World Mental Health Day 2020 πŸ’šπŸ’ͺ

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

Today is World Mental Health Day. Mental health is important every damn day. Mental health is as important as physical health. Today I want to share a poem about mental health. I’m here for you all πŸ™πŸ’ž. This year is even harder for all of us because of being more isolated this year. More people died by suicide and are struggling with their mental health because of the pandemic. I definitely feel this year is really such a struggle. It’s important that we all help each other.

Every 40 seconds someone dies by suicide. 1 out of 5 people suffer from a mental illness on a daily basis. I can say that we are done about speaking up. It’s time to change the whole mental health care system. The waiting lists are too long, the help is too late at times and there are no funds for good treatments. This is a worldwide issue which definitely need to change in all countries. Voting a political party which listen to our needs could make a change. There needs to be done so much in our society until everyone can get the help they need whenever they need it.

I’m so thankful for the support I have here online. I love the blogging mental health community. I love the support I get from my family especially my mother. She knows how to care for me and love me especially on the days I feel bad. I love my friends, pen pals and online friends so much too. I take anti anxiety meds when I need them like when I go to the dentist, have to fly or any other situation which makes me anxious and out of control. Everyone deals with it on their own way. There’s no right way. I don’t know whether I will go therapy once and that would help me. It’s also not okay to push someone into doing something they don’t think would help. Healing and recovery isn’t linear and it different for everyone. I think sometimes we just have to find a way with living with it. Writing, doing yoga, blogging, singing, listening to music, being with my loved ones, walks in nature, the sea, surfing, reading, meditation, speaking with someone I trust are all important tools that make me feel better. I hope you also have some great resources that will help you in your life. Mental health illnesses are so complexed, different and hard to treat. I guess at one point it will get better. We have to fight for that day and stay together.

This is the most vulnerable video I made. It’s a spoken poem for today. I hope it makes you feel less alone in your struggle and know that we are all in this together ❀️πŸ’ͺ I love you all so much.

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Today it's World Mental Health Day. This has to be every day and not just one day in a year. Every 40 seconds someone dies by suicide. 1 out of 5 people suffer from a mental illness on a daily basis. I can say that we are done about speaking up. It's time to change the whole mental health care system. The waiting lists are too long, the help is too late at times and there are no funds for good treatments. This is a worldwide issue which definitely need to change in all countries. Voting a political party which listen to our needs could make a change. There needs to be done so much in our society until everyone can get the help they need whenever they need it. This is the most vulnerable video I made. It's a spoken poem for today. I hope it makes you feel less alone in your struggle and know that we are all in this together ❀️πŸ’ͺ I love you all so much. I close my eyes All I see and feel is darkness I feel lost I'm not myself anymore My chest feels tight I'm breathing faster My heart rate is racing So many thoughts about the future I'm nauseous I'm getting dizzy Cold Warm I'm getting crazy Why can't I just feel like a normal person? I began to cry What's happening to me? This is what it feels to suffer from anxiety and panic attacks It's the worst 1 of 5 people suffer on a daily basis with their mental health Depression, bipolar, borderline, eating disorder, psychoses, anxiety, ocd Any person can suffer from one or more of them They all matter No matter your nationality, gender, age, race Mental illnesses are real There's no need to shame What we need is compassion, support and respect A better mental health system Every illness counts Time is ticking It's time to save lives Change the mental health care system We don't want more deaths We want better treatments available for all Because We all deserve to feel safe, loved and get the help we need whenever we need it Our time is now Let's all fight for a better system and society We are not alone We are all in this together always πŸ’ͺ❀️ We are warriors πŸ’ͺ Love you all Amen β€οΈπŸ™

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I close my eyes
All I see and feel is darkness
I feel lost
I’m not myself anymore
My chest feels tight
I’m breathing faster
My heart rate is racing
So many thoughts about the future
I’m nauseous
I’m getting dizzy
Cold
Warm
I’m getting crazy
Why can’t I just feel like a normal person?
I began to cry
What’s happening to me?

This is what it feels to suffer from anxiety and panic attacks
It’s the worst
1 of 5 people suffer on a daily basis with their mental health
Depression, bipolar, borderline, eating disorder, psychoses, anxiety, ocd
Any person can suffer from one or more of them
They all matter
No matter your nationality, gender, age, race
Mental illnesses are real
There’s no need to shame
What we need is compassion, support and respect
A better mental health system
Every illness counts
Time is ticking
It’s time to save lives
Change the mental health care system
We don’t want more deaths
We want better treatments available for all
Because
We all deserve to feel safe, loved and get the help we need whenever we need it
Our time is now
Let’s all fight for a better system and society
We are not alone
We are all in this together always πŸ’ͺ❀️
We are warriors πŸ’ͺ
Love you all
Amen β€οΈπŸ™

Remember, you are never alone. Like Ram Dass says, we are walking each other home. We are here for each other. I really wouldn’t know where I would be without all of you. My blog. My safe space. It’s so good to have a place where you feel like you can be yourself. I never felt this way before. I have always felt the feeling that I don’t belong anywhere. I never felt at home until I went to NYC and spoke at the United Nations and when I did my internship in Valladolid. Those places reminded me that good people exists. I also never felt at home until I began this blog. I didn’t knew so many awesome, inspirational and good people exists. Sometimes we forget it because of all what’s going on in the world. When there’s so much negative news we sometimes go into a dark hole and can only see the negative side of this world. I’m happy that thanks to blogging I know there are so many people who want you to be happy, healthy and will support you along your way.

Thank you a million times for always being there for me. There will be good and hard times in life. As long as we are together we will be fine because we will support each other along the way in this crazy adventure called life. I hope we can all meet one day, have deep talks and enjoy life together. I can’t wait to see you all making your wildest and biggest dreams coming true. I will always be cheering you from the side. You are not alone. You are kind. You are loved. Always remember too, you are enough. Don’t let society make you feel like you are not. Your mental health illness doesn’t define you as a person. I sometimes also feel like I’m an anxious person but it’s more like I suffer from anxiety. I’m not my anxiety. We aren’t our illness. We are much more than that. It isn’t our choice to be sick.

Thank you all for reading and watching my video. I hope it made you feel less alone and inspired you 🌌🌠. What do you think need to change in the mental health care system? What does make you feel better? How are you feeling now? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

Turtles all the way down by John Green book review & my favourite quotes πŸ“–πŸ’—πŸ’

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

It’s time for a book post again yeahhh! It takes me so long to read a book to be honest. I love to read every day 10 pages so it takes me a few months to read one book. I’m a slow reader πŸ˜‚ I finally finished the amazing young adult book Turtles all the way down by John Green. This post will be a review of the book and I will also share my favourite quotes from it. I hope you are going to love it as much as I do.

Turtles all the way down – John Green πŸ’šπŸ’

Summary:

It’s the latest novel of John Green. This book is about the 16 year old Aza who suffers from anxiety and OCD. Her best friend is called Daisy. It’s a story about love, friendship, Star Wars fan fiction, mistery and loss. Together they are trying to solve a mistery case of the fugitive billionaire and the promise is a cash reward. In the book you can read the ever-tightening spiral of Aza’a own thoughts. She’s always afraid to get sick and die.

My review:

I really loved this book so much. It’s so raw, real and honest. John Green suffered from OCD and anxiety in his teenage years. This book is so beautiful. I can relate so much to the thoughts of Aza. I also experience that never ending spiral of thoughts which cause me anxiety. He described the thoughts of Aza so real that you can understand it so well. I also love Daisy who’s her best friend and who’s more rational. She doesn’t suffer from a mental illness but helps her best friend so well. Their friendship is beautiful with their ups and downs. I love the writing style from John Green so much. My favourite book from him is The fault in our stars. I still have to read many more of him. I also likes that this book is easy to read.

Stars: ⭐⭐⭐⭐

I give this book 4 stars because I loved to read it. However, sometimes they were some difficult words written such as from an illness which I didn’t know. I also give it 4 stars because I would have liked a little bit more information of the fugitive billionaire. It was an amazing book to read because it’s so honest and true. I find it hard to deal with anxiety and any mental illness such as anxiety or OCD needs awareness and understanding. I hope many teeangers, young adults and just anyone read this amazing book to understand what it feels to have those thoughts every day. Then they can understand how exhausting it is. John Green is such an amazing writer! I love him so much and hope he continues to write beautiful books! 😍

My favourite quotes:

I would love to share now my favourites quotes from this book. They inspire me and make me feel so much emotions. I hope it inspires you as well.

β€œWe never really talked much or even looked at each other, but it didn’t matter because we were looking at the same sky together, which is maybe even more intimate than eye contact anyway. I mean, anybody can look at you. It’s quite rare to find someone who sees the same world you see.”

β€œThe problem with happy endings is that they’re either not really happy, or not really endings, you know? In real life, some things get better and some things get worse. And then eventually you die.”

β€œNo, it’s not, Holmesy. You pick your endings, and your beginnings. You get to pick the frame, you know? Maybe you don’t choose what’s in the picture, but you decide the frame.”

β€œOur hearts were broken in the same places. That’s something like love, but maybe not quite the thing itself.”

β€œWe always say we are beneath the stars. We aren’t, of courseβ€”there is no up or down, and anyway the stars surround us. But we say we are beneath them, which is nice. So often English glorifies the humanβ€”we are whos, other animals are thatβ€”but English puts us beneath the stars, at least.”

β€œEvery loss is unprecedented. You can’t ever know someone else’s hurt, not really – just like touching someone else’s body isn’t the same as having someone else’s body.”

β€œIt’s so weird, to know you’re crazy and not be able to do anything about it, you know? It’s not like you believe yourself to be normal. You know there is a problem. But you can’t figure a way through to fixing it. Because you can’t be sure, you know?”

β€œI get that nothing lasts. But why do I have to miss everybody so much?”

β€œYou feeling scared?”
β€œKinda.”
β€œOf what?”
β€œIt’s not like that. The sentence doesn’t have, like, an object. I’m just scared.”

β€œThoughts are only thoughts.They are not you, you belong to yourself even when your thoughts don’t.”

β€œYou remember your first love because they show you, prove to you, that you can love and be loved, that nothing in this world is deserved except for love, that love is both how you become a person, and why.”

β€œAnd the thing is, when you lose someone, you realize you’ll eventually lose everyone.”

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope you all liked this book review. Did you read Turtles all the way down? Did you like it? Did you read any book of John Green? What was your last read? Let me know. I would love to know your thoughts. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

November book reviews πŸ“–πŸ’•

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

This will be a new theme in my blog posts which I’m happy about it. This will be my first book review post. I’m really excited about writing about books πŸ˜πŸ“– I’m into reading again and I love it. Every time I read I feel so happy and just feel as I’m in another world, my dream world. I know many of you know what I mean. I just read three amazing books these months which are: “Am I normal yet” by Holly Bourne, “The alchemist” by Paulo Coelho and “The sun and her flowers” by Rupi Kaur. I will make a review about them and rate them with stars. I will try to not have any spoilers in my reviews haha. I just wrote a little summary about what the book is about and if I liked it or not.

Am I Normal Yet – Holly Bourne

Summary:

This book is about Evie who is the main character in this book. She’s a 16 years old girl who has OCD and Generalised Anxiety Disorder. She’s going to college for the first time in her life. She had a tough time and not that she’s almost off her medication and feeling better she just want to be act and live as a normal girl. She don’t want anyone to know that she has these mental illnesses. She just wants to be normal and go to college, have fun and get a boyfriend. At college she find her two best friends which are Lottie and Amber. Together they make The Spinster Club. In these meetings they meet each other and talk about feminism πŸ‘­πŸ’œ. This is the first book of The Spinster Club book series from Holly Bourne.

My review:

I really loved this book so much. It was an easy book to read. I love Young Adult books so much. Holly Bourne is an amazing writer who writes about feminism and mental health in such a honest, vulnerable and raw way. The writing style is also funny and just feels so real. I really love that so much. When I’m reading the thoughts and feelings of Evie I can really understand it as I also suffer from anxiety. This is an amazing book about friendships, mental health and feminism. These three themes are really important and close to my heart. I also consider myself a feminist by heart. This book is realistic and was so beautiful to read. Now, I also know more how someone with OCD thinks and feels. I didn’t know that much about this mental illness. It’s more than just washing hands. It’s about rituals, being afraid of getting sick all the time and so much more. I encourage anyone to read this amazing book. You will not regret it.

Stars: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

I give this book 5 stars because it’s just a beautiful and easy book to read. The moment you began reading you are already in the story which I love. I also love books about feminism and mental health. I can’t wait to read the other books from this serie written by Holly Bourne about the Spinster Club.

The Alchemist – Paulo Coelho

Summary:

The book is about a young boy who’s called Santiago. He is a Spanish shepherd with sheeps and lives in the South of Spain, in Andalucia. He dreamt twice that he was in Egypt by the pyramids where he had to find a treasure. Santiago wants to travel the world to find out how the world works. Santiago travels from him homeland in Spain to the Egyptian desert in search of a treasure buried in the Pyramids. Along the way he meets a Gypsy woman, a man who calls himself king, and an alchemist. The alchemist knows all the secrets of the world. No one knows what the treasure is, or if Santiago will be able to surmount the obstacles along the way. It’s a very long way.

My review:

This book was so beautiful. This book is all about finding your soul in this world and knowing what your purpose is in life. It makes me think of following your dreams in life. It’s a really touching story which makes you think of everything. We all have dreams in life and we have to make them come true. When you have a dream in your life the whole universe will make it come true. This book makes me also think of how important it is to listen to our hearts because they never lie. Always listen to your heart and let your life be guide by your heart β€οΈπŸ™. Your heart always know which direction to go in life.

Stars: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

I give this book 5 stars because it was such an amazing book to read. I love Paulo Coelho and I really would love to read more books of him. It’s also an easy book to read. This book made me think of my life and my dreams. This book made me feel inspired, positive and happy to follow all my dreams in life and to make them true. It’s all about living your best life according to your values.

The Sun and Her Flowers – Rupi Kaur

Summary:

This is a poetry book. Her first book was “Milk and Honey”. I still need to buy and read that book. This is her second book and it’s a collection of her poetry. The pages are illustrated by Rupi Kaur. The Sun and Her flowers is a poetry book devided into five chapters. It’s a journey of wilting, falling, rooting, rising & blooming. It’s a celebration of love in all its forms πŸŽ‰πŸ’•.

My review:

Aaaah this poetry book was so good! Just wow. Every poem I’ve read and every drawing I saw was just so beautiful. I could feel the words in my head and understand the emotions and thoughts. Her poetry is just so amazing. It was also easy to read. I love poetry but I don’t like to read really difficult poems that I don’t understand. These poems were really easy to understand and were all so amazing. Her poetry is so honest, real and pure 😍. She can also draw so beautifully. They pictured very well the poem on the page.

Stars: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

I also give this book 5 stars because it’s an amazing book full of beautiful poems and drawings. Rupi Kaur is an amazing writer. Her poems are easy to understand, so raw and so honest. I really love her so much and I can’t wait to read the first book of her “Milk and Honey”. Hopefully, I will be able to meet her one day too. I hope that she will come to Europe for a poetry show.

Thank you all for reading my first book review post. I hope you all liked this blog post. Maybe, I will write more of them ☺️. I wil keep reading good books haha. Did anyone of you read any of these books? Which one was your favourite and why? Do you also love reading as much as I do? Let me know in the comments. I would love to know your thoughts. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina