Summer bucket list 2020 ๐ŸŒž๐ŸŒŠ๐Ÿ„๐ŸŒด๐Ÿง๐Ÿน๐Ÿธ๐Ÿ’ƒ

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

Before I share a birthday haul post which is a bit overdue hahah I want to share this blog post. I’m going to share again a Summer bucket list ๐ŸŒž. I often write down 100 things in a journal but it isn’t all achievable of course. I will try to only point down the most important things. If you make a long list of things you want to do, you most likely will not do them all. It could maybe overwhelm you instead of having fun and doing them. This Summer I want to be happy and enjoy life while being safe and follow the safety measures of the pandemic. We all have to enjoy our Summer time but we also have to keep aware and know that the Coronavirus isn’t away. We still have to keep distance, wash our hands and be careful ๐Ÿ™. Let’s get started! ๐Ÿ’–

  • Fly to Spain โœˆ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ

I can’t wait to go to Spain because we didn’t went there since Christmas time. I’m mostly always a bit anxious of travelling. I have to admit that I’m now more anxious to go because of all the things you have to do while travelling. You have to wear a mask in the airplane and during the travel day. I’m afraid to get really anxious or get a panic attack ๐Ÿ˜ข. I of course agree with the safety measures. You also have to fill in a health paper to declare that you aren’t sick. They can check your temperature when you arrive at the airport. Travelling is not like we used to know it. I really want to go with my mother to Spain and enjoy our Summer there ๐ŸŒž๐Ÿ˜. I guess it’s okay we are anxious to travel. I just hope we won’t get sick. I also miss Spain so much so it would be so nice to finally be there. We maybe go at the end of July. I will keep you all updated how things will go.

  • Spend time with family & friends ๐Ÿ‘ช๐Ÿ‘ญ

I miss seeing my family so much. I only see my parents and sometimes my brother and his wife from a distance. I miss seeing my almost 5 year old niece. Her birthday is in July just like the birthday of my brother Edward. I can’t wait to see my niece, Edward and Elke again. They hopefully will come to our house this month. We haven’t seen each other since Christmas ๐Ÿ˜ญ. I also miss my friends so much. Some friends I didn’t see for a half year, others for a year. I can’t wait to have amazing plans with them in The Netherlands and in Spain ๐Ÿ’–. I’m already going on a lunch with my bestie this month and will also go surfing with her ๐Ÿ„. My other friend from Irak is also coming to my house. I also can’t wait to celebrate my birthday in Spain with my lovely friends and eat delicious tapas all together. Spending time with your loved ones is the best thing you can do. Always be around people who are sunshine for you and not around people who drain you. They aren’t worth it.

  • Go to the beach ๐ŸŒŠ๐Ÿš

This Summer as always I want to go to the beach many times ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŒŠ. I already went twice to the beach in The Netherlands. It’s one hour away with the bike. I loved it so much even though the water here isn’t clear like in Spain haha. Beach time is what makes me the most happy. I’m a mermaid and beach girl forever. Summer isn’t good if I don’t go to the beach. The sea knows all my secrets and heals my heart. If we go to Spain, then I hope to go to the beach there too. The beach is there 3 hours away by train. It’s so beautiful in Santander. There’s also a little surf village which is called Somo near to Santander. I would love to go there again. I went there with my mother a few years ago.

  • Go surfing ๐Ÿ„

I can’t wait to go surfing again! ๐Ÿ˜ I always do this on my Summer bucket list but didn’t go surfing since more than 4 years. I miss it so much. My best friend and I were about to go last Summer but it was bad weather so we didn’t go. This Summer we will definitely go surfing together. I can’t wait. Here there’s always wind so it’s a great beach to surf. Maybe I will go surfing too in Somo, in Spain. I would love to go again to a surf camp. You learn so much there. The surfing lifestyle is the best way to live life โœŒ๐Ÿ’–. Enjoying nature, being present and that feeling of being alive when you are out there in the ocean catching a wave. Hearing the waves crashing to the shore and tasting the salt air and sea all creates a sense of peace and freedom. We all need that in life.

  • Read books ๐Ÿ“š

I love reading books and I find the Summer months the best months to read ๐Ÿ“–. I love to read outside in our garden. I also love to read in the park or on the beach. I already read some books these months which I have to review soon. This Summer I would love to read at least 3 books if that’s possible. I don’t want to say more because I’m a slow reader and I don’t want to create unnecessary stress. We learn so much from reading. It’s lovely to read on a Summer day with a glass of lemonade or red wine. You drive away into paradise ๐ŸŒด.

  • Make smoothies, aรงai bowls & ice pops ๐Ÿฆ๐Ÿ๐Ÿ“

I love to make fruit smoothies. I used to make them a lot and I really miss making them. I want to make a lot more these Summer. I also would love to make ice pops and aรงai bowls because I never did that before. I love how it looks like. It must be delicious ๐Ÿ˜‹. I really want to try to make them and share it with you guys. Let me know if you ever tried to make this and which flavour was the most delicious one. All of these are so refreshing for a hot Summer day and also very healthy which is just a win-win haha.

  • Practice yoga in a studio or outside ๐Ÿ™

I do yoga almost every damn day now since March and it helps me so much with anxiety. I feel more at home in my body. I enjoy being spiritual too and just feel more in sync with life and mother nature. I do yoga with Yoga Girl, my biggest inspiration. I do it on her website. Every month I pay just โ‚ฌ14 and I can do everything on there. The live classes with Yoga Girl are so amazing ๐Ÿ’–. I also do full moon ๐ŸŒ•๐ŸŒœ๐ŸŒ› ceremonies on there. Doing yoga at home is nice but I also would love to do it again in a studio or have a class outside. I only did that twice in my life. Sometimes I find myself being a bit anxious in a room because of feeling judged in a room full of people. I don’t like big groups. Hopefully I can overcome that and take a class in a studio in The Netherlands or in Spain. The connection you feel with others is so beautiful and so important too in a yoga practice. It makes you feel even more at one with this beautiful world we live in.

Doing yoga at home
  • Share singing covers ๐ŸŽถ

This was the only time I shared a singing cover on my blog. Hopefully I will be able to share more covers here and also on my Instagram ๐ŸŽค. Sometimes I’m just a bit anxious to share it. I love singing but it always takes a lot of courage to film yourself and share it online because of the negative people out there. We just have to think that if someone says something bad about you, it says more about that person than about you. I will have to keep doing what I love because that makes me the most happy. I hope you guys will enjoy it when I’m ready to share it. I also sometimes thought about making a Youtube channel for singing covers but that makes a bit too anxious to do that now. Maybe in the future, who knows.

  • Spend time in nature ๐ŸŒณ๐ŸŒน

Spending time in nature is a must during the warm months. I love it so much. I don’t like Winter so I enjoy being outside in Summer. I love to go to the park, enjoy our garden and go to the beach. I love to walk around and go biking ๐Ÿšฒ with my mother. Nature is so alive right now so we have to enjoy it. Spending time in nature also means soaking up the sunshine which is so important for our health too. The sun gives us energy, vitamin D and makes us happier. We need sun light ๐ŸŒž. Don’t forget to always wear sunscreen.

  • Declutter my wardrobe ๐Ÿ‘—

Basically I have to organize my whole room and sort things out but let’s being with my wardrobe. I have to do it here and in Spain. I just never do it haha because I don’t like it. It’s been ages now and it really needs to get done ๐Ÿ™. I also have a hard time in letting clothes go. Some I will treasure and others I will have to donate or sell. I want to try the Marie Kondo way. I hope it works out this Summer. If you have some tips, please let me know.

  • Keep writing poems ๐Ÿ“

I will keep writing poetry in my journal. I hope to be able to share some of my poetry on here. I will also of course keep writing letters to my pen pals and write for my blog. I love to get inspiration from being on the beach or outside in my garden. Whenever I get inspiration โœจ I write it down because otherwise I forget it easily.

Poem about speaking up
  • Be happy, have fun and make the best of this Summer! ๐ŸŒž๐ŸŒˆ

On top of this list is just trying to make the best of this Summer. Hakuna matata โœŒ. Being happy and just enjoying Summer time on our own way is the most important thing. It’s important to take pressure away of having the best Summer ever because every Summer has its ups and downs like life. Summer is my favourite season ever. I’m a Summer and beach girl forever. I’m always SO happy when Summer arrives. In Spain the sun shines every day so I can’t wait to go there and have loads of fun.

Thank you all for reading this fun blog post. I hope you will all have an amazing Summer full of responsible adventure times ๐ŸŒžโœŒ. I hope you will all enjoy it with your family and friends. Make loads of memories. Be safe too. What are you going to this Summer? Are you staying at home or are you going to travel? What of my list are you going to do? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

Today it’s my 27th birthday! ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŽ‚๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽโœจ๐ŸŽˆ Forever a gemini child โ™Š and hippie girl yeahhh! โœŒ

Hola lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

IT’S MY BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!!! ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŽ‰ OMG 27 YEARS YOUNG. I feel old lol ๐Ÿ˜‚. I have sometimes pain in my body like period cramps, back pain, feeling nauseous, teeth problems, suffering from anxiety but lol I still lived 27 years so I guess it’s okay. I feel like a grand mother ๐Ÿ‘ด sometimes. This blog post will be about my birthday and some things I learned these years. It’s a kinda strange birthday because of this pandemic and lockdown but it’s also special. It’s the first birthday in 4 years that I’m again in The Netherlands celebrating it and not in Spain. My good friend is sleeping here. My brother, his wife, my bestie and her girlfriend are coming today but of course with distance. Better, than nothing. I miss face to face connection so much. I missed seeing them so much ๐Ÿ˜ญ.

I sometimes feel a bit depressed, anxious and emotional with my birthday because of society’s expectations. In 3 years I’m 30 years old but I still feel like a ”baby” in the world. I don’t have a job yet, no hushband, no baby, no driving license, no car or don’t own a home. Does that make me unsuccesful? Does that make me not worth it in this society? I just hate that society create those rules. It only makes me feel depressed and create more anxiety. I am where I am in live and it’s all okay. I’m realizing now more and more that who I’m is more important than what I do.

If there is one thing I’m realizing now during this pandemic and just this year in general is that I have to choose for myself. I have spent so much years of my life doing what other people expected of me. I have spent so much time in doing things I don’t like or being with the wrong people. It only drained me and made me feel bad about myself. I have wasted too much time in toxic relationships. It wasn’t worth it. I realized afterwards that all these people and boys had one thing in common: they didn’t deserve my love. I give so much to people and didn’t get that same amount of love back. They weren’t worth my time. If only I knew then what I know now I would not have done certain things or wasted my time on the wrong people. I failed, I learned and I grew from these mistakes. I will try to not repeat them in the future.

I have always hide myself and I still do that at times and I’m done with it. I hide myself because of being bullied ๐Ÿ˜ข. Not many bullies seem to know what the consequences are of bullying. It’s really the worst for your mental health. I still suffer sometimes when someone is laughing or talking a bit loud. Then instantly I think it’s about me but of course it isn’t true. Anxiety is also being caused of being bullied. I’m done with hiding myself for who I’m. I’m happy that I’m being myself know more and more online and also in real life. I have the best friends in real life, online and family in the world ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’•.

I want to be completely myself in everything I do and in everything I am in life. I have always been afraid of growing older because of being afraid of death. I also talked about that topic in this blog post. Now, I’m realizing that growing older is also a privilege. Not everyone can grow older because of sickness. I have also been afraid of aging because I always thought I have to be a certain way in life. I can’t like or do the things I like now in a few years. Well, that’s a misconception. I will forever be the hippie girl โœŒ, mermaid and wild child I’m ๐Ÿ˜‚. I will not change for anyone. I WILL BE MY CRAZY SELF. I will keep reading young adult books ๐Ÿ“š, blogging, penpalling, surfing ๐Ÿ„, travelling the world, singing ๐ŸŽถ, loving the sea ๐ŸŒŠ, listening to my favourite artists such as Taylor Swift, Ariana Grande, Julia Michaels, Sofia Ellar, Duncan Laurence, Aitana, Amaia, Alfred and keep having fun with my friends. I will keep being myself which means being romantic and sensitive. I’m a highly sensitive person and feel every emotion and also suffer more. I can’t take that away from me because otherwise I wouldn’t be me. Growing older doesn’t mean I have to change about what I like or not. I just grow wiser.

This year I faced one of my biggest fears which was going to the dentist to get one of my wisdom teeth pulled out. I’m SO proud of myself for doing this!!! ๐Ÿ’ช It’s a big achievement for me. I spent years in anxiety and I still know I have to get three out. The first step is there. It went all so great because of the lovely dentist and his team. He knew exactly how to support me and take care of me while I had so much anxiety. You can read it here. Sometimes I feel some problems in my teeth because I still have to get rid of three. I prefer to do it in Spain but we postponed our trip because of the pandemic. Maybe we can go in the Summer if it won’t be dangerous for any of us. I’m just really happy to have faced this fear. I hope with the next visits I will feel less anxiety. I know anxiety will be there always but hopefully a bit less now I know how things go. That’s also the reason I prefer to go in Spain because I know the dentist. I find it hard to trust again in someone new. It’s nice to go to some familiar places.

This year I also have had some amazing good times with my friends and family ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’ƒ. My last birthday was amazing because my friend from Granada came to visit me for the first time in Valladolid. Me and my Spanish friends ate all together in a creperie. We had such a great time together. I also enjoyed my time with my Dutch friends in Haarlem in November. I came back from having a hard time in Spain and being so anxious about having to go to the dentist and just life. It was nice to be able to enjoy some time all together eating delicous tapas in La Cubanita. In January I ate there again with my good friend. I also had a nice time with my family eating all together and celebrating birthdays. I really miss that but I know that time will come again.

I also travelled to beautiful places this year which were my second home Valladolid in Spain โœˆ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ. I’m so blessed to have that in my life. I love my Spanish friends and family so much. It’s home. I even feel more at home there than in The Netherlands where I have been born. Home is also where your favourite people are. I love both countries so much but Spain always more haha. In July I travelled again for the 4th time to Granada, one of my favourite cities in Spain. I have a good friend living there. My mother and I went to his appartment at the beach and also enjoyed the city itself. We always have an amazing time and I really can’t wait to go back!!!! ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŒŠ It’s a tradition to go each Summer but we don’t know if that will be possible this year. I also travelled to Gijรณn which is in Asturias for the first time in August with one of my best friends in Spain. We had such a great time. We enjoyed the beach, had great fiestas haha, eat delicious tapas, went shopping and had such a great girl time.

It was years ago since I went with a friend again on a holiday. I really missed it and I can’t wait to do it again. I still remember that night we met some cool guys which invited us for drinks without anything in return. No bad boys for once yeahhh. They were partying with us the whole night. It was so much fun. One of their friends was about to marry. I just can’t wait to travel again to new places in Spain and wherever in the world because travelling makes me so happy and most importantly, it makes me feel ALIVE!!!! You make new friends, have fun, learn about different cultures and learn more about life and this world we live in ๐ŸŒ.

Right now, I just submitted a story for a contest which is called ”A sea of words” just like my blog like what the hell?! The European Institute of the Mediterranean tagged me on a post in Instagram. Otherwise I would never have found it. My instagram for my blog is also called that way. It’s a contest which is every year and the topics can be about gender equality, climate change, environment or just anything related to make this world a better place. This year it was about young people faced with climate change in the Mediterranean and the 2030 Agenda for Sustainable Development. First I wrote an essay but it wasn’t what they ask for so I had to change it into a story which was a bit more difficult. The story I wrote is about me being in the sea with my boat and then suddenly being stuck surrounded by plastic bottles. Then a man comes to help me and talks about how important it is to take action. I have always had that inner voice inside of me who says to take action and give some ideas. I already won an essay contest in 2015 and spoke at the United Nations in New York City ๐Ÿ—ฝ so I thought why not try again even though my inner critic is loud sometimes. The jury is now reviewing the stories. The 10 best winners will go to Barcelona at the end of September for free and will have a creative writing course and dicuss their ideas. It’s really so amazing. I will keep you informed if I win and if it’s even possible to travel.

A few days ago I also submitted my two poems ๐Ÿ“„ about vulnerability and strength for the organization MIND in The Netherlands. This organization helps people with mental health illnesses. My poems are about the sea and about being bullied and how that made me stronger and about accepting myself for the way I’m. The winner will be chosen online from the best 5 and the winner gets a poetry award. The 5 winners can speak their poem in an event. All these things make me super anxious and are so outside my comfortzone but I have to do it because I love writing and I know that I’m good at it. I have to stop bullying myself that I’m not good or smart enough. I will keep my fingers crossed โœŒ๐Ÿ™.

With all of these things I do and did in the past, I’m just being myself and embracing the person who I’m which loves to write, do yoga, sing, surf, travel the world, read and help other people and hopefully making this world a better place. I love La Pachamama!!! ๐ŸŒ๐Ÿ˜ Thank you all so much for forming part of my life. Thank you all for being there for me in good and bad times. I love you all so much. I wish you all peace, love & happiness! Forever young, wild and free! โœŒ๏ธ We are all childs of the universe. This life is a gift โœจ Let’s hope this new year of life will be amazing too!

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I’m so happy to have you all in my life. Do you also join writing contests? Do you think 27 years is old? Do you think society creates rules for us? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

Reflection on 2019 & happy new year to you all! โœจ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’ซ๐Ÿฅณ๐Ÿค—

Hola lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

I’m doing a bit better than when I wrote my last blog. However, I’m having a cold now and my period is coming soon so always something bad. In this blog post I will make a short reflection on 2019. I will write about some low and highs of this year which I also wrote in a journal. Every year has good and bad things. I also wish you all a beautiful new year! ๐Ÿฅณ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’– May all your wildest and biggest dreams come true!

A new year has arrived: 2020. A new decade too. I’m happy to leave this decade because it came with good things but also with bad things. In this decade I met my first love and also got my heart broken at the end of 2012. I’m already 7 years single haha let’s keep up that way ๐Ÿ˜‚. I also experienced beautiful things this decade like graduating college ๐ŸŽ“ and speaking at the United Nations in NYC ๐Ÿ—ฝ because I won an essay competition in Spanish. This happened in the Summer of 2015. I think this was definitely one of the biggest milestones this decade. I guess we can all relate to good and bad moments during this decade. I just really wish 2020 will be a better year for all of us ๐Ÿ™. I hope we will experience beautiful things. I also hope we will survive and grow from the bad things.

My speech about ending hunger in the world at The United Nations ๐Ÿ—ฝ the 24th of July 2015

This year I learned some important life lessons which I will take with me in 2020. I learned that sometimes we can feel more connected to people we have never met than to the ones who are next to us. I love you all so much. You all mean the world to me. I learned that a real friend will be there for you in good and bad times. I learned that life has lows and highs and that most people only share the highs on social media. I learned that it’s good to spend less time online because I only compare myself to others online which makes my mental health worse. It isn’t real life. I also am learning to sit with every emotion whether that’s a negative one such as fear or anger. We have to feel it all, go through it until we can let go. It’s hard because when I feel anxious I just want that feeling to go away as soon as possible as it makes me feel so unwell. I just hope to know how to live with anxiety this next year.

This new year my intention is to listen more to my inner voice and let my heart guide me through life instead of my mind. 2020 will be the year of self love, growth and achieving my dreams. I will use the power that I have of being my authentic and sensitive self. I hope I will be able to get a job I love and which is good for my mental health. I also hope to meet more people I have met on the internet because I align so good with you all. My intention is to feel peace and know how to go through the waves of anxiety. I know I have to overcome some fears such as going to the dentist. Anxiety just doesn’t disappear because it’s the new year. I listened to the podcast of Yoga Girl and did the intention setting ceremony. I think setting intentions is much better than resolutions. Mostly we don’t achieve all resolutions we set for ourselves or it gives us too much pressure.

In 2019 I experienced a lot of amazing things like travelling to new places like Leรณn in March with my mother. I also went to Granada again in July with my lovely mother and met my friend there. In August I went to Gijรณn with my Spanish friend. I want to travel more with friends and also go to a surf camp again this new year ๐ŸŒŠ๐ŸŒž๐Ÿ„โ€โ™€๏ธ. This year I went to the beautiful tulip fields in The Netherlands ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŒทThis year I also read more amazing books. To love and let go by Yoga Girl changed my life and I’m forever thankful for that. It was spiritual and beautiful. I will share a review about this book soon. This new year I will keep reading, writing, singing, travelling and doing all things I love. This year I also went to the concert of Alfred Garcia which I loved. Next year I really do hope to go to more concerts like the one of Taylor Swift. I’m dying to see her live as it’s my dream ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŽถ I also hope to see Yoga Girl one day. I also hope to get tickets for Eurovision live.

Tulip fields in The Netherlands ๐Ÿ‡ณ๐Ÿ‡ฑ๐ŸŒท๐Ÿ˜

Travelling to Leรณn with mama ๐Ÿ˜

Travelling with my Spanish friend to Gijรณn ๐Ÿ’–๐ŸŒž๐ŸŒŠ๐Ÿ„โ€โ™€๏ธ

Awesome trip to Granada with my mother in July ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŒž

I also faced a fear this year which was having a first interview for an internship in a hotel ๐Ÿฉ in Spain. At the end they didn’t call me back but I went there and did my best. I hate interviews so it’s a good thing that I did well even though my heart was beating so fast I thought I was going to die ๐Ÿ˜ญ.

An important event this year was The Netherlands ๐Ÿ‡ณ๐Ÿ‡ฑ winning Eurovision after 44 years ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿฅ‡๐ŸŽถ This was one of the most beautiful moments of my life. It was a dream coming dream. I’m being a fan of Eurovision all my life so to see this happening was just so amazing and beautiful. I can’t wait to go to the concert of Duncan Laurence soon.

I want to give thanks to my family, friends and all the people I met this year. I’m so happy I met more amazing people. I’m thankful for my pen pals which I met this year. I’m thankful for the Goddess community, the Yoga Girl Community and this community. This mental health community is so important for my well-being. You make my life so much better. It’s so much better to know that I’m not alone with my feelings. We all feel the same things just not at the same time. It’s okay if you have had a hard year. I’m always here for you all. I hope this new year will make our heart glow of golden glitter โœจ.

I celebrated New Year’s Eve with my mother at the home of the mother of Verรณnica and her brother. It was strange to be there without my brother and Vรฉronica. They couldn’t be in Valladolid this time. We ate a delicious meal which was some meat, potatoes and bread with avocado and cheese sauce. I loved the chorizo and jamรณn serrano too which is typical Spanish food. In Spain it’s also typical to eat 12 grapes at twelve o’clock so we did that. I love to watch las campanadas ๐Ÿ‡๐Ÿ˜. We also drank some champagne ๐Ÿฅ‚ We watched a program on tv which I love because it’s about Spanish artists singing. I love singing programs ๐ŸŽถ. Later I also played Mario Kart Deluxe and Mario Bros with the Nintendo Switch from the brother of Verรณnica. I really loved it so much and was pretty good at it. I was bad at Just Dance haha ๐ŸŽฎ๐Ÿ˜‚ On New Year’s Day I was chilling, resting and watching the movie Notting Hill.

Happy new year my lovely friends! ๐ŸŽ‰ ๐Ÿ’–โœจ I believe in the good things coming and hopefully it will be in abundance this new year. We all deserve it so much. I wish you all love, health and happiness โœจ I love you all so much ๐Ÿ’ž. Thank you for being there for me always. We are always in this together ๐Ÿ’ช

Thank you all for reading this blog post, the first one of the new year yeahhhh โœจ I hope you all liked it. How are you feeling about this new year? What is an intention you have set for yourself this new year? How did you celebrate new year’s eve? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

We meet everyone for a reason โœจ

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

Good news! โ˜บ๏ธ I feel somehow much better than some weeks ago were I really didn’t see the light at all and felt hopeless in life. It sounds pretty depressing but feeling anxious 24/7, feeling like you can’t breath, being nauseous all the time is really a hell. I hate anxiety so much ๐Ÿ˜ญ. It strange that I feel better now here I’m here in Holland because I’m always happier in Spain. To be honest, I never felt so low, depressed and anxious in Spain. I think because I associate it with going to the dentist which I didn’t do. I know it wasn’t a good idea to isolate myself for more than a week at home. In this blog post I will tell you about someone special I met on the airplane โœˆ๏ธ back to Holland from Spain. I will tell you also some other travel stories. Oh how I love travelling ๐ŸŒ. It’s the best and on those moments I can distract myself from my anxiety and meet people who really will change my life. I have to document these moments here on my blog because I’m afraid that otherwise I won’t remember them anymore. They are too precious to forget about them. In the moments that I felt so bad I even thought about not blogging anymore for a time but then I thought that would be a loss because that’s what I love to do the most. I have to keep doing the things I love to do or I would feel worse. Everything which brings me positivity is important to do ๐Ÿ’ซ.

So before I talk about the flight of a week ago back to Holland I want to talk about the flight I took in September. I was in Spain ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ during the whole Summer and my mother and I got back to Holland in September. There was this guy sitting next to my mother in the other row who looked very friendly. He was around 36 years old. We had such good talks. He talked about how I could maybe find a job in Holland in a Dutch company and from there find a job in Spain. He said that I didn’t have to be insecure. He was Spanish and was working and living in The Netherlands. He gave me so much inspiration and so much good vibes, just what I needed in that moment. He told me that he was bullied too at school just like me. He told me that I’m a smart girl which can speak three languages: Spanish, English and Dutch and also graduated my studies. I know he is right about that. It’s just that I always feel so insecure and have a low self esteem. I guess that’s because of anxiety too. I never know what to do when people compliment me or say that I’m pretty. I got his FB but now never spoke again to him. I really liked talking to him with my mother.

Then I went again to Spain a few weeks ago with my mother. I was sitting next to a girl from Uruguay. I also have her Instagram now, haha I hope people don’t think I’m desperate to meet new people. This is just me being myself. My mother is also social as I’m. I’m not that girl who loves to isolate herself. It’s what my mental illness does to me. We talked a lot about the world, her country and my countries. We had such a nice talk. I always love to talk to people from different countries as we can learn so much from them.

So a week ago, we travelled back from Spain to Holland. I’ve never been that anxious to travel even though I’m always scared of flying. It’s just because I have felt so low all this time. I took valium many nights to sleep and also a bit for flying. I was just so afraid of having a panic attack and of course that didn’t happen. Most things we fear don’t happen, it’s just our minds which are playing tricks with us. Before we were at the airport we met a lovely woman at the train station. She talked about the political situation in Spain and said she is a journalist. She even gave her number to us and said that whenever we are in Madrid again we can drink something with her. Things like this always remind me of how many good people there are in this world โค๏ธ๐ŸŒ.

Later at the airport my mother saw a man who she knew from when she was working as a stewardess in a Spanish airline. He was working in the cafe we ordered a salad. What another beautiful coincidence was that I met my lovely Spanish teachers at the gate where I was waiting with my mother to fly to Holland. They came back in the same airplane and were just about to go to a conference. I didn’t see them anymore since I graduated my studies European Studies. I love them all so much ๐Ÿ’ž. I really miss that feeling of being a student in my life right now because I feel lost now in the big world. I told them something about being anxious and they told me that I’m a smart girl and that every little step is a step forward. I could also keep networking. I know finding a job in Spain is more difficult than in Holland as there’s more unemployment in Spain and for jobs in the public sector you need to pass a difficult exam which can take years. They still remembered how I spoke at the United Nations and did my internship at the University of Valladolid. We took a selfie and they would show it to another teacher which I also love so much.

Now comes the most important story I wanted to tell from the first place. I hope I didn’t ramble way too much haha ๐Ÿ˜‚. A week ago was the best flight I have ever had in my life because of someone special I met. You all know I’m a romantic and highly sensitive girl. I make up so many stories in my mind which is how I imagine the world to be, that rainbow coloured world where people are happy, flowers blossom and the sun is always shining ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’๐ŸŒž๐ŸŒˆ. That is the world which only exists in movies, books or in my mind. It’s pretty curious because maybe a week before I already dreamt of meeting a boy sitting next to me in the airplane. So I was already nervious thinking who is going to sit next to me at the window seat when a guy was going to sit next to me. We immediately begin to talk with no end. My mother also talked to him and find him very friendly and open.

It was one the most intense, beautiful, honest and inspiring talks I’ve ever had in my life โœจ. I have had some really good talks in my life with people I love but with a stranger who you just met in the airplane not. This guy was so lovely, so cute and just so amazing ๐Ÿ˜. Can you fall in love at first sight? ๐Ÿ’˜ I know I’m always so intense and have to be careful to not get my heart broken again but this connection we had in those few hours was so strong. We looked at each other many times. He listened carefully to what I had to say and me too. We talked about our lifes. He smiled a lot. We laughed a lot and made jokes. It’s in times that I haven’t felt such a strong connection with someone. He is an artist, 33 years old and works and study in the film industry ๐ŸŽฌ. He has to travel a lot and goes to film events to present his documentaries. I find all of that so interesting. I love creative people with an open mind.

He loved my bracelets and touched them. We talked about our exes and everything. I’m always so open and sometimes that can be bad but I guess this day it was okay because he was also so open about everything, political view, his life and values. The way he looked at me made me nervous as I really felt such a strong attraction. It’s been so long that I didn’t have felt that. What I also loved about this guy is that he was honest and seemed sensitive. He also reminded me of a friend of me in Spain. He made me feel so calm and so peaceful. When I told him about how my ex wanted that I had to wear high heels because that would make me confident as he said, he said that it was wrong to change someone. He is so right because for me wearing high heels makes me feel unconfident.

Then we also talked about where he came from which is Basque country. I have my Spanish family living there too. We both had long distance relationships. Everything was such a coincidence and we seemed so similar as I’m also creative. He told me about that he also enjoyed surfing and swimming in the ocean. What I loved the most about our talk was when we began to talk about spirituality. I’m so in to that and not all my friends are. Since I’m reading the book “To love and let go” from Yoga Girl, I’m even more into that. I don’t think I believe in all things but I love astrology, the law of attraction and I believe the universe gives us what we want at the moment we need it ๐Ÿ™. He was talking about Ayahuasca ceremony. I don’t think I would ever try it as I think it would be dangerous for a person suffering from a mental illness. He told me I could do that but I didn’t told him all about my anxiety. It’s a kind of tea you drink where you go through a spiritual journey. You feel like you are going to die and then at the end you find the light again. I also read that in the book of Yoga Girl. It sounds very intense and it would make me so anxious to be honest.

This guy also told me that he did a tarrot reading. I always was very skeptical of it but somehow I feel like I could believe in it a bit. He told me he was an Emperor and that means that he likes to make feel people safe and make his dreams come true. I told him that once I was told to be a Mediator or helper and he said that fits me well. He is also an aquarius โ™’ as zodiac sign and I’m geminis and I know that those zodiac signs are compatible. A friend of him also told him that he could get along well with geminis โ™Š. I really like to believe in that.

I just felt so in the moment during this beautiful talk. I wish the flight would never have ended. I always get attached so much to people. I have his number and wrote him a message that it was nice to meet him and sent him some pictures we made. I really do hope we will meet each other again as he lives in Amsterdam until next Summer. He gave me a kiss on the cheek which is a normal Spanish way of greeting and also a hug. I never felt such a strong connection with someone. I do believe we meet all the people in life for a reason. They will teach us something. He texted me back a few days later and said he loved to have met me in the airplane too. He said seldom you find such honest and genuine people like me. He is thankful to have met me and also thanks me for the pictures I sent him. I also sent him a text back a few days later and told him the same. I also said that if he ever wants to meet up he can say that to me. The thing is, I also don’t want to be needy or obsessive as I can be really intense. I learned that from being in a relationship with my first love and other crushes. I do believe that whatever will be, will be. We don’t have to force anything. Anything which is meant to come into your life will come without forcing situations.

This universe is beautiful ๐ŸŒŒโœจ. This life is beautiful. I’m just so thankful for these special moments as they come in the moments I most need them. It’s like the universe is saying to me that my story isn’t over yet and that I can be happy and that good things will come my way. I really also know that I don’t have to get my hopes up but I just feel this fuzzy and warm feeling in my heart. I’m so thankful for everything. Thank you life for the hard and beautiful lessons. It reminds me that we are all here for a reason. I need to believe more in the universe and let it unfold itself. Stop controlling. Letting life flow. I just feel my heart full of gold right now ๐ŸŒŸ.

“I believe in the good things coming ๐Ÿ’•”

Thank you all for reading this inspiring and long post. I felt very inspired to write this. What do you think of all of this? Do you believe we meet people for a reason? Are you a spiritual person? Do you believe in love at first sight? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

October favourites ๐Ÿ

Hola lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

It’s already time for October favourites. This year is almost over. It always scares me how fast time is going because I always feel like I’m not living the life I want. It makes me anxious. I’m glad that at least I enjoyed some nice things in October such as going to the swimming pool with my brother, mother and lovely niece, having fun with my best friend, buying Christmas cards and receiving the book “To love and let go” ๐Ÿ’—.

Things I did with my family ๐Ÿ‘ช:

Going to the swimming pool ๐ŸŠ

I went to the swimming pool with my brother, mother and my little niece who’s right now 4 years old ๐Ÿ‘ง. I have always loved this swimming pool so much. I love the slide which is 60m. It has a side where you can go a bit outside. There are also jacuzzis and there’s another big swimming pool. Swimming is just the best thing ever ๐ŸŠ It always makes me feel so relaxed, inspired and happy afterwards. I want to go more often. Doing sports is so good for our physical and mental health. I went down the slide with my niece alone and we had loads of fun.

I even made a friend after swimming which was a girl from Syria ๐Ÿ‡ธ๐Ÿ‡พ. I love to meet people from other countries, religions or nationalities. I believe that the diversity of the world is what makes this world a beautiful place to live in ๐ŸŒ. Hearing her talk made me emotional. I also talked about the war which is going on there. I find it hard to talk about it because I can definitely feel how hard it must be to leave your country and live in another one where you don’t speak the language. In two years she learned Dutch, has her driving license, just got her swimming diploma and is studying. This made me feel bad too because sometimes I take too many things for granted in life such as my home, my freedom, food, water and all the things we have and so many others in this world don’t have.

Having delicious fondue with the family ๐Ÿฝ๏ธ

I had a delicious night of fondue with my brother, his wife and my parents the weekend before me and my mother were off to Spain. We ate delicious food such as potatoes with different sauces and vanilla ice cream with fruits ๐Ÿ˜‹. It’s always a tradition to have fondue like you can read in my posts.

Buying Sinterklaas presents ๐ŸŽ

I bought presents for the feast Sinterklaas which we celebrate the 6th of December with my family. The official date of this feast is the 5th of December. It’s a celebration like Santa Claus ๐ŸŽ‰. They say he comes from Spain to deliver presents. I wanted to buy almost all presents because I will spend most of November in Spain. Some Dutch families make surprises but we just buy presents for each other. I love to give and receive presents! I already wrapped all presents too.

Making a wish list for Sinterklaas ๐Ÿ“ƒ

I love to make lists and especially wish lists haha ๐Ÿ’–. I always make them for Sinterklaas, Christmas, The Three Kings Day and my birthday. I just update them every now and then. This year I ask for loads of nice books such as from Holly Bourne, of course nice stationery, yogi tea, book paper lovers from Flow and the calendar from Flow. Flow is such a nice Dutch magazine which makes loads of amazing and creative stuff. I also always want an advent calendar. I love to eat a chocolate ๐Ÿซ a day until Christmas.

Autumn in the park ๐Ÿ๐Ÿ‚๐Ÿƒ

I enjoyed a nice walk in the park with my mother. I’m a Summer girl but I love the beautiful leaves in Autumn. The park was beautiful and we made some nice pictures. Afterwards, we went to the restaurant in the park and drank a delicious mint tea ๐Ÿต with some cookies ๐Ÿช.

Trip to Spain โœˆ๏ธ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ

I’m in Spain right now since a week. I’m always happy to be in Spain but I also know that my body stays with me wherever I go so I have anxiety also wherever I go. I used to think that if I travel somewhere else, I would feel better. There’s some sunshine here which makes life a bit better. I’m also happy to see my friends in Spain, eat delicious food and have fun. I also know that I still have to go to the dentist which makes me so anxious but I hope to overcome this fear soon. To be honest, I’m struggling a lot with anxiety now ๐Ÿ˜ข.

Buying Christmas cards ๐ŸŽ„๐ŸŽ…

I already bought Christmas stuff such as washi tape, a silver and golden pen, stickers and Christmas cards because I want to begin writing Christmas cards in Spain. Maybe I’m also sending them from Spain. It’s better to do it earlier because otherwise I get stressed as December is always a busy month. It’s better to have it done already because this year I will write 30 cards, every year less than the year before because not everyone writes me back. I love to write them but the fun is also to get a card back ๐Ÿ’Œ.

Buying new stationery and bath products ๐Ÿ›€

When I went one day to the shopping mall near to my house with my mamita I bought loads of nice stationery. I bought a set of 20 cards with different designs. I love the blue, pink and purple colours and the quotes on it ๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿ’œ. I also bought new washi tapes. I bought loads of bath products too which includes a blue mermaid bath bomb and bath salt with mixed flower petals and grapefruit scent. For the trip to Spain I bought nail polish remover pads ๐Ÿ’…, coconut body cream which I love so much as it smells so good, my favourite dry shampoo Batiste cherry and eye make-up remover oil pads from the Hema.

Things I did with my lovely friends ๐Ÿ’–:

Eating delicious food with my bestie ๐Ÿฝ๏ธ๐Ÿ’—

๐‘ฌ๐’—๐’†๐’“๐’š ๐’ƒ๐’๐’๐’๐’…๐’Š๐’† ๐’๐’†๐’†๐’…๐’” ๐’‚ ๐’ƒ๐’“๐’๐’˜๐’๐’Š๐’† ๐’ƒ๐’š ๐’‰๐’†๐’“ ๐’”๐’Š๐’…๐’† ๐Ÿ’—

I’m so happy I saw my bestie again after 4 months twice. It’s always good to see my best friend ๐Ÿ˜ I loved eating at Bagels and Beans as it’s one of my fav places. I had such a delicious bagel with avocado, salad, tomato, cheese and drank a mint tea. It doesn’t matter how long we don’t see each other because our friendship never changes. You know when the friendship is real, deep and honest when everything stays the same when you see each other again after a long time. I’m so so so thankful to have you in my life. I will be always there for you. Even writing this makes me emotional. We are both a highly sensitive person forever haha ๐Ÿ’— Thank you for guiding me through life. Thank you for being the light ๐Ÿ’ก in the dark times. Thank you for being my best friend who is always there for me when I need it. Thank you for our real talks about politics, mental health, feminism, life, death, music, books, and just anything.

We all need a little help from our friends and it’s just so true. Being surrounded by good people make you feel less alone in your struggles. The moment I share something and I hear you or another loved one say me too I feel a bit better. We are never alone. We are all walking this life together. As long as I have you by my side I will be okay. 11 year friends. Forever besties. I love you so much, to infinity and beyond, to the moon and back ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’–๐ŸŒœ๐ŸŒ›๐ŸŒ๐ŸŒ•

The second time we saw each other we went to La Place in the shop Hudson Bay which is a restaurant where you can see whole Haarlem. We ate a delicious tomato soup ๐Ÿœ with some cheese. We had some good talks, laughed a lot and afterwards we did some shopping. I bought some nice cards with quotes and some stickers. I’m going to miss this shop when it’s going away only for the stationery hahah. We also went to see her brother, his wife and parents because they were celebrating her brother’s birthday ๐ŸŽ‚๐ŸŽ‰. I loved to see them all as I’m just one of the family. It’s nice to feel so connected and so loved.

Receiving beautiful pen pal letters ๐Ÿ–‹๏ธ

I received some beautiful mail from my lovely pen pals. I received beautiful mail from Sophia which inluded some awesome unicorn writing paper and envelopes. I also loved your notes and stickers. The letter from Mollie was also amazing. I loved the goodies especially the whale card and the sticky notes. Thank you Vikki for your amazing mail too. I loved the friendship card, the other cards with quotes, the unicorn key ring and the feather sticky notes. I love all my pen pals so much. Writing is healing and makes me so happy ๐Ÿ˜.

Other amazing things of October ๐Ÿ:

Receiving the book “To love and let go” by Rachel Brathen ๐Ÿ“–๐Ÿ’ž

I finally received the book “To love and let go” by Yoga Girl. She’s my biggest inspiration in life ๐Ÿ˜. I also wrote about her and her book in this post. I’m in the middle of this book and I already cried so much. It’s so heartbreaking, so beautiful and so real. In this book she wrote about how she lost her best friend, the divorce she suffered from her parents and the suicide attempts from her mother. She writes about loss, gratitude and love. This book is one of my favourite books ever now. I can’t wait to meet Rachel one day and go on a yoga retreat. Thank you so much for being the light in this sometimes dark world ๐Ÿ™๐ŸŒโœจ. We need it. I’m so thankful for the Yoga Girl community where I met so many amazing people which I also hope to meet soon. It’s so important to hold space for others to feel our feelings. That’s exactly what this book is about. Feel our feelings, the good and the bad. Go through the dark times in life and eventually you will find the light.

Blas Cantรณ is going to represent Spain for Eurovision Song Contest 2020 ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ๐ŸŽ™๏ธ

I was very happy to hear that Blas Cantรณ is going to represent Spain in Eurovision in Rotterdam, The Netherlands next year. I hope to be able to see it live because it cost a lot of money but it’s been 44 years that Eurovision comes to The Netherlands. It’s a one in a lifetime experience ๐Ÿ‡ณ๐Ÿ‡ฑ. It would be great to see Spain winning in The Netherlands haha. Blas Cantรณ is a very popular singer here and famous for his song “ร‰l no soy no”. His voice is beautiful and I’m sure he will do really good in Eurovision.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope you all liked it. What kinds of fun things did you do in October? What are your favourites from my post? Did you like the new stationery I bought? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

August favourites ๐ŸŠโ€โ™€๏ธ๐ŸŒž๐ŸŒŠ๐ŸŽถ

Holaaaa lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

It’s time for another favourites post. I will share with you all what I did in August. I saw a lot of good movies, swam in the swimming pool, bought some awesome stationery, I bought The Album of Taylor Swift which came out last month and I did some other nice stuff as well. It’s less warm right now which is better but also makes me realize that Summer is ending soon. Summer is my fav season and I get always sad when Summer ends ๐Ÿ˜ญ. The dark Winter months make my mental health worse. I love the sunshine ๐ŸŒž . I’m just a Summer girl forevah! Right now, I have a bad cold. Hopefully I will feel better soon ๐Ÿ™ .

Things I did with my family ๐Ÿ‘ช:

I bought Taylor Swift Deluxe Album Version 4 ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŽถ

I’M SO HAPPY YEAHHH!!!! I bought the beautiful new album Lover of @taylorswift at @elcorteingles when I was going out with my parents ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŽถ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ‘ธโœจ๐ŸŒฅ I love it so much. My fav songs are Paper rings, Lover, YNTCD, London Boy and Soon you’ll get better. I really liked the conversation I had with the worker in El Corte Inglรฉs when I bought it. She said I was lucky because these deluxe versions where sold out that day. She deserve it all! ๐Ÿ’— Then she put the cd Lover on and said so you can get in the mood. It really made me so happy haha ๐Ÿ˜ I asked her if she also listened to it and she said yes and then she said it’s really nice. I’m so happy I have chosen Taylor Swift as my idol all my life. Tay Tay means so much to me. I love her personality. She’s always so kind, so lovely and so honest. She also got through a lot of though times. I’m so happy that this album is her own album with her credits. Being a fan is more than supporting just your favourite artist. It’s a way of life. They are more than just being an artist, they are a person and deserve their privacy and also I know they aren’t a kind of God.

I love her so much but I also know that she is just a human being who also suffer, cries, goes through though times as loosing the people we love and having a heartbreak ๐Ÿ’” . I wish people would think of this more when we love an artist and when we are supporting them. Often in this world it feels like famous people have those perfect lives when they haven’t. I always think that’s much more thougher to go through life being famous because you are always in the public eye. People judge a lot and that hurt. I’m just so blessed to have Taylor in my life. I have been following her for years now since Love Story came out. I was 17 years old and I was falling in love with my first love. It was that time that I listened to songs such as Fairytale and Jump then fall. I felt happy and so in love. Then I turned 19 years and had to go through a though heartbreak. There was Taylor with her music who got me through it. I’m so thankful for her music. I love the song Teardrops on my guitar and Our song.

Thank you Taylor for being such an amazing artist and person. I can’t wait to go to a concert of you! ๐Ÿ˜ You mean so much to me. I love you so so much ๐Ÿ’• xoxo

Drinking a tea and a piece of pie in hotel El Olid ๐Ÿต๐Ÿฅง

The day I bought the new album of Taylor Swift I also went afterwards to the hotel El Olid with my parents. I love to drink camille tea. I had a delicious chocolate pie and my mother had a piece of apple pie. We had a nice time together.

Eating chinese food with the family ๐Ÿฝ

We celebrated the first anniversary of the wedding of my brother Rafael and Verรณnica and the birthday of her mother all together with my mother and her brother in a chinese restaurant in Valladolid. The food was so good ๐Ÿ˜. I really loved it so much! We drank sangria ๐Ÿท which was so delicious. We ate rice, chicken, vegetables and noodles. It was really way too much food so we brang some food home for the next day. We had such a great time together. I had never been to this restaurant. It also looked very cozy, nice and the service was really good. I love Spanish food more but this dinner was also very delicious ๐Ÿ˜‹. We gave my brother and wife some cookies and a card and we gave the mother of Verรณnica some perfume and a card for her birthday. They loved it very much.

Going to the swimming pool ๐ŸŠ๐ŸŒž

I went another 6 times to the outdoor swimming pool this month. I’m a mermaid forevah! ๐Ÿงœโ€โ™€๏ธNow they are closed again until next year which makes me sad. I only go to the swimming pool during the Summer but I really want to go during the Winter too. It’s just harder because I don’t like to wear wet hair outside when it’s cold outside. However, I enjoyed the last days in the swimming pool with my mother and my friend. I was reading The Great Gatsby these days too in the sunshine.

Carrefour shopping ๐Ÿ›’

I went to Carrefour one day which is a French multinational. It’s one of my favourite shops and supermarkts. I love that we have so many in Spain. I went one day with my mother to buy a SD card for my phone as the other didn’t work again. I also bought a book ๐Ÿ“™ which is about how to make good things happen to you. I heard a lot of great reviews about this book. The writer is a psychiatrist which knows all about mental illnesses and mental health. I hope this self help book will help to conquer my anxiety. I also bought some cup a soup which I always drink in The Netherlands. I also bought some crafts which I can use to sent washi tape to my pen pals or do something else with it. I’m also happy to have bought finally some beautiful Stabilo highlighters which I have seen always on mia‘s blog which is one of my fav bloggers here ๐Ÿ’•.

Shopping in Granada ๐Ÿ’—

When I went to Granada I bought some nice writing paper in a shop where they had books and stationery. The writing paper is very beautiful with a red rose on it ๐ŸŒน. In my favourite shop Alle-Hop which we don’t have in Valladolid I bought a golden shiny notebook, colourful markers, cute colourful bracelets, some nice mangets (one is for my daddy, one for myself with the donut on it and the other ones are for some good friends) and a lovely sticky notebook which 15 pages full of beautiful colours, unicorns and clouds. In a hippie shop in Granada I bought some beautiful postcards which I always love to buy in every place I travel to. I also bought in that shop some lavender soap and a beautiful box for it.

Movie night with my mother ๐ŸŽฅ๐ŸŒƒ

I saw some good movies with my mother because my brother fixed our television. It’s so nice to be able to watch movies and series on TV ๐Ÿ“บ . The movies we watched were Everything, Everything which is also the book I have read this Summer, Pitch Perfect 3, Coco, Mama Mia 2, Dumbo, Blue Jay and Toy Story 1. I loved Coco the most as we never watched it before. It’s such a beautiful movie with beautiful music. It made me realize the importance of family and made me learn that the people we loose in life will never be forgotten. They will always be there for us. I also loved Dumbo so much. I had never watched that Disney movie. I loved it and learned a lot about that movie such as there’s nothing bad about being different.

We also watched some Spanish movies such as La Llamada, Toc Toc and Ocho Apellidos Vascos. The one I loved the most was Toc Toc because it was about 6 people who had a mental illness which was OCD and there were all waiting in the waiting room for the doctor. They were all dated the same day at the same time. The doctor didn’t arrive because he was late from a flight. One only thinks in numbers, another one is afraid of virus and bacteria and another one checks everything at home all the time and is religious. There was also a man who was cursing all the time and saying inappropriate things. Then they begin to share their different OCD’s in the hope to find a cure. It’s such a crazy and funny movie. I think it’s really important to show mental illnesses in a positive light rather than always sharing the negative side of it. This movie definitely will make you feel less alone and will help the ones who suffer from it to know that it’s okay to be sick. There are always people who care about us.

Other amazing things of August โค๏ธ:

Trip to Gijรณn with my lovely friend ๐ŸŒŠ๐ŸŒž๐ŸŒด๐Ÿ„โ€โ™€๏ธโ›ต

Our trip to Gijรณn last week was amazing! ๐Ÿ˜ It was definitely one of the best holidays evah. I love to discover new cities especially in Spain because every place I go is beautiful. The beaches in Spain are one of the most beautiful ones in the world. They are so wild, beautiful and amazing. Asturias is a beautiful region of Spain. I always get emotional when I have to go back home. I fall in love with every place I go. Asturias has beautiful nature, green landscape (because of the rain) and beautiful beaches ๐ŸŒŠ. The people are super friendly, helpful and outgoing. It didn’t rain at all. It was about 25 degrees and at night it was 22 so it was really such a perfect temperature.

Sometimes the sun was shining too. We went to the beach La Playa de San Lorenzo which is so beautiful. There were so many waves. I’m sad I didn’t surf again but I will do it soon. There were loads of people surfing, doing sup or swimming in the sea. We also swam in the sea which was awesome. The water temperature was 19.5/20 degrees which is really warm for the north. I loved it so much! ๐Ÿ˜ We ate delicious food and also from the region of Asturias such as fabada Asturiana which are bones with chorizo and sauce. We tried cider ๐Ÿป, had delicious breakfast, ate a delicious ice cream and loads of other good food ๐Ÿฒ. We also went to a beach bar called Pura Vida Bar to have breakfast there which was amazing. Pura vida always! โœŒ๏ธ We also enjoyed the night life which was crazy. We danced the nights away ๐ŸŽถ. There were so many people at the port โš“. I love the beach vibes so much. One boy came to me and said he liked my flower headband ๐ŸŒธโœŒ๏ธhaha forevah a hippie girl!

One night we met lovely people from Basque Country who were celebrating a bachelor party ๐ŸŽ‰. I have family there so it was nice to talk to them. It was so much fun! It’s so nice to meet people who only bring good vibes and respect you. There are so many good people in the world, you just have to find the right ones. We stayed in the Hotel Begoรฑa ๐Ÿฉ which was in the city centre and 15 minutes from the bars, beach and shops. I’m happy I went with my lovely friend ๐Ÿ’— Te quiero! Let’s keep travelling more and more!

Rotterdam is going to host Eurovision Song Contest 2020 ๐ŸŽถ๐Ÿ‡ณ๐Ÿ‡ฑ

I will show you below the beautiful video that shows the world that next year Eurovision Song Contest 2020 will take place in Rotterdam, The Netherlands.ย I cried and felt emotional watching thisย ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜ญย It’s so beautiful. I love how creative and special they made the announcement last Friday. The Netherlands is going to be one of the best host places ever. I just feel it.ย It’s going to be so specialย โœจ. After 44 years Eurovision is coming backย to The Netherlandsย hell yeahhhh let’s do thisย ๐Ÿ˜Ž๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŽค๐ŸŽธ๐ŸŽ™๏ธ๐ŸŽถ I hope the tickets will be not so expensive to be able to see it live for the first time in my life. It will be a once in a lifetime experience.

Two years blogging anniversary ๐ŸŽ‰

I’m so happy with my achievement of two years blogging! Times goes by so fast. I wrote all about it in this blog post. Writing definitely heals my life and makes me so happy. I will do it all my life and will never stop writing. I’m so thankful to have met you all. This community is amazing. I love you all so much ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–.

Writing paper from UK ๐Ÿ‡ฌ๐Ÿ‡ง๐Ÿ“„

I bought beautiful writing paper from a shop in UK online. I bought it from the shop Sweet Stationery on Etsy. It was so cheap and also the delivery was so fast. You get 26 pages from each design. One is with mermaids and another one is a girl with a flamingo. I find it so beautiful! ๐Ÿ˜ I also got free stickers from the shop. I can’t wait to buy more from this shop as I find it difficult to find writing paper in the shops. If anyone know more shops to find it, let me know. I will appreciate it.

10K views on my blog ๐Ÿ–ฅ

I was looking at my statistics of my blog and saw that I have reached 10K views ๐ŸŽ‰. I’m so happy about that. It means so much to me. 10.000 views on my blog wow it sounds so much! I also have almost 400 followers. I hope my blog will continue growing. Much love to you all!

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope you all liked it. What did you do in August? Do you have a nice Summer time? What are your favourites of my post? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina



July favourites ๐ŸŒž๐ŸŠ๐Ÿ’—

Hola lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

It’s again time for my favourites post! ๐Ÿ˜ I can’t wait to share with you all the amazing things I did in July. It was a great Summer month and I wish to continue to enjoy Summer like I do. I wish Summer would never end as it always makes me so happy. I don’t enjoy heatwaves but I love the sunshine. I’m going to talk about my July favourites which includes eating delicious tapas and other food with my friends and family, going to the cinema after two years not going because of anxiety, my trip to Granada (will maybe make a travel blog post about the trip as well), swimming in the Mediterranean Sea, swimming in the pools here in Valladolid and much more amazing things.

Things I did with my family ๐Ÿ‘ช :

Going to the swimming pool ๐ŸŠ๐ŸŒž

I went 8 times to the swimming pool with my friend and mother. I want to go more times in August. With my friend I went the first time to the outdoor swimming pool as it was raining that day. The rest of the days I went with my friend and my mother to the outdoor swimming pool. There are a lot of outdoor swimming pools here so it’s nice to enjoy that during the hot Summer days because there’s no beach here. I swam a lot and was also reading at the swimming pool the book Everything, Everything and a Dutch psychology magazine. I also enjoyed some delicious ice creams. Swimming is so relaxing and so good for our health. Swimming all Summer long yeahhh!!! ๐Ÿ˜

Wedding pictures ๐Ÿ’’๐Ÿ‘ฐ ๐Ÿคต๐Ÿ’ ๐Ÿ’–

I finally got the pictures of my brother’s wedding from last Summer. My other brother Edward together with his wife Elke (they have a company of wedding photography) made these pictures of the wedding of Rafael and Verรณnica. They had to sort everything out so I finally got them and download them all. Maybe, I will do a seperate blog post about them because I want to share them all together. I will post a few of them below so that you can all have a preview. These pictures are so gorgeous and beautiful ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ‘Œ. It brings me back only good vibes of this unforgettable day.

Granada trip with my mother ๐Ÿ’—๐ŸŒž

I just came back from Granda which is 610 km. from Valladolid and like 7 hours by bus. I love Andalucia, the south of Spain so much. My mother and I went to visit a friend of me and his family who I met during the Many Languages, One World Essay Contest in New York City in 2015. Granada is one of my favourites cities in Spain and of the whole world ๐Ÿ˜. It gives me those hippie vibes. You see people dancing, singing and playing the guitar everywhere. The people are so friendly everywhere. The tapas are so delicious. We ate a lot of them. You just have to order a drink and then you will get a free tapa which is amazing. It’s only in Granada where that happens. It’s also very hot during the day but we chilled in our 4 stars โœจ hotel.

We enjoyed the swimming pool and jacuzzi on the terrace of the hotel. I bought some nice souvenirs and stuff in Alle Hop which is an amazing shop and other hippie shops. We also ate delicious Italian ice creams, a delicious pizza together with a glass of sangria on the terrace of our hotel. You could see the whole city. It was such a beautiful view. The only bad thing of the trip was that I lost my squeeze animal. I got anxious and cried ๐Ÿ˜ข. It just meant a lot to me because my best friend gave it for my birthday. I didn’t actually lost it but it was in my bed and the cleaners of the hotel cleaned the room and the bed so I guess they took it without knowing. I will buy a new one as I guess they won’t find it anymore.

Swimming in The Mediterranean Sea ๐ŸŒŠโ˜€๏ธ๐ŸŸ๐Ÿ ๐ŸŠ

During the trip of Granada we also went one day to the beautiful beach La Rรกbita which is on La Costa Tropical ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŒž๐ŸŒŠ๐ŸŒด The night before I couldn’t sleep so well because it was warm and felt anxious so took diazepam from my mother. It helped so that I could enjoy the beach day the next day. I already miss this beautiful beach La Rรกbita so much ๐Ÿ˜ญ The water was a bit cold which is normally more warm but I still love it always so much. There’s nothing better than swimming in the ocean and also watching a beautiful sunset on the beach. We also had a delicious meal with the family of my friend in a restaurant. I ate gazpacho which is a cold Spanish soup, croquettes with potatoes and an ice cream. It was all so delicious ๐Ÿ˜‹ .

I always miss the sea and ocean when I leave it no matter where I’m. I’m forever a beach and Summer girl. The ocean is my home and my love for the ocean is infinite. It will never leave me ๐Ÿ’—. Human beings are made of water and salt so basically we are the ocean ourselves. The smell of the salt air, the taste of the salty sea, hearing the waves crashing on the shore, seeing the beautiful ocean and feeling the wind on my skin all creates a sense of peace and calm which can’t beat anything in this world. I’m happy I live in a world which is surrounded by beautiful oceans. The world is beautiful ๐ŸŒ๐ŸŒŠ๐ŸŒŠ

Birthday of my brother Edward, Noanne and Lisanne ๐ŸŽ‚๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽˆ๐ŸŽ

It was my brother’s birthday on the 14th of July so I sent him a picture of us three which he can hang on the wall. That picture was made on his wedding in The Netherlands which was also a beautiful day to remember forever. My little niece Noanne turned 4 years on the 16th of July so I sent her a cute balloon ๐ŸŽˆ . They loved my gifts very much. I also sent the same unicorn balloon to Lisanne which is a little girl from my choir from a man. She has neuroblastoma and also leucemia now so that hit me really hard. I also wrote them a letter. I find it important to be there for others even though if I’m struggling myself. They liked it all very much which made me happy.

Watching the movie The Lion King with my mother and my good friend ๐Ÿฆ๐ŸŽฅ

I went to the cinema ๐ŸŽฌ after two years not going with my motherย and my good friend. I’ve always loved to go to the cinema with my mother and friends. You may ask why didn’t I go for such a long time?! The reason is anxiety. Two years ago when I went for the last time to watch a movie I began to feel anxious and thought that time that I was close to have a panic attack. I got scared and ended up not going anymore which is really sad. Anxiety always takes away everything I love to do in life. It’s horrible and I’m so done with it. Sometimes I have to take little steps to overcome a fear because I just can’t do it all at once like going to the dentist. I’m happy I went to watch The Lion King which is my favourite Disney movie ever yeahhh! ๐Ÿ˜ I even have the words “Hakuna matata” on the wall in my room in The Netherlands. I also had a cover for my mobile phone of it which unfortunately all got stolen.

I loved the movie so much. The animation version is amazing but this version too. It all looks so real and is so beautiful made! Simba is so cute. I cried a lot during the movie ๐Ÿ˜ญ We also enjoyed delicious popcorn. I wish to go to Africa once and see this beautiful wild life with my own eyes. The Lion King teaches me so many lessons like that everyone is afraid of something, that you can learn from your past and that it’s important to face your fears. Even though I worry so much because of anxiety I agree that Hakuna Matata is such an important life philosophy to live by. I hope I will get there one day because life is way too short to worry all day and especially of things which aren’t going to happen. It also teaches us that our lost loved ones will always be a part of us.

I’m happy I went to the movies as it’s a big recovery win ๐Ÿ’ช because I felt anxious once two years ago during a movie doesn’t mean that it will happen again. We can all learn so much from Disney movies. I will never be too old to watch them. I can’t wait to go one day to Disneyland ๐Ÿ’—. Magic is everywhere around us, we just have to find it in ourselves too โœจ

Things I did with my lovely friends ๐Ÿ’•:

Drinking a delicious milkshake with my friend ๐Ÿฆ๐Ÿจ๐Ÿง

We enjoyed such a delicious milkshake! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿง I drank a chocolate milkshake andย my friendย had a strawberry one. I also once tried a coconut milkshake. I love them all but my fav is chocolate. Everything with chocolate is my favourite evah. I love to eat ice cream ๐Ÿฆ, drink milkshakes and any form of dessert. It’s much better to eat and drink this during the Summer. So refreshing & so delicious mmm! ๐Ÿ˜‹

Eating at the greek restaurant and enjoying a drink on a terrace ๐Ÿด๐Ÿ’•

After a year we ate again in Pita. gr, griegos artesanos in Valladolid. It’s one of my favourites restaurants in Valladolid. I love Greek food so much ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‡ฌ๐Ÿ‡ท I wish to go one day! The food is cheap and soooo delicious ๐Ÿ˜‹. Also the service is very good and fast. They always explain what everything is. We ate delicious mezzes with pita bread. My favourite sauce is the yoghurt and the one with feta. We also loved the delicious Greek lemonade. We also ate musakas with salad and more pita bread. As dessert we tried something different this time which was baklavas with nuts and yoghurt. It was so damn delicious. We loved it all so much! We will be back soon again yeah yeah yeah!

After eating a delicious Greek dinner on that Friday night I went to a terrace with my friends. We also got some delicious sweets. I love chuches ๐Ÿฌ. It was pretty cold afterwards. The nights here in Valladolid can be cold and yes even during the Summer ๐Ÿ˜‚โ„๏ธ It was 15 degrees that night brrr.

Eating tapas and delicious ice cream rolls with my friends ๐Ÿฆ๐Ÿ’•

It was nice to see my lovely friend Iris again after a year together with Maria. We tried for the first time ice cream rolls omggg it’s so delicious ๐Ÿ˜‹ I have always seen this popular ice cream on Instagram and was very curious to try it. Sometimes a hype can be overrated but this was definitely as good as it looks! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‘ŒMine was with strawberries and as topping white chocolate. My friends had one with strawberries, oreos and white chocolate. I can’t wait to try another one again! Afterwards, we ate some delicious tapas. I love to eat croquettes and a mosto which is grape juice in the popular bar El Corcho. We also loved the solomillo al roquefort in another famous bar called La Tasquita. Spanish food is just da best! ๐Ÿ’— Viva Espaรฑa ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ, oleeee!

Hot Summer night with my friend and mother ๐ŸŒž๐Ÿ”ฅ

I enjoyed some delicious Spanish food with my friend Maria. We ate a delicious pincho moruno with potatoes and tortilla at my favourite restaurant called Elany. When we drink a mosto we always get a free tapa which was chorizo this time. I love the owners which are from Romania so much. My family knows them so much and it’s so great to have your fav restaurant 5 min from your home. One time we also got a free flan ๐Ÿฎ. I also love to always give them a tip.

Afterwards, my mamita and I enjoyed a manzanilla tea ๐Ÿต and a mosto at La Plaza Mayor. It was 38 degrees the whole day so it was too hot to be inside. It was nice to be at a terrace during the night as the temperature was cooling down. Global warming is not something fake. It’s so real and I’m experiencing it right now in Spain. It’s never been so hot and so crazy weather during the Summer. We can all do something to save this planet ๐ŸŒ๐Ÿ™ One day it will be too late….

Other amazing things of July โค๏ธ:

Finished reading the book Everything, Everything ๐Ÿ“š

I LOVED THIS BOOK SO MUCH ๐Ÿ˜. I will post a good review about it soon together with some other books I’ve read. I already talked about this book on my last blog post. I’ve never read a book so fast. I finished it in two weeks whoehoeeee.

Receiving awesome pen pal letters ๐Ÿ–‹๏ธ

I loved the snail mail I got from Vikki, Rosie, Danielle, and my lovely blogging friend Chloe. Thank you all so much. I really love to receive amazing letters especially from such lovely people as you all are. I also loved the post so much from Sophia. I loved the quotes and especially the unicorn writing paper ๐Ÿฆ„ as it’s difficult to find here. I loved the postcard from my best friend from Crete so much too โค๏ธ.

Last but not least, I also loved the post from Barbara so much. She also sent me some lovely presents for my birthday which was the first of June. I loved the Disney paper and bag so much. I especially loved the mermaid vibes passport holder. I always wanted that. The edible unicorn wafers are amazing too and the unicorn holder. Thank you all so much for everything! I’m so grateful to know you all. I love you all so much ๐Ÿ’–

Watched the movie Campeones ๐ŸŽฌ

I watched this movie on the bus trip to Granada. I already wanted to watch this movie for so long. It’s a beautiful Spanish movie. I cried so much ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜ญ. It’s about a trainer of basketball who get a punishment of driving too hard because of drinking alcohol. He then has to train a team which all have sindrome of down. I think this Spanish movie is so important. It’s all about love, friendships and inclusion. We all deserve to feel equal and be treated as persons. We all deserve the same opportunities in life no matter what ๐Ÿ™. This movie also won the prize of best Spanish movie 2019. There was also a beautiful sentence said in the movie which was: “You treated us as humans.” “Because you are humans”. I wish there would be more movies like this one because they are so necessary. We are all equal, always remember that.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. What did you do in July? What are your favourites from my list? Do you have any Summer trips planned? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

Dutch tulip fields photo diary๐ŸŒท๐Ÿ“ท and 300 followers! ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿ’—

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

Today I want to show some beautiful pictures which I took with my mother last Sunday which was on Easter. Today’s blog post is a photo diary of the beautiful Dutch tulip fields ๐ŸŒท. Before I continue to talk about it more and show you the pictures, I will tell you something else.

I finally reached more than 300 followers! ๐ŸŽ‰ I’m so damn happy and proud of it! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’•๐ŸŽˆ๐ŸŽ‚๐ŸŽ It means so much to me that my blog is growing and that more and more people are willing to follow me, read my posts and like them. The only strange thing is that I didn’t receive a notification of this on my WordPress. Normally you get a message. Maybe, this sometimes doesn’t work or stops. Did anyone else also experience this? I always love to get that haha because it makes me feel even more excited. Thank you SO much from the bottom of my heart for all your love, support and happiness. I love blogging and will never stop blogging. We are one big and amazing family. I love you all SO much ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’—

Okay, enough love ๐Ÿ˜‚ Let’s be serious right now again. I can never be really serious so never mind. I alwaya prefer Spain over The Netherlands but there are some things which I love in Holland and which you can’t find in Spain. One of those things are the beautiful Dutch tulip fields I visited last week. The Netherlands is famous for the flowers especially the tulips. The best time to see them is from mid March to mid May. It starts with crocus season in March, which is followed by daffodils and hyacinths. Finally the tulips show their gorgeous colors, this is from mid April through the first week of May. You can also go to the Keukenhof which is unique tulip park with 7 million of tulips to see. I went there some times and I loved it. I want to go again because it’s so beautiful. The only bad thing is that it can be crowded with all the tourists taking pictures.

So on the First Easter Day I enjoyed a beautiful bike ride with my mother through the park and went to Cruquius which is so near to my house. We went to see the beautiful tulip fields. There was nobody so we could enjoy it to the fullest. First we were afraid to pass the meadow because there was water on the side haha but nothing happened ๐Ÿ˜‚ We didn’t end up in the dike. I loved it so much. I didn’t want to leave anymore. I could sleep there surrounded by the tulips lol. Cray cray. It’s my happy place definitely. Flowers especially tulips are one of my favourite things in life and the most beautiful fields of the world are definitely in Holland. I know Keukenhof is awesome too but to enjoy these fields for free and all alone is just a wonderful experience that everyone has to see. The Netherlands in Spring time is the best time to visit because it’s also so sunny ๐ŸŒž. It feels like Spain ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ except that it was raining a lot there that time ๐Ÿคฃ

This is my photo diary ๐Ÿ“ท. I almost didn’t change the pictures because they are perfect the way they are. I used the app StoryApp for the designs. I really like it and I love to make collages and do something different to show you it. I hope you all enjoy them! ๐Ÿ’—

Thank you all for reading this blog post. Did you like my photo diary? Do you love flowers as much as I do? Which flower is your favourite? ๐ŸŒธ๐ŸŒผ๐ŸŒป๐ŸŒน๐ŸŒท๐Ÿ’ Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ˜˜,

xoxo Christina

March favourites ๐ŸŒผ๐ŸŒป๐ŸŒž

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

Today I will share you my favourites from the month March. I also felt sad and very anxious because of the upcoming interview for the internship in the 5 stars hotel in Spain which I shared in my last post. I want to share you some of my favourite things from March such as Spring time, delicious Spanish and Mexican food I’ve eaten, concert tickets I bought, travel trips, my favourite song I’ve listen to and much more. It’s great to reflect on the positive things ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ’—.

My favourite song of the month ๐ŸŽถ:

The Netherlands, Duncan Laurence – Arcade

“I spent all of the love I’ve saved
We were always a losing game
Small-town boy in a big arcade
I got addicted to a losing game

Ooh, ooh
All I know, all I know
Loving you is a losing game”

I love Eurovision Song Festival so much. Every year I watch it with my mother. I love to hear the songs of all the countries. Music unites people. Since I heard the song of The Netherlands I was in awe. I couldn’t stop listening to this masterpiece. Duncan Laurence will represents The Netherlands with the song “Arcade”. The music video is so beautiful. I’m crying every time I hear it and watch it. This song is so beautiful and special. It gives me all the feelings. It’s so unique, vulnerable, honest and sensitive. He sing so beautiful, the lyrics is beautiful and the whole melody and chorus and everything is just WOW. Duncan is a 24 year old boy who studied at the RockAcademy in Tilburg. I love that for once The Netherlands is sending an unknown artist. I love to discover new music and artists.

He made this song during his studies at the RockAcademy. His inspiration came from a loved one that passed away at an early age. Arcade is a story about the search for the love of your life. Itโ€™s about the hope to reach something that seems unreachable. The water surface in the video represents the hope. The nude reflects the vulnerability and perhaps the rebirth from the hope. I really do hope The Netherlands for once wins with this unbelievable beautiful song which gives me goosebumps every time I listen to it. If a song can make you feel so much emotion and if the singer also brings that emotion to the audience then for me it’s definitely a winner ๐Ÿ†๐Ÿ˜ I really want to be able to see The Netherlands and also Spain win Eurovision Song Contest for once in my life.

My favourite serie I watched ๐Ÿ“บ:

Cuรฉntame Cรณmo Pasรณ

Cuรฉntame Cรณmo Pasรณ is also known as Remember when and is a Spanish television drama series. It’s the longest running prime-time series in the history of television in Spain. The 20th season has started last week on Thursday and I’m so happy. I love to watch it with my mother. I’ve watched almost all episodes until now. The serie is about the experiences of a middle-class family, the Alcรกntaras, during the last years of the rule of Francisco Franco and the beginning of the Spanish transition to democracy. You learn so much about the history of Spain because they tell you it. So many series in Spain are based on the past. I also love all the actors so much. I feel so much watching it. I cry with them and laugh.

Spanish serie Cuรฉntame Cรณmo Pasรณ picture

My favourite gifts I got/I bought ๐ŸŽ:

Perfume Paco Rabanne and O’Neill sweater

I went to eat soup in the church with my mother and a friend of her. I love that friend so much. Afterwards, we went to her home and she gave me some nice gifts which she always does. I love people who are so generous. Last time she also gave me the perfume from Paco Rabanne. This time she gave me the one of Lady Million Eau my gold! It smells so good. Does anyone have this perfume? I also got a beautiful pink sweater from the surf brand O’Neill. My mother also got a bunch of clothes just all for free. So sweet! The perfume was new and the clothes were never used.

Concert tickets for the concert 1016 from Alfred Garcia

Last month I bought concert tickets for the concert 1016 from Alfred Garcia. I bought it the same day the tickets were on sale. I love concerts and I miss going to concerts so much. The last concert I went to was with my best friend to Passenger a few months ago. The concert will take place the 31th of May in Valladolid. Just one day before my birthday. Best birthday present ever! I really need to be in Spain to enjoy this beautiful concert with my good friend. Alfred Garcia makes beautiful music and compose every song by himself. His music is just sooooo amazing ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜ I also wrote about his music in this post.

Concert tickets of Alfred Garcia

My favourite food I have eaten ๐Ÿฒ๐Ÿฐ๐ŸŒฎ:

Eating soup in the church

I ate delicious soup for free in the church with my mother and her friend. This is typical during the days before Easter in the church near to our house in The Netherlands. It was so good to see the conductor from a choir and other familiar people I know. They were happy to see me and it made me even feel emotional. I sang in this children’s choir many years too besides singing in my other choir for 11 years. We also donated money for children in Africa to get access to clean water. In total we all donated โ‚ฌ211 for this charity. It always feels good to do something good for the world.

Eating tomato soup in the church

Delicious Spanish tortilla de patatas

After eating soup in the church I ate a delicious Spanish tortilla with my mother made by that same friend at her home. Spanish vibes always! Viva Espaรฑa!

Tortilla de patatas

Enjoying Mexican food at Havana in The Hague

I ate at my favourite restaurant in The Hague which is Havana with my lovely mother ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿด I loved the Social Deal and the Mexican food so much. We ate a delicious tomato soup, burritos and fajitas with tortilla’s, rice, chicken, guacamole, crรจme fraice and cheese. As dessert I had a delicious monta cuba which was vanilla ice-cream with chocolate sauce and whipped cream. My mother ate a delicious chocolate pie with whipped cream. It was a delicious meal with good service! I also loved the Spanish music. It reminds me of the nights I used to dance here with my friends after studying. I miss those times and felt nostalgic. I have such great memories of this beautiful city. The Hague will be forever in my heart and is one of my favourites cities in The Netherlands.

Delicious pie with mint tea in the restaurant Molenplas

I enjoyed a nice night with my mother and a Spanish friend to eat delicious pie with mint tea in the Molenplas. This is the restaurant which we have near to our house in Holland. My mother ate a delicious chocolate brownie, the Spanish friend ate apple pie and I ate a caramel toffee pie with whipped cream. It was so yummy! I had never tried that pie before and I loved it.

Caramel fudge pie, brownie and apple pie

Dutch fondue with my family

Before I went to Spain with my mother I had a delicious Dutch fondue with my lovely family: me, my parents, my brother and his wife. We had a fondue with meat together with potatoes, different sauces and a salad. As dessert we ate vanilla ice-cream and fruits mmm ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿด๐Ÿ˜‹

Other favourite things ๐Ÿ’—:

Enjoying Spring time in The Netherlands and in Spain๐ŸŒน๐ŸŒป๐Ÿฃ๐Ÿ’

I enjoyed Spring time both in Spain and in The Netherlands. I love that it’s finally Spring. It was about time. I really don’t like the winter. I was so done with it. My favourite season is Summer but I love Spring too. I love seeing the flowers blossom, the animals awake and the beautiful nature. I went for some walks and also used my bike in The Netherlands. It felt good to finally feel the warmth of the sunshine on my skin. Life is better with sunshine and good weather.

Trip to the city Leรณn in Spain with my mother

I went to the city Leรณn with my mother a week ago. It’s a city just two hours away from Valladolid. We went to a spa hotel which was amazing. I loved to use the jacuzzi and swimming pool with my mother. It was so relaxing. I also loved to visit the beautiful cathedral with the stained window glasses. The tapas were also so delicious. You get a free tapa when you order a drink. It was an amazing trip and I will share more of it in detail in another post.

My niece slept in our home for one night

My niece slept one night in our home with me and my parents. My brother and his wife had to take pictures at a hotel that night near to our house. It was for an event for donating money for a sick child. It was really nice to spend some time with my niece. She is a wild and happy child. We took her to our park too with my other brother and wife. After walking a bit she said: “I can’t take another step”. Hahaha that made me laugh so much because she was saying it so dramatic like we have walked so much which wasn’t the case. Then my brother and wife carried her home. She woke up early but fortunately my parents put her in bath and played music. Noanne also loves to go to my room as I’ve so many things haha it feels likes Disney World. I’m also just happy it was just for one night. I’m not sure if one day I will have a child. To be honest it feels really overwhelming to have kids when you suffer from anxiety at the same time.

Thank you so much for reading this blog post. I really loved to write it even though it’s always a lot of work. What were your favourites from my post? What did you enjoy in March? Did you also enjoy Spring time in your country? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

I rocked my internship interview today! ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿ’—

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

Before I want to share with you all my March favourites I want to share you this blog post. In this post I will write about how well I did my internship interview today at the 5 stars hotel in a village near to Valladolid called Sardรณn de Duero. I already wrote in this blog post about how I applied for this internship and how I did my Skype interview. I was so anxious to do that and had to take a benzo medication for my anxiety before I did it. It went pretty well. After two weeks they emailed me back that they wanted to do a personal interview when I was going to Spain which brings me to here.

I was pretty excited about it but also super scared and anxious. Anxiety never leaves me and is pretty high lately so I suffer a lot. I had this personal interview planned two weeks ago but I was so anxious that I postponed it until today. I can’t keep postponing as it will not help me to face my fears. So I decided to do it today the 2th of April at 11.30 in the morning which is so early for me as my sleep routine is messed up as usually.

I went to bed last night with anxiety and took a benzo to calm me down. The strange thing is that it made my heartbeat faster when I just wanted to feel calm and have a normal heartbeat. I slept like 6 hours which is way too less for me and when I woke up I felt again anxious. I’m happy I did the interview today because yesterday I had to go to the toilet often because of drinking a milkshake in the weekend which was too cold together with my period coming and anxiety. I still felt anxious though so I took a benzo again but felt again like my heart was beating so fast. This time I wasn’t nauseous and I just ate some cookies so almost nothing to not vomit from anxiety. I also took some sugar to not be dizzy. I have to prepared for everything always.

I almost didn’t want to go again today but I went with my lovely mother. We were supposed to go with the taxi and then the bus from Valladolid but at the end we went with the taxi all the way to Sardรณn de Duero because otherwise we would have to walk from that village to the hotel which was about 4 km. The woman who drove the taxi was very nice and gave us a discount of โ‚ฌ15 because the total price was โ‚ฌ30. In Holland it would be even more expensive. I was happy that we were on time. We still had to walk a bit to the hotel as the hotel is in such a beautiful place full of vine yards and beautiful nature ๐Ÿฉ๐ŸŒฒ๐ŸŒณ๐Ÿ‡.

When we arrived at the main entrance of the hotel a woman came to us and said that we also could have gone with the taxi until the entrance. I said the name of the woman I was searching for the interview. Then we had to call by the wine office and they opened the door. All the doors are locked and there are cameras everywhere. I guess it’s normal because it’s a 5 stars hotel and also the best hotel in Spain and Portugal and one of the best in the world. We waited downstairs until the woman from my skype interview came downstairs and I could go upstairs to the office. She said that I could go to that room and then closed the door. That was the worst of it haha the waiting part. I felt soooo anxious and my heart was beating so fast ๐Ÿ˜ฅ. Maybe I waited for only 5 or 10 minutes but it felt much longer.

Finally, the woman from HR came and also the man who interviewed me through Skype who is the director of butlers. They asked me almost the same questions as through the Skype interview which I liked because I was prepared for it. I told my strengths and weaknesses. I told them I’m compassionate, sensitive and helpful person. I also said that I would have to improve dealing with pressure in work and in life and better planning. They told me about what I would do as a trainee. I would have to work being a recepcionist but also having personalised contact with the clients. This hotel is super special because there’s a special service of being a butler which means bringing a welcome drink to the room of the guests and putting flowers in the room before they arrive. These special things is what makes the guests come back because they love the personalised service in this unique hotel. This hotel also has a spa, makes their own wine and there are yoga classes and meditation. I really need to stay here once even though it cost โ‚ฌ400 for one night but it’s definitely worth it ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ’—

I also talked in English to prove that I can speak well English. The only bad thing is that I need an agreement from my university and since I’m not studying anymore I don’t know if I will get that. It’s almost two years since I graduated. Hopefully, I can fix a paper or something. They also told me that I would get โ‚ฌ250 and accomodation and food which depends of the shift. The morning shifts are really early from 7 o’clock till 3 o’clock and the afternoon shifts are from 3 o’clock till 11 o’clock. I would have to live with some other trainees in a house in the village of Sardรณn de Duero which is 4 km from the hotel. I don’t know if I would walk to the hotel or go with someone. That also makes me anxious because I’m so used to live at home by my parents and that feels safe. I only lived once with a family during my exchange time and it went wrong. I felt so anxious and began to drink much which isn’t the case anymore but I still find it hard to trust people. I also love to have my privacy. They say they have people from all over the world doing an internship there.

I’m just happy I did it because it’s a huge milestone for me to overcome this fear today. It was definitely outside my comfortzone. They were all so friendly and I shouldn’t have been worried about it but that’s the curse of suffering with anxiety. The hotel is unbelievable beautiful and in the middle of nowhere full of pines, nature and vine yards ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‡. I love the smell of the pines. It creates a sense of peace and happiness โœจ. At the end of the interview we said goodbye and they will tell me if I get the internship or not. It also depends if I get the agreement from my university as they are also going to contact my university. It’s going to be almost impossible to be honest. I went downstairs again where my mother was waiting and the woman of HR who was just a few years older than me showed us the way which we had to follow to go to the village to catch the bus to Valladolid. She was from the same village where my grandmother was a teacher. Such a coincidence. They almost even wanted to bring us by car but I said that we could walk it. They said it would be 10 minutes well my mother and I walked 35 minutes haha so much ๐Ÿ˜‚. It was a nice walk within the pines along side the river Duero. It was also sunny so it was okay ๐ŸŒž๐Ÿ‘Œ.

In the village we had to wait like almost two hours for the bus to Valladolid because that’s the bad thing of living in a village. There are not many buses during a day. One day I will have to learn to drive car even though I’m scared of that too. Sometimes it makes life easier. We ate at the bus station of Valladolid a delicious meal with potatoes, some meat, eggs and as dessert ice cream and yoghurt. I was then crying and I also cried a lot at home later because I felt emotional and anxious after the whole day.

Also I was angry because I don’t want to go again to Holland because I feel like I always have to go where my parents go because I have no money. I also don’t want to feel pressured again to search for a job there. I was also angry because I’m already two weeks in Spain and didn’t see any of my friends. I was suppose to meet one friend and again she couldn’t see me. I’m just so done with it all. I feel like I connect more with internet friends nowadays than real friends. I’m done being there always for everybody when almost nobody is there for me. It hurt so much ๐Ÿ˜ข. I also went to the church today to light up some candles to bring peace in my heart ๐Ÿ™. Fortunately, I could make the suitcase today and watch a nice Spanish serie with my mother at home. I’m just happy this day is over ๐Ÿ’ช.

Thank you all for reading this blog post and listening to me. What do you think of this internship? Do you have any tips? How would I get that agreement of my university when I’m not studying there anymore? Let me know your thoughts. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina