Let’s talk about sexual consent and my experiences with it

Hey lovelies 💕,

I find it important to talk about feminism, self love and everything related to it on my blog. As I’ve been reading the awesome blog of Ashley I read an important post about sexual consent which inspired me to write about it. April is Sexual Assault Awareness month. There’s no better time to write about it and also about some of my experiences regarding to this topic. I don’t know if this is too much information to share but I will share it anyway. That’s what my blog is for, to be always vulnerable, open and honest.

Sexual consent is agreeing to be sexual with someone. The two of them have to agree on it. What I often experienced and saw around me happening was that when a women don’t say NO or just isn’t sure it means she says yes. I have never been raped but I know there are so many women in the world who have been raped and even murdered. It isn’t their fault yet society still blames the victim which in many cases is a women. When I was reading what sexual assualt means I was thinking about my own experiences. I always thought that the things which men did to me wasn’t a big deal compared to a women who have been raped. I began to realize that my experiences were also not okay. Not because someone else has it worse doesn’t mean the things you experience don’t count. It all count because you feel it and have experience it.

“Sexual assault is any type of sexual activity or contact that you do not consent to. Sexual assault can happen through physical force or threats of force or if the attacker gave the victim drugs or alcohol as part of the assault. Sexual assault includes rape and sexual coercion.” In the United States, one in three women has experienced some type of sexual violence. If you have been sexually assaulted, it is not your fault, regardless of the circumstances. This the real definition of sexual assualt from the website https://www.womenshealth.gov/.

So this made me think because I have experienced this in my life. I have experienced this with the only relationship I have had in my life. I remember that there were times he just wanted to have sex and I just didn’t want. You can’t force someone, right? I also was crying sometimes and we fight about it once or twice…. I told this once to a mental health worker a few years ago and said it wasn’t okay what happened in my relationship. It wasn’t a bad relationship but these things weren’t okay. I remember how my ex said that if he didn’t had sex before 18 he would go to the red light destrict. Maybe, it was a joke but I still didn’t like those jokes. He told his friends that we have done it when it wasn’t the case. I think men are ashamed to not have done sex in their friend group and don’t want to admit it to them. I find that so stupid.

Men always have to act cool surrounding there friends. I didn’t experience rape but if I would be again in a relationship I will set more boundaries. If someone doesn’t respect me and want to cross my boundaries then for me it’s exit. I don’t want a toxic relationship. I also don’t want to talk bad about people because my two year relationship was really great and it was the only one I ever loved in life but you learn from things you experience. People also do change. We all grow up and learn from our mistakes in life.

When he broke up with me I had a broken heart and didn’t how to survive in life without him. I found comfort in kissing random boys which didn’t give a f*ck about me. I was naive and innocent, which I maybe still am a bit but I’m getting better in knowing which people to trust. I was broken and lost during my exchange period in Spain. I was running through the streets late at night, drunk and calling my ex. Of course he didn’t pick up the phone. I just remember that last night I was in Spain partying and that night I was kissing a boy. I only remember that I drank much and that the next morning I woke up sick and had to vomit. I’m so thankful that I’m over those times and that I don’t drink anymore.

I just remember how awful I felt that morning because I felt like something happened the night before but I couldn’t remember it. I knew I was kissing a boy and he was touching me. Maybe, this sounds stupid but I was so afraid that I was pregnant. That didn’t happen thanks god but then I asked that boy on chat if he touched me and he laughed and said yes. I wrote him a message and laughed back. I’m thinking of that now and think how stupid I was too laugh about that. I had to speak up for myself and confront him that it wasn’t okay what he did.

I felt horrible and so guilty because all I felt was that it was completely my fault. I should have not accepted those free drinks. I should have behaved. I should not be at that party that night. I should not have kissed him. Why does women always think this way? Really why? Just because I drank and kissed him didn’t mean I wanted that he touched me without my consent? It’s just not okay. Women are still considered sexual objects in this society and are still in society’s eyes responsible for everything what happens to them regarding sexual assault, harrasment and rape. I find that so hard to understood and it makes me SO angry. There are so many cases in the world where a man don’t end up in jail or don’t have to go many years in jail because they say that the woman didn’t protect herself or because the law still think it’s our fault. We can’t defense ourselves. We just want to feel safe and protected by the law but what if the law even don’t trust us? Then we are really lost in this patriarchy world.

I just wanted to share my experiences in the hope that it helps all women out there 💜. You are not alone and you will never be. No is no and when you don’t say anything it’s also no. You decide your boundaries. It’s your body and your life. I hope the ones who suffer from violence against women in any form can get the help they need, professional help, speaking up about it, can talk about it with friends and family members who are there for me and respect them. I mostly hope that we can all feel safe in our bodies, with our lives and in this world. I hope one day we don’t have to feel anxious when walking down the streets at night in fear of our own lives. I really do hope we can all make this world a better place to live in 🌍. I will forever be a feminist, speak up about these topics and hopefully one day make a big change for you all, my sisterhood 👯‍♀️💜.

Thank you all for reading this important blog post. What do you think of sexual consent? Do you agree with me? Did you also experience any form of sexual assault in your life? Let me know in the comments. You can always message me too if anyone wants to talk about anything. I’m always here for you all. We are all warriors! We are all in this together, always! 💪

I also want to wish you all a happy Easter as it’s Easter time! 🐇🐰🐣😊 May you all enjoy this beautiful Spring season, eat lots of good food, delicious chocolate eggs 🥚 and spend time with your loved ones 💕 I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love 💕,

xoxo Christina

Reflection on 2018 & happy new year to you all! 🎉✨💕💫

Hey lovelies 💕,

Happy new year to you all! ✨🎉 In this post I will talk about my 2018 and will show you how I celebrated New Year’s Eve. I’m glad I don’t have a cold amymore but just tonight I got my period so yeah that also sucks 😭 I’m glad I take medication for the cramps because otherwise I wouldn’t survive it. Besides, I’m also being anxious about my appointment of getting one of my wisdom teeth pulled out this week. I keep postponing the appointment. I know I have to do it but I’m so scared. H e l p. I also don’t want to do it in Holland. Here in Spain it’s much cheaper and the dentist understands my anxiety but I’m still so afraid and I just feel like I can’t cope. If anyone have some more tips to survive it I will be forever grateful 🙏💕 I can always take medication for anxiety if that’s enough to help me cope with it.

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We are already in 2019. A year has flown by. As usually I want to reflect on my year with this post and also write some important things for you all. Every year has its ups and downs. Every year consists of good things and bad things which happen to us. The most important thing is how we react to all these things. I know how hard it’s to stay positive in this sometimes dark world. I just keep believing that there are so many good things in the world and that there are indeed so many good people. You just have to find your tribe. I’m so glad I did.

I’m so happy with my blogging community, mental health community, Yoga Girl community and the goddess revolution community. I’m thankful that I joined these communities this year. They made me feel less alone and so much happier. If I’m in Holland I will maybe go to a meet up with some yoga girls. I also really wish that we will continue to all be friends and hopefully one day we will all meet ✨ I know the universe brought us all together for a reason which is to be connected with awesome people, share our struggles and feel supported.

I learned a lot this year. I learn every day from this world. This year I realized that there are truly lovely people who care about you and want you to be happy. I learned that it’s better to have a few good friends than a million of fake friends. The ones who love you will always be there for you no matter what. I learned that true love exists when I saw my brother getting married in August in Spain. I learned that this life is an adventure. Sometimes we win and sometimes we loose. We learn from every experience. I also learned that it’s okay if I’m not where I want to be in life. I still have a long way to go. I will find a career I love and will keep growing. It all takes time, pacience and trust in myself. I have to love myself, believe in myself and know that I can make my dreams come true such as working and living in Spain ✨

I also went to my first feminist strike in Valladolid, in Spain on International Women’s Day on the 8th of March with my mother. This was such an empowerful event. I never went to a demonstration before. I really wish 2019 will be the year that less women will be suffering from violence. I wish that women and men have the same human rights. Together we are starting a revolution. This is just the beginning. 2019 will be the year where women can be themselves, love themselves and love each other 💕

This year I also learned that music is the best thing in life 🎶 I would be lost without music. I went to so many amazing concerts such as the Operación Triunfo 2017 concert in Madrid with my friend Maria 💕 Operación Triunfo makes me so happy and full of life. I also enjoyed the concert of Pablo Alboran, Chenoa, Hombres G and Celtas Cortos with my mother in Valladolid. I also enjoyed so much the concert of Sofia Ellar with my friend Maria. I can’t wait to see her again. It was so lovely to meet Sofia and get a picture with her. She’s the best and I can’t wait to see her singing again 😍

This year I began to read again a lot which I loved to do so much when I was younger. I will continue reading this new year. I also kept writing and being creative. I hope to create more amazing content on this blog. Writing is amazing. I travelled to Madrid, Granada, Santander and Somo. I discovered Somo which is a beautiful surfing village in the north of Spain. In 2019 I really want to go to a surf camp again 🏄‍♀️🌊🌞. I didn’t go surfing for more than two years. I miss it so much. It’s also so good for my mental health. The sea is my home and cleans my soul. The beach is my favourite place on this earth. I can’t wait to travel to more amazing places and meet more amazing people.

Somo, Santander (September 2018)

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Granada, Andalucia (July 2018)

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La Rábita, Mediterranean Sea, Granada (July 2018)

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Madrid (March 2018)

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Maybe for some of you this year was a hard year. Maybe some of you have lost someone close to you. Maybe you just didn’t felt okay and were struggling. I’m here for you. It’s okay to grief. It’s okay to not be okay. It’s okay to feel sad. Feelings change and emotions change but it all takes time. Try to not be hard on yourself next year. Remember, I’ll will always be there for you 💕 I hope you will invest in self love and self care this new year because that’s the most important thing that matters. I also encourage you all to surround yourself with people who love you and who bring you only good vibes because you deserve that ✨.

I celebrated my New Year’s Eve in Valladolid, in Spain. I decided to not go out with my friends. I also didn’t go out last year. I used to party every year but I don’t feel in the mood anymore. I have to do what feels good to me. I went to the hairdressers in the afternoon to cut the dead ends, my bangs and they made curls in my hair. I love to look good for myself. I dressed up at home and did my make up. My mother and I went to the house of the mother of the wife of my brother. We celebrated all together New Year’s Eve: Rafael, my mother, Véronica, Véronica’s mother and her brother. We enjoyed eating delicious Spanish food.

We ate cheese, jamon serrano, chorizo, bread and chicken. I didn’t eat the fish because I don’t like fish so much haha 😂 At 12 o’clock we watched the television and ate the 12 grapes. We also had champagne 🥂. It’s a tradition in Spain to eat the 12 grapes. They say it brings luck. We watched television where we were hearing beautiful music and we played Spanish card games. I really loved it so much. I love playing games with my family. At 3.30 am my mother and I went home and we stayed in watching some television. We went to bed at 6 am pretty late but doesn’t matter because it’s a special night. I’m glad I didn’t go out because as soon as we were home I got my period haha. On New Year’s Day we just stayed in and chilled. I saw the movie Grease. I just love that movie & the music so much 😍 I also saw the movie Paper Towns which I love so much from John Green. I already saw this movie with my best friend one day and loved it.

l wish you all an amazing new year full of love, happiness and luck 🍀✨✌️ Stay strong & stay safe. We are all in this together 💪 I love you all so so so much ❤️. Thank you all for reading. How was your New Year’s Eve? Did you stay at home or did you went to a party? Which are your goals or dreams to achieve in 2019? I would love to know. I will speak to you all soon in my next blog post.

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Much love 💕,

xoxo Christina

Hey warrior, keep going 💪❤️

Hey lovelies 💕,

I wanted to write this blog post before I share some other posts I’ve in my mind such as a travel diary and a photo diary from my last trip to Somo, Santander with my mother and a shopping haul. This letter is for all of you and for myself ❤️ We all need to hear those words. I just felt inspired to write this. I hope this letter is going to make you smile.

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Hey you beautiful and awesome human being ❤️,

I know you want to give up. I know you have had enough of feeling bad all the time. I know having a mental illness is really hard and the stigma makes it harder to ask for help and get the right help. I know it’s all too much for you. I know you don’t want to suffer anymore. Always remember that even if you feel like giving up you aren’t alone in your suffering. There are so many more people who feel the same way, just like you. They may not feel the same feeling at the same time in their lives but will feel it too one day. It’s normal to feel your feelings. Your feelings are valid. Not because someone may have it worse doesn’t mean your struggles don’t count. They all count. Feel your feelings and let them go. The only way to let them go is to feel them and not bottling them up. Write about it, be angry, cry, ask for help or talk about it.

Remember, you are a fighter. You are a warrior 💪 You can’t just give up. You have come from such a long journey. Maybe you have been bullied, had trauma in your life or had your heart broken. Maybe you have lost someone in your life. You have made it until today with all the bad experiences. You also may have experienced great things like a pass on your exam, graduated or had fun with your friends. Life is all the good and bad. Even if you feel alone know that there are people who care about you. Sometimes those people are people you know and sometimes those are strangers. A few nights ago I asked for help at @7cupssupport and it felt great that strangers were listening to my struggles. Last night I listened to people who were struggling. When the chat ended they were feeling a bit better and thanked me. The world needs more people that help each other and love each other. The world needs more positivity.

Helping other people in need when you are struggling yourself is a big strength. I’m happy to see that that’s one of my good qualities. We all have good qualities. Sometimes we just are focusing more on the negative ones. It’s easier to be our own enemies than to be our inner best friend. We criticize ourselves way too often and fast. We tell ourselves we aren’t good enough. We tell ourselves we aren’t beautiful. This isn’t true. We don’t have to look a certain way to be considered beautiful. Society is wrong. All body sizes are beautiful.

I’m learning to say to myself that I’m worth it and that I’m beautiful. You are beautiful too. You are enough. I’m sure we are all capable of doing amazing things in life. It’s okay if it takes time. All good things come with pacience. I believe in the good things coming. I believe in the law of attraction. We always attract what we think of or what we feel. Energy never lies. I find it still difficult to think positively because it’s hard but every day I’m learning. Every day we grow as a person and learn new things. We are art. We aren’t meant to stay the same way. Life would be a routine and boring if we would never experience new things and grow. Going out of your comfortzone is such a great way to use your qualities and know that you are capable of things you even didn’t know you could do. I find it still hard but I’m trying to go out of my comfortzone more and more. Life begins at the end of your comfortzone. That’s were the magic begins. Great things start to happen there.

Don’t give up. If you ever need to talk, I will be here for you all 🙏❤️ Together we are stronger. This too shall pass. Your story isn’t over. Tomorrow needs you. Tomorrow needs you because the world wouldn’t be the same without you. Tomorrow needs you because you are such a strong human being. Tomorrow needs you because there are people out there who never met you and will love you. Tomorrow needs you because you help people and inspire others with sharing your story. Tomorrow needs you because you can achieve your biggest dreams. Always dream big. We can do this all together 💜🙏

The world wouldn’t be the same without you. I know you will hear this often but it’s true. You are made out of galaxies and stars 💫🌠⭐ You are unique. This world is a miracle too. It’s magic. We are all magic. Even though there’s a lot of darkness in the world there’s also light. You light up this beautiful world with your beautiful smile, your laugh, your honesty, your values and sensitivity. You are amazing. No other person could be you. That’s why I always say stay yourself. There’s nothing better than just be yourself. If you try to please others and be like others you won’t end up happy. Not everyone is going to be your friend and that’s okay. Be with people who care about you and love you unconditionally. Leave toxic people and relationships. Unfollow these people on social media. Get inspired by people who lift you up and motivates you. You don’t deserve people who bring you down. Your time in life is precious so use it wisely and spend it with people who spread good vibes and are good energy for you.

The world is a better place with you. I’m so thankful for all the people I’ve met online. There’s something special about these people. Maybe, we aren’t so broken as we think. Our struggles become our strengths. We heal ourselves with helping each other, by being vulnerable and honest. I get tears in my eyes and cry of thinking how much I love you all ❤️😭

This beautiful connection we all have together will never go away. I’m so blessed to have friends like you all. I never knew I could find such amazing people who respect me and never judge me. Thank you for holding space for me to be real, honest and vulnerable. Thank you for understanding me when I don’t understand myself and when I feel alone. I really wish to meet you all soon one day 🌍 Be strong and safe my lovely fighters.

I hope you all liked this post 😄. I wanted to write something new. Did you love my letter? Did it make you feel better and inspired you? Let me know in the comments. Speak to you all soon 😘😘😘

Much love 💕,

xoxo Christina

10 life lessons learned in 2017

Hey lovely bloggers <3,

This post is all about the 10 life lessons learned in 2017. I already wish you all a happy new year! I don’t like the new year, new me thing. I believe that we can change our lives every day and that it doesn’t have to be just with new year. I hope you all are going to enjoy this new year: 2018! I wish you all a 2018 full of happiness, love, good health and inner peace. May this year be the year of self love and make mental health a priority. I hope that all your dreams are coming true in this new year. Never stop dreaming! ❤

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I edited this picture to wish you all a happy new year! ❤

So here are my 10 life lessons that I learned in 2017

1. Ask for help when you need it

This was such an important lesson which I have learned in 2017. I asked for help again when I was struggling a lot with my anxiety in the beginning of 2017. I take 20 mg of antidepressants since february. I’m so happy I got support and the doctor in Spain subscriped me the meds I needed. Since I have been taking antidepressants I feel more happier and less anxious. I still can feel sometimes much anxiety but I’m learning how to live with it. I’m making progress. I’m a warrior. I’m stronger and wiser than before. You should never feel ashamed of asking for help.

I also asked for help during my internship abroad. I was doing my internship abroad at the university of Valladolid. It was my first time working. I never did that before and was afraid. I asked for help when I needed to complete some tasks. They were also so friendly and helpful. I’m really blessed for that. I always thought that asking for help makes you weak but instead it makes you strong. We all need some help in life and you shouldn’t feel ashamed for that. We all need a little help from our friends and family in life ❤

2. Writing heals wounds

I started this blog in August. I never thought I would gain more than 100 followers and have such a great interaction with you all. I love you all so much. I love writing and it’s always have been one of my biggest passions in life. I love to write poetry too. I’m so glad I started this blog. It feels really great to write all my thoughts and feelings down. Sometimes I wrote about some bad experiences I had in life such as being bullied of having my heart broken. Writing is a form of healing. Writing can make you forget the stuff you experienced. When you write about such a bad experience, you are less attached to it and can easily let it all go. Whenever I write aboout something which hurts me, I feel so relieved after I have written that piece. My mind feels lighter again and free off all the thoughts and emotions I had. Writing is such a good way of self love. I also love to journal and wish to continue journalling in 2018.

3. Working life can be full of fun and happiness

I had to do an internship to finish my studies and get my degree of European Studies this year. I did my internship abroad in the international relations office of the University of Valladolid. I worked 5 months, from february till end of june. I must admit that I was so scared of the working life. I was also scared if I would cope with my anxiety. I did such a great job, worked hard and everybody was happy with me. I suffered some anxiety attacks during work and didn’t tell anybody. After a while I told them and they said I had to tell it earlier. They were are so lovely and helpful. I worked from 9 till 3 o’clock in the afternoon. I was in the office of incoming international students. I made a lot of friends. I was helping them with their papers and admissions. I had such a great ambience at work. We laughed a lot and had so much fun. It was defintely one of the best experiences in my life. I felt so happy. I wish to find a career where I’m happy and where work is fun. It’s just so important to have a job where you are happy and aren’t feeling stressed out all the time. I must admit that I was tired a lot because I wasn’t used to the routine. I did it and I’m so proud of my achievement!

4. Having a routine in life is really important for your well-being

I must admit that when I had a routine in my life due to my internship, I felt happier and less anxious. Every day I had to work from 9 o’clock in the morning till 3 o’clock in the afternoon. I went to bed every day at 11 o’clock. Sometimes I went to bed even earlier on days where I felt really tired. I woke up every day at 8 o’clock. It definitely made me feel so good. I must admit that right now I don’t have that routine anymore. My sleep routine was really bad these months but this month I changed it again. Now, it’s better than before. Slowly making progress again. Having a routine in life is just really important for our health, especially our mental health. It isn’t good to stay awake till 5 o’clock at night and wake up late. I felt more stressed because of that routine and less happier. I hope I can change my sleep routine again.

5. Travelling makes you feel more open-minded and connected with the world

I travelled a lot this year through Spain during my internship time abroad and afterwards. I went to Burgos (One hour from Valladolid), Salamanca (Famous of it’s beautiful university), twice to Santander (Beach time!) and to Granada which is in the south of Spain in Andalucia. Some trips I went with my mother and other ones with friends. I love travelling so much. It makes me feel more happier in life because of making new friends all over the world. I made so many friends while doing my internship abroad in Valladolid. I made friends from United Kingdom, Germany, China, Italy, Mexico, Colombia and many other places in the world. Travelling makes you more open-minded. You are open to new cultures. I love to learn more about the differences of the cultures and their languages. It makes life definitely more interesting. I love adventure! It also makes me feel more connected with the world. We are all the same despite our different religions or nationaliaties. We are human. We are all one with the world ❤ I can’t wait to travel more in 2018 through Spain and travel around the world. Every experience makes you richer.

6. Real friends are forever no matter the distance

I have friends all over the world. I grew up in two amazing countries: Spain and The Netherlands. I was living abroad in Valladolid for my internship and right now I hope to find a job in Spain. I went back for Christmas to Netherlands and saw my good friends again. I love the fact that even though you don’t see each other for many months, nothing changed when you see each other again. That’s for me real friendship. Real friends are the ones who will always be there for you no matter the distance. Real friendships are in your heart forever ❤ I love all my friends so much and I’m forever blessed with the beautiful friendships I have. I don’t need to have a million of fake friends, just a few good friends. Friends always make your life better and brighter.

7. Music is life

Since October I’m following the programme on Spanish television of Operacion Triunfo. It’s a Spanish singing contest. Every week a participant has to go home. There were 16 participants. Right now, there are only 9 left in the contest. I love singing so much. I used to sing in a choir for 11 years and travelled a lot through Europe with my choir. Music is so good for you and you health. It makes you feel more connected and happier. Music always have the right words when you can’t explain a situation in only spoken words. Music has the answers of everything. I love Operacion Triunfo so much. I also watch the 24/7 streaming on Youtube which they have.

My favourite participant is Amaia together with Aitana and Alfred. I just bought tickets to see them all live in a concert in Madrid in March 2018!!!! I’m so looking forward to it. I never went to a concert before in Madrid. I’m going with my lovely Spanish friend Maria. The winner will be chosen at the end of January during the last live show. There is also coming a special love show in January to choose the representant for Spain in Eurovision 2018. That’s so excited news. I hope Amaia together with Alfred is going to Eurovision. They performed City of Stars during one liveshow and this moment made history in the Spanish television. You could see so much connection and love between these two young people. They are now together in a relationship which is so cute omggg ❤

8. It’s okay to fail, at least you did your best and tried

After doing my internship abroad, I still had to do an exam which I didn’t do before to complete my studies. This exam was about law and was really complicated. I went to Holland in June and failed for only 0.5. I felt so bad and cried a lot about it. Now, I know that it doesn’t matter if you fail an exam because at least you tried. I went to Holland in August to take this exam again. I got as mark an 8 and I was so happy about it! I learned that failing is okay and doesn’t make you instantly a failure. Making mistakes is okay because you can all learn from it.

9. Don’t give up, because everything will be allright at the end

I struggled a lot this year with my studies. I was so worried and anxious all the time about the fact if I would ever be able to complete my studies and get my degree. I felt a lot of pressure and stress. I had to do some extra subjects because I didn’t obtain all the credits during my exchange semester a few years ago in Spain. I went on exchange to Logroño which is a place in La Rioja famous of it’s delicious wine. I partied and drank a lot during that semester. I was a completly mess. I really regret it now but at least I learned from it and it won’t happen again. I did the extra subjects and got some great marks.

This year, I learned to never give up. You will fall but every time you can stand up again. You will get what you want at the end. At the end, worrying only makes you feel frustrated and anxious. Everything will be allright at the end because I got my degree this year. That was one of my biggest dreams and wishes for this year. I completed this wish because of my hard work and because of never giving up. I trusted myself that I was able to do it because I’m smart enough. I learned to not give in to my insecurities. They are telling me that I can’t do it when it isn’t true.

10. Self love is the most important love in life

I always thought having a soulmate would make me happy and is the most important thing in life. I was wrong. I had a relationship from 17 years old till 19 years old. I suffered a lot with the break up. Afterwards, I was seeking the love of other boys to make my heart heal the wounds. It wasn’t the good way. I don’t kiss anymore boys without having feelings for them. It doesn’t make me feel good about myself. I learned that loving yourself is the most important thing you can do in life. Everything starts with yourself. Everything starts with the relationship you have with yourself. If you aren’t happy with yourself, you don’t do things which will make you happy. The thoughts you have about yourself are so important. Let’s change our negative thoughts this new year and replace them with good thoughts. You are enough, you are loved and you are so worth it. I hope you can all practice self love in this new year and take care of yourself! ❤

I hope you all liked my list of important life lessons which I have learned during 2017. I think my next blog post will about dreams and wishes I would like to complete in the new year. I wish you all a beautiful new year with self love, happiness and good health :)<3 Let’s rock this new year!

I love you all so much ❤

Much love xoxo Christina

10 reasons why I love December 😍🎄

Hello lovely bloggers 💕,

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YEAHHHH ASDFGHJKL it’s December and I’m so happy that it’s finally December! It’s my favourite month of the year. It’s the most wonderful time of the year, right? I find December so special because it’s all about celebrating Christmas and New Year’s Eve with your loved ones and spread love and happiness in the world. This sometimes dark world needs that so much. Especially during that time we have to give more love to those who need it the most.

I’m gonna share now my 10 reasons why I love December so much! 😀 I hope you all agree and if you wanna add something, just write a comment below 🙂 I would love to hear the things you love about this special month: DECEMBER.

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  1. Christmas lights

I think this is one of my favourite things of December. Everywhere you go you see Christmas lights. It’s getting darker and winter is coming. However, all those lights really light up my life and increase my happiness. I love it so much. I have lights in my room too. It’s just makes everything more cozy. I find it so nice to go shopping, to go to a restaurant or go outside and see all those Christmas lights around me. Christmas lights are everywhere. Gotta love it! ❤

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  1. Christmas songs and movies 

I’m so in love with Christmas movies. I love to watch Christmas movies and drink a hot  chocolate with cream or a cup of tea. My favourite Christmas movie is Love Actually. It’s a beautiful movie and all about Christmas and love. My favourite things in life! ❤ I also love the actors. It’s just such a cute movie. I also like the song “Christmas is all around us” in this movie. It’s just so funny! If you never watched this movie, you definitely should watch it 🙂 I also love the movies Home Alone and The Holiday. What’s your favourite Christmas movie? I would love to know. I also love to hear Christmas songs. They makes me feel so happy. My favourite songs are “All I  want for Christmas is you” – Mariah Carey and “Last Christmas” – Wham! 

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  1. Christmas decorations

I love Christmas and its decorations so much. My mother is really obsessed about it too  haha. We have our home in Spain and in The Netherlands always decorated. I really like to  chill in the living room with the Christmas tree and its lights on. It just creates such a  nice and cozy feeling. Its the perfect ambiance. I also love the Christmas decorations  outside and just anywhere you go. It really increase that Christmas spirit.

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  1. Celebrations with your family and friends

This is an important reason why I love December so much. I love to have celebrations with my family and good friends. I love to celebrate Christmas with my family. This is  just such a beautiful time to spend extra time with your loved ones. I didn’t see some good  friends for almost a half year and one of my brothers a year ago because I live in Spain right now. This is the perfect time to see each other again and spread the love. I always celebrate Christmas in The Netherlands at home with my family. I always celebrate New Year’s Eve in Spain with my family. In Spain it’s a tradition to eat 12 grapes at 12 o’clock on NYE. We watch this tradition on the Spanish television. Afterwards, I always go out and celebrate New Year’s Eve with my good friends here in Spain.c45e97fb688cb6b3c83047cf35e0f60e.jpg

  1. Christmas cards

I love to write Christmas cards. I always write a lot of Christmas cards haha this year I wrote again 45 Christmas cards, which includes my dear family and good friends. I love to get Christmas cards. I love handwritten letters in general so much. It means the world to get them. This year I also draw some Christmas cards on my own. I hang all those Christmas cards in my room. Here’s a picture of some cards I draw and wrote this year.

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  1. Presents

I’m not in favor of luxery gifts such as really expensive gifts because it makes me feel spoiled. I find that Christmas sometimes is only about spending much money on expensive gifts and luxery food. I’m always thinking about the people who don’t have that much to spend or children in war. I prefer small gifts and things I really need. Maybe, I’m gonna make a blog post about the gifts I will get this Christmas. I really love to get presents but just little things and cheap things. They makes me so happy! 🙂 Some gift wishes for me this year are a calendar for my room from New York City and a cinema light box. I really want a cinema light box since so long. It will look amazing in my room here in Spain. It’s a box with letters and lights. I also want a bucketlist calendar for my room which looks really cool with quotes and everyday there will be an awesome thing that you can do. I’m so excited for the presents which I will get this year under the Christmas tree!

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  1. Food/drinks

I love the food and drinks in December. I don’t love to eat so much that I get nauseous. I just love to eat little things and enough. In Spain, many people eat way tooo much omg like I don’t know how they will not throw up ugghh xD. I don’t like too much, just enough is good for me 🙂 I love the cookies, sweets and chocolate. My favourite drinks during the cold months is definitely tea and hot chocolate. I love the brand name yogi tea where you can find a quote full of happiness and wisdom ❤ I also love a hot choolate so much. I make them at home with cream and marshmallows mmm ❤ This is my favourite cup of hot chocolate with xoxo. That reminds me of one of my favourite series Gossip Girl haha.

Here’s a picture of a hot chocolate with cream and marshmallows which I made a few days ago in my favourite cup xoxo.

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I also love to have my favourite Christmas blanket and advent calendar! I got this calendar from my mommy. It’s always a tradition for me to eat a chocolate every day until Christmas. Every day it’s a different form and has something to do with Christmas 🎄🎅 December begins for me with the advent calendar! I love it haha. It really makes me feel like a child again, so happy and excited 😍😂 . What’s your favourite Christmas tradition? 💭

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  1. Christmas spirit

I think I never mentioned this on my blog before but I’m catholic. Many people forget that  Christmas is celebrating the birth of Jesus. I used to sing in a choir for 11 years. I always had to sing on Christmas eve and at night. It was really so beautiful to sing all those wonderful Christmas carols. I believe in god and I believe that there’s something more. Sometimes I find it hard to believe because there is so much cruelty and war in this world. There are still good people out there even though it sometimes is a dark world. For me, the Christmas spirit isn’t getting the most luxery gifts or eat so much that you will explode. The Christmas spirit is all about giving love to your loved ones and be there for all the people in need.

5 years ago my first love broke up with me and I felt horrible. I felt so sad. I still get sad sometimes with Christmas because it reminds me of that time. I’m forever blessed to have an amazing family and good friends who are always there for me to cheer me up and make me happy. There are many people who feel lonely and sad with Christmas. There are many people suffering with a mental illness, like myself with anxiety, or any other illness or even commit suicide around this time. I would like to think of that people and be there for somebody in need. I always think of the refugees and people who are suffering during a war too. This makes me realise how grateful I have to be for all the things I have in my life. It’s a time of reflection and giving thanks to all the things you have in your life while others don’t have that. We should never take that for granted.

“Serious Request is a family of annual multiday, multimedia fundraising events for International Red Cross initiatives, typically hosted by radio stations in the week before Christmas. During the Dutch 3FM Serious Request, three popular Radio DJs are locked up for six days in a small temporary radio studio (the “Glass House”), placed in a main square in a different city each year. Living on a juice-only fast, the DJs make a interactive, themed broadcast around the clock, while regular programming on the station is suspended. Funds are raised in a few different ways. While the DJs are in residence, they play songs requested by listeners and visitors, in return for their donations. Straightforward donations are made into the project’s bankaccount, and by physical vistors depositing cash and cheques into the house’s letterbox.”

I love this event in The Netherlands so much. Every year it’s a different project. I always ask for a song and donate money. I find it important to donate money to a charity especially around Christmas because I know there are a lot of people who need help and support. I hope you all think of something and help those people in need. They need your support and love! ❤

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  1. Snow

I’m always celebrating Christmas in The Netherlands. It doesn’t snow in the winters months like years before. I don’t like the cold but I love the snow haha pretty strange xD I love a snow landscape so much. I used to take a lot of pictures because it looks just so wonderful and beautiful and omg I’m in just so in love with winter wonderland. The best Christmas feeling is waking up on Christmas day with snow! The best Christmas feeling is a white Christmas! ❤ I really hope that this Christmas it will snow again in The Netherlands. Let’s pray for the best hahah! Who else love snow on Christmas day?

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  1. Lettings things go and new beginnings

I’m also one of those people who make a list of resolutions for the new year and then doesn’t accomplish almost half of it hahah xD. Who else does this? I think every day is a new day to accomplish things and do the things you love. However, the ending of the year always reminds me of letting go all the bad things that happened this year and think of all the things I have learned. I think I’m going to make a blog post about this one too. This one would be about some resolutions for the new year and things I ‘ve learned this year.

A new year is coming and we have to keep everything we have learned this year. It’s all wisdom. I don’t like that sentence of New Year, New Me. I still feel the same when it’s January the first hahah. Every year I learn new things and experience new things in life which makes me grow. That’s what I believe. We can change our life every day and it doesn’t have to be just with this new year arriving. A  year has ended and we are ready for all the new experiences. It’s a time of letting all the bad things go and for new beginnings. I really like that. It makes me happy to let all the bad things go and let all the love for new beginnings and happiness fill my heart <3.

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I hope you all liked reading this blog post. I found it very nice to write this one. Be prepared for more amazing Christmas/New Year related blog posts. I will already say to all of you: Have an amazing holiday season with your loved ones! ❤

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Love you all so much ❤ ❤ ❤

Xoxo Christina

You must love yourself before you can love someone else 💕

Hey lovely bloggers <3,

I always wanted to write about this. It’s just a subject which is so close to my heart. It’s something which always make me think about it and reflect about it. You must love yourself before you can love someone else. This is just so damn true.

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I had a two year relationship from 17 till 19 years old. We had a long distance relationship. I was living in The Netherlands and he was living in Switzerland. We saw each other like once in two or three months. He was my first love so the break up was really hard. After he broke up with me because of the distance, family problems and not the right timing, I felt so bad. He broke up with me just before Christmas face to face so every time it’s almost Christmas I begin to feel sad. Christmas time make me feel lonely and kinda depressed. It reminds me of that time. I still love Christmas so much but it still hurts sometimes.

This Christmas it will be almost 5 years since the break up. After the break up I went on an exchange to Spain for 5 months. During that time I was a completely mess. I started to drink so much alcohol, got drunk many times and then ended up crying and feeling sick. I kissed many boys without having feelings for them, just for fun. They all used me because I was in such a bad place. I was too sensitive and emotional. At night I had panick attacks. My heart was beating fast and felt just so bad. I wanted to give up on life. I know from myself that I would never do anything to myself such as self harm or commit suicide. I just can’t. However, I really felt so low for about three years I think. It’s just these last two years that I finally begin to feel like myself again.

Feeling like myself again? What does that even mean? It means that I don’t give my heart away to people who would only abuse it and cause me pain. It means that I don’t have to drink alcohol when I go out dancing with my friends. I can just say NO and feel good about it. Feeling like myself again means that I totally respect myself and love myself. I still have times where I make bad decisions like everybody else but I’m more aware of the choices I make. Now, I know that during that hard time I just didn’t love myself enough to make the right decisions for myself. I felt worthless and not good enough so I attracted the bad boys. I thought that I deserve that. This reminds me that if you feel good about yourself and love yourself, you will attract good people and make good choices because you feel that you deserve that.

I always thought that if someone loved me, I would feel whole. It’s just not true. I already had anxiety and low self confidence when I met my first love. I felt whole during that relationship because I thought like YEAHHH finally someone loves me so I’m worth it. It’s just a miss conception that somebody should love you so that you can love yourself. I always thought that somebody had to make me happy. I always thought that I need to heal my broken heart with not letting me feel the pain such as with drinking much alcohol and kissing bad boys. This would not let me feel the pain. It was just not the right thing to do. You will only heal when you sit down with your pain, feel it and cry about it. You have to let it out and talk about it with a good friend or a loved one. It’s the only way to heal your broken heart. Now, I’m just so happy that I didn’t give up. I’m just so happy that I moved on. Now, I know what’s right for me. I shouldn’t give my heart to people who will just cause me pain and let me suffer. I almost don’t drink any alcohol anymore. It made me cause even more anxiety and no good. I’m not a loser because I don’t drink alcohol. I do what feels right to me and my body.

If you are in a relationship now, I’m happy for you. Be with someone who understands you and makes you happy 💜 Do what feels right to you. Say no more often. If this person only makes you feel about yourself and doesn’t respect your NO, then it’s time to leave this relationship. Nobody should make you feel bad about yourself. Leave that toxic relationship. You deserve so much more 💖

For anybody being single, don’t rush yourself with finding your soulmate. You have your whole life ahead of you. I thought my whole life that I should have a soulmate to feel whole. It’s just not true. You are already whole. You don’t need just a person to love you to make you feel loved. You have to make yourself happy. Nobody can do that for you. Travel the world. Be with real friends. Do things that make you happy and then if you find someone who loves you, you already feel whole 💜💜💜 .

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Everything will fall into place if you love yourself and put yourself first before anything else in life 😘 This is your life and you have the right to live it your way 👌💜 Life is beautiful after all 🌠

Much love 💕💕💕,

xoxo Christina

Sometimes I really miss my childhood 😢💕👸🌈🌠

Hey lovely bloggers 💕,

I wanna talk in this blog post about how I miss my childhood sometimes. I think many bloggers can relate to this aswell, if of course you had a good childhood. Not everybody has that privilige especially kids in underdeveloped countries which I find so sad 😢. I remember one time that I made a box with toys and gave it to a church and they send it to those kids. They were so happy. They even wrote a card back to me. That just made my day! 💕

This is little me, don’t know how old, maybe 5/6. I was dressing up as a beautiful princess haha 👑👸 I always liked to play that. I would still do that for a theme party. It’s just so fun. I really like to dress up. I can’t wait to celebrate Halloween this Saturday with my friends here in Spain and dress up like a witch like I do ever year 😂.

Sometimes I really do miss being this little. If I think of it I cry a bit. This was the time that I could be myself without a damn care in the world. This was the time that I could wake up at Christmas day and just be sooooo full of excitment. You know that feeling?! That’s just so beautiful. I still love Christmas so much but while having anxiety I find it sometimes stressing to be surrounded by all my family and get asked questions about what I’m doing with my life, career and all that stuff. I just don’t know what to say then. Back then nobody asked those questions. Life was just so simple. I really miss that. I could be happy with little things. As you grow older into an adult it all has to be big things such having a great job, a great partner and so on. Life is made about all those little things. 

This picture was made during Sinterklaas. I always made these crazy moves with my hand haha 😂 This is a feast which we celebrate on the 5th of December. He brings presents to the kids. It’s so lovely that we all believed in this. We all believed in Sinterklaas, Santa Claus and The three kings when it wasn’t true. I was really shocked when I knew my parents were the ones who gave me presents. It was that time that I started not to believe the things people were telling me. I felt like everything was a lie. I was 8 years old. It’s just so magical to believe in all of this as a little child. 

That time I turned five years old. I love that the table is covered with images of beer hahaha xD. 

Everything was fun when I was little. I didn’t had periods pain. I played a lot and met great friends in primary school. I was really happy this time. It was at high school that I got bullied and things just changed. It was then that I knew the world wasn’t so colourful as I imagined. It was dark sometimes and sometimes really dark. I got a boyfriend when I was 17 and then at 19 he broke up with me and my whole life felt apart. I’m going to write about that love story in another blog post. It all felt apart in just in one second.

I miss this time where I could be innocent. I miss this time because I felt safe and loved in this wold. I didn’t knew anything yet about the dangers of the world. I just felt so happy and free like everything is fun and could smile and laugh the whole day. I miss this time because my heart was full of love and not broken. I miss this time because I wasn’t afraid of anything. I didn’t know the concept of fear in life. I was climbing on the trees and I didn’t think of falling out of the tree. That thought just didn’t came into my mind. If I would do that now, I would think of being careful and only do it if it will be 100% safe to do because I don’t wanna get hurt. When you are a child you just don’t think of all that stuff. 

What I really do miss is not being able to just not think about one second and not to worry all the time. Now I’m 24, and I worry so much. I guess I believed in too many fairytales. We all have so much to do in life and have to rush to do all those stuff. Adults seem to not be able to enjoy the present moment anymore and just sit still and do yoga and meditate. Those are such great tools to get that present moment and peaceful feeling back.

This picture was made during a holiday in Spain. I love the swing and still play on that sometimes. I just such a carefree feeling. 

This picture was also made in Spain in the Basque country. I was supporting these people hahaha 😂

I have grown up with scars in my heart with being bullied in high school, having my heart broken and my father who almost died when I was 11 years old. This all caused me so much anxiety and sadness in life. After all, I’m thankful that this happened to me. It was all so hard but it shaped me. After my first love left me I couldn’t be happy and now after almost 5 years I’m able to be happy again. I now I won’t be this little innocent girl anymore but I have learnt from this all.

I learnt that life isn’t a fairytale but that it’s still so beautiful. We can make it beautiful. Its important to have deep and meaningful relationships with your family and friends. I learnt that we can add colour into our lives. I learnt that your family will always love you no matter how old you are. Your family will always be there for you 💖

Those are my two older brothers. I love them till infinity and beyond. The middle: Rafael is 39 and the left one called Edward is 35. Edward is married and has a beautiful two years old daughter so yeahhh I’m already aunt! 💕💖😍 Rafael has a Spanish girlfriend now for two years. 

I learnt that its normal to get nostalgic and sometimes wanna go back in time but its the past. We have to let it all go and move on. The future will be bright, it really will be 🌠 I learnt that we still have that child in our hearts. It’s still there but we have to set it free and be creative. I know the dangers of the world and am more careful but I still believe in the good people. I may be a real princess one day, who knows haha. What I really know is that I will be a dreamer & hippie for life. My heart will always be full of love and light because I so believe that even though the world can be seem really dark, there’s always a light that is shining out there 💫

This is me also in Spain, Basque country in the garden of my lovely Spanish family 😍

Much love,

Christina xoxo 

Would you be friends with people who spoke to you the way you speak to yourself? 💭

Hey lovely bloggers 💕,

I saw this picture on Tumblr. This is just so true. We spend so much time doubting, hating and making fun of ourselves. Instead, we should love ourselves more for what we are. I can relate to this so much. I find it hard too. I remember so many times that I have said to myself that I’m not good enough or other bad thoughts such as that I’m not looking good or that I’m not beautiful. I still find it hard to trust these thoughts. However, I learned to not trust “this voice” in my head all the time even though it’s really difficult sometimes.

If a friend would spoke to me the way I speak to myself sometimes, I really wouldn’t be their friend anymore. How can you be friends with someone who is constantly saying negative things about you?! You don’t wanna be around with such a negative person. Why do we find it so damn easy to say things like we aren’t worth it, we aren’t good enough, we aren’t pretty like her/him to ourselves? We would never ever say that to a friend. We know those are bad thoughts 💭.

I think the reason why we find it so easy to say those things to ourselves lies also in society and media. We always see those perfect famous people; with all their glamour and perfect bodies that we increase this mis conception of not feeling good about ourselves. We see those lives and we feel like we aren’t good enough. We scroll through social media and see all those perfect people and wanna be like them. It ain’t perfect. They have problems too but only the good parts are showed. That’s media. Trust me, being famous isn’t always a happy life if you look to the facts that many famous people can’t cope with their lives and take a lot of drugs, alcohol and even suicide…. I find that really sad. 

Society increase those feelings of not feeling good enough constantly. We are so much aware of it. We see those examples in magazines, on social media, on television, just everywhere. It really annoys me. We have to excercise a lot, look skinnier, gain much money, have a perfect job, have a perfect family, travel to the best places on earth, buy a bigger house… It’s always about having more and being better. I don’t like that about our competitive society. It’s never good enough. 

I love this poem which I found on Google. It shows us how society will always find something to tear us down and how we would never be good enough. We shouldn’t listen to that negative voice but focus on how to feel good about ourselves.

Instead we should focus on what we have and achieve inner peace. Inner peace will bring us to self love. If we are happy about ourselves, we also focus on making good choices for our lives. If we feel good in our skin, we will excersise and eat healthy but not to be skinnier. I hate those fitness and diet pages so much. It only increase that negative feeling about yourself. I’m a believer of making good choices for yourself just to feel about yourself. If you all the time try to be skinnier and skinnier, you will never feel happy. It will never be good enough. 

We can eat healthier and do things we love just to feel good about ourselves and increase our health but not to obtain a certain imaginary goal which can’t never be achieved.

Fuck whats society tells you. Don’t believe them. You are good enough. You are beautiful with all your curves. Be proud of yourself. If you have a bad thought coming into your head of not being good enough, you could think of the things what makes you YOU. You are unique and have so many good qualities. You can be romantic, sensitive, kind, social, compasionate… Those are all good qualities. I know you must have all of these too and so muh more 💫

Being beautiful for me means not something temporary like the looks of a person. No. Being beautiful for me means how a person thinks and feels. Being beautiful goes beyond someone’s looks. It’s all about their qualities and dreams in life. Take all the superficial things away and you have that beautiful person. Being beautiful lays down in your soul. Looks will fade away with the years, but that personality and soul will always stick with you for the rest of your life.

Let the world talk. Make good choices for yourself and always out of love. Love yourself for what you are. Stop doubting about yourself. Know you are worth it and achieve all the dreams that you have. 

Believe in yourself, because YOU are beautiful and good enough. Never ever doubt that 💜💋

Much love,

xoxo

Liebster award 2x <3

Hey lovely bloggers <3,

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I got nominated for the Liebster Award twice. I’m sorry it took a bit longer but I wanted to take my time to write a good blog post. The Liebster Award is an award to discover new, beginning blogs and is a great way to connect and support the blogging community. I feel so honoured that I was nominated for this award twice! 😀

The rules of this award are the following steps:

Step 1: write a 150-300 word post about your favourite blog that is not your own

My favourite blog on WordPress is without any doubt from the beautiful Chloe ❤ ❤ ❤ I met her on Instagram where she post beautiful pictures about self love and mental health. Her blog is all about her journey to self love while suffering from anxiety. She is also my mail friend like pen pal. I love to be friends with her and hopefully I will meet her one day.

On her blog and on Instagram she stays authentic and honest. I love that she shares the good and bad in life. Mostly, we can see a lot of fake people on social media but she is real. Her posts are about her struggles and how to find happiness while suffering from anxiety. Her posts and quotes really inspire me, make me happy and make me feel less alone. I encourage anybody following my blog, to follow her blog too because you won’t regret it!

Step 2: thank the blogger who nominated you

Thank you for nominating me for the Liebster Award, Cat and Anjana.  Your blogs are so awesome and inspire me so much. I love your blog posts about everything in life. Thank you so much for thinking of me. I encourage everybody to follow these two amazing blogs! ❤


Step 3: 10 facts about yourself (optional)

My blog is now almost three months old. I shared some personal stuff about me over the last three months, however I will share some facts about myself in case you don’t know them 😊.

  • I used to sing in a choir for 11 years in The Netherlands and travelled through Europe to sing with my choir in awesome places like in St. Peter’s Square, Rome for the Pope Benedict XVI.
  • I’m half Spanish/half Dutch; my father is Dutch, my mother is Spanish
  • I grew up between two cultures: Spanish and Dutch culture; I lived all my life in Haarlem, The Netherlands but am now living in Valladolid, Spain (The place where my mother was born).
  • I love writing poems and just all my thoughts and feelings.
  • I love surfing; I’m an beginner surfer, I went two two surf camps in Spain and surfed a lot in The Netherlands too. Even though I can’t catch like real waves I enjoy it haha and it makes me feel so free and happy (It’s already been more than one year that I didn’t surf, hopefully I will surf again soon).
  • I’m an highly sensitive person which means that I have a nervous system that is more sensitive than others and it process things more deeply. In other words, I feel more and love more. About 20% of the population has this personality trait. I can connect with the world in a way other people can’t. I cry and suffer more, but I also love deeply and have a deep appreciation of the beautiful world around me.
  • I think and dress like a hippie haha peace all the way! ❤
  • I used to do competitive swimming in The Netherlands, once I won the first price of estafette with my group. I really love swiming and would love to swim more because it’s really great to beat my anxiety.
  • I have anxiety for like my whole life. I blog about this a lot because it really helps to vulnerable and I get great support from all the people here. Since 8 months, I’m taking antidepressants like 20 mg each day and a benzo when I feel really anxious. This is really helping me a lot even though I’m now in a period of transition from college to real life which is really hard to cope with but I hope I will be okay soon.
  • I love travelling and travelled a lot through Europe. One of my biggest dream was going to New York City. Two years ago I won the Many Languages, One World Essay contest of 2015. I won a free trip to New York City in the summer of 2015. Our essays were related to the sustainable development goals. I wrote about the importance of gender equality between men and women. I wrote my essay in Spanish. I was in the Spanish team and we worked on our presentation for the United Nations together those days. We had to do a speech in the United Nations. Our project was called EMMA. This proyect was about how to end hunger, achieve food security and sustainablity. It was all so inspiring 😍. It made me think of all the things I wanna change in the world. This was definitely a once in a lifetime experience. I’m forever blessed to have experienced this and met everlasting friendships from people all over the world.

Step 4: Answer the questions your nominator has asked

First I will answer the questions of Cat 😊.

1) What’s your favorite book?

My favourite book is definitely “The fault in our stars”. It’s a love story between two teenagers who have cancer. It’s soooo damn beautiful and emotional. You all should read this book in case you didn’t read it. I also love the movie so much.

2) Tell your favorite quote and why? (mention from which book, in case it’s from a book, you took it).

I have so many favourite quotes but this is definitely one of my favourites from my favourite book: “The fault in our stars – John Green”. This quote is just so beautiful and so true because it shows what true love is and the hard truth of life.

“I’m in love with you,” he said quietly.

“Augustus,” I said.

“I am,” he said. He was staring at me, and I could see the corners of his eyes crinkling. “I’m in love with you, and I’m not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I’m in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we’re all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we’ll ever have, and I am in love with you.”

3) When did you felt most satisfied with your life?

I felt the most satisfied and happiest in my life when I achieved one of my biggest dream which was going to New York City. Two years ago I won the Many Languages, One World Essay contest of 2015. I won a free trip to New York City in the summer of 2015 and spoke at the United Nations. I shared more details in the 10 facts about myself.

4) If you could choose live in any other place, where would it be ?

I would love to live in a place near to the ocean where it’s sunny every day like Hawaii, California, Costa Rica, Nicaragua, Australia or Aruba. I would love to visit these places one day. I’m dying to go to Aruba and meet a famous yoga instructor called Yoga Girl and go on a yoga retreat and surf in the ocean of Aruba.

5) Are you capable of managing your social life with your blogging life?

Yes, of course! However, it’s kinda strange that sometimes I feel more connected to the blogging community than with people in my real life. I feel like I can share all my thoughts and feelings especially with having anxiety. I feel so much support here and it helps me so much.

6) Horror movies or Comedy movies? And why

Comedy movies of course, because I can’t watch horror movies. I’m a highly sensitive person and while having anxiety horror movies are just not my movies. It’s way too much for my senses. Comedy movies and romantic movies are the best 😊 ❤ They make me so happy!

7) If you had to spend the rest of your life with only one person, who would it be?

This is a difficult question because I really love all my good friends and family. I would spend it with my lovely mother because she is the one who always support and understand me. She is always there for me. I love her too infinity and beyond! ❤ She is the most important person in my life.

8) What is your favorite song? And why?

I love music so much that I really can’t choose one favourite song. One of my favourite songs is: Is this love from Bob Marley. I heard this song in a surf van when I was doing a surf camp in Spain. I just love those hippie vibes and it makes me feel so free and happy. Love and peace is the way in life! ❤

These are my answers of the questions of Anjana :).

1) Describe your personal sense of style?

My personal sense of style is hippie style. I love kinda hippie clothes and the boho style of fashion. My room is this style too haha. I wear flower headbands and a dream catcher as necklace. I also love to wear clothes with Aztec print. This all creates me the hippie feeling which means for me to have a free spirit, open heart and mind.

2) Where do you see yourself 5 years from now?

I never like those kind of questions because it makes me feel insecure. I’m 24 right now so in 5 years I will be 29, that’s old hahah no. Sometimes, I’m afraid of the future and I just don’t know what I want do in my life. I never have like a plan. I hopefully see myself in 5 years being even more happy with myself, have faced more fears, being able to deal better with my anxiety, doing things that makes me happy and make a career out of it. Hopefully, I also have travelled to more amazing and beautiful places in the world and have made more memories and aventures with the people I love in life. I see myself livinig in Spain or somewhere else where it’s sunny and near to the ocean where I can surf.

3) Who is most important to you and why?

Definitely, my mother! ❤ She is the one that always support me in everything in life and is just always there for me. I love her so much. She is a strong and beautiful woman ❤ She is also the person who learned me Spanish and for that I’m forever blessed. Thanks to being able to speak Spanish, I won the essay contest of New York City and spoke at the United Nations.

4) What are 3 blog posts that everyone should have on their blog?

3 blog post that should be on every blog are one about ending the stigma of mental health illnesses, #me too campaign, and travels. Those are really important subjects for me and always keep me interested in reading them.

5) What is one thing you can’t live without?

That’s a difficult question…. Maybe some people would say their phone haha, but actually I can live without it. It’s not a real need. One thing I surely can’t live without is: WATER. I think many people take for granted all the things we have yet in so many countries in the world people still don’t have access to water which is one of the primary needs during the life of a human being!!! We drink water, we wash our clothes with water, we shower, we cook,…. we need water. It’s also the best thing to drink in the Summer because it doesn’t make me more thirsty like fanta or coca cola that contains so much sugar. I just love water even if it’s tasteless haha. It’s the best thing in the world! ❤ It’s so damn refreshing! 😍


Step 5: Nominate 5-11 bloggers with under 200 followers

It was a bit difficult find bloggers with less than 200 followers haha but I found some amazing bloggers :).

toomuchtooyoungblog.wordpress.com

prometheanreport.wordpress.com

moonlightsandmacaroons.wordpress.com

inspiringdude.wordpress.com

writtenbyroxy.wordpress.com

annepersonalblog.wordpress.com

thescintillation.com

lavenderhearts.blog

thehappinesshunt.wordpress.com


Step 6: Ask your nominee some questions

I’m excited to read your answers! 🙂

1) Do you believe in life after death and why?

2) What do you find most important in life?

3) What would you do with the money if you won the lottery?

4) What is your favourite season and why?

5) What do you want to change in this world and why?

I had soooo much fun writing this long blog post even though it cost me some time but here’s it is 😊. I hope you enjoy reading it.

Much love,

xoxo

 

 

#Me too – Men are responsible for their actions

Hey lovely bloggers 💞,

I’m gonna write a subject which I always have had on my mind. It’s just something that really hits me hard and I guess more women can understand this and feel the same way. I’m sorry I’m cursing sometimes but this subject just really make me angry.

​Me too.

If all the women who have been sexually harassed or assaulted wrote “Me too.” as a status, we might give people a sense of the magnitude of the problem. 

Women all over the world are tweeting or posting this on social media to make aware of this big problem. It is not just about one women, it’s all about millions of women who have been sexually harrased or assaulted in their lives.

I’m gonna share some of my experiences. I always felt ashamed of it. I felt like it was all my fault. I have had times where I was drunk and boys made use of this even when I didn’t want. People may say it’s all my fault. IT’S FUCKING NOT. This problem is a men issue too! Men are responsible for their fucking actions.

I have experienced so many times that I felt unsafe outside because men were shouting dirty things to me or catcalling me. I hate it so much. When I go out clubbing and am almost near to my house, I have the key of my house in my hand in case in case I see a scarry man to open my house door in just one second.  I think many women can relate to this feeling. Why do women have to feel unsafe all the time? We are used to grow up in a world where we are told since we are little that we have to be careful and that we as women have to feel unsafe all the fucking time. They don’t say that to boys. It’s just so unfair. We should raise boys and girls the same way.

We should educate girls and boys the same way. We should let boys know that they are responsible for their actions. It doesn’t matter if a girl is wearing a dress or not. This doesn’t determine their consent. We should educate boys to respect girls and when they say NO, it’s no. We should educate girls to speak up and learn to say no. 

I have had so many times where I walked alone at night after clubbing with my friends that boys said dirty things to me. This also occured to me during day time. This is something I never wanted to share because I felt so damn ashamed. Even my first love, you know my first boyfriend ever, that one person you love and trust…. well he was the one that many times crossed my boundaries and even said to me like: “If I don’t have sex with you before I’m 18, then I will go to the whores in Amsterdam”. Thinking of it now, he wasn’t that nice because if one person don’t respect your NO, that person isn’t good for you and just not worth it.

Also one time when I was going out with a friend in a city in the North of Spain (Santander) a boy said to me in the bar: “YOU LOOK LIKE I COULD FUCK YOU NOW” I showed him the middle finger and went outside and felt so fucking angry. Where is your fucking respect to a women?! I am forever a feminist and believe in equal rights between women and men. Both should be treated equally and with respect. 

Another story I’m going to share now is one which took place during gym in high school. This gym teacher was always saying dirty things to the girls like calling them honey and stuff. He also said one time to a girl: “Oh you must be on your period, right because you are angry?” Like, what the fuck are you saying. You have no right to say that. So, one time I brought some gym stuff back to a dark room. All my classmates were in the clothing room and were away. Then suddenly, he gave me like a hug or wanted to touch me… anyways something really strange and dirty. I said: “What the hell are you doing?”. He said: “It’s a rugby tackle”. I ran away crying to the dressing room.  Since then, I never felt safe again surrounded men. I hated gym so much becausd I always felt insecure and got bullied. Some popular girls saw me crying and asked me why and I never told them. I should have gone to the director of my high school and tell him. Now, it’s too late but now I’m 24 years old and say all things straight away. I was only 15 years old….. 

Women can wear dresses and lipstick and all stuff their want. Why does society always fucking blame the women when they get sexually harassed or assaulted and say stuff like: “Were you out at night?, “What were you wearing?”, “Did you drink?. It’s never the women’s fault. We should look at the action of the boys, they are fucking responsible for their actions.

I hope more women speak open about the things that happened to them so we can beat this problem 💜👏 You are not alone. You are here to open up and speak about it. You don’t have to feel ashamed. Men are responsible for their actions. We should also talk with the men to prevent all of this. 

I’m here for you all 💞 

Much love,

xoxo