their bodies. It isn’t true. Also men suffer from not feeling good enough. They don’t feel good enough or feel like they have to look a certain way to be happy. I want to talk about body positivity with this picture. I made this picture in La Alhambra in Granada, in Spain last Summer. Something I struggled with through my life is the fact that I’m thin. I’m happy with my body but I struggled with the fact that people bullied me for being thin. You may think people will praise you because you are thin. It isn’t true. People critice every body size.

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When I was in high school I got comments that I’m not a woman because I don’t have big breasts or they said that I’m only bones. I also got worse comments which was that they said and asked me if I had anorexia. Those bad comments really hurt me and made me feel insecure about myself. I don’t have any eating disorder. This is such a mean comment and also an insult for those who really struggle with eating disorders. I really wish that those who suffer from an eating disorder can all recover and be happy with their body and theirselves. They really deserve that. It’s such a serious illness that has to be taken seriously because many people die from it every year. They saw that I ate a lot of chocolate and that I didn’t get any weight. I’m sorry but that it’s not my fault. This is just the way I’m made. I remember a girl said once to me that I will get thick when I’m older. I was like wtf why are you saying that to me?! I guess all those people were just jealous and enjoyed causing me hurt with their words.

I also remember many times that I went to eat with my Spanish family and they were all the time saying: “Wow you look really skinny”, “You have to eat more”, “Are you okay?”. I’m fucking okay but not with all those stupid comments. I know my family cares about me but those words just only caused me anxiety about my body image. In Spain, people love food and if they are not eating, they are cooking or thinking about food. I like food and eat well but I don’t like to eat that much as they do in Spain. It’s really insane how much they can eat here hahaha. I don’t want to be nauseous because of eating too much. I think that’s why sometimes when I feel uncomfortable at a place while eating I get nauseous. I fear again the comments people would make me. I felt like I had to eat much food so that nobody would critice me. Now, I just eat what I want and don’t care that much about what they say to me. This is my body and I’m happy with it. However, sometimes those words can still hurt me but I try to care less.

I also think society is causing a lot of damage to our body image. When we watch television or read a magazine we see all those perfect people with their perfect bodies. We began to think that we also have to look that way in order to be happy with our bodies and ourselves. It’s just a bad illusion. Most of those pictures you see are photoshop and aren’t even real. Do you really think you would be happy if you would look like that model in the magazine?! I think not because if you aren’t accepting yourself now, you won’t accept yourself if you would look different. It’s just creating a negative influence on your confidence. You have to accept yourself and your body now. I’m in favour or people doing sports in order to feel happy. I’m not in favour of people who are doing sports in order to loose so much weight to be happy. Trust me, it won’t make you happy. If you are doing sports because you have to do it it won’t create the benefits when you a sport because you love to do it and because it makes you happy. When I go swimming I feel refreshed and happy. Do something because it makes you feel good about yourself and not as punishment.

I wish everybody could embrace their bodies instead of criticising it. We have one body. Our body is our temple and we have to live in it until we die. It’s time to start a revolution and love our body and care for it. Your scars, stretch marks, flaws, curves and everything about your body is perfect the way you are.  Eat the right food, take care of it and practise self love. You only have one body so it’s important to take good care of it. Don’t listen to what society tells us to be. We are perfect the way we are. You are already enough. We don’t have to look a certain way to be happy about ourselves. We are more than our body, we are a person with beautiful values and a personality.

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Sometimes I really wish I could gain more weight. I really wish that but I just can’t. I learned to accept that this is my body size. Maybe in the future when I maybe will get pregnant I will gain some weight but I guess it won’t be that much. My mother has the same body size and also gain a bit weight when she got pregnant. This is the way we were made. I’m never hiding it and always make pictures in Summer and with my bikini. I learned to be proud of my body despite the negativity or judgmental comments people would make me. I’m more than my body size. I’m a person with great values and have a caring heart. I think that means much more than a body size. We are all different and that’s what make us unique and beautiful ❤ I wish we can all start a revolution of loving our bodies because all bodies are beautiful.

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I hope you all liked this blog post. I wish you all can’t relate to it because it makes me feel sad that so many people on this world still don’t love their bodies. You are all beautiful. It doesn’t matter which size you are. Remember that you are always enough. Love yourself no matter what 💕

Much love 💜,

xoxo Christina

10 self care tips 💞🌠

Hey lovely bloggers 😍,

It’s been a long time since I wrote something related to self love/self care/mental health on my blog so I thought it’s about time now. Self care is so important in today’s world where everybody is always in rush and never take time to just be in the moment and to just take care about themselves. In this blog post I will share my 10 self care tips for you all. Of course, they are personal based on what I find useful. I hope you can find them useful too and can apply them in your life. These 10 tips are not in any rank ordered. They are all equally important. Some may will be pretty obvious but sometimes we forget about those little tips which would make us feel well. Feel free to comment your awesome self care tips aswell.

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1. Sleep enough hours at night

I think this is really an important one. I hate mornings so much and I can’t seem to enjoy them. It’s even more difficult for me when I didn’t had enough hours of sleep. I would feel miserable, my concentration decrease and my anxiety would increase because of the lack of sleep. Sleeping is so important for our well-being and just in general for our physical and mental health. If you slept enough hours and slept well, you will feel happy and full of energy the morning you wake up. Some people may think that if they catch up on sleep another day it will be all okay again. Catching up on sleep isn’t good enough. Adults have to sleep at least 8 hours at night and of course it depends on the person. I usually need 8 hours or even 9 to feel good.

2. Eat healthy

Eating the right food is really important for our health. I like to eat pizza a lot or other fastfood such as Mc Donalds or Burger King but sometimes when I ate that I feel bad afterwards. Fastfood isn’t good for our health and we sometimes crave it when we feel stressed or sad. If you eat once in a while it will not do any harm. With eating healthy I mean to eat many vegetables which are really so important for us. Fish and meat is good for our health too if you eat the right portions. I also read once that nuts are really good for our mental health. Of course, let’s not forget about fruits which are full of vitamins and so good for our health. Your body & soul will thank you after you have eaten healthy food.

3. Take a shower/bath

Sometimes I don’t feel like to take a shower in winter because of the cold. Of course, I do it but it will cost me more energy and effort haha. When I turn the van on I will feel warmer inside my bathroom. Taking a shower or taking a bath is so good for ourselves. It’s the perfect way to take care of ourselves. In The Netherlands I have a bath and I used to use some Lush products such as some bath bombs. I love it so much. Here in Spain, I have a shower without a bath but I also enjoy it. Whenever I’m in the shower I hear the water, I feel the warm water on my skin and just feel in the moment so peaceful. It’s just such a great form of relaxation. After taken the shower, I feel completely rested and fresh & fruity.

4. Hang out with your tribe

For me, this point is also a really important one. Hang out with your family or with your friends who understand you and respect you. It’s so important to find the right people. The right people will always be there for you, in the good and in the bad. I find it really helpful to have friends who also share the shame passions with me such as surfing, travelling and singing. I have had a lot of fake friends who bullied me in my life and totally didn’t respect me. I’m glad they aren’t in my life anymore. I encourage all of you to find people who will help you to grow as a person and live beautiful moments with them. You deserve people who will love for you who you are.

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5. Spend time in nature

When I have bad days, I feel like not going out and I just want to stay at home. I know this will not increase my mood and I will not be happy of it. Sometimes, the best thing to do on such days is to go outside and spend time in nature. I live near to a park and sometimes I take a walk and just spent time observing the beautiful nature while sitting on a bench alone or with my mother or with a friend. Spending time in nature will help you to feel good about yourself. It definitely increase our mood. It’s just so important to be in the moment and enjoy the beautiful nature which this beautiful earth has to offer us.

6. Read a book

I really want to read more books. I love reading and I’m sad I don’t do it as often as I want. Reading a book is really good for us. Whenever, I read a good book I forget the whole world arround me and I just am in the moment reading that book. It feels like I’m in another world. We also learn a lot about life while reading. I love reading novels but I also love to read some mental health/self love/self care books which useful tips to apply in my life. I will soon write a book review about some of them.

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7. Exercise

I don’t mean exercise in a way that you go jogging till you are totally out of energy. I know there are many people who exercise and feel worse after it. People suffering from anorexia for example exercise because they want to be skinny and be happier about themselves. The sad thing is that they are never going to achieve that goal. I think exercise is really good when you do it because it makes you happy. You can go for a walk or do yoga or go swimming. Yoga is really good for your physical and mental health aswell as swimming. I really like those sports because it increase my mood. It’s also really good for when I have back pain and shoulder pain. I also like to surf. All these forms of exercise make me feel good about ourselves and that’s the most important thing. I don’t do it to loose weight or anything but just to feel happy and increase my health.

8. Write

Writing is such an important form of healing. It definitely helps you to grow and inspire you. You can write in your journal or diary. I used to have a diary but now I prefer to have a journal and write poems or other things. I also to have a scrapbook and have all my memories of travels and moments with family & friends there. Writing can do so much good. I also love that I began this blog in August. After I wrote all my feelings and emotions down I feel really released and can let all the things which are bothering me go. Just write anything you want. Writing can be very therapeutic. It doesn’t matter if it’s all a mess which you are writing. That mess of writing can be very beautiful because all your thoughts and feelings are valid. Let it all out and let it all go.

9. Listen to music

Music is the best thing in life. Life without music would be a hell. Music will always be there for you, in good and bad times. I have found so many songs when I didn’t had the words to explain what I was feeling. Music always has the rights words when you need them the most. Listening to uplifting music can increase your mood so much. Music make us so happy. That’s why I love going to concerts so much too. Just being in the moment and listening to your favourite band/singer makes me so happy. It’s that feeling of being one with the world. Only good vibes! 💞 On some days I prefer sad music that fits my mood, on other days I prefer music to dance and just be happy and on some days I love to sing karaoke. Singing is one of my biggest passions. Soon I will share some songs which I recorded. I sang in a choir for 11 years in The Netherlands. I told that once in other blog posts.

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10. Try to think positive thoughts

It’s difficult to think positive thoughts when you feel sad or bad about yourself. I’m a bit better in thinking positive thoughts than I was years before. Whenever, I have a bad thought I would think that that thought is true and most of the time it isn’t true. For example, if I think that I’m not worth it I will think that that thought is true. It isn’t true because I have so many good qualities and I’m capable of achieving all my dreams. Those are just negative thoughts but they have such a bad influence on our self esteem. Try to think positive thoughts and your perspective on life will change. Life will be sunnier when you think positive thoughts and try not to think the worst in many situations. I admit that I’m really good in thinking the worst all the time and that at the end it wasn’t worth to think those thoughts because my worst case scenario didn’t came true. Be happy and the rest will follow 😄💙

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I hope you all liked this list of mine 10 self care tips and can apply them in your life. Let me know of some other suggestions which you do to apply self care in your life. Let’s take time to take care of ourselves and love each other much ❤

Much love,

xoxo Christina

I’m not good enough 💭

Hey sweeties 😍,

Today I wanna talk about something which has been stuck in my head for so long. Today I wanna talk about the thought: I’m not good enough. I have to confess that I have had this thought my whole life. I always have had the fear of not being good enough. I have wasted a lot of time in thinking that I’m not good enough. I think it’s also because I have been bullied that I feel this way. If you haven’t read this story yet, you can read that story here: My story of being bullied

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I think many of us have this thought in the back of our minds. That fear of not being succesful enough, not smart enough, not beautiful enough…. I think that society also creates this thought. Especially women always have to be thin and look a certain way to be good enough. I see that on social media accounts, magazines and on television. I just see that everywhere. I think this is also the reason why many women start a strong diet, fitness to loose weight and develop eating disorders…. They will never feel good enough because they are not doing fitness to feel good about themselves. They are doing fitness to look a certain way to feel good. They will never obtain that goal, it’s just an illusion. Even if they loose some weight, it just will never be good enough. They continue and that is really dangerous for their health. I like to swim, do yoga or other sports and afterwards I feel good about myself. I don’t do it to loose weight or look a certain way. That’s the big difference. Of course, this can also happen with boys but there are still many more women who suffer from this problem.

We have to look a certain way to feel good about ourselves. It’s just bullshit. I know sometimes I look to other girls and compare myself way too often. I would for example see a girl who looked perfect in my eyes and instantly think like why can’t I be as beautiful as her, wear awesome fashion as her…. I’m not very good in matching oufits and I’m always kinda jealous about girls who dress so perfectly well. Why can’t I be like her? Sometimes I meet people and they tell me about their career and perfect life. Then I always feel like a failure. Thoughts as why can’t I do awesome things in life and am I really a failure come up. I have to know that life isn’t perfect and that everything we see on social media ain’t not true. We all have our ups and downs in life even though you only see the highlights on social media.

Why do I always feel like I’m not good enough? I learned about self love and self-care these years but I still have to work a lot to feel like I’m good enough and worth it. I don’t have to be another person or look a certain way to be good enough. I just have to be myself, wear what I want and love myself the way I’m.

I also had this thought a lot when it comes to boys. When I had a boyfriend from 17 till 19 years old, I felt like I was worthy of love and felt good enough. This was a kinda stupid thought because I’m already beautiful and not just because I have a boyfriend. I always thought somebody had to love me to feel good enough about myself. When he broke up with me, I felt really lost because I never learned to love myself. Everything happens for a reason. The break up learned me to love myself for who I’m, to respect myself, to set boundaries and to know that I’m good enough. I also learned that I first have to love myself before I can love someone else. I really love the quote “We accept the love, we think we deserve” from the Perks of being a wallflower – Stephen Chbosky. I love Emma Watson and Logan Lerman so much. I encourage anyone to read the book and see this beautiful movie. After he broke up with me, I felt really insecure and had a low self esteem. I attracted the wrong boys because I thought that that was the love I deserve. Now, I learned that I deserve someone who would really respect me and my boundaries, love me for the way I’m and just have a safe and loving relationship.

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I know there are still so many of us struggling with body image. I find that so incredible sad. We are born out of love and have to embrace our bodies. Our body is our temple and is beautiful just the way it’s. Society creates this image that we have to look a certain way to be beautiful. I hope you all are trying to learn to embrace your body and love yourself. You are loved, you are worth it, your body is beautiful and so are you ❤ I know I still have to learn a lot about this subject but every step forward is a big accomplishment. I have to try to stop comparing myself to others and know that I can be myself and be beautiful.

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I hope this blog post will help all the people who are struggling right now with their body image and with the thought of not being good enough. Remember, that you are not your thoughts. You are beautiful just the way you are. I advice you to practice self love every day and be surrounded by good people. For example, when you wake up and look at the mirrow you can look at yourself and tell yourself you are beautiful. Maybe, this will have a positive effect on yourself. Start doing little things which will replace this negative thoughts about yourself into good thoughts about yourself 💕 I know it’s hard but we are all in this together 💪❤ You can all achieve amazing things in life!

To end this blog post, I will share this beautiful song from Selena Gomez & The Scene. I love the lyrics so much because it’s exactly about what I have just written about. Her song is about being your own beautiful selves ❤❤❤You don’t have to be like anyone else. You don’t have to be a beauty queen but just your own beautiful self. Selena Gomez is such a role model for self love 💕 I love her and her beautiful songs so much. I’m going to make a blog post about self love songs soon because there are so many beautiful songs out there.

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I love you all so much 💕

Much love ❤,

xoxo Christina

Poem: You are unbelievable enough 💞

Hey lovely community ❤❤❤,

I think I’m gonna share more poetry which I have made during my life. I love writing poetry. I liked writing poetry since I have been little. It just feels so good to write your thoughts and feeling on paper. I always feel so much lighter after I have written a poem. Just let me know what you think 😄. I hope it will inspire you all and bring some light into this sometimes dark world 💫💞

My personal Instagram is: christinax1993 and my poetry Instagram account is: seaofwordsx. I just leave this here if anybody is interested in it 😄 I share a lot of poems there but I wanna share more on my blog too. 

I made this poem for all my lovely, beautiful and amazing followers 💖 Especially the ones who are struggling right now and feel bad. Look in the mirrow and tell yourself that you are beautiful and enough because you are 💜 Don’t let others or society tells you aren’t. You aren’t the scales on the weight, your mistakes and the pain you have suffered. You are so much more than that. You are a beautiful human being who light up this whole world just because you exists. You are capable of so many awesome things. The universe has your back 💫 

Life wouldn’t be the same without you here. You have a purpose. You will feel okay again even if you feel like your whole world is falling apart. Feelings come and go. You are loved. You are never alone. If you feel lonely, look to the right and there I will be standing next to you, side to side. I may be far away but never apart 💖💖💖 

I love you all so much with all my heart ❤❤❤

xoxo Christina

You must love yourself before you can love someone else 💕

Hey lovely bloggers <3,

I always wanted to write about this. It’s just a subject which is so close to my heart. It’s something which always make me think about it and reflect about it. You must love yourself before you can love someone else. This is just so damn true.

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I had a two year relationship from 17 till 19 years old. We had a long distance relationship. I was living in The Netherlands and he was living in Switzerland. We saw each other like once in two or three months. He was my first love so the break up was really hard. After he broke up with me because of the distance, family problems and not the right timing, I felt so bad. He broke up with me just before Christmas face to face so every time it’s almost Christmas I begin to feel sad. Christmas time make me feel lonely and kinda depressed. It reminds me of that time. I still love Christmas so much but it still hurts sometimes.

This Christmas it will be almost 5 years since the break up. After the break up I went on an exchange to Spain for 5 months. During that time I was a completely mess. I started to drink so much alcohol, got drunk many times and then ended up crying and feeling sick. I kissed many boys without having feelings for them, just for fun. They all used me because I was in such a bad place. I was too sensitive and emotional. At night I had panick attacks. My heart was beating fast and felt just so bad. I wanted to give up on life. I know from myself that I would never do anything to myself such as self harm or commit suicide. I just can’t. However, I really felt so low for about three years I think. It’s just these last two years that I finally begin to feel like myself again.

Feeling like myself again? What does that even mean? It means that I don’t give my heart away to people who would only abuse it and cause me pain. It means that I don’t have to drink alcohol when I go out dancing with my friends. I can just say NO and feel good about it. Feeling like myself again means that I totally respect myself and love myself. I still have times where I make bad decisions like everybody else but I’m more aware of the choices I make. Now, I know that during that hard time I just didn’t love myself enough to make the right decisions for myself. I felt worthless and not good enough so I attracted the bad boys. I thought that I deserve that. This reminds me that if you feel good about yourself and love yourself, you will attract good people and make good choices because you feel that you deserve that.

I always thought that if someone loved me, I would feel whole. It’s just not true. I already had anxiety and low self confidence when I met my first love. I felt whole during that relationship because I thought like YEAHHH finally someone loves me so I’m worth it. It’s just a miss conception that somebody should love you so that you can love yourself. I always thought that somebody had to make me happy. I always thought that I need to heal my broken heart with not letting me feel the pain such as with drinking much alcohol and kissing bad boys. This would not let me feel the pain. It was just not the right thing to do. You will only heal when you sit down with your pain, feel it and cry about it. You have to let it out and talk about it with a good friend or a loved one. It’s the only way to heal your broken heart. Now, I’m just so happy that I didn’t give up. I’m just so happy that I moved on. Now, I know what’s right for me. I shouldn’t give my heart to people who will just cause me pain and let me suffer. I almost don’t drink any alcohol anymore. It made me cause even more anxiety and no good. I’m not a loser because I don’t drink alcohol. I do what feels right to me and my body.

If you are in a relationship now, I’m happy for you. Be with someone who understands you and makes you happy 💜 Do what feels right to you. Say no more often. If this person only makes you feel about yourself and doesn’t respect your NO, then it’s time to leave this relationship. Nobody should make you feel bad about yourself. Leave that toxic relationship. You deserve so much more 💖

For anybody being single, don’t rush yourself with finding your soulmate. You have your whole life ahead of you. I thought my whole life that I should have a soulmate to feel whole. It’s just not true. You are already whole. You don’t need just a person to love you to make you feel loved. You have to make yourself happy. Nobody can do that for you. Travel the world. Be with real friends. Do things that make you happy and then if you find someone who loves you, you already feel whole 💜💜💜 .

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Everything will fall into place if you love yourself and put yourself first before anything else in life 😘 This is your life and you have the right to live it your way 👌💜 Life is beautiful after all 🌠

Much love 💕💕💕,

xoxo Christina

Loving yourself is the beginning of a life-long romance 💕

Hey all 💕,

During my childhood I have been bullied a lot and suffered from this. This caused me a lack of self esteem and self confidence. I just never loved myself enough. I always felt like I wasn’t good enough. I felt like I didn’t deserve all the good things in life.

This also caused me to have a mental illness: anxiety. For people with a mental illness like myself it it’s even more difficult to enjoy life. Having anxiety makes it sometimes so hard to just feel peaceful and enjoy life. Having a mental health illness is really hard and makes life so difficult sometimes. That’s why it’s even more important for people with a mental health illness to build a good relationship with ourselves and do thinks we love. It all takes time. If you really have a bad day just a cup of tea or some meds will help you to make it another day. This can help you to enjoy your life a bit more even though you are feeling bad.

I love this quote 💕 Once I printed this quote out to decorate it in my room. It’s just so important to love yourself. You are going to be you for your whole life. The relationship you have with yourself is the most important one. It will determine all the other relationships you have with people. 
During my childhood I have been bullied a lot and suffered from this. This caused me a lack of self esteem and self confidence. I just never loved myself enough. I always felt like I wasn’t good enough. I felt like I didn’t deserve all the good things in life.

I’m struggled with loving myself every day but I feel much better than before! 💪 I love myself much more than before. Having self esteem and self confidence takes time. You just have to take it one day at a time. You should think about the answers of these questions. What are the things that make you happy? What are the things that make you feel good about yourself? What can you do to improve your self esteem and confidence? This may be different for every person. Just think about it and let me know how you carry on 💕

Try to avoid bad relationships. They only will bring you done and will never help you with building a good relationship with yourself. Try to be surrounded by real friends who support you and motivate you to reach your dreams. It is just so damn important to be surrounded by people who inspire you, lift you up and not bring you down. I’m so damn grateful for all the good people in my life. I love them a lot 💕😘

I hope you all liked my post. Let me know what you think about it in the comment section 💭  

Love yourself and everything will fall in place. You are enough and so worth it 💜🌹🌻🌼💖

Much love,

xoxo

Loving yourself is the greatest revolution 💕🙏

Hey lovely people 💜,

I love this image with important tips on how to love yourself sooooo much 💕🙏. I just wanted to share this with you all:

I know many people struggle with loving theirselves. It’s hard to be yourself in a world where we are constantly told we shouldn’t be ourselves. We should be skinny, we should look perfect all the time, we shouldn’t wear too much or too less make up…. it’s just never good enough.

It’s important to analyse our thoughts and try to not be so hard on ourselves instead be kind to ourselves. The one thing I struggle a lot with is getting bad thoughts and making everything 1000 times worse than it is. It’s important to analyse our thoughts and replace a bad thought with a good thought. Easier said than done, but it takes time and practice.

Moreover, it is important to be with family and friends who support you and help you whenever you need it 🙏 Try to avoid negative and judgmental people. They will only make you feel worse about yourself. Trust me, I have been there. Being with people who are judging you will never help you to feel positive about yourself.

Taking care of your body is important too. Doing yoga, swimming, surfing or whatever sport you like can really boost your mind and give you such a positive feeling afterwards. On Tuesday I’m going to Spain again and I can’t wait to go swimming in the outdoor swimmingpool 🌞🏊 Whenever I felt stressed I pushed myself to go swimming and afterwards I felt so goooood and peaceful. It was like all my stress completely had vanished.

So, stay true yourself because loving yourself is the greatest revolution 💕

Much love,

xoxo