Reflection on 2019 & happy new year to you all! โœจ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’ซ๐Ÿฅณ๐Ÿค—

Hola lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

I’m doing a bit better than when I wrote my last blog. However, I’m having a cold now and my period is coming soon so always something bad. In this blog post I will make a short reflection on 2019. I will write about some low and highs of this year which I also wrote in a journal. Every year has good and bad things. I also wish you all a beautiful new year! ๐Ÿฅณ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’– May all your wildest and biggest dreams come true!

A new year has arrived: 2020. A new decade too. I’m happy to leave this decade because it came with good things but also with bad things. In this decade I met my first love and also got my heart broken at the end of 2012. I’m already 7 years single haha let’s keep up that way ๐Ÿ˜‚. I also experienced beautiful things this decade like graduating college ๐ŸŽ“ and speaking at the United Nations in NYC ๐Ÿ—ฝ because I won an essay competition in Spanish. This happened in the Summer of 2015. I think this was definitely one of the biggest milestones this decade. I guess we can all relate to good and bad moments during this decade. I just really wish 2020 will be a better year for all of us ๐Ÿ™. I hope we will experience beautiful things. I also hope we will survive and grow from the bad things.

My speech about ending hunger in the world at The United Nations ๐Ÿ—ฝ the 24th of July 2015

This year I learned some important life lessons which I will take with me in 2020. I learned that sometimes we can feel more connected to people we have never met than to the ones who are next to us. I love you all so much. You all mean the world to me. I learned that a real friend will be there for you in good and bad times. I learned that life has lows and highs and that most people only share the highs on social media. I learned that it’s good to spend less time online because I only compare myself to others online which makes my mental health worse. It isn’t real life. I also am learning to sit with every emotion whether that’s a negative one such as fear or anger. We have to feel it all, go through it until we can let go. It’s hard because when I feel anxious I just want that feeling to go away as soon as possible as it makes me feel so unwell. I just hope to know how to live with anxiety this next year.

This new year my intention is to listen more to my inner voice and let my heart guide me through life instead of my mind. 2020 will be the year of self love, growth and achieving my dreams. I will use the power that I have of being my authentic and sensitive self. I hope I will be able to get a job I love and which is good for my mental health. I also hope to meet more people I have met on the internet because I align so good with you all. My intention is to feel peace and know how to go through the waves of anxiety. I know I have to overcome some fears such as going to the dentist. Anxiety just doesn’t disappear because it’s the new year. I listened to the podcast of Yoga Girl and did the intention setting ceremony. I think setting intentions is much better than resolutions. Mostly we don’t achieve all resolutions we set for ourselves or it gives us too much pressure.

In 2019 I experienced a lot of amazing things like travelling to new places like Leรณn in March with my mother. I also went to Granada again in July with my lovely mother and met my friend there. In August I went to Gijรณn with my Spanish friend. I want to travel more with friends and also go to a surf camp again this new year ๐ŸŒŠ๐ŸŒž๐Ÿ„โ€โ™€๏ธ. This year I went to the beautiful tulip fields in The Netherlands ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŒทThis year I also read more amazing books. To love and let go by Yoga Girl changed my life and I’m forever thankful for that. It was spiritual and beautiful. I will share a review about this book soon. This new year I will keep reading, writing, singing, travelling and doing all things I love. This year I also went to the concert of Alfred Garcia which I loved. Next year I really do hope to go to more concerts like the one of Taylor Swift. I’m dying to see her live as it’s my dream ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŽถ I also hope to see Yoga Girl one day. I also hope to get tickets for Eurovision live.

Tulip fields in The Netherlands ๐Ÿ‡ณ๐Ÿ‡ฑ๐ŸŒท๐Ÿ˜

Travelling to Leรณn with mama ๐Ÿ˜

Travelling with my Spanish friend to Gijรณn ๐Ÿ’–๐ŸŒž๐ŸŒŠ๐Ÿ„โ€โ™€๏ธ

Awesome trip to Granada with my mother in July ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŒž

I also faced a fear this year which was having a first interview for an internship in a hotel ๐Ÿฉ in Spain. At the end they didn’t call me back but I went there and did my best. I hate interviews so it’s a good thing that I did well even though my heart was beating so fast I thought I was going to die ๐Ÿ˜ญ.

