August favourites ๐Ÿ’•๐ŸŒž

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

It’s still Summer in my head lol ๐ŸŒž. I still need to write some posts about Summer haha. At least then I can still enjoy Summer. Nowadays all I see is rain and a grey sky in Holland. I miss Summer so much ๐Ÿ˜ญ. I hate the Winter months. It also makes me feel low and depressed at times. I had so much fun in August. I enjoyed the swimming pool many times, I ate a delicious amount of food in Spain, had fun with my friends and more which you can read below. August is only about food mostly haha I love it.

Things I did with my lovely family ๐Ÿ‘ช:

Going to the swimming pool ๐ŸŠ

I LOVE swimming so much! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’• I already miss swimming so much. It’s so good for your physical and mental health. I went seven days to the swimming pool. I went some days with my mamita and also some days with my lovely Spanish friend. I also enjoyed eating some snacks, bread and reading some books and magazines on the grass. Those Summer days going to the pool are definitely what make my Summer complete. I wanted to go more days but I couldn’t because of my period and I also had to go to the dentist for my wisdom teeth removal. Swimming makes me feel so happy and relaxing. I can’t wait to swim again soon. I’m a mermaid forever ๐Ÿงœโ€โ™€๏ธ.

Eating a delicious ice cream ๐Ÿง

I love to eat ice creams from Iborra which is the famous ice shop in Valladolid. It’s SO damn delicious. It’s all natural. I always love the flavour white chocolate and mint chocolate chip ice cream. I love it so much!! We also made some nice pictures on the beautiful main square of Valladolid.

Milkshake time ๐Ÿ’•

My favourite milkshake is the chocolate one with whipped cream. Aaaah it’s so delicious mmmm!! ๐Ÿ˜ I like to eat it on La Plaza Mayor with mamita. She always drinks a camille tea. My mother also ate a delicious apple pie. It was a beautiful Summer night to spend the evening on a terrace outside.

Meeting up with Jairo and his mother ๐Ÿ’–

We finally saw the mother of Verรณnica and Jairo. My brother didn’t come to Spain this Summer because of the pandemic. It was nice to see them and drinking something together. I hope that soon we can all be together again and celebrate life. I find it hard to not be all together again. That makes this time hard because all we want is just to be around our loved ones. That’s what makes life worth living. I hope those times will come soon again ๐Ÿ™.

Eating a delicious tortilla at Erchus ๐Ÿ˜

A typical Spanish food I love is tortilla de patata. It’s an omelete of eggs and potatoes. I also drank a delicious mosto which is grape juice and we got some free chips. I love the new restaurant Erchus so much. It looks pretty cool now with the letters and the new interior.

Delicious dinner at Elany ๐Ÿด

Elany is my favourite restaurant ever in Valladolid. I always come there so much. The owners are so sweet. It’s nice to go to places where you know the people ๐Ÿ’ž. That evening we ate some delicious croquettes with grape juice and we got free tortilla de patata with the Spanish flag ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ haha. I always carry those ones home.

Pancakes in El Corte Inglรฉs ๐Ÿฅž

El Corte Inglรฉs has so much delicious food always. We ate delicious pancakes with whipped cream and warm chocolate sauce ๐Ÿซ๐Ÿ’ž. My mother had some bread with fish and a delicious glass of red wine. I drank a camille tea. I love the view from the restaurant so much. You can see whole Valladolid. The restaurant is on the last floor which is the sixth floor.

Beautiful sunset in the park Las Moreras ๐ŸŒ‡

I love Summer sunsets so much ๐ŸŒž. I went for a beautiful walk many times with my mother and we saw a beautiful sunset. The sky was stunning. I loved the colours blue, pink and it even looked purple too. We don’t need much in life. I was in awe watching it. We went for a beautiful walk along the river and just enjoyed the view. It’s those little moments in life which counts so much โœจ.

Walks in nature ๐ŸŒฒ๐ŸŒณ

We spend some more time just enjoying nature and watching the beautiful view from the river. I love it so much. It’s so calming to watch the stillness of the water. Afterwards, we had a delicious dinner at Erchus. I loved the sandwich mixto with potatoes and a mosto. My mother drank a camille tea and got some free churros and olives. It was all delicious like always.

Things I did with my lovely friends ๐Ÿ’–:

Having dinner with my lovely friend ๐Ÿ’™

I enjoy eating dinner again at Elany. We always eat there. It’s cheap and delicious so why change from place?! I love my favourite restaurants so much. We eat some delicious croquettes with bread and some grape juice. It was so nice to be able to see friends again. I missed you so much amiguita mia. I love you forever. I’m so grateful to have such great people in my life who love me for the way I’m.

Other amazing things of August ๐Ÿ’ž:

New shirt from Azabache ๐Ÿ‘•

I love the new shirt I bought from my favourite shop Azabache. I have so many clothes from them. I love those hippie clothes. This white shirt is perfect for beautiful Summer days. I love the motives. It’s too cold now to wear it but maybe I can just wear it at home lol.

Watched The Greatest Showman ๐ŸŽฌ

I got this beautiful DVD from my daddy for my birthday ๐Ÿ˜. I already saw this movie once and it was amazing to see it again. This movie is SO GOOOOD!!!! It’s just so wonderful made. The songs are amazing ๐ŸŽถ. My favourite song is ”This is me”. It reminds me of the time I got bullied during high school. This is me and I’m enough the way I’m. ”I am brave, I am bruised, I am who I’m meant to be, this is me.” Those lyrics just hit me so much. No sharp words will put me down. I also love Zac Efron in this movie and just all the actors. Hugh Jackman is amazing. It’s just so important to know that we all matter in this world no matter how we look like, which gender we have, race or nationality or whatever. We are meant to be in this world and deserve all the love and happiness. If you want to watch a feel good movie then this one will be perfect for you. I also got emotional just watching this beautiful movie and hearing the songs.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope you liked it. Have you also watched The Greatest Showman? Which food of my post would you love to try? Do you also love to go swimming? What did you do in August? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

July favourites ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ๐ŸŒŠ

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

I’m really behind some blog posts like my favourites and music reviews which I do every month. I don’t want to feel like blogging is chore because otherwise it ain’t no fun anymore. It just makes me frustrated at times. I still want to keep this series going but not if I get frustrated of not writing it one month. It doesn’t matter right?! It’s okay to write it whenever I feel the passion for it. Let’s move on to my favourites of July. It was a beautiful month ๐Ÿ’•. It seems SO long time ago when it’s just two months ago. I experienced beautiful things such as finally going to Spain, beach days in The Netherlands, had a lunch date with my bestie, bought a beautiful bikini from the surf brand Billabong and more I will share below.

Things I did with my lovely family ๐Ÿ‘จโ€๐Ÿ‘ฉโ€๐Ÿ‘ฆ:

Celebrating the birthday of my brother and niece ๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽ‚๐ŸŽˆ

Finally after more than a half year I saw my brother and niece ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŽ‰. We hadn’t seen them since Christmas time. They live in the South of The Netherlands. It’s almost two hours by car. Due to the pandemic we haven’t seen them which made me feel so sad. Of course we used video call a lot but it’s not the same. My brother’s birthday was on the 14th of July and my niece turned 5 years on the 16th of July. I bought my niece a snow ball to colour in the pages and some glitter stickers which she loves a lot (and me too!! haha!!). I bought my brother some stuff for the kitchen which he needed and Happy Socks ๐Ÿงฆ which he loves a lot. He was very happy with the presents. I missed them so much.

I wish my niece could stay always that little. She’s a lovely princess ๐Ÿ‘ธ. Sometimes I wish to be that little again because you see the world with different eyes. I loved how she whispered in my ears if we could go to my room and play. My room is a fair for her ๐ŸŽก. It’s full of stuff and colours and cute items. Noanne also said that I’m so sweet. My heart melts with her sweet words. She said she would find shells on the beach and think of me. She learns me how to love myself on the moments when I feel I can’t love myself. I love to hear her talking about the universe, the sun ๐ŸŒž, the moon ๐ŸŒœ, the stars โœจ, dinosaurs and everything. They say you learn the most of children which is so true. Their beliefs aren’t shaped. The world is their playground. I truly believe and feel with all that’s happening in the world, we have to go back and find our inner child and play. I don’t mean ignoring the pain and suffering in the world. I just think it’s important to have a balance with that and to always be reminded that there’s still a child in us who would love to be free, wild and making their biggest dreams come true. We need to care about our inner child always. Love yourself just like a child does.

Travelling to Spain โœˆ๏ธ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ

I’m SO happy to be back in Spain after 7 months. I’ve missed it so much. I’m happy to see my friends again. You can read about my trip with my mother HERE. I never want to go back to The Netherlands. I love Spain so much and really can’t wait to find work here and live here forever ๐Ÿ˜. I love the people, the food, the sunshine every day and it’s such a beautiful country where you can enjoy mountains, beaches, desserts, forest and just anything. I was anxious to travel but everything went well. I hope that we can keep coming back because I don’t want again to wait so long to go back to Spain. I was also happy to see my friends from my studies at the station of Madrid. It was such a coincidence. I hope to see you guys soon.

Beach days in The Netherlands ๐ŸŒŠ๐ŸŒž

I finally went to the beach after almost one year. My heart was craving it so much. I missed my happy home, my paradise ๐Ÿ’ž. The sea heals everything. I’m forever a mermaid ๐Ÿงœโ€โ™€๏ธ. One day I will live at the ocean and will never have to leave again. We went biking for 18 km. We ate delicious kibbeling, potatoes, salad and a swirl ice cream. It was delicious. Fortunately, it was only raining a bit and we could enjoy the sunshine. Pura vida! We also saw bambi in the dunes. So cute! So blessed with this beautiful world we live in. It’s the little things which mean the most in life. I loved seeing my dear friend from primary school and from my choir at the beach. I missed you so much! It’s been years since we saw each other. I hope to see each other soon again.

Golden hour at the beach ๐ŸŒ…

I’m happy we finally went swimming in the sea. That day we ate a delicious salad at a beach restaurant. We enjoyed a beautiful sunset on the beach. It’s one of those beautiful moments you wish that last forever. So magical and pure ๐Ÿฅฐ. My wild heart is full of freedom, love and happiness on the beach. The bad thing was that we biked ๐Ÿšฒ for 30 km long haha . On the way back home the bridge was broken so we had to go through whole Haarlem to go back home. Our home is surrounded by water so we really needed to through another bridge to come home lol. It was a beautiful and unforgettable day.

Enjoying ice creams ๐Ÿจ๐Ÿ˜‹

I enjoyed some delicious ice creams with my mother. I love the Italian ice creams near to where my brother lives. We always go by bike. I had one with mint chocolate chip ice cream and straciatella. My mother had one with lemon and whipped cream. It was all so delicious!

Watched The Beauty and the Beast, Grease and Up for love ๐ŸŽฌ

I watched some nice movies with my mother. I loved The Beauty and the Beast so much. One of my favourite actresses is Emma Watson. She is the best! I cried watching this beautiful movie. I loved it so much. I also loved watching Grease on a Summer night in Holland. Grease is just such a feel good movie and perfect for the Summer. I love the songs so much. They make me SO happy. I watched with my parents Up for love too which is a movie about a man who is very little and falls in love with a woman. They make jokes about him because of his length. It’s a great movie which let us see that everyone deserve the right to live a good life and that people have to be more kind to each other and not judge anyone.

Things I did with my lovely friends ๐Ÿ’•:

Lunch date with my bestie along the river in Haarlem ๐Ÿ’ž

I had such a great day with my bestie in Haarlem. We basically ate and drank all day long hahaha. That’s why we are best friends ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿด. We had a delicious lunch at Ted’s place. We loved it so much. My bestie ate a portobello sandwich with hummus and spinach and I had a delicious vegan French toast with fruits, almond milk, cinnamon sugar and maple syrup. I also loved the fruit smoothie so much with acai, strawberry, blueberry, blackberry, banana and more. It was such a aesthetic place to eat. The sun was shining too which was perfect. I’m also happy I finally bought some Summer clothes. As dinner we ate at Freakin Vegan. We loved the burger, wrap and green tea. We ate the whole day vegan and I LOVED IT. I can’t wait to eat more vegan food because it’s better for the environment, good for your health and it’s delicious too ๐Ÿ˜‹.

Beautiful pen pal letters ๐Ÿ’Œ

I got some beautiful letters this month. I got one from Rosie which I loved so much. I loved the goodies too. I loved the quote card. I got a new pen pal friend too. I loved the post from Katherine. I also loved the mail from my lovely friend Chloe. The handmade card from sunshines is so cute and makes me SO happy!! I also love the moon card and the stickers. Thank you for being one of my best friends. I love you all so much.

Sharing circle with Yoga Girl ๐Ÿ’–โœจ

I loved the first sharing circle I joined on Zoom. I was anxious to do it. It was the best thing ever. It’s so special and so sacred. Thank you Rachel and the whole Yoga Girl team for making this happen. I love this community so much. Together with more than 60 people we entered a safe space to share our feelings, thoughts and we hold space for each other. We listened and did meditation all together. It was SO pure, honest and beautiful I cried. Then we met our partner and talked about our struggles with them. One has to speak and the other has to stay silent. You think that’s easy but it isn’t. We are so tend to intreput each other and give each other advice. Rachel said we have the answers in our own heart. We always seek advice from others but we know ourselves the best. We have to listen more in life instead of talking. We need our hearts to hold space for us. I loved my sharing partner from Germany. It was an amazing talk. Thank you so much! I can’t wait to go to a yoga retreat in Aruba ๐Ÿ‡ฆ๐Ÿ‡ผ too. We are all walking each other home. Love you all! ๐Ÿ’–

Other amazing things of July ๐Ÿ’–:

New bikini from Billabong ๐Ÿ‘™

I finally got a new bikini!!! I really needed one because the ones I have are too big now. I think it’s because of washing them. I bought one online and thank God it fit perfectly. I love all the surf brands ๐Ÿ„โ€โ™€๏ธ. Billabong is one of my favourites. I love the new bikini which is green, black together with sunflowers on it. I’m using it a lot this Summer. It costed โ‚ฌ40 instead of โ‚ฌ70 so big sale. I bought it on Zalando. I love this website.

New dresses and floral shorts ๐Ÿ‘—

I bought some nice clothes the day I went on a lunch with my bestie in H&M. I bought some nice floral shorts and a red dress. I didn’t had any Summer clothes in The Netherlands so I really needed to have some haha. I also bought a beautiful blue floral dress from Shein. I’m happy with my new clothes.

Virtual concert of Operaciรณn Triunfo ๐ŸŽถ

I saw a virtual concert of the Spanish talent show Operaciรณn Triunfo. It was from Madrid, WiZink Center. I loved it so much. I was also a virtual public there. They could see us from the stage. I danced a lot, sang and had lots of fun ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐ŸŽค. Of course, I miss going to concerts. I really can’t wait to go to a concert again because it has been more than a year since I last went to one. There’s nothing more precious than being in a concert and seeing your favourite artist live. It gives me so much happiness and makes me feel so alive!!

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope you liked it. Do you like my new bikini and new clothes? Do you like to eat vegan food? What did you do in July? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

Holaaa from Spain after 7 months not being able to travel! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ๐ŸŒŠ๐ŸŒž๐ŸŒด๐ŸŒป

Hola lovelies ๐Ÿฅฐ,

I’m finally back in Spain since last Tuesday. I CRY BECAUSE I MISSED IT SOOOO MUCH ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅฐ. Just writing this makes me cry again and gets me so emotional. I’m behind some other posts but I think I’m not going to write them anymore. I have been feel a bit stressed about my blog lately like I have to blog about this, not miss this and it’s not good. I’m always a perfectionist so when I finally do something after procastinating then I want to do it good. I prefer quality blog posts then just posts for the sake of it. This blog post will be about my journey to Spain, how I feel, things I have on my mind and how things are right now due to this pandemic. I really missed having a good chat with you guys. This post is basically going to be a rant haha ๐Ÿ˜‚. I hope you will like it.

I can’t believe we are already in August like wtf this year is the longest and the shortest ever ๐Ÿ˜ณ. How do you feel about it? So much has happened in the world these months because of the pandemic. I really imagine myself cheering the new year last year and we all didn’t know what was about to come. It makes me feel bittersweet though. I don’t know how to feel about a new year coming because I don’t know what we have to except. The best thing is having no expectations and just going with the flow. I read a beautiful quote a few days ago which said that so much can happen in 6 months which is true. So, I hope these last 5 months will turn out fine or better than these last months.

In my life, not that much has happened. I still have no job but right now it’s even more difficult to find one related to what I studied. I studied European Studies which is a broad study with a wide range of subjects such as marketing, languages, international relations and politics. I also really find myself thinking of how I would love to make a living out of writing. I crave it so badly. I also love doing yoga, reading, travelling, singing and surfing so much. I’ve also sometimes dreamt about how amazing it would be to build a surf school related to mental health problems to provide people help and support while enjoying the ocean. I can’t wait to maybe go to the beach and surf this Summer in Spain ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ๐ŸŒŠ๐Ÿ„โ€โ™€๏ธ. I miss the sea so much. Maybe those dreams are wild but it would be so amazing. I still feel kinda stuck related to thinking about a career. I used to apply to some jobs in Spain but got no answer. I even did an interview for a internship and never heard back. It’s more difficult right now. I also got information to take an exam for a job in the public sector which is mandatory in Spain. I just don’t know and still feel lost after so many years. It’s normal I say to myself. Anxiety also gets in the way. Some people see it as excuse but they have no idea how hard it’s to live with it and being expected to do everyday stuff.

I also entered some writing competitions. I didn’t won the one from Barcelona. At least I tried. Besides, Barcelona is now more at risk so it’s better not to go. I will hear about the poetry contest about mental health next month. I will also maybe join another contest these days which is about my city Haarlem, in The Netherlands. They are looking for a city poet who will write for them and also earn โ‚ฌ3000 euro each year and will even have the opportunity to publish a book about poems of Haarlem. I will join and we will see what happens next. I have already a no but you never know what may be the result.

Thanks to the pandemic which is also strange to I’m also grounding myself more and being present with all the things I have. I have been doing yoga and medititation many times in a week ๐Ÿง˜โ€โ™€๏ธโœจ. It’s so good. I feel more lost and less calm when I don’t do it. It’s been a such a healing tool and I will stick to it forever. I can’t wait to be able to have a job, save money and go to a yoga retreat in Aruba and finally meet Yoga Girl and the whole community. I love it so much. I don’t have a yoga mat here in Spain but I will use maybe a camping mat until I have one here. I crave connection so much. It’s the best. It reminds me I’m never alone and that I always have people behind me. I did a sharing circle on Zoom with Yoga Girl and more than 60 people joined a few days ago which I will share more about in my July favourites. It was so special and omg I also felt anxious and strange. I had never done it before. In real life it would be even more intense. We did a meditation and then we got a sharing partner. We had to talk about our struggles and the other person listened and didn’t give advice. It’s much more powerful then just always interrumpting a person. Rachel Brathen (Yoga Girl) said that we have our answers in our heart. These sharings are so much more powerful than anything else ๐Ÿ’–. I got emotional when I listened and my partner too. I can’t wait to do it many more times.

I’m happy to be back in Spain but also feel mixed feelings. Nothing is normal anymore. Our trip went very well. I was so happy to go but never felt so anxious before a trip. I really didn’t like some of my family members and also a friend of my mother saying we are irresponsible to go to Spain when we are very careful. I couldn’t sleep the night before. I felt so unwell and anxious. I hate to get influenced but others because our trip went super well. We had to wear masks, do social distance and wash our hands often. Nothing new. I’m more used now to wearing a face mask almost all the time because it’s mandatory here in Spain ๐Ÿ˜ท. In Holland it’s only mandatory in public transport and in a regio of Amsterdam and Rotterdam. I changed my mind and think it’s very important to wear it even though it’s a struggle in the heat. We passed the security in 15 min. We drank some tea and ate a croissant and went to the gate. Boarding was nice, the flight was great without any turbulence. There were almost no people. I watched High School Musical ๐ŸŽถ. I loved it. I had never watched it before.

When we landed in the airport of Madrid, they checked our QR-code which is the health paper you have to fill in before you go to Spain. Then you pass a control and there are camera’s above which check your temperature. There are also nurses there in case you are feeling bad. Everything is clean and well organised. We got our suitcases, took a taxi to the station of Madrid and there suddenly I saw my good friend Pedro and his girlfriend. I love to always meet people as a surprise. We ate delicious Spanish food with them and waited for the train. It takes one hour to go to Valladolid by the high speed train. Then we took a taxi home and in the afternoon we were safe and sound at home. I thought something would happen during the trip or I would feel more anxious. I felt more calm because everything went well. I don’t want to listen to scary stories anymore or watch too much news. We are safe and will do anything to stay safe. We can’t stay forever in our homes too.

These days I have been resting in Spain in our home, eating some delicicous tapas and just walking in nature. We also went already to the swimming pool which we love so much ๐ŸŠโ€โ™€๏ธ๐ŸŒž. I have to enjoy it now before I get my period which I hate even more in Summer. There’s no beach here so the pool is the best place to be. I’m just so much more happier here. It’s been so hot here, like 37 degrees. Right now, it’s 30 degrees. I love Summers in Spain so much. I really craved it. This week I will finally see my friends which I missed so much. I also saw a new restaurant with vegan food and poke bowls omggg can’t wait to try it. I will celebrate my birthday with my friends there ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿค—. I also saw a new yoga studio. Maybe will go there too. I also will go the hairdresser soon. I can never cut much just the death ends and my bangs because I didn’t went for like a year. I also have to go to the dentist end of month to get rid again of one wisdom teeth ๐Ÿฆท. I’m anxious about that again but maybe a bit less than in January. I told about my experience here. It’s still a struggle so please guys be there for me and send me love. I need it. I just know I have no other choice because I have sometimes strange feelings and pain. I can’t wait to be able to say I faced this 4 times and it went well.

I’m really happy to be here but I also feel sadness in Spain. I see elderly walking and I get emotional thinking of how many people have died here and all over the world. In Spain people are so social and always together. The Netherlands has a individualistic culture. It’s so different. You see less people and people are afraid which is normal. Night life is different too. I don’t miss fiestas so much because what I need in life is more connection and deep talks rather than being drunk all the time. It’s been ages for me and I’m really happy to have gone a different way in drinking alcohol. I don’t need to drink much to have fun. The virus is still here and we have to be careful. They are putting some villages in Valladolid in lockdown again which just means that it isn’t over. I hope you all stay safe this Summer and have fun. We are all in this together ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿ™.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope it wasn’t too boring. I hope you all liked it. What are you up to during this Summer? How are you feeling? How is your physical and mental health? What do you think of what I wrote? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

Summer bucket list 2020 ๐ŸŒž๐ŸŒŠ๐Ÿ„๐ŸŒด๐Ÿง๐Ÿน๐Ÿธ๐Ÿ’ƒ

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

Before I share a birthday haul post which is a bit overdue hahah I want to share this blog post. I’m going to share again a Summer bucket list ๐ŸŒž. I often write down 100 things in a journal but it isn’t all achievable of course. I will try to only point down the most important things. If you make a long list of things you want to do, you most likely will not do them all. It could maybe overwhelm you instead of having fun and doing them. This Summer I want to be happy and enjoy life while being safe and follow the safety measures of the pandemic. We all have to enjoy our Summer time but we also have to keep aware and know that the Coronavirus isn’t away. We still have to keep distance, wash our hands and be careful ๐Ÿ™. Let’s get started! ๐Ÿ’–

  • Fly to Spain โœˆ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ

I can’t wait to go to Spain because we didn’t went there since Christmas time. I’m mostly always a bit anxious of travelling. I have to admit that I’m now more anxious to go because of all the things you have to do while travelling. You have to wear a mask in the airplane and during the travel day. I’m afraid to get really anxious or get a panic attack ๐Ÿ˜ข. I of course agree with the safety measures. You also have to fill in a health paper to declare that you aren’t sick. They can check your temperature when you arrive at the airport. Travelling is not like we used to know it. I really want to go with my mother to Spain and enjoy our Summer there ๐ŸŒž๐Ÿ˜. I guess it’s okay we are anxious to travel. I just hope we won’t get sick. I also miss Spain so much so it would be so nice to finally be there. We maybe go at the end of July. I will keep you all updated how things will go.

  • Spend time with family & friends ๐Ÿ‘ช๐Ÿ‘ญ

I miss seeing my family so much. I only see my parents and sometimes my brother and his wife from a distance. I miss seeing my almost 5 year old niece. Her birthday is in July just like the birthday of my brother Edward. I can’t wait to see my niece, Edward and Elke again. They hopefully will come to our house this month. We haven’t seen each other since Christmas ๐Ÿ˜ญ. I also miss my friends so much. Some friends I didn’t see for a half year, others for a year. I can’t wait to have amazing plans with them in The Netherlands and in Spain ๐Ÿ’–. I’m already going on a lunch with my bestie this month and will also go surfing with her ๐Ÿ„. My other friend from Irak is also coming to my house. I also can’t wait to celebrate my birthday in Spain with my lovely friends and eat delicious tapas all together. Spending time with your loved ones is the best thing you can do. Always be around people who are sunshine for you and not around people who drain you. They aren’t worth it.

  • Go to the beach ๐ŸŒŠ๐Ÿš

This Summer as always I want to go to the beach many times ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŒŠ. I already went twice to the beach in The Netherlands. It’s one hour away with the bike. I loved it so much even though the water here isn’t clear like in Spain haha. Beach time is what makes me the most happy. I’m a mermaid and beach girl forever. Summer isn’t good if I don’t go to the beach. The sea knows all my secrets and heals my heart. If we go to Spain, then I hope to go to the beach there too. The beach is there 3 hours away by train. It’s so beautiful in Santander. There’s also a little surf village which is called Somo near to Santander. I would love to go there again. I went there with my mother a few years ago.

  • Go surfing ๐Ÿ„

I can’t wait to go surfing again! ๐Ÿ˜ I always do this on my Summer bucket list but didn’t go surfing since more than 4 years. I miss it so much. My best friend and I were about to go last Summer but it was bad weather so we didn’t go. This Summer we will definitely go surfing together. I can’t wait. Here there’s always wind so it’s a great beach to surf. Maybe I will go surfing too in Somo, in Spain. I would love to go again to a surf camp. You learn so much there. The surfing lifestyle is the best way to live life โœŒ๐Ÿ’–. Enjoying nature, being present and that feeling of being alive when you are out there in the ocean catching a wave. Hearing the waves crashing to the shore and tasting the salt air and sea all creates a sense of peace and freedom. We all need that in life.

  • Read books ๐Ÿ“š

I love reading books and I find the Summer months the best months to read ๐Ÿ“–. I love to read outside in our garden. I also love to read in the park or on the beach. I already read some books these months which I have to review soon. This Summer I would love to read at least 3 books if that’s possible. I don’t want to say more because I’m a slow reader and I don’t want to create unnecessary stress. We learn so much from reading. It’s lovely to read on a Summer day with a glass of lemonade or red wine. You drive away into paradise ๐ŸŒด.

  • Make smoothies, aรงai bowls & ice pops ๐Ÿฆ๐Ÿ๐Ÿ“

I love to make fruit smoothies. I used to make them a lot and I really miss making them. I want to make a lot more these Summer. I also would love to make ice pops and aรงai bowls because I never did that before. I love how it looks like. It must be delicious ๐Ÿ˜‹. I really want to try to make them and share it with you guys. Let me know if you ever tried to make this and which flavour was the most delicious one. All of these are so refreshing for a hot Summer day and also very healthy which is just a win-win haha.

  • Practice yoga in a studio or outside ๐Ÿ™

I do yoga almost every damn day now since March and it helps me so much with anxiety. I feel more at home in my body. I enjoy being spiritual too and just feel more in sync with life and mother nature. I do yoga with Yoga Girl, my biggest inspiration. I do it on her website. Every month I pay just โ‚ฌ14 and I can do everything on there. The live classes with Yoga Girl are so amazing ๐Ÿ’–. I also do full moon ๐ŸŒ•๐ŸŒœ๐ŸŒ› ceremonies on there. Doing yoga at home is nice but I also would love to do it again in a studio or have a class outside. I only did that twice in my life. Sometimes I find myself being a bit anxious in a room because of feeling judged in a room full of people. I don’t like big groups. Hopefully I can overcome that and take a class in a studio in The Netherlands or in Spain. The connection you feel with others is so beautiful and so important too in a yoga practice. It makes you feel even more at one with this beautiful world we live in.

Doing yoga at home
  • Share singing covers ๐ŸŽถ

This was the only time I shared a singing cover on my blog. Hopefully I will be able to share more covers here and also on my Instagram ๐ŸŽค. Sometimes I’m just a bit anxious to share it. I love singing but it always takes a lot of courage to film yourself and share it online because of the negative people out there. We just have to think that if someone says something bad about you, it says more about that person than about you. I will have to keep doing what I love because that makes me the most happy. I hope you guys will enjoy it when I’m ready to share it. I also sometimes thought about making a Youtube channel for singing covers but that makes a bit too anxious to do that now. Maybe in the future, who knows.

  • Spend time in nature ๐ŸŒณ๐ŸŒน

Spending time in nature is a must during the warm months. I love it so much. I don’t like Winter so I enjoy being outside in Summer. I love to go to the park, enjoy our garden and go to the beach. I love to walk around and go biking ๐Ÿšฒ with my mother. Nature is so alive right now so we have to enjoy it. Spending time in nature also means soaking up the sunshine which is so important for our health too. The sun gives us energy, vitamin D and makes us happier. We need sun light ๐ŸŒž. Don’t forget to always wear sunscreen.

  • Declutter my wardrobe ๐Ÿ‘—

Basically I have to organize my whole room and sort things out but let’s being with my wardrobe. I have to do it here and in Spain. I just never do it haha because I don’t like it. It’s been ages now and it really needs to get done ๐Ÿ™. I also have a hard time in letting clothes go. Some I will treasure and others I will have to donate or sell. I want to try the Marie Kondo way. I hope it works out this Summer. If you have some tips, please let me know.

  • Keep writing poems ๐Ÿ“

I will keep writing poetry in my journal. I hope to be able to share some of my poetry on here. I will also of course keep writing letters to my pen pals and write for my blog. I love to get inspiration from being on the beach or outside in my garden. Whenever I get inspiration โœจ I write it down because otherwise I forget it easily.

Poem about speaking up
  • Be happy, have fun and make the best of this Summer! ๐ŸŒž๐ŸŒˆ

On top of this list is just trying to make the best of this Summer. Hakuna matata โœŒ. Being happy and just enjoying Summer time on our own way is the most important thing. It’s important to take pressure away of having the best Summer ever because every Summer has its ups and downs like life. Summer is my favourite season ever. I’m a Summer and beach girl forever. I’m always SO happy when Summer arrives. In Spain the sun shines every day so I can’t wait to go there and have loads of fun.

Thank you all for reading this fun blog post. I hope you will all have an amazing Summer full of responsible adventure times ๐ŸŒžโœŒ. I hope you will all enjoy it with your family and friends. Make loads of memories. Be safe too. What are you going to this Summer? Are you staying at home or are you going to travel? What of my list are you going to do? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

August favourites ๐ŸŠโ€โ™€๏ธ๐ŸŒž๐ŸŒŠ๐ŸŽถ

Holaaaa lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

It’s time for another favourites post. I will share with you all what I did in August. I saw a lot of good movies, swam in the swimming pool, bought some awesome stationery, I bought The Album of Taylor Swift which came out last month and I did some other nice stuff as well. It’s less warm right now which is better but also makes me realize that Summer is ending soon. Summer is my fav season and I get always sad when Summer ends ๐Ÿ˜ญ. The dark Winter months make my mental health worse. I love the sunshine ๐ŸŒž . I’m just a Summer girl forevah! Right now, I have a bad cold. Hopefully I will feel better soon ๐Ÿ™ .

Things I did with my family ๐Ÿ‘ช:

I bought Taylor Swift Deluxe Album Version 4 ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŽถ

I’M SO HAPPY YEAHHH!!!! I bought the beautiful new album Lover of @taylorswift at @elcorteingles when I was going out with my parents ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŽถ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ‘ธโœจ๐ŸŒฅ I love it so much. My fav songs are Paper rings, Lover, YNTCD, London Boy and Soon you’ll get better. I really liked the conversation I had with the worker in El Corte Inglรฉs when I bought it. She said I was lucky because these deluxe versions where sold out that day. She deserve it all! ๐Ÿ’— Then she put the cd Lover on and said so you can get in the mood. It really made me so happy haha ๐Ÿ˜ I asked her if she also listened to it and she said yes and then she said it’s really nice. I’m so happy I have chosen Taylor Swift as my idol all my life. Tay Tay means so much to me. I love her personality. She’s always so kind, so lovely and so honest. She also got through a lot of though times. I’m so happy that this album is her own album with her credits. Being a fan is more than supporting just your favourite artist. It’s a way of life. They are more than just being an artist, they are a person and deserve their privacy and also I know they aren’t a kind of God.

I love her so much but I also know that she is just a human being who also suffer, cries, goes through though times as loosing the people we love and having a heartbreak ๐Ÿ’” . I wish people would think of this more when we love an artist and when we are supporting them. Often in this world it feels like famous people have those perfect lives when they haven’t. I always think that’s much more thougher to go through life being famous because you are always in the public eye. People judge a lot and that hurt. I’m just so blessed to have Taylor in my life. I have been following her for years now since Love Story came out. I was 17 years old and I was falling in love with my first love. It was that time that I listened to songs such as Fairytale and Jump then fall. I felt happy and so in love. Then I turned 19 years and had to go through a though heartbreak. There was Taylor with her music who got me through it. I’m so thankful for her music. I love the song Teardrops on my guitar and Our song.

Thank you Taylor for being such an amazing artist and person. I can’t wait to go to a concert of you! ๐Ÿ˜ You mean so much to me. I love you so so much ๐Ÿ’• xoxo

Drinking a tea and a piece of pie in hotel El Olid ๐Ÿต๐Ÿฅง

The day I bought the new album of Taylor Swift I also went afterwards to the hotel El Olid with my parents. I love to drink camille tea. I had a delicious chocolate pie and my mother had a piece of apple pie. We had a nice time together.

Eating chinese food with the family ๐Ÿฝ

We celebrated the first anniversary of the wedding of my brother Rafael and Verรณnica and the birthday of her mother all together with my mother and her brother in a chinese restaurant in Valladolid. The food was so good ๐Ÿ˜. I really loved it so much! We drank sangria ๐Ÿท which was so delicious. We ate rice, chicken, vegetables and noodles. It was really way too much food so we brang some food home for the next day. We had such a great time together. I had never been to this restaurant. It also looked very cozy, nice and the service was really good. I love Spanish food more but this dinner was also very delicious ๐Ÿ˜‹. We gave my brother and wife some cookies and a card and we gave the mother of Verรณnica some perfume and a card for her birthday. They loved it very much.

Going to the swimming pool ๐ŸŠ๐ŸŒž

I went another 6 times to the outdoor swimming pool this month. I’m a mermaid forevah! ๐Ÿงœโ€โ™€๏ธNow they are closed again until next year which makes me sad. I only go to the swimming pool during the Summer but I really want to go during the Winter too. It’s just harder because I don’t like to wear wet hair outside when it’s cold outside. However, I enjoyed the last days in the swimming pool with my mother and my friend. I was reading The Great Gatsby these days too in the sunshine.

Carrefour shopping ๐Ÿ›’

I went to Carrefour one day which is a French multinational. It’s one of my favourite shops and supermarkts. I love that we have so many in Spain. I went one day with my mother to buy a SD card for my phone as the other didn’t work again. I also bought a book ๐Ÿ“™ which is about how to make good things happen to you. I heard a lot of great reviews about this book. The writer is a psychiatrist which knows all about mental illnesses and mental health. I hope this self help book will help to conquer my anxiety. I also bought some cup a soup which I always drink in The Netherlands. I also bought some crafts which I can use to sent washi tape to my pen pals or do something else with it. I’m also happy to have bought finally some beautiful Stabilo highlighters which I have seen always on mia‘s blog which is one of my fav bloggers here ๐Ÿ’•.

Shopping in Granada ๐Ÿ’—

When I went to Granada I bought some nice writing paper in a shop where they had books and stationery. The writing paper is very beautiful with a red rose on it ๐ŸŒน. In my favourite shop Alle-Hop which we don’t have in Valladolid I bought a golden shiny notebook, colourful markers, cute colourful bracelets, some nice mangets (one is for my daddy, one for myself with the donut on it and the other ones are for some good friends) and a lovely sticky notebook which 15 pages full of beautiful colours, unicorns and clouds. In a hippie shop in Granada I bought some beautiful postcards which I always love to buy in every place I travel to. I also bought in that shop some lavender soap and a beautiful box for it.

Movie night with my mother ๐ŸŽฅ๐ŸŒƒ

I saw some good movies with my mother because my brother fixed our television. It’s so nice to be able to watch movies and series on TV ๐Ÿ“บ . The movies we watched were Everything, Everything which is also the book I have read this Summer, Pitch Perfect 3, Coco, Mama Mia 2, Dumbo, Blue Jay and Toy Story 1. I loved Coco the most as we never watched it before. It’s such a beautiful movie with beautiful music. It made me realize the importance of family and made me learn that the people we loose in life will never be forgotten. They will always be there for us. I also loved Dumbo so much. I had never watched that Disney movie. I loved it and learned a lot about that movie such as there’s nothing bad about being different.

We also watched some Spanish movies such as La Llamada, Toc Toc and Ocho Apellidos Vascos. The one I loved the most was Toc Toc because it was about 6 people who had a mental illness which was OCD and there were all waiting in the waiting room for the doctor. They were all dated the same day at the same time. The doctor didn’t arrive because he was late from a flight. One only thinks in numbers, another one is afraid of virus and bacteria and another one checks everything at home all the time and is religious. There was also a man who was cursing all the time and saying inappropriate things. Then they begin to share their different OCD’s in the hope to find a cure. It’s such a crazy and funny movie. I think it’s really important to show mental illnesses in a positive light rather than always sharing the negative side of it. This movie definitely will make you feel less alone and will help the ones who suffer from it to know that it’s okay to be sick. There are always people who care about us.

Other amazing things of August โค๏ธ:

Trip to Gijรณn with my lovely friend ๐ŸŒŠ๐ŸŒž๐ŸŒด๐Ÿ„โ€โ™€๏ธโ›ต

Our trip to Gijรณn last week was amazing! ๐Ÿ˜ It was definitely one of the best holidays evah. I love to discover new cities especially in Spain because every place I go is beautiful. The beaches in Spain are one of the most beautiful ones in the world. They are so wild, beautiful and amazing. Asturias is a beautiful region of Spain. I always get emotional when I have to go back home. I fall in love with every place I go. Asturias has beautiful nature, green landscape (because of the rain) and beautiful beaches ๐ŸŒŠ. The people are super friendly, helpful and outgoing. It didn’t rain at all. It was about 25 degrees and at night it was 22 so it was really such a perfect temperature.

Sometimes the sun was shining too. We went to the beach La Playa de San Lorenzo which is so beautiful. There were so many waves. I’m sad I didn’t surf again but I will do it soon. There were loads of people surfing, doing sup or swimming in the sea. We also swam in the sea which was awesome. The water temperature was 19.5/20 degrees which is really warm for the north. I loved it so much! ๐Ÿ˜ We ate delicious food and also from the region of Asturias such as fabada Asturiana which are bones with chorizo and sauce. We tried cider ๐Ÿป, had delicious breakfast, ate a delicious ice cream and loads of other good food ๐Ÿฒ. We also went to a beach bar called Pura Vida Bar to have breakfast there which was amazing. Pura vida always! โœŒ๏ธ We also enjoyed the night life which was crazy. We danced the nights away ๐ŸŽถ. There were so many people at the port โš“. I love the beach vibes so much. One boy came to me and said he liked my flower headband ๐ŸŒธโœŒ๏ธhaha forevah a hippie girl!

One night we met lovely people from Basque Country who were celebrating a bachelor party ๐ŸŽ‰. I have family there so it was nice to talk to them. It was so much fun! It’s so nice to meet people who only bring good vibes and respect you. There are so many good people in the world, you just have to find the right ones. We stayed in the Hotel Begoรฑa ๐Ÿฉ which was in the city centre and 15 minutes from the bars, beach and shops. I’m happy I went with my lovely friend ๐Ÿ’— Te quiero! Let’s keep travelling more and more!

