Happy two year blogging anniversary! ๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŒปโœŒ๏ธ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŽˆ๐ŸŽ‚

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

Today I want to talk about something really important which is about this special day. Today my blog turned two years old! ๐ŸŽ‰ I’m so happy about it and also feel very proud of this accomplishment. To be honest I always get easily bored and also quit easily when things get hard. I’m happy that I sticked around and never gave up on blogging because it makes me so happy. I wouldn’t know where I would be without my blog. I can’t believe how fast time is going by. They always say time flies when you are having fun and that’s definitely true. I will share you in this post some of the reasons why I started blogging, some words about my appreciation for you all and some funny statistics like I did last year in this blog post ๐Ÿ’•.

Yeahhh the official announcement! ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŽ‰
The collage I made for all of you! ๐Ÿ˜

I’m just so happy that I kept blogging and never stopped. I used to blog more but now I prefer to post 4 or 5 times a month. I don’t have another blogging schedule. I prefer to post just when I have inspiration and want to. I never want to turn my blog in something that I have to do. I do it because it’s fun and I love it. Blogging makes me so happy. I love to interact with you all. I never knew that I would meet so many amazing and beautiful people like you all are ๐Ÿ˜ You all mean the world to me. I really wouldn’t know what I would do without you all.

I also always felt the need to write ๐Ÿ“ . I have loved writing since I have been little. I used to write in a diary when I was younger. I still have so many journals and notebooks at home but I don’t use it that much. I only write there sometimes some poems or use it as scrapbook. I want to use it more or make a bullet journal. I always say that I’m going to that and at the end nothing happens ๐Ÿ˜‚. I find blogging easier to do so whenever I have some thoughts or emotions I want to let go of. I always use my blog for that.

I never knew that my blog would grow so much and would attract so many people. I love to write about mental health, self love, feminism, travel trips, photography, poetry and books. I love to not have a niche as I love to write about a lot of things. This year I wrote some book related posts such as hauls and reviews. I also love that I share almost every month a music post about the music I loved that month or new music which came out ๐ŸŽถ. I love to discover new music too. I would love to share more singing covers as I love to sing and I would love to share that more with you all ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŽค. I also thought of making a YouTube channel but I still don’t know if I will ever make that happen. If anyone has any ideas of posts you want to see on my blog, please let me know.

I’m just so grateful to have you all in my life ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ™ . I like that my blog is growing and that I get more followers but what’s more important than all the numbers are all the friendships I’ve made through blogging. You guys are da best and mean the most to me. I love my real life friends, pen pals and the friends I made through blogging. This community is just so powerful and so beautiful โœจ. Everytime I feel my life is turning upside down and I feel like the clouds are crying with me I turn to my blog and I begin to write about everything what’s on my mind no matter how dark or heavy it’s.

You are always there for me and listen to me. I appreciate that so much. I love your advice but what I love the most is just to know that I’m not alone in my struggles and that theres’s someone who understands me and cares about me even when we never have met. I truly believe that online friends are real friends too. I can’t wait to meet you all one day. We will ALWAYS be friends โค๏ธ๐ŸŒน. I don’t say that just to say something nice. I really mean it.

I keep saying that nowadays we live in such a fake world where we are told to hide our feelings and not be vulnerable. We are told not to share our struggles because it’s better to not fall apart. Well, sometimes it’s good to fall apart and to cry. We have to let everything go. For me, singing and writing is a beautiful form of letting my thoughts go. It’s a way of healing. We all have our own ways of how to go through life. I think it’s important to have that because otherwise we hold everything in ourselves which at the end is much worse. We can’t have all our thoughts in our mind because at the end we will explode. We have to let it out in any form which works for you.

I also would like to share now some nice statistics of this blogging year. I hope you find them interesting too haha ๐Ÿ˜‚ . I have so many more views and visitors compared to last year so I’m really happy about that.

Some blogging statistics:

Followers: 379 (Last year I had 212, so I gain 167 followers yeahhh!)

Blog posts: 158

Visitors: 5239

Views: 9742 (Almost 10.000 wow!)

Best day: April the 7th, the day I got the most views

Day most popular: Friday, yeahhh weekend vibes! (19%)

Hour most popular: 9:00 PM (7%)

Some of my blog posts wich are the most popular and got the most views were:

The differences between everyday anxiety and an anxiety disorder (65 views)

Today it’s my 26th birthday forever young yeahhh (66 views)

April favourites (73 views)

Loving you is a loosing game (86 views)

Do you think it’s possible that some people are born to give more love than they will ever get back in return (534 views, this post is from September 2017 and still get so many views which I’m very proud of)

Top 10 countries that have visited my blog:

I find this such an amazing thing to look at when I look at the statistics. So many people from all over the world visit my blog ๐ŸŒ. It’s crazy! I think it’s amazing. Sometimes I also see countries which I don’t know such as Swaziland, Lesotho or The European Union lol that’s not a country. I exactly know which bloggers friends visit my blog when I look at the stats haha. Thank you all so much! ๐Ÿ’•

1. United States (1682 views)

2. United Kingdom (792 views)

3. Netherlands (597 views including me when I’m there haha)

4. India (431 views)

5. Canada (294 views)

6. Spain (288 views including me)

7. Australia (218 views)

8. South Africa (151 views)

9. Ireland (144 views)

10. Philippines (86 views)

Thank you all so much for following my blog and for giving me so much love with all the comments and likes you give me. I’m thankful for all the lessons I learned this year. I still don’t know if I ever am going to earn money with blogging. What was funny one day when I was at home in Holland with my family was that my father said how you could earn money while blogging. He said that it must be something for me as he knows I love to write. I never told him as I don’t want everyone to know about my blog. I just love this safe space where I can share freely without being afraid of judgment. I love that like almost everyone on here are people who I don’t know in real life. I would love to meet you all but I just love that I can be 100% myself and be honest without thinking oh no that person knows me from this, I can’t say that. This is my blog without any filters. It’s just the truth.

However, maybe in the future I would love to upgrade my account to premium or even business to have more space and to design my blog better. First, I need money for that. I just will keep blogging my whole life. Sometimes I will blog more and sometimes less. I will always stick to be myself. I never want to impress people. I just want to help others in need and heal myself too while writing. Everyone here is welcome no matter what your religion, sexuality, race or nationality is. We are all one. We are all human. I hope you will all follow this adventure called life with the ups and the downs with me. I love you all with my whole heart โ™ฅ.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. What do you love about my blog? What kind of changes or topics would you love to see on my blog? Do you also think that writing can heal our hearts? Do you also think that internet friends can be real friends too? Do you think we will ever meet in person? I would love to know your thoughts on this. I will keep writing from the heart. Always. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

I love you all so much, to infinity and beyond, to the moon and back ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŒœ๐ŸŒ›๐ŸŒŸโœจ,

xoxo Christina

July favourites ๐ŸŒž๐ŸŠ๐Ÿ’—

Hola lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

It’s again time for my favourites post! ๐Ÿ˜ I can’t wait to share with you all the amazing things I did in July. It was a great Summer month and I wish to continue to enjoy Summer like I do. I wish Summer would never end as it always makes me so happy. I don’t enjoy heatwaves but I love the sunshine. I’m going to talk about my July favourites which includes eating delicious tapas and other food with my friends and family, going to the cinema after two years not going because of anxiety, my trip to Granada (will maybe make a travel blog post about the trip as well), swimming in the Mediterranean Sea, swimming in the pools here in Valladolid and much more amazing things.

Things I did with my family ๐Ÿ‘ช :

Going to the swimming pool ๐ŸŠ๐ŸŒž

I went 8 times to the swimming pool with my friend and mother. I want to go more times in August. With my friend I went the first time to the outdoor swimming pool as it was raining that day. The rest of the days I went with my friend and my mother to the outdoor swimming pool. There are a lot of outdoor swimming pools here so it’s nice to enjoy that during the hot Summer days because there’s no beach here. I swam a lot and was also reading at the swimming pool the book Everything, Everything and a Dutch psychology magazine. I also enjoyed some delicious ice creams. Swimming is so relaxing and so good for our health. Swimming all Summer long yeahhh!!! ๐Ÿ˜

Wedding pictures ๐Ÿ’’๐Ÿ‘ฐ ๐Ÿคต๐Ÿ’ ๐Ÿ’–

I finally got the pictures of my brother’s wedding from last Summer. My other brother Edward together with his wife Elke (they have a company of wedding photography) made these pictures of the wedding of Rafael and Verรณnica. They had to sort everything out so I finally got them and download them all. Maybe, I will do a seperate blog post about them because I want to share them all together. I will post a few of them below so that you can all have a preview. These pictures are so gorgeous and beautiful ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ‘Œ. It brings me back only good vibes of this unforgettable day.

Granada trip with my mother ๐Ÿ’—๐ŸŒž

I just came back from Granda which is 610 km. from Valladolid and like 7 hours by bus. I love Andalucia, the south of Spain so much. My mother and I went to visit a friend of me and his family who I met during the Many Languages, One World Essay Contest in New York City in 2015. Granada is one of my favourites cities in Spain and of the whole world ๐Ÿ˜. It gives me those hippie vibes. You see people dancing, singing and playing the guitar everywhere. The people are so friendly everywhere. The tapas are so delicious. We ate a lot of them. You just have to order a drink and then you will get a free tapa which is amazing. It’s only in Granada where that happens. It’s also very hot during the day but we chilled in our 4 stars โœจ hotel.

We enjoyed the swimming pool and jacuzzi on the terrace of the hotel. I bought some nice souvenirs and stuff in Alle Hop which is an amazing shop and other hippie shops. We also ate delicious Italian ice creams, a delicious pizza together with a glass of sangria on the terrace of our hotel. You could see the whole city. It was such a beautiful view. The only bad thing of the trip was that I lost my squeeze animal. I got anxious and cried ๐Ÿ˜ข. It just meant a lot to me because my best friend gave it for my birthday. I didn’t actually lost it but it was in my bed and the cleaners of the hotel cleaned the room and the bed so I guess they took it without knowing. I will buy a new one as I guess they won’t find it anymore.

Swimming in The Mediterranean Sea ๐ŸŒŠโ˜€๏ธ๐ŸŸ๐Ÿ ๐ŸŠ

During the trip of Granada we also went one day to the beautiful beach La Rรกbita which is on La Costa Tropical ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŒž๐ŸŒŠ๐ŸŒด The night before I couldn’t sleep so well because it was warm and felt anxious so took diazepam from my mother. It helped so that I could enjoy the beach day the next day. I already miss this beautiful beach La Rรกbita so much ๐Ÿ˜ญ The water was a bit cold which is normally more warm but I still love it always so much. There’s nothing better than swimming in the ocean and also watching a beautiful sunset on the beach. We also had a delicious meal with the family of my friend in a restaurant. I ate gazpacho which is a cold Spanish soup, croquettes with potatoes and an ice cream. It was all so delicious ๐Ÿ˜‹ .

I always miss the sea and ocean when I leave it no matter where I’m. I’m forever a beach and Summer girl. The ocean is my home and my love for the ocean is infinite. It will never leave me ๐Ÿ’—. Human beings are made of water and salt so basically we are the ocean ourselves. The smell of the salt air, the taste of the salty sea, hearing the waves crashing on the shore, seeing the beautiful ocean and feeling the wind on my skin all creates a sense of peace and calm which can’t beat anything in this world. I’m happy I live in a world which is surrounded by beautiful oceans. The world is beautiful ๐ŸŒ๐ŸŒŠ๐ŸŒŠ

Birthday of my brother Edward, Noanne and Lisanne ๐ŸŽ‚๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽˆ๐ŸŽ

It was my brother’s birthday on the 14th of July so I sent him a picture of us three which he can hang on the wall. That picture was made on his wedding in The Netherlands which was also a beautiful day to remember forever. My little niece Noanne turned 4 years on the 16th of July so I sent her a cute balloon ๐ŸŽˆ . They loved my gifts very much. I also sent the same unicorn balloon to Lisanne which is a little girl from my choir from a man. She has neuroblastoma and also leucemia now so that hit me really hard. I also wrote them a letter. I find it important to be there for others even though if I’m struggling myself. They liked it all very much which made me happy.

Watching the movie The Lion King with my mother and my good friend ๐Ÿฆ๐ŸŽฅ

I went to the cinema ๐ŸŽฌ after two years not going with my motherย and my good friend. I’ve always loved to go to the cinema with my mother and friends. You may ask why didn’t I go for such a long time?! The reason is anxiety. Two years ago when I went for the last time to watch a movie I began to feel anxious and thought that time that I was close to have a panic attack. I got scared and ended up not going anymore which is really sad. Anxiety always takes away everything I love to do in life. It’s horrible and I’m so done with it. Sometimes I have to take little steps to overcome a fear because I just can’t do it all at once like going to the dentist. I’m happy I went to watch The Lion King which is my favourite Disney movie ever yeahhh! ๐Ÿ˜ I even have the words “Hakuna matata” on the wall in my room in The Netherlands. I also had a cover for my mobile phone of it which unfortunately all got stolen.

I loved the movie so much. The animation version is amazing but this version too. It all looks so real and is so beautiful made! Simba is so cute. I cried a lot during the movie ๐Ÿ˜ญ We also enjoyed delicious popcorn. I wish to go to Africa once and see this beautiful wild life with my own eyes. The Lion King teaches me so many lessons like that everyone is afraid of something, that you can learn from your past and that it’s important to face your fears. Even though I worry so much because of anxiety I agree that Hakuna Matata is such an important life philosophy to live by. I hope I will get there one day because life is way too short to worry all day and especially of things which aren’t going to happen. It also teaches us that our lost loved ones will always be a part of us.

I’m happy I went to the movies as it’s a big recovery win ๐Ÿ’ช because I felt anxious once two years ago during a movie doesn’t mean that it will happen again. We can all learn so much from Disney movies. I will never be too old to watch them. I can’t wait to go one day to Disneyland ๐Ÿ’—. Magic is everywhere around us, we just have to find it in ourselves too โœจ

Things I did with my lovely friends ๐Ÿ’•:

Drinking a delicious milkshake with my friend ๐Ÿฆ๐Ÿจ๐Ÿง

We enjoyed such a delicious milkshake! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿง I drank a chocolate milkshake andย my friendย had a strawberry one. I also once tried a coconut milkshake. I love them all but my fav is chocolate. Everything with chocolate is my favourite evah. I love to eat ice cream ๐Ÿฆ, drink milkshakes and any form of dessert. It’s much better to eat and drink this during the Summer. So refreshing & so delicious mmm! ๐Ÿ˜‹

Eating at the greek restaurant and enjoying a drink on a terrace ๐Ÿด๐Ÿ’•

After a year we ate again in Pita. gr, griegos artesanos in Valladolid. It’s one of my favourites restaurants in Valladolid. I love Greek food so much ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‡ฌ๐Ÿ‡ท I wish to go one day! The food is cheap and soooo delicious ๐Ÿ˜‹. Also the service is very good and fast. They always explain what everything is. We ate delicious mezzes with pita bread. My favourite sauce is the yoghurt and the one with feta. We also loved the delicious Greek lemonade. We also ate musakas with salad and more pita bread. As dessert we tried something different this time which was baklavas with nuts and yoghurt. It was so damn delicious. We loved it all so much! We will be back soon again yeah yeah yeah!

After eating a delicious Greek dinner on that Friday night I went to a terrace with my friends. We also got some delicious sweets. I love chuches ๐Ÿฌ. It was pretty cold afterwards. The nights here in Valladolid can be cold and yes even during the Summer ๐Ÿ˜‚โ„๏ธ It was 15 degrees that night brrr.

Eating tapas and delicious ice cream rolls with my friends ๐Ÿฆ๐Ÿ’•

It was nice to see my lovely friend Iris again after a year together with Maria. We tried for the first time ice cream rolls omggg it’s so delicious ๐Ÿ˜‹ I have always seen this popular ice cream on Instagram and was very curious to try it. Sometimes a hype can be overrated but this was definitely as good as it looks! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‘ŒMine was with strawberries and as topping white chocolate. My friends had one with strawberries, oreos and white chocolate. I can’t wait to try another one again! Afterwards, we ate some delicious tapas. I love to eat croquettes and a mosto which is grape juice in the popular bar El Corcho. We also loved the solomillo al roquefort in another famous bar called La Tasquita. Spanish food is just da best! ๐Ÿ’— Viva Espaรฑa ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ, oleeee!

Hot Summer night with my friend and mother ๐ŸŒž๐Ÿ”ฅ

I enjoyed some delicious Spanish food with my friend Maria. We ate a delicious pincho moruno with potatoes and tortilla at my favourite restaurant called Elany. When we drink a mosto we always get a free tapa which was chorizo this time. I love the owners which are from Romania so much. My family knows them so much and it’s so great to have your fav restaurant 5 min from your home. One time we also got a free flan ๐Ÿฎ. I also love to always give them a tip.

Afterwards, my mamita and I enjoyed a manzanilla tea ๐Ÿต and a mosto at La Plaza Mayor. It was 38 degrees the whole day so it was too hot to be inside. It was nice to be at a terrace during the night as the temperature was cooling down. Global warming is not something fake. It’s so real and I’m experiencing it right now in Spain. It’s never been so hot and so crazy weather during the Summer. We can all do something to save this planet ๐ŸŒ๐Ÿ™ One day it will be too late….

Other amazing things of July โค๏ธ:

Finished reading the book Everything, Everything ๐Ÿ“š

I LOVED THIS BOOK SO MUCH ๐Ÿ˜. I will post a good review about it soon together with some other books I’ve read. I already talked about this book on my last blog post. I’ve never read a book so fast. I finished it in two weeks whoehoeeee.

Receiving awesome pen pal letters ๐Ÿ–‹๏ธ

I loved the snail mail I got from Vikki, Rosie, Danielle, and my lovely blogging friend Chloe. Thank you all so much. I really love to receive amazing letters especially from such lovely people as you all are. I also loved the post so much from Sophia. I loved the quotes and especially the unicorn writing paper ๐Ÿฆ„ as it’s difficult to find here. I loved the postcard from my best friend from Crete so much too โค๏ธ.

Last but not least, I also loved the post from Barbara so much. She also sent me some lovely presents for my birthday which was the first of June. I loved the Disney paper and bag so much. I especially loved the mermaid vibes passport holder. I always wanted that. The edible unicorn wafers are amazing too and the unicorn holder. Thank you all so much for everything! I’m so grateful to know you all. I love you all so much ๐Ÿ’–

Watched the movie Campeones ๐ŸŽฌ

I watched this movie on the bus trip to Granada. I already wanted to watch this movie for so long. It’s a beautiful Spanish movie. I cried so much ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜ญ. It’s about a trainer of basketball who get a punishment of driving too hard because of drinking alcohol. He then has to train a team which all have sindrome of down. I think this Spanish movie is so important. It’s all about love, friendships and inclusion. We all deserve to feel equal and be treated as persons. We all deserve the same opportunities in life no matter what ๐Ÿ™. This movie also won the prize of best Spanish movie 2019. There was also a beautiful sentence said in the movie which was: “You treated us as humans.” “Because you are humans”. I wish there would be more movies like this one because they are so necessary. We are all equal, always remember that.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. What did you do in July? What are your favourites from my list? Do you have any Summer trips planned? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

My first book haul ๐Ÿ“š๐Ÿ’ž

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’• ,

I’m excited to share a new kind of blog post on my blog which is a book haul. I bought some awesome books this month ๐Ÿ“š. I still have so many books unread at home but you can never buy enough books, right?! ๐Ÿ˜‚. I’m happy I’m enjoying reading again as it’s so good for our mental health and you learn so much about life and this world from reading. I bought 4 books from Book Depository. I loved this website so much because there are no shipping costs ๐Ÿ˜. I almost buy all books on that website.

Everything, Everything – Nicola Yoon

I wanted to read this book for so long now as I saw many bloggers reading this book. I was pretty excited to read it. I almost finished this book in two weeks and never read so fast. I will make a review about it soon. The book is about a girl called Maddy who’s sick and has not left her house in seventeen years. Olly is the boy who is living next door and is determined to find a way to reach her. This love story is so beautiful and is all about the crazy risks we take for love ๐Ÿ’—. Besides, there is also a movie about this book which I can’t wait to watch as soon as I finish reading this book.

The Great Gatsby – F. Scott Fitzgerald

This is a classic book which so many people have read and was always on my list of books I wanted to read. I finally bought it. It was also very cheap. This book is about the “roaring twenties” and a devasting exposรฉ of the “Jazz Age.” I think this will be an interesting book to read. I’m always reading young adult books so to read something different will be nice too. At least, I hope so hahah ๐Ÿ˜‚. They say that The Great Gatsby is an undisputed classic of American literature from the period following the First World War and is one of the greatest novels of the twentieth century. I hope this book will be as good or even better as the movie I watched.

All the Bright Places – Jennifer Niven

When I was reading a few blog posts and comments from one of my favourite bloggers and friends Chloe I just knew that I had to buy this amazing book. In many blog posts she mentioned that this is her favourite book โค๏ธ. I also know that it’s a sad story and I’m afraid it will break my heart too. I don’t know if I just can read it when I want or have to wait for that moment when I feel good to read it. This book is about Finch and Violet. Finch wants to take his own life and Violet is devasted by her sister’s death. They meet on the ledge of the school bell tower, and so their story begins. I can’t wait to read it and I guess it will also break my heart ๐Ÿ’”. I have read so many good reviews without spoilers about this book. They even say it’s the next The Fault in Our Stars which is my favourite book ever. There’s also a movie coming up in 2019 so hopefully before the movie is there I have read it.

Call Me by Your Name – Andrรฉ Aciman

I’ve seen this book everywhere and I’ve also seen the annouchments of the movie in so many places. I have never watched the movie or have read the book. This book was on sale too so I had to buy it together with the other three books. The story is about Elio who’s 17 years old and falls in love with his father’s house guest, Oliver on the Italian Riviera. It’s a book about fear, love and a coming-out story. I’m happy to read this book as I always read books about a girl falling in love with a boy but I also love to read other stories like two boys or two girls falling in love with each other. Love is love and there has to be many more books of the LGBT+ community ๐Ÿณ๏ธโ€๐ŸŒˆ as well.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope you all liked it. Did you read any of these books? Which book would you read of my haul? Which one is your favourite and why? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

Music of June ๐ŸŽถ

Hola lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

This month was a month full of beautiful music. Some good albums were released and also really great Spanish plus other amazing pop songs were released ๐Ÿ’–. I can’t wait to share it all with you.

Taylor Swift – You need to calm down

“Cause shade never made anybody less gay

So oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh
You need to calm down, you’re being too loud
And I’m just like oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh (oh)
You need to just stop
Like can you just not step on his gown?
You need to calm down”

One of my fav artists released again a new song! ๐Ÿ˜ Taylor is back with some good music. This song is so good, so catchy and I just love the whole vibe! It’s also such a good song with a good meaning behind it. Love is love ๐Ÿณ๏ธโ€๐ŸŒˆ. The videoclip is AMAZING too! I can’t wait for her new album “Lover” in August. I’m so excited I just can’t hide it!

Julia Michaels – Inner Monologue part 2

Julia released her second part of her album Inner Monologue. I was so excited to hear it. She is such an amazing singer-songwriter. I love how authentic, real and beautiful she is. I love all the songs. Here are my favourites songs of this album.

Julia Michaels – Falling for boys

”Cause I like, uh
Guys with big lips that treat me like shit
That only want my hips when it’s convenient for them
People I can fix that leave when they’re good again
I keep falling for boys
And mistaking ’em for men
Mistaking ’em (I like ’em)
Mistaking ’em (I like ’em)
I keep mistaking ’em for men”

I love this song so much ๐Ÿ˜. I love her vocals and I just agree so much with the lyrics of this song. I used to also fall in love with boys instead of men. I have had so many boys who treated me like shit and didn’t care about me at all ๐Ÿ’” . Boys will treat you like shit but a men will know that you deserve the best and will treat you well. We all deserve to be treated well.

Julia Michaels – Hurt again

Oh, I can see the future, it doesn’t look pretty
I’m lookin’ in your eyes, I’m ready to be hurt again
Feel some type of way whenever you’re with me
I know we’re fighting fire with fire, but I’m
Ready to be hurt, hurt again

Again such an amazing song! I love the melody, the beat and just everything! I can’t wait to sing this song along hopefully when I’m going to one of her concerts in the future.

Julia Michaels – Body

“I just wanna love my body like you love my body
I wanna look in the mirror and tell it that it’s beautiful like you do
I wanna love my body like you love my body
Wanna make it feel like it’s incredible like you do
And I don’t see what you see
But I want to, I want to, oh
Love my body like I love your body”

This song is my favourite of her album because it means so much to me. It made me cry a bit. Unfortunately I can relate to the lyrics so much. It’s just such a beautiful song. Her voice is like an angel who tells me that I’m enough. We are all enough and all our bodies are beautiful. I find it so important that she makes songs about dealing with anxiety, body insecurities and real life stuff. It makes her real and does so much good in this world so we know that we aren’t alone in our struggles and insecurities ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ™.

Sofia Ellar – Ahora dime

Sofia Ellar is also one of my fav artists! I love her so much. She’s such a ray of sunshine ๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŒž๐ŸŽถ. Every song is amazing and so lovely. This new single sounds so good. She dances and sings so well. I also love that all the people she loves are on the video such as her lovely cat, her boyfriend Alvaro Soler, her mother and other friends from her band. I LOVE THIS SONG! She’s such a hippie girl like me and that’s also why I can relate so much to her. I love her free spirit and how she always her authentically self. She is also always so lovely with her fans. She calls us all family. I met her and got a picture with her last year. She also always interact with us online. I can’t love her enough.

Miki Nรบรฑez – Celรฉbrate

Miki who represented Spain at Eurovision Song Contest this year also released his first single. THIS IS JUST ONLY GOOD VIBES! ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿ’ƒ I love that he sticks to his own style of music because it’s just so positive, uplifting and you can dance so well on this song too! It’s about celebrating your life. I also love the Volkswagen car so much. My dream is to one day to be able to drive and have such a car and go surfing ๐Ÿ„โ€โ™€๏ธ. I can’t wait for his album in September.

Amaia – Nadie podrรญa hacerlo

Amaia the winner of the Spanish talent show Operaciรณn Triunfo 2017 released her second single. I love it so much. This is just how she’s. It’s simple, beautiful and so pure. The sound of this song makes me nostalgic and reminds me of all the good times in life. I love how you can see her playing the piano which she studied for and seeing her dancing with her daddy when she was a child. It’s just so cute! ๐Ÿ˜

Aitana – Spoiler

Aitana from Operaciรณn Triunfo released her first album called “Spoiler.” I really love it so much. She is such an amazing singer. I also love her personality so much. She smiles a lot, is always sweet with her fans, is sensitive and honest. I will post my three favourites songs below. One of my other favourites songs of her is “Con la miel en los labios” which I shared in this blog post.

Aitana – Vas a quedarte

SOOO BEAUTIFUL! This song was released in December 2018 but I think I didn’t share it before on here. It’s included in her album. I love her soft and pure voice. The popular group Morat from Colombia wrote this song with Aitana. The song is about hoping that this time your loved one is going to stay. It’s about having a second chance or a second part with the one you love. I think it’s the best song of Aitana ๐Ÿ‘Œ.

Aitana – Stupid

“I can be a girl, not a Stepford
I am not a step for you to step on, I’mma step forward
You can take a step back, playing like a chessboard
Don’t you know the queen protect the king when you’re on check boy?

All these stupid guys like these stupid, stupid girls (Stupid girls)
Telling stupid lies, like we’re stupid, stupid girls (Stupid girls)
Why do all this guys want these stupid, stupid girls? (Stupid girls)
All these stupid guys like these stupid, stupid, stupid girls”

This song is just amazing! So catchy! I really like it so much. I love when Aitana sings English too because it’s so good.

Aitana – Hold

THIS IS SOOOO GOOOD! I definitely think it’s the best English song of Aitana. She sings it with so much power. It has a good melody and you can sing along with it well on the chorus. I LOVE IT ๐Ÿ’–.

Alfred Garcรญa ft. Pavvla – Wonder

“And I wonder if you wonder about me
Do you think of all the things we did when we were free?
And I wonder if you wonder too
And I wonder if you wonder about me”

I know Alfred too from Operaciรณn Triunfo. Alfred is such a special artist. I just like this song so much. In his first single “De la tierra hasta marte” he sings about mars. This is his second single which is going to have a third part. His three singles are linked to each other. In this videoclip he is on mars. He is burning his album “1016” in this video. He explained that that means that we are our own worst enemy. He also explained that you have to sacrifise a lot being famous. That’s why you see him on the cross.

Shawn Mendes ft. Camila Cabello – Seรฑorita

AMAZING SONG! I love everything of this song so much. Shawn Mendes and Camila Cabello are amazing. Their voices sound so good together. The video is amazing too. I ship them so much hahaha really ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜‚. They are so cute together. I love to see them dancing too. This song has just such a good vibe.

Marta Soto ft. Julia Medina – Entre otros cien

Wow such a beautiful song! Marta Soto is a well known Spanish artist. In this song she is collaborating with Julia which I also know from the Spanish talent show. Their voices are so beautiful together. I really like this song so much because you can see and feel the emotion.

Natalia Lacunza ft. Guitarricadelafuente – Nana Triste

This is such a beautiful and sad song. I also know Natalia from the Spanish talent show. I love to know new young artists. Guitarricadelafuente is a Spanish singer-songwriter. I love to hear a Spanish song together with someone playing a guitar. It just makes the whole atmosphere so good and so magical โœจ. Their voices are so beautiful together just wow.

Sebastiรกn Yatra, Daddy Yankee, Natti Natasha ft. Jonas Brothers – Runaway

It’s a nice and catchy song! I’m only sad that The Jonas Brothers not sing so much in this song when they are part of this collaboration. I loved all of them singing. I also loved the little boys dancing which reminded me of BTS.

Marco Borsato, Armin van Buuren, Davina Michelle – Hoe het danst

I LOVEEEE THIS SONG. IT’S SO GOOD! It’s a pop song and also sounds like a dance song. Marco is a popular singer in The Netherlands. Armin van Buuren is a famous DJ in The Netherlands. Davina became famous because of sharing covers on Youtube. Her cover “What about us” from Pink went viral and even Pink said that it was amazing and “That’s better than I will ever sound.” These three voices together are amazing and connect so well ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‘Œ.

Avicii – TIM

I love that this posthumous album of Avicii was released in June. There are such good songs in it. What I love the most is that all fundings of this album goes to the Tim Bergling foundation which is a organization that helps other people going through mental illneses and suicide prevention. It’s a beautiful way to help others too ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ™. I loved the song “Though love” which I also mentioned in this post. I will write down below my other favourites of his album.

Avicii – Heaven

“And I think I just died
I think I just died
Yeah, I think I just died
I think I just died
And went to heaven
And went to heaven

Such a beautiful song and also emotional because of the lyrics. I guess he already knew he would die and couldn’t stand the pain of life anymore. I’m still so sad he couldn’t be saved ๐Ÿ˜ข. I wish we can all heal from our demons as we deserve it. I love the sound of this song so much. They already recorded it some years ago in Madagascar.

Avicii ft. Aloe Blacc – SOS

AMAZING SONG! Every song on this album is just so good, such a bop! I love the sound, instruments and the beat. It makes me so happy ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜Š. I’m so thankful for the music of Tim. He will never ever forgotten because he is a legend and legends never die. His legacy is forever. In this video you can see the beautiful words some fans say of Tim.

Avicii ft. Bonn – Freak

I don’t want to be seen in this shape I’m in
I don’t want you to see how depressed I’ve been, yeah
You were never the high one, never wanted to die young
I don’t want you to see all the scars within

Again such a good song! I keep repeating myself but it’s just the truth. I have this in my head now tudutudutudu – love it. The lyrics is sad though as you can feel how much Tim was struggling.

Avicii ft. Imagine Dragons – Heart upon my sleeve

WOW SOOOO GOOD! Avicii and the Imagine Dragons together is just too good to be true. It sounds amazing! ๐Ÿ˜ The violins you hear make this song even better.

Thank you all for reading this long blog post full of beautiful music ๐ŸŽถ . What were your favourite songs from my list? Which artist do you love? What’s your favourite music style? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’• ,

xoxo Christina

Summer OOTD ๐ŸŒž๐Ÿ‘—

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

From now I’m going to be a fashion blogger haha no just kidding ๐Ÿ˜‚ I like to share OOTD, hauls and stuff. Today I will share a short post about a Summer OOTD. It was 38 degrees almost 40 on Friday. I love Summer and Summer nights but I can’t stand heatwaves. I didn’t felt good, had headaches and my tummy hurt. Now I’m feeling a bit better.

I was about to go eat some delicious Spanish food with my friend when my mamita took this pictures. I was in the mood of puting make up on and dress up. I wore this white dress which I bought from a lovely friend of Instagram. It was a size M but it fits perfectly. I really love this dress so much ๐Ÿ˜ I got so many positive comments when I shared it.

Thank you all for reading this short blog post. Did you like my dress? Do you wear dresses in the Summer? How’s Summer in your country right now? Let me know lovelies ๐Ÿ’—. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

Poem: Life is unfair

Hola lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

I wrote this a few days ago because I was feeling emotional and had to cry. It’s about an illness you all know: cancer. I wrote a poem about it too.

Lately I can’t sleep well so last night was not an exception. What do I do when I can’t sleep? Writing, writing and writing. I love to write especially poems as well. When there’s so much in my mind I need to let it go. You know that feeling that even though when you are struggling yourself you want to help people who are struggling too? That feeling of impotence is what I feel right now. It makes me even feel guilty to have fun in life sometimes because I see so much pain in this world which breaks my whole heart ๐Ÿ’”๐Ÿ˜ข

I’m really feeling all the feels. I feel emotional and I also feel anger. Life is so unfair. I cried when I heard the awful news that Lisa from my choir died from cancer which I wrote in this post. I cried when I heard that my neighbour died last month because of cancer. I cried when I heard that someone I know very well has cancer now. Here I’m crying again because Lisanne has another form of cancer again ๐Ÿ˜ข It’s just so awful. She has neuroblastoma and now she has leucemia too. Lisanne is almost 6 years old. She is a child from a man which I know from my choir too. I’m thinking that this could happen to any child like my niece too.

I just had to write this poem in respect for everyone who has lost someone because of cancer or is going through this sickness. I also shared it on my poetry account seaofwordsx. I’m here for you all ๐Ÿ’—. In the past I donated money for a cancer organization and also for the organization for neuroblastoma. I will keep doing that in the future because I hope that that will cure more people of cancer ๐Ÿ™.

I’m always here for anyone who needs me. I love to help people and will keep doing that forever. We are always in this together ๐Ÿ’ช I’m sending you all my love and strength. I love you all so so so much ๐Ÿ’ž

Thank you all for reading this blog post and my poem. I hope you liked it and it inspired you โœจ. Did you love my poem? Do you also know someone who suffers from cancer? Do you also sometimes feel impotence when you see so many people suffering in the world and you don’t know how to help them? I will speak you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

June favourites ๐ŸŒž๐ŸŽ‰

Hola lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

For I begin, I would like to thank you all so much for all your support on my last blog post. You guys mean the most to me! ๐Ÿ’— I’m so thankful to always have this amazing community to be there for me. I love you all so much ๐Ÿ’•

I was dying the day I wrote this because it was so hot. There was a heatwave in Spain. It was 40 degrees in Valladolid. I was staying inside because I didn’t felt good because of it and because of my period. I can’t wait to go swimming this week when I don’t have my period anymore and feel better. The temperature is going down to 30 degrees which is perfect. I’m going to tell you in this blog post all about my June favourites such as celebrating my birthday with my family and friends, Summer time, the delicious food I’ve eaten and other amazing things.

Things I did with my family ๐Ÿ‘จโ€๐Ÿ‘จโ€๐Ÿ‘ฆ :

My birthday celebration ๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽ‚๐ŸŽˆ๐ŸŽ

It was my birthday on the first of June. I turned 26 years young haha. You can read my summary of my 25th year here. I had to cry on my birthday because of having my period and I just felt so emotional. I was feeling like I don’t have my life together and I still feel that way. However, I have to think that we all have our own time in life to do things and make things happen. I also enjoyed my birthday with my mother, the brother and mother of Verรณnica which came to visit us. We ate a delicious chocolate cake and I blew the candles. I hope my wish will come true. I got amazing presents such as much stationery, a beautiful shirt, make up, flower headbands, jewelry and more. I also got a lot of beautiful handwritten cards.

I will show that with you all this month in a haul since I had to wait until I got everything to take pictures. My mother also bought me a lovely purple balloon and decorated our home. In the evening we went to eat dinner all three in my favourite restaurant called Elany. The bad thing was that we went late so there wasn’t much food left. We could enjoy some cheese, salad and chorizo. I was drinking a delicious grape fruit drink. I went home early because I felt bad because of my period. My mother went for a drink with the family of Verรณnica.

Celebrating my birthday with family

Eating delicious food with mamita ๐Ÿฒ

I ate so much delicious food this month. I love to eat outside especially when I’m in Spain as the food is so good and also so healthy. The Mediterranean diet is just the best. I ate twice in the big shopping mall El Corte Inglรฉs. We love to eat a sandwich ham & cheese with potatoes. You get free mayo, ketchup and anything you want. In Holland every sauce cost money. I also ate in a new restaurant called Rodilla which I discovered with mamita. We ate a delicious sandwich together with croquettes which were just โ‚ฌ1, so cheap!!! We also ate one day eggs with potatoes together with jรกmon serrano in my fav restaurant Elany near to my house, another day I ate a delicious tortilla de patata and paella. It’s my favourite Spanish food together with paella.

Delicious Spanish food

Milkshake time ๐Ÿฅค๐Ÿจ๐Ÿง

I LOVE ICE CREAMS, MILKSHAKES AND SMOOTHIES SO MUCH!!! I love to drink this delicious chocolate milkshake with whipped cream so much. Also the waiter is such a lovely man and we always have a good talk with him. He knows us very well. My mother was drinking a tea with ice cubes. We also got free olives which I love very much.

Drinking chocolate milkshake with my mother

Enjoying sunny days โ˜€๏ธ

I enjoyed some sunny days with my mother on the fake beach here. Here in Valladolid there’s not a real beach just an artificial one with sand. We have a river but it’s dirty to swim there. I was reading the Dutch psychology magazine while my mother was reading another magazine on the bench. It’s nice to enjoy the sunshine while there wasn’t a heatwave. We also enjoyed a nice walk along the river.

Enjoying sunny days

Things I did with my lovely friends ๐Ÿ’•:

Celebrating my birthday with my friends ๐ŸŽŠ๐Ÿ’—

I had such an awesome night celebrating my birthday with my friends at the restaurant Eh Voila ๐Ÿ’•. I made a reservation for the Greek restaurant but when we arrived they said it was closed. It was full of water haha that never happened before. There are so many restaurants in Valladolid so it’s easy to choose another good one. I love the creperie Eh Voila. I had a delicious Italian crepe with champignons, cheese, ham, mozzarella, and tomato. It was like a pizza so delicious. My friends ate also crepes, salad and spaghetti. As dessert I had a delicious ice cream of yoghurt and vanilla. I went here many times and now the decoration and everything is new ๐Ÿ˜โœจ It’s so beautiful.

After eating a delicious dinner we went to drink something on a terrace. We also went dancing at Juanita yeahhh fiesta time! ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐ŸŽ‰ It was such a long time ago that we did that as friends group. The only time I felt anxious was when I went to the toilet at Juanita because I felt like I couldn’t go out. I’m always so anxious about being closed up somewhere. I’m so happy with all my lovely friends. I wouldn’t know where I would be without all of them. Thank you for being there for me ALWAYS! I’m also thankful for all the lovely presents I got. They are da best. It’s so nice to have the best friends of the two countries ๐Ÿ‡ณ๐Ÿ‡ฑ ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ Having friends in so many countries is the best thing ever. Thank you for making me so happy. I’m so blessed to know you all. I love you all so much ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜ญ

Celebrating my birthday with my lovely friends

Friend visiting Valladolid

I was so happy that my good friend from Granada came to visit me all the way from Madrid for my birthday celebration with my friends. It’s almost already 4 years since we were all in New York City during the Many Languages, One World forum. We all spoke at the United Nations and it was just a once in a life time experience. I met a lot of awesome people during that week. I love MLOW reunions and hope to meet many of this group soon too! I miss you all ๐Ÿ’—

I’m happy to have showed my friend Valladolid together with my mother. We visited the churches San Pablo, La Antigua, the Cathedral, saw the university of Valladolid and La Plaza Mayor. We saw it by night and by daylight ๐Ÿ˜‚ It was 25 degrees so perfect weather for sightseeing ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐ŸŒž We also ate a delicious meal in Bar Pablo which is just 100m from our house. It’s so cheap and the menu is delicious. I ate paella, potatoes with meat, and a delicious flan ๐Ÿฎ with whipping cream. Valladolid is such a beautiful city and I’m so happy to call it my home as well as Haarlem of course ๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ ๐Ÿ‡ณ๐Ÿ‡ฑ Two of my fav cities ever. It was a beautiful weekend. I can’t wait to go to the south of Spain again soon! See ya soon mi amigo! Granada here I come oleeee! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‡ช๐Ÿ‡ธ๐ŸŒŠ๐ŸŒด

Visiting Valladolid with my lovely friend

Birthday of my Spanish friend

We celebrated the birthday of our Spanish friend Sandra in the village of a friend of her. She has a house in a village near to Valladolid. It’s 30 minutes by car. We had a delicious bbq outside in that house with 9 friends of her. We had a nice time and enjoyed it a lot. We talked a lot about sex lol and other subjects ๐Ÿ˜‚ I love to talk about anything. When I feel comfortable with people I can talk about anything. I was happy it was during the evening since it was 40 degrees during the day. At night it was just 20 degrees oufff much better. She loved our present which were two fancy champagne glasses. Sometimes I don’t like to meet with a group of people because it makes me anxious but it was fine. We also ate a delicious chocolate pie ๐Ÿฅง and we played Jenga. They said I’m very good at it and it’s because I played it during my childhood a lot. I’m used to build big towers without letting them falling down hahah. I also loved how you could see the stars shine so brightly because there are no city lights. I’m in love with the universe ๐ŸŒŸโœจ

Celebrating the birthday of my friend in a little Spanish village

Other nice things of June:

Summer time ๐Ÿ˜Ž

It’s officially Summer time! ๐ŸŒž I’m so happy my favourite season is back. I survived the heatwave ๐Ÿ”ฅ at the end of the month which was way too hot for me. I love 30 degrees but 40 degrees is really way too hot for me. Even my mother suffered through the heatwave. I hope I can enjoy Summer time much and have fun! It’s the time that I’m mostly the most happy in life. I love to go to the beach, go swimming and travel a lot.

Officially Summer time

San Juan ๐Ÿ”ฅ

I didn’t went to San Juan this year but my mother went and got me some delicious churros ๐Ÿ˜‹. San Juan is an evening at the end of June were we welcome the beginning of the Summer. It’s typical to do it on the beach but here we have a fake beach like I said. There is a big bonfire and there are things to eat and drink. There’s also a lot of music to dance on ๐ŸŽถ. It’s a tradition to write down all the bad things that happened that year and burn it in the fire. You also write some wishes down for the next year which you keep at home. It’s a magical night.

The bonfire of San Juan and churros

Stationery and pen pal letters ๐Ÿ–‹๏ธ๐Ÿ’—

Last but not least, I bought some nice stationery stuff. I bought some nice stickers with hearts, flowers and stars and also some other cute ones. I also received some nice pen pal letters from Chloe (as well as birthday presents such as a beautiful painting of palmtrees she made ๐ŸŒด, cards, notebook, pencil and body masks), a beautiful letter from a new pen pal Vikki, from Jess and from the lovely Sophia (I loved all the goodies from you so much such as the beautiful cards, stickers and geen earrings). I love you all so much. Pen palling is awesome and I’m so happy I have now more and more pen pals to write too! ๐Ÿ˜ Writing letters and receiving letters makes me so happy.

Stationery and beautiful pen pal letters

Thank you all for reading this blog post. What were you favourites of June? What did you like from my list? Are you already enjoying Summer time? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

Life struggles

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

Today I want to talk about how I’m feeling lately especially last week. I have been struggling with life, with myself and just everything in general. I love to always be honest here because this community as well as the Yoga Girl community on Facebook and the mental health community on Instagram are always there for me ๐Ÿ’–. In this fake world I’m so happy to have found a place where I can be ๐Ÿ’ฏ% myself, vulnerable and honest. There are so many fake people out there who say they are your friend which isn’t true. They don’t care about how you are really feeling. They are just curious and want to gossip around. That’s just the sad reality.

So, I feel that life is a struggle lately. I’m having such a bad sleep routine like always. I’m sorry if I keep repeating myself. I can’t sleep the whole night and then have to sleep in the middle of the night until the afternoon. I really hope I can change this routine soon because it isn’t good for my health to live like this. I feel bad too because I saw my mother crying a few days ago. It hurts me the most to see her crying because she’s always so strong but at the end she breaks down like everyone. She was not feeling well and she also don’t like to see me suffering ๐Ÿ˜ข๐Ÿ’”.

I’m also struggling, feeling emotional and anxious because of being so afraid of going once to the dentist. I know I have to do it one day but I keep postponing it because of fear. My four wisdom teeth are impacted. I know my wisdom teeth need to get out since like two years ago or so. Dentist anxiety is real and there’s nothing to be ashamed of. I’m not the only one who suffers with this. I had a bad experience with a dentist in The Netherlands who called me childish and said I was acting like someone who has 15 years old. This caused me having a panic attack after the visit. This also increased my dental anxiety more.

Last September I went to the dentist here in Spain where my mother also had to do a dental implant. He is really handsome haha and also nice. He understands my anxiety and didn’t find it strange or weird that I was crying there. I know they are all 4 impacted but as the dentist here said it’s better to get it done one by one. I don’t want anyone to push me to do it so hopefully I can face this fear this Summer. Summer time is for happiness but I know I have to do it. I also felt strange things sometimes in my mouth, have a bad stomach and I’m nauseous sometimes. Maybe it is because of my wisdom teeth. I was crying these nights and being emotional also because I have my period. Maybe, I could take valium from my mother to use it when I go to the dentist. If anyone knows a tip or something I would really appeciate it. I know that at the end all my worries don’t come out. It’s just that horrible feeling of anxiety which makes me feel like I can’t cope with it. I know many people who suffer from a mental illness know how hard it is to not listen to our mind and all our worries. It isn’t so easily to snap out of it. I just can’t.

I also am still struggling with finding a job. My dream is to live and work in Spain but it’s difficult. If you want to work in the public sector in Spain you need to do an exam. Even then it is difficult to get the job. I apply for jobs in hotels on Infojobs and other websites but I don’t get an answer. I’m also so anxious to get a job because of anxiety. I just don’t know how to do it. I wish I could find a job that is meaningful and purposeful. I didn’t hear anything back from the internship interview in April. I think the hotel needed to have a confirmation for an agreement with my university. I can’t have that since I graduated two years ago. It just feels that my life is standing still while others are going on with their life. I’m just surviving. Afraid of life and afraid of death, what a way of existing.

Also Summer time is here and it’s my fav season ๐ŸŒž๐ŸŒŠ but I also sometimes feel the pressure to be happy all the time. Anxiety doesn’t go away just because it’s Summer. I still can be anxious with things. I also don’t like the heatwave this week. Today it was 37 degrees and tomorrow it will be 41 degrees. I stayed at home today because I also don’t feel good because of this heatwave and having my period. I get these horrible cramps, feel dizzy and have headaches. Thanks to medication and paracatemol it makes it a bit better. 40 degrees is really too much for me and makes me feel sick. Together with my period it’s just the worst ๐Ÿ˜ข. I hope I will survive it ๐Ÿ”ฅ

I really love Summer and enjoy being in the sunshine. I also love to go for walks with my mother or read a nice book or magazine on a bench or on the grass. I bought some nice books last week which I will share in a book haul soon when they arrive. Bad moments don’t go away just because it’s Summer. We have to accept that and live with it. I also can’t wait to really enjoy Summer time. I can’t wait to go surfing, swimming ๐ŸŠ and go to the beach ๐Ÿ„๐ŸŒŠ๐ŸŒž. I also love blogging and penpalling. It’s important to do things we love to do and to have fun. I just hope we all can have a great Summer and enjoy it as we deserve it. I hope we will have good moments full of love, peace and happiness โœŒ๏ธ. I hope we can overcome the bad moments all together ๐Ÿ’ช We are always in this together ๐Ÿ’— It feels good to let my thoughts and feelings out here as I feel like I don’t have to carry it all on my own because that makes it too heavy.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope it somehow made some sense to you. Do you also sometimes feel like life is a struggle? Can you relate to what I feel and how would you cope? Does Summer makes you feel like you have to be happy all the time? I hope you can give me some advice to overcome my fears as I would really appreciate it ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’—. Thank you for always being there for me. It means the world to me. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

Speak up for the people who can’t ๐Ÿ’ช

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

Today I just wanted to talk about something important. I will talk about how important it is to speak up for the people who can’t. Many people in our world can’t speak up for their human rights because they may live in countries where there’s a war and are afraid of speaking up. There can be consequences of speaking up. I will talk about many subjects related to this. I hope it will inspire people and make this world a better place to live in ๐ŸŒโœจ๐Ÿ™

I was thinking about this topic when I was listening a few days ago to a postcast from Yoga Girl. It was about the abortion ban in some states in America. This is going on right now and it’s really scary. It felt good to hear this important topic which I also agreed on. I believe that every woman has the right to choose to do what they want with their body and whether they want to have children or not. I don’t want that we are going backwards in history.

It’s really terrifying what’s happening in America. This abortion ban will be bad for all women. Even women who are raped will not have the choice to do an abortion. It’s just a horrible thought for women to have a baby from being raped. You can choose to not do abortion for yourself but to ban it is just not aceptable. It’s a human right. It feels like they are now making a political issue of it. That’s why it’s so important to speak about this. We can’t just accept this. I was happy to go to the first feminist strike in Spain last year and speak up about all the injustice we women have to suffer. We live in a patriarchal world and this just has to change.

This subject isn’t only about women. Speaking up implies in many subjects. Racism still exists and people who say it doesn’t are just afraid to speak about it. They ignore it when it is there. I loved the postcast of Yoga Girl where she talked about white supremacy as I agree so much with it. It feels like an uncomfortable conversation but we have to talk about it and discuss it.

I don’t want the benefits of being a white person. I just want everyone in the world to be equal. I want them to have the same human rights. I want everyone have the same school and job opportunities. I don’t accept people of colour being rejected for a job. I have a good friend of Irak and I hear her stories. She had to leave her country because of war just like many people from Syria and other people from other countries are doing right now. I believe there has to be a good migration plan in every country. Some countries almost don’t accept immagration whereas other countries have an overflow. There has to be a better system for all where everyone feels comfortable, happy and equal.

Also I made this poem below for this blog post and also shared it on my Instagram Sea of words. I hope you will all like this poem. Being bullied made me scared and anxious to speak up. It made me be silenced. I still have a hard time to speak up but I’m learning it because it’s so important to do.

We have to speak up for the people who can’t speak up. I always love to see people speaking up about important topics such as mental health because it makes me feel less alone while struggling from anxiety. If we speak up about an important topic or issue it will make other people feel less alone. It also inspires other people to speak up and to make this world a better world to live in ๐ŸŒโœจ. Even if it makes us scared we have to speak up. Let’s do it all together! Yeahhh, we can do it! ๐Ÿ’ช

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope it all inspired you and you loved it. What do you think of speaking up about important topics? Do you also speak up in life? Are you afraid of speaking up and how do you deal with it? Let me know lovelies ๐Ÿ˜˜ I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

Music of May ๐ŸŽถ

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

I can’t wait to share you all the good music which was released in May ๐ŸŽถ. I’m going to share Spanish music as well as other amazing pop/house/kpop songs.

Panic! At The Disco – High hopes

“Had to have high high hopes for a living
Shooting for the stars when I couldnโ€™t make a killing
Didnโ€™t have a dime but I always had a vision
Always had high high hopes
Had to have high high hopes for a living
Didnโ€™t know how but I always had a feeling
I was gonna be that one in a million
Always had high high hopes

This song was released last year but it was just this month that I heard it on a video and also on the radio. I love Panic! At The Disco and this song is just so amazing. I just heard it again this week in Spain and was dancing like crazy at home. THIS SONG MAKES ME SO HAPPPPPY ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’ƒ It gives me good vibes and what an amazing lyrics! It’s good to have dreams in life and high hopes. I truly believe we can achieve anything we want in life. The universe always has our back โœจ.

Shawn Mendes – If I can’t have you

Shawn Mendes only makes good music like this song. I love this song! It has a nice beat and his voice is just beautiful. I also love the clip and it just fits perfectly to the song.

Ed Sheeran & Justin Bieber – I don’t care

“We at a party we don’t wanna be at
Tryna talk, but we can’t hear ourselves
Read your lips, I’d rather kiss ’em right back
With all these people all around
I’m crippled with anxiety
But I’m told it’s where I’m supposed to be
You know what? It’s kinda crazy ’cause I really don’t mind
And you make it better like that

This is such a catchy song! ๐Ÿ˜ I love Ed Sheeran and Justin Bieber together. They sound very good together. I also love the random photoshop effects in the video. I also find the lyrics very relatable. I have had times that I was in a party and didn’t want to be there. Also struggling from anxiety makes it harder to enjoy a party. It’s important that they raise awareness about mental health in music because there are so many people from all different ages who listen to it. They will feel less alone when they hear more people are suffering with it.

OG3NE – Starve

“If youโ€™re hungry for love 
Someone who’s the air in your lungs
Someone that you know you can finally trust with your scars
If youโ€™re shaken and cold
And you need somebody to hold
And you are hungry for someone
Who take you as you are

I won’t let you starve”

OG3NE is a beautiful girl group from The Netherlands. These are three beautiful sisters. I love their songs and their beautiful harmony between these three voices. They won The voice of Holland a few years ago and also represented The Netherlands at Junior Song Contest in 2007 and Eurovision Song Contest in 2017. They ended at the 11th place. They sang the beautiful song “Lights and Shadows” which was about their sick mom who later that year died of cancer. I love their songs such as this new song. It’s an amazing song who tells us that there will always be someone who will love us for who we are.

Alvaro Soler – La libertad

I love Alvaro Soler so much! ๐Ÿ’— All his songs are amazing and beautiful. Libertad means freedom in Spanish. The videoclip is beautiful and this song makes me happy. It’s just such a bop. I can’t wait to see him live in concert again. His music makes me happy and it’s good music to dance on too.

Aitana – Nada sale mal

I already mentioned Aitana in other blog posts such as in this blog post. I know Aitana from the Spanish talent show Operaciรณn Triunfo. She became the second finalist. I’m so proud of her and how successful she is now in Spain and also in Latin America. This song is so catchy and I really like it. She is also such a sweet and beautiful girl, just look in her eyes.

Aitana – Con la miel en los labios

Aitana is releasing her new album in June which I will share next month. This is one song of her album. I love balads so much and especially when Aitana sings them. This song is BEAUTIFUL so beautiful ๐Ÿ˜. I love the piano so much too. It’s such a delicate and honest song. She sings so pure with so much emotion. This song is about a passed love. Love changes but never extinguishes. Con la miel en los labios means with the honey on the lips. Aitana loves honey ๐Ÿฏ so it’s a nice name for her new song.

Amaia – El Relรกmpago

I know Amaia like Aitana from the Spanish talent show Operaciรณn Triunfo too. Amaia was the one who won the talent show in 2017. I love her first single because it’s just her. This videoclip and song is her essence. Amaia is just being herself. Her voice is like an angel ๐Ÿ˜‡ . I love the visuals too in the videoclip. It’s just so beautiful and magical ๐Ÿงšโ€โ™€๏ธ

Avicii ft. Agnes, Vargas & Lagola – Though love

โ—ขโ—ค Avicii forever

In June the family of Tim released his postum album. He died a year ago because of suicide. I miss him so much. I’m so thankful that I went once to one of his concerts which I will never ever forget. This is one of his songs in his new album. This song is so good!!! It’s one of my fav songs now. The melody is amazing and the sound of the violins are so amazing too. It makes me emotional to listen to your music. I love you so much and I’m so thankful for your beautiful music. Your music always makes me happy and also guide me through the bad times in life. You will never be forgotten. You are a legend and your legacy is forever ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ™โœจ. I love this song and all your music so much.

All proceeds of the postum album called Tim will go to the recently established Tim Bergling Foundation, a non-profit that helps prevent mental illness and suicide. I think it’s such a beautiful way to help others in need. Mental health awareness and support is so important.

Kygo & Chelsea Cutler – Not ok

I love Kygo so much. He is definitely one of my favourite dj’s together with Avicii of course. This song is amazing and I also love the lyrics video which is simple & beautiful.

TVXQ! (MAX Solo) – Closer

So I came across this song because of being a fan of Duncan Laurence, the winner of Eurovision for The Netherlands. I wrote all about him in this and this blog post. Duncan Laurence is an amazing singer-songwriter and produced and composed together with some other producers this song. I know many of my readers who are KPOP fans will love this song too. I love it and I love to discover more nice songs! It has a nice beat and yeah music has no boundaries. Even if you don’t know the language you can sing along. Music unites people ๐Ÿ’•๐ŸŽถ. That’s the power of music.

Christina Perri – Tiny victories

“Some days I look in the mirror and I think the meanest things
all the meanest things
some days Iโ€™m holding my self worth up
by a string
a string
but everyday that I donโ€™t hide myself away
to me,
is a tiny victory”

Christina Perri is amazing. This song is so pure and beautiful. I also can relate so much to the lyrics. Self love takes a lot of strength. I also say mean things to myself and feel bad about myself. The day or moment that I’m not doing that is definitely a tiny victory. Every victory counts. We are just trying our best. Don’t be hard on yourself. We will love each other every day a bit more than yesterday. We are all in this together ALWAYS! ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿ’•

Michela – Chameleon (Malta – Eurovision 2019)

I love this song so much from Michela who represented Malta for Eurovision this year. It’s a catchy song, has a nice beat and has a great melody. Michela is a great singer too and just 18 years old. I also love the tropical vibes in the music video. It just fits perfectly to the song.

Karol G – Ocean

I love this song of Karol G. Her genre is reggeaton and trap but this sounds different and I like it. She sings about how we are going to show the world what love is. It’s a sweet song. I also love the clip which is made on the beach. The ocean is my fav place on the earth ๐ŸŒ๐ŸŒŠ๐Ÿ„โ€โ™€๏ธ๐ŸŒž.

Lola Indigo – New album Akelarre

I already wrote about Lola Indigo in this blog post. I also know her from Operaciรณn Triunfo. She’s such a good dancer and also a great singer. She released her first album called Akelarre which is related to the Witches’ Sabbath (the place where witches hold their meetings). My favourite songs of her are “Amor veneno”, “Game over”, “Maldiciรณn”, “Mujer bruja” and Ya no quiero nรก”. Her album is awesome ๐Ÿ˜ ๐Ÿง™โ€โ™€๏ธ I love all her songs. She left the first in the talent show and is now so successful in Spain. I wish her all she deserves. This project that she has created is just awesome.

Lola Indigo – Amor veneno

Love this song!

Lola Indigo – Game over

Such a good song and I love how she used the words Nintendo, Mario, Game boy and PlayStation! It’s awesome and so catchy.

Lola Indigo ft. Lalo Ebratt – Maldiciรณn

The clip is awesome and the song has such a nice beat!

Lola Indigo ft. Mala Rodrรญguez – Mujer bruja

THIS SONG IS SOOOOO GOOD! I love to see her dancing and singing. Mujer bruja means witch woman. It’s one of my favourite songs of her.

Lola Indigo – Ya no quiero ya nรก

This is my favourite song of Mimi (Lola Indigo). ASDFGHJKL it’s just the best! This was also her first single. The song is amazing, she dances so good and omg it’s just so good!!! Ya no quiero yรก means I don’t want anything anymore. She also sings I’m not your baby, boy.

Thank you all for reading this blog post and listening to my music list of May ๐ŸŽถ๐ŸŽง๐ŸŽผ. Which song was your favourite? What is your favourite artist? Which song did you listen to in May? Let me know in the comments lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina