Holaaa from Spain after 7 months not being able to travel! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ๐ŸŒŠ๐ŸŒž๐ŸŒด๐ŸŒป

Hola lovelies ๐Ÿฅฐ,

I’m finally back in Spain since last Tuesday. I CRY BECAUSE I MISSED IT SOOOO MUCH ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅฐ. Just writing this makes me cry again and get so emotional. I’m behind some other posts but I think I’m not going to write them anymore. I have been feel a bit stressed about my blog lately like I have to blog about this, not miss this and it’s not good. I’m always a perfectionist so when I finally do something after procastinating then I want to do it good. I prefer quality blog posts then just posts for the sake of it. This blog post will be about my journey to Spain, how I feel, things I have on my mind and how things are right now due to this pandemic. I really missed having a good chat with you guys. This post is basically going to be a rant haha ๐Ÿ˜‚. I hope you will like it.

I can’t believe we are already in August like wtf this year is the longest and the shortest ever ๐Ÿ˜ณ. How do you feel about it? So much has happened in the world these months because of the pandemic. I really imagine myself cheering the new year last year and we all didn’t know what was about to come. It makes me feel bittersweet though. I don’t know how to feel about a new year coming because I don’t know what we have to except. The best thing is having no expectations and just going with the flow. I read a beautiful quote a few days ago which said that so much can happen in 6 months which is true. So, I hope these last 5 months will turn out fine or better than these last months.

In my life, not that much has happened. I still have no job but right now it’s even more difficult to find one related to what I studied. I studied European Studies which is a broad study with a wide range of subjects such as marketing, languages, international relations and politics. I also really find myself thinking of how I would love to make a living out of writing. I crave it so badly. I also love doing yoga, reading, travelling, singing and surfing so much. I’ve also sometimes dreamt about how amazing it would be to build a surf school related to mental health problems to provide people help and support while enjoying the ocean. I can’t wait to maybe go to the beach and surf this Summer in Spain ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ๐ŸŒŠ๐Ÿ„โ€โ™€๏ธ. I miss the sea so much. Maybe those dreams are wild but it would be so amazing. I still feel kinda stuck related to thinking about a career. I used to apply to some jobs in Spain but got no answer. I even did an interview for a internship and never heard back. It’s more difficult right now. I also got information to take an exam for a job in the public sector which is mandatory in Spain. I just don’t know and still feel lost after so many years. It’s normal I say to myself. Anxiety also gets in the way. Some people see it as excuse but they have no idea how hard it’s to live with it and being expected to do everyday stuff.

I also entered some writing competitions. I didn’t won the one from Barcelona. At least I tried. Besides, Barcelona is now more at risk so it’s better not to go. I will hear about the poetry contest about mental health next month. I will also maybe join another contest these days which is about my city Haarlem, in The Netherlands. They are looking for a city poet who will write for them and also earn โ‚ฌ3000 euro each year and will even have the opportunity to publish a book about poems of Haarlem. I will join and we will see what happens next. I have already no but you never know what may be the result.

Thanks to the pandemic which is also strange to I’m also grounding myself more and being present with all the things I have. I have been doing yoga and medititation many times in a week ๐Ÿง˜โ€โ™€๏ธโœจ. It’s so good. I feel more lost and less calm when I don’t do it. It’s been a such a healing tool and I will stick to it forever. I can’t wait to be able to have a job, save money and go to a yoga retreat in Aruba and finally meet Yoga Girl and the whole community. I love it so much. I don’t have a yoga mat here in Spain but I will use maybe a camping mat until I have one here. I crave connection so much. It’s the best. It reminds me I’m never alone and that I always have people behing me. I did a sharing circle on Zoom with Yoga Girl and more than 60 people joined a few days ago which I will share more about in my July favourites. It was so special and omg I also felt anxious and strange. I had never done it before. In real life it would be even more intense. We did meditation and then we got a sharing partner. We have to talk about our struggles and the other person listen and don’t give advice. It’s much more powerful then just always interrumpting a person. Rachel Brathen (Yoga Girl) said that we have our answers in our heart. These sharings are so much more powerful than anything else ๐Ÿ’–. I got emotional when I listened and my partner too. I can’t wait to do it many more times.

I’m happy to be back in Spain but also feel mixed feelings. Nothing is normal anymore. Our trip went very well. I was so happy to go but never felt so anxious before a trip. I really didn’t like some of my family member and also a friend of my mother saying we are irresponsible to go to Spain when we are very careful. I couldn’t sleep the night before. I felt so unwell and anxious. I hate to get influenced but others because our trip went super well. We had to wear masks, do social distance and wash our hands often. Nothing new. I’m more used now to wearing a face mask almost all the time because it’s mandatory here in Spain ๐Ÿ˜ท. In Holland it’s only mandatory in public transport and in a regio of Amsterdam and Rotterdam. I changed my mind and think it’s very important to wear it even though it’s a struggle in the heat. We passed the security in 15 min. We drank some tea and ate a croissant and went to the gate. Boarding was nice, the flight was great without any turbulence. There were almost no people. I watched High School Musical ๐ŸŽถ. I loved it. I had never watched it before.

When we landed in the airport of Madrid, they checked our QR-code which is the health paper you have to fill in before you go to Spain. Then you pass a control and there are camera’s above which check your temperature. There are also nurses there in case you are feeling bad. Everything is clean and well organised. We got our suitcases, took a taxi to the station of Madrid and there suddenly I saw my good friend Pedro and his girlfriend. I love to always meet people as a surprise. We ate delicious Spanish food with them and waited for the train. It takes one hour to go to Valladolid by the high speed train. Then we took a taxi home and in the afternoon we were safe and sound at home. I thought something would happen during the trip or I would feel more anxious. I felt more calm because everything went well. I don’t want to listen to scary stories anymore or watch too much news. We are safe and will do anything to stay safe. We can’t stay forever in our homes too.

These days I have been resting in Spain in our home, eating some delicicous tapas and just walking in nature. We also went already to the swimming pool which we love so much ๐ŸŠโ€โ™€๏ธ๐ŸŒž. I have to enjoy it now before I get my period which I hate even more in Summer. There’s no beach here so the pool is the best place to be. I’m just so much more happier here. It’s been so hot here, like 37 degrees. Right now, it’s 30 degrees. I love Summers in Spain so much. I really craved it. This week I will finally see my friends which I missed so much. I also saw a new restaurant with vegan food and poke bowls omggg can’t wait to try it. I will celebrate my birthday with my friends there ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿค—. I also saw a new yoga studio. Maybe will go there too. I also will go the hairdresser soon. I can never cut much just the death ends and my bangs because I didn’t went for like a year. I also have to go to the dentist end of month to get rid again of one wisdom teeth ๐Ÿฆท. I’m anxious about that again but maybe a bit less than in January. I told about my experience here. It’s still a struggle so please guys be there for me and send me love. I need it. I just know I have no other choice because I have sometimes strange feelings and pain. I can’t wait to be able to say I faced this 4 times and it went well.

I’m really happy to be here but I also feel sadness in Spain. I see elderly walking and I get emotional thinking of how many people have died here and all over the world. In Spain people are so social and always together. The Netherlands has a individualistic culture. It’s so different. You see people but much less and people are afraid which is normal. Night life is different too. I don’t miss fiestas so much because what I need in life is more connection and deep talks rather than being drunk all the time. It’s been ages for me and I’m really happy to have gone a different way in drinking alcohol. I don’t need to drink much to have fun. The virus is still here and we have to be careful. They are putting some villages in Valladolid in lockdown again which just means that it isn’t over. I hope you all stay safe this Summer and have fun. We are all in this together ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿ™.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope it wasn’t too boring. I hope you all liked it. What are you up to during this Summer? How are you feeling? How is your physical and mental health? What do you think of what I wrote? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

Today it’s my 27th birthday! ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŽ‚๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽโœจ๐ŸŽˆ Forever a gemini child โ™Š and hippie girl yeahhh! โœŒ

Hola lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

IT’S MY BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!!! ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŽ‰ OMG 27 YEARS YOUNG. I feel old lol ๐Ÿ˜‚. I have sometimes pain in my body like period cramps, back pain, feeling nauseous, teeth problems, suffering from anxiety but lol I still lived 27 years so I guess it’s okay. I feel like a grand mother ๐Ÿ‘ด sometimes. This blog post will be about my birthday and some things I learned these years. It’s a kinda strange birthday because of this pandemic and lockdown but it’s also special. It’s the first birthday in 4 years that I’m again in The Netherlands celebrating it and not in Spain. My good friend is sleeping here. My brother, his wife, my bestie and her girlfriend are coming today but of course with distance. Better, than nothing. I miss face to face connection so much. I missed seeing them so much ๐Ÿ˜ญ.

I sometimes feel a bit depressed, anxious and emotional with my birthday because of society’s expectations. In 3 years I’m 30 years old but I still feel like a ”baby” in the world. I don’t have a job yet, no hushband, no baby, no driving license, no car or don’t own a home. Does that make me unsuccesful? Does that make me not worth it in this society? I just hate that society create those rules. It only makes me feel depressed and create more anxiety. I am where I am in live and it’s all okay. I’m realizing now more and more that who I’m is more important than what I do.

If there is one thing I’m realizing now during this pandemic and just this year in general is that I have to choose for myself. I have spent so much years of my life doing what other people expected of me. I have spent so much time in doing things I don’t like or being with the wrong people. It only drained me and made me feel bad about myself. I have wasted too much time in toxic relationships. It wasn’t worth it. I realized afterwards that all these people and boys had one thing in common: they didn’t deserve my love. I give so much to people and didn’t get that same amount of love back. They weren’t worth my time. If only I knew then what I know now I would not have done certain things or wasted my time on the wrong people. I failed, I learned and I grew from these mistakes. I will try to not repeat them in the future.

I have always hide myself and I still do that at times and I’m done with it. I hide myself because of being bullied ๐Ÿ˜ข. Not many bullies seem to know what the consequences are of bullying. It’s really the worst for your mental health. I still suffer sometimes when someone is laughing or talking a bit loud. Then instantly I think it’s about me but of course it isn’t true. Anxiety is also being caused of being bullied. I’m done with hiding myself for who I’m. I’m happy that I’m being myself know more and more online and also in real life. I have the best friends in real life, online and family in the world ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’•.

I want to be completely myself in everything I do and in everything I am in life. I have always been afraid of growing older because of being afraid of death. I also talked about that topic in this blog post. Now, I’m realizing that growing older is also a privilege. Not everyone can grow older because of sickness. I have also been afraid of aging because I always thought I have to be a certain way in life. I can’t like or do the things I like now in a few years. Well, that’s a misconception. I will forever be the hippie girl โœŒ, mermaid and wild child I’m ๐Ÿ˜‚. I will not change for anyone. I WILL BE MY CRAZY SELF. I will keep reading young adult books ๐Ÿ“š, blogging, penpalling, surfing ๐Ÿ„, travelling the world, singing ๐ŸŽถ, loving the sea ๐ŸŒŠ, listening to my favourite artists such as Taylor Swift, Ariana Grande, Julia Michaels, Sofia Ellar, Duncan Laurence, Aitana, Amaia, Alfred and keep having fun with my friends. I will keep being myself which means being romantic and sensitive. I’m a highly sensitive person and feel every emotion and also suffer more. I can’t take that away from me because otherwise I wouldn’t be me. Growing older doesn’t mean I have to change about what I like or not. I just grow wiser.

This year I faced one of my biggest fears which was going to the dentist to get one of my wisdom teeth pulled out. I’m SO proud of myself for doing this!!! ๐Ÿ’ช It’s a big achievement for me. I spent years in anxiety and I still know I have to get three out. The first step is there. It went all so great because of the lovely dentist and his team. He knew exactly how to support me and take care of me while I had so much anxiety. You can read it here. Sometimes I feel some problems in my teeth because I still have to get rid of three. I prefer to do it in Spain but we postponed our trip because of the pandemic. Maybe we can go in the Summer if it won’t be dangerous for any of us. I’m just really happy to have faced this fear. I hope with the next visits I will feel less anxiety. I know anxiety will be there always but hopefully a bit less now I know how things go. That’s also the reason I prefer to go in Spain because I know the dentist. I find it hard to trust again in someone new. It’s nice to go to some familiar places.

This year I also have had some amazing good times with my friends and family ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’ƒ. My last birthday was amazing because my friend from Granada came to visit me for the first time in Valladolid. Me and my Spanish friends ate all together in a creperie. We had such a great time together. I also enjoyed my time with my Dutch friends in Haarlem in November. I came back from having a hard time in Spain and being so anxious about having to go to the dentist and just life. It was nice to be able to enjoy some time all together eating delicous tapas in La Cubanita. In January I ate there again with my good friend. I also had a nice time with my family eating all together and celebrating birthdays. I really miss that but I know that time will come again.

I also travelled to beautiful places this year which were my second home Valladolid in Spain โœˆ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ. I’m so blessed to have that in my life. I love my Spanish friends and family so much. It’s home. I even feel more at home there than in The Netherlands where I have been born. Home is also where your favourite people are. I love both countries so much but Spain always more haha. In July I travelled again for the 4th time to Granada, one of my favourite cities in Spain. I have a good friend living there. My mother and I went to his appartment at the beach and also enjoyed the city itself. We always have an amazing time and I really can’t wait to go back!!!! ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŒŠ It’s a tradition to go each Summer but we don’t know if that will be possible this year. I also travelled to Gijรณn which is in Asturias for the first time in August with one of my best friends in Spain. We had such a great time. We enjoyed the beach, had great fiestas haha, eat delicious tapas, went shopping and had such a great girl time.

It was years ago since I went with a friend again on a holiday. I really missed it and I can’t wait to do it again. I still remember that night we met some cool guys which invited us for drinks without anything in return. No bad boys for once yeahhh. They were partying with us the whole night. It was so much fun. One of their friends was about to marry. I just can’t wait to travel again to new places in Spain and wherever in the world because travelling makes me so happy and most importantly, it makes me feel ALIVE!!!! You make new friends, have fun, learn about different cultures and learn more about life and this world we live in ๐ŸŒ.

Right now, I just submitted a story for a contest which is called ”A sea of words” just like my blog like what the hell?! The European Institute of the Mediterranean tagged me on a post in Instagram. Otherwise I would never have found it. My instagram for my blog is also called that way. It’s a contest which is every year and the topics can be about gender equality, climate change, environment or just anything related to make this world a better place. This year it was about young people faced with climate change in the Mediterranean and the 2030 Agenda for Sustainable Development. First I wrote an essay but it wasn’t what they ask for so I had to change it into a story which was a bit more difficult. The story I wrote is about me being in the sea with my boat and then suddenly being stuck surrounded by plastic bottles. Then a man comes to help me and talks about how important it is to take action. I have always had that inner voice inside of me who says to take action and give some ideas. I already won an essay contest in 2015 and spoke at the United Nations in New York City ๐Ÿ—ฝ so I thought why not try again even though my inner critic is loud sometimes. The jury is now reviewing the stories. The 10 best winners will go to Barcelona at the end of September for free and will have a creative writing course and dicuss their ideas. It’s really so amazing. I will keep you informed if I win and if it’s even possible to travel.

A few days ago I also submitted my two poems ๐Ÿ“„ about vulnerability and strength for the organization MIND in The Netherlands. This organization helps people with mental health illnesses. My poems are about the sea and about being bullied and how that made me stronger and about accepting myself for the way I’m. The winner will be chosen online from the best 5 and the winner gets a poetry award. The 5 winners can speak their poem in an event. All these things make me super anxious and are so outside my comfortzone but I have to do it because I love writing and I know that I’m good at it. I have to stop bullying myself that I’m not good or smart enough. I will keep my fingers crossed โœŒ๐Ÿ™.

With all of these things I do and did in the past, I’m just being myself and embracing the person who I’m which loves to write, do yoga, sing, surf, travel the world, read and help other people and hopefully making this world a better place. I love La Pachamama!!! ๐ŸŒ๐Ÿ˜ Thank you all so much for forming part of my life. Thank you all for being there for me in good and bad times. I love you all so much. I wish you all peace, love & happiness! Forever young, wild and free! โœŒ๏ธ We are all childs of the universe. This life is a gift โœจ Let’s hope this new year of life will be amazing too!

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I’m so happy to have you all in my life. Do you also join writing contests? Do you think 27 years is old? Do you think society creates rules for us? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

April favourites ๐Ÿ’•๐ŸŒž

Hola lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

I have been sad for a few days and cried a lot because of the death of 5 surfers which I wrote in this blog post. When that sadness past I was griefing about a good friend of my mother who died a few days ago in Spain ๐Ÿ˜ข. He had cancer. We knew it because of people posting sad posts on his Facebook and he didn’t answer anymore on Whatsapp. I felt so sad too and cried much because he was always so nice to us. I’m happy we can still have contact with his sister. He felt like a father for me and understood my anxiety and was always so supportive for me. Just writing this I cry again. I have enough of grief and crying really. I just hate death and I know it’s part of life but it’s the most horrible feeling ever. Life is just unfair because good and honest people always die earlier than the other ones. On a happy note, let’s move on to this blog post. I did some nice stuff in April. Who says being in lockdown has to be boring?! I will share the 30 days of space challenge I did by Yoga Girl ๐Ÿ™, the new leggings I bought and beautiful sunny days in the park.

Things I did with my lovely family ๐Ÿ‘ช:

First ice cream of the year ๐Ÿฆ

I love ice cream so much ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿง. I ate my first ice cream of the year with my mother. We went to IJsboertje which is just 5 min. away from our house. We had to take it with us and eat it somewhere else. We ate in the park. My flavours were white chocolate and vanilla and my mother had lemon ice cream. It was all so delicious. I can’t wait to go back!

My Spanish niece got a baby ๐Ÿ‘ถ

My Spanish niece got her first baby boy and I’m so happy for her!!! I can’t share a picture unfortunately because of privacy but he looked so cute. They live in Basque country. I can’t wait to be able to go again to Spain to visit them with my parents. My niece is 43 years old and it just reminds me that it’s never too late to have a baby at that age or be married or whatever. Society always creates those rules but we have to decide or own rules in life. We only have one life so let’s live it the way we want and not what society ask us to do.

Sunny days in the park & in the garden ๐ŸŒžโœŒ

We have had a beautiful April month of many days of sunshine and 20 degrees. I love to enjoy my time in the garden with my mother. I also loved to walk in the park and enjoy nature. It’s so nice to live so close near nature ๐Ÿ˜. I also love to go to our lake because I always need to be surrounded by water. Water is still and makes me feel calm and peaceful. It’s all I need and I’m so grateful for that. I would literally die right now if I would be in a small flat. In Spain we don’t have a big house or garden so the lockdown would be worse for us. In the garden I read, chill, daydream, listen to music, write, meditate and just enjoy life.

Birthday of my brother and his wife ๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽˆ

It was the birthday of my brother the 18th of April and of his wife at the end of April. We couldn’t celebrate it with the family of course. It made me sad but I know we will soon be reunited again when it’s possible. We wrote some cards for them and my present for them was a canvas with some pictures together. One is from the wedding of them, another one from the park and with the family together. I’m happy they liked it. My mother brought some flowers for them too. I only went one time to their appartment and saw them on a distance. It was nice to be able to talk to them but also strange. Not being able to hug your loved ones is just the most heartbreaking thing ever. I need hugs in life. The world need a group hug which will hopefully come soon again ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ™.

Netflix subscription ๐ŸŽฌ

I joined Netflix just for a few months which is really nice. I love to be able to watch series and movies on Netflix. The only thing I don’t like is that some movies or series are not on Netflix. I also would like to watch Disney movies but I don’t want to also have a subcription on Disney+ because of the money. I really love the movies and series which are only made for Netflix.

Easter time ๐Ÿฃ๐Ÿค๐Ÿฅ

We always celebrate it with the whole family but of course this year is different. I’m happy I could celebrate it with my parents. We had a delicious fondue with potatoes. We also ate delicious chocolate eggs and cakes. It was all so delicious. What I loved the most was of course the blackberry juice with fruits and whipped cream ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‡. My daddy plucked those years ago and it’s a tradition of his family to make this. I LOVE these kinds of traditions so much. The juice is so delicious and so healthy too. I love my family forevah.

Other amazing things of April ๐Ÿ’–:

New leggings from Shein ๐Ÿ‘–

I bought some amazing yoga leggings from the website Shein. I really like them and they were not expensive at all. I really needed to have some nice leggings. They are colourful and have flowers ๐Ÿ’๐ŸŒธ on it so I don’t need more. It fits perfectly. I’m really happy about it! I made some nice pictures in the park with them on.

Pen pal letters ๐Ÿ’Œ

I got some beautiful pen pal letters this month. I got some beautiful mail from Chloe who is one of my best friends ever. I love you so much soulsister. She makes beautiful art with a flower theme, a moon theme or anything beautiful for her page on Etsy. You can check it out. She made a beautiful painting of some flowers and sent me a nice letter together with stickers. I also got a cute letter from Rosie from UK. It was full of beautiful notes, glitter stickers with unicorns and hearts, quotes and a beautiful letter. I loved the stickers with the quote ”Friends are special treasures of the heart.” I also loved the card with the quote ”I am at peace with my age.” I agree that every age is beautiful and that society just creates expectations which aren’t real and only create unhappiness and unnecessary stress and anxiety.

I also got a beautiful letter from Agata from Poland. I loved the writing paper so much. I also loved the cute stickers and the card of Warsaw was beautiful. I loved the colours and the flowers on it. I wish to go to Poland once and visit you. I want to meet all of my online friends one day. I know that dream will come true one day and it will be the happiest day of my life. I love you all so much ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’• xoxo.

30 days of space challenge by Yoga Girl ๐Ÿ™

I did the 30 days of space challenge by Yoga Girl which is my biggest inspiration in life ๐Ÿ˜. I never commited to a 30 days of yoga challenge so it was a nice way to enjoy yoga again. I only took some classes in my life and did it at home. Every day we did yoga on the website of Yoga Girl for free. This challenge was made to create space in our hearts, our bodies and our minds as we find ourselves in a time of physical space and distancing. Also, every day there was a theme. We meditated together, felt our feelings and pulled a card every day. One day we had to build our own sacred altar, go outside and enjoy nature or shake our bodies to remove negative energy. It was soooo good. I’m so happy I met amazing new pen pal friends. I love to be spiritual, do yoga, meditate, and there are not much many friends of mine who align with that aswell. It’s nice to have this beautiful Yoga Girl community. I love them so much.

Since that challenge is over I’m still doing yoga every damn day and it helps me so much with being more calm and easing anxiety ๐Ÿ™. Anxiety will not go away but yoga and meditation gives you the tool to sit with it and be able to let it go at some point. We have to sit with our feelings to be able to let them go. I also thought yoga was only about handstands and being flexible but it isn’t. I’m not that flexible but I have fun, feel my feelings, cry a lot and I’m happy when I practice. That’s yoga. I can’t wait to go to her retreat in Aruba one day. That’s one of my BIG dreams and is on my bucketlist ๐ŸŒ โœจ.

Got a free month subscription for the Yoga Girl website ๐Ÿ˜

When I was doing the 30 day challenge some strangers were gifting a free subscription to people. I also got a free month subscription. I felt very grateful and so happy. It’s so nice that people gift things without something in return. I wish more people were like that in real life too. I just don’t have much money for a subscription so it was nice to be able to do yoga for free on the website after the challenge. You also get free live classes with Yoga Girl which are SO amazing and a Yoga E-Book and astrology workbook. If you get the year subscription you get a t-shirt for free. I wish to have that one day.

Lush bath ๐Ÿ›

I had a nice bath and used a bath bomb from Lush. It was the intergalatic one. It had such a good smell of peppermint. The blue, pink colours and glitter that came out of it were beyond amazing! This was a beautiful experience where I could just bath in the universe itself ๐Ÿ˜โœจ. It was like bathing in stardust. I 100% recommend this bath bomb for you all. I always listen to some beautiful music too while I’m laying in bath.

Watched To All the Boys: P.S. I Still Love You, Chicken Run and Isn’t it romantic ๐ŸŽฌ

I watched some nice movies in April. I loved the second movie of To All the Boys. I love the actors and just everything. However, I loved the first movie more. In the second movie you knew a bit what would happen. I also watched the movie Chicken Run with my parents. It was a cute movie. The movie was about chickens who were living on a chicken farm and the mean owners wanted to make pie of them so they invented a plan to escape. I also watched Isn’t it romantic with my mother. I love the actress Rebel Wilson which also is known from Pitch Perfect. I love that it wasn’t a cliche love story. It had a great message about loving ourselves and the music was also nice. We don’t need someone to love ourselves because we are already whole.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. What was your favourite thing from my list? What did you do in April? Did you also enjoy some sunshine in the garden or park? Do you do love to do yoga, meditation or be spiritual? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

Stop making a taboo about having periods

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

I just had to write this blog post because I feel bad these days because of my upcoming period. I find it important to raise awareness about having our periods. I’m going to talk about period pain and periods in general. I already talked about it one day. I don’t understand why we don’t talk more about it and why it’s still considered a taboo when it’s something natural. I think we have to talk more about it so that women don’t feel alone while suffering each month from heavy pain, blood, mood swings and everything which comes with having our periods. Men often say that women get crazy when their period is coming well we aren’t crazy, our hormones are making us feel that way. It’s not something we choose for. I find it always so disgusting when people say that we like to be completely mad. If they would suffer from it, they wouldn’t say that because then they would know how it feels. You never know what’s someone is going through until you feel those feelings and those experiences by yourself.

So, Saturday night I experienced so much pain that I thought OMG I will die. I was sitting on the floor covering my tummy. My body was IN SO MUCH PAIN. I cried so much. I know almost certain that it has to do with my period coming and pms. It isn’t normal though. I have always had painful and heavy periods. I know I’m not the only woman suffering through this ๐Ÿ˜ญ. It’s so hard. The strange thing is that I never felt it that way and I still don’t have my period. I think it’s pms because for the rest I’m not sick or anything. I also feel angry and emotional. I also feel way more anxious before my period. I also have read that it’s because of our hormones. They make us feel like crazy. I always have mood swings before period and I’m so hungry. I just ate a pizza ๐Ÿ• last night haha. I craved it so badly ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‹.

There’s still a taboo talking about it. I know some men don’t like to hear it and find it gross. I remember one time I was on my period during high school and I always bleed so much. I knew my jeans were a bit red ๐Ÿ˜ญ. I wanted to go to the toilet but they didn’t let me. I didn’t say I had my period. I found it so uncomfortable. I also have heard of men who are super supportive and that makes me so happy. The friends I have in my life who are men are very supportive and care about me. That’s the direction we have to go. Well, it’s the most natural thing ever of being a women which has to be respected. Maybe if women had more information and resources, pain and other issues surrounding our moon would be more manageable. We can’t fix a problem when we can’t talk about it. Talking about it helps to raise awareness and will make us come to a solution all together. I also agree that women have to get more benefits surrounding their periods like free days at work and that pads, tampons and every other product for our periods doesn’t cost anything anymore. We don’t ask for it. Condoms are often given for free but we have to buy these products which also cost so much money. It is definitely not fair at all.

Years ago, women had their period always in sync with the full moon ๐ŸŒœ. That’s why they also call it our moon. It goes in sync with how we feel too. Before our period we may feel more emotional, heavy, sad, angry or just feel that something is off. That means the end of something. When our period begins we begin a new life, a new cycle. Maybe my period is coming on the full moon this Thursday. When I read this somewhere on the internet I felt in awe ๐ŸŒ. The full moon has definitely an effect on us. I sleep worse the night before and feel more emotional. It’s so beautiful to think we can bring a life into this world. We women are magical creatures of the universe โœจ๐Ÿ’ž and have to embrace this with our whole heart. The thought of one day getting a baby is beautiful but at the same time it overwhelms me. I don’t know how to take sometimes good care of myself. How would I be able to take care of a child? Also, I’m afraid of getting pregnant and giving birth. I already feel so bad with having my period every month. How would I survive giving birth? I don’t think I’m the only thinking this. I also find it good that women don’t have to have children because it’s their choice like to do abortion too. Every women has the right to decide what to do with their bodies.

I think I will have to check this problem soon because what I felt last weekend was the worst ๐Ÿ˜ข. I’m always anxious about going to the doctor so I don’t go only when I really have to. It gets worse every month. I hope I don’t have anything serious or like endometriose. I know many of my friends also suffer this way and some women don’t feel much. They are definitely the lucky ones. I wish my life was pain free, oh how a different world would that be. Sometimes I wouldn’t be able to walk because of so much cramps. I’m happy I have Aleve meds which is Naproxen and helps very well. Otherwise I wouldn’t be able to cope at all. I just don’t know if I would like to take birth control because I also read some bad stories with side effects. I don’t know if that would be good for my mental health. I just don’t really know what is good or bad for my body.

I just really think we have to talk more about our periods without any shame. It’s 2020 and it’s about time to stop hiding our feelings or thoughts on important topics such as this one in the world. Only then we can come to a solution and feel less alone in our struggles. I’m so happy my mamita is always there to comfort me. Also, my daddy understands me because he sees me suffering every damn month ๐Ÿ˜ข. I wish everyone has a person that is there for them. No one has to deal with hard stuff in life alone. No women has to go through this alone every time of the month. I hope you have friends, family and other loved ones who are there for you when you feel bad during that time of the month. You deserve that love and compassion so much. Your feelings are valid. You are not alone ๐Ÿ’ž๐ŸŒˆ๐Ÿ™. You are loved. I love you all.

Thank you all for reading this important blog post. I found it important to talk about this subject. How are your periods? Do you take meds or birth control? What are some tips to ease the pain? I’m always here for you. Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

Coronavirus: Is this a wake up call for the world?! ๐ŸŒ

Hola lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

I know all we can talk about now in the world is the coronavirus (Covid-19). I wanted to post a blog post about some happy stuff such as some book reviews but I really need to talk about this. I have to describe my feelings and thoughts on it as I always do with important topics such as mental health, feminism, injustice in the world and other topics. I need to let my thoughts go and write it down here or I will feel that I explode ๐Ÿ˜ฅ. My mind is so full these days. I’m not doing okay.

So, I can’t sleep well anymore. I feel so bad and anxious. I’m crying every day ๐Ÿ˜ข. I don’t know how to cope. I have cramps in my stomach. It’s in times I didn’t felt so bad. This virus only increased my anxiety. How can I feel less anxious when the situation is getting worse every day and people are dying? I feel hopeless. There’s an outbreak of a pandemic in the world right now. The coronavirus feels like the flu but it’s worse because you have fever, cough and it effects your lungs. It all began in China in December. They eat a lot of strange food there such as living animals such as cats, dogs and whatever. My daddy said that the virus comes from bats. I’m of course not a doctor and don’t know much about viruses but all we know is that it’s spreading to every country. If I’m affected I could infect three other people.

I have sometimes health anxiety so I’m also a bit worried to get this virus to be honest. I think it’s normal that we are worried because our health is the most important thing in life. What I’m also worried about is the people who are vulnerable and the elderly people. My father for example has diabetics so it could be dangerous for him. What I don’t like about what’s happening now is that many people especially young people think oh only the old people die or the sick ones. That’s being so EGOISTIC. Writing this I feel tears in my eyes coming because I CARE. I care sometimes way too much about people, this earth and everyone because of being a highly sensitive person and also suffering from anxiety. I care about someone dying being 75 years old of coronavirus even though I don’t know that person. It could be your father, daughter, grandmother. Every one deserves a good life and deserves to live and be treaten well ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ™.

Everything is cancelled right now ๐Ÿšซ. In The Netherlands there are no concerts, theater, cinema, sport events happening anymore and all schools are closed. I’m worried about that Eurovision in May will be cancelled too. I hope to go another day. I was so happy when this year began because of this event and good stuff. I’m worried about my friends in Italy being locked down. Spain has now declared an emergency state. I’m worried about my family and friends there. They only can leave the house for meds, work or to go to the supermarket. My mother and I are supposed to go in two weeks but that isn’t possible anymore. Tonight they closed the borders. It makes me sad to not be able to go as we never experienced this. None of us does. It feels lik a movie but it’s happening and it’s real. Scary stuff ๐Ÿ˜ข. I just hope we can enjoy Summer time ๐ŸŒž in Spain because otherwise I will get so depressed and anxious. I don’t like Summer in The Netherlands because the sun doesn’t shine that much. I’m just always so happy in Spain. Holy week in Spain is cancelled too. I would have to go to the dentist in Spain too but right now it isn’t an emegerncy as I have no pain.

I’m a highly sensitive person, an empath and suffer from anxiety. This is maybe not the best combination in the midst of the Coronavirus. I care always so much about others and everything that it all affects me emotionally. I suffer more but I also love more. I’m here for all the ones in need. You can always talk to me. We are not alone ๐Ÿ’ช We are all in this together.

I just got inspired to write this post too because of Melissa Wells. Maybe everything what’s happening now is a wake up call for the damn world. Care about the elderly. Help people in need. Think of the ones working in the hospital sector and supermarkts. I’m seeing also very good deeds this week such as people donating blood in Spain for the people who need it. Doctors from China are helping Italy and Spain with medical products. The supermarkets are almost empty here and also in the rest of the world. I don’t find that at all funny. Maybe this pandemic virus is a wake up call for the world like that we have to be more compassionate, less egostic and think of others. Don’t buy so much stuff in the supermarkets because then someone else can’t buy toilet paper or hand gel or food. Think more of others than of yourself.

All people think of nowadays is me, myself and I. It’s the wrong way. We are all human and we all long for the same things such as food security, love, safety and being healthy. I also feel that this lack of control and uncertainty is making me more anxious. All governments and society thinks about is money and power. I’m a hippie by heart and just never feel like I approve with the society we are living in. Maybe more people feel that way.

Citizens have to be responsible for their actions too. In Italy and Spain they aren’t allowed to go outside or have fun with friends in some bar. Take these measures seriously. Many young people can’t die from it, but if you do get infected you can make others infected like people who are in a vulnerable state or older people. Your actions could be the death of someone else. Buy responsibly ๐Ÿ›’. My mother wanted to buy paracetamol today and saw everyone being greedy and getting them. That isn’t the way to handle things in life. I saw a picture where Italy has almost no pollution in the air and is clear. You see, we can fight climate change all together ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿค—. I saw people donating loads of blood in Spain. Good things happen every day. We can all make a change in this world.

I will stay mostly at home now. It’s time to slow down. It’s time to help others and not think of me, myself and I. Let’s be compassionate, solidair and less egoistic. Follow the health instructions. Don’t buy everything you see in the supermarkets because then there will be nothing left for others. We have to be all strong together and help each other. We are all in this together. I’m also anxious right now but I hope this situation will be solved as long as we take all measures seriously. Wash your hands well and focus less on social media. I also have to watch less news as that only increase my anxiety and doesn’t solve anything. We will see what will happening the coming days. Stay safe at home ๐Ÿก, read books ๐Ÿ“š, blog, watch series and movies ๐ŸŽฌ, or listen to podcasts. There are so many nice things to do at home. We don’t always have to be outside to have fun.

It’s time that countries work together with each other to combate this pandemic of Coronavirus. We are all together in this. 2020 is the year that will change our view of the world because of this health crisis. We will make it out stronger and hopefully we will learn to be more responsible for this earth and for all its people ๐ŸŒ๐Ÿ’•.

At the end, everything will be allright. Take care, stay safe and love because that will never be cancelled ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿค—โœจI’m here for you all. I love you all so much!

Thank you all for reading this important blog post. I hope it didn’t sound depressing. I just wanted to share the good and the bad like always. How do you feel about the Coronavirus? Are you anxious? How’s it in your country? What do you do to calm yourself down? I really need some support right now. Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

International Women’s Day 2020 ๐Ÿ’ชโ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ’œ

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

I always find it so important to talk about women’s rights especially today. Today it’s International Women’s Day ๐Ÿ’œโ™€๏ธ. Every day is women’s day but I find today just an important day to talk about feminism and women’s rights. I love to write poetry about this topic. I love to read about it. I love to speak up about it because we have the right to speak up. I will also share at the end a poem, a picture and a cover ๐ŸŽถ I made for this subject. I will not say happy International Women’s Day because how can we be happy when there are still so many women suffering in this world? How can we be happy when we are still afraid walking at night? How can we be happy when we are always afraid of something happening to us? There still needs a lot to be done to have equal rights between men and women.

There’s still no equality between men and women in this world. We have to raise our voice and talk about it. Men still earn in many places more than women. Men still consider women as objects. Men still keep catcalling women on the street. Rape, sexual abuse and violence against women exists. It still happens. It happens in The Netherlands, in Spain and anywhere else in the world. It has nothing to do with undeveloped or developed countries. This is an issue which effects the whole world ๐ŸŒ. I wish we wouldn’t live in a patriarchal world. To be honest, I’m sick of it. Women can be bosses too. We don’t need men to feel satisfied or be happy in life.

I have always been a feminist and also will be a feminst forever ๐Ÿ’œโ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ”ฅ. Women and men deserve the same human rights. It’s that simple. Some men always think that if you are a feminist, you hate men. That isn’t the case at all. Of course, men can be a feminst too because this isn’t just about women, it’s also about men. We don’t want to have the power over men. We just want GENDER EQUALITY.

Girl support girls always

I have to admit that I still have a wall around me because of my ex. It’s been 7 years since the break up ๐Ÿ’”. I dated some guys sometimes but just short and nothing serious. I’m afraid to get hurt again. I liked guys which just wanted me because they wanted sex from me and I don’t want that. They saw me as an object and even one time one said that they thought I was sexual attractive. I was like fuck off ๐Ÿ‘†. You see, I’m fed up with these kind of comments. I want to be seen as a women for my qualities which means being sensitive, romantic, creative, compassionate and for being intelligent and having a good heart. When I see a man or get to know one I think of these qualities of that person whereas men always focus on our physically.

To be honest, I don’t blame men for those behaviours because they can be changed. Those are not great comments of course. Those behaviours are thought from an early age. Boys and girls are grown up differently. Boys have to be strong and like men stuff like cars ๐Ÿš˜ and football and girls are grown up having to be like a princess ๐Ÿ‘ธ, being sweet and sensitive and loving all cute and pink stuff. It’s the wrong way to have grown up. The moment a child doesn’t feel like fitting in, he or she fall outside the box in our society. So, I definitely think these male-dominated behaviours of catcalling and seeing women as an object comes from an early age.

I really do think we have to raise boys and girls the same way. Tell them it’s okay to be and like who they want to like. Tell the boys it’s okay to cry. Tell the girls it’s okay to be a warrior. This will also cause less mental health problems in the future. There are more men who die by suicide then women because they feel they can’t express their emotions and don’t have the right to cry and talk about their feelings.

As you can see, there is still a lot to do with achieving real equality between men and women. I’m a feminist by heart and I find it important to raise awareness about equality always. Therefor I made a poem ๐Ÿ“ for this day and this poem relates to the picture where you can see me with tape on my mouth. I made this picture a few years ago for an assignment for school. It was for my minor of photography. We had to show a contrast with two pictures. I had chosen the topic of freedom. This picture is the opposite of how I’m able to live my life. This picture relates to my poem below.

Picture of myself showing how some women can't speak up

๐‘ฐ ๐’‚๐’Ž ๐’‚ ๐’˜๐’๐’Ž๐’‚๐’.
๐‘ป๐’‰๐’†๐’“๐’†๐’‡๐’๐’“ ๐‘ฐ ๐’ˆ๐’†๐’• ๐’‘๐’–๐’๐’Š๐’”๐’‰๐’†๐’….
๐‘ฐ ๐’„๐’‚๐’’๐’• ๐’˜๐’†๐’‚๐’“ ๐’˜๐’‰๐’‚๐’• ๐‘ฐ ๐’˜๐’‚๐’๐’•.
๐‘ฐ ๐’„๐’‚๐’’๐’• ๐’ƒ๐’† ๐’˜๐’‰๐’ ๐‘ฐ ๐’˜๐’‚๐’๐’• ๐’•๐’ ๐’ƒ๐’†.
๐‘ฐ ๐’„๐’‚๐’’๐’• ๐’ˆ๐’ ๐’”๐’๐’Ž๐’†๐’˜๐’‰๐’†๐’“๐’† ๐’‚๐’๐’๐’๐’†.
๐‘ฐ ๐’„๐’‚๐’’๐’• ๐’…๐’“๐’Š๐’—๐’†.
๐‘ฐ ๐’„๐’‚๐’’๐’• ๐’˜๐’๐’“๐’Œ ๐’๐’–๐’•๐’”๐’Š๐’…๐’† ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’‰๐’๐’–๐’”๐’†.
๐‘ฐ ๐’‰๐’‚๐’—๐’† ๐’•๐’ ๐’Ž๐’‚๐’“๐’“๐’š ๐’”๐’๐’Ž๐’†๐’๐’๐’† ๐‘ฐ ๐’‰๐’‚๐’—๐’† ๐’๐’†๐’—๐’†๐’“ ๐’Ž๐’†๐’• ๐’๐’“ ๐’‚ ๐’‡๐’‚๐’Ž๐’Š๐’๐’š ๐’Ž๐’†๐’Ž๐’ƒ๐’†๐’“.
๐‘ฐ๐’‡ ๐‘ฐ’๐’Ž ๐’๐’–๐’„๐’Œ๐’š ๐‘ฐ ๐’„๐’‚๐’ ๐’Ž๐’‚๐’š๐’ƒ๐’† ๐’Ž๐’‚๐’“๐’“๐’š ๐’”๐’๐’Ž๐’†๐’๐’๐’† ๐’˜๐’‰๐’†๐’ ๐‘ฐ’๐’Ž 20 ๐’š๐’†๐’‚๐’“๐’” ๐’๐’๐’….
๐‘ด๐’š ๐’‡๐’“๐’Š๐’†๐’๐’…๐’” ๐’‚๐’“๐’† ๐’‚๐’๐’“๐’†๐’‚๐’…๐’š ๐’Ž๐’‚๐’“๐’“๐’Š๐’†๐’… ๐’‹๐’–๐’”๐’• ๐’•๐’‰๐’†๐’Ž ๐’ƒ๐’†๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’Œ๐’Š๐’…๐’”.
๐‘ด๐’‚๐’“๐’“๐’š๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’ƒ๐’†๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’‚ ๐’„๐’‰๐’Š๐’๐’… ๐’Š๐’” ๐’”๐’ ๐’๐’๐’“๐’Ž๐’‚๐’ ๐’‰๐’†๐’“๐’†.
๐‘ฐ ๐’„๐’‚๐’’๐’• ๐’”๐’‘๐’†๐’‚๐’Œ ๐’–๐’‘.
๐‘ฐ’๐’Ž ๐’”๐’Š๐’๐’†๐’๐’„๐’†๐’….
๐‘ด๐’†๐’ ๐’‰๐’‚๐’—๐’† ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’‘๐’๐’˜๐’†๐’“ ๐’๐’—๐’†๐’“ ๐’–๐’”.
๐‘ป๐’‰๐’Š๐’” ๐’Š๐’” ๐’Ž๐’š ๐’๐’Š๐’‡๐’†.

๐‘ป๐’‰๐’Š๐’” ๐’Š๐’” ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’”๐’•๐’๐’“๐’š ๐’๐’‡ ๐’˜๐’๐’Ž๐’†๐’ ๐’๐’Š๐’—๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’Š๐’ ๐’Ž๐’‚๐’๐’š ๐’–๐’๐’…๐’†๐’—๐’†๐’๐’๐’‘๐’†๐’… ๐’„๐’๐’–๐’๐’•๐’“๐’Š๐’†๐’” ๐’๐’‡ ๐’๐’–๐’“ ๐’˜๐’๐’“๐’๐’….
๐‘ฐ๐’ ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’…๐’†๐’—๐’†๐’๐’๐’‘ ๐’„๐’๐’–๐’๐’•๐’“๐’Š๐’†๐’” ๐’•๐’‰๐’†๐’“๐’†’๐’” ๐’‚๐’๐’”๐’ ๐’”๐’•๐’Š๐’๐’ ๐’‚ ๐’๐’๐’• ๐’๐’‡ ๐’Š๐’Ž๐’‘๐’“๐’๐’—๐’†๐’Ž๐’†๐’๐’• ๐’•๐’ ๐’…๐’ ๐’˜๐’Š๐’•๐’‰ ๐’˜๐’๐’Ž๐’†๐’’๐’” ๐’“๐’Š๐’ˆ๐’‰๐’•๐’”.
๐‘พ๐’† ๐’‚๐’“๐’† ๐’‹๐’–๐’”๐’• ๐’†๐’™๐’•๐’“๐’†๐’Ž๐’†๐’๐’š ๐’‘๐’“๐’Š๐’—๐’Š๐’๐’†๐’ˆ๐’†๐’… ๐’‚๐’๐’… ๐’‰๐’‚๐’—๐’† ๐’•๐’ ๐’Œ๐’๐’๐’˜ ๐’•๐’ ๐’‡๐’Š๐’ˆ๐’‰๐’• ๐’‡๐’๐’“ ๐’˜๐’๐’Ž๐’†๐’’๐’” ๐’“๐’Š๐’ˆ๐’‰๐’• ๐’‚๐’๐’ ๐’๐’—๐’†๐’“ ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’˜๐’๐’“๐’๐’….
๐‘พ๐’‰๐’†๐’ ๐’˜๐’† ๐’”๐’‘๐’†๐’‚๐’Œ ๐’–๐’‘, ๐’˜๐’† ๐’…๐’ ๐’Š๐’• ๐’‚๐’๐’ ๐’•๐’๐’ˆ๐’†๐’•๐’‰๐’†๐’“ ๐Ÿ’ช
๐‘พ๐’† ๐’‚๐’“๐’† ๐’‚๐’๐’˜๐’‚๐’š๐’” ๐’Š๐’ ๐’•๐’‰๐’Š๐’” ๐’•๐’๐’ˆ๐’†๐’•๐’‰๐’†๐’“.
๐‘พ๐’๐’Ž๐’†๐’’๐’” ๐’“๐’Š๐’ˆ๐’‰๐’•๐’” ๐’‚๐’“๐’† ๐’‰๐’–๐’Ž๐’‚๐’ ๐’“๐’Š๐’ˆ๐’‰๐’•๐’” ๐’‚๐’๐’… ๐’๐’๐’ƒ๐’๐’…๐’š ๐’„๐’‚๐’ ๐’๐’“ ๐’˜๐’Š๐’๐’ ๐’†๐’—๐’†๐’“ ๐’•๐’‚๐’Œ๐’† ๐’•๐’‰๐’‚๐’• ๐’‚๐’˜๐’‚๐’š ๐’‡๐’๐’“ ๐’–๐’”.
๐‘จ๐’๐’ ๐’˜๐’๐’Ž๐’†๐’ ๐’…๐’†๐’”๐’†๐’“๐’—๐’† ๐’•๐’ ๐’๐’Š๐’—๐’† ๐’‚ ๐’๐’Š๐’‡๐’† ๐’Š๐’ ๐’‡๐’“๐’†๐’†๐’…๐’๐’Ž.
๐‘พ๐’† ๐’„๐’‰๐’‚๐’๐’ˆ๐’† ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’˜๐’๐’“๐’๐’… ๐’†๐’—๐’†๐’“๐’š๐’…๐’‚๐’š! ๐’€๐’†๐’” ๐’˜๐’† ๐’„๐’‚๐’ ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ

Besides, I also made this cover of the song La puerta violeta ๐Ÿ’œ๐ŸŽถ from rozalen. It’s such a beautiful Spanish song. Rozalen is such an amazing Spanish artist! This song is about violence against women and about freedom. She sings about drawing a violet door on the wall, running in the forest and being free and safe. It’s a song dedicated for the violence against women around the world.

I shared the cover on my instagram which you can find below.

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International Women's Day ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿ’œ . Yesterday it was International Women's Day ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’ชโ™€๏ธIt's been a long time since I shared a cover from a song ๐ŸŽถ. I made this cover of the song La puerta violeta from @rozalenmusic. It's such a beautiful Spanish song. Rozalen is amazing! This song is about violence against women and about freedom. She sings about drawing a violet door, running in the forest and being free and safe. ๐‘ท๐’†๐’“๐’ ๐’…๐’Š๐’ƒ๐’–๐’‹รฉ ๐’–๐’๐’‚ ๐’‘๐’–๐’†๐’“๐’•๐’‚ ๐’—๐’Š๐’๐’๐’†๐’•๐’‚ ๐’†๐’ ๐’๐’‚ ๐’‘๐’‚๐’“๐’†๐’… ๐’€ ๐’‚๐’ ๐’†๐’๐’•๐’“๐’‚๐’“ ๐’Ž๐’† ๐’๐’Š๐’ƒ๐’†๐’“รฉ ๐‘ช๐’๐’Ž๐’ ๐’”๐’† ๐’…๐’†๐’”๐’‘๐’๐’Š๐’†๐’ˆ๐’‚ ๐’๐’‚ ๐’—๐’†๐’๐’‚ ๐’…๐’† ๐’–๐’ ๐’ƒ๐’‚๐’“๐’„๐’ ๐‘ซ๐’†๐’”๐’‘๐’†๐’“๐’•รฉ ๐’†๐’ ๐’–๐’ ๐’‘๐’“๐’‚๐’…๐’ ๐’—๐’†๐’“๐’…๐’† ๐’Ž๐’–๐’š ๐’๐’†๐’‹๐’๐’” ๐’…๐’† ๐’‚๐’’๐’–รญ ๐‘ช๐’๐’“๐’“รญ, ๐’ˆ๐’“๐’Š๐’•รฉ, ๐’“๐’†รญ ๐‘บรฉ ๐’๐’ ๐’’๐’–๐’† ๐’๐’ ๐’’๐’–๐’Š๐’†๐’“๐’ ๐‘จ๐’‰๐’๐’“๐’‚ ๐’†๐’”๐’•๐’๐’š ๐’‚ ๐’”๐’‚๐’๐’—๐’ I hope you all liked this song and we can change the world little by little. Women and men are equal. We all deserve the same human rights. Let's all stand together to make this happen and take action. Yes we can do it! ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ

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I hope you all liked the poem and the song. It’s just so important to speak up for the ones who can’t speak up. We have to do it all together ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿ’–. We are all making a change every day by changing our thoughts and behaviour. We are all equal. Nobody is better. We are all human and deserve to be treated that way.

Thank you all for reading this important blog post about international women’s day, equality, human rights and feminism. I hope you all liked it and that it inspired you. Are you also a feminist? What do you think of equality? What do you think needs to change to achieve gender equality in the world? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

Just be yourself poem ๐ŸŒธ

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

I would like to share a poem I made a few days ago about being myself and I also shared it online. It’s been a long time since I shared a poem on here. I love to express myself with writing. I will show a picture of me with this poem I made. I had a nice photoshoot one day in Spain. This picture is already 6 years old haha but sssht ๐Ÿคซ I still look the same ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿคญ.

Picture of myself in Spain

I am sensitive.

I am caring.

I am beautiful.

I am creative.

I am inspiring.

I am strong.

I am lovable.

I am enough.

I am loved.

I am empathetic.

I am vulnerable.

I am honest.

I am open-minded.

I am intelligent.

I am sweet.

I am romantic.

I can be all of them.

I don’t have to choose between one of them.

Being human means being all of those things.

That’s the power of being human.

To be who you want to be without having to choose.

Being ourselves and loving ourselves unconditionally.

We are all human and matter.

Be yourself and love yourself.

Just be you.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope this poem inspired you to be just yourself with all your qualities and flaws. You are beautiful just the way you are ๐Ÿ’–. What do you think of my poem? What makes you you? Do you think it’s difficult to be yourself in our society? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

I just want to be truly happy

Hola lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

I need to write some thoughts I have lately on my mind down here. I always am 100% honest and vulnerable because this is my safe space. I’m so thankful for all your support and for all of you being there for me ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’–. It means the most to me. Right now, I just don’t feel okay. It’s not like that I feel really bad but I’m also not feeling really good. It’s a strange feeling. I also have headaches and can’t wait to soak up some sunshine ๐ŸŒž when I will go again to Spain in two months. This grey and rainy weather affects my mood and mental health so much ๐Ÿ˜ข. I will tell you all about it in this blog post. I hope I’m not the only one feeling this way.

I feel lonely lately because I don’t leave the house much and if I leave the house I just go to the park or go shopping with my mother. I don’t see my friends a lot ๐Ÿ˜ข. I feel isolated and bored. They are all busy. I just see some friends here or in Spain a few times in a month. Sometimes I feel I do all the effort in friendship/relationships. I’m so done with that because I can’t do that anymore. I’m a highly sensitive person and all my life I have felt that I love and do more for others than people do for me. I’m the helper. I’m the fixer. It’s nice to help others but I also would love that people do the same for me. Of course, I’m so thankful for my family especially my mother and my good friends in real life and online who are always there for me ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ™Œ.

I just wish to meet more people in real life too. I want to share my struggles and open up. I love to do it here online but sharing your stuff with a person face to face is the most vulnerable thing ever. It’s so good to do that and I really miss that right now in my life ๐Ÿ˜”. I love my pen pals, blogging friends and friends I know from the Yoga Girl community but those are all people living far away from me. I really would love to be able to teletransport myself so that we could be together having fun and talking about real life topics. I know one day that dream will become true even though it may cost some time ๐Ÿ™โœจ.

I also just feel like I’m just floating or trying to survive in life. I feel lost for so many years already and I just can’t see how to go out of that space. Lately I feel bored, uninspired and so tired about everything. I’m happy I faced my fear of going to the dentist last month in Spain but I still need to get three wisdom teeth out ๐Ÿฆท. I still need to face that fear three times more. I still need to get a job which just doesn’t seem to go well with me. I thought of maybe teaching kids English or Spanish. Life just feels like a never ending struggle. As I’m reading right now Looking for Alaska I feel that kind of struggle. It’s hard to feel it and to be in this space.

I also know that what I want from life is just to be truly happy. I want to be happy with myself. I have spend so many years being my own enemy that I’m done with it. It’s just to hard to heal in that way because whenever I feel anxious I doubt myself and say the worst things about myself. My inner-critic becomes loud and says that I’m not worth it, that I’m lazy for not having a job, that I’m not loved by anyone and that eventually everyone will leave me. This of course only makes me feel worse. Being bullied in high school caused me to have anxiety and these kinds of thoughts too. I have to listen more to my inner-bestfriend who tells me that I’m loved, worth it and that my worth has nothing to do whether I’m productive or not.

I also feel like I wouldn’t be happy with a 9 to 5 life or a routine. I feel like I would feel bored in one second. I want more out of life. I love adventure, travelling and meeting people which is sometimes a contrast of me having anxiety. Anxiety doesn’t form part of my personality even though sometimes I think it does because that voice gets so loud. The thing is that I have so many dreams but just never know how to make them happen because of insecurities, anxiety and just have no clue to make it all work. I would love to write a book ๐Ÿ“๐Ÿ“–, travel the world ๐ŸŒ, be able to surf the waves ๐Ÿ„โ€โ™€๏ธ๐ŸŒŠ and sometimes I even thought of being a singer. However, then I thought oh no that’s nothing for me because I don’t like attention. I don’t know if I would be happy if I would be famous.

Sometimes I love to isolate myself, hide myself, do yoga or meditation and just read books, write for my blog and write letters to my friends. There are also days that I like to go out, go to concerts with my friends and just have fun. I can be all of those things and don’t have to choose between one of another. I just wish I could really speak up more in real life and let myself seen. I have still a hard time doing that. I know it will make me happier in the long term.

Maybe we all know nothing of life and we are just trying to look like we have our life together when we don’t. Social media doesn’t give you a real view of what real life is. Sometimes I think of deleting it all as I tend to compare myself to others so much which ends up in feeling depressed and anxious of not having achieved certain milestones in life such as having a job, being married, having children and owning a car and a home. Then I always think to myself, is that what life is about? When you have all of that you are suppose to be “happy”. I really don’t know if all of that would make me happy to be honest.

Life for me is all about experiences, travels and connecting with wonderful people. I think what we miss right now in this society is trully being connected with someone and sharing our feelings. What I need right now is to be able to share my feelings and thoughts with someone. We all need to be able to laugh, cry, get a hug and have a real life connection. With the rise of social media this lack of connection is becoming a more serious issue. I love blogging and I love writing letters because the connection with someone is much stronger than writing a stupid whatsapp message. The next best thing is of course seeing that person. Maybe, that’s why I feel lonely too this month. I just wish that I can find my own happiness in life and achieve my dreams ๐ŸŒ . We all deserve to be happy. Anxiety will never win. I have to believe in myself more and know that I will achieve my dreams. Thank you all for always being there for me because really that means the most to me. One day I will give you the biggest hug ever. I love you all so much ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’ž.

Thank you all for reading my blog post. I hope you liked it and it inspired you in some way. Do you also feel lost in life sometimes? How do you deal with it? Do you miss connection in your life too? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

Music of December 2019 ๐ŸŽถ

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

Another blog post which is a bit late lol hahah but that doesn’t matter, right?! ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ’– I really had to share this one because some really good music have been released at the end of 2019. The new album of Harry Styles is so awesome. I also love the new album of Camila Cabello so much. Also some other good music has been released. I will share it all with you in this blog post.

Camila Cabello – Romance

The new album of Camila is so goooood!!! ๐Ÿ˜ I really wish to go to one of her concerts. She is coming to Amsterdam in June but I can’t go to all the concerts I want to go this year because it cost a lot of money ๐Ÿ˜ฅ. Her new album is lovely pop music with good lyrics and also of course romantic. I love all her songs. They are so good. She’s such a great singer. I already loved the songs Shameless, Liar, Seรฑorita, Easy and Cry for me. Here are my other three favourite songs of her.

Camila Cabello ft. DaBaby – My oh my

I love this live performance in The Tonight show of Jimmy Fallon. This song is so catchy and so nice! ๐ŸŽถ I really like it so much. She is also such a great performer.

Camila Cabello – Bad kind of butterflies

Such a nice song! I really like the sound of it. I just love everything okay haha ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ’–.

Camila Cabello – First man

You’re looking at me, while walking down the aisle
With tears in your eyes, maybe he deserves me
You don’t even know how much it means to me now
That you were the first man that really loved me, that really loved me
You really love me

THIS SONG IS JUST SO BEAUTIFUL I CRY ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜ญ. I also loved the performance she gave of this song in the Grammys. It’s so emotional as her daddy is there and she is singing this song for him. She also looks so beautiful in her pink dress. Such a goddess. This song is for all the fathers out there. Our parents are definitely the first ones that really loves us unconditionally. My daddy is the only man I trust. It’s not totally true but it’s to be honest it’s just hard to find a man you can trust.

Aitana ft. Cali y El Dandee – +

This song is sooooo beautiful ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’•. I have already listened to this song 10000 times. Aitana is amazing and Cali y El Dandee are also so nice. Together they sing beautifully. The videoclip is also so well made. It’s made in Argentina. I cried when I heard and watched it. It’s just the best. This song is about a first love that isn’t there anymore. She sings about that she knows that he isn’t coming back. She loves him more. She can’t forget him. I know this feeling so well. I’m happy that I’m not heartbroken anymore but I still don’t know how to ever love someone again because I’m afraid to get hurt again.

Lola Indigo – Luna

I love this song! Lola Indigo is such a great Spanish singer too. She only release good songs like this one. Luna ๐ŸŒœ is moon in Spanish. I love the moon and everything about it. She also has a tattoo of a moon. I would love to have that one day too if I ever get over my needle fear ughhh.

Sofia Ellar ft. Blas Cantรณ – Humanidad en paro

So beautiful! Sofia Ellar is one of my favourite Spanish artists and I also really love Blas Cantรณ which is going to represent Spain ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ in Eurovision this year. Sofia Ellar made this song a few years ago. It’s about speaking up about human rights when some people can’t. This song is about refugees. I think it’s really beautiful. Their voices are so unique together. I also agree about the message. We can all help each other ๐Ÿ™โœจ.

Harry Styles – Fine line

Finally Harry Styles released his new album Fine line!!! ๐Ÿ’– It’s so good. I also like every song of this new album of Harry Styles. I have to admit that I didn’t listen that much to Harry Styles but I began to listen to him more and I really like him. I love Sign of the times and also all the songs of One Direction. His new songs are so amazing just like he is as a person. Such a sweetheart. I also wish to go to one of his concerts one day with one of my best friends Chloe. It would be so amazing. I loved the songs he released before the album which were Watermelon sugar and Lights up. I will share now with you my other three favourites.

Harry Styles – Adore you

This song is just so amazing. I also loved that the voice you hear which is telling you a story is Rosalรญa. She’s a popular singer in Spain and internationally too. This videoclip, the song and just everything is amazing about this song.

Harry Styles – Canyon Moon

Staring at the ceiling
Two weeks and I’ll be home
Carry the feeling
Through Paris, all through Rome
And I’m still thinking back to
A time under the canyon moon

Aaaah this sounds like a country song and I love it!!! ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿ•บIt also sounds as a song from the 70’s or so. It makes me so happy. This song would be so good to make it on a playlist for a roadtrip during the Summer. I also love his whistles. It sounds so cute.

Harry Styles – Treat people with kindness

Maybe we can find a place to feel good
And we can treat people with kindness
Find a place to feel good

Treat people with kindness is what Harry Styles stands for. THIS SONG IS AMAZING. I love the background choir. It sounds amazing as well as his voice of course. Such a feel good song!

Maan – Ze huilt maar ze lacht

She is sitting here alone in the train
And she hides in her coat
She looks out of the window
And she wonders
How would it feel to be yourself
Because sometimes it hurts
But she cries but she laughs
She cries but she laughs 

She walks through a world that does not feel kind
Unintentionally she says things that everyone always says
Because things never go bad
Always okay and she talks along with them
And she laughs
She cries but she laughs

And now… she let’s it go

I don’t listen that much to Dutch music but this song is really so touching and I really cried so much hearing it ๐Ÿ’–. I feel it and the lyrics is so relatable. The videoclip was just released in Janary. This song is just so raw and vulnerable. I guess many of us can feel this way. I always laugh so people think I’m happy all the time which I’m not. Sometimes it can be a mask. I also sometimes make other people feel like everything is okay with me when it’s not. I just don’t want to bother people because I feel that sometimes I’m too much. I learned that it’s okay to be ourselves and that we can let our feelings go and just be ourselves. All our feelings matter ๐Ÿ™. There are always people who care about us and will love us for the way we are. We are not alone.

Taylor Swift – Christmas tree farm

“In my heart is a Christmas tree farm
Where the people would come
To dance under sparkling lights
Bundled up in their mittens and coats
And the cider would flow
And I just wanna be there tonight”

This song is so cute. Everything about Taylor Swift is just so good ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‘Œ. I listened to this song a lot during Christmas time. I also love the cute pictures from her and her family when she was younger. She looks so cute!!! She is still such a sweetheart and I’m so happy I live in a world where she exists, my fav artist evah. Yeah, I love her that much haha. I wish to see her live once.

Louis Tomlinson – Don’t let it break your heart

I like this song. It’s a really nice song and Louis sings very well. I don’t listen to much of his songs but I really like this one.

Thank you for reading this music ๐ŸŽถ blog post. I hope you liked some songs of this post. Which one was your favourite? What do you think of the new albums of Harry Styles and Camila Cabello? What was your favourite song from 2019? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

December 2019 favourites ๐ŸŽ„โœจ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿ’ž

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

This blog post is maybe a bit too late lol but that doesn’t matter, right? ๐Ÿ˜‚ I’m always too late for everything in life. I’m better from my wisdom teeth extraction which was two weeks ago. I still sometimes felt strange things in my mouth but I have to stop obsessing otherwise I get even more anxious about it. I’m in Holland again. The next time I’m in Spain I will get rid of another wisdom teeth ๐Ÿฆท until I have no teeth left haha no just kidding. I have to do it three times more. I can do it. Hopefully I will have less anxiety for the next times. I trust this dentist so all will be well ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ™. Now, I have a cold too but I guess it’s that time of the year. I hope you all had an amazing Christmas and I hope this new year begin well for you all. In this blog post I will share my favourites of December which are celebrating Christmas with my family, going to the Christmas market, getting nice presents, winning some things and so much more.

Things I did with my lovely family ๐Ÿ‘ช:

Celebrating Sinterklaas with the family ๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽ

I celebrated the Dutch feast Sinterklaas the 6th of December. It was a nice celebration and I got loads of amazing presents. I wrote a Sinterklaas haul post which can find here. I loved the yoga mat, Flow magazines and the loads of chocolate I got ๐Ÿ˜. I still have chocolate at home from this celebration hahaha ๐Ÿ˜‚. Does anyone of you wants some chocolate? ๐Ÿซ It’s still good until March or April. I always love to celebrate Sinterklaas with the family. It’s such a nice tradition.

My parents 43th wedding anniversary ๐Ÿ’’๐ŸŒน๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’

My parents had their 43th wedding anniversary the 23th of December. We didn’t do anything special besides that they went to church and I stayed home. I was already going to church on Christmas Eve. When they had their 40th anniversary we ate all together but maybe with the 45th anniversary we will do something with the family. It’s a special day which remind me that true love exists. I love my parents so much and I wish them many more years together full of health, love and happiness ๐Ÿ’ž.

Watching some Christmas movies with mama ๐ŸŽ…๐ŸŽฌ

I love to watch Christmas movies. I’m sad this Christmas we didn’t watch Love Actually. We were busy packing for Spain too so at the end we didn’t watch it. Maybe, I will watch it now haha that movie is my fav movie ever. We watched Elf, The Polar Express and The Holiday. I love The Holiday so much. It’s also one of my favourite movies. I wish my life could be like that too and I could meet the love of my life that way haha. That English cottage is just so cute. I love all the actresses and actors. So beautiful. I also loved the movie Elf as I had never watched it before. It’s really cute! The Polar Express is also a classic. I think I’ve read the book when I was younger too.

Christmas time with the family ๐ŸŽ„

We had an amazing Christmas with the family. I went to church โ›ช on Christmas Eve with my mother, brother and his wife. It was lovely. We went to their appartment on Christmas day and just relaxed. We ate dinner all together on boxing day. It’s always so nice when we are all together especially when my little niece who’s 4 year old comes. It’s play time haha! ๐Ÿ˜‚ We had a delicious meal of some meat, stewed pears which my mother made and delicious fruit and ice cream ๐Ÿจ. My daddy always love to put whipped cream into the mouth of my niece haha she loves it very much. Spending time with family is one of the most important things in life. You never know when will be the last time you seen them, so do it and love them very much. I don’t want to sound depressing but it’s the truth. Nothing is forever so we have to not take these things for granted ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’–.

New Year’s Eve in Spain ๐ŸŽ‰โœจ๐ŸŽ†

My mother and I celebrated New Year’s Eve in Spain with the family of Verรณnica. We had a nice time with the brother and her mother. We ate some delicious meat like chorizo, jamรณn serrano. There was also bread and different sauces like avocado and cheese sauce. We also drank some champagne which I don’t like that much. I loved the Spanish cookies more. Afterwards, me and the brother of Verรณnica played Mario Kart Deluxe and Super Mario with the Nintendo Switch ๐ŸŽฎ. I really loved it so much and I got nostalgic from the times I played it when I was little. Those were one of my favourites games. My favourite game ever was Super Mario 64 with the different worlds and rooms. Such an awesome game. Also The Sims is amazing.

Stationery shopping ๐Ÿ›’

I went stationery shopping with my mother earlier in December. Action is my favourite shop in Holland. It’s cheap and has so many nice stationery. I bought some foam stickers. I love those stickers because they are bold and have an amazing design. The design is made for a hippie girl like me with lovely feathers, dreamcatchers, beautiful colours and quotes. I also love the sticker sheets I bought which contains 28 sheets full of stickers with a mermaid design ๐ŸŒŠ๐Ÿงœโ€โ™€๏ธ. It’s so beautiful. Anything with a sea theme is always made for me. You could also use these stickers for bullet journals. For the rest I also bought some nice rhinestones. They look like pearls. I also love the gluemarkers which I bought but I still didn’t have use them. I hope it works. You could put some glue on a paper, then add glitter and it would be amazing to decorate cards for my pen pals with it.

Awesome things I did with my lovely friends ๐Ÿ’ž:

Christmas market in Haarlem ๐ŸŽ„

I went to the Christmas market in Haarlem with my best friend and her girlfriend. We had such a good time. I always love to go because these Christmas markets are really special in The Netherlands and in Germany too. I love to drink hot chocolate or gluhwein โ˜•. This time I didn’t drink anything. I only bought something to make hot chocolate with. We made some nice pictures with the Christmas tree and enjoyed the beautiful lights โœจ. All the things which are sold on this market are handmade which I love so much.

Winning the book (Un)limited by the mind by A.O.Ewen ๐Ÿฅ‡๐Ÿ“–

My lovely friend Andrew from Instagram always write such beautiful poetry. He wrote a book and I took part of the giveaway. I never win something from Instagram so this was really a big surprise. I was so happy to have won this book because it’s beautiful ๐Ÿ˜. I still have to finish it reading. I already read some poems and I loved it. I love his honesty and vulnerability. It’s a collection of his poetry about experiences with mental health. He suffers from anxiety and ocd. I can relate so much to his poems and feel less alone when I read it. It’s good that he wrote about the light and the darkness because that makes me feel hopeful that things always can change for the better. I wish also to write a book one day because it’s one of my dreams. Thank you Andrew for your Christmas card too and for our friendship. I also love what you wrote in the inside for me. I love you very much. I will always support you! ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ™

Receiving Christmas cards and presents from my lovely friends ๐ŸŽ„๐ŸŽ

I’m so happy with all the Christmas cards I got from my friends online and in real life. I love my blogging friends, my pen pals and family so much. I love to receive handwritten letters and Christmas cards so much. I also loved the Christmas presents I got from my pen pal Vikki which was a unicorn garden suncatcher and some cute key rings. I also loved the presents I got from Sophia so much. I loved the handmade jewelry, the nail polish ๐Ÿ’… (I used it for Christmas time yeahhh) and the turqoise wallet is beautiful. Also a big thanks to my lovely blogging friend Elsie for her beautiful presents. I loved the golden journal! I can use that to write some blogging ideas inside. I also love the cute pen and sweets. I’m so thankful for your friendship. Love you all! ๐Ÿ’ž

Other amazing things of this month ๐Ÿ’–:

Winner of The Goddess Collective Scholarship ๐Ÿ†

This year I joined again the Self Love Advent Challenge by Melissa Wells. She’s a bestselling Hay House Author, Worldwide Speaker, and the UKโ€™s leading Eating Psychology Coach and Self Love Expert, dedicated to helping you completely transform the relationship you have with yourself, your body and your food. I really like her community and her challenges so much. Every day until Christmas I posted something on Instagram and on her Facebook group for this challenge. One day it was about treating ourselves, another day it was doing self care and more. I’m happy to announce that for the first time I won something from participating in this challenge. OMGGGG asdfghjkl I won an amazing prize ๐Ÿ†. I won The Goddess Collective Scholarschip which is such a big prize. It has the value of more than โ‚ฌ550 for a year. This was definitely the best Christmas present ever ๐ŸŽ„๐ŸŽ. 

I’m so happy to form part of this beautiful community with all amazing goddesses โœจ๐Ÿ’— I will learn so much about goal and intention setting. There are also workshops about creativity, managing anxiety, female friendships, menstrual magic, finding your purpose, starting a business and so much more. There will also be moonology ๐ŸŒœ๐ŸŒ› readings and a book area ๐Ÿ“–. This is just everything what I need right now in my life. It will help me so much with everything. I really can’t wait to get started and really begin to improve my life, dive into the magic of the universe and follow my dreams. I also hope to meet all other goddesses and go on a retreat one day. I’m so blessed to have this opportunity. Thank you Melissa for being such an inspiration to do so much good in this world. Thank you for this beautiful community. We are all loved and not alone ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ™ Love you all! ๐Ÿ˜˜

New books ๐Ÿ“š

I bought two new books which are Looking for Alaska by John Green and The Places I’ve cried in public by Holly Bourne. I’ve heard always so many good reviews about Looking for Alaska so I’m happy to finally been reading this book. John green is an amazing writer. My other favourite writer is Holly Bourne and I couldn’t wait to buy her new book. I still have to read so many books of her. This book is about Amelie who loved Reese. And she thought he loved her. But sheโ€™s starting to realise love isnโ€™t supposed to hurt like this. So now sheโ€™s retracing their story and untangling what happened by revisiting all the places he made her cry. Maybe she can get over him if that way. I think it will be an interesting and heartbreaking story. I can’t wait to read it!

Enjoying a relaxing bath with Lush bath bomb ๐Ÿ›€

I enjoyed a nice bath with an awesome Lush bath bomb. It was called Goddess which reminds me of the song God is a woman from Ariana Grande. The bath bomb is heavenly scent, jasmine absolute seduces you into lilac and silver waters, while the darkness of oudh and the richness of sandalwood keep you there, lingering a little longer. Lila is my favourite colour and I love glitter so it was just a perfect bath time โœจ๐Ÿ’–.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope you all enjoyed reading about my favourites of December 2019. Byebye 2019 haha. What were your favourites from my post? Did you have a nice Christmas time with your family? Have you read any of the books I bought? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina