Summer bucket list 2020 🌞🌊🏄🌴🍧🍹🍸💃

6 Jul 2020

Hey lovelies 💕,

Before I share a birthday haul post which is a bit overdue hahah I want to share this blog post. I’m going to share again a Summer bucket list 🌞. I often write down 100 things in a journal but it isn’t all achievable of course. I will try to only point down the most important things. If you make a long list of things you want to do, you most likely will not do them all. It could maybe overwhelm you instead of having fun and doing them. This Summer I want to be happy and enjoy life while being safe and follow the safety measures of the pandemic. We all have to enjoy our Summer time but we also have to keep aware and know that the Coronavirus isn’t away. We still have to keep distance, wash our hands and be careful 🙏. Let’s get started! 💖

  • Fly to Spain ✈🇪🇸

I can’t wait to go to Spain because we didn’t went there since Christmas time. I’m mostly always a bit anxious of travelling. I have to admit that I’m now more anxious to go because of all the things you have to do while travelling. You have to wear a mask in the airplane and during the travel day. I’m afraid to get really anxious or get a panic attack 😢. I of course agree with the safety measures. You also have to fill in a health paper to declare that you aren’t sick. They can check your temperature when you arrive at the airport. Travelling is not like we used to know it. I really want to go with my mother to Spain and enjoy our Summer there 🌞😍. I guess it’s okay we are anxious to travel. I just hope we won’t get sick. I also miss Spain so much so it would be so nice to finally be there. We maybe go at the end of July. I will keep you all updated how things will go.

  • Spend time with family & friends 👪👭

I miss seeing my family so much. I only see my parents and sometimes my brother and his wife from a distance. I miss seeing my almost 5 year old niece. Her birthday is in July just like the birthday of my brother Edward. I can’t wait to see my niece, Edward and Elke again. They hopefully will come to our house this month. We haven’t seen each other since Christmas 😭. I also miss my friends so much. Some friends I didn’t see for a half year, others for a year. I can’t wait to have amazing plans with them in The Netherlands and in Spain 💖. I’m already going on a lunch with my bestie this month and will also go surfing with her 🏄. My other friend from Irak is also coming to my house. I also can’t wait to celebrate my birthday in Spain with my lovely friends and eat delicious tapas all together. Spending time with your loved ones is the best thing you can do. Always be around people who are sunshine for you and not around people who drain you. They aren’t worth it.

  • Go to the beach 🌊🐚

This Summer as always I want to go to the beach many times 😍🌊. I already went twice to the beach in The Netherlands. It’s one hour away with the bike. I loved it so much even though the water here isn’t clear like in Spain haha. Beach time is what makes me the most happy. I’m a mermaid and beach girl forever. Summer isn’t good if I don’t go to the beach. The sea knows all my secrets and heals my heart. If we go to Spain, then I hope to go to the beach there too. The beach is there 3 hours away by train. It’s so beautiful in Santander. There’s also a little surf village which is called Somo near to Santander. I would love to go there again. I went there with my mother a few years ago.

  • Go surfing 🏄

I can’t wait to go surfing again! 😍 I always do this on my Summer bucket list but didn’t go surfing since more than 4 years. I miss it so much. My best friend and I were about to go last Summer but it was bad weather so we didn’t go. This Summer we will definitely go surfing together. I can’t wait. Here there’s always wind so it’s a great beach to surf. Maybe I will go surfing too in Somo, in Spain. I would love to go again to a surf camp. You learn so much there. The surfing lifestyle is the best way to live life ✌💖. Enjoying nature, being present and that feeling of being alive when you are out there in the ocean catching a wave. Hearing the waves crashing to the shore and tasting the salt air and sea all creates a sense of peace and freedom. We all need that in life.

  • Read books 📚

I love reading books and I find the Summer months the best months to read 📖. I love to read outside in our garden. I also love to read in the park or on the beach. I already read some books these months which I have to review soon. This Summer I would love to read at least 3 books if that’s possible. I don’t want to say more because I’m a slow reader and I don’t want to create unnecessary stress. We learn so much from reading. It’s lovely to read on a Summer day with a glass of lemonade or red wine. You drive away into paradise 🌴.

  • Make smoothies, açai bowls & ice pops 🍦🍍🍓

I love to make fruit smoothies. I used to make them a lot and I really miss making them. I want to make a lot more these Summer. I also would love to make ice pops and açai bowls because I never did that before. I love how it looks like. It must be delicious 😋. I really want to try to make them and share it with you guys. Let me know if you ever tried to make this and which flavour was the most delicious one. All of these are so refreshing for a hot Summer day and also very healthy which is just a win-win haha.

  • Practice yoga in a studio or outside 🙏

I do yoga almost every damn day now since March and it helps me so much with anxiety. I feel more at home in my body. I enjoy being spiritual too and just feel more in sync with life and mother nature. I do yoga with Yoga Girl, my biggest inspiration. I do it on her website. Every month I pay just €14 and I can do everything on there. The live classes with Yoga Girl are so amazing 💖. I also do full moon 🌕🌜🌛 ceremonies on there. Doing yoga at home is nice but I also would love to do it again in a studio or have a class outside. I only did that twice in my life. Sometimes I find myself being a bit anxious in a room because of feeling judged in a room full of people. I don’t like big groups. Hopefully I can overcome that and take a class in a studio in The Netherlands or in Spain. The connection you feel with others is so beautiful and so important too in a yoga practice. It makes you feel even more at one with this beautiful world we live in.

Doing yoga at home
  • Share singing covers 🎶

This was the only time I shared a singing cover on my blog. Hopefully I will be able to share more covers here and also on my Instagram 🎤. Sometimes I’m just a bit anxious to share it. I love singing but it always takes a lot of courage to film yourself and share it online because of the negative people out there. We just have to think that if someone says something bad about you, it says more about that person than about you. I will have to keep doing what I love because that makes me the most happy. I hope you guys will enjoy it when I’m ready to share it. I also sometimes thought about making a Youtube channel for singing covers but that makes a bit too anxious to do that now. Maybe in the future, who knows.

  • Spend time in nature 🌳🌹

Spending time in nature is a must during the warm months. I love it so much. I don’t like Winter so I enjoy being outside in Summer. I love to go to the park, enjoy our garden and go to the beach. I love to walk around and go biking 🚲 with my mother. Nature is so alive right now so we have to enjoy it. Spending time in nature also means soaking up the sunshine which is so important for our health too. The sun gives us energy, vitamin D and makes us happier. We need sun light 🌞. Don’t forget to always wear sunscreen.

  • A picture from myself in Mallorca by the ocean
  • Declutter my wardrobe 👗

Basically I have to organize my whole room and sort things out but let’s being with my wardrobe. I have to do it here and in Spain. I just never do it haha because I don’t like it. It’s been ages now and it really needs to get done 🙏. I also have a hard time in letting clothes go. Some I will treasure and others I will have to donate or sell. I want to try the Marie Kondo way. I hope it works out this Summer. If you have some tips, please let me know.

  • Keep writing poems 📝

I will keep writing poetry in my journal. I hope to be able to share some of my poetry on here. I will also of course keep writing letters to my pen pals and write for my blog. I love to get inspiration from being on the beach or outside in my garden. Whenever I get inspiration ✨ I write it down because otherwise I forget it easily.

Poem about speaking up
  • Be happy, have fun and make the best of this Summer! 🌞🌈

On top of this list is just trying to make the best of this Summer. Hakuna matata ✌. Being happy and just enjoying Summer time on our own way is the most important thing. It’s important to take pressure away of having the best Summer ever because every Summer has its ups and downs like life. Summer is my favourite season ever. I’m a Summer and beach girl forever. I’m always SO happy when Summer arrives. In Spain the sun shines every day so I can’t wait to go there and have loads of fun.

Thank you all for reading this fun blog post. I hope you will all have an amazing Summer full of responsible adventure times 🌞✌. I hope you will all enjoy it with your family and friends. Make loads of memories. Be safe too. What are you going to this Summer? Are you staying at home or are you going to travel? What of my list are you going to do? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love 💕,

xoxo Christina

May favourites 💕🌞

22 Jun 2020

Hola lovelies 💕,

It was so hot these days 🌞🔥. I’m happy Summer is back but I can’t deal with the heat. In The Netherlands 30 degrees is way too much and also humid. In Spain I’m used to the Summer but it’s dry which is different. Right now, there’s a bit of a storm. Always the same weather here haha. I’m really happy I enjoyed some beach days which I will share with you all soon. Now, I will share about my May favourites. In this blog post I will share about my bike tour 🚲 through Haarlem with my mother, writing a story for a writing contest 📝 and winning some giveaways.

Things I did with my lovely family 👪:

Bike tour through Haarlem 🚲🌞

I love biking through Haarlem with mamita 😍. It’s been ages since I used the bike haha how bad 😂. I just feel sometimes a lack of energy or my heart beats fast when I bike. I do it on my own time with my mother. I don’t have a bike to use in Spain. It’s been lovely weather all these months. I’m so grateful for these beautiful moments full of sunshine 🌞. I’m also blessed to live in Haarlem, such a romantic city. I prefer small cities so much more than big cities. We did a bike tour from our house through our park to Haarlem city. We sat along the river Spaarne and saw some cute animals such as lama’s, a pony and a duck with babies. I loved it. They were so cute!!! On the way home we saw my brother and his wife from the balcony. I hate to not be able to hug each other normally but it is what it’s. Better than nothing. I love you. I believe in the good things coming. Stay safe you all 💞

Mother’s Day 💐

I was sad that we couldn’t celebrate Mother’s Day like we always do each year with the whole family. At least, my brother and his wife came to our home to give my mother beautiful flowers, a card, pie they made and chocolate. I gave my mother also a handmade card and a phone case with flowers and a butterfly on it. She loved it very much. I’m sure next year will be better. I’m so happy to have a beautiful mother like you are. Thank you for being there for me in good and bad times. I love you till the moon and back 💖🌜🌛.

Walks in the park 🌳

I had some nice walks with my mother in the park and we enjoyed the sunshine. One day we ate delicious ice cream 🍦. My mother ate a Magnum and I ate a raket rocket. I love it! I also enjoyed the daisies and the other beautiful yellow flowers 🌻. I love to see the flowers blossom and all the green in the park. It’s such a beautiful world.

Watching Eurovision Europe shine a light 💡🎶

There was no real Eurovision this year but I’m happy to have enjoyed this alternative show called ”Europe shine a light”. I always watch Eurovision every year together with my mother. Music always unites people and especially in hard times. I loved to see Duncan Laurence singing his new single Someone Else. It was so beautiful 😍🎤. I loved the orchestra performance too. I also loved so much when all the participants across Europe performed the song Love Shine A Light by Katrina And The Waves. I hope next year I can join the family show with my friend live in Rotterdam because I already bought tickets for it.

Watched Begin again, Frankie and Johnny & the serie Never have I ever 🎬

I loved the movie Begin again with Keira Knightley and Adam Levine. It’s a sweet movie about a singer-songwriter who is chasing her dreams. I loved the songs and it really inspired me to follow my dreams. I love singing so much too but I don’t know if being famous would be something for me. I also liked the movie Frankie and Johnny with the famous actors Al Pacino and Michelle Pfeiffer. Johnny has just been released from prison, and gets a job in a café beside waitress Frankie. Frankie is a bit of a loner, but Johnny is determined their romance will blossom. I think it was a beautiful movie that makes you think about how love finds you. It wasn’t a cliché movie at all. I also loved the first season of the serie Never have I ever which I saw on Netflix. All episodes are just 20 or 30 minutes long. It’s about The complicated life of a modern-day first generation Indian American teenage girl, inspired by Mindy Kaling’s own childhood. It was so good. It was about the trauma of loosing a parent, grief, heartbreak, friendship, family, school, the Indian and American culture and love. I cried and laughed at the same time while watching these episodes. I can’t wait for a second season!!!! 😍

Operación Triunfo 2020 🎤

My favourite Spanish talent show Operación Triunfo 2020 came back for a month 🎶. It got suspended in March because of the pandemic. The 9 contestants had to leave the singing academy. In this academy they also sleep. You can watch what they do on a livestream because there are camera’s in the academy. It’s so much fun. Every week there’s a liveshow where they sing some songs. At the end the winner got chosen a few weeks ago. I’m so happy Nia won because she rocked every song which they had given to her. She can sing, dance and perform the best. The winner gets €100.000. Sometimes I also think of going to this talent show and participating in the casting. I just don’t know if being exposed so much would trigger more of my anxiety and if it would be something for me. I love this talent show so much. The teachers and the production are so kind. In 2017 I went to one of the concerts in Madrid with my friend and it was one of the best experiences in my life. You really build such a beautiful fan relationship with the artists which come out from this talent show. I can’t wait for a new edition! 💖

Things I did with my lovely friends 💕:

My best friend’s birthday 😍🎉

I couldn’t celebrate the birthday of my best friend for obvious reasons. I was happy to have made her a beautiful collage which I always make and a beautiful handmade card. As you all know, I love writing letters and making cards. As present I got her Lush products which was a shower gel and soap. I’m happy she loved it. I love you to the moon and back. Thank you for being the best best friend I could wish for 💕.

Sending cards to people who are sick, lonely or need to cheer up 💌

There was a girl which I follow on Instagram who was writing cards to people she don’t know in The Netherlands. I asked to join the group and already sent more than 40 cards to people who are mentally or physically ill, lonely or just need to cheer up in The Netherlands. Coronavirus made the elderly more lonely and receiving a card made them happy. I got the stamps for free and also the beautiful cards for free because it was a donation. I love to write and help other people. It makes me feel less alone in my own struggles of this life and it makes me feel happy. I love to be of service. You never know what someone is going through so be kind always and spread love because we all need it so much 💕🙏.

Other amazing things of May 💖:

Writing a story for the Sea of words contest 📝

I wrote a story in Spanish for the ”A sea of words” contest. It has the same name as my blog. The European Institute of the Mediterranean tagged me on a post in Instagram. The contest is every year. This year it was about young people faced with climate change in the Mediterranean and the 2030 Agenda for Sustainable Development 🌊. The story I wrote is about me being in the sea with my boat and then suddenly being stuck surrounded by plastic bottles. Then a man comes to help me and talks about how important it is to take action. I already won an essay contest in 2015 and spoke at the United Nations in New York City 🗽 so I thought why not try again even though my inner critic is loud sometimes. The jury is now reviewing the stories. The 10 best winners will be chosen in July and will go to Barcelona at the end of September for free and will have a creative writing course. It’s really so amazing. I will keep you all updated.

Winning a scarf from the shop Azabache 💖

Nowadays I’m entering so many giveaways on Instagram. I love it so much especially when I win of course. I won a beautiful scarf from my favourite shop in Valladolid. Azabache has so many beautiful hippie clothes. I bought a lot of dresses and other clothes there. I won a scarf with the famous print of Gustav Klimt 🎨. It’s beautiful.

Winning books from Melissa Wells and The Goddess Collective journal 📚🏆

I love Melissa Wells. She is a certified eating psychology coach and health coach. She has such a beautiful community. In December after doing the advent challenge I won a membership to The Godess Collective online which is a platform to work on loving ourselves, growing ourselves and has so many amazing workshops. Now I won the giveaway on Instagram. I love to keep winning stuff haha. Normally I wouldn’t won anything. I won the books from Melissa Wells which are about the diet culture, loving ourselves and having a healthy relationship with food. I don’t struggle that much with this topic but I love to learn more about it though. I also won the journal which is so beautiful. We are all goddesses yeahhh! I can’t wait to go her retreat in Bali too one day 😍🌊. That would be so magical.

Flower box postcards set 🌸

I bought a beautiful flower postcards set online. I can use them for my pen pals and other people I write. It contains 100 postcards with flowers 💐 by 10 different artists. The 10 cards from each artist are different from each other. I love flowers. The cards are colourful, original and just so beautiful. It was €20 but definitely worth the prize!

Thank you all for reading this blog post. What did you do in May? Did you ever won a giveaway on Instagram? Do you love to go biking? Did you ever participated in a writing contest? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love 💕,

xoxo Christina

Music of May 🎶💖

15 Jun 2020

Hey lovelies 💕,

How are you all doing? I’m happy to announce we are going out of lockdown here in The Netherlands and also in Spain. I really can’t wait to go to Spain even though I may have to wear a mask in the airplane which I don’t like. I hope it won’t cause me any anxiety. I just don’t like anything on my face. I just really feel exhausted and also a bit depressed these days because I want to live life more intensely. I want to go travelling the world and go on adventures and just live that hippie life 🏄🌊🌍🌞. I crave seeing friends and real connection. I’m a bit done with this situation. Let’s move on now to this post where in I will share my favourite music of May. Some nice songs were released which was one from Lady Gaga ft. Ariana Grande, the first EP of Duncan Laurence, a really great song from Aitana ft. Reik and much more 🎶.

Lady Gaga ft. Ariana Grande – Rain on me

AMAZING SONG!!! 😍 These power woman released this awesome song. I love it so much. The beat, the lyrics and omggg the dancing performance is so good. Just 10/10.

Ariana Grande & Justin Bieber – Stuck with U

I’m not a fan so much of Justin Bieber but some songs I really like of him. This song is also very good together with Ariana Grande. It’s a cute song and fits perfectly for the days we have to be stuck at home during this pandemic. I also loved seeing Demi Lovato in the video with her bofriend. She deserves the best. The money of this song goes to a charity to help people in need.

Kygo ft. Zak Abel – Freedom

I love Kygo so much!!! He is one of my favourite DJ’s. This song is wonderful. This video was going to be shoot in the Maladives but of course it wasn’t possible. I crave freedom so much 🙏. I crave a life where I can live in peace and do what I want and just be happy. That for me is freedom.

Aitana ft. Reik – Enemigos

Such a good song!!! 😍 Aitana is one of my favourite singers in Spain. In this song she sings together with Reik which is a pop band from Mexico. It’s so good. They made an animated video because of the pandemic too. I actually love it so much. It’s from an artist and it’s beautiful made. This song makes me really happy.

Karol G ft. Nicky Minaj – Tusa

I love this song! It’s a great song to dance on and so catchy. I also like the pink atmosphere in the video. It’s been released a few months ago but I forgot to mention it in one of my latest music posts.

Pablo López – Mariposa

Pablo López is such an amazing artist which always make music right from the heart. He writes beautiful music. This song is another masterpiece of him. I love it. Mariposa 🦋 means butterfly in Spanish. The way he performs and sings makes you feel every emotion.

Taylor Swift – Soon you’ll get better (Live version)

”And I hate to make this all about me
But who am I supposed to talk to?
What am I supposed to do
If there’s no you?”

This song is one of my favourite songs of Talor’s new album. It’s so beautiful and touching. This song is about her mother who has cancer. I really do hope she gets better soon. She sang this song live for One World: Together At Home. It’s so touching and makes me emotional. She feels this song deeply in her heart. I love her so much ❤. I can’t wait to see her live one day. That’s one of my biggest dreams ever.

Sam Smith ft. Demi Lovato – I’m ready

This song is really good. Sam Smith singing together with Demi Lovato is just so good. I’m also ready for someone to love me lol but I guess I will stay single forever. I also really liked the performance in the video.

Duncan Laurence – EP Worlds on fire

Finall the EP came out of my favourite artist from The Netherlands who won Eurovision last year! 😍🇳🇱 Duncan Laurence released some beautiful music. I already love Arcade which was the song which won for Eurovision Song Contest last year. I’m going to share my favourite songs of him below.

Duncan Laurence – Arcade

”I’ve spent all of the love I saved
We were always a losing game
Small town boy in a big arcade
I got addicted to a losing game

Oh, oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh
All I know, all I know
Loving you is a losing game”

I just have to share this masterpiece again. IT’S MY FAV SONG EVER 😭😍. Of course it had to win Eurovision and just everything. His voice, the lyrics and the message of the song. The song is inspired by the heartbreak of a loved one of Duncan’s who died. Arcade is a story about the search for the love of your life, and about the hope to reach something that seems unreachable. Every time I hear it I get emotional and cry. Everyone has to listen to this beautiful song. Also, the video made underwater is so beautifully made. 10/10 for sure.

Duncan Laurence – Someone else

Duncan just never fails in making good music. This song is as beautiful as Arcade. I love it so much. He is such a great singer-songwriter who always stay by himself when he makes music. When I close my eyes and hear him singing I’m just floating into space and feel my heart being fuzzy. I love him so much with my whole heart. I have concert tickets to see him in November but I don’t know if that’s possible now due to the pandemic. I really hope I will see him live soon with my friend. It’s going to be an unforgettable night.

Duncan Laurence – Yet

Duncan in a hat is so handsome. Another amazing song! I also love him singing high notes because it sounds just so good. I can’t wait for more amazing songs soon!

Karol G ft. Simone & Simaria – La vida continuó

I really like this song. I love latin songs to dance on so much. It always make me feel those Spanish vibes. This song is about a man who is now with a different woman. It’s about going on with life whatever happens.

Maialen – Sargento de hierro (Operación Triunfo 2020, gala 10)

Maialen sings this beautiful song in the 10th liveshow of Operación Triunfo a few weeks ago. I loved it so much. The original is from the group Morgan. She sings with so much passion and emotion. She is such a beautiful soul, so pure and authentic. She reminds me of staying always true to myself too. Maialen already was a singer-songwriter before she entered the talentshow Operación Triunfo in Spain. I know that she will only become better and will release some amazing songs 💖.

Noah Cyrus – The end of everything

I really liked some songs of Noah Cyrus and it didn’t came into my mind that she was the sister of Miley Cyrus haha omg. Where have I been in life? Her new album is so amazing. I love her songs so much. I will share some of my favourites below.

Noah Cyrus – July

July is a beautiful song where she sings about being a realtionship which wasn’t good for them but she stayed. I’m also afraid of change and could feel that. Her voice is amazing.

Noah Cyrus – Young & Sad

”Don’t wanna be young and sad 
Another day longer
Don’t wanna feel numb or mad 
Until I go under
And I know that you only 
Want me to be happy
But I still feel lonely tonight
Don’t wanna be young and sad 
Another day longer”

Noah sings about being in the shadow of Miley Cyrus when she was younger. She felt less than her. This song can also relate to depression or anxiety. I also don’t want to be young and sad. We are way too young to be this sad I read once as a quote. I agree with it. This song is beautiful made 💕.

Noah Cyrus – The end of everything

”Everyone you love is gonna die
but darlin’ so is everything, don’t cry
The stars will blink out one-by-one in time
Yeah everyone you love is gonna die

Everything you fear is gonna end
All your hate and hurt lost to the wind
And it’s hard, I know the universe can be a jealous friend
But everything you fear is gonna end”

This is such a sad and beautiful song. I always have been afraid of death 😢. I also talked about this fear in this post. I can’t think of the thought that we are all going to die one day. It makes me have anxiety and so sad. What is good is that everything we fear is also going to end. Nothing last forever neither do bad times. This is a meaningful song that reminds us to just enjoy the time we have on our earth 🌍✨.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope you liked the songs which I’ve shared. I hope you are all safe and sound. Which song was your favourite? To which kind of artists have you been listening to? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love 💕,

xoxo Christina

Black lives matter 🖤👊

8 Jun 2020

Hey lovelies 💕,

I wanted to write a blog post about my birthday presents 🎁 but first I have to write a more important post which is a poem about Black Lives Matter. I will also talk more about racism in this post. We can’t close our eyes anymore for what has happened in our world and what is happening now. Racism exists in every form, not only in America. It also exists in Europe. White privilege and white supremacy is real. It’s so easy to ignore the pain of what black people have to go through because we don’t experience it on a daily basis. If we are black people and have to suffer this on a daily basis and watch people murdered just because of their skin colour, we would definitely think different about this whole situation. We can’t ignore racism anymore.

In America racism is more obvious because of the different cultures living there. In America you can also see the difference between poor and rich much more than in other countries in Europe. It’s more obvious I think. Slavery and racism have always existed. Europe exists because our countries made colonies and murdered people because of their colour. The Netherlands did that too. UK too and Spain and many more countries. It’s horrible to think that we as white people made this possible 😢. It’s our history. I want to read more about it because I want to educate myself better and understand everything. I think I will buy some books related to racism and white privilege.

I never talked before about the topic of racism because it makes me feel insecure sometimes. I find it uncomfortable if I don’t know enough about the subject. I don’t want to hurt other people. I think I don’t know enough of it to speak up. Now, I realise that that doesn’t matter. I can speak up and still learn new things and grow from what I know now. If we all think this way we are only just embracing our white privilege. We have to speak up about it because that’s the only way to help others. We have to be an ally for black people. Not speaking up is no option anymore. You can’t say that you are not a racist and being silent. That’s just not the right way to handle things. If nobody speaks up about a difficult topic nothing will change. We have to listen to the black people and do our learning process on our own.

I have a friend who is black and I always was with her in the church singing. I don’t see her much anymore but she still has a place in my heart. I have never seen her different because of her skin colour. Human beings learn within the years racist attitudes and thoughts. I remember she was playing with me in my neighbourhood and people called her mean names such as “chocolate” and wanted her to go away. I feel guilty now thinking of this because I didn’t do enough. I had to stand up for her. Now, I would do that. It is okay to see what I did wrong then and change my behaviour now and for the future.

It’s okay to look back to the mistakes we made. We can learn from it and grow from it. Now and always is the time to donate money to organizations which help back people. I already donated money for the organization which helps black people called “Black lives matter”. You can donate here. Every dollar or euro counts. I also signed a petition for the death of George Floyd. He was killed by a white police man putting his knee in his neck. 9 minutes long he wasn’t able to breath. I saw the pictures and it horrified me. This happened in America but to be honest this racism action exists everywhere. Maybe not in the same form but it still exists. Don’t look back from it but say something against it. We can’t let this happen again.

I will share with you now the poem I made for black lives matter. I hope it inspires others to educate yourself and be a real ally for black people.

Black lives matter

George Floyd got killed by a white police man in America

Just because he is a black man

Sandra Bland, Nia Wilson, Freddie Gray, Breonna Taylor

Those are just a few names who also got killed by their skin colour

How long are we going to go on with this without stopping racism?

We all have been way to ignorant with this problem

I admit that I feel guilty about that too

It’s so much easier to close our eyes for things we don’t want to feel

That’s called

White privilege

We can’t imagine how much pain black people go through so we close our eyes, heart and ignore it

So, we say ”I’m not racist, all lives matter” which is a wrong statement

Not all lives matter

Black people get killed because of their skin colour

It isn’t fair

Now it’s the time to speak up

Staying silence is only making things worse

Our discomfort is nothing compared to their pain

Educate yourself, read books, donate money, be a real ally for black people

Call people out when someone is making racist jokes

”Be the change you wish to see in the world 🌍❤️”

Come in action

Do it now, not later

Change is coming and it has to start with ourselves

Our thoughts and action matter

Let’s do it all together

We can do it, yes we can! 💪💖👊


Thank you all for reading this important blog post 🙏. We have to talk about racism always not only when something big is happening. This is happening for years and it’s time to fight against it. Speak up and be the change in the world. What do you do to be a good ally for black people? Which books are you reading and which ones would you recommend me to read? What do you think of racism? Have you ever experienced any form of racism? Let me know lovelies.

I’m always here for you. My blog is free from judgement. My blog is pro black people, pro mentally ill or any other illness, pro choice and anything. I will always fight for justice in the world. I’m a feminist, mental health warrior and will always speak up about any injustice in the world. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love 💕,

xoxo Christina

Today it’s my 27th birthday! 😍🎂🎉🎁✨🎈 Forever a gemini child ♊ and hippie girl yeahhh! ✌

1 Jun 2020

Hola lovelies 💕,

IT’S MY BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!!! 😍🎉 OMG 27 YEARS YOUNG. I feel old lol 😂. I have sometimes pain in my body like period cramps, back pain, feeling nauseous, teeth problems, suffering from anxiety but lol I still lived 27 years so I guess it’s okay. I feel like a grand mother 👴 sometimes. This blog post will be about my birthday and some things I learned these years. It’s a kinda strange birthday because of this pandemic and lockdown but it’s also special. It’s the first birthday in 4 years that I’m again in The Netherlands celebrating it and not in Spain. My good friend is sleeping here. My brother, his wife, my bestie and her girlfriend are coming today but of course with distance. Better, than nothing. I miss face to face connection so much. I missed seeing them so much 😭.

I sometimes feel a bit depressed, anxious and emotional with my birthday because of society’s expectations. In 3 years I’m 30 years old but I still feel like a ”baby” in the world. I don’t have a job yet, no hushband, no baby, no driving license, no car or don’t own a home. Does that make me unsuccesful? Does that make me not worth it in this society? I just hate that society create those rules. It only makes me feel depressed and create more anxiety. I am where I am in live and it’s all okay. I’m realizing now more and more that who I’m is more important than what I do.

If there is one thing I’m realizing now during this pandemic and just this year in general is that I have to choose for myself. I have spent so much years of my life doing what other people expected of me. I have spent so much time in doing things I don’t like or being with the wrong people. It only drained me and made me feel bad about myself. I have wasted too much time in toxic relationships. It wasn’t worth it. I realized afterwards that all these people and boys had one thing in common: they didn’t deserve my love. I give so much to people and didn’t get that same amount of love back. They weren’t worth my time. If only I knew then what I know now I would not have done certain things or wasted my time on the wrong people. I failed, I learned and I grew from these mistakes. I will try to not repeat them in the future.

I have always hide myself and I still do that at times and I’m done with it. I hide myself because of being bullied 😢. Not many bullies seem to know what the consequences are of bullying. It’s really the worst for your mental health. I still suffer sometimes when someone is laughing or talking a bit loud. Then instantly I think it’s about me but of course it isn’t true. Anxiety is also being caused of being bullied. I’m done with hiding myself for who I’m. I’m happy that I’m being myself know more and more online and also in real life. I have the best friends in real life, online and family in the world 😍💕.

I want to be completely myself in everything I do and in everything I am in life. I have always been afraid of growing older because of being afraid of death. I also talked about that topic in this blog post. Now, I’m realizing that growing older is also a privilege. Not everyone can grow older because of sickness. I have also been afraid of aging because I always thought I have to be a certain way in life. I can’t like or do the things I like now in a few years. Well, that’s a misconception. I will forever be the hippie girl ✌, mermaid and wild child I’m 😂. I will not change for anyone. I WILL BE MY CRAZY SELF. I will keep reading young adult books 📚, blogging, penpalling, surfing 🏄, travelling the world, singing 🎶, loving the sea 🌊, listening to my favourite artists such as Taylor Swift, Ariana Grande, Julia Michaels, Sofia Ellar, Duncan Laurence, Aitana, Amaia, Alfred and keep having fun with my friends. I will keep being myself which means being romantic and sensitive. I’m a highly sensitive person and feel every emotion and also suffer more. I can’t take that away from me because otherwise I wouldn’t be me. Growing older doesn’t mean I have to change about what I like or not. I just grow wiser.

This year I faced one of my biggest fears which was going to the dentist to get one of my wisdom teeth pulled out. I’m SO proud of myself for doing this!!! 💪 It’s a big achievement for me. I spent years in anxiety and I still know I have to get three out. The first step is there. It went all so great because of the lovely dentist and his team. He knew exactly how to support me and take care of me while I had so much anxiety. You can read it here. Sometimes I feel some problems in my teeth because I still have to get rid of three. I prefer to do it in Spain but we postponed our trip because of the pandemic. Maybe we can go in the Summer if it won’t be dangerous for any of us. I’m just really happy to have faced this fear. I hope with the next visits I will feel less anxiety. I know anxiety will be there always but hopefully a bit less now I know how things go. That’s also the reason I prefer to go in Spain because I know the dentist. I find it hard to trust again in someone new. It’s nice to go to some familiar places.

This year I also have had some amazing good times with my friends and family 😍💃. My last birthday was amazing because my friend from Granada came to visit me for the first time in Valladolid. Me and my Spanish friends ate all together in a creperie. We had such a great time together. I also enjoyed my time with my Dutch friends in Haarlem in November. I came back from having a hard time in Spain and being so anxious about having to go to the dentist and just life. It was nice to be able to enjoy some time all together eating delicous tapas in La Cubanita. In January I ate there again with my good friend. I also had a nice time with my family eating all together and celebrating birthdays. I really miss that but I know that time will come again.

I also travelled to beautiful places this year which were my second home Valladolid in Spain ✈🇪🇸. I’m so blessed to have that in my life. I love my Spanish friends and family so much. It’s home. I even feel more at home there than in The Netherlands where I have been born. Home is also where your favourite people are. I love both countries so much but Spain always more haha. In July I travelled again for the 4th time to Granada, one of my favourite cities in Spain. I have a good friend living there. My mother and I went to his appartment at the beach and also enjoyed the city itself. We always have an amazing time and I really can’t wait to go back!!!! 😍🌊 It’s a tradition to go each Summer but we don’t know if that will be possible this year. I also travelled to Gijón which is in Asturias for the first time in August with one of my best friends in Spain. We had such a great time. We enjoyed the beach, had great fiestas haha, eat delicious tapas, went shopping and had such a great girl time.

It was years ago since I went with a friend again on a holiday. I really missed it and I can’t wait to do it again. I still remember that night we met some cool guys which invited us for drinks without anything in return. No bad boys for once yeahhh. They were partying with us the whole night. It was so much fun. One of their friends was about to marry. I just can’t wait to travel again to new places in Spain and wherever in the world because travelling makes me so happy and most importantly, it makes me feel ALIVE!!!! You make new friends, have fun, learn about different cultures and learn more about life and this world we live in 🌍.

Right now, I just submitted a story for a contest which is called ”A sea of words” just like my blog like what the hell?! The European Institute of the Mediterranean tagged me on a post in Instagram. Otherwise I would never have found it. My instagram for my blog is also called that way. It’s a contest which is every year and the topics can be about gender equality, climate change, environment or just anything related to make this world a better place. This year it was about young people faced with climate change in the Mediterranean and the 2030 Agenda for Sustainable Development. First I wrote an essay but it wasn’t what they ask for so I had to change it into a story which was a bit more difficult. The story I wrote is about me being in the sea with my boat and then suddenly being stuck surrounded by plastic bottles. Then a man comes to help me and talks about how important it is to take action. I have always had that inner voice inside of me who says to take action and give some ideas. I already won an essay contest in 2015 and spoke at the United Nations in New York City 🗽 so I thought why not try again even though my inner critic is loud sometimes. The jury is now reviewing the stories. The 10 best winners will go to Barcelona at the end of September for free and will have a creative writing course and dicuss their ideas. It’s really so amazing. I will keep you informed if I win and if it’s even possible to travel.

A few days ago I also submitted my two poems 📄 about vulnerability and strength for the organization MIND in The Netherlands. This organization helps people with mental health illnesses. My poems are about the sea and about being bullied and how that made me stronger and about accepting myself for the way I’m. The winner will be chosen online from the best 5 and the winner gets a poetry award. The 5 winners can speak their poem in an event. All these things make me super anxious and are so outside my comfortzone but I have to do it because I love writing and I know that I’m good at it. I have to stop bullying myself that I’m not good or smart enough. I will keep my fingers crossed ✌🙏.

With all of these things I do and did in the past, I’m just being myself and embracing the person who I’m which loves to write, do yoga, sing, surf, travel the world, read and help other people and hopefully making this world a better place. I love La Pachamama!!! 🌍😍 Thank you all so much for forming part of my life. Thank you all for being there for me in good and bad times. I love you all so much. I wish you all peace, love & happiness! Forever young, wild and free! ✌️ We are all childs of the universe. This life is a gift ✨ Let’s hope this new year of life will be amazing too!

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I’m so happy to have you all in my life. Do you also join writing contests? Do you think 27 years is old? Do you think society creates rules for us? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love 💕,

xoxo Christina

April favourites 💕🌞

25 May 2020

Hola lovelies 💕,

I have been sad for a few days and cried a lot because of the death of 5 surfers which I wrote in this blog post. When that sadness past I was griefing about a good friend of my mother who died a few days ago in Spain 😢. He had cancer. We knew it because of people posting sad posts on his Facebook and he didn’t answer anymore on Whatsapp. I felt so sad too and cried much because he was always so nice to us. I’m happy we can still have contact with his sister. He felt like a father for me and understood my anxiety and was always so supportive for me. Just writing this I cry again. I have enough of grief and crying really. I just hate death and I know it’s part of life but it’s the most horrible feeling ever. Life is just unfair because good and honest people always die earlier than the other ones. On a happy note, let’s move on to this blog post. I did some nice stuff in April. Who says being in lockdown has to be boring?! I will share the 30 days of space challenge I did by Yoga Girl 🙏, the new leggings I bought and beautiful sunny days in the park.

Things I did with my lovely family 👪:

First ice cream of the year 🍦

I love ice cream so much 😍🍧. I ate my first ice cream of the year with my mother. We went to IJsboertje which is just 5 min. away from our house. We had to take it with us and eat it somewhere else. We ate in the park. My flavours were white chocolate and vanilla and my mother had lemon ice cream. It was all so delicious. I can’t wait to go back!

My Spanish niece got a baby 👶

My Spanish niece got her first baby boy and I’m so happy for her!!! I can’t share a picture unfortunately because of privacy but he looked so cute. They live in Basque country. I can’t wait to be able to go again to Spain to visit them with my parents. My niece is 43 years old and it just reminds me that it’s never too late to have a baby at that age or be married or whatever. Society always creates those rules but we have to decide or own rules in life. We only have one life so let’s live it the way we want and not what society ask us to do.

Sunny days in the park & in the garden 🌞✌

We have had a beautiful April month of many days of sunshine and 20 degrees. I love to enjoy my time in the garden with my mother. I also loved to walk in the park and enjoy nature. It’s so nice to live so close near nature 😍. I also love to go to our lake because I always need to be surrounded by water. Water is still and makes me feel calm and peaceful. It’s all I need and I’m so grateful for that. I would literally die right now if I would be in a small flat. In Spain we don’t have a big house or garden so the lockdown would be worse for us. In the garden I read, chill, daydream, listen to music, write, meditate and just enjoy life.

Birthday of my brother and his wife 🎉🎈

It was the birthday of my brother the 18th of April and of his wife at the end of April. We couldn’t celebrate it with the family of course. It made me sad but I know we will soon be reunited again when it’s possible. We wrote some cards for them and my present for them was a canvas with some pictures together. One is from the wedding of them, another one from the park and with the family together. I’m happy they liked it. My mother brought some flowers for them too. I only went one time to their appartment and saw them on a distance. It was nice to be able to talk to them but also strange. Not being able to hug your loved ones is just the most heartbreaking thing ever. I need hugs in life. The world need a group hug which will hopefully come soon again 💖🙏.

Netflix subscription 🎬

I joined Netflix just for a few months which is really nice. I love to be able to watch series and movies on Netflix. The only thing I don’t like is that some movies or series are not on Netflix. I also would like to watch Disney movies but I don’t want to also have a subcription on Disney+ because of the money. I really love the movies and series which are only made for Netflix.

Easter time 🐣🐤🐥

We always celebrate it with the whole family but of course this year is different. I’m happy I could celebrate it with my parents. We had a delicious fondue with potatoes. We also ate delicious chocolate eggs and cakes. It was all so delicious. What I loved the most was of course the blackberry juice with fruits and whipped cream 😍🍇. My daddy plucked those years ago and it’s a tradition of his family to make this. I LOVE these kinds of traditions so much. The juice is so delicious and so healthy too. I love my family forevah.

Other amazing things of April 💖:

New leggings from Shein 👖

I bought some amazing yoga leggings from the website Shein. I really like them and they were not expensive at all. I really needed to have some nice leggings. They are colourful and have flowers 💐🌸 on it so I don’t need more. It fits perfectly. I’m really happy about it! I made some nice pictures in the park with them on.

Pen pal letters 💌

I got some beautiful pen pal letters this month. I got some beautiful mail from Chloe who is one of my best friends ever. I love you so much soulsister. She makes beautiful art with a flower theme, a moon theme or anything beautiful for her page on Etsy. You can check it out. She made a beautiful painting of some flowers and sent me a nice letter together with stickers. I also got a cute letter from Rosie from UK. It was full of beautiful notes, glitter stickers with unicorns and hearts, quotes and a beautiful letter. I loved the stickers with the quote ”Friends are special treasures of the heart.” I also loved the card with the quote ”I am at peace with my age.” I agree that every age is beautiful and that society just creates expectations which aren’t real and only create unhappiness and unnecessary stress and anxiety.

I also got a beautiful letter from Agata from Poland. I loved the writing paper so much. I also loved the cute stickers and the card of Warsaw was beautiful. I loved the colours and the flowers on it. I wish to go to Poland once and visit you. I want to meet all of my online friends one day. I know that dream will come true one day and it will be the happiest day of my life. I love you all so much 😍💕 xoxo.

30 days of space challenge by Yoga Girl 🙏

I did the 30 days of space challenge by Yoga Girl which is my biggest inspiration in life 😍. I never commited to a 30 days of yoga challenge so it was a nice way to enjoy yoga again. I only took some classes in my life and did it at home. Every day we did yoga on the website of Yoga Girl for free. This challenge was made to create space in our hearts, our bodies and our minds as we find ourselves in a time of physical space and distancing. Also, every day there was a theme. We meditated together, felt our feelings and pulled a card every day. One day we had to build our own sacred altar, go outside and enjoy nature or shake our bodies to remove negative energy. It was soooo good. I’m so happy I met amazing new pen pal friends. I love to be spiritual, do yoga, meditate, and there are not much many friends of mine who align with that aswell. It’s nice to have this beautiful Yoga Girl community. I love them so much.

Since that challenge is over I’m still doing yoga every damn day and it helps me so much with being more calm and easing anxiety 🙏. Anxiety will not go away but yoga and meditation gives you the tool to sit with it and be able to let it go at some point. We have to sit with our feelings to be able to let them go. I also thought yoga was only about handstands and being flexible but it isn’t. I’m not that flexible but I have fun, feel my feelings, cry a lot and I’m happy when I practice. That’s yoga. I can’t wait to go to her retreat in Aruba one day. That’s one of my BIG dreams and is on my bucketlist 🌠✨.

Got a free month subscription for the Yoga Girl website 😍

When I was doing the 30 day challenge some strangers were gifting a free subscription to people. I also got a free month subscription. I felt very grateful and so happy. It’s so nice that people gift things without something in return. I wish more people were like that in real life too. I just don’t have much money for a subscription so it was nice to be able to do yoga for free on the website after the challenge. You also get free live classes with Yoga Girl which are SO amazing and a Yoga E-Book and astrology workbook. If you get the year subscription you get a t-shirt for free. I wish to have that one day.

Lush bath 🛁

I had a nice bath and used a bath bomb from Lush. It was the intergalatic one. It had such a good smell of peppermint. The blue, pink colours and glitter that came out of it were beyond amazing! This was a beautiful experience where I could just bath in the universe itself 😍✨. It was like bathing in stardust. I 100% recommend this bath bomb for you all. I always listen to some beautiful music too while I’m laying in bath.

Watched To All the Boys: P.S. I Still Love You, Chicken Run and Isn’t it romantic 🎬

I watched some nice movies in April. I loved the second movie of To All the Boys. I love the actors and just everything. However, I loved the first movie more. In the second movie you knew a bit what would happen. I also watched the movie Chicken Run with my parents. It was a cute movie. The movie was about chickens who were living on a chicken farm and the mean owners wanted to make pie of them so they invented a plan to escape. I also watched Isn’t it romantic with my mother. I love the actress Rebel Wilson which also is known from Pitch Perfect. I love that it wasn’t a cliche love story. It had a great message about loving ourselves and the music was also nice. We don’t need someone to love ourselves because we are already whole.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. What was your favourite thing from my list? What did you do in April? Did you also enjoy some sunshine in the garden or park? Do you do love to do yoga, meditation or be spiritual? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love 💕,

xoxo Christina

Music of April 🎶💖

18 May 2020

Hey lovelies 💕,

I’m still griefing about the loss of the inspiring and beautiful surfers who died in our North Sea last monday the 11th of May 😢. You can read the whole story in my last blog post. With that post I also wrote my 200th post on my blog. I’m so proud of that achievement and for all of your support and love. I wouldn’t be there without you guys. I love you so much 😍. Now, let’s get on with this post. I will share some beautiful music I listened to in April. There were some beautiful new Spanish songs from Sofía Ellar ft. Álvaro Soler and Aitana and also amazing songs from Dua Lipa and Selena Gomez.

Sofía Ellar ft. Álvaro Soler – Barrer a casa

I LOVE THISSSS SWEET SONG SO MUCH!!!! 🥰💕 Also, I love Sofía and Álvaro so much. They are together as a couple too and are really well known artists from Spain. Spain have more than 20.000 deaths and is now doing a bit better. They are slowly going out of the lockdown. They weren’t allowed to leave the house at all, only to the supermarket or pharmacy. This song was made in lockdown and the home made video is just so cute. It’s about this situation where we don’t have the freedom to do what we want to do.

Lola Indigo ft. Rauw Alejandro & Lalo Ebratt – 4 besos

Lola Indigo is such an amazing Spanish artist and this collaboration is so amazing! Sounds a nice beat, melody and dance! She is not only a good singer but also a great dancer 💃.

David Bisbal ft. Aitana – Si tu la quieres


David Bisbal and Aitana singing together is just a bless! It’s so beautiful and emotional. Their voices are so good together. They both ended at the second place of the Spanish talent show Operación Triunfo and are now super famous. I’m really loving this collaboration. This song is about love knowing no distance. Right now, we can’t see our families and friends but we still give love to those we love only now it’s with a distance between us.

Lewis Capaldi – Someone you loved


”I’m going under and this time I fear there’s no one to save me
This all or nothing really got a way of driving me crazy
I need somebody to heal
Somebody to know
Somebody to have
Somebody to hold
It’s easy to say
But it’s never the same
I guess I kinda liked the way you numbed all the pain”

I love Lewis Capaldi more and more now. This is such a beautiful and emotional song. We all need someone to hold us when we feel bad and not someone who leave us. His voice is so magical ✨.

Lewis Capaldi – Before you go


Another beautiful song of Lewis! It’s so touching and just so beautiful. I can’t wait to listen to more songs of him.

Leighton Meester – Summer girl

”I’m just a summer girl
I wear my flip flops
And when I let my hair down
That’s when the party starts
And who needs a boyfriend
I got my girlfriends
And when we get together
The summer never ends
Yeah whoa”

I didn’t know Leighton could sing too. She is known as Blake in one of my favourite series ever: xoxo Gossip Girl. I love country songs and this song is so cute. I’m a Summer girl too 🌞🌊🏄‍♀️. I can’t wait for Summer even though it will not be the best Summer ever. I hope to make it a good one. I can’t wait to wear my flip flops, bikini and swim in the sea. That’s my ray of happiness. She sings so well and it’s so cute!

La Oreja de Van Gogh – Abrázame

This is a beautiful new song from my favourite Spanish band. They come from Basque country. I have listened all my life to their beautiful music. This song is called hug me 🤗 and it’s so touching. It’s a new song of their upcoming new album in a few months. They just make the best music ever.

Vanesa Martín – Un canto a la vida

This is an emotional song about our current situation in the world. All the purchases of this song will go to The Red Cross to combate the Coronavirus. I think that’s a beautiful idea and the song is amazing! It’s a song about hope and about going on in life. It’s about being all together, being an empath and solidair with each other. Those are so important qualties and not only now but always. We have to give thanks for all the people working in the health sector fighting for others and for their lives each day.

Resistiré 2020 – 30 artists

This is one of my favourite Spanish songs. The original is from Dúo Dinámico. In this version 30 Spanish artists sing together about being all together and united to combate the Coronavirus together. Resistir means to resist. We have to resist all together 💪💕. We can do it even though sometimes I feel a bit tired of all of this. I just wish it wouldn’t take so long to get to a new world and see each other again. I really am craving connection and seeing my family and friends. I only see my parents because I live with them. I’m grateful for a safe home but I still miss face to face connection so much. It’s a touching song and I love that the funds go to a NGO called Cáritas in Spain.

Dani Martin ft. Juanes – Los huesos

Two amazing Spanish artists are singing together a powerful and amazing song. I love it! Their voices combine perfectly.

Selena Gomez – Boyfriend

”I want a boyfriend
But I just keep hitting dead ends
Try to take a shortcut, but I get cut
Again and again
I want a boyfriend
Tell me, are there any good ones left?
I keep finding wrong ones, but I want love
Again and again
I want a boyfriend”

Selena Gomez always makes such good music! This song is sooo catchy and nice. I really like it!! I also would love to have a nice boyfriend haha but I guess yes I only find bad ones.

Dua Lipa – Future Nostalgia

I love Dua Lipa and I’m really happy that her new album came out!!! It’s so good. I already shared the song Physical which I love in this blog post. I will share some other nice songs below.

Dua Lipa – Break my heart

WOW such an amazing song! I love it so much. Dua Lipa never fails. The video clip is also so well made. I love her vibes so much. I really can see myself dancing this song during a party but oh wait Coronatimes so that has to wait a bit more.

Dua Lipa – Boys will be boys

”It’s second nature to walk home before the sun goes down
And put your keys between your knuckles when there’s boys around
Isn’t it funny how we laugh it off to hide our fear
When there’s nothin’ funny here
Sick intuition that they taught us so we won’t freak out
We hide our figures, doin’ anythin’ to shut their mouths
We smile away to ease the tension so it don’t go south
But there’s nothin’ funny now”

OMG this song!!! 😍👌It’s so good. Again a song about feminism and the lyrics is just so good. It’s the best. We are always afraid of walking home and have our keys in our hands. Men can just walk normally during the night. We have the right to come home safely too. I love the chorus and the other voices you hear. Such a nice song. Girls will be women yeahhh right! 👭♀️💜

OG3NE – Bohemian Rhapsody

This version of Bohemian Rhapsody is so good from my favourite Dutch girl band OG3NE. They sing so beautiful in harmony together. I have so much love and respect for them. They lost their mother after participating in Eurovision a few years ago. They still sing together and it’s always so beautiful. Even the page on Instagram from Queen has reshared this video. They really deserve all the love. It’s so difficult to sing this all together while being isolated.

Miriam Rodríguez – La Dirección de tu Suerte

Miriam also participated in the Spanish talent show Operación Triunfo in 2017. This is her second album and I really like it so much. Her voice has so much power and I love the songs she writes. She is such a great singer-songwriter. She is also called ‘La Leona’ which means lion because she is a powerful women and has so much pressence when she sings on stage. I already shared the song ‘No sé quién soy’ of her new album in my last music post. I will share my favourite songs of the album below.

Miriam Rodríguez – Desperté

This is an amazing song. I love her voice, power and just everything. I also am in love with the beautiful moon 🌕. Such a beautiful way to represent this song. Desperté was the first single of the album which she released. Desperté means waking up. She sings about living with sadness. Sometimes we want to dissapear but we have to find our way in life and wake up. We have to find a way to live with the sadness we feel in life.

Miriam Rodríguez – No fui yo

This such an emotional and beautiful song. I really like it how she has so many different songs in her new album, some amazing ballads like this one and some other pop songs.

Thank you all so much for reading this blog post. Hopefully you listened to some of these amazing songs. I hope you liked them. What was your favourite song? Which is one song you listen to often? What was your favourite song in April? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love 💕,

xoxo Christina


5 surfers died doing what they loved to do the most in The North Sea 😢💔🇳🇱

11 May 2020

Hey lovelies 💕,

I wanted to write a more happy blog post but I just can’t. I have to always write what’s on my mind. Right now, I feel so much loss and I am so sad. I feel heartbroken 💔. I cried this whole week SO much. I will talk about the tragedy which happened on Monday afternoon in the beach Scheveningen 🌊🇳🇱😢. 5 surfers died doing what they loved to do the most. I also wrote a poem abou it which I will let you see below. This is also my 200th post on my blog which I’m proud about but today’s blog post is something more important. Some people will maybe not understand me but I can grief so hard for people I don’t know. I’m a sensitive person and an empath. That’s how I live my life now and forever. I will not change that for anyone if you like it or not.

On Monday afternoon in Scheveningen at 7 o’clock a group of surfers came in problems. There was a strong wind and current. They didn’t surf near to the port because it’s more dangerous there. They know the sea so well because they were experienced and even life guards. They found the two bodies on Monday and the other two on Tuesday. They are still searching for the fifth body. Even the rescue team had problems in finding them. Some people were saved, a man who was 40 years old and other people. A friend of them was saved. They were all from the regio of The Hague. The ones who died were between 20 and 30 years old. It’s so heartbreaking that the sea took their lives. It was even on the news of the World Surf League which is the association of surfing professionals. They died suffocated in the foam. This is very strange because that doesn’t happen often. Now they will further investigate it. I hate when people say it’s their fault. I find it disrespectful when people say that. The rescue team in The Netherlands saved one person who also had a baby, a family together. That person was friends with the ones who died. I wouldn’t know how to cope when I know my best friends died but I got saved. I think it must be so heartbreaking.

I know surfing is sometimes a risky sport but surfers know that. I love surfing and even made my thesis about surfing for graduating college. I wrote about the surf brand O’Neill and the surfing lifestyle. I love to live that lifestyle like all surfers are living that. It means to enjoy the sea, having respect for nature, for the environment and for every living being. I’m a beginner surfer by heart. The sea is my home. I also surfed on the beach of Scheveningen many times. It makes me the most happy person ever. Even though I’m not good at catching waves yet, I have fun and feel the most alive on my surfboard. They died doing what they loved to do. I just don’t think there’s anything poetic about that because it must be a horrible death being drowned by the sea. I’m so sorry for them 😢. I think they suffered a lot and did all they could to be saved. Since I heard the news I couldn’t stop crying. I wrote a poem about what happened. It’s also on my poetry account on Instagram. I can’t think of anything else right now.

The wild sea

I love the sea

It’s my favourite place in the world

I love to hear the waves crashing to the shore

I love to smell the salty air

I love to feel the wind in my face

I love the taste of the salt sea

I love to see the waves

What I love the most of surving

Is the feeling of being alive

It makes me so happy

At the same time the sea scares me

Last night a tragedy happened in Scheveningen

5 experienced body surfers lost their lives

The wind & the big waves took their lives

How can nature be so cruel?

How can be something so beautiful at the same time kill people?

It’s mother nature at their wildest

I spent the day crying

I don’t know you but I feel the losses in my heart

Being an empath and highly sensitive person makes you grief people you don’t even know

I’m so sorry Joost, Sander, Pim, Max and Matthijs

The sea took your life

May you rest in peace

You were all too young

You died doing what you loved to do

We are mourning the losses

The sky is crying with you

You are all an inspiration for us

You will not forgotten

I send all my love to the friends and family

You are all loved

The surfing community will always be there for each other

We will stick together

Love you 💕

A sea of words

I hope you all liked my poem. The picture is from someone on Instagram. I love to see sunsets on the beach. They are the most magical ever. I truly believe these heroes are somewhere there watching us from above. We will continue surfing remembering them. I just always have to write a poem when a tragedy happens, especially one so close to home. Scheveningen is a place I come often to surf, chill and enjoy the beach. It’s close to The Hague where I went to college to. I often celebrate my birthday at the surf school Hart Beach. These men were from another surf school but they were all surf teachers and know the sea very well. They know the dangers. The meters of foam happened suddenly when they were body surfing. I love the community of surfers so much. They are all so lovely and connected with each other. I have some friends who surfed with me but I would love to find more people who could surf with me. Sometimes I was also thinking to get a job in the surf industry. It would be so amazing! Caring about the environment, enjoying nature and loving the sea is everything I stand for in life. I know some of my studies live there and are also heartbroken about the news. Also one girl from my studies know some people who have died. She’s a professional surfer who surfed with them too.

It’s so sad that life can be over in just one second. We never know when will be the last day we are living. We never know when we will die. It terrifies me but at the same time it also makes me think that I want to live the life of my dreams. I would love to learn to be able to surf well and catch some good waves. It makes me feel alive, happy and feel less anxious. The sea cures everything but sometimes it’s a monster which takes people. I always have much respect for the sea. It’s mother nature at it’s wildest 🌊. We can learn how to surf the waves but we can’t go against the sea. The sea will always be stronger than us at the end. Nature will always be stronger than human beings and can destroy us whenever we least except it, thinking of natural disasters such as earthquakes or tsunami’s. We really have to care more about mother nature. It’s the most beautiful thing in the world and also sometimes the scariest thing ever 😢. We have absolutely no control of it.

Today, our hearts go out to the 5 families and friends of the people we lost in Scheveningen yesterday. The 5 surfers where body surfing and were experienced. They didn’t come home after their session. Even though I don’t know them I feel this loss so deeply. I am an empath and highly sensitive person and always feel everything so deeply. I don’t have to know someone personally to feel what others are going through. I can feel their feelings so deeply. This is the prize I take for feeling so much. I also suffer so much too. I don’t know how I would cope when someone I know dies. This is a black day for the Dutch surf community and we wish all who are involved the strength to deal with this loss 😢🌊🙏🏄🇳🇱. We are all mourning their losses. The sea is so wild and strong. It takes and gives. I am here for you all. Sending you all my love and strength 💕🙏. I hope this poem made you feel less alone in mourning their grief.

A picture of the ones who died: Joost, Sander, Max, Matthijs and Pim and a tribute with pictures and flowers by surf school Shore in Scheveningen

Always when something like this happen I would love to help other people and be of service. I know I can’t make the death surfers come back into life. I wish that power would exist. If I lived near to Scheveningen I would bring flowers to the surf school. Everyone is doing that and they are griefing all together around the place where the tragedy happened. Maybe, I’m going to sent the surf school a card and flowers letting them know they aren’t alone in their pain. The families and friends need to grief right now and need their privacy. I also am going to donate money for the KNRM which is the The Royal Netherlands Sea Rescue Institution. They are always rescuing people and it’s important to donate money even though you may not have much money. You can donate on this website: KNRM.

This is a beautiful poem I found on Instagram. It sounds better in Dutch of course but I loved it.

”If mermen really existed,
at home on the coast and could go as fishes through the water
then they were named surfers
and everyone in Scheveningen would know that
the sea belongs to them and they belong to the sea
her waves took the men forever with her.”

Thank you all for reading this heartbreaking but necessary blog post. It was my 200th blog post. I just had to write about this tragedy. What do you think of my poem? Are you a sea lover? Does the sea scares you? Does anything similiar happened in your country? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love 💕,

xoxo Christina

Stop making a taboo about having periods

4 May 2020

Hey lovelies 💕,

I just had to write this blog post because I feel bad these days because of my upcoming period. I find it important to raise awareness about having our periods. I’m going to talk about period pain and periods in general. I already talked about it one day. I don’t understand why we don’t talk more about it and why it’s still considered a taboo when it’s something natural. I think we have to talk more about it so that women don’t feel alone while suffering each month from heavy pain, blood, mood swings and everything which comes with having our periods. Men often say that women get crazy when their period is coming well we aren’t crazy, our hormones are making us feel that way. It’s not something we choose for. I find it always so disgusting when people say that we like to be completely mad. If they would suffer from it, they wouldn’t say that because then they would know how it feels. You never know what’s someone is going through until you feel those feelings and those experiences by yourself.

So, Saturday night I experienced so much pain that I thought OMG I will die. I was sitting on the floor covering my tummy. My body was IN SO MUCH PAIN. I cried so much. I know almost certain that it has to do with my period coming and pms. It isn’t normal though. I have always had painful and heavy periods. I know I’m not the only woman suffering through this 😭. It’s so hard. The strange thing is that I never felt it that way and I still don’t have my period. I think it’s pms because for the rest I’m not sick or anything. I also feel angry and emotional. I also feel way more anxious before my period. I also have read that it’s because of our hormones. They make us feel like crazy. I always have mood swings before period and I’m so hungry. I just ate a pizza 🍕 last night haha. I craved it so badly 😂😋.

There’s still a taboo talking about it. I know some men don’t like to hear it and find it gross. I remember one time I was on my period during high school and I always bleed so much. I knew my jeans were a bit red 😭. I wanted to go to the toilet but they didn’t let me. I didn’t say I had my period. I found it so uncomfortable. I also have heard of men who are super supportive and that makes me so happy. The friends I have in my life who are men are very supportive and care about me. That’s the direction we have to go. Well, it’s the most natural thing ever of being a women which has to be respected. Maybe if women had more information and resources, pain and other issues surrounding our moon would be more manageable. We can’t fix a problem when we can’t talk about it. Talking about it helps to raise awareness and will make us come to a solution all together. I also agree that women have to get more benefits surrounding their periods like free days at work and that pads, tampons and every other product for our periods doesn’t cost anything anymore. We don’t ask for it. Condoms are often given for free but we have to buy these products which also cost so much money. It is definitely not fair at all.

Years ago, women had their period always in sync with the full moon 🌜. That’s why they also call it our moon. It goes in sync with how we feel too. Before our period we may feel more emotional, heavy, sad, angry or just feel that something is off. That means the end of something. When our period begins we begin a new life, a new cycle. Maybe my period is coming on the full moon this Thursday. When I read this somewhere on the internet I felt in awe 🌝. The full moon has definitely an effect on us. I sleep worse the night before and feel more emotional. It’s so beautiful to think we can bring a life into this world. We women are magical creatures of the universe ✨💞 and have to embrace this with our whole heart. The thought of one day getting a baby is beautiful but at the same time it overwhelms me. I don’t know how to take sometimes good care of myself. How would I be able to take care of a child? Also, I’m afraid of getting pregnant and giving birth. I already feel so bad with having my period every month. How would I survive giving birth? I don’t think I’m the only thinking this. I also find it good that women don’t have to have children because it’s their choice like to do abortion too. Every women has the right to decide what to do with their bodies.

I think I will have to check this problem soon because what I felt last weekend was the worst 😢. I’m always anxious about going to the doctor so I don’t go only when I really have to. It gets worse every month. I hope I don’t have anything serious or like endometriose. I know many of my friends also suffer this way and some women don’t feel much. They are definitely the lucky ones. I wish my life was pain free, oh how a different world would that be. Sometimes I wouldn’t be able to walk because of so much cramps. I’m happy I have Aleve meds which is Naproxen and helps very well. Otherwise I wouldn’t be able to cope at all. I just don’t know if I would like to take birth control because I also read some bad stories with side effects. I don’t know if that would be good for my mental health. I just don’t really know what is good or bad for my body.

I just really think we have to talk more about our periods without any shame. It’s 2020 and it’s about time to stop hiding our feelings or thoughts on important topics such as this one in the world. Only then we can come to a solution and feel less alone in our struggles. I’m so happy my mamita is always there to comfort me. Also, my daddy understands me because he sees me suffering every damn month 😢. I wish everyone has a person that is there for them. No one has to deal with hard stuff in life alone. No women has to go through this alone every time of the month. I hope you have friends, family and other loved ones who are there for you when you feel bad during that time of the month. You deserve that love and compassion so much. Your feelings are valid. You are not alone 💞🌈🙏. You are loved. I love you all.

Thank you all for reading this important blog post. I found it important to talk about this subject. How are your periods? Do you take meds or birth control? What are some tips to ease the pain? I’m always here for you. Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love 💕,

xoxo Christina

March favourites 💕✨

28 Apr 2020

Hola lovelies 💕,

I’m back with my favourites from March. It was a good month until we got all locked down at home. I was struggling so much by that time. Now I feel a bit more calm. It feels more normal when of course life is not normal. It was nice to have some fun in March. It was nice to have seen some people which I didn’t see for a long time. I’m missing them now 😢. In this blog post I will share about meeting my best friend and her girlfriend, seeing the baby of my friends brother and having a new laptop.

Things I did with my lovely family 👪:

Visiting the baby of my friends brother 👶

We visited the baby of my friends brother. They are also our friends. We went to their wedding. My parents are also friends with their parents. The father of the child has a brother which is bff with my brother since they were little. They were in the same classes. It was so nice to see the baby Ryan👶🍼💖. He is so cute and lovely. He is so calm too and sleep peacefully 😴. We ate beschuit met muisjes together with tea which is typical to eat in The Netherlands. They were blue because it’s a boy otherwise it’s pink for a girl. I love this tradition. We also loved the 4 cats, my fav is the orange cat haha Garfield! 😍🐱 They are so fluffy and cute!!!! It was nice to see the wedding pictures too. It’s been already 7 years since we were on their beautiful wedding.

Pancakes time 🥞

After visiting the baby we ate some delicious pancakes at home. I always love to eat them so much. My daddy makes the best pancakes in the world. They were delicious as always! 😍😋

Walks in the park 🌞

It was very sunny in March and even more now in April. I love to walk in the park with my mother which is just around the corner of my house. It’s nice to be in nature always. I love to go on walks where we see the cows and the mills which is a typical Dutch landscape. I also saw some beautiful pink flowers.

Eating a delicous disco dip ice cream 🍦

I love disco dip ice cream so much 😍. It’s so typical to eat this here. I ate it at the Hema when it was still open for ice cream. Right now, the restaurant is closed. You can still get ice cream in some other places though. I love this so much. It’s also so good for my teeth lol not. It’s so delicious. I love the crispy taste of it. Also it looks so beautiful.

New stationery from Euroland 🛍️

When I went shopping I bought some nice stationery from the shop Euroland. I bought a sticker set which has some beautiful theme stickers from Spring time, cats and quotes. I also bought a set of 6 envelopes with liners. I love it all.

Watching the movie Aladdin and It could happen to you 🎬

I watched Aladdin with my mother. I had never watched it haha how bad. I loved it so much. I love the music and just the whole movie. Such a great movie. I can’t wait to watch more Disney movies because I love them so much ✨. With both of my parents I watched It could happen to you. It’s about a police officer who promises to share his lottery ticket with a waitress in lieu of a tip. This police officer is married. I loved this romantic movie so much. I didn’t find it that cliché like other movies. There was a really great story line and I loved the actors.

Things I did with my lovely friends 💕:

Seeing my best friend and her girlfriend 😍💖

I saw my bestie and her girlfriend again on Friday the 13th which was definitely a lucky day. I went by bus and was a bit scared because soon after that we got into a lockdown in The Netherlands. I’m just happy I saw my best friend again after three months 😍😭✨ In these dark and hard times in the world I always feel at most peace by your side. I literally am crying now. I love you to the moon and back, to infinity and beyond 🌜🌛. It’s rare to find someone who understands you. I’m so blessed to have you in my life forevah. As long as I have you by my side everything will be all right. Thank you and your lovely girlfriend for cooking delicious Indonesian food!!! It was a bit spicy which I can’t eat because I get an upset stomach but it was okay haha. If it was really spicy I would have died lol. Take care you both, see ya soon! 👋🤗

Beautiful pen pal letters 💌

I love my pen pals so much. I always get such beautiful mail which make my day much better 😍. There’s nothing more beautiful than receiving a handwritten letter and some nice goodies. I love arts and crafts. Being creative is the best. It inspires me and is so good for my mental health. I’m happy for the letter I got from Agata which came all the way from Poland. I loved it so much. I loved the writing paper. I loved the quotes on that paper which looks like it’s burned. I have never seen that before. Thank you for the rainbow bookmark. I will definitely use it soon. It’s so cute! ☁️ Thank you Chloe for your mail like always. You are so creative!!!! A real artist. I love the gemini ♊ card. You knew that I would love it too so much. I love the universe ✨. Your letter was beautiful. I like the stickers, the drawings and the bookmark. Another one for my collection haha! I also really liked the moon with my name. I’m going to have it in my room. Love you to the moon and back. I’m so thankful for our friendship. I know we will meet soon.

I’m also thankful for the amazing mail I got from Rosie. I’m so happy to be friends with you. I loved everything you sent to me always especially the quotes, the little friendship card and your letter of course. I decorated my room with some of the quotes you have sent me. We are all in this together always. I’m sending you all my love. Thank you lovely Sophia for your beautiful letter. I love the rainbow sticky notes, the stickers and just everything. What I love the most is your cards with quotes on it which you always make. They are so inspiring and beautiful. Keep being you because you are awesome.

I  L O V E  Y O U  A L L 💖

Other amazing things of March 💖:

Buying beautiful stationery online 🛒

I bought some beautiful stationery online. I love to buy on Etsy because I support small businesses that way and they have the cutest stuff ever. I bought a floral A5 lined notepad and A6 notepad from Abby Cook Illustration. It looks so beautiful with the flowers 💐. I will use it for writing letters for my pen pals. I also bought cute washi tape with panda design from Petite Pink Boutique. Lastly, I bought an awesome space mystery box from Callaby Crafts. It includes samples of washi tape, three washi tape with universe design, dream notes, stickers of the moon 🌜and a pen. I loved it all so much! 😍 I love the universe so much.

New laptop 💻

My daddy finally bought a new laptop because the other one was broken. It’s a Chromebook from the brand Acer. It works so well. You have to install first the apps and then you can use it. The screen is beautiful. It’s better than Windows or Mac because you don’t get any virus. I’m so happy with it. The next time we go to Spain we will bring it with us.

Officially Spring time 💐🌞🌼🌻

Spring begin the 20th of March 🌞. I’m always happy with the beginning of Spring because I love Spring and Summer is closer which is my favourite season ever. However, I hope that we are able to go to the beach this Summer and go to the swimming pool. I need that 😢. Spring is such a lovely season. I love Summer but I hate heatwaves haha. They make me sick really. I love 20 degrees and just enjoy the days in the garden now. I love to see the baby animals and see the flowers blossoming. Nature in Spring is so beautiful. We let the dark Winter ahead and embrace these days with hope and light. We need it so much this time.

International Women’s Day 2020 ♀️💜

I always find this such an important day. International Women’s Day is every day not only on March the 8th. However, I find this day an important day to raise awareness. I’m a feminist by heart forever and will always stand up for the same rights between men and women. Right now, I’m reading a book about sexual harrasment and controlling behaviour which breaks my heart because I know that many women have to suffer through this in life. This really has to stop. One day I went to a feminist strike in Spain which was awesome 💪👭. You can read it in this blog post. This year I made a poem for this day which you can find here.

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope you are all safe and sound at home. I really do hope better times are coming because we all deserve it so much. What was your favourite thing of my list? What’s your favourite season? Do you like my new stationery? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love 💕,

xoxo Christina