Rotterdam is going to host Eurovision Song Contest 2020 ๐ŸŽถ๐Ÿ‡ณ๐Ÿ‡ฑ

I will show you below the beautiful video that shows the world that next year Eurovision Song Contest 2020 will take place in Rotterdam, The Netherlands.ย I cried and felt emotional watching thisย ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜ญย It’s so beautiful. I love how creative and special they made the announcement last Friday. The Netherlands is going to be one of the best host places ever. I just feel it.ย It’s going to be so specialย โœจ. After 44 years Eurovision is coming backย to The Netherlandsย hell yeahhhh let’s do thisย ๐Ÿ˜Ž๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŽค๐ŸŽธ๐ŸŽ™๏ธ๐ŸŽถ I hope the tickets will be not so expensive to be able to see it live for the first time in my life. It will be a once in a lifetime experience.

Two years blogging anniversary ๐ŸŽ‰

I’m so happy with my achievement of two years blogging! Times goes by so fast. I wrote all about it in this blog post. Writing definitely heals my life and makes me so happy. I will do it all my life and will never stop writing. I’m so thankful to have met you all. This community is amazing. I love you all so much ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–.

Writing paper from UK ๐Ÿ‡ฌ๐Ÿ‡ง๐Ÿ“„

I bought beautiful writing paper from a shop in UK online. I bought it from the shop Sweet Stationery on Etsy. It was so cheap and also the delivery was so fast. You get 26 pages from each design. One is with mermaids and another one is a girl with a flamingo. I find it so beautiful! ๐Ÿ˜ I also got free stickers from the shop. I can’t wait to buy more from this shop as I find it difficult to find writing paper in the shops. If anyone know more shops to find it, let me know. I will appreciate it.

10K views on my blog ๐Ÿ–ฅ

I was looking at my statistics of my blog and saw that I have reached 10K views ๐ŸŽ‰. I’m so happy about that. It means so much to me. 10.000 views on my blog wow it sounds so much! I also have almost 400 followers. I hope my blog will continue growing. Much love to you all!

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope you all liked it. What did you do in August? Do you have a nice Summer time? What are your favourites of my post? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina



July favourites ๐ŸŒž๐ŸŠ๐Ÿ’—

Hola lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

It’s again time for my favourites post! ๐Ÿ˜ I can’t wait to share with you all the amazing things I did in July. It was a great Summer month and I wish to continue to enjoy Summer like I do. I wish Summer would never end as it always makes me so happy. I don’t enjoy heatwaves but I love the sunshine. I’m going to talk about my July favourites which includes eating delicious tapas and other food with my friends and family, going to the cinema after two years not going because of anxiety, my trip to Granada (will maybe make a travel blog post about the trip as well), swimming in the Mediterranean Sea, swimming in the pools here in Valladolid and much more amazing things.

Things I did with my family ๐Ÿ‘ช :

Going to the swimming pool ๐ŸŠ๐ŸŒž

I went 8 times to the swimming pool with my friend and mother. I want to go more times in August. With my friend I went the first time to the outdoor swimming pool as it was raining that day. The rest of the days I went with my friend and my mother to the outdoor swimming pool. There are a lot of outdoor swimming pools here so it’s nice to enjoy that during the hot Summer days because there’s no beach here. I swam a lot and was also reading at the swimming pool the book Everything, Everything and a Dutch psychology magazine. I also enjoyed some delicious ice creams. Swimming is so relaxing and so good for our health. Swimming all Summer long yeahhh!!! ๐Ÿ˜

Wedding pictures ๐Ÿ’’๐Ÿ‘ฐ ๐Ÿคต๐Ÿ’ ๐Ÿ’–

I finally got the pictures of my brother’s wedding from last Summer. My other brother Edward together with his wife Elke (they have a company of wedding photography) made these pictures of the wedding of Rafael and Verรณnica. They had to sort everything out so I finally got them and download them all. Maybe, I will do a seperate blog post about them because I want to share them all together. I will post a few of them below so that you can all have a preview. These pictures are so gorgeous and beautiful ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ‘Œ. It brings me back only good vibes of this unforgettable day.

Granada trip with my mother ๐Ÿ’—๐ŸŒž

I just came back from Granda which is 610 km. from Valladolid and like 7 hours by bus. I love Andalucia, the south of Spain so much. My mother and I went to visit a friend of me and his family who I met during the Many Languages, One World Essay Contest in New York City in 2015. Granada is one of my favourites cities in Spain and of the whole world ๐Ÿ˜. It gives me those hippie vibes. You see people dancing, singing and playing the guitar everywhere. The people are so friendly everywhere. The tapas are so delicious. We ate a lot of them. You just have to order a drink and then you will get a free tapa which is amazing. It’s only in Granada where that happens. It’s also very hot during the day but we chilled in our 4 stars โœจ hotel.

We enjoyed the swimming pool and jacuzzi on the terrace of the hotel. I bought some nice souvenirs and stuff in Alle Hop which is an amazing shop and other hippie shops. We also ate delicious Italian ice creams, a delicious pizza together with a glass of sangria on the terrace of our hotel. You could see the whole city. It was such a beautiful view. The only bad thing of the trip was that I lost my squeeze animal. I got anxious and cried ๐Ÿ˜ข. It just meant a lot to me because my best friend gave it for my birthday. I didn’t actually lost it but it was in my bed and the cleaners of the hotel cleaned the room and the bed so I guess they took it without knowing. I will buy a new one as I guess they won’t find it anymore.

Swimming in The Mediterranean Sea ๐ŸŒŠโ˜€๏ธ๐ŸŸ๐Ÿ ๐ŸŠ

During the trip of Granada we also went one day to the beautiful beach La Rรกbita which is on La Costa Tropical ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŒž๐ŸŒŠ๐ŸŒด The night before I couldn’t sleep so well because it was warm and felt anxious so took diazepam from my mother. It helped so that I could enjoy the beach day the next day. I already miss this beautiful beach La Rรกbita so much ๐Ÿ˜ญ The water was a bit cold which is normally more warm but I still love it always so much. There’s nothing better than swimming in the ocean and also watching a beautiful sunset on the beach. We also had a delicious meal with the family of my friend in a restaurant. I ate gazpacho which is a cold Spanish soup, croquettes with potatoes and an ice cream. It was all so delicious ๐Ÿ˜‹ .

I always miss the sea and ocean when I leave it no matter where I’m. I’m forever a beach and Summer girl. The ocean is my home and my love for the ocean is infinite. It will never leave me ๐Ÿ’—. Human beings are made of water and salt so basically we are the ocean ourselves. The smell of the salt air, the taste of the salty sea, hearing the waves crashing on the shore, seeing the beautiful ocean and feeling the wind on my skin all creates a sense of peace and calm which can’t beat anything in this world. I’m happy I live in a world which is surrounded by beautiful oceans. The world is beautiful ๐ŸŒ๐ŸŒŠ๐ŸŒŠ

Birthday of my brother Edward, Noanne and Lisanne ๐ŸŽ‚๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽˆ๐ŸŽ

It was my brother’s birthday on the 14th of July so I sent him a picture of us three which he can hang on the wall. That picture was made on his wedding in The Netherlands which was also a beautiful day to remember forever. My little niece Noanne turned 4 years on the 16th of July so I sent her a cute balloon ๐ŸŽˆ . They loved my gifts very much. I also sent the same unicorn balloon to Lisanne which is a little girl from my choir from a man. She has neuroblastoma and also leucemia now so that hit me really hard. I also wrote them a letter. I find it important to be there for others even though if I’m struggling myself. They liked it all very much which made me happy.

Watching the movie The Lion King with my mother and my good friend ๐Ÿฆ๐ŸŽฅ

I went to the cinema ๐ŸŽฌ after two years not going with my motherย and my good friend. I’ve always loved to go to the cinema with my mother and friends. You may ask why didn’t I go for such a long time?! The reason is anxiety. Two years ago when I went for the last time to watch a movie I began to feel anxious and thought that time that I was close to have a panic attack. I got scared and ended up not going anymore which is really sad. Anxiety always takes away everything I love to do in life. It’s horrible and I’m so done with it. Sometimes I have to take little steps to overcome a fear because I just can’t do it all at once like going to the dentist. I’m happy I went to watch The Lion King which is my favourite Disney movie ever yeahhh! ๐Ÿ˜ I even have the words “Hakuna matata” on the wall in my room in The Netherlands. I also had a cover for my mobile phone of it which unfortunately all got stolen.

I loved the movie so much. The animation version is amazing but this version too. It all looks so real and is so beautiful made! Simba is so cute. I cried a lot during the movie ๐Ÿ˜ญ We also enjoyed delicious popcorn. I wish to go to Africa once and see this beautiful wild life with my own eyes. The Lion King teaches me so many lessons like that everyone is afraid of something, that you can learn from your past and that it’s important to face your fears. Even though I worry so much because of anxiety I agree that Hakuna Matata is such an important life philosophy to live by. I hope I will get there one day because life is way too short to worry all day and especially of things which aren’t going to happen. It also teaches us that our lost loved ones will always be a part of us.

I’m happy I went to the movies as it’s a big recovery win ๐Ÿ’ช because I felt anxious once two years ago during a movie doesn’t mean that it will happen again. We can all learn so much from Disney movies. I will never be too old to watch them. I can’t wait to go one day to Disneyland ๐Ÿ’—. Magic is everywhere around us, we just have to find it in ourselves too โœจ

Things I did with my lovely friends ๐Ÿ’•:

Drinking a delicious milkshake with my friend ๐Ÿฆ๐Ÿจ๐Ÿง

We enjoyed such a delicious milkshake! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿง I drank a chocolate milkshake andย my friendย had a strawberry one. I also once tried a coconut milkshake. I love them all but my fav is chocolate. Everything with chocolate is my favourite evah. I love to eat ice cream ๐Ÿฆ, drink milkshakes and any form of dessert. It’s much better to eat and drink this during the Summer. So refreshing & so delicious mmm! ๐Ÿ˜‹

Eating at the greek restaurant and enjoying a drink on a terrace ๐Ÿด๐Ÿ’•

After a year we ate again in Pita. gr, griegos artesanos in Valladolid. It’s one of my favourites restaurants in Valladolid. I love Greek food so much ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‡ฌ๐Ÿ‡ท I wish to go one day! The food is cheap and soooo delicious ๐Ÿ˜‹. Also the service is very good and fast. They always explain what everything is. We ate delicious mezzes with pita bread. My favourite sauce is the yoghurt and the one with feta. We also loved the delicious Greek lemonade. We also ate musakas with salad and more pita bread. As dessert we tried something different this time which was baklavas with nuts and yoghurt. It was so damn delicious. We loved it all so much! We will be back soon again yeah yeah yeah!

After eating a delicious Greek dinner on that Friday night I went to a terrace with my friends. We also got some delicious sweets. I love chuches ๐Ÿฌ. It was pretty cold afterwards. The nights here in Valladolid can be cold and yes even during the Summer ๐Ÿ˜‚โ„๏ธ It was 15 degrees that night brrr.

Eating tapas and delicious ice cream rolls with my friends ๐Ÿฆ๐Ÿ’•

It was nice to see my lovely friend Iris again after a year together with Maria. We tried for the first time ice cream rolls omggg it’s so delicious ๐Ÿ˜‹ I have always seen this popular ice cream on Instagram and was very curious to try it. Sometimes a hype can be overrated but this was definitely as good as it looks! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‘ŒMine was with strawberries and as topping white chocolate. My friends had one with strawberries, oreos and white chocolate. I can’t wait to try another one again! Afterwards, we ate some delicious tapas. I love to eat croquettes and a mosto which is grape juice in the popular bar El Corcho. We also loved the solomillo al roquefort in another famous bar called La Tasquita. Spanish food is just da best! ๐Ÿ’— Viva Espaรฑa ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ, oleeee!

Hot Summer night with my friend and mother ๐ŸŒž๐Ÿ”ฅ

I enjoyed some delicious Spanish food with my friend Maria. We ate a delicious pincho moruno with potatoes and tortilla at my favourite restaurant called Elany. When we drink a mosto we always get a free tapa which was chorizo this time. I love the owners which are from Romania so much. My family knows them so much and it’s so great to have your fav restaurant 5 min from your home. One time we also got a free flan ๐Ÿฎ. I also love to always give them a tip.

Afterwards, my mamita and I enjoyed a manzanilla tea ๐Ÿต and a mosto at La Plaza Mayor. It was 38 degrees the whole day so it was too hot to be inside. It was nice to be at a terrace during the night as the temperature was cooling down. Global warming is not something fake. It’s so real and I’m experiencing it right now in Spain. It’s never been so hot and so crazy weather during the Summer. We can all do something to save this planet ๐ŸŒ๐Ÿ™ One day it will be too late….

Other amazing things of July โค๏ธ:

Finished reading the book Everything, Everything ๐Ÿ“š

I LOVED THIS BOOK SO MUCH ๐Ÿ˜. I will post a good review about it soon together with some other books I’ve read. I already talked about this book on my last blog post. I’ve never read a book so fast. I finished it in two weeks whoehoeeee.

Receiving awesome pen pal letters ๐Ÿ–‹๏ธ

I loved the snail mail I got from Vikki, Rosie, Danielle, and my lovely blogging friend Chloe. Thank you all so much. I really love to receive amazing letters especially from such lovely people as you all are. I also loved the post so much from Sophia. I loved the quotes and especially the unicorn writing paper ๐Ÿฆ„ as it’s difficult to find here. I loved the postcard from my best friend from Crete so much too โค๏ธ.

Last but not least, I also loved the post from Barbara so much. She also sent me some lovely presents for my birthday which was the first of June. I loved the Disney paper and bag so much. I especially loved the mermaid vibes passport holder. I always wanted that. The edible unicorn wafers are amazing too and the unicorn holder. Thank you all so much for everything! I’m so grateful to know you all. I love you all so much ๐Ÿ’–

Watched the movie Campeones ๐ŸŽฌ

I watched this movie on the bus trip to Granada. I already wanted to watch this movie for so long. It’s a beautiful Spanish movie. I cried so much ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜ญ. It’s about a trainer of basketball who get a punishment of driving too hard because of drinking alcohol. He then has to train a team which all have sindrome of down. I think this Spanish movie is so important. It’s all about love, friendships and inclusion. We all deserve to feel equal and be treated as persons. We all deserve the same opportunities in life no matter what ๐Ÿ™. This movie also won the prize of best Spanish movie 2019. There was also a beautiful sentence said in the movie which was: “You treated us as humans.” “Because you are humans”. I wish there would be more movies like this one because they are so necessary. We are all equal, always remember that.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. What did you do in July? What are your favourites from my list? Do you have any Summer trips planned? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

Summer OOTD ๐ŸŒž๐Ÿ‘—

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

From now I’m going to be a fashion blogger haha no just kidding ๐Ÿ˜‚ I like to share OOTD, hauls and stuff. Today I will share a short post about a Summer OOTD. It was 38 degrees almost 40 on Friday. I love Summer and Summer nights but I can’t stand heatwaves. I didn’t felt good, had headaches and my tummy hurt. Now I’m feeling a bit better.

I was about to go eat some delicious Spanish food with my friend when my mamita took this pictures. I was in the mood of puting make up on and dress up. I wore this white dress which I bought from a lovely friend of Instagram. It was a size M but it fits perfectly. I really love this dress so much ๐Ÿ˜ I got so many positive comments when I shared it.

Thank you all for reading this short blog post. Did you like my dress? Do you wear dresses in the Summer? How’s Summer in your country right now? Let me know lovelies ๐Ÿ’—. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

June favourites ๐ŸŒž๐ŸŽ‰

Hola lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

For I begin, I would like to thank you all so much for all your support on my last blog post. You guys mean the most to me! ๐Ÿ’— I’m so thankful to always have this amazing community to be there for me. I love you all so much ๐Ÿ’•

I was dying the day I wrote this because it was so hot. There was a heatwave in Spain. It was 40 degrees in Valladolid. I was staying inside because I didn’t felt good because of it and because of my period. I can’t wait to go swimming this week when I don’t have my period anymore and feel better. The temperature is going down to 30 degrees which is perfect. I’m going to tell you in this blog post all about my June favourites such as celebrating my birthday with my family and friends, Summer time, the delicious food I’ve eaten and other amazing things.

Things I did with my family ๐Ÿ‘จโ€๐Ÿ‘จโ€๐Ÿ‘ฆ :

My birthday celebration ๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽ‚๐ŸŽˆ๐ŸŽ

It was my birthday on the first of June. I turned 26 years young haha. You can read my summary of my 25th year here. I had to cry on my birthday because of having my period and I just felt so emotional. I was feeling like I don’t have my life together and I still feel that way. However, I have to think that we all have our own time in life to do things and make things happen. I also enjoyed my birthday with my mother, the brother and mother of Verรณnica which came to visit us. We ate a delicious chocolate cake and I blew the candles. I hope my wish will come true. I got amazing presents such as much stationery, a beautiful shirt, make up, flower headbands, jewelry and more. I also got a lot of beautiful handwritten cards.

I will show that with you all this month in a haul since I had to wait until I got everything to take pictures. My mother also bought me a lovely purple balloon and decorated our home. In the evening we went to eat dinner all three in my favourite restaurant called Elany. The bad thing was that we went late so there wasn’t much food left. We could enjoy some cheese, salad and chorizo. I was drinking a delicious grape fruit drink. I went home early because I felt bad because of my period. My mother went for a drink with the family of Verรณnica.

Celebrating my birthday with family

Eating delicious food with mamita ๐Ÿฒ

I ate so much delicious food this month. I love to eat outside especially when I’m in Spain as the food is so good and also so healthy. The Mediterranean diet is just the best. I ate twice in the big shopping mall El Corte Inglรฉs. We love to eat a sandwich ham & cheese with potatoes. You get free mayo, ketchup and anything you want. In Holland every sauce cost money. I also ate in a new restaurant called Rodilla which I discovered with mamita. We ate a delicious sandwich together with croquettes which were just โ‚ฌ1, so cheap!!! We also ate one day eggs with potatoes together with jรกmon serrano in my fav restaurant Elany near to my house, another day I ate a delicious tortilla de patata and paella. It’s my favourite Spanish food together with paella.

Delicious Spanish food

Milkshake time ๐Ÿฅค๐Ÿจ๐Ÿง

I LOVE ICE CREAMS, MILKSHAKES AND SMOOTHIES SO MUCH!!! I love to drink this delicious chocolate milkshake with whipped cream so much. Also the waiter is such a lovely man and we always have a good talk with him. He knows us very well. My mother was drinking a tea with ice cubes. We also got free olives which I love very much.

Drinking chocolate milkshake with my mother

Enjoying sunny days โ˜€๏ธ

I enjoyed some sunny days with my mother on the fake beach here. Here in Valladolid there’s not a real beach just an artificial one with sand. We have a river but it’s dirty to swim there. I was reading the Dutch psychology magazine while my mother was reading another magazine on the bench. It’s nice to enjoy the sunshine while there wasn’t a heatwave. We also enjoyed a nice walk along the river.

Enjoying sunny days

Things I did with my lovely friends ๐Ÿ’•:

Celebrating my birthday with my friends ๐ŸŽŠ๐Ÿ’—

I had such an awesome night celebrating my birthday with my friends at the restaurant Eh Voila ๐Ÿ’•. I made a reservation for the Greek restaurant but when we arrived they said it was closed. It was full of water haha that never happened before. There are so many restaurants in Valladolid so it’s easy to choose another good one. I love the creperie Eh Voila. I had a delicious Italian crepe with champignons, cheese, ham, mozzarella, and tomato. It was like a pizza so delicious. My friends ate also crepes, salad and spaghetti. As dessert I had a delicious ice cream of yoghurt and vanilla. I went here many times and now the decoration and everything is new ๐Ÿ˜โœจ It’s so beautiful.

After eating a delicious dinner we went to drink something on a terrace. We also went dancing at Juanita yeahhh fiesta time! ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐ŸŽ‰ It was such a long time ago that we did that as friends group. The only time I felt anxious was when I went to the toilet at Juanita because I felt like I couldn’t go out. I’m always so anxious about being closed up somewhere. I’m so happy with all my lovely friends. I wouldn’t know where I would be without all of them. Thank you for being there for me ALWAYS! I’m also thankful for all the lovely presents I got. They are da best. It’s so nice to have the best friends of the two countries ๐Ÿ‡ณ๐Ÿ‡ฑ ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ Having friends in so many countries is the best thing ever. Thank you for making me so happy. I’m so blessed to know you all. I love you all so much ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜ญ

Celebrating my birthday with my lovely friends

Friend visiting Valladolid

I was so happy that my good friend from Granada came to visit me all the way from Madrid for my birthday celebration with my friends. It’s almost already 4 years since we were all in New York City during the Many Languages, One World forum. We all spoke at the United Nations and it was just a once in a life time experience. I met a lot of awesome people during that week. I love MLOW reunions and hope to meet many of this group soon too! I miss you all ๐Ÿ’—

I’m happy to have showed my friend Valladolid together with my mother. We visited the churches San Pablo, La Antigua, the Cathedral, saw the university of Valladolid and La Plaza Mayor. We saw it by night and by daylight ๐Ÿ˜‚ It was 25 degrees so perfect weather for sightseeing ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐ŸŒž We also ate a delicious meal in Bar Pablo which is just 100m from our house. It’s so cheap and the menu is delicious. I ate paella, potatoes with meat, and a delicious flan ๐Ÿฎ with whipping cream. Valladolid is such a beautiful city and I’m so happy to call it my home as well as Haarlem of course ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ ๐Ÿ‡ณ๐Ÿ‡ฑ Two of my fav cities ever. It was a beautiful weekend. I can’t wait to go to the south of Spain again soon! See ya soon mi amigo! Granada here I come oleeee! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ๐ŸŒŠ๐ŸŒด

Visiting Valladolid with my lovely friend

Birthday of my Spanish friend

We celebrated the birthday of our Spanish friend Sandra in the village of a friend of her. She has a house in a village near to Valladolid. It’s 30 minutes by car. We had a delicious bbq outside in that house with 9 friends of her. We had a nice time and enjoyed it a lot. We talked a lot about sex lol and other subjects ๐Ÿ˜‚ I love to talk about anything. When I feel comfortable with people I can talk about anything. I was happy it was during the evening since it was 40 degrees during the day. At night it was just 20 degrees oufff much better. She loved our present which were two fancy champagne glasses. Sometimes I don’t like to meet with a group of people because it makes me anxious but it was fine. We also ate a delicious chocolate pie ๐Ÿฅง and we played Jenga. They said I’m very good at it and it’s because I played it during my childhood a lot. I’m used to build big towers without letting them falling down hahah. I also loved how you could see the stars shine so brightly because there are no city lights. I’m in love with the universe ๐ŸŒŸโœจ

Celebrating the birthday of my friend in a little Spanish village

Other nice things of June:

Summer time ๐Ÿ˜Ž

It’s officially Summer time! ๐ŸŒž I’m so happy my favourite season is back. I survived the heatwave ๐Ÿ”ฅ at the end of the month which was way too hot for me. I love 30 degrees but 40 degrees is really way too hot for me. Even my mother suffered through the heatwave. I hope I can enjoy Summer time much and have fun! It’s the time that I’m mostly the most happy in life. I love to go to the beach, go swimming and travel a lot.

Officially Summer time

San Juan ๐Ÿ”ฅ

I didn’t went to San Juan this year but my mother went and got me some delicious churros ๐Ÿ˜‹. San Juan is an evening at the end of June were we welcome the beginning of the Summer. It’s typical to do it on the beach but here we have a fake beach like I said. There is a big bonfire and there are things to eat and drink. There’s also a lot of music to dance on ๐ŸŽถ. It’s a tradition to write down all the bad things that happened that year and burn it in the fire. You also write some wishes down for the next year which you keep at home. It’s a magical night.

The bonfire of San Juan and churros

Stationery and pen pal letters ๐Ÿ–‹๏ธ๐Ÿ’—

Last but not least, I bought some nice stationery stuff. I bought some nice stickers with hearts, flowers and stars and also some other cute ones. I also received some nice pen pal letters from Chloe (as well as birthday presents such as a beautiful painting of palmtrees she made ๐ŸŒด, cards, notebook, pencil and body masks), a beautiful letter from a new pen pal Vikki, from Jess and from the lovely Sophia (I loved all the goodies from you so much such as the beautiful cards, stickers and geen earrings). I love you all so much. Pen palling is awesome and I’m so happy I have now more and more pen pals to write too! ๐Ÿ˜ Writing letters and receiving letters makes me so happy.

Stationery and beautiful pen pal letters

Thank you all for reading this blog post. What were you favourites of June? What did you like from my list? Are you already enjoying Summer time? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

Reflection on 2018 & happy new year to you all! ๐ŸŽ‰โœจ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’ซ

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

Happy new year to you all! โœจ๐ŸŽ‰ In this post I will talk about my 2018 and will show you how I celebrated New Year’s Eve. I’m glad I don’t have a cold amymore but just tonight I got my period so yeah that also sucks ๐Ÿ˜ญ I’m glad I take medication for the cramps because otherwise I wouldn’t survive it. Besides, I’m also being anxious about my appointment of getting one of my wisdom teeth pulled out this week. I keep postponing the appointment. I know I have to do it but I’m so scared. H e l p. I also don’t want to do it in Holland. Here in Spain it’s much cheaper and the dentist understands my anxiety but I’m still so afraid and I just feel like I can’t cope. If anyone have some more tips to survive it I will be forever grateful ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’• I can always take medication for anxiety if that’s enough to help me cope with it.

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We are already in 2019. A year has flown by. As usually I want to reflect on my year with this post and also write some important things for you all. Every year has its ups and downs. Every year consists of good things and bad things which happen to us. The most important thing is how we react to all these things. I know how hard it’s to stay positive in this sometimes dark world. I just keep believing that there are so many good things in the world and that there are indeed so many good people. You just have to find your tribe. I’m so glad I did.

I’m so happy with my blogging community, mental health community, Yoga Girl community and the goddess revolution community. I’m thankful that I joined these communities this year. They made me feel less alone and so much happier. If I’m in Holland I will maybe go to a meet up with some yoga girls. I also really wish that we will continue to all be friends and hopefully one day we will all meet โœจ I know the universe brought us all together for a reason which is to be connected with awesome people, share our struggles and feel supported.

I learned a lot this year. I learn every day from this world. This year I realized that there are truly lovely people who care about you and want you to be happy. I learned that it’s better to have a few good friends than a million of fake friends. The ones who love you will always be there for you no matter what. I learned that true love exists when I saw my brother getting married in August in Spain. I learned that this life is an adventure. Sometimes we win and sometimes we loose. We learn from every experience. I also learned that it’s okay if I’m not where I want to be in life. I still have a long way to go. I will find a career I love and will keep growing. It all takes time, pacience and trust in myself. I have to love myself, believe in myself and know that I can make my dreams come true such as working and living in Spain โœจ

I also went to my first feminist strike in Valladolid, in Spain on International Women’s Day on the 8th of March with my mother. This was such an empowerful event. I never went to a demonstration before. I really wish 2019 will be the year that less women will be suffering from violence. I wish that women and men have the same human rights. Together we are starting a revolution. This is just the beginning. 2019 will be the year where women can be themselves, love themselves and love each other ๐Ÿ’•

This year I also learned that music is the best thing in life ๐ŸŽถ I would be lost without music. I went to so many amazing concerts such as the Operaciรณn Triunfo 2017 concert in Madrid with my friend Maria ๐Ÿ’• Operaciรณn Triunfo makes me so happy and full of life. I also enjoyed the concert of Pablo Alboran, Chenoa, Hombres G and Celtas Cortos with my mother in Valladolid. I also enjoyed so much the concert of Sofia Ellar with my friend Maria. I can’t wait to see her again. It was so lovely to meet Sofia and get a picture with her. She’s the best and I can’t wait to see her singing again ๐Ÿ˜

This year I began to read again a lot which I loved to do so much when I was younger. I will continue reading this new year. I also kept writing and being creative. I hope to create more amazing content on this blog. Writing is amazing. I travelled to Madrid, Granada, Santander and Somo. I discovered Somo which is a beautiful surfing village in the north of Spain. In 2019 I really want to go to a surf camp again ๐Ÿ„โ€โ™€๏ธ๐ŸŒŠ๐ŸŒž. I didn’t go surfing for more than two years. I miss it so much. It’s also so good for my mental health. The sea is my home and cleans my soul. The beach is my favourite place on this earth. I can’t wait to travel to more amazing places and meet more amazing people.

Somo, Santander (September 2018)

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Granada, Andalucia (July 2018)

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La Rรกbita, Mediterranean Sea, Granada (July 2018)

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Madrid (March 2018)

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Maybe for some of you this year was a hard year. Maybe some of you have lost someone close to you. Maybe you just didn’t felt okay and were struggling. I’m here for you. It’s okay to grief. It’s okay to not be okay. It’s okay to feel sad. Feelings change and emotions change but it all takes time. Try to not be hard on yourself next year. Remember, I’ll will always be there for you ๐Ÿ’• I hope you will invest in self love and self care this new year because that’s the most important thing that matters. I also encourage you all to surround yourself with people who love you and who bring you only good vibes because you deserve that โœจ.

I celebrated my New Year’s Eve in Valladolid, in Spain. I decided to not go out with my friends. I also didn’t go out last year. I used to party every year but I don’t feel in the mood anymore. I have to do what feels good to me. I went to the hairdressers in the afternoon to cut the dead ends, my bangs and they made curls in my hair. I love to look good for myself. I dressed up at home and did my make up. My mother and I went to the house of the mother of the wife of my brother. We celebrated all together New Year’s Eve: Rafael, my mother, Vรฉronica, Vรฉronica’s mother and her brother. We enjoyed eating delicious Spanish food.

We ate cheese, jamon serrano, chorizo, bread and chicken. I didn’t eat the fish because I don’t like fish so much haha ๐Ÿ˜‚ At 12 o’clock we watched the television and ate the 12 grapes. We also had champagne ๐Ÿฅ‚. It’s a tradition in Spain to eat the 12 grapes. They say it brings luck. We watched television where we were hearing beautiful music and we played Spanish card games. I really loved it so much. I love playing games with my family. At 3.30 am my mother and I went home and we stayed in watching some television. We went to bed at 6 am pretty late but doesn’t matter because it’s a special night. I’m glad I didn’t go out because as soon as we were home I got my period haha. On New Year’s Day we just stayed in and chilled. I saw the movie Grease. I just love that movie & the music so much ๐Ÿ˜ I also saw the movie Paper Towns which I love so much from John Green. I already saw this movie with my best friend one day and loved it.

l wish you all an amazing new year full of love, happiness and luck ๐Ÿ€โœจโœŒ๏ธ Stay strong & stay safe. We are all in this together ๐Ÿ’ช I love you all so so so much โค๏ธ. Thank you all for reading. How was your New Year’s Eve? Did you stay at home or did you went to a party? Which are your goals or dreams to achieve in 2019? I would love to know. I will speak to you all soon in my next blog post.

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Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

My oldest brother got married ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿ‘ฐ๐Ÿ’‘๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’ƒ๐ŸŽถ

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

In this blog post I will tell you all about the wedding of my brother Rafael with his Spanish girlfriend Verรณnica which was on the 11th of August. The wedding took place in Fuensaldaรฑa. That’s a little village near to Valladolid. It’s just 15 minutes by car. In this post I will tell you all about the wedding, the good and the bad. I also will share some beautiful pictures I’ve made with the mobile of my mother. I still need to wait for the other pictures of Edward and Elke. My other brother has their own company of wedding photography. They make such beautiful pictures. This is their website if you want to look: Azcona Fotografie. I’m going to make another blog post when I have more pictures of them. Maybe, I will do a photo diary of it.

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The night before the wedding (Friday the 10th) Rafael was sleeping in our home with me and my parents. It’s a tradition. Verรณnica was sleeping at their home with her mother and her brother Jairo. The wedding was in the afternoon Saturday 11th of August. I woke up at 11.00 o’clock and got myself reading to go to the hairdresser which is just 1 min. away from my house. I went to the hairdresser with my mother and my brother Edward was taking pictures of us hahah ๐Ÿ˜‚ Edward and Elke were going to take all the pictures of the wedding. In the meantime, Elke was taking pictures of Verรณnica in a hairdresser near to her house. It took two hours to get all the curls in my hair. I also got a flower in my hair. My mother took one hour. I never like to be for so long in the hairdresser but I survived lol. Our appointment was at 12.30 and we ended at 2.30. Afterwards, we went home to eat pasta with my parents, Edward and Rafael. Elke was going to eat with the family of Verรณnica in her home.

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It was a delicious meal. I already painted my nails the day before so I was happy that I didn’t had to do that. After eating I did my make up. I always use make up from Kiko because it’s just one of my favourite brands for make up. I used a pink eyeshadow from another brand and the pink lipstick is from Kiko. Everything had to match with my fuchsia dress ๐Ÿ’•. I put on my favourite jewelry: white earrings and the dreamcatcher necklace which I bought in the Primark of Madrid in March. I put on my dress and already felt so warm. It was a hot Summer day with 30 degrees. Edward made pictures of me and he made the most pictures of Rafael when he got ready. He really looked so beautiful.

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My parents got ready too and at 5 o’clock we were ready to leave by car. Rafael was driving his car and we were on our way to the house of Verรณnica. He was going to see Verรณnica for the first time in her beautiful wedding dress and then Edward & Elke were going to make pictures of this special moment. First, we went to a florist to put some flowers on his car. Me and my parents stayed in the car when Rafael saw Verรณnica for the first time in her hall. It was so hoooot inside the car so I was happy when Rafael came back. It was 5.30 and at 6 o’clock the wedding was going to take place. We were on time in Fuensaldaรฑa. The wedding was going to be in the city hall of this village. Rafael opened the door of the car of Verรณnica. I talked with my Spanish family and friends of them. It was nice to see them all again after such a long time ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜

I had to enter the room of the city hall with my brother hand in hand. I was nervous for that moment because I hate to be in the middle of attention. It went really well haha despite the moment before that Rafael said that the rings were still in the car. So, a friend of my brother got them and it was all allright. I entered with my brother and then Verรณnica followed with my niece Noanne, another girl and her brother Jairo. They took pictures of us and the I sat down on the first row. I didn’t wanted to sit in the row in front of me because I find it strange to see the public like I’m not going to marry so I didn’t want all those eyes looking at me. This moment was were some people irritated me and what was a bad moment of the wedding.

After the ceremony a friend of my brother said to me why I didn’t sat next to my parents. I said that I wanted to sit next to Noanne. She kept talking blablabla. I think she founded it strange but fuck off my brother and Verรณnica already said to me days before the wedding that I could sit where I want. They know I don’t like to get all the attention. Even the mother of Verรณnica found it strange but I’m not sorry. I do what feels good for me and for my anxiety…. I’m so done of all the time explaining myself why I don’t do a certain thing. I say no more often and do what feels good to me.

The ceremony was really beautiful even though I like a wedding in a church more to be honest because there’s live music and it feels like you are in a movie haha. There were some great songs here but it was not live music. I didn’t sing on this weddding because they didn’t allow that in the city hall. I sang on the wedding of my other brother Edward. This cerenomy was short, just 45 minutes. Victor, the mayor of Fuensaldaรฑa, was the leader of the cerenomy and married them. There were some beautiful speeches: one of my father, one of a friend of Rafael, one of a friend of Verรณnica, one of a little girl and one of the brother of Verรณnica. They light some candles, got the rings on, they said: โ€œYes I doโ€ and then they gave each other a kiss. Edward and Jairo were the witnesses of the wedding and had to sign a paper. There were beautiful petals on the floor. It was simple but really beautiful. Simple is more.

After the ceremony they went to a balcony and all the guests went outside. We took some pictures of that monent. When they came outside we threw them hearts confetti and blew bubbles. It’s also typical to throw rice in Spain. After that moment, Edward and Elke took family pictures with the newlyweds. Then all the guests were just talking with each other outside and the newlyweds were doing a photoshoot by Edward and Elke in the village in the meantime. We had to wait from 7 o’clock till 8.30 to enter the restaurant where we were going to have the delicious dinner. I also took some pictures and one polaroid picture with my mother when everyone went away. At 8.30 we could enter the restaurant and we could have a drink. We sat in the cafe of the restaurant and already got some food: some little delicious tapas. I don’t like the fish so I didn’t eat that haha. I ate some tapas with meat, one with tomato and cheese and an empanada. It was really all so delicious. I also didn’t want to eat so much because dinner was going to be so much food.

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At 9.30 Rafael and Verรณnica entered the restaurant and we applaused. Then Elke, the wife of Edward came to talk with me and said: โ€œHow are you?โ€ and she just wanted to talk and looked in my eyes. I began to cry really hard because I was fed up to appear strong when I felt bad and anxious sometimes. I didn’t want to appear strong when I felt weak. I was fed up of faking that I was happy. I was happy at that special wedding day but also didn’t look forward to all questions about my life…. I told her how I felt lost in life and that I want to live and work in Spain. She said if I want to live with my parents or just be in Spain. I love to be with my parents but I really want to live here forever. My parents are also thinking of maybe selling their home in The Netherlands but it all takes time. It was a great talk and I really loved to talk with her. She’s said that everything will be allright. She’s always so caring and lovely. She really cares about me. Edward my brother saw me crying and Jairo the brother of Verรณnica too and said awhh you make me cry too. I felt loved and not alone and that was a great feeling. Sometimes it’s so good to let everything out. I felt better aferwards. Sometimes all you need is a good cry.

After that moment, all guests went upstairs to the restaurant and we all had to sit by a certain round table. I was sitting with all people I knew, my parents, Edward, Elke, friends of Rafael and other people. It was really nice. We got three plates and in between we got alcohol. I only tasted a bit of the wine before dinner because I don’t want to drink while taking antidepressants. I also don’t drink alcohol anymore just a few sips hahah ๐Ÿ˜‚ The bread was delicious. The first plate was avocado salad with fish.ย I didn’t ate the fish๐Ÿ˜… After this plate we got a drink which was called sorbete de passiรณn, it was a drink with alcohol and tasted really sweet and well. This drink was to change the flavour in our month. Then we got the big plate which was meat: solomillo with champignons. It was allright but I don’t like to eat so much meat so I didn’t eat everything just enough. I feel full easily. The drink after this plate was champagne but it was really bitter so I only drank a few sips.

I gave all the drank to my mother hahah. During the dinner, Rafael and Verรณnica came to our table and other tables sometimes to just chat a bit. They were placed in an apart table far away from us. Almost at the end of the dinner I gave the guests a present. The children got sweets and Verรณnica said I could also get one. It was a pack full of all sweets, chips and delicious stuff. The men got a beer opener in the form of a bike which is typical in The Netherlands. The women got a bookmark in the form of an owl which is the favourite animal of Verรณnica. She has everything of owls in her home. It was nice to gave these presents to the guests. Afterwards, it was time for the most delicious plate: dessert time. Rafael and Verรณnica cut the pie. It was a delicious chocolate pie with vanilla ice cream. I really loved it so much. After the dessert we got a chupito which is a shot and I got one of apple without alcohol and tea which was really nice. The dinner began at 10.00 and ended at 00.30.

After dinner we went all to the ballroom which was downstairs to dance all night long. Rafael and Verรณnica did the first dance which was a salsa dance. My brother takes salsa lessons and can dance very well. Verรณnica also dances salsa. It was a beautiful dance. After that dance they danced a slow dance. Then all the guests were dancing on Spanish music and I also said to the DJ to put the song โ€œHet is een nachtโ€ on. It’s a dutch song which I like. I also danced like crazy on the song โ€œLo maloโ€ from Aitana and Ana from the Spanish talentshow Operaciรณn Triunfo. I like that so much. Then again the friend of my brother came to me (the same one who said that I had to sit next to my parents in the ceremony) and said why don’t you dance, come on dance with us. I like to dance but I was also tired so leave me alone please. Then, this woman went dancing and left me in peace. I danced till 3 o’clock. Me and my mother were getting tired. Some family of Verรณnica said don’t go, stay longer. Well, no is no. The party ended for us. A friend of my brother brought us home and I slept at 5 o’clock in the morning. When I got home I had to do my make up away and everything which took a lot of time.

I was supposed to go eating the next day in a hotel near to my house with the family but I didn’t go. I felt anxious and cried that night and was just so tired. I had stomach aches and I said I didn’t go. My father later at home said that I have borderline and I was like no but I didn’t say anything. He didn’t seem to understand that the night before I was happy and dancing at the wedding and on Sunday I felt bad. I know that my feelings are true and I don’t need to give anyone any explanation. If they don’t believe it, they don’t. I don’t have borderline. I think it’s rude to say that as a joke. I just don’t know why people say those things out of the blue. It can hurt someone especially someone who is really going through that. I’m also happy that I didn’t go to that eating the next day after the wedding because my Spanish aunt wasn’t feeling good and felt dizzy. She’s now okay again but all the wedding stuff was so tiring.

Thank you all for reading this loooooong blog post. I hope you all liked it. I just always want to be honest about how I experience something, the good and the bad. Did you like the pictures? Do you also love weddings as much as I do? Do you also feel fed up with giving an explanation to someone? What would you do in such a situation? I would love to know your thoughts. I speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina