Birthday haul πŸ˜πŸŽ‚πŸŽ‰πŸŽ

Hola lovelies πŸ’•,

This blog post is a bit too late haha but that doesn’t matter, right?! My birthday was on the first of June. I really wanted to write and share this with you. I got amazing presents and cards from my friends and family all over the world πŸ‘¨β€πŸ‘©β€πŸ‘¦πŸ‘­πŸ‘«. In this blog post I’m going to share the beautiful presents and mail I got. I got amazing things like an aroma diffuser with essential oil, DVDs, a book, stationery and many more things.

From my daddy ❀️

I got the book πŸ“– “Only love can break your heart” from Katherine Webber. I already wanted this book since a long time. The cover is SO beautiful!! It’s a story about love, loss, the desert and friendships. The DVD of The Greatest Showman is amazing. I love that movie so I’m happy to have it at home now to watch it whenever I want! 😍 The music is amazing. I’m also happy with the 6 shampoo Pantene Pro-V for straight hair. It’s my favourite shampoo. I always use it. I also got a lovely card with sunflowers 🌻 on it.

From my mamita 😍

I got such amazing presents from my mother. I got a beautiful beach card with all names of places I want to go. I would love to go to Fuerteventura one day 🌊🌞. I got a case for my sunglasses, purple nail polish, beautiful silver earrings 🌜, Summer pj’s, Snoopy t-shirt which is so cute and loads of beauty products. The conditioner from Schwarzkopf is amazing as well as The Batiste dry shampoo, Vogue Girl deodorant and AndrΓ©lon creme which makes your hair soft and shiny ✨. The psychology magazine is always something I read during the Summer days. I also got a stickerbook from Flow. It contains stickers from flowers, animals and everything from nature. I also loved the Yogi Tea I got with the flavours Forever Young and Bed Time which contains chamomile and valerian. It’s easy to calm down with such a delicious tea in the evening.

From my brother Rafael and VerΓ³nica πŸ’•

I loved the personalized card I got with a chicken on the front. In the inside there was a beautiful picture from their wedding party with the family. It was very beautiful. I got the DVD from The beauty and the beast. I had never watched that movie before. I love Emma Watson so much 😍. I got birthday candles, inflatable coaster for drinks, sticky notes, flower seeds πŸ’ and of course hand gel. That’s a present I use a lot nowadays haha πŸ˜‚. We all do, right?!

From my brother Edward, Elke and Noanne ✨

I got a beautiful box from them which arrived a few days earlier. Of course I opened it on the day of my birthday. They called it the yoga wellness box. It really was so beautiful 😍 I got a letter from them and a cute drawing from my almost 5 year old niece. They are all into sustainable products which I also love so much. I got Weleda shower cream with lavender, a purple candle, bake mix to make chocolate muffins 🧁, relaxation tea with camomile, oven baked with veggie, Tony’s Chocolonely sea salt chocolate which is fair-trade and puffed spelled. I got a foam roller too. I didn’t know for what it was but my brother said it’s for yoga πŸ§˜β€β™€οΈ. I can’t wait to use it. I also got a beautiful deck of cards. I’ve always wanted one. This one is called Love your inner goddess oracle cards to express your devine femine spirit. It’s such a beautiful one to work with ✨. It’s s great way to connect to our sacred feminine. The messages and the energy from these cards are beautiful and wild. You can find good witches, mermaids πŸ§œβ€β™€οΈ and other beautiful cards in it.

From my bestie and Nathalja 🌈

From my bestie and her girlfriend I got a lovely card with an 😘 emoji. My bestie always calls me besje and I call her apple. I love cozy names hihi. I also got stickers with the alphabet, markers and aroma diffuser with essential oil which also gives 10 different colour of lights. I always wanted to have one. I got the essential oil lavender, vanilla, wild flowers πŸ’ and sea breeze 🌊. It makes me feel peaceful and it smells so well. I hope to sleep better because of it. I also got as a surprise a beautiful balloon 🎈. I loved it so much. I asked some people if it was a present from them haha but at the end my bestie told me it was from her, haha so cute!! πŸ’–