An important event this year was The Netherlands ๐Ÿ‡ณ๐Ÿ‡ฑ winning Eurovision after 44 years ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿฅ‡๐ŸŽถ This was one of the most beautiful moments of my life. It was a dream coming dream. I’m being a fan of Eurovision all my life so to see this happening was just so amazing and beautiful. I can’t wait to go to the concert of Duncan Laurence soon.

I want to give thanks to my family, friends and all the people I met this year. I’m so happy I met more amazing people. I’m thankful for my pen pals which I met this year. I’m thankful for the Goddess community, the Yoga Girl Community and this community. This mental health community is so important for my well-being. You make my life so much better. It’s so much better to know that I’m not alone with my feelings. We all feel the same things just not at the same time. It’s okay if you have had a hard year. I’m always here for you all. I hope this new year will make our heart glow of golden glitter โœจ.

I celebrated New Year’s Eve with my mother at the home of the mother of Verรณnica and her brother. It was strange to be there without my brother and Vรฉronica. They couldn’t be in Valladolid this time. We ate a delicious meal which was some meat, potatoes and bread with avocado and cheese sauce. I loved the chorizo and jamรณn serrano too which is typical Spanish food. In Spain it’s also typical to eat 12 grapes at twelve o’clock so we did that. I love to watch las campanadas ๐Ÿ‡๐Ÿ˜. We also drank some champagne ๐Ÿฅ‚ We watched a program on tv which I love because it’s about Spanish artists singing. I love singing programs ๐ŸŽถ. Later I also played Mario Kart Deluxe and Mario Bros with the Nintendo Switch from the brother of Verรณnica. I really loved it so much and was pretty good at it. I was bad at Just Dance haha ๐ŸŽฎ๐Ÿ˜‚ On New Year’s Day I was chilling, resting and watching the movie Notting Hill.

Happy new year my lovely friends! ๐ŸŽ‰ ๐Ÿ’–โœจ I believe in the good things coming and hopefully it will be in abundance this new year. We all deserve it so much. I wish you all love, health and happiness โœจ I love you all so much ๐Ÿ’ž. Thank you for being there for me always. We are always in this together ๐Ÿ’ช

Thank you all for reading this blog post, the first one of the new year yeahhhh โœจ I hope you all liked it. How are you feeling about this new year? What is an intention you have set for yourself this new year? How did you celebrate new year’s eve? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

Reflection on 2018 & happy new year to you all! ๐ŸŽ‰โœจ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’ซ

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

Happy new year to you all! โœจ๐ŸŽ‰ In this post I will talk about my 2018 and will show you how I celebrated New Year’s Eve. I’m glad I don’t have a cold amymore but just tonight I got my period so yeah that also sucks ๐Ÿ˜ญ I’m glad I take medication for the cramps because otherwise I wouldn’t survive it. Besides, I’m also being anxious about my appointment of getting one of my wisdom teeth pulled out this week. I keep postponing the appointment. I know I have to do it but I’m so scared. H e l p. I also don’t want to do it in Holland. Here in Spain it’s much cheaper and the dentist understands my anxiety but I’m still so afraid and I just feel like I can’t cope. If anyone have some more tips to survive it I will be forever grateful ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’• I can always take medication for anxiety if that’s enough to help me cope with it.

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We are already in 2019. A year has flown by. As usually I want to reflect on my year with this post and also write some important things for you all. Every year has its ups and downs. Every year consists of good things and bad things which happen to us. The most important thing is how we react to all these things. I know how hard it’s to stay positive in this sometimes dark world. I just keep believing that there are so many good things in the world and that there are indeed so many good people. You just have to find your tribe. I’m so glad I did.

I’m so happy with my blogging community, mental health community, Yoga Girl community and the goddess revolution community. I’m thankful that I joined these communities this year. They made me feel less alone and so much happier. If I’m in Holland I will maybe go to a meet up with some yoga girls. I also really wish that we will continue to all be friends and hopefully one day we will all meet โœจ I know the universe brought us all together for a reason which is to be connected with awesome people, share our struggles and feel supported.

I learned a lot this year. I learn every day from this world. This year I realized that there are truly lovely people who care about you and want you to be happy. I learned that it’s better to have a few good friends than a million of fake friends. The ones who love you will always be there for you no matter what. I learned that true love exists when I saw my brother getting married in August in Spain. I learned that this life is an adventure. Sometimes we win and sometimes we loose. We learn from every experience. I also learned that it’s okay if I’m not where I want to be in life. I still have a long way to go. I will find a career I love and will keep growing. It all takes time, pacience and trust in myself. I have to love myself, believe in myself and know that I can make my dreams come true such as working and living in Spain โœจ

I also went to my first feminist strike in Valladolid, in Spain on International Women’s Day on the 8th of March with my mother. This was such an empowerful event. I never went to a demonstration before. I really wish 2019 will be the year that less women will be suffering from violence. I wish that women and men have the same human rights. Together we are starting a revolution. This is just the beginning. 2019 will be the year where women can be themselves, love themselves and love each other ๐Ÿ’•

This year I also learned that music is the best thing in life ๐ŸŽถ I would be lost without music. I went to so many amazing concerts such as the Operaciรณn Triunfo 2017 concert in Madrid with my friend Maria ๐Ÿ’• Operaciรณn Triunfo makes me so happy and full of life. I also enjoyed the concert of Pablo Alboran, Chenoa, Hombres G and Celtas Cortos with my mother in Valladolid. I also enjoyed so much the concert of Sofia Ellar with my friend Maria. I can’t wait to see her again. It was so lovely to meet Sofia and get a picture with her. She’s the best and I can’t wait to see her singing again ๐Ÿ˜

This year I began to read again a lot which I loved to do so much when I was younger. I will continue reading this new year. I also kept writing and being creative. I hope to create more amazing content on this blog. Writing is amazing. I travelled to Madrid, Granada, Santander and Somo. I discovered Somo which is a beautiful surfing village in the north of Spain. In 2019 I really want to go to a surf camp again ๐Ÿ„โ€โ™€๏ธ๐ŸŒŠ๐ŸŒž. I didn’t go surfing for more than two years. I miss it so much. It’s also so good for my mental health. The sea is my home and cleans my soul. The beach is my favourite place on this earth. I can’t wait to travel to more amazing places and meet more amazing people.

Somo, Santander (September 2018)

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Granada, Andalucia (July 2018)

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La Rรกbita, Mediterranean Sea, Granada (July 2018)

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Madrid (March 2018)

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Maybe for some of you this year was a hard year. Maybe some of you have lost someone close to you. Maybe you just didn’t felt okay and were struggling. I’m here for you. It’s okay to grief. It’s okay to not be okay. It’s okay to feel sad. Feelings change and emotions change but it all takes time. Try to not be hard on yourself next year. Remember, I’ll will always be there for you ๐Ÿ’• I hope you will invest in self love and self care this new year because that’s the most important thing that matters. I also encourage you all to surround yourself with people who love you and who bring you only good vibes because you deserve that โœจ.

I celebrated my New Year’s Eve in Valladolid, in Spain. I decided to not go out with my friends. I also didn’t go out last year. I used to party every year but I don’t feel in the mood anymore. I have to do what feels good to me. I went to the hairdressers in the afternoon to cut the dead ends, my bangs and they made curls in my hair. I love to look good for myself. I dressed up at home and did my make up. My mother and I went to the house of the mother of the wife of my brother. We celebrated all together New Year’s Eve: Rafael, my mother, Vรฉronica, Vรฉronica’s mother and her brother. We enjoyed eating delicious Spanish food.

We ate cheese, jamon serrano, chorizo, bread and chicken. I didn’t eat the fish because I don’t like fish so much haha ๐Ÿ˜‚ At 12 o’clock we watched the television and ate the 12 grapes. We also had champagne ๐Ÿฅ‚. It’s a tradition in Spain to eat the 12 grapes. They say it brings luck. We watched television where we were hearing beautiful music and we played Spanish card games. I really loved it so much. I love playing games with my family. At 3.30 am my mother and I went home and we stayed in watching some television. We went to bed at 6 am pretty late but doesn’t matter because it’s a special night. I’m glad I didn’t go out because as soon as we were home I got my period haha. On New Year’s Day we just stayed in and chilled. I saw the movie Grease. I just love that movie & the music so much ๐Ÿ˜ I also saw the movie Paper Towns which I love so much from John Green. I already saw this movie with my best friend one day and loved it.

l wish you all an amazing new year full of love, happiness and luck ๐Ÿ€โœจโœŒ๏ธ Stay strong & stay safe. We are all in this together ๐Ÿ’ช I love you all so so so much โค๏ธ. Thank you all for reading. How was your New Year’s Eve? Did you stay at home or did you went to a party? Which are your goals or dreams to achieve in 2019? I would love to know. I will speak to you all soon in my next blog post.

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Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

December goals ๐ŸŽ„๐ŸŽ๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽ…

Hey lovely bloggers ๐Ÿ’•,

Yeahhhh it’s December, one of my favourite months in the year ๐ŸŽ‰. I love holiday season. I just love Sinterklaas, Christmas and New Year’s eve so much. It’s all about love, light and happiness. It feels good to spend it with family and friends, just the ones you love. I really liked to write the post of my November goals so today I will write about my December goals. I would be really happy if I stick to these kind of blog posts every month. It’s fun to do and also keeps me motivated to achieve all of my goals. I achieved almost every goal last month so I’m really proud of myself. The goals for December will be related to Christmas, self care, Spain and more.

  • Finishing writing Christmas cards and sending them or giving them

I already wrote 28 Christmas cards from the 31 Christmas cards which is a lot. Every year I write less because I also love to receive Christmas cards ๐Ÿ’Œ. I’m doing a great job in writing something personal, decorating them with stickers and washi tape. I love stationery stuff so much. I still have to write 3 Christmas cards and then I’m done. I have to send some cards by post and some I can just give to my friends and family. I really love to exchange Christmas cards so much. It makes me really happy to know that someone made an effort to write me something personal and I also love handwritten cards so much.

  • Celebrating Sinterklaas with my family

On the first of December we are going to celebrate Sinterklaas. This is a typical feast in The Netherlands. It’s really fun to give and receive presents. We are going to celebrate it with my two brothers, my niece and their wifes and my parents in the south of Holland: Brabant. It’s like two hours by car. I really love car rides haha adventure time. I’m just going to listen to music and enjoy life. I also can’t wait to receive presents ๐ŸŽ haha I’m not that materalistic but I love to get presents that mean something for me and are personal. Maybe I will write a Sinterklaas haul after the celebration.

  • Posting Christmas content on my blog

I want to post a Christmas carol sang by me this Christmas. I also always want to post something special for Christmas, how my Christmas was and let you guys see my Christmas decorations at home. My mother always makes home so beautiful and I love the big Christmas tree. Some friends of mine even said that my home looks like a home in America all decorated hahah ๐ŸŽ„๐Ÿ˜‚. I also always post a special post for New Year.

  • Celebrating Christmas with my family

Every year I celebrate Christmas with my family at home. We are 8 people, my two brothers, niece, their wifes and my parents. It’s really cozy at our home and also with all the Christmas decorations I really feel the Christmas spirit. I also sometimes go to the church at night. I used to sang in that choir. I also sometimes watch “All you need is love” which is a Dutch programme on tv which brings long distance couples and families together for Christmas. It’s so beautiful and emotional to see. I always have to cry a lot. I’m also wearing my special Christmas dress which you will see on my pictures.

  • Packing my suitcase for Spain

I will have to pack my suitcase before the 27th of December to go to Spain. I really can’t wait to go to Spain. I also really wish that before I go I hear back from a job I applied in Spain which is working in El Corte Ingles, a famous Spanish shop. I just want to live in Spain. I can’t wait to see my Spanish friends again. I also really missed the delicious tapas and the sunshine. I can’t stand that the there’s no sunshine these days. In Spain it’s also cold but the sun is there so it makes winter a bit better. I need vitamine D! ๐ŸŒž

  • Keep applying for jobs

I already said that in my November goals ๐Ÿ blog post that I have to apply for jobs. I did apply for some jobs in Spain. I also applied to work in a famous shop in Spain called El Corte Inglรฉs but I still didn’t heard back. A few days ago at night I was crying because I feel like I really do much effort in writing a cv and motivation letters and I keep hearing nothing back. I don’t know what I have to change in order to get a job. It still makes me anxious and all….

  • Going to the Christmas market in Haarlem with my bff and family

Every year there’s a Christmas market in different cities in The Netherlands. It’s like the Christmas markets you see in Germany. It’s really beautiful. You can buy handmade cards, stationery stuff or products for home. You can buy just so many nice stuff. You can also drink a delicious gluhwein and eat delicious food. I always like to drink soup which keeps me warm. Next weekend is the Christmas market in Haarlem. I’m going with my best friend and also with my family one day. I will take pictures and share them. I also love the Christmas music which they are playing.

  • Beginning to read the book “Your bullsh*t free guide to live with anxiety” from Caroline Foran

I would love to keep reading amazing books as this book. This book will help me with coping with anxiety. I heard it’s a great book so I’m very excited to begin to read it. When I’m finished with this book I will maybe make a book review of it.

  • Having a better sleep schedule

I think this is one of the most important goals which I always seem to not achieve hahah omg ๐Ÿ˜‚. If I would have a job or study I would have a routine. Now I’m sleeping at 4 am and waking up at 1 pm…. xD That’s my life. I really need to sleep earlier and wake up a bit earlier but I seem to not get my life together. Hopefully, I can change this a bit. It’s also important for my health. I know I will never be a morning person but I really do hope to change my sleep routine ๐Ÿ’ค

  • Use bath bomb of Lush

I need to have a bath in December ๐Ÿ›€ because I only had a bath once since I’m in The Netherlands. I just always shower because it’s faster. In Spain we don’t have a bath so I need to enjoy it and use it more here. My mother bought me in October an amazing bath bomb of Lush which I really need to try. She bought me the Avobath which contains avocado oil and lemongrass. It really smells so well. It really would make me feel so good. Self care is so important ๐Ÿ’•. Alaways take time for yourself. You deserve to do things that makes you feel good about yourself.

  • Celebrating New Year’s Eve with my friends in Spain

I always go out on New Year’s eve after eating the 12 grapes at 00.00 which is a typical tradition and Spain. It brings luck haha I need that. Last year I didn’t go out for the first time since years because I just didn’t want to go out ๐ŸŽ‰. I think it’s also okay to stay at home. Do what you like. I also don’t drink because of taking antidepressants and I just don’t feel like drinking.

This year I will go and will go the hairdresser to do curls in my hair and maybe buy a new dress for that night. If I get tired or I want to leave before 6 am then it’s okay. I will just enjoy it. I always liked fiestas but lately I feel more anxious surrounded by much people and just don’t like all the parties so much. I feel more at home during a concert because the people are there to just enjoy the music. I don’t like when at a party a boy is touching me without my consent and staring at me. I just feel very uncomfortable then. I love to dance with my friends and have fun ๐ŸŽถ. It’s just the environment that isn’t my place.

These were all my goals for December. I hope you enjoyed reading it. Can you relate to this list? What are your December goals? Let me know in the comments. I hope we will all achieve these goals this month. I wish you all good luck ๐Ÿ€๐Ÿคž

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

Happy New Year to you all! ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŒ ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿ’ƒ๐ŸŽถโœŒ๐Ÿ’•

Hey lovely bloggers โค,

I still needed to post some New Year posts. I was so busy with all the celebrations in December. It is never too late to wish each other a happy new year, right?! I will share in this blog post what I did on New Year’s Eve.

I wish you all a happy new year full of love, health, luck and happiness! ๐ŸŒ ๐Ÿ’•โค I really do hope that all your dreams come true because you all deserve that so much. I’m so grateful for my 131 followers. My blog keeps growing and I’m forever blessed for that. I never knew that anyone would actually read my blog posts. I wish that 2018 will be your year. Make it a 2018 to remember! โค Make your dreams come true! ๐Ÿ’• You are all beautiful human beings and I’m forever blessed to have you in my life. Let’s always be together and see what the future will brings us.

It was the first New Year’s Eve for me that I didn’t go out in Spain. It was the first night in 7 years that I didn’t went partying with my friends. Some of my friends went to a party and some not. It’s all okay. Don’t feel the social pressure to go out if you don’t want. Don’t drink too much alcohol just to be cool. Do what feels good for you โค

I had a delicious dinner at home with my family and I drink some champagne ๐Ÿธ In Spain it’s a tradition to eat 12 grapes at midnight. It brings luck. I also enjoyed watching a Spanish programme on Antena 3 which was about singing songs together with my family. It was a cozy night in and I really enjoyed it ๐Ÿ’• I was happy to spend it at home. I enjoyed new year’s eve partying these last years but I also find it so crowdy and so expensive when you don’t drink so much. I enjoy dancing a lot but for me it’s better to go out another weekend ๐Ÿ’• What did you do this New Year’s Eve?

Here are some pictures from my night:


ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย  I bought this dress last year for New Year’s Eve and this year I wore it againย 

ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย  With Jairo, brother of Veronica (Girlfriend of my brother)ย 

I hope you all enjoyed this blog post. I will write some of my New Year’s resolutions in the next post. I will also share a blog post about the Three Kings which I celebrated last weekend. It’s an important day of celebration in Spain. Enjoy this beautiful new year!! ๐Ÿ’•

Love you all so much โคโคโค

Much love,

xoxo Christina