One year blogging anniversary πŸŽ‰πŸŽ‚πŸŽπŸŽˆπŸ’•

Hey lovely bloggers πŸ’•,

Before I write a blog post about the wedding of my brother which was last Saturday (11-8-2018). I also have to wait to get the pictures of my brother. Today I want to write a blog post about achieving a blogging milestone: my 1 year blogging anniversary πŸŽ‰πŸ’•. Today my blog post turned one year. I’m so happy my blog turned one year. I’m so blessed to achieve this blogging milestone. In this blog post I also am going to share some statistics of my blog, reasons why I love WordPress so much and some future plans for my blog in the future.

I’m so happy I began this blog on WordPress just a year ago. I was always thinking if it would be worth it and if anybody would ever read it. I didn’t know that my blog was able to grow. I’m thankful for my 212 followers. I don’t care that much about the numbers but of course it makes me happy that more and more people are following my blog. What I love the most about blogging is interacting with people. I developed beautiful friendships which I value a lot ❀. I never knew blogging would be so much fun. I already had a blog before on Tumblr and interacted with people but then my site got deleted. It was really sad because I had 2000 followers on there. I have a new Tumblr blog. My tumblr blog is more to get inspiration, share pictures from others and find beautiful quotes.

What I love about WordPress is that awesome blogging community. I also found it on Tumblr but sometimes people on there were really negative and depressed and glamorizing mental illnesses. I really don’t like that. On WordPress I feel everyone is more real, honest and able to be vulnerable. I really love that so much. I love that people are able to share the good and the bad in life. This is also the reason why you develop friendships on WordPress. Whenever I read a blog post I feel really connected to that person and can look into their mind. It feels like they’re talking to me. That real connection is just so beautiful.

I also love that I can be myself without feeling judged. You all are so kind, caring and beautiful people. I never knew I would find such amazing people on the internet. I’m happy to be also part of the mental health community on Instagram and here on my blog. It’s great that we have each other back. We are all in this together. I can write about anything on my blog and I love that I’m not afraid to share the good and also the bad in my life. I share a lot about living with an anxiety disorder and how it affects my life. It’s great to know that I’m not the only one going through this mental illness. Sometimes people don’t understand me in real life but here they understand me and respect me. I wish people would do that more in real life too. It’s just so important to know good people who respect you, understand you and care about you.

Internet friends are real friends πŸ’• How many times have my parents warned me for the dangerous side of internet when I was little. Of course, I know that there are dangers of internet and you have to be careful when you meet someone you’ve met on the internet. I just truly believe that internet friends are real friends even though you don’t see them or can’t talk face to face with them. You can read their inner thoughts and feel their feelings. You can create a real connection. That’s what for me is a real friendship. I really can’t wait to meet you all one day. I guess you all are even more awesome in real life. I also would love to travel with you all, go on adventure, take pictures, tell each other our secrets and just have fun together.

I’m going to share with you now some blog statistics from this year. I hope you don’t find this statistics too borring haha πŸ˜‚. I found it interesting to share some of them and look back after this one year of blogging.

Followers: 212

Blog posts:
94 (almost 100 posts whoehoe)

Vistants:
1.745

Views:
3.982

Best day:
August the 16th (the day I made this blog!)

Day most popular:
Friday (28%)

Hour most popular:
3:00 (Night owls or my followers who live in a different timezone than me) (8%)

Some of my blog posts who were the most popular and got the most views were:

How being bullied in high school caused me anxiety(56 views)

I’m not good enough πŸ’­ (61 views)

10 life lessons learned in 2017 (78 views)

10 self care tipsπŸ’žπŸŒ (99 views)

Do you think it’s possible that some people are born to give more love than they will ever get back in return? πŸ’• (130 views)

Top 10 countries that visited my blog:

1. United States (635 views)

2. United Kingdom
(384 views)

3. Spain
(274 views which includes me when I check my blog haha πŸ˜‚)

4. India
(231 views)

5. Canada
(174 views)

6. Poland
(93 views)

7. Ireland
(88 views)

8. Australia
(79 views)

9. Netherlands
(47 views)

10. Italy
(37 views)

I learned a lot of blogging this year. I still don’t know everything of WordPress but every day you learn something new. So, I will take it slowly. I still want to improve my theme. Maybe, I also would to go self-hosted on WordPress. As I read the blog post of Mia I now know the cons and pros of going self-hosted so I would prefer to do it via WordPress. I would not like that nobody can read my blogs again in the reader or encounter other problems. I also would like to share some new things on my blog as book reviews, movie reviews, poems written by me, singing covers (maybe making a Youtube channel but it makes me nervous haha) travel posts, surf adventures, photography and do some blog colloberations. I want to be more creative and share more of the things I love to do. Of course, I will also keep writing about some of my main topics on my blog which are: lifestyle ❀, self-love πŸ’•, mental health πŸ’ͺ, feminism πŸ‘­ & wanderlust 🌍.

I’m going to continue to keep blogging for my whole life. I know blogging is also hard work too. I have had times where I didn’t feel like blogging and then I didn’t blog for a few weeks. I felt guilty and bad afterwards because I don’t want to neglect it. Now, I know that’s okay. I don’t have a blogging schedule and  I just love to write and share when I feel inspired. I don’t want to feel like I have to do it because otherwise it’s not that much fun. For now, blogging is just a hobby. Who knows, maybe in the future it could be my job too. We’ll see what the future brings.

I hope you all liked this blog post. What do you like about my blog? What kind of posts would you like that I write about? Do you also think internet friends are real friends? I would love to know suggestions and your opinion. I’m always happy to improve my blog and I will keep writing interesting blog posts. I hope you all are going to continue this crazy adventure called life with me πŸ’•. Thank you for your beautiful friendship and for always holding space for me. You all mean the world to me.

I love you all so much 😍😍😍,

xoxo Christina

Surf/beach playlist 🌊🎢🌴🌞

Hey lovely bloggers πŸ’•,

I have some great Summer blog posts ready for you this Summer. I already shared some.  Today I would like to share with you all a surf/beach playlist for the Summer time. I can’t wait to go to the beach again this Summer as I only went one day. I think I’m going to a surf camp at the end of August. This Saturday is the wedding of my brother so I can’t wait to relax at the beach at the end of this month. I love all of these songs so much. These songs are not in any rank. I love them all equally so much. I hope you like them too.

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  • Ed Sheeran – I see fire (Kygo remix)

I love this remix so much. I already love the original song from Ed Sheeran so much but this remix is just soooo beautiful. I remember that I found this remix just searching one day on Youtube. La belle Musique makes beautiful remixes. Whenever I listen to this song, I feel so relaxed and happy. The melody and the sound is really out of the world 😍 I saw Ed Sheeran once during a concert of Passenger where he came as a surprise to sing one song. I can’t wait to go to one of his concerts. He’s definitely one of my favourite artists ever.

  • Bob Marley – Is this love (Montmarte remix)

This is definitely one of my favourites songs ever. I listened to this song one day when I was on a surfcamp in Suances, in the north of Spain. I always listened to this song and find myself in that surfing mood. Bob Marley is just heaven on earth ❀. I love all his songs so much. This is my favourite remix of this song. It’s so beautiful and have such a relaxing sound!

  • Corona Extra: A journey by Taylor Steele – From where you’d rather be

I always listen to this song when I’m travelling. I listen to this when I’m on the airplane, bus or train. This song and also the videoclip is so beautiful. I definitely get that surf vibes πŸ„ I forget the whole world around me when I listen to this song. When I listen to this song I think of travelling the whole world and leaving everything behind me. This song gives me that feeling of freedom and wanderlust. I will never stop travelling because travelling makes you life richer.

“Take a break from this world
and we’ll feel miles away from the places that we used to be

as we lay in the sand and we stare at the sky
watch the moon dance in white as the stars light your eyes
oh my there’s no place on earth I’d rather be”

Xavier Rudd – Follow the sun

Xavier Rudd makes lovely music. This song is one of my favourites. The lyrics is beautiful and the melody and sound too. It makes me feel so peaceful. Whenever I listen to this song I feel definitely in the Summer mood. I will always follow the sun. This song is about cherishing the little moments in life 🌞

“So follow, follow the sun,
The direction of the bird,
The direction of love
Breathe, breathe in the air,
Cherish this moment,
Cherish this breath
Tomorrow is a new day for everyone,
Brand new moon, brand new sun”

Israel β€œIZ” Kamakawiwo’ole – Somewhere over the rainbow

This song is also one of my favourite songs ever. The melody, the sound and the lyrics is just perfect. I also love the singer so much. The singer died on a young age, just 38 years old because of obesitas. It’s such a sad story. I listen to this song so much and especially during Summer. It’s such a relaxing song 🌈

β€œAnd I think to myself what a wonderful world”

  • HONNE – Coastal love

I remember that I found this song on a list of Spotify of surf music. I love to find music just randomly. I love HONNE. They make so beautiful music. This song is perfect for a day on the beach. I get that surf and beach vibes 🌊

  • Crystal Fighters – Plage

Crystal Fighters is one of my favourite bands ever. It’s a band of electro, folk and indie. This is a Spanish/English band. The band’s origin is Navarra in the north of Spain and now they’re located in London. They also have a lot of concerts in Spain. I really want to go one. This song is such a great song for beach time in the Summer. It’s perfect and make me so happy. I also love the arty video clip.

  • Crystal Fighters – Love natural

I love this song of Crystal Fighters so much too πŸ’•. I heard it a lot when I went to a surf camp in Spain a few years ago. This song makes me so happy and the video is also beautiful. I get the melody of this song so fast in my mind. I love this genre of music so much.

  • The Vaccines – Wetsuit

This song means so much to me as I always listen to it when I’m going to surf. I’m still a beginner surfer but I really enjoy to be in the ocean and enjoy the waves. I can stand on the surf board but I still have to practice a lot to actually ride waves. This song is so awesome and I love the Instagram video. I saw The Vaccines once in a concert in Amsterdam, The Netherlands and it was really awesome. There was even a person who wore a wetsuit during that concert, haha so funny!

  • Drums – Let’s go surfing

This is again a song which I love to listen before I go surfing. I get that surfing vibes. The melody is upbeat and is really nice. I also find it funny that in the video you just see the guy running instead of surfing.

β€œWake up, it’s a beautiful morning honey, while the stars are still shining
Wake up, would you like to go with me
Honey, take a run down to the beach
Oh momma, I wanna go surfin”

  • Mr. Probz – Waves (Robin Schulz remix radio edit)

OMGGGG THIS SONG ASDFGHJKJL I JUST EVERYTHING 😍😍😍 I love it so much. I also especially love this remix of this song. It’s just so beautiful, relaxing and calming. I also loved the video so much because you can see the ocean and the waves. I don’t need more to feel real happiness in my heart.

  • Mandelbarth – Palmtree

This is such a great Summer song. I like the lyics and the sound. I found this song on a Youtube playlist of Mr. Revillz who has beautiful songs 🌴🌞

β€œUnder the palm trees is where we dance tonight
Back then it felt like a roller coaster ride
Oh! Under the palm trees, where I found my love”

  • DJ Antoine with James Gruntz – Song to the sea

Okay, so this is still one of my favourite songs ever. I will tell you a short story about this song. This one of my ex’s favourite songs too. It’s because of him I know this song. I always listened to this song with him. It was for me so difficult to listen to this song and not remind myself of him and our time together. I always ended up crying listening to this song. Now, I’m happy I can listen to this song again without crying and just feeling happy. I think it’s important to be able to listen to your favourite songs even though when it remind you of that person. I love the original song but this colloboration is just perfect. My ex was Swish and DJ Antoine is a Swiss house, electro DJ and producer from Basel. The lyrics is so beautiful and remind me of Summer time and how much I love to be young, wild & free βœŒ

β€œI beg you, raise your water to the feet of mine
So I can dip my toes, remember what it’s like
Just feeling free and having all the time I need
This is why I sing a song to the sea”

  • Vance Joy – Riptide

I always listened to this song on a surf camp. I love this song really so much. I also love the video because the video just relate so much to the lyrics. I also read on Youtube that the meaning of the song was that a girl was kidnapped and that the person made her sing this song but if she sang it wrong they would hurt her hence why her make up was smudged through the video. I first didn’t understand the video so I had to read the comments. I’m always late to get things hahah xD I think it’s such a deepful meaning behind this song. I’m also scared of dentists and the dark so I can really late to this song.

I hope you all liked this surf/beach playlist. Which one is your favourite song? Can you relate to my playlist? If you have any songs to add to this playlist let me know. I would love to know your thoughts and I always love to discover new music. Music is life 🎢😍

Much love ❀,

xoxo Christina

The differences between everyday anxiety and an anxiety disorder

Hey lovely bloggers πŸ’•,

Today I want to write again about a mental health topic. As you all know I suffer from an anxiety disorder. I think it’s important to write about this issue. Today I’m going to talk about the differences of every day anxiety and having an anxiety disorder. I’m not a doctor or working in the mental health sector. This is just based on my own experience of having an anxiety disorder.

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This picture is from Google. I think it definitely explains really well the differences between every day anxiety and having an anxiety disorder. It’s a good way to understand the differences. Of course, if you want to get a real diagnosis you need to go to a doctor. All my life I thought that I just nervous and that it wasn’t a real illness. However, deep in my heart I knew that my anxiety wasn’t okay. Being nervous and actually having an anxiety disorder is much more than just being having a bit of nerves. Every one experience stress or anxiety in their lives. It can be stress or feeling nerves to do an exam or to give a presentation. An anxiety disorder is much more than just being worried about every day life. An anxiety disorder is constantly worrying which don’t let you live a normal life. It seems like you can’t go on with your life because your anxiety is in the way. If you can’t seem to let your anxieties go, you may have an anxiety disorder. Anxiety is a real mental illness.

If I fear a social situation or a situation that makes me uncomfortable than I would rather run away from it and avoid it. Having an anxiety disorder makes me avoid many times situations. For example, I fear going to the dentist and and up not going but I know I have to go. This will only increase my anxiety and make it worse. Avoidance isn’t working but is caused because of my anxiety disorder. It’s really hard to go through life and wanting to avoid everything which makes me anxious. I know overcoming a fear will be worth it and eventually I would think that it wasn’t that scarry. I still avoid situation that makes me anxious. I’ve learnt to overcome some of them but I’m still in the process which is hard.

Also having panic attacks on the regular basis may be also a sign of having an anxiety disorder. Panick attacks are really the worst thing ever. I’m glad it’s such a long time ago that I had one but I still remember how awful it feels. I think it was months ago that I experienced one. I know of one panick attack that happened in my home city Valladolid, in Spain almost two years ago. I was alone in the busy shopping street and felt like crying, felt dizzy, my heart was beating fast, felt so anxious and was afraid to not get to home safe as I was afraid of falling down because of feeling so dizzy and strange. I came home crying but I was safe. I just wanted to get to home safe and sound. I remember that it took me so time to understand that just because it happened doesn’t mean it will happen again. The thing with panic attacks is that you fear to have another one and that makes it really scarry. After that happened I was afraid to walk through that street again because it reminded me of the bad time. Now, I overcame that fear and I can walk through that street normally.

I also remember another time I had a panick attack which was in August last Summer the night before my exam. It was the last exam I had to take to graduate my studies. In June I made the same exam about law and failed for 0.5 point. It made me feel so anxious and emotional. I just wanted to graduate. I was afraid I would never graduate. The night before I had to take the exam again in August I had a panick attack. I felt so anxious, naouseous, dizzy, my body shaking, feeling my heart beating fast again, feeling cold and warm at the same time and crying. I slept only a few hours and also ended up in the bed of my mother. Fortunately she was there for me. I also took a 1.5 mg of bromazepam which is a benzodiazepine that helps to beat my anxiety. It definitely calmed myself down and I could sleep a few hours before my exam. At the end, my exam went so well and I got as a mark an 8 and could graduate.

I think one of the worst things of having an anxiety disorder is just the fear that you are going to die or like you go completely crazy. I know I will not die but feeling like you breath fast and feeling dizzy make you feel that way. I always get scared when I feel that way because I fear to have another panic attack. I’m glad I didn’t have one since months ago but I still fear that. It’s a horrible thing to experience. I hope nobody who’s reading this have to experience this. If you have experience this, I hope you are feeling better right now. I’m always here for anyone who wants to talk with me. I’m not a professional doctor but I will be there for you β€οΈπŸ™

All these thoughts of thinking that like you are going to fail an exam, feeling that you are going to die or thinking that you aren’t good enough are irrational thoughts. They aren’t real. You just believe them and that will at the end make you feel bad about yourself. If you say to yourself every day that you aren’t worth it, sooner or later you are going to believe it. These thoughts turn into feelings. You are also going to feel you aren’t worth it and that will turn into actions. You are going to neglect yourself as for example not drinking enough water or not eating well. I’m learning not to believe those irrational thoughts but it’s really hard. I just hate all those thoughts and feelings I have when I feel anxiety. I know many of the situations I fear don’t cause me any danger but my mind thinks different because it’s sick.

It’s normal to feel anxious and have rational thoughts when you are in life danger such as when you have an accident. Feeling so much anxiety for example for an presentation and feel like you are going to mess up isn’t that realistic. You learned enough and just do your best. That’s really enough. It’s just your mind that makes you think all these negative thoughts about yourself which you believe. A good way to replace these irrational thoughts is with rational thoughts. Ask yourself if your thoughts are realistic or if it’s your mind that’s playing a game with you.

Also having nightmares and having constantly flashbacks about a traumatic event can be a sign of having an anxiety disorder. If something traumatic happened in your life and you just can’t seem to let it go it would be a good idea to ask for help and get professional help. I remember that I had bad dreams of being bullied again and was experiencing it again in my dream. I’m glad I could talk about it during some counselling sessions a few years ago. I realized it wasn’t my fault that I got bullied of course and that those people were just mean. I have and always have been enough. I’m glad I don’t have those bad dreams anymore.

I still take antidepressants since one year and a half. It’s just 20 mg but definitely helps. I still have to learn to live with anxiety my whole life. I also take a benzo when I feel high anxiety. I hope you all liked this blog post. I hope I explained the differences between every day anxiety and actually having an anxiety disorder well. I’m not a doctor. This is all just based on my own experience. Do you also have an anxiety disorder and can relate to it? Did you ever experience a panic attack? Do you get help? I would love to know your thoughts and opinion about it. I would also love to help anyone who feels bad or is struggling right now. I will always be here for you all ❀️

I love you all so much πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

My trip to Granada πŸ’•πŸŒžπŸŒ΄πŸŒŠπŸ„πŸ˜Ž

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

I just want to thank you all for your sweet messages on my last blog post. It feels so good to write about my feelings and thoughts whether they are positive or negative. Let everything go. This blog post will be my travel blog post about Granada where I went last week with my mother. I hope you all are going to like it. I will share what I did, pictures which I made and some food what I’ve eaten. This will be my first travel blog post as I’ve never done one before. My other blog post about Granada will be about all the nice stuff I bought in Granada: shopping haul yeahhh. This is going to be a long blog post so I warn you already.

First day – Tuesday 24th of July

The first day of my trip was a travel day. From Valladolid to Granada it’s 7 hours by bus and one hour waiting in the bus station of Madrid. It’s 610 km. so far away! Granada is a city in the south of Spain, in Andalucia. The bus trip went well. I enjoyed listening to music, scrolling on social media haha, and I watched a movie in the bus. We had our own screen to watch movies, listen to music, play games and so many more things. I watched the movie Inside Out from Disney Pixar. I really love these movies so much. It was such a beautiful movie which reminds me that in life you have to feel sadness to also enjoy happiness in life. I enjoyed eating bread with tortilla which is typical in Spain and I ate an empanada of chicken. I also took some meds to not be naouseous in the bus.

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We took the bus at 12.30 from Valladolid. At 3 o’clock we were at the bus station in Madrid. There we waited for one hour. At 4 o’clock the bus left and we were at 8.30 in the bus station in Granada. My friend Antonio was waiting there for us. He brought us by tram and bus to our hotel. The only thing what was bad in the hotel was that we had one bed for me and my mother. I did the booking on internet via Booking.com and clicked the option two single beds. I told it at the reception but they told us that they only had one room with two single beds and that is was full. It didn’t matter. I made a bed on the ground with quilt and pillows and my mother wanted to sleep there. I slept in the other bed. We slept great without any problems. We could have another bed in the room but it would be €15 each night so better not.

We arrived at 9.30 in the hotel. Afterwards, we went for dinner at 11.00 o’clock. We ate some delicious tapas in a place which I love a lot. We ate bread with chicken, salad and bread with jamon serrano and melon. We also drank grape juice which is called mosto. I was really so hungry. We also went to a pizzeria and got a slice of pizza and ate it on a bench in the city centre. Afterwards, we went to the hotel and prepared some things for the trip to the beach next day.

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Second day – Wednesday 25th of July

We woke up and got breakfast in the bar Gerado just next to our hotel. In our hotel we didn’t have a restaurant or a bar. We ate bread with jamon serrano and a mosto. Afterwards, we bought a bus card to use during this trip. We walked down the street where there were so many arabic shops with mosaic lamps, mosaic patern, hippie clothes and stuff. I love that street so much. It feels like you are in Marroco. Hippie vibes everywhere yeahhh ❀✌ Also the owners of these shops aren’t Spanish. I bought some stuff which you will see in my next blog post. It was really hot outside, like 35 degrees which make us walk slowly. We also went to a view point which is called Carvajales. Granada has so many great view points where you can see the beautiful palace La Alhambra. We made some pictures and walked down the streets.

At 4 o’clock it was time to eat. Normally, we eat a bit earlier in Spain. My mother ate a ham and cheese crepe and a tinto de verano which is wine. I drank mosto and ate a menu which consisted of gazpacho andaluz (typical cold Spanish soup), albondigas (meat balls) with vegetables and watermelon. My menu was just €12.50 and also include the drink and bread. I love eating in Spain because it’s so cheap. My mother also ate from my menu. We enjoyed eating in restaurant Las Cuevas just at the end of the street Calderia Nueva where the hippie shops are.

After finishing eating we went to the hotel to rest, take a siesta and pack our things to go to the beach. At 7 o’clock in the afternoon we left the hotel and went to the bus stop to take the bus to the station and then walked to the house of Antonio. He would bring us to the beach by car. At the bus stop we met a lovely girl from Alicanta who’s name is also Cristina without the h and is 25 years old just like me. She’s working in the mountain Sierra Nevada in Granada and is researching the water there which is really interesting. She brought us with the help of Google Maps to the house of Antonio. I got here Facebook. I love to make friends. It took us one hour by car to go to his appartment in La RΓ‘bita where the beach is. His parents were already at the beach.

As soon as we got there I wore my bikini to go to the beach. I felt bad during that moment at the beach which I told in my last blog post:Β Feeling that I’m not honest I cried and when I woke up the next day, I felt much better than before. I also got tummy pain before so I knew my period was coming soon. It was going to come on Friday. We wanted to swim in the beach but we couldn’t because there were jelly-fishes in the sea. We saw a beautiful sunset on the beach. I didn’t want to get bitten so we just enjoyed the beach at night. At 11 o’clock we went to his appartment and eat all together (Antonio, his parents and my mother). His parents made delicious salad with vegetables, potatoes and chicken and watermelon and melon. The dinner was delicious and afterwards we went to bed. I sleep every night like at 3 o’clock or 4 o’clock because it’s so hot that I can’t sleep.

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Third day – Thursday 26th of July

We woke up and got a delicious breakfast with the mother of Antonio and my mother. Antonio and his father were already at the beach. We drank tea and ate bread with strawberry mermalade and watermelon. I’m so addicted to watermelon. I love it. After breakfeast I wore my bikini from O’Neill which is my favourite bikini and the material is from surfing wetsuits. It’s for surfing too but I prefer to surf with a wetsuit. We swam in the sea and stayed on the beach from 12 o’clock till 2.30 in the afternoon. It was so great to swim in the ocean after one year not going. I only swim in the sea when it’s Summer time. I really missed it so much. I didn’t see any jelly-fishes so it was fine.

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After swimming we went to his appartment to change our clothes to go to eat in a restaurant called ELCOLAS near to the beach. Last Summer, we ate here too with his family. I loved the menu because it wasn’t that much food. Sometimes I struggle with eating so much which makes me naouseous. There was a lot of food to choose from. My first plate was gazpacho, second plate was two chicken skewers with salad and potatoes and as dessert I got again watermelon haha. It was all so delicious. We had a great time.

We went to their appartment at 4.30 in the afternoon to rest and take a siesta. This is really typical in Spain. I really enjoy that a lot because it’s also too hot outside during Summer. At 6 o’clock we got up and we went to the beach again. I love to swim in the sea at that time because the water is even warmer than before and it’s not that hot outside. I love the Mediterranean Sea so much. It’s not that cold as the Atlantic Ocean. We stayed at the beach until 8.30 in the afternoon, swam in the sea and took some awesome pictures. We packed all our stuff in their appartment and had dinner. Antonio brought my mother and I again back by car to our hotel in Granada. He went home and we went to our hotel. We stayed in because we were so tired. I also had to shower and unpack our stuff. The beach makes me always so tired. The salt water definitely cleans my soul. It was such a great and happy day at the beach. I enjoyed it a lot! πŸ˜„πŸŒŠπŸ’•βœŒπŸŒ΄πŸŒž

Fourth day – Friday 27th of July

This was the last day in Granada because on Saturday we would have just a little bit of time left before we went home. We got up and got breakfast in Bar Gerardo. My mother ate bread with mermalade and butter and I ate bread with tomato and oil. We both drank tea. It was delicious and just for €2.50 each other so both €5. After breakfast we went to our hotel to pack some stuff and walked at the centre. At 3 o’clock we went to eat again, haha Spanish time. In Spain we always eat like the big meal during that time of the day. In The Netherlands dinner at 6 o’clock is the big meal. In Granada it’s famous to order a drink like mosto, water or wine and get a free tapa. We ate at the restaurant beauty and the beast. My mother drank wine and I drank mosto and we got a free tapa which was bread with ham and potatoes. It was really so delicious. That tapa was free but we ordered also a great salad with apple, chicken, cheese and everything.

We went to our hotel after eating until 7 o’clock. It was also really hot outside to do anything and I just got my period today. When I get my period I feel grumpy, have painfully cramps and I’m so tired and so dizzy so it was important to rest in our hotel room. It made sense that I felt emotional and had cramps the days before. In Spain the shops are open from the morning till 2 o’clock. Then they close and open at 5/6 o’clock until 9/10 o’clock. I really like that. In The Netherlands they are open from the morning till 5 or 6 o’clock in the afternoon. I like to shop at night. In Spain they call it afternoon until 8 o’clock hahah πŸ˜‚. I even felt a bit asleep and my mother too. Siesta time was great.

We went to the city centre and walked again around the hippie shops and bought more stuff. We walked to the view point of San NicolΓ‘s. It was still a bit hot outside and the streets in Granada are not flat which takes a lot of energy. I liked that we could ask people and they were always friendly to help us find the way to the view point. We stayed the whole time at the mirador of San NicolΓ‘s till 9 o’clock and even saw a beautiful sunset. There were so many people so it was sometimes difficult to take a great picture. I have made some awesome pictures. From that point you can see the beautiful palace AlhambraΒ where we went last year and also the mountain Sierra Nevada which has no snow right now. It’s such a beautiful view over the city Granada.

This was my third time in Granada and the first time I already went to this view point. There were many people because they were waiting for the moon eclipse. I didn’t care that much because many times you almost don’t see anything. My friend Antonio texted me and asked where we were. I told him and we met him at the end of the street of hippie shops. We went to a great restaurant which is called Los Manueles. We ordererd water and a mosto and got a free tapa which was meat. We also ordered a salad and a french tortilla with potatoes. It was all so delicious. After dinner we ate a delicious italian ice cream. It’s a typical place in Granada to get ice cream. I had a chocolate ice cream and my mother lemon. At 12 o’clock we said goodbye to my friend and went to our hotel. We packed our stuff that night to be ready for tomorrow and went to bed.

Fifth day – Saturday 28th of July

So, this was my last day in Granada with my mother. I’m always sad when travelling trips come to end. I’m already thinking of a new trip to the beach Santander and to go to a surf camp yeahhh β€πŸ„. We got up and packed our things. We left the hotel at 12 o’clock in the morning which is always the check out time in hotels. We went to another bar which was close to our hotel. We ate a delicious breakfast. We were happy that we could leave our luggage in the hotel so that we could have time to go shopping without it. It’s much more comfortable. So, we went shopping till 2.30 in the afternoon, just less than two hours after breakfast. I wanted to go to the shop Alle-Hop and Sugar. I love those shops so much. They have a lot of awesome stuff and also stationery stuff which I love.

I’m going to share what I bought in my next blog post. I think you all will like the things I bought. We also went to a bar called Aliatar which was a bit difficult to find because everyone said another direction hahah. We bought bread with tortilla and jamon serrano (Spanish ham) for our trip back by bus to Valladolid. After shopping we went back to the hotel and they called a taxi for us because it’s much easier with all the luggage to go to the bus station of Granada. We had one hour at the station to relax and go to the bathroom. I hate to travel when I’ve my period and also the warm weather isn’t a great combination. That makes me even feel more dizzy and bad. My friend came 10 minutes before our bus was going to leave at 4 o’clock. We said goodbye and left Granada.

I’m really going to miss Andalucia. It’s such a beautiful region of Spain which has almost every day sunshine. I encourage anyone to go to Andalucia and visist Granada. There are more cities like Cordoba and Sevilla which I also want to visit in the future. All these cities have Arabic influences which is just so beautiful. I saw the movie JoyΒ with Jennifer Lawrence in the bus and really enjoyed this movie. She’s one of my favourite actresses ever. We ate in the bus and relaxed. We were at 8.30 in the bus station of Madrid and bought again some empanadas with pisto and meat and some drinks. The bus left at 9.30 and at 00.00 we were in the bus station of Valladolid. We got a taxi to go home because at that time there aren’t busses anymore. Walking isn’t that much but we were really tired. It’s sad always how fast a holiday can go. Time always pass so fast when you are having fun πŸ˜‚

Sometimes a city can make you feel so happy. Granada makes me so happy. I feel like I belong there. Like I have my roots there. This city was just made for a hippie and beach girl like me ❀ This was my third time in Granada and damn every time I go I fell even more in love with this beautiful and magical city 😍😍😍. Thank you Antonio and your family for everything. We had a great time together. I also loved the hotel Cedran. I encourage anyone who is planning to visit Granada to stay in this hotel. It was just €30 each night which is really cheap. The hotel is in the city centre which is just perfect. The room is nice, has airco and the staff is really friendly and gave some tips of what to visit and free maps of the city. My heart belongs to Andalucia forevah, viva Andalucia olΓ© ✌🌊😍 See you next Summer! β™‘β™‘β™‘

I hope this blog post wasn’t borring or way too long haha πŸ˜‚. My Granada shopping haul will be in another blog post. I also made some polaroids and maybe I’m going to share them in another post. I hope you liked this post. Do you have ever been to Granada in Spain? Do you also like cities with Arabic influences? What do you think of my pictures? I would love to know your opinion in the comment section.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

Feeling that I’m not honest & shocking news about Demi Lovato😒

Hey lovely bloggers πŸ’•,

Right now, I’m on my holiday in Granada and actually wasn’t going to plan a blog post. I’m on holidays and wanted to write after holidays and share my travel post. I will do that when I’m back. Today’s blog post is about the fact that I’m not honest with a friend.

So, everything was great yesterday as we had a big trip of 7 hours in the bus. Today we enjoyed eating great food and we saw some views and the beautiful city Granada. I even made a friend today. I will tell you about it in my next blog post. At 8 o’clock my mother and I went to my friend his house here in Granada. I already got a bit angry when I said fucking and he said don’t curse. I don’t like when someone says that I can’t do something. It’s my life you know. We are friends not lovers. My ex always said to me what I’ve to do and I hated it. He droved us to his house at the beach. Everything was allright by then I guess. 

His father and mother said that there are jelly-fish in the sea. My friend said that he got biten once. I really don’t want to experience that. We didn’t go into the sea. We only walked and were just watching the beautiful sea. I was talking about a Spanish singer which lost his cat and that cat died and then he said okay and like he wanted to end the conversation and not talk about anything bad. So I was like okay. Then we talked about something else. Then suddenly he said: “Do you still take that pills”? He meant my antidepressants of course. I didn’t want to answer and said: “Which ones”? Then he said: “Those”. I don’t know why he didn’t said the words. I said: “Yes almost silently”. I felt like crying. He said: “okay” and talked about something else. I also lied about the fact that my sleep schedule is good again. It isn’t. I said we woke up at 10 today but my mother and I woke up at 12 πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ I really sleept well last night in the hotel. I hope to get any sleep tonight but would be difficult. It’s so hot here in the room with my mother and there’s a baby from the neighbours screaming and crying 😑. I don’t want any kids lol every time I hear that. I hear the sounds of the waves, that’s making me peaceful.

You may think I’m 100% honest about suffering from anxiety, being a mental health advocate and taking antidpressants. I’m not. However, I always have been honest with this friend but I think he also don’t want to talk about negative things so I better don’t talk about it. I’m sorry I’m sometimes a negative person even though everybody thinks I’m happy all the time while I’m not. I cry a lot. Anxiety make me feel that way. I know it isn’t good to be honest. After that I felt so bad. I could feel in my heart racing and I could feel my body shaking and crying but I didn’t wanted to cry. I let some tears but I think he didn’t saw it. I turned my eyes all the time and looked to the stars.

I feel guilty for not being honest with a friend that I felt anxiety again and felt like crying. I just couldn’t. That left me feeling worse. I needed to cry so hard but I didn’t want to cry in front of him which I did a few years ago and never have a problem with that. Just sometimes I prefer to cry alone but I also cry easily in front of people. I don’t know why I couldn’t that moment. 

It makes me feel so bad that I feel this way as I’m at the beach and have to be happy. I have to be happy?! Is that even normal what I’m saying? I don’t have to be happy all the time when I can’t. It hurts me to feel this way because I’m always happy at the beach but sometimes I also cried at the beach. The sea makes me emotional and sensitive if that makes sense. Maybe, I just need to clean my thoughts and emotions with the salt water. My period is due for friday and always the days before my period I’m always so sensitive and cry about everything and just for no reason. I feel that my tummy is hurting. I really want to swim in the ocean 😒 It’s been a year. I hope I can swim tommorow in the sea and will have to be careful for the jelly-fish of course.

Then we went back to the appartment with his parents and my mother and we ate delicious dinner. Then my friend also said that I had to eat more because I ate to little. Well, I just like to eat what I want. I had enough. I get anxious when someone says that to me. Just leave me alone. Then my mother began to talk after dinner about death and stuff. Yeah, like normal talks about life. I don’t know why that’s wrong. My friend just said okay and went to his room and closed the door. It feels like he can’t talk about hard stuff. I don’t know what it’s. It’s pretty strange.

I don’t know. I just feel that I’m rambling about everything at once. I also feels this way because it hits me hard the news of Demi Lovato. This is what I wrote last night on my Instagram of @seaofwordsblog.

I got in shock when I heard the news tonight that @ddlovato took an overdose and ended in a hospital of Los Angeles 😭 The media said that they found her unconscious and treated her with Naloxone, an anti-overdose medicine, after possibly taking narcotics. This is really so sad news. The good news is that she is alert again, breathing and in a stable condition.

She struggled with addiction of drugs and alcoholism in the past. She battles with bipolar disorder and bulimia. This is often documented in her music. She have helped so many people battling with their own struggles and mental health illnesses. She helped me too with having anxiety. Her lyrics and music is so good. She’s just 25 years old like me. So young. She has a beautiful life ahead. She’s one of my favourite singers ever. I hope to go to a concert once she has recovered. Her music mean so much to me. She’s such a sweet, lovely and such a beautiful person ❀❀❀ 

I wish Demi really the best. I love the quotes from this collage which I found. This is just so true. Just because someone smiles doesn’t mean they are happy or that they aren’t struggling. Demi Lovato is a famous person and just because she is famous doesn’t have to mean that her life is all perfect. You don’t have to be strong all the time Demi. I know you are so strong but I really do hope you get the help you need. You deserve that so much πŸ’•

Your friends, family and fans will never ever leave you behind. We’re here for you. We love you. We wish that you get well soon. Take all the time you need to recover. I know it will be a hard battle but not impossible. You can do it πŸ’ͺ We are all warriors like your song says ❀

This message is for Demi and for anyone who’s struggling right now in silence. I hope you get the helo you need. Remember, you are not alone. You are loved. We are all in this together πŸ’ͺ❀ We are all lights in the universe even though it may can seem all dark. We will shine into the darkness and find that light again. We will be okay again. Trust me, we will. It will take time but we can get there. I love you all and stay safe πŸ’•

I hope that I can find the light too again. I really want to be honest with others as I’m with myself. I’m so sorry if I can’t be that today. Tomorrow will be another day. If anyone have some advice then it would be helpful. I’m sorry if this blog post got nowhere. I just needed to write this here. Writing is such a beautiful way of healing and processing emotion. I also love to sing and let everything out. I can be okay too and I hope Demi Lovato and all others who are suffering now can be okay too. I just cried in my room and my mother is sleeping and feel a bit better. When I need to cry I have to cry. Letting everything in will only make me feel worse.

Thank you all for reading this messy blog post. I hope you can all understand me. I love you all so much and thank you all for being there for me. This is my outlet for everything that I can’t say out loud but can in writing.

I love you all so much πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina 

Summer 2018 bucket list πŸŒŠπŸŒžπŸŒ΄πŸ„πŸŠπŸ‘™πŸ’•

Hey lovely bloggers πŸ’–,

In this blog post I will share my Summer 2018 bucketlist 🌞. I will share the 10 main things I want to do this Summer. I already made a list of 100 thing in my journal but I thought it would be way too much to share haha. I do that every year and then I don’t do everything on that list because it’s too much. The list isn’t in any order and is my personal list.

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  • Attend the wedding of my brother Rafael and his girlfriend VerΓ³nica

I think this is going to be one of the main events this Summer. I already have my dress for the wedding which I showed in this blog post Fuchsia dress and below. I went again to the shop a few weeks ago to make some adjustments for the dress and will get my dress back in one week. I’m looking forward to this wedding since they told it to us last Summer. I love weddings so much. The wedding is on the 11th of August. My other brother Edward married a few years ago. Now, it’s time for my other older brother Rafael who is going to marry his Spanish girlfriend VerΓ³nica. He’s going to marry with 40 years old and Veronica is 38 years old. It reminds me that it’s never too late to marry someone. Weddings are so special. My Spanish family and Dutch family are coming aswell as my niece. It’s going to be again one of the best days of my life, an unforgettable day where we celebrate the love of Rafael and VerΓ³nica with the whole family. I’m also going to my first bachelor party ever of Rafael and Veronica and their friends and some family members. We are going to bar to have dinner and fiesta time πŸŽ‰πŸ’ƒIt’s going to be fun!

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  • Go to the outdoor swimming pool at least 20 times in Valladolid

I only go 6 or 7 times in the Summer months and it’s really short for the two Summer months. The outside swimming pools are open since the end of June till the beginning of September. Sometimes I find myself lazy to go but I know that it will do me so much good. Swimming is good for relaxing and good for my mental health aswell. I love swimming so much. It’s good for my back pain, my anxiety and just everything. I always feel hungry and sleepy after swimming. It makes me feel like I’m flying in the air hahah πŸ˜‚. It’s such a good natural medicine. I also already read somewhere that the colour blue from the ocean and from the swimming pool make you feel so happy and relaxed. I already went three times to the swimming pool this Summer, so I will keep going to reach my goal of 20 of more times. Here are some pictures from these days.

  • Travel to the beach as much as I can

I want to go to the beach this Summer as much I can. I live in Valladolid which is in the main centre of Spain. The nearest beach for me is in Santander which is three hours away by train. I hope I can go to Santander after the wedding as in August or September. I love the beach so much 🌊. I always miss it and cry when I have to go home. The ocean is my home. It’s so good for your health, happiness and mindset. I’m going to Granada next week to visit a friend and we are going to the beach one or two day like we did a year ago. I can’t wait to swim in the Mediterranean Sea. Good vibes only! ✌ There the sea water is warm and not like the cold water in the north of Spain which is the Atlantic Ocean.

  • Be creative and invest time doing my favourite hobbies

I love to blog and I’m happy to keep on writing amazing content. I want to expand content and always come up with new ideas. In August my blog will turn one year old and I want to celebrate it with you all. I also love to write poetry and want to share it with you all. I also love to read and want to read more self help books and magazines which also helps to beat my anxiety. I want to keep taking pictures with my polaroid and digital camera. I want to record more singing covers because I love singing. I sang in a choir for 11 years and enjoy it a lot. Maybe, I can start a Youtube channel so that I can share it on my blog with you all. I want to continue writing in my journal and cherish memories. Being creative is just the best. I hope I can be really creative this Summer and share it with you all β€πŸ‘Œ

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  • Go stargazing and see beautiful sunsets on the beach

I love the moon, the stars, the sun and just the whole universe so much. I love to go stargazing in the Summer and especially on the beach. It’s just so beautiful to see all those bright stars in the darkness. In the Summer you can also see many shooting stars. I love to make wishes on shooting stars. I also love to watch beautiful sunsets on the beach. It always looks like the sun is going down in the sea. The colours of the sunsets are also stunning and so beautiful. It give such a sense of peace. I always take some pictures from this moment to cherish these beautiful memories. The picture on the right is from La Rabita, Granada (Mediterranean Sea) where I went last Summer and will go again this Summer.

  • Face a fear

It’s great to have this as a challenge this Summer. By facing a fear I mean something I get anxious about and which makes me uncomfortable. For me facing a fear means a lot to conquer. I love to run away from things and postpone everything I fear rather than face it because of my anxiety. I know it’s bad because this fear will grow and grow. Then it will be more and more difficult to face that fear at the end. I have to go to the dentist because I have a caries in my wisdom teeth and I’ve some problems there. I know I’ve to do it even though the dentist makes me so anxious. I also have to look for a job and I don’t like job interviews (I’ve only had one in life and they never called me back) and also don’t like calling. If I face one of these fears this Summer I would be really proud of myself πŸ’ͺ. I know I’ve to push myself a bit but it will be worth it. I hope you can all wish me luck πŸ€

  • Travel a lot

I love to travel, meet new people and be in contact with people from other cultures. It really expands your mind. Travelling makes me so happy. I want to travel at least 2 or 3 times this Summer. I’m going to Granada (Andalucia, which is in the south of Spain and take 7 hours by bus from Valladolid – 600 km!) next Tuesday the 24th till the Saturday 28th with my mother. I’m going to visit my friend Antonio and his family. I met him on my way to New York City three years ago when I won the Many Languages, One World Essay Contest. It was in the Summer of 2015. Soon, I’m going to make a blog post about this one day. I’ve already been twice to Granada and loved it so much. We are also going to the beach of La RΓ‘bita. Going to Granada feels like a tradition because I go every Summer. My mother and I booked a hotel in the city centre which is perfect to enjoy eating tapas, shopping, visisiting the city and the beautiful Alhambra. You will see a blog post about this travel trip soon. I also want to go to a surf camp this Summer in the north of Spain and go a few days to enjoy the beach in Santander with my friend Maria in August or September. The picture below with “life is for…” is a picture I made during a holiday in Mallorca a few years ago. The picture below with my favourite beach towel was made last Summer in La Rabita, Granada.

  • Go to concerts/festivals

I love going to concerts so much, especially in the Summer because they’re almost every time outside. I also love to go to festivals and went one time in The Netherlands to Surfana festival with my best friend where there was beautiful live music, great food and awesome things to do such as surfing, doing yoga, wine tasting and other creative activities. Going to concerts and enjoying your favourite artist is just the best. Music is life and definitely increase my happiness 🎢. I already went to the concert of Sofia Ellar which took place last month. I also am going to enjoy the fiestas week in Valladolid in the beginning of September with my mother and friends. There are going to be many awesome concerts in the main square of the city centre. This is going to be the third time that I’m going to enjoy this beautiful week.

  • Go surfing after two years

The last time I went surfing was during Surfana festival two years ago in the Summer of 2016. I really miss surfing so much. Last Summer, I said that I was going to a surf camp and at the end I didn’t go. I also had to study during that Summer time which was the worst thing ever. I went twice to a surf camp here in Spain. It was so awesome. I want to go this Summer again to a surf camp, meet new people and enjoy surfing. Surfing makes you feel so free, happy and peaceful. I have my own wetsuit but I’ve to wear it and look if I still fit in it. I’m a beginner and still can’t surf waves but I’m learning it. Surfing is just da best πŸŒŠπŸ„βœŒThe ocean is where I’m the most happy. I enjoy every single moment and forget the whole world around me. I respect the ocean and sometimes I get scared because it feels infinite and is so deep. The ocean is everything I want to be. Beautiful, mysterious, wild and free. The picture below is from the Summer of 2015 where I went to Art Surf Camp in Galicia, in Spain.

  • Be happy and enjoy Summer to the fullest

Maybe, this can sound cliche but it’s really important for me to just enjoy Summer and be happy.Β Last Summer, I enjoyed Summer but was feeling many times worried and anxious because I didn’t pass my last exam of law from my studies in order to graduate. I had to do this exam again at the end of August. I remember times that I went to the swimming pool and when I came back home I was tired and had to study during the night. It was really exhausting for me. This Summer, I’m free and I just want to be happy and enjoy everything what Summer has to offer. Feeling bad in Summer makes me feel even worse because Summer is the time that life feels lighter and I also feel so much happier in Summer. I’m a Summer girl right πŸ˜ŽπŸ˜„πŸŒž Go away winter. I wish it could be Summer forever but then maybe you don’t enjoy it as much as I do now. That feeling of longing for Summer I’ve all year long is so great when it’s finally Summer and you can enjoy it. The sunshine is makes me feel so happy.

 

I love the pictures I shared in this blog post. I searched these pictures on Google and Tumblr. I hope you like them too. Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope you all like this blog post. What are your Summer plans? Do you also have a Summer bucketlist? Do you also love the beach as much as I do? Do you like my list and can you relate to it? I would love to know it in the comment section. I will speak to you all in my next blog post. I hope you all enjoy Summer. Happy Summer to you all! 🌞✌

Love you all so much πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

Concerts, a funny moment meeting your favourite artist and bonfires of Saint John πŸŽΆπŸ”₯

Hey lovely bloggers πŸ’•,

I already wanted to make a blog post about two amazing concerts I went to last month. This blog post is going to be about those two amazing concerts I went to. I don’t think anyone will relate to these two artists: Pablo Alboran and Sofia Ellar because they are Spanish. However, I love to share my music taste and soon I will also post a beach/Summer play list. I also am going to talk about the night of Saint John which is a typical feast in Spain. I hope you are going to enjoy this blog post.

I already bought the concert tickets of Pablo Alboran in Febraury because he’s a popular singer in Spain. I went to his concert on the second of June, just one day after my birthday. It was the best birthday present from myself haha and for my mother. I wanted to go with a friend but she couldn’t go so I went with my mother. Pablo Alboran is on a tour to promote his new album “Prometo” My mother is now in love with him too haha. Damn, I felt I was walking on the moon or Saturn as one of his songs says during his concert. This concert is going to be in my list of best concerts I’ve ever went to like omg asdghjkl I love you so much Pablo 😍 I wanna marry you. He’s 29 years old and comes from Malaga. He’s very handsome, cute and his voice is just so beautiful that it makes me feel in love. I’m a fan for so many years and I love all his songs so much. I bought the concerts tickets in February just when they began to sell them. Finally, I saw him live which is just a dream that came true. This was my best birthday present.

I will show you some of his songs from Youtube. I hope you like his voice as much as I do. Music doesn’t have any barriers. Even if you don’t know the language, the sound and the voice can make you feel something. I love going to concerts in Valladolid, my home city. This place was just 15 minutes away from my house. I could walk to it. There were thousands of people but I had enough space to dance and sing. I really like that. The concert was also outside which I enjoy more than inside concerts. It wasn’t even cold at all. It was around 20 degrees yeahhh. I get that festival vibe ✌

Pablo Alboran – Saturno (From his new album Prometo, I love this song so much)

Pablo Alboran – Te he echado de menos (From older albums and one of my favourite songs ❀)

His songs are so beautiful and really thouch my heart and soul. They are about life and love. The lyrics is just so beautiful which I can’t even describe with words. He’s honest, sensitive, caring and I appreciate him so much. Hopefully, one day I can get a picture with him and talk to him. That would be a dream. Thank you for an unforgettable night. I also bought a sticker and bracelet to have a memory of the concert. I danced, I sang and I felt so alive. I live for concerts because music makes me feel so alive which is the best feeling ever. I can’t wait to see you again!! I love you so SO much πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•

I also went to the concert of Sofia Ellar on the 22th of June with my lovely friend Maria. She was born in London and has the Spanish nationality. She launched her music career in Spain. She’s almost my age. She’s just 24 years and launched her career a few years ago just on her own. She became famous through Instagram and Youtube. It was such an amazing concert omgggg asdfghjkl. You know that moment in a concert where you are just so happy living in the moment and forget the whole world?! I had that all the time. She sang songs from her new album named Nota en do such as Nota en do, Mundos…? and Ana and older songs such as Verano con lima, Amor de anticuario and Rock’n’roll de chiquillos. I will you share some of my favourite songs below.

Sofia Ellar – Amor de anticuario (My favourite song ever πŸ’•πŸŽΆ)

Sofia Ellar – Mundos…? (From her new album Nota en do, I love this song so much)

Sofia Ellar – A Spanish little place (From her new album Nota en Do, she sings English this time which I also love)

First Rosco, a singer who also was playing in her band was playing a song from his album and then he sang the song La Llamada from that awesome movie which I still have to watch. I loved his voice. Then the concert of Sofia began. I love her and her band. She’s just so amazing. I love her voice, her songs and her music is just so beautiful. She write beautiful songs and can play so good guitar. She creates such a good ambiance. An artist have to make me feel something and she definitely does that. I loved the stories she told. She’s just so real, authentic, honest and a hippie girl like me πŸ’•βœŒ She had two big dreamcatchers on stage. One moment she even came to dance and sing with all of us downstairs.

This was the moment she came downstairs and danced and sang with us:

Soy esa niΓ±a cansada de oficinas que se busca la vida cantando esta canciΓ³n πŸŽΆπŸ’• . Regram from @cristinadcampo. This was the best moment of the concert of @sofiaellar last friday. I never been to a concert where the artist just come downstairs and dance and sing with us. It was so beautiful and omggg I get emotional every time I see this video and remember this moment. This song is called Amor de anticuario and I love this song so much. It's one of my favourites. She sings I'm that girl who is tired of offices and who lives her life singing this song 🎢❀ . It just reminds me that Sofia Ellar is so real, beautiful and so sweet πŸ’• She always says we are her family and yesss we are! It's so important when an artist is on the same line as us 😍 She also took her shoes off one moment and sang barefoot. I find that so awesome! Such a hippie girl ✌️ Love you so much xoxo ❀️❀️❀️

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This was the best moment of the concert. I never been to a concert where the artist just come downstairs and dance and sing with us. It was so beautiful and omggg I get emotional every time I see this video and remember this moment. This song is called Amor de anticuario and I love this song so much. It’s one of my favourites. She sings I’m that girl who is tired of offices and who lives her life singing this song. It just reminds me that Sofia Ellar is so real, beautiful and so sweet. She always says we are her family and yesss we are! It’s so important when an artist is on the same line as us. She also took her shoes off one moment and sang barefoot. I find that so awesome! I love you so much xoxo ❀️❀️❀

I was also so happy to meet her afterwards with my friend and I got a picture with her. She also liked my posts on Instagram or send hearts and she said I love you too through a private message on Instagram. Meeting and getting a picture with your favourite artist is awesome. It always happens when I’m going to concerts which take place in little places. I’m going to tell you now a funny story that happened that night. It was so great to meet Sofia. We had to wait for like a half hour after the concert ended. The security man said in an angry tone that we could enter the room of her but only two at a time. So, me and my friend entered and I said Sofiaaaa and we gave her a hug. She was so sweet. I had a black bag and when I wanted to get in the position to make this picture, my bag was in the way and let all the beer bottles and alcohol falling down on the ground and in Sofia’s bag. I hoped nothing was wet. I said that I’m so sorry and she said that it didn’t matter and she smiled.

Hahah, this only happens when I’m in the room lol πŸ˜‚. The man who was taking a picture said look what the one in the green did. We took a picture and Sofia said that they had to go soon so that’s why we had to do it quick. I would have loved to talk longer. It felt like we were her friends. I love that she’s so close to her fans. I can’t wait to go again to a concert of her. I will never ever forget this amazing concert. Thank you for everything πŸ˜„ You are da best! I wish her good luck with the rest of the concerts.

I shared this story on Instagram and then she liked my post and wrote: πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚you two were so sweet !! Nothing went wrong. Just smile!! I felt so happy when she wrote that and I wrote her back and said: Aaaah thank you so much Sofia 😍😘It was funny hahah. I love you ❀ You can see it here below:

Meeting and getting a picture with your favourite artist is awesome πŸ’• It was so great to meet @sofiaellar It was really a funny moment. We had to wait for like a half hour after the concert ended. The security man said in an angry tone that we could enter the room of her but only two at a time. So, me and @22meri entered and I said Sofiaaaa and we gave her a hug. She was so sweet. I had a black bag and when I wanted to get in the position to make this picture but then all the beer bottles and alcohol felt down on the ground and in Sofia's bag πŸ˜‚. I hope nothing went wet. I said that I'm so sorry and she said that it didn't matter and smiled. Hahah, this only happens when I'm in the room lol. The man who was taking a picture said look what the one in the green did πŸ˜‚ We took a picture and Sofia said that they had to go soon so that's why we had to do it quick. I would have loved to talk longer. It felt like we were her friends. I love that she's so close to her fans. I can't wait to go again to a concert of her 😍 She's so sweet, hippie girl and sings so beautiful. Thank you for everything ❀️ Love you xoxo Muchas gracias Sofia por esta noche que nunca olvidarΓ©. Me encantΓ³ conocerte y darte un abrazo aunque tiro todo el alcohol al suelo πŸ˜‚ Jajaja y el hombre que nos hizo la foto dijΓ³ la de la verde la acaba de liar. Eres encantadora, una luz y tengo muchas ganas de volver a un concierto tuyo πŸ˜πŸŽΆπŸ’•βœŒοΈ Te quiero 😘

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During the concert I also bought some beautiful earrings of feather which I already wanted to buy since a long time. I love them so much. They were a bit expensive €8 but so worth it. She always wear these earrings of feather in her hair.️ I loved the merchandising and wanted to buy everything hahah. I’m a hippie girl forevah. Hippie vibes always ✌

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So these were my stories about the two concerts I went to in June. Now, I’m going to tell you shortly about the night of San Juan which took place on the 23th of June. That night we celebrated San Juan also called the bonfires of Saint John. Spain is celebrating this night in all cities and especially on the beaches. Here in Valladolid we celebrated it by the river Pisuerga where there’s like a beach with sand. It’s not a real beach hahah a fake one but it’s great. It’s really a magical night & it’s also the shortest night. It’s typical to have bonfires. There were bonfires and a big one, and you could throw some wishes that you want to come true. You could also write a note with all negative things which you want to burn. I did this and it felt so goooood. I also enjoyed the music. It was a great night with my friend. I went with Maria Martin, and other people which I didn’t know.

I hope you all enjoyed this blog post. Do you also love to go to concerts as much as I do? Did you like these songs which I posted? Did you also had a funny moment like me when you met your favourite artist? Have you heard of Saint John before and do you celebrate it? I would love to know.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

Summer OOTD & roses πŸŒΉπŸ’

Hey lovely bloggers πŸ’•,

Today I would like to share my first OOTD. I never did this before so I want to begin with it and share an OOTD. I thought it would be fun to introduce a new topic on my blog. I’m going to share a Summer OOTD. I’m also going to share some pictures with roses which I took with my mother today. I hope you are all going to like it.

Here’s my Summer OOTD:

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Dress: Easy Wear (El Corte InglΓ©s)

I bought this dress just a week ago in the shop El Corte InglΓ©s. This is a famous shop in Spain which have everything. This dress looks like another green dress I have. I really love these kind of dresses. I also love the colour red. It was only €10 because it was in sales. Otherwise, it would have been €6 more.

Necklace: Hand of Fatima

I bought this necklace once in a traditional market here in Valladolid. It’s handmade. It was around €8. I love this necklace so much. The Hand of Fatima is also called the Hamsa. It’s an amulet that helps banish evil or any negative energy. It brings happiness, luck and good fortune to its owners. I hope I will get lucky.

Mascara/red lipstick: Kiko

I love make up from Kiko. It’s my favourite brand for make up. It’s cheap and has great quality. I got this mascara and red lipstick from it. I don’t know the exact prices anymore. The mascara was around €5 and the lipstick €4.

Today I went to a park near to my house in Valladolid which is called Las Moreras.Β  I really enjoyed walking with my mother and enjoy nature so much in Summer. Summer is a bit strange this year. In The Netherlands, I heard it’s really dry and doesn’t rain. This is strange because it rains a lot there hahaha. In Spain, we have 30 degrees but normally it’s already 35 in my home city Valladolid. When we did the walk today I felt a bit of a cold wind. A few days ago it even rained and there was a storm. So, it’s a strange Summer but I hope I can go to the swimming pool this week and travel to the beach soon.

Today I went to a park near to my house in Valladolid which is called Las Moreras. I really enjoyed walking with my mother and enjoy nature so much in Summer. Summer is a bit strange this year. In The Netherlands, I heard it’s really dry and doesn’t rain. This is strange because it rains a lot there hahaha. In Spain, we have 30 degrees but normally it’s already 35 in my home city Valladolid. When we did the walk today I felt a bit of a cold wind. A few days ago it even rained and there was a storm. So, it’s a strange Summer but I hope I can go to the swimming pool this week and travel to the beach soon.

Today I also walked in the park of La Rosaleda that means in Spanish, garden full of roses. It was really beautiful to see all these beautiful red, pink, white roses. I really love flowers so much and especially the roses πŸ’πŸŒΉ Flowers make me so happy. We took some pictures and enjoyed the view.

Thank you all for reading this post. I hope you all enjoyed this post. What do you think about my OOTD? How’s Summer time in your country? Did you like my pictures? Do also like roses as much as I do? I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina

10 things you need to bring to the beach πŸŒžπŸŒŠπŸ„πŸŒ΄πŸ‘™

Hey lovelies πŸ’•,

I want to thank you all for your lovely comments on my last blog post and on my Instagram @seaofwordsblog. I’m so happy to have this blogging and mental health community on Instagram that’s always there for me when I feel great and when I feel bad. It means the world to me. I will also always be there for you all. Friends forever ❀ I wish to meet you all one day. Today I want to talk about 10 things you need to bring to the beach. Happy Summer time to you all! 🌞 I can’t wait to go to the beach. I’m longing for that so much. I’m a mermaid and the ocean is my home.

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1. Sunscreen lotion

This is just the most important thing to bring to the beach. Nowadays, there’s are many people which have skin cancer. It’s so important to use sunscreen lotion and also a high factor. This is especially important for people who burn easily. I can get a tan but not so easily. I almost never get burned easily. Sometimes it happens and it hurt a lot. I use factor 30 or even factor 50 from Nivea. It’s important to use suncreen a lot during the day at the beach. After swimming in the ocean you have to use suncreen again. And after a day at the beach I always use aftersun with Aloe Vera. This is just so refreshing and good for your skin.

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2. Bikini/swimsuit

I always love to use a bikini during a day at the beach. I don’t have swimsuits. I had one when I was doing swimming competitions when I was younger. Now, swimsuits are in again and I really would like to buy one too. I have a nice bikini from the surfbrand Roxy which I bought on sale, it was like €25. My favourite bikini is from the surfbrand O’Neill and it’s also a special material. It’s the material of surfing wetsuits. I love this bikni so much. The combination of the colour pink/orange is so beautiful. I got it for my birthday a few years ago and it was about €80. It wasn’t on sale. I never buy such expensive bikinis but it’s great to get it as a present hahah πŸ˜‚ Do you prefer a bikini or a swimsuit? πŸ‘™

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3. Hat

To protect yourself from the sunshine a hat is important to use. I love to use mine which I bought in Mallorca, in Spain. When I feel that my head is going to be too hot I can feel dizzy and bad because of the sunshine. A hat is the best thing to wear. I took these pictures below a few years ago in Mallorca during Summer with my friends. It’s my favourite island ever yeahhh good vibes! πŸŒŠβœŒ

4. Sunglasses

Fortunately, I never needed glasses but I use sunglasses. Those are without prescription but for the ones who use glasses I think you can have sunglasses with prescription. Using sunglasses is just so important to protect your eyes from the sunshine. It also looks great and fashionable. I use one which I got from a friend with aztec print

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5. Beach towel

Of course, bringing a beach towel is really important to lay down on it on the sand. My favourite towels are one which is just like a normal towel with a Summer theme. My other favourite beach towel is a round one which you often don’t see on the beach. I bought this one from Etsy from the brand Beach Lulu and it was like €50 euros in total. It came all the way from America and I had to pay the shipping which was expensive. It was so worth it because I love it so much. It has beautiful colours and a drawing of a sun, yeahhh hippie vibes ❀ Do you also have a round beach towel? Do you like mine?

6. Flipflops

I love wearing flipflops at the beach. I have one pair of Roxy and another pair of O’Neill. These two are getting a bit old and you can’t even see all the print anymore. That was the reason that I bought a new one in the shop Carrefour. I bought such an amazing pair of flipflops. I loved the Summer theme. I definitely need vitamin sea 😍 There were just €3 so cheap!!! If I’m not wearing flipflops, I’m walking barefoot at the beach πŸ˜„ That’s just the best.

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7. Books/magazines

If you like to read it’s really great to bring a book or a magazine to the beach. I love to read at the beach whether it’s a novel or a magazine. One of my favourite magazine is the dutch magazine about psychology. It definitely helps me a lot with dealing with my anxiety. You can read amazing tips on how to care about yourself and your mental health. Reading at the beach and hearing the waves is just so relaxing πŸ‘Œ

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8. Ipod/mobile phone to listen to music

I don’t like to use so much my mobile phone on the beach because I want to be happy and enjoy the moment. I like to use my old iPod Touch or Spotify on my mobile phone to listen to music. I love to listen to music because it’s so relaxing and always make me happy. I will soon share a beach play list for this Summer 🎢

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9. Camera/Polaroid

I love to take great pictures at the beach. Sometimes I use my mobile phone to take pictures but I prefer to take pictures with my digital camera or polaroid instax mini camera πŸ“· It’s great to have some memories of that day at the beach.

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10. Hair brush

I love beach hair so much. I love to bring a hair brush at the beach and brush my hair a few times at the beach. If I don’t do it I have tangles in my hair which hurts. It’s really great to brush your hair a few times at the beach and especially when you went swimming or surfing. I bought a great hair brush in the shop Carrefour for €2.

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Thank you all for reading. I hope you all liked this list of 10 things that you need to bring at the beach. Of course, this list is personal and can be different for any of you. Could you relate to this list? Would you add something to my list to bring to the beach? Do you love the beach as much as I do? 🌊😍❀ I would love to know your opinion.

Much love ❀,

xoxo Christina

It’s okay to not be okay πŸŒΉ

Hey lovely bloggers πŸ’•,

I wanted to write a blog post with a Summer theme or other happy blog post that I was thinking about but today I just can’t. If I did that I wouldn’t be real on this blog. I always want to be real, honest and authentic. I also don’t like to spread negative vibes here but it always feel good to just write about your feelings and thoughts that you bother with. Journalling is so good for your mental health. I love to write because after I write in my journal or on my blog I feel much better. Writing is a beautiful form of healing. This is my safe space to always be able to share what I’m feeling or thinking at the moment. I wrote this last night and shared it on my Instagram of @seaofwordsblog.

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I just don’t feel okay right now. I love this poem from @rmdrk πŸ’• Robert M Drake is one of my favourite poetry writers. I have been crying all night. I think too much about everything, feel stressed which makes my mind go crazy and result in crying. I also find it hard to sleep lately because it’s so hot. What makes me crying is because my parents just don’t understand me. I’m now with my mother here in Spain and my father is in The Netherlands. My father asked in an email to my mother when would be a good time to return to the Netherlands and now he just booked a flight at the end of September. I got angry and cried at my mother because I just don’t wanna go back. I know one day I have to go to get all my stuff because maybe my parents are going to move to Spain. We have one house in The Netherlands and an appartment in Spain. I don’t like that my parents push me to do things I don’t want. I’m 25 years old, not a baby anymore…. You just can’t force me.

I just don’t wanna go back to The Netherlands. I want to look for a job here in Spain. I always prefered Spain over the Netherlands. I love the culture, the delicious food tapas and the lovely people. Spain is just so beautiful 😍My anxiety is getting in my way to look for a job but maybe I just have to jump outside of my comfortzone. I would love to find a job here in Valladolid but for many public jobs you have to take an exam and study for it. I would love to just apply for a job without doing that exam. Maybe, I have to go to Madrid or Barcelona but I don’t know many people there and I’m a bit afraid to be alone in a city. I like to be with my family too. I know they will be there for me too so it’s a bit a contrast. These are all thoughts that keep me up at night. I already wrote about this a few months ago Bad feelings & thoughts 😒. I really don’t like that my parents push me. I said to my mother that I’m not going back and will look for a job. Of course, I like to see my family and friends in The Netherlands and there will also be a party for my brother Rafael and Veronica’s wedding. I just don’t know what to do right now. I don’t want any fights but I also think that this is my life. The only one who is going to live it, it’s me. I just don’t like to be pressured. It makes me anxious and sad. Sometimes life can be though but we always have to remember to turn the light on. I think I’m also feeling bad because of my period and having cramps. Thank god I take Aleve Feminax naproxen for the cramps. This helps me soooo much. Magic pills πŸ˜‚πŸ’Š .

I also have a lot of back pain lately. I think that’s because everytime I feel tense all the bad energy goes there. I really wanna take some yoga lessons this Summer. That will help me so much. I can’t wait to go swimming outside in the pools here in Spain. I enjoy that so much. I would love to be in the water all the time because that’s the only thing which calms me 100%. I’m a mermaid πŸŠπŸŒŠπŸ„πŸŒž I can’t wait to go surfing and to go to the ocean too. The ocean is my home. Hopefully, I will live one day near to the beach. I can only dream of waking up and seeing and hearing the waves 😍

This is just a reminder for all of you that’s okay to not be okay. Sometimes you have to let all your emotions out. It isn’t good to bottle everything up. I do that so many times and then when I begin to cry about one thing, I end up crying about everything. Your feelings are valid. There are still so many amazing things to experience in life. We all have to take it day by day especially those who suffer from a mental illness like me with anxiety. Looking too much in the future will only increase my fear. Taking it day by day is much better. Remember, we’re all in this together ❀πŸ’ͺ You are not alone. You are loved. You are worth it. This life is sometimes really hard, though and a complete mess but also beautiful. Take care of yourselves. I hope I can sleep right now. Crying makes me always so tired.

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Today, I feel a bit better. I slept really well and enough. I just have to do what feels good to me. If I find a job before September then I can stay in Spain. Maybe, my parents wouldn’t say nothing then. I could pay the flight if I’m not going back. Do you also relate to my words? Do you also feel pressured sometimes by your family or other people? I appreciate any advice because it will sure will help me a lot.

I love you all so much πŸ’•,

xoxo Christina