Reflection on 2018 & happy new year to you all! πŸŽ‰βœ¨πŸ’•πŸ’«

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

Happy new year to you all! βœ¨πŸŽ‰ In this post I will talk about my 2018 and will show you how I celebrated New Year’s Eve. I’m glad I don’t have a cold amymore but just tonight I got my period so yeah that also sucks 😭 I’m glad I take medication for the cramps because otherwise I wouldn’t survive it. Besides, I’m also being anxious about my appointment of getting one of my wisdom teeth pulled out this week. I keep postponing the appointment. I know I have to do it but I’m so scared. H e l p. I also don’t want to do it in Holland. Here in Spain it’s much cheaper and the dentist understands my anxiety but I’m still so afraid and I just feel like I can’t cope. If anyone have some more tips to survive it I will be forever grateful πŸ™πŸ’• I can always take medication for anxiety if that’s enough to help me cope with it.

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We are already in 2019. A year has flown by. As usually I want to reflect on my year with this post and also write some important things for you all. Every year has its ups and downs. Every year consists of good things and bad things which happen to us. The most important thing is how we react to all these things. I know how hard it’s to stay positive in this sometimes dark world. I just keep believing that there are so many good things in the world and that there are indeed so many good people. You just have to find your tribe. I’m so glad I did.

I’m so happy with my blogging community, mental health community, Yoga Girl community and the goddess revolution community. I’m thankful that I joined these communities this year. They made me feel less alone and so much happier. If I’m in Holland I will maybe go to a meet up with some yoga girls. I also really wish that we will continue to all be friends and hopefully one day we will all meet ✨ I know the universe brought us all together for a reason which is to be connected with awesome people, share our struggles and feel supported.

I learned a lot this year. I learn every day from this world. This year I realized that there are truly lovely people who care about you and want you to be happy. I learned that it’s better to have a few good friends than a million of fake friends. The ones who love you will always be there for you no matter what. I learned that true love exists when I saw my brother getting married in August in Spain. I learned that this life is an adventure. Sometimes we win and sometimes we loose. We learn from every experience. I also learned that it’s okay if I’m not where I want to be in life. I still have a long way to go. I will find a career I love and will keep growing. It all takes time, pacience and trust in myself. I have to love myself, believe in myself and know that I can make my dreams come true such as working and living in Spain ✨

I also went to my first feminist strike in Valladolid, in Spain on International Women’s Day on the 8th of March with my mother. This was such an empowerful event. I never went to a demonstration before. I really wish 2019 will be the year that less women will be suffering from violence. I wish that women and men have the same human rights. Together we are starting a revolution. This is just the beginning. 2019 will be the year where women can be themselves, love themselves and love each other πŸ’•

This year I also learned that music is the best thing in life 🎢 I would be lost without music. I went to so many amazing concerts such as the OperaciΓ³n Triunfo 2017 concert in Madrid with my friend Maria πŸ’• OperaciΓ³n Triunfo makes me so happy and full of life. I also enjoyed the concert of Pablo Alboran, Chenoa, Hombres G and Celtas Cortos with my mother in Valladolid. I also enjoyed so much the concert of Sofia Ellar with my friend Maria. I can’t wait to see her again. It was so lovely to meet Sofia and get a picture with her. She’s the best and I can’t wait to see her singing again 😍

This year I began to read again a lot which I loved to do so much when I was younger. I will continue reading this new year. I also kept writing and being creative. I hope to create more amazing content on this blog. Writing is amazing. I travelled to Madrid, Granada, Santander and Somo. I discovered Somo which is a beautiful surfing village in the north of Spain. In 2019 I really want to go to a surf camp again πŸ„β€β™€οΈπŸŒŠπŸŒž. I didn’t go surfing for more than two years. I miss it so much. It’s also so good for my mental health. The sea is my home and cleans my soul. The beach is my favourite place on this earth. I can’t wait to travel to more amazing places and meet more amazing people.

Somo, Santander (September 2018)

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Granada, Andalucia (July 2018)

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La RΓ‘bita, Mediterranean Sea, Granada (July 2018)

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Madrid (March 2018)

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Maybe for some of you this year was a hard year. Maybe some of you have lost someone close to you. Maybe you just didn’t felt okay and were struggling. I’m here for you. It’s okay to grief. It’s okay to not be okay. It’s okay to feel sad. Feelings change and emotions change but it all takes time. Try to not be hard on yourself next year. Remember, I’ll will always be there for you πŸ’• I hope you will invest in self love and self care this new year because that’s the most important thing that matters. I also encourage you all to surround yourself with people who love you and who bring you only good vibes because you deserve that ✨.

I celebrated my New Year’s Eve in Valladolid, in Spain. I decided to not go out with my friends. I also didn’t go out last year. I used to party every year but I don’t feel in the mood anymore. I have to do what feels good to me. I went to the hairdressers in the afternoon to cut the dead ends, my bangs and they made curls in my hair. I love to look good for myself. I dressed up at home and did my make up. My mother and I went to the house of the mother of the wife of my brother. We celebrated all together New Year’s Eve: Rafael, my mother, VΓ©ronica, VΓ©ronica’s mother and her brother. We enjoyed eating delicious Spanish food.

We ate cheese, jamon serrano, chorizo, bread and chicken. I didn’t eat the fish because I don’t like fish so much haha πŸ˜‚ At 12 o’clock we watched the television and ate the 12 grapes. We also had champagne πŸ₯‚. It’s a tradition in Spain to eat the 12 grapes. They say it brings luck. We watched television where we were hearing beautiful music and we played Spanish card games. I really loved it so much. I love playing games with my family. At 3.30 am my mother and I went home and we stayed in watching some television. We went to bed at 6 am pretty late but doesn’t matter because it’s a special night. I’m glad I didn’t go out because as soon as we were home I got my period haha. On New Year’s Day we just stayed in and chilled. I saw the movie Grease. I just love that movie & the music so much 😍 I also saw the movie Paper Towns which I love so much from John Green. I already saw this movie with my best friend one day and loved it.

l wish you all an amazing new year full of love, happiness and luck πŸ€βœ¨βœŒοΈ Stay strong & stay safe. We are all in this together πŸ’ͺ I love you all so so so much ❀️. Thank you all for reading. How was your New Year’s Eve? Did you stay at home or did you went to a party? Which are your goals or dreams to achieve in 2019? I would love to know. I will speak to you all soon in my next blog post.

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Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

Body positivity: I’m thin and that’s okay πŸ’•

Hey lovely bloggers 😍,

Today I want to talk about body positivity. This is such an important subject. There are still so many people suffering with this subject. Women and men suffer from this subject. We often think that only women suffer from not feeling good enough in their bodies. It isn’t true. Also men suffer from not feeling good enough. They don’t feel good enough or feel like they have to look a certain way to be happy. I want to talk about body positivity with this picture. I made this picture in La Alhambra in Granada, in Spain last Summer. Something I struggled with through my life is the fact that I’m thin. I’m happy with my body but I struggled with the fact that people bullied me for being thin. You may think people will praise you because you are thin. It isn’t true. People critice every body size.

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When I was in high school I got comments that I’m not a woman because I don’t have big breasts or they said that I’m only bones. I also got worse comments which was that they said and asked me if I had anorexia. Those bad comments really hurt me and made me feel insecure about myself. I don’t have any eating disorder. This is such a mean comment and also an insult for those who really struggle with eating disorders. I really wish that those who suffer from an eating disorder can all recover and be happy with their body and theirselves. They really deserve that. It’s such a serious illness that has to be taken seriously because many people die from it every year. They saw that I ate a lot of chocolate and that I didn’t get any weight. I’m sorry but that it’s not my fault. This is just the way I’m made. I remember a girl said once to me that I will get thick when I’m older. I was like wtf why are you saying that to me?! I guess all those people were just jealous and enjoyed causing me hurt with their words.

I also remember many times that I went to eat with my Spanish family and they were all the time saying: “Wow you look really skinny”, “You have to eat more”, “Are you okay?”. I’m fucking okay but not with all those stupid comments. I know my family cares about me but those words just only caused me anxiety about my body image. In Spain, people love food and if they are not eating, they are cooking or thinking about food. I like food and eat well but I don’t like to eat that much as they do in Spain. It’s really insane how much they can eat here hahaha. I don’t want to be nauseous because of eating too much. I think that’s why sometimes when I feel uncomfortable at a place while eating I get nauseous. I fear again the comments people would make me. I felt like I had to eat much food so that nobody would critice me. Now, I just eat what I want and don’t care that much about what they say to me. This is my body and I’m happy with it. However, sometimes those words can still hurt me but I try to care less.

I also think society is causing a lot of damage to our body image. When we watch television or read a magazine we see all those perfect people with their perfect bodies. We began to think that we also have to look that way in order to be happy with our bodies and ourselves. It’s just a bad illusion. Most of those pictures you see are photoshop and aren’t even real. Do you really think you would be happy if you would look like that model in the magazine?! I think not because if you aren’t accepting yourself now, you won’t accept yourself if you would look different. It’s just creating a negative influence on your confidence. You have to accept yourself and your body now. I’m in favour or people doing sports in order to feel happy. I’m not in favour of people who are doing sports in order to loose so much weight to be happy. Trust me, it won’t make you happy. If you are doing sports because you have to do it it won’t create the benefits when you a sport because you love to do it and because it makes you happy. When I go swimming I feel refreshed and happy. Do something because it makes you feel good about yourself and not as punishment.

I wish everybody could embrace their bodies instead of criticising it. We have one body. Our body is our temple and we have to live in it until we die. It’s time to start a revolution and love our body and care for it. Your scars, stretch marks, flaws, curves and everything about your body is perfect the way you are.  Eat the right food, take care of it and practise self love. You only have one body so it’s important to take good care of it. Don’t listen to what society tells us to be. We are perfect the way we are. You are already enough. We don’t have to look a certain way to be happy about ourselves. We are more than our body, we are a person with beautiful values and a personality.

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Sometimes I really wish I could gain more weight. I really wish that but I just can’t. I learned to accept that this is my body size. Maybe in the future when I maybe will get pregnant I will gain some weight but I guess it won’t be that much. My mother has the same body size and also gain a bit weight when she got pregnant. This is the way we were made. I’m never hiding it and always make pictures in Summer and with my bikini. I learned to be proud of my body despite the negativity or judgmental comments people would make me. I’m more than my body size. I’m a person with great values and have a caring heart. I think that means much more than a body size. We are all different and that’s what make us unique and beautiful ❀ I wish we can all start a revolution of loving our bodies because all bodies are beautiful.

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I hope you all liked this blog post. I wish you all can’t relate to it because it makes me feel sad that so many people on this world still don’t love their bodies. You are all beautiful. It doesn’t matter which size you are. Remember that you are always enough. Love yourself no matter what πŸ’•

Much love πŸ’œ,

xoxo Christina

Positive self-talk will change your life πŸ’«

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

I just wanted to share a story about this quote. Positive self-talk is always a good idea and SO important.

I must admit that I have spend years in self-doubting and negative self-talk. During my childhood I was being bullied a lot…. This caused me anxiety and caused me that I started believing if people say mean things at me like that I was ugly or that I should better off be dead….

Nowadays, I feel much more confident than before. I don’t believe what people say to me anymore. I’m getting better at being myself and not caring what other people think of me. Sometimes it’s still hard but I’m getting there. I began to realize how important postive self talk is. We all have flaws but we should love our imperfect self because that’s what makes us human πŸ’«πŸ’•

We are so much more than all the stuff people say to us or the things they judge us on. If anybody has experienced this; don’t believe what they say to you. Stay true to yourself. All this people are just so jealous and don’t feel good about themselves and that’s why they start bullying people. They think they are better than us, but hell no WE ARE BETTER THAN THEM!

Be your beautiful self my lovelies and stop negative self talk. Take little steps each day, babysteps πŸ‘£. Begin to talk positive about yourself and watch how your life will change πŸ’« You can do it! πŸ‘

Much love,

xoxo πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•

Loving yourself is the beginning of a life-long romance πŸ’•

Hey all πŸ’•,

During my childhood I have been bullied a lot and suffered from this. This caused me a lack of self esteem and self confidence. I just never loved myself enough. I always felt like I wasn’t good enough. I felt like I didn’t deserve all the good things in life.

This also caused me to have a mental illness: anxiety. For people with a mental illness like myself it it’s even more difficult to enjoy life. Having anxiety makes it sometimes so hard to just feel peaceful and enjoy life. Having a mental health illness is really hard and makes life so difficult sometimes. That’s why it’s even more important for people with a mental health illness to build a good relationship with ourselves and do thinks we love. It all takes time. If you really have a bad day just a cup of tea or some meds will help you to make it another day. This can help you to enjoy your life a bit more even though you are feeling bad.

I love this quote πŸ’• Once I printed this quote out to decorate it in my room. It’s just so important to love yourself. You are going to be you for your whole life. The relationship you have with yourself is the most important one. It will determine all the other relationships you have with people. 
During my childhood I have been bullied a lot and suffered from this. This caused me a lack of self esteem and self confidence. I just never loved myself enough. I always felt like I wasn’t good enough. I felt like I didn’t deserve all the good things in life.

I’m struggled with loving myself every day but I feel much better than before! πŸ’ͺ I love myself much more than before. Having self esteem and self confidence takes time. You just have to take it one day at a time. You should think about the answers of these questions. What are the things that make you happy? What are the things that make you feel good about yourself? What can you do to improve your self esteem and confidence? This may be different for every person. Just think about it and let me know how you carry on πŸ’•

Try to avoid bad relationships. They only will bring you done and will never help you with building a good relationship with yourself. Try to be surrounded by real friends who support you and motivate you to reach your dreams. It is just so damn important to be surrounded by people who inspire you, lift you up and not bring you down. I’m so damn grateful for all the good people in my life. I love them a lot πŸ’•πŸ˜˜

I hope you all liked my post. Let me know what you think about it in the comment section πŸ’­  

Love yourself and everything will fall in place. You are enough and so worth it πŸ’œπŸŒΉπŸŒ»πŸŒΌπŸ’–

Much love,

xoxo

Loving yourself is the greatest revolution πŸ’•πŸ™

Hey lovely people πŸ’œ,

I love this image with important tips on how to love yourself sooooo much πŸ’•πŸ™. I just wanted to share this with you all:

I know many people struggle with loving theirselves. It’s hard to be yourself in a world where we are constantly told we shouldn’t be ourselves. We should be skinny, we should look perfect all the time, we shouldn’t wear too much or too less make up…. it’s just never good enough.

It’s important to analyse our thoughts and try to not be so hard on ourselves instead be kind to ourselves. The one thing I struggle a lot with is getting bad thoughts and making everything 1000 times worse than it is. It’s important to analyse our thoughts and replace a bad thought with a good thought. Easier said than done, but it takes time and practice.

Moreover, it is important to be with family and friends who support you and help you whenever you need it πŸ™ Try to avoid negative and judgmental people. They will only make you feel worse about yourself. Trust me, I have been there. Being with people who are judging you will never help you to feel positive about yourself.

Taking care of your body is important too. Doing yoga, swimming, surfing or whatever sport you like can really boost your mind and give you such a positive feeling afterwards. On Tuesday I’m going to Spain again and I can’t wait to go swimming in the outdoor swimmingpool 🌞🏊 Whenever I felt stressed I pushed myself to go swimming and afterwards I felt so goooood and peaceful. It was like all my stress completely had vanished.

So, stay true yourself because loving yourself is the greatest revolution πŸ’•

Much love,

xoxo

Celebrate tiny victories! πŸŽˆπŸ’«

Hey all πŸ’•,

Whenever I feel overwhelmed in life I think of all the things I have to finish. If I divide these big tasks in little ones so that I can handle it better. The little things in life matter the most. So you all should celebrate tiny victories! 🎈

You did a presentation and was so scared about it? – celebrate itΒ  You talked to a stranger? – celebrate itΒ  You reveal your feelings to someone? – celebrate itΒ  You decided to ask for help? – celebrate it You decided to stop smoking? – celebrate it You were nervous but made eye contact with somebody you like? – celebrate it

Trust me, CELEBRATE every little thing in your life, because as you grow older you gonna look back and remember that as the big things. For some people these things will be really easy but for some not especially those who are struggling with their mental health. Let all live in peace and harmony ✌

Today I studied for my exam and divided it in parts to make it feel less stressful. Even though I wasn’t in the mood to study. I studied well so that’s my tiny victory today. What were your tiny victories today? πŸ’«

Much love,

xoxo

One day at a time πŸ’•πŸ’«

Hey all πŸ’•,

I love this quote because I can relate to this so much. Especially right now… On Wednesday I have an upcoming exam about law. I already did this exam in June but failed for just 0.5. This is my only exam left to finish college and graduate. I’m suffering from anxiety and that makes studying even more difficult. I also can get caught up what am I going to do next with my life and all those future questions makes me feel even more anxious…

I think we all need to learn how to slow down in this world where we are constantly rushing. Sometimes life feels like a competition where everybody is rushing in obtaining their goals. Just slow down and enjoy life, be mindfull. We should learn to slow down time.

One day at a time… that’s the thing. Everything in life takes time. We should do everything in little steps to not feel overwhelmed. I get easy overwhelmed if I have to do big tasks but if I divide them it looks much easier and less stress will happen. 

Let me know how do you slow down time?

Much love,

xoxo