From Guillermo πŸ˜„

I got a lovely letter from Guillermo. He wanted to give me a card too but he couldn’t get it because it was during lockdown. I loved the Spanish letter. It was beautiful! πŸ’•

From Chloe 😍

From Chloe I got such beautiful presents. I had to cry when I unwrapped them. I got a beautiful card with a pie on it. I got pencils, outline stickers and a to do list notebook. I got a beautiful necklace with a tibetan charm which has a lotus on it. It’s the sign of yoga πŸ˜πŸ§˜β€β™€οΈ. I also loved the keyring with my initials the letter C and a surf girl charm πŸ„β€β™€οΈ. What I loved the most and cried SO much about was the picture of Spain in a picture frame. She knows how much I miss Spain 😭πŸ‡ͺπŸ‡Έ. Just writing this makes me cry again. I really can’t wait to be in Spain again. Until I’m not there Chloe made this for me on the computer. It’s beautiful. I have it in my room now. All the presents were so personalised. I love Spain, yoga, surfing and stationery. I love you so much and I can’t wait to finally meet each other. I’m so happy you are one of my best friends forever πŸ’ž

From Sophia πŸ₯°

I got a beautiful key ring plate which I will use for earrings, a fruit notebook 🍌🍍, Guatemalan worry dolls which you lay under your bed and take your worries away (which I SO need!!) and a beautiful hanger with the moon on it 🌜. I also loved the cute card. Loved it all so much! I love you loads πŸ’žβœ¨.

From Vikki 🌜

From Vikki I got a beautiful mirrow with a sun and moon on it πŸŒ•. It’s beautiful and so handy too. I love to always have a mirrow in my bag. I also got a ceramic hanger of a wing which is so cute. The personalised card with my picture is also so lovely. I love you and I’m thankful for our beautiful friendship 😍😘.

From Agata πŸ’–

I got a cute card with some beautiful flowers from Agata πŸ’πŸ˜. I also got a cute rainbow notebook 🌈. I will keep writing forever of course!! It’s my passion and is in my veins haha. I loved the cat pop up, animal face mask and the nail files. I really needed them for a long time because the ones I had were already old. Thank you so much lovely.

From Rosie πŸ’

The stationery I got from Rosie was amazing. I got a notebook, lovely floral 🌻🌼🌷washi tapes, sticky notes and floral print tags. I also got a card, face masks and a wallet. I loved it all!! I’m always here for you ❀️.

From Anna

I got a beautiful card from Anna too which I put with my other cards. It’s in German. I loved it so much. I love to have pen pals all over the world. I’m sure one day we will all meet each other 😍

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I’m so happy with my lovely friends and family which I all love SO much!! 😍 What’s your favourite thing of my haul? Do you also love personalised gifts? Do you also use a diffuser with essential oil? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

April favourites πŸ’•πŸŒž

Hola lovelies πŸ’•,

I have been sad for a few days and cried a lot because of the death of 5 surfers which I wrote in this blog post. When that sadness past I was griefing about a good friend of my mother who died a few days ago in Spain 😒. He had cancer. We knew it because of people posting sad posts on his Facebook and he didn’t answer anymore on Whatsapp. I felt so sad too and cried much because he was always so nice to us. I’m happy we can still have contact with his sister. He felt like a father for me and understood my anxiety and was always so supportive for me. Just writing this I cry again. I have enough of grief and crying really. I just hate death and I know it’s part of life but it’s the most horrible feeling ever. Life is just unfair because good and honest people always die earlier than the other ones. On a happy note, let’s move on to this blog post. I did some nice stuff in April. Who says being in lockdown has to be boring?! I will share the 30 days of space challenge I did by Yoga Girl πŸ™, the new leggings I bought and beautiful sunny days in the park.

Things I did with my lovely family πŸ‘ͺ:

First ice cream of the year 🍦

I love ice cream so much 😍🍧. I ate my first ice cream of the year with my mother. We went to IJsboertje which is just 5 min. away from our house. We had to take it with us and eat it somewhere else. We ate in the park. My flavours were white chocolate and vanilla and my mother had lemon ice cream. It was all so delicious. I can’t wait to go back!

My Spanish niece got a baby πŸ‘Ά

My Spanish niece got her first baby boy and I’m so happy for her!!! I can’t share a picture unfortunately because of privacy but he looked so cute. They live in Basque country. I can’t wait to be able to go again to Spain to visit them with my parents. My niece is 43 years old and it just reminds me that it’s never too late to have a baby at that age or be married or whatever. Society always creates those rules but we have to decide or own rules in life. We only have one life so let’s live it the way we want and not what society ask us to do.

Sunny days in the park & in the garden 🌞✌

We have had a beautiful April month of many days of sunshine and 20 degrees. I love to enjoy my time in the garden with my mother. I also loved to walk in the park and enjoy nature. It’s so nice to live so close near nature 😍. I also love to go to our lake because I always need to be surrounded by water. Water is still and makes me feel calm and peaceful. It’s all I need and I’m so grateful for that. I would literally die right now if I would be in a small flat. In Spain we don’t have a big house or garden so the lockdown would be worse for us. In the garden I read, chill, daydream, listen to music, write, meditate and just enjoy life.

Birthday of my brother and his wife πŸŽ‰πŸŽˆ

It was the birthday of my brother the 18th of April and of his wife at the end of April. We couldn’t celebrate it with the family of course. It made me sad but I know we will soon be reunited again when it’s possible. We wrote some cards for them and my present for them was a canvas with some pictures together. One is from the wedding of them, another one from the park and with the family together. I’m happy they liked it. My mother brought some flowers for them too. I only went one time to their appartment and saw them on a distance. It was nice to be able to talk to them but also strange. Not being able to hug your loved ones is just the most heartbreaking thing ever. I need hugs in life. The world need a group hug which will hopefully come soon again πŸ’–πŸ™.

Netflix subscription 🎬

I joined Netflix just for a few months which is really nice. I love to be able to watch series and movies on Netflix. The only thing I don’t like is that some movies or series are not on Netflix. I also would like to watch Disney movies but I don’t want to also have a subcription on Disney+ because of the money. I really love the movies and series which are only made for Netflix.

Easter time 🐣🐀πŸ₯

We always celebrate it with the whole family but of course this year is different. I’m happy I could celebrate it with my parents. We had a delicious fondue with potatoes. We also ate delicious chocolate eggs and cakes. It was all so delicious. What I loved the most was of course the blackberry juice with fruits and whipped cream πŸ˜πŸ‡. My daddy plucked those years ago and it’s a tradition of his family to make this. I LOVE these kinds of traditions so much. The juice is so delicious and so healthy too. I love my family forevah.

Other amazing things of April πŸ’–:

New leggings from Shein πŸ‘–

I bought some amazing yoga leggings from the website Shein. I really like them and they were not expensive at all. I really needed to have some nice leggings. They are colourful and have flowers πŸ’πŸŒΈ on it so I don’t need more. It fits perfectly. I’m really happy about it! I made some nice pictures in the park with them on.

Pen pal letters πŸ’Œ

I got some beautiful pen pal letters this month. I got some beautiful mail from Chloe who is one of my best friends ever. I love you so much soulsister. She makes beautiful art with a flower theme, a moon theme or anything beautiful for her page on Etsy. You can check it out. She made a beautiful painting of some flowers and sent me a nice letter together with stickers. I also got a cute letter from Rosie from UK. It was full of beautiful notes, glitter stickers with unicorns and hearts, quotes and a beautiful letter. I loved the stickers with the quote ”Friends are special treasures of the heart.” I also loved the card with the quote ”I am at peace with my age.” I agree that every age is beautiful and that society just creates expectations which aren’t real and only create unhappiness and unnecessary stress and anxiety.

I also got a beautiful letter from Agata from Poland. I loved the writing paper so much. I also loved the cute stickers and the card of Warsaw was beautiful. I loved the colours and the flowers on it. I wish to go to Poland once and visit you. I want to meet all of my online friends one day. I know that dream will come true one day and it will be the happiest day of my life. I love you all so much πŸ˜πŸ’• xoxo.

30 days of space challenge by Yoga Girl πŸ™

I did the 30 days of space challenge by Yoga Girl which is my biggest inspiration in life 😍. I never commited to a 30 days of yoga challenge so it was a nice way to enjoy yoga again. I only took some classes in my life and did it at home. Every day we did yoga on the website of Yoga Girl for free. This challenge was made to create space in our hearts, our bodies and our minds as we find ourselves in a time of physical space and distancing. Also, every day there was a theme. We meditated together, felt our feelings and pulled a card every day. One day we had to build our own sacred altar, go outside and enjoy nature or shake our bodies to remove negative energy. It was soooo good. I’m so happy I met amazing new pen pal friends. I love to be spiritual, do yoga, meditate, and there are not much many friends of mine who align with that aswell. It’s nice to have this beautiful Yoga Girl community. I love them so much.

Since that challenge is over I’m still doing yoga every damn day and it helps me so much with being more calm and easing anxiety πŸ™. Anxiety will not go away but yoga and meditation gives you the tool to sit with it and be able to let it go at some point. We have to sit with our feelings to be able to let them go. I also thought yoga was only about handstands and being flexible but it isn’t. I’m not that flexible but I have fun, feel my feelings, cry a lot and I’m happy when I practice. That’s yoga. I can’t wait to go to her retreat in Aruba one day. That’s one of my BIG dreams and is on my bucketlist 🌠✨.

Got a free month subscription for the Yoga Girl website 😍

When I was doing the 30 day challenge some strangers were gifting a free subscription to people. I also got a free month subscription. I felt very grateful and so happy. It’s so nice that people gift things without something in return. I wish more people were like that in real life too. I just don’t have much money for a subscription so it was nice to be able to do yoga for free on the website after the challenge. You also get free live classes with Yoga Girl which are SO amazing and a Yoga E-Book and astrology workbook. If you get the year subscription you get a t-shirt for free. I wish to have that one day.

Lush bath πŸ›

I had a nice bath and used a bath bomb from Lush. It was the intergalatic one. It had such a good smell of peppermint. The blue, pink colours and glitter that came out of it were beyond amazing! This was a beautiful experience where I could just bath in the universe itself 😍✨. It was like bathing in stardust. I 100% recommend this bath bomb for you all. I always listen to some beautiful music too while I’m laying in bath.

Watched To All the Boys: P.S. I Still Love You, Chicken Run and Isn’t it romantic 🎬

I watched some nice movies in April. I loved the second movie of To All the Boys. I love the actors and just everything. However, I loved the first movie more. In the second movie you knew a bit what would happen. I also watched the movie Chicken Run with my parents. It was a cute movie. The movie was about chickens who were living on a chicken farm and the mean owners wanted to make pie of them so they invented a plan to escape. I also watched Isn’t it romantic with my mother. I love the actress Rebel Wilson which also is known from Pitch Perfect. I love that it wasn’t a cliche love story. It had a great message about loving ourselves and the music was also nice. We don’t need someone to love ourselves because we are already whole.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. What was your favourite thing from my list? What did you do in April? Did you also enjoy some sunshine in the garden or park? Do you do love to do yoga, meditation or be spiritual? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

We meet everyone for a reason βœ¨

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

Good news! ☺️ I feel somehow much better than some weeks ago were I really didn’t see the light at all and felt hopeless in life. It sounds pretty depressing but feeling anxious 24/7, feeling like you can’t breath, being nauseous all the time is really a hell. I hate anxiety so much 😭. It strange that I feel better now here I’m here in Holland because I’m always happier in Spain. To be honest, I never felt so low, depressed and anxious in Spain. I think because I associate it with going to the dentist which I didn’t do. I know it wasn’t a good idea to isolate myself for more than a week at home. In this blog post I will tell you about someone special I met on the airplane ✈️ back to Holland from Spain. I will tell you also some other travel stories. Oh how I love travelling 🌍. It’s the best and on those moments I can distract myself from my anxiety and meet people who really will change my life. I have to document these moments here on my blog because I’m afraid that otherwise I won’t remember them anymore. They are too precious to forget about them. In the moments that I felt so bad I even thought about not blogging anymore for a time but then I thought that would be a loss because that’s what I love to do the most. I have to keep doing the things I love to do or I would feel worse. Everything which brings me positivity is important to do πŸ’«.

So before I talk about the flight of a week ago back to Holland I want to talk about the flight I took in September. I was in Spain πŸ‡ͺπŸ‡Έ during the whole Summer and my mother and I got back to Holland in September. There was this guy sitting next to my mother in the other row who looked very friendly. He was around 36 years old. We had such good talks. He talked about how I could maybe find a job in Holland in a Dutch company and from there find a job in Spain. He said that I didn’t have to be insecure. He was Spanish and was working and living in The Netherlands. He gave me so much inspiration and so much good vibes, just what I needed in that moment. He told me that he was bullied too at school just like me. He told me that I’m a smart girl which can speak three languages: Spanish, English and Dutch and also graduated my studies. I know he is right about that. It’s just that I always feel so insecure and have a low self esteem. I guess that’s because of anxiety too. I never know what to do when people compliment me or say that I’m pretty. I got his FB but now never spoke again to him. I really liked talking to him with my mother.

Then I went again to Spain a few weeks ago with my mother. I was sitting next to a girl from Uruguay. I also have her Instagram now, haha I hope people don’t think I’m desperate to meet new people. This is just me being myself. My mother is also social as I’m. I’m not that girl who loves to isolate herself. It’s what my mental illness does to me. We talked a lot about the world, her country and my countries. We had such a nice talk. I always love to talk to people from different countries as we can learn so much from them.

So a week ago, we travelled back from Spain to Holland. I’ve never been that anxious to travel even though I’m always scared of flying. It’s just because I have felt so low all this time. I took valium many nights to sleep and also a bit for flying. I was just so afraid of having a panic attack and of course that didn’t happen. Most things we fear don’t happen, it’s just our minds which are playing tricks with us. Before we were at the airport we met a lovely woman at the train station. She talked about the political situation in Spain and said she is a journalist. She even gave her number to us and said that whenever we are in Madrid again we can drink something with her. Things like this always remind me of how many good people there are in this world ❀️🌍.

Later at the airport my mother saw a man who she knew from when she was working as a stewardess in a Spanish airline. He was working in the cafe we ordered a salad. What another beautiful coincidence was that I met my lovely Spanish teachers at the gate where I was waiting with my mother to fly to Holland. They came back in the same airplane and were just about to go to a conference. I didn’t see them anymore since I graduated my studies European Studies. I love them all so much πŸ’ž. I really miss that feeling of being a student in my life right now because I feel lost now in the big world. I told them something about being anxious and they told me that I’m a smart girl and that every little step is a step forward. I could also keep networking. I know finding a job in Spain is more difficult than in Holland as there’s more unemployment in Spain and for jobs in the public sector you need to pass a difficult exam which can take years. They still remembered how I spoke at the United Nations and did my internship at the University of Valladolid. We took a selfie and they would show it to another teacher which I also love so much.

Now comes the most important story I wanted to tell from the first place. I hope I didn’t ramble way too much haha πŸ˜‚. A week ago was the best flight I have ever had in my life because of someone special I met. You all know I’m a romantic and highly sensitive girl. I make up so many stories in my mind which is how I imagine the world to be, that rainbow coloured world where people are happy, flowers blossom and the sun is always shining πŸ˜πŸ’πŸŒžπŸŒˆ. That is the world which only exists in movies, books or in my mind. It’s pretty curious because maybe a week before I already dreamt of meeting a boy sitting next to me in the airplane. So I was already nervious thinking who is going to sit next to me at the window seat when a guy was going to sit next to me. We immediately begin to talk with no end. My mother also talked to him and find him very friendly and open.

It was one the most intense, beautiful, honest and inspiring talks I’ve ever had in my life ✨. I have had some really good talks in my life with people I love but with a stranger who you just met in the airplane not. This guy was so lovely, so cute and just so amazing 😍. Can you fall in love at first sight? πŸ’˜ I know I’m always so intense and have to be careful to not get my heart broken again but this connection we had in those few hours was so strong. We looked at each other many times. He listened carefully to what I had to say and me too. We talked about our lifes. He smiled a lot. We laughed a lot and made jokes. It’s in times that I haven’t felt such a strong connection with someone. He is an artist, 33 years old and works and study in the film industry 🎬. He has to travel a lot and goes to film events to present his documentaries. I find all of that so interesting. I love creative people with an open mind.

He loved my bracelets and touched them. We talked about our exes and everything. I’m always so open and sometimes that can be bad but I guess this day it was okay because he was also so open about everything, political view, his life and values. The way he looked at me made me nervous as I really felt such a strong attraction. It’s been so long that I didn’t have felt that. What I also loved about this guy is that he was honest and seemed sensitive. He also reminded me of a friend of me in Spain. He made me feel so calm and so peaceful. When I told him about how my ex wanted that I had to wear high heels because that would make me confident as he said, he said that it was wrong to change someone. He is so right because for me wearing high heels makes me feel unconfident.

Then we also talked about where he came from which is Basque country. I have my Spanish family living there too. We both had long distance relationships. Everything was such a coincidence and we seemed so similar as I’m also creative. He told me about that he also enjoyed surfing and swimming in the ocean. What I loved the most about our talk was when we began to talk about spirituality. I’m so in to that and not all my friends are. Since I’m reading the book “To love and let go” from Yoga Girl, I’m even more into that. I don’t think I believe in all things but I love astrology, the law of attraction and I believe the universe gives us what we want at the moment we need it πŸ™. He was talking about Ayahuasca ceremony. I don’t think I would ever try it as I think it would be dangerous for a person suffering from a mental illness. He told me I could do that but I didn’t told him all about my anxiety. It’s a kind of tea you drink where you go through a spiritual journey. You feel like you are going to die and then at the end you find the light again. I also read that in the book of Yoga Girl. It sounds very intense and it would make me so anxious to be honest.

This guy also told me that he did a tarrot reading. I always was very skeptical of it but somehow I feel like I could believe in it a bit. He told me he was an Emperor and that means that he likes to make feel people safe and make his dreams come true. I told him that once I was told to be a Mediator or helper and he said that fits me well. He is also an aquarius β™’ as zodiac sign and I’m geminis and I know that those zodiac signs are compatible. A friend of him also told him that he could get along well with geminis β™Š. I really like to believe in that.

I just felt so in the moment during this beautiful talk. I wish the flight would never have ended. I always get attached so much to people. I have his number and wrote him a message that it was nice to meet him and sent him some pictures we made. I really do hope we will meet each other again as he lives in Amsterdam until next Summer. He gave me a kiss on the cheek which is a normal Spanish way of greeting and also a hug. I never felt such a strong connection with someone. I do believe we meet all the people in life for a reason. They will teach us something. He texted me back a few days later and said he loved to have met me in the airplane too. He said seldom you find such honest and genuine people like me. He is thankful to have met me and also thanks me for the pictures I sent him. I also sent him a text back a few days later and told him the same. I also said that if he ever wants to meet up he can say that to me. The thing is, I also don’t want to be needy or obsessive as I can be really intense. I learned that from being in a relationship with my first love and other crushes. I do believe that whatever will be, will be. We don’t have to force anything. Anything which is meant to come into your life will come without forcing situations.

This universe is beautiful 🌌✨. This life is beautiful. I’m just so thankful for these special moments as they come in the moments I most need them. It’s like the universe is saying to me that my story isn’t over yet and that I can be happy and that good things will come my way. I really also know that I don’t have to get my hopes up but I just feel this fuzzy and warm feeling in my heart. I’m so thankful for everything. Thank you life for the hard and beautiful lessons. It reminds me that we are all here for a reason. I need to believe more in the universe and let it unfold itself. Stop controlling. Letting life flow. I just feel my heart full of gold right now 🌟.

“I believe in the good things coming πŸ’•”

Thank you all for reading this inspiring and long post. I felt very inspired to write this. What do you think of all of this? Do you believe we meet people for a reason? Are you a spiritual person? Do you believe in love at first sight? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina