Reflection on 2019 & happy new year to you all! ✨🎉💖💫🥳🤗

Hola lovelies 💕,

I’m doing a bit better than when I wrote my last blog. However, I’m having a cold now and my period is coming soon so always something bad. In this blog post I will make a short reflection on 2019. I will write about some low and highs of this year which I also wrote in a journal. Every year has good and bad things. I also wish you all a beautiful new year! 🥳🎉😘💖 May all your wildest and biggest dreams come true!

A new year has arrived: 2020. A new decade too. I’m happy to leave this decade because it came with good things but also with bad things. In this decade I met my first love and also got my heart broken at the end of 2012. I’m already 7 years single haha let’s keep up that way 😂. I also experienced beautiful things this decade like graduating college 🎓 and speaking at the United Nations in NYC 🗽 because I won an essay competition in Spanish. This happened in the Summer of 2015. I think this was definitely one of the biggest milestones this decade. I guess we can all relate to good and bad moments during this decade. I just really wish 2020 will be a better year for all of us 🙏. I hope we will experience beautiful things. I also hope we will survive and grow from the bad things.

My speech about ending hunger in the world at The United Nations 🗽 the 24th of July 2015

This year I learned some important life lessons which I will take with me in 2020. I learned that sometimes we can feel more connected to people we have never met than to the ones who are next to us. I love you all so much. You all mean the world to me. I learned that a real friend will be there for you in good and bad times. I learned that life has lows and highs and that most people only share the highs on social media. I learned that it’s good to spend less time online because I only compare myself to others online which makes my mental health worse. It isn’t real life. I also am learning to sit with every emotion whether that’s a negative one such as fear or anger. We have to feel it all, go through it until we can let go. It’s hard because when I feel anxious I just want that feeling to go away as soon as possible as it makes me feel so unwell. I just hope to know how to live with anxiety this next year.

This new year my intention is to listen more to my inner voice and let my heart guide me through life instead of my mind. 2020 will be the year of self love, growth and achieving my dreams. I will use the power that I have of being my authentic and sensitive self. I hope I will be able to get a job I love and which is good for my mental health. I also hope to meet more people I have met on the internet because I align so good with you all. My intention is to feel peace and know how to go through the waves of anxiety. I know I have to overcome some fears such as going to the dentist. Anxiety just doesn’t disappear because it’s the new year. I listened to the podcast of Yoga Girl and did the intention setting ceremony. I think setting intentions is much better than resolutions. Mostly we don’t achieve all resolutions we set for ourselves or it gives us too much pressure.

In 2019 I experienced a lot of amazing things like travelling to new places like León in March with my mother. I also went to Granada again in July with my lovely mother and met my friend there. In August I went to Gijón with my Spanish friend. I want to travel more with friends and also go to a surf camp again this new year 🌊🌞🏄‍♀️. This year I went to the beautiful tulip fields in The Netherlands 😍🌷This year I also read more amazing books. To love and let go by Yoga Girl changed my life and I’m forever thankful for that. It was spiritual and beautiful. I will share a review about this book soon. This new year I will keep reading, writing, singing, travelling and doing all things I love. This year I also went to the concert of Alfred Garcia which I loved. Next year I really do hope to go to more concerts like the one of Taylor Swift. I’m dying to see her live as it’s my dream 😍🎶 I also hope to see Yoga Girl one day. I also hope to get tickets for Eurovision live.

Tulip fields in The Netherlands 🇳🇱🌷😍

Travelling to León with mama 😍

Travelling with my Spanish friend to Gijón 💖🌞🌊🏄‍♀️

Awesome trip to Granada with my mother in July 😍🌞

I also faced a fear this year which was having a first interview for an internship in a hotel 🏩 in Spain. At the end they didn’t call me back but I went there and did my best. I hate interviews so it’s a good thing that I did well even though my heart was beating so fast I thought I was going to die 😭.

An important event this year was The Netherlands 🇳🇱 winning Eurovision after 44 years 🎉🥇🎶 This was one of the most beautiful moments of my life. It was a dream coming dream. I’m being a fan of Eurovision all my life so to see this happening was just so amazing and beautiful. I can’t wait to go to the concert of Duncan Laurence soon.

I want to give thanks to my family, friends and all the people I met this year. I’m so happy I met more amazing people. I’m thankful for my pen pals which I met this year. I’m thankful for the Goddess community, the Yoga Girl Community and this community. This mental health community is so important for my well-being. You make my life so much better. It’s so much better to know that I’m not alone with my feelings. We all feel the same things just not at the same time. It’s okay if you have had a hard year. I’m always here for you all. I hope this new year will make our heart glow of golden glitter ✨.

I celebrated New Year’s Eve with my mother at the home of the mother of Verónica and her brother. It was strange to be there without my brother and Véronica. They couldn’t be in Valladolid this time. We ate a delicious meal which was some meat, potatoes and bread with avocado and cheese sauce. I loved the chorizo and jamón serrano too which is typical Spanish food. In Spain it’s also typical to eat 12 grapes at twelve o’clock so we did that. I love to watch las campanadas 🍇😍. We also drank some champagne 🥂 We watched a program on tv which I love because it’s about Spanish artists singing. I love singing programs 🎶. Later I also played Mario Kart Deluxe and Mario Bros with the Nintendo Switch from the brother of Verónica. I really loved it so much and was pretty good at it. I was bad at Just Dance haha 🎮😂 On New Year’s Day I was chilling, resting and watching the movie Notting Hill.

Happy new year my lovely friends! 🎉 💖✨ I believe in the good things coming and hopefully it will be in abundance this new year. We all deserve it so much. I wish you all love, health and happiness ✨ I love you all so much 💞. Thank you for being there for me always. We are always in this together 💪

Thank you all for reading this blog post, the first one of the new year yeahhhh ✨ I hope you all liked it. How are you feeling about this new year? What is an intention you have set for yourself this new year? How did you celebrate new year’s eve? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love 💕,

xoxo Christina

New year goals for 2019 ✨

Hey lovely bloggers 💕,

It’s never too late to write some goals down for this new year. Hopefully with writing this post I will stick to them and it will motivate me to reach them. I don’t like that much the new year, new me thing because I still feel the same but it’s just a different year not that much changed hahah 😂 I prefer to stick with goals that I want to achieve this year. I also think that working to achieve goals also gives you confidence and strength. Reaching a goal is awesome but I think the way to reach those goals is also important. In this blog post I will write about my main 10 new year goals for 2019 ✨. My goals are not in any ranking.

1) Cope better with anxiety 🙏

This is for me such an important goal to reach. I don’t know if I ever will be anxiety free but learning how to cope with it is important in order to feel good. If I have to try therapy this year then I will have to do that even though I’m scared. If I have to try other medications for my anxiety disorder then that’s okay too. I also will keep reading good self help books 😊. Hopefully I can also sleep better and have a better sleep schedule. I also want to take some yoga lessons and keep swimming. Moving my body definitely release anxiety and makes me feel more calmer and happier.

2) Face my fears 💪

I really have to face my fears this year rather than running away from it, escaping or hiding myself all the time. It’s my comfortzone to run away from them because I don’t know any other way to live life but it isn’t okay. I have to get my 4 wisdom teeth pulled out but I will do it one by one. Just writing about it already gives me anxiety. I need to do it this year in Spain. I don’t want to keep postponing the appointments until I really get pain and need to go urgently. The dentist here is really nice and understanding. I can do it and everything wil be okay 💪

3) Getting my first job 💰

I’m scared of working because I never worked before. I only did an internship of 5 months here in Valladolid, in Spain last year. It was in The International Relations Office of the University of Valladolid. It was really nice. I did a great job. Working feels for me a big responsibility. I’m afraid to fail or that it will be too much to handle with having anxiety. I also keep applying for jobs but don’t hear anything back. I need to keep going. My dream is to work and live in Spain so I really do hope I can make this dream come true ❤️🇪🇸 Just last week I also applied to one job in Lisbon, Portugal. This week I will get a call back. I have been thinking that maybe it’s time to go outside my comforzone and just go for it. I’m nervous but also excited about it. It’s from a Dutch Website which is called Grenzelooswerk and they help you with everything.

4) Keep reading good books 📚

I’m beginning to read again like I used to do when I was a child. I love it. It makes me feel so happy and calm. I love to read great books and forget the whole world around me. You learn so much about life, the world and just everything from reading 📖. I will keep reading this new year. If anyone has some tips of books that I need to read they are very welcome. I love the books of John Green, poetry books from Rupi Kaur and The Spinster Club series books from Holly Bourne.

5) Writing great content on blog 🖋️

In this new year I want to continue writing more amazing posts for my blog. I want to write book reviews, my own written poems, singing covers and more posts about lifestyle, mental health, feminism, travelling, and self love. These are the most important themes of my blog. I hope you will all like it. I will also maybe look for a new design for my blog even though I find it difficult to make that. I hope that it will work out 🙏

6) Asking for help when I need it 💕

This is also an important goal for me to reach this year. If I struggle with finding a job or with my anxiety I need to know that it’s okay to ask people for help. If I can’t do something on my own it’s okay to admit that you need help. We all need help sometimes in life. I always thought that asking for help would mean that I’m weak and not strong enough. I’m learning that asking for help is a good thing to do and also takes a lot of courage. We are all in this together 💪

7) Go to a surf camp in Spain 🌊🏄‍♀️

I didn’t go surfing for more than two years and I really miss it so much. I went a few times to a Surf Camp in the north of Spain and I loved it. I have to admit that I got scared of the big waves and I didn’t like some surf teachers pushing me through that fear. However, there are many surf camps with great teachers here in Spain who won’t push you that way. I love surfing even though I still can’t surf waves. I’m still a beginner. I had my own wetsuit but it’s too little now to wear 😭 I will buy a new one. Just being in the ocean, having fun and meeting new people is awesome. It’s such a great experience and I can’t wait to do it again this Summer 😍 I love the sea so much but I fear the amount of water and I fear drowning even though I can swim well so this goal is also about facing my fears.

8) Going to amazing concerts 🎶

Music is life 🎵🎼. I’m the happiest girl in the world when I listen to my favourite artists at a concert. I also love to meet them. These memories are for a lifetime. I can’t wait to go to more amazing concerts in Spain or in The Netherlands depends where I’m living. Going to concerts with my friends is one of my favourites things in life. I don’t like to be surrounded by many people so I’m never in the front line but I enjoy listening to live music so much. Without music we would all be so lost. For every mood there’s music to make us feel happy, less alone and inspired ✨

9) Travelling to new places 🌍

Travelling is also one of my favourites things to do in life ✈️. Travelling makes me so happy and so full of life 😍 This world is so beautiful and so magical. I love to discover new places, new countries, new cities and meet amazing people along the way. You learn so much from travelling such as going out of your comfortzone, speaking a foreign language or learning from another culture. I can’t wait to plan some exciting travels this year in 2019. Hopefully, I will also get a well paying job this year to save money for all the trips I want to make with my familiy, friends or alone. Keep on travelling 💕 Travel as much as you can, as far as you can and as long as you can. The world is yours.

10) Surround yourself with good people 💖

It’s so important to be surrounded by good people instead of toxic people. They aren’t worth your time. Investing in good friendships or relationships is the best thing you can do. I’m thankful for my good friends, family and all the friends I met online. They only spread good vibes, love me for who I’m and respect me. That’s my tribe 💕 I can’t wait to meet more amazing people this year. I love to have fun with my friends and also love to have deep talks. When you surround yourself with good people you also feel more inspired and happier in life. Toxic people will only make you feel bad about yourself and will make you feel unhappy. Life is too short for negative vibes ✌️

Thank you all for reading this blog post. Did you like my goals? Can you relate to my new years goals? What are your goals for 2019? 🎉✨ Let me know in the comments. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love 💕,

xoxo Christina

Reflection on 2018 & happy new year to you all! 🎉✨💕💫

Hey lovelies 💕,

Happy new year to you all! ✨🎉 In this post I will talk about my 2018 and will show you how I celebrated New Year’s Eve. I’m glad I don’t have a cold amymore but just tonight I got my period so yeah that also sucks 😭 I’m glad I take medication for the cramps because otherwise I wouldn’t survive it. Besides, I’m also being anxious about my appointment of getting one of my wisdom teeth pulled out this week. I keep postponing the appointment. I know I have to do it but I’m so scared. H e l p. I also don’t want to do it in Holland. Here in Spain it’s much cheaper and the dentist understands my anxiety but I’m still so afraid and I just feel like I can’t cope. If anyone have some more tips to survive it I will be forever grateful 🙏💕 I can always take medication for anxiety if that’s enough to help me cope with it.

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We are already in 2019. A year has flown by. As usually I want to reflect on my year with this post and also write some important things for you all. Every year has its ups and downs. Every year consists of good things and bad things which happen to us. The most important thing is how we react to all these things. I know how hard it’s to stay positive in this sometimes dark world. I just keep believing that there are so many good things in the world and that there are indeed so many good people. You just have to find your tribe. I’m so glad I did.

I’m so happy with my blogging community, mental health community, Yoga Girl community and the goddess revolution community. I’m thankful that I joined these communities this year. They made me feel less alone and so much happier. If I’m in Holland I will maybe go to a meet up with some yoga girls. I also really wish that we will continue to all be friends and hopefully one day we will all meet ✨ I know the universe brought us all together for a reason which is to be connected with awesome people, share our struggles and feel supported.

I learned a lot this year. I learn every day from this world. This year I realized that there are truly lovely people who care about you and want you to be happy. I learned that it’s better to have a few good friends than a million of fake friends. The ones who love you will always be there for you no matter what. I learned that true love exists when I saw my brother getting married in August in Spain. I learned that this life is an adventure. Sometimes we win and sometimes we loose. We learn from every experience. I also learned that it’s okay if I’m not where I want to be in life. I still have a long way to go. I will find a career I love and will keep growing. It all takes time, pacience and trust in myself. I have to love myself, believe in myself and know that I can make my dreams come true such as working and living in Spain ✨

I also went to my first feminist strike in Valladolid, in Spain on International Women’s Day on the 8th of March with my mother. This was such an empowerful event. I never went to a demonstration before. I really wish 2019 will be the year that less women will be suffering from violence. I wish that women and men have the same human rights. Together we are starting a revolution. This is just the beginning. 2019 will be the year where women can be themselves, love themselves and love each other 💕

This year I also learned that music is the best thing in life 🎶 I would be lost without music. I went to so many amazing concerts such as the Operación Triunfo 2017 concert in Madrid with my friend Maria 💕 Operación Triunfo makes me so happy and full of life. I also enjoyed the concert of Pablo Alboran, Chenoa, Hombres G and Celtas Cortos with my mother in Valladolid. I also enjoyed so much the concert of Sofia Ellar with my friend Maria. I can’t wait to see her again. It was so lovely to meet Sofia and get a picture with her. She’s the best and I can’t wait to see her singing again 😍

This year I began to read again a lot which I loved to do so much when I was younger. I will continue reading this new year. I also kept writing and being creative. I hope to create more amazing content on this blog. Writing is amazing. I travelled to Madrid, Granada, Santander and Somo. I discovered Somo which is a beautiful surfing village in the north of Spain. In 2019 I really want to go to a surf camp again 🏄‍♀️🌊🌞. I didn’t go surfing for more than two years. I miss it so much. It’s also so good for my mental health. The sea is my home and cleans my soul. The beach is my favourite place on this earth. I can’t wait to travel to more amazing places and meet more amazing people.

Somo, Santander (September 2018)

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Granada, Andalucia (July 2018)

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La Rábita, Mediterranean Sea, Granada (July 2018)

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Madrid (March 2018)

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Maybe for some of you this year was a hard year. Maybe some of you have lost someone close to you. Maybe you just didn’t felt okay and were struggling. I’m here for you. It’s okay to grief. It’s okay to not be okay. It’s okay to feel sad. Feelings change and emotions change but it all takes time. Try to not be hard on yourself next year. Remember, I’ll will always be there for you 💕 I hope you will invest in self love and self care this new year because that’s the most important thing that matters. I also encourage you all to surround yourself with people who love you and who bring you only good vibes because you deserve that ✨.

I celebrated my New Year’s Eve in Valladolid, in Spain. I decided to not go out with my friends. I also didn’t go out last year. I used to party every year but I don’t feel in the mood anymore. I have to do what feels good to me. I went to the hairdressers in the afternoon to cut the dead ends, my bangs and they made curls in my hair. I love to look good for myself. I dressed up at home and did my make up. My mother and I went to the house of the mother of the wife of my brother. We celebrated all together New Year’s Eve: Rafael, my mother, Véronica, Véronica’s mother and her brother. We enjoyed eating delicious Spanish food.

We ate cheese, jamon serrano, chorizo, bread and chicken. I didn’t eat the fish because I don’t like fish so much haha 😂 At 12 o’clock we watched the television and ate the 12 grapes. We also had champagne 🥂. It’s a tradition in Spain to eat the 12 grapes. They say it brings luck. We watched television where we were hearing beautiful music and we played Spanish card games. I really loved it so much. I love playing games with my family. At 3.30 am my mother and I went home and we stayed in watching some television. We went to bed at 6 am pretty late but doesn’t matter because it’s a special night. I’m glad I didn’t go out because as soon as we were home I got my period haha. On New Year’s Day we just stayed in and chilled. I saw the movie Grease. I just love that movie & the music so much 😍 I also saw the movie Paper Towns which I love so much from John Green. I already saw this movie with my best friend one day and loved it.

l wish you all an amazing new year full of love, happiness and luck 🍀✨✌️ Stay strong & stay safe. We are all in this together 💪 I love you all so so so much ❤️. Thank you all for reading. How was your New Year’s Eve? Did you stay at home or did you went to a party? Which are your goals or dreams to achieve in 2019? I would love to know. I will speak to you all soon in my next blog post.

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Much love 💕,

xoxo Christina

10 mental health resolutions for this new year

Hey lovely bloggers <3,

Today I wanna share my 10 mental health resolutions for the new year. I think it’s really important to focus on our mental health because body and mind works together. If you have a mental illness like I have been diagnosed with anxiety, it’s really important to have some resolutions to feel better. Our brain is an organ too and many times people forget this. Our brain can misfunction too like any other organ in our body. We have to beat the stigma of mental health illnesses. They are real and nobody should feel ashamed of this. 1 out of 5 people have a mental health illness which is a lot. We shouldn’t feel alone in this. We are all in this together ❤

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I love reading but I have to admit that I don’t do it a lot. I have bought some new awesome books online. I’m gonna share them with you all when I have finished them. I also wanna do more book reviews on my blog. Reading is so good. It definitely helps me a lot with my anxiety. I have a lot of self help books and it’s makes me realize that I don’t have to feel alone with suffering from anxiety. There are so many people who suffer from this along their lives. I also love to read about tips and apply them in my real life. Reading is really an important form of healing. Reading makes you wiser and makes you dive into a fantasy world which takes away the pain and suffering from the real world. I love to read and always forget the world around me, such an amazing feeling.

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2. Keep writing poems and on my blog

I love writing so much. It’s such a great way of healing too. I always feel such a great satisfaction when I write all my thoughts and feelings down. It feels like I’m letting something of myself go which makes me feel lighter and happier. In this new year, I want to keep writing poems and share them with you. I also wish to continue writing on my blog. I love writing on my blog and it definitely is helping me so much with my anxiety. I came in contact with awesome people who experience the same and feel less alone. Thank you all so much for your lovely support. I’m so blessed to have you all in my life. I will forever cherish the great friendships I have made here ❤

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3. Go to yoga lessons

I love doing yoga at home with Youtube videos but I also really want to go to real yoga lessons in Valladolid, Spain, where I’m living right now. I love Yoga Girl. She is a swedish yoga teacher who is living together with her hushband Dennis and her little girl Lea Luna in Aruba. I will share a blog post about her soon because she is such a big inspiration in my life. She also has her own yoga studio in Aruba called Island Yoga. I would love to go to meet her and go on a yoga retreat in Aruba! That would be so awesome. She does yoga on her retreat week but also sharing and journalling. That’s just so good for healing and for my mental health.

Her real name is Rachel Brathen. She also has her own postcast on Itunes or Spotify every friday where she talks about anything in life, could be about anxiety, self love, marriage, work life, following your dreams, being bullied, death…… just everything in life, the good and the bad. I love how authentic she is. Yoga is really such an amazing way to have less anxiety in life and has so many benefits for your mental health. I did some classes in The Netherlands and afterwards I felt more relaxed and happier. Yoga is the best way to discover your inner self, be in the moment and let everything go. I really wanna search for a good studio here in Valladolid and have some awesome yoga lessons.

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                                   Lea Luna, Yoga Girl (Rachel Brathen) and Dennis

4. Care less about what people think of me

I still find this such a difficult one because I think it has to deal with being bullied during childhood and high school. I still care about what people think of me. If somebody laugh, I instantly think that they laugh about me when it isn’t even the case. I think to not care at all is not a realistic resolution because at the end I will still care a bit. I have to focus on my life and care less about what other people may think about me. If I care less, I become happier and less anxious. It would be such a great benefit for my mental health. I just have to let opinions of other people go and do the things which make me happy. I’m doing better than before but I still have to work a lot on this point in this new year.

5. Keep travelling

I just love travelling soooo much. Sometimes travelling can cause anxiety but when you plan your travels a long way before, it’s not a big deal. I have to admit that flying always cause me anxiety and that I have to take some meds before I go on an airplane. I love the view from the window, but I just hate turbulence. It makes me so anxious. However, I love travelling and it definitely is good for my mental health. In this new year, I will keep continue to travel around Europe and in Spain. I also would love to travel around the world but first I have to have more money. I also would love to do an interrail which means going by train and discovering many new countries in Europe with my friends. Maybe, I’m going to do that in the summer.  When I travel to a new place and discover new things, I let go all of the bad things in life. It helps me to distant myself from problems. I also love to be in contact with new cultures and making friends all over the world. I just love to learn about all the diferences and also know that at the end we are all the same: human and one with the world ❤ I learn so much about life from travelling so I will continue travelling as much, as far and as long as I can ❤

6. Stop comparing myself and my life with other people

This is such a bad habit that I have. When we scroll down on social media, we see all beautiful pictures of people who seem to have their life together. Everything looks perfect but trust me it ain’t the truth. Life has ups and downs. I like to show the truth about my life on my social media, especially on Instagram and on this blog. It is important to show the good and the bad in life. I often compare myself with others. I always feel the pressure of society like I already should have get married, and have babies and have a job and have my life together and blablabla. It makes me feel so overwhelmed. This new year I wanna learn that it’s okay to not have life together and to make little steps forward. I just graduated and I feel the pressure of having that dream job when I don’t even know what that means. I think this year I have to focus on myself and do things I love. I can have part time jobs and be happy. All things take time. I think if we spend less time in comparing our lives to other lives, we will end up happier and relaxer. Just focus on yourself and try to do things you enjoy. Everything in your life will come exactly at the right time, no rush.

7. Spend more time enjoying nature and less time on social media

I have to admit that I spend way too much time on social media. Of course, I run this blog and wanna spend time doing this. However, I should try to detox from social media once in a while. It’s really good to spend more time in nature. I love to walk around the park near to my house and breathing the fresh air. Sometimes I get really overwhelmed from all the social media. Sometimes it makes me anxious because I feel like I don’t have my life together and others have. It ain’t not true because most people only share their perfect pictures of their lives. Like I said in the point before, we compare our lives way too much on social media. If we spend less time on social media, we will feel more in contact with the world and more at peace with ourselves. Spending time with friends in real life is really important to not feel lonely and be social. I love to go for a walk with my friends, eat some delicious food “tapas” in Spain and have fun together.

8. Focus more on my creative passions like writing, singing and photography

Some of my passions are writing like I said before. I love to write in my journal, write poems and write on my blog. Writing is such a beautiful way of healing. I also love to sing so much. I used to sing in choir for 11 years. I really miss singing in a choir. Maybe, I’m gonna search for a new choir here in Spain or have some classes again. I enjoy singing so much. It makes me feel so relaxed and happy. Singing is a great way of letting all your feelings and thoughts go. I will show some videos of me singing in another blog post.

Furthermore, I also love photography. One of my brothers, Edward with his wife Elke have their own company of wedding photography. I learned a lot from them and I also learned a lot of photography taking a course during my studies. I have a lot of different cameras such as a Nikon, normal camera, polaroid Instax Mini 8 and a lomography camera Diana F+. I wanna continue to take all kinds of pictures again and share them with you. I hope you will all like them. Photography is a creative hobby and such a nice way to be active. I love to be creative and it’s really good for my anxiety. All these passions help me healing and make me happy. I once read that people who have anxiety or depression, tend to be more creative than other people. I think this is really true because I met many people with a mental illness and they all are so incredible talented and creative. Being creative is really a blessing in life. Earth without art is just “eh”.

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9. Go to the beach and surf more

When I lived in the Netherlands I was just 15 minutes away by car from the beach. The bad thing is that it rains a lot in The Netherlands and you can’t spend that many days on the beach as in Spain. Right now, I’m living in Valladolid which is one hour from Madrid. The nearest beach is Santander which is a city in the north coast of Spain. It’s three hours away by train. I went to Santander twice last year and enjoyed some really great beach days. I love to swim in the ocean, feel the ocean breeze and hear the waves crashing down the shore. I like the salt ocean so much. It’s so good for your mental health. The ocean makes me feel so relax, peaceful and happy. This year, I wanna spend even more days on the beach. Last year, I went twice to the beach of Santander called “El Sardinero” and once to the beach of Granada, which is in the south of Spain, in Andalucia. I went to “La Rabita”. The beach is just my favourite place on this earth.

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I also like to surf. Í have my own Rip Curl blue wetsuit. I hope I still can wear it because it has been two years since the last time I surfed. I really missed it. I’m a beginner and still have to learn how to catch waves. I can stand on a surf board and can enjoy it, which is the most important thing about surfing. I also made my thesis about the surfing lifestyle. Surfing is just a way of living and it so good for my anxiety. Surfing the waves makes me forget my anxiety, enjoy life and live in the moment ❤ It’s a total zen moment. I have surfed many times in The Netherlands and in Spain. I went twice to a surf camp in Spain near to Santander in Suances called Bio Surf Camp and Art Surf Camp in Galicia, Razo. In Razo, I surfed in the Atlantic Ocean and omg the waves were so high that I got scared and didn’t want to push myself too far and deep in the water. It’s all about practice and learning to let this fear go aswhile as in life. I wish to surf again this year and go on a surf camp because that’s the best way to learn surfing. Besides, I have made some incredible friends in these camps and had so many amazing adventures which I will never ever forget.

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                      Me at the Art Surf Camp in Galicia, Razo in the Summer of  2015

10. Having a better sleep routine

Since, I’m graduated and don’t study anymore my sleep routine is really messed up. I go really late to bed and wake up too late. I know it’s my fault and I have to change it. In the meantime that I’m searching for a (part-time) job, I have to focus on myself and trying to have a better sleep routine. I shouldn’t go too late to bed and wake up at a reasonable time. Having a sleep routine is just so important to feel good and not stressed out. It’s really important for our mental health. Everything begins with those habits. Sleeping is really important. We have to sleep 8 hours at least every night. If I don’t sleep 8 hours at night I’m already feeling so tired and feel even more anxious in life. Sleeping is as important as eating the right food and caring for ourselves. I know I can have a better sleep routine. I just have to get started and then it will work out.

I hope you all liked my 10 mental health resolutions for this new year, 2018. Have an amazing year you all! ❤ I wish you all a new year full of love, happiness and health. Let’s focus this year on ourselves. Love yourself and each other because that’s what this world needs: more love, no hate ❤

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Love you all so much ❤

Much love,
xoxo Christina

 

Happy New Year to you all! 😍🌠🎉💃🎶✌💕

Hey lovely bloggers ❤,

I still needed to post some New Year posts. I was so busy with all the celebrations in December. It is never too late to wish each other a happy new year, right?! I will share in this blog post what I did on New Year’s Eve.

I wish you all a happy new year full of love, health, luck and happiness! 🌠💕❤ I really do hope that all your dreams come true because you all deserve that so much. I’m so grateful for my 131 followers. My blog keeps growing and I’m forever blessed for that. I never knew that anyone would actually read my blog posts. I wish that 2018 will be your year. Make it a 2018 to remember! ❤ Make your dreams come true! 💕 You are all beautiful human beings and I’m forever blessed to have you in my life. Let’s always be together and see what the future will brings us.

It was the first New Year’s Eve for me that I didn’t go out in Spain. It was the first night in 7 years that I didn’t went partying with my friends. Some of my friends went to a party and some not. It’s all okay. Don’t feel the social pressure to go out if you don’t want. Don’t drink too much alcohol just to be cool. Do what feels good for you ❤

I had a delicious dinner at home with my family and I drink some champagne 🍸 In Spain it’s a tradition to eat 12 grapes at midnight. It brings luck. I also enjoyed watching a Spanish programme on Antena 3 which was about singing songs together with my family. It was a cozy night in and I really enjoyed it 💕 I was happy to spend it at home. I enjoyed new year’s eve partying these last years but I also find it so crowdy and so expensive when you don’t drink so much. I enjoy dancing a lot but for me it’s better to go out another weekend 💕 What did you do this New Year’s Eve?

Here are some pictures from my night:


            I bought this dress last year for New Year’s Eve and this year I wore it again 

                       With Jairo, brother of Veronica (Girlfriend of my brother) 

I hope you all enjoyed this blog post. I will write some of my New Year’s resolutions in the next post. I will also share a blog post about the Three Kings which I celebrated last weekend. It’s an important day of celebration in Spain. Enjoy this beautiful new year!! 💕

Love you all so much ❤❤❤

Much love,

xoxo Christina


10 life lessons learned in 2017

Hey lovely bloggers <3,

This post is all about the 10 life lessons learned in 2017. I already wish you all a happy new year! I don’t like the new year, new me thing. I believe that we can change our lives every day and that it doesn’t have to be just with new year. I hope you all are going to enjoy this new year: 2018! I wish you all a 2018 full of happiness, love, good health and inner peace. May this year be the year of self love and make mental health a priority. I hope that all your dreams are coming true in this new year. Never stop dreaming! ❤

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I edited this picture to wish you all a happy new year! ❤

So here are my 10 life lessons that I learned in 2017

1. Ask for help when you need it

This was such an important lesson which I have learned in 2017. I asked for help again when I was struggling a lot with my anxiety in the beginning of 2017. I take 20 mg of antidepressants since february. I’m so happy I got support and the doctor in Spain subscriped me the meds I needed. Since I have been taking antidepressants I feel more happier and less anxious. I still can feel sometimes much anxiety but I’m learning how to live with it. I’m making progress. I’m a warrior. I’m stronger and wiser than before. You should never feel ashamed of asking for help.

I also asked for help during my internship abroad. I was doing my internship abroad at the university of Valladolid. It was my first time working. I never did that before and was afraid. I asked for help when I needed to complete some tasks. They were also so friendly and helpful. I’m really blessed for that. I always thought that asking for help makes you weak but instead it makes you strong. We all need some help in life and you shouldn’t feel ashamed for that. We all need a little help from our friends and family in life ❤

2. Writing heals wounds

I started this blog in August. I never thought I would gain more than 100 followers and have such a great interaction with you all. I love you all so much. I love writing and it’s always have been one of my biggest passions in life. I love to write poetry too. I’m so glad I started this blog. It feels really great to write all my thoughts and feelings down. Sometimes I wrote about some bad experiences I had in life such as being bullied of having my heart broken. Writing is a form of healing. Writing can make you forget the stuff you experienced. When you write about such a bad experience, you are less attached to it and can easily let it all go. Whenever I write aboout something which hurts me, I feel so relieved after I have written that piece. My mind feels lighter again and free off all the thoughts and emotions I had. Writing is such a good way of self love. I also love to journal and wish to continue journalling in 2018.

3. Working life can be full of fun and happiness

I had to do an internship to finish my studies and get my degree of European Studies this year. I did my internship abroad in the international relations office of the University of Valladolid. I worked 5 months, from february till end of june. I must admit that I was so scared of the working life. I was also scared if I would cope with my anxiety. I did such a great job, worked hard and everybody was happy with me. I suffered some anxiety attacks during work and didn’t tell anybody. After a while I told them and they said I had to tell it earlier. They were are so lovely and helpful. I worked from 9 till 3 o’clock in the afternoon. I was in the office of incoming international students. I made a lot of friends. I was helping them with their papers and admissions. I had such a great ambience at work. We laughed a lot and had so much fun. It was defintely one of the best experiences in my life. I felt so happy. I wish to find a career where I’m happy and where work is fun. It’s just so important to have a job where you are happy and aren’t feeling stressed out all the time. I must admit that I was tired a lot because I wasn’t used to the routine. I did it and I’m so proud of my achievement!

4. Having a routine in life is really important for your well-being

I must admit that when I had a routine in my life due to my internship, I felt happier and less anxious. Every day I had to work from 9 o’clock in the morning till 3 o’clock in the afternoon. I went to bed every day at 11 o’clock. Sometimes I went to bed even earlier on days where I felt really tired. I woke up every day at 8 o’clock. It definitely made me feel so good. I must admit that right now I don’t have that routine anymore. My sleep routine was really bad these months but this month I changed it again. Now, it’s better than before. Slowly making progress again. Having a routine in life is just really important for our health, especially our mental health. It isn’t good to stay awake till 5 o’clock at night and wake up late. I felt more stressed because of that routine and less happier. I hope I can change my sleep routine again.

5. Travelling makes you feel more open-minded and connected with the world

I travelled a lot this year through Spain during my internship time abroad and afterwards. I went to Burgos (One hour from Valladolid), Salamanca (Famous of it’s beautiful university), twice to Santander (Beach time!) and to Granada which is in the south of Spain in Andalucia. Some trips I went with my mother and other ones with friends. I love travelling so much. It makes me feel more happier in life because of making new friends all over the world. I made so many friends while doing my internship abroad in Valladolid. I made friends from United Kingdom, Germany, China, Italy, Mexico, Colombia and many other places in the world. Travelling makes you more open-minded. You are open to new cultures. I love to learn more about the differences of the cultures and their languages. It makes life definitely more interesting. I love adventure! It also makes me feel more connected with the world. We are all the same despite our different religions or nationaliaties. We are human. We are all one with the world ❤ I can’t wait to travel more in 2018 through Spain and travel around the world. Every experience makes you richer.

6. Real friends are forever no matter the distance

I have friends all over the world. I grew up in two amazing countries: Spain and The Netherlands. I was living abroad in Valladolid for my internship and right now I hope to find a job in Spain. I went back for Christmas to Netherlands and saw my good friends again. I love the fact that even though you don’t see each other for many months, nothing changed when you see each other again. That’s for me real friendship. Real friends are the ones who will always be there for you no matter the distance. Real friendships are in your heart forever ❤ I love all my friends so much and I’m forever blessed with the beautiful friendships I have. I don’t need to have a million of fake friends, just a few good friends. Friends always make your life better and brighter.

7. Music is life

Since October I’m following the programme on Spanish television of Operacion Triunfo. It’s a Spanish singing contest. Every week a participant has to go home. There were 16 participants. Right now, there are only 9 left in the contest. I love singing so much. I used to sing in a choir for 11 years and travelled a lot through Europe with my choir. Music is so good for you and you health. It makes you feel more connected and happier. Music always have the right words when you can’t explain a situation in only spoken words. Music has the answers of everything. I love Operacion Triunfo so much. I also watch the 24/7 streaming on Youtube which they have.

My favourite participant is Amaia together with Aitana and Alfred. I just bought tickets to see them all live in a concert in Madrid in March 2018!!!! I’m so looking forward to it. I never went to a concert before in Madrid. I’m going with my lovely Spanish friend Maria. The winner will be chosen at the end of January during the last live show. There is also coming a special love show in January to choose the representant for Spain in Eurovision 2018. That’s so excited news. I hope Amaia together with Alfred is going to Eurovision. They performed City of Stars during one liveshow and this moment made history in the Spanish television. You could see so much connection and love between these two young people. They are now together in a relationship which is so cute omggg ❤

8. It’s okay to fail, at least you did your best and tried

After doing my internship abroad, I still had to do an exam which I didn’t do before to complete my studies. This exam was about law and was really complicated. I went to Holland in June and failed for only 0.5. I felt so bad and cried a lot about it. Now, I know that it doesn’t matter if you fail an exam because at least you tried. I went to Holland in August to take this exam again. I got as mark an 8 and I was so happy about it! I learned that failing is okay and doesn’t make you instantly a failure. Making mistakes is okay because you can all learn from it.

9. Don’t give up, because everything will be allright at the end

I struggled a lot this year with my studies. I was so worried and anxious all the time about the fact if I would ever be able to complete my studies and get my degree. I felt a lot of pressure and stress. I had to do some extra subjects because I didn’t obtain all the credits during my exchange semester a few years ago in Spain. I went on exchange to Logroño which is a place in La Rioja famous of it’s delicious wine. I partied and drank a lot during that semester. I was a completly mess. I really regret it now but at least I learned from it and it won’t happen again. I did the extra subjects and got some great marks.

This year, I learned to never give up. You will fall but every time you can stand up again. You will get what you want at the end. At the end, worrying only makes you feel frustrated and anxious. Everything will be allright at the end because I got my degree this year. That was one of my biggest dreams and wishes for this year. I completed this wish because of my hard work and because of never giving up. I trusted myself that I was able to do it because I’m smart enough. I learned to not give in to my insecurities. They are telling me that I can’t do it when it isn’t true.

10. Self love is the most important love in life

I always thought having a soulmate would make me happy and is the most important thing in life. I was wrong. I had a relationship from 17 years old till 19 years old. I suffered a lot with the break up. Afterwards, I was seeking the love of other boys to make my heart heal the wounds. It wasn’t the good way. I don’t kiss anymore boys without having feelings for them. It doesn’t make me feel good about myself. I learned that loving yourself is the most important thing you can do in life. Everything starts with yourself. Everything starts with the relationship you have with yourself. If you aren’t happy with yourself, you don’t do things which will make you happy. The thoughts you have about yourself are so important. Let’s change our negative thoughts this new year and replace them with good thoughts. You are enough, you are loved and you are so worth it. I hope you can all practice self love in this new year and take care of yourself! ❤

I hope you all liked my list of important life lessons which I have learned during 2017. I think my next blog post will about dreams and wishes I would like to complete in the new year. I wish you all a beautiful new year with self love, happiness and good health :)<3 Let’s rock this new year!

I love you all so much ❤

Much love xoxo Christina