Right in this moment all is well

Hola lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

Today I want to talk about what I have expierencing these last days together with some realizations I have got. It’s about sharing my deepest thoughts and feelings with you as I have always done and always will do until the day I die. I hope this post will not turn into a depressive post but just so you know it before I begin to talk.

Last Friday I began to read the book of Yoga Girl called “To love and let go”. I will not tell you a lot about it because I really want to do one post about it when I have finished it. It just deserves a post on its own. It’s the most spiritual, healing and just best book I haver ever read ๐Ÿ’—โœจ. It feels like my Bible ๐Ÿ“–. I’m at page 74 and it has more than 300 pages so I’m happy there is still so much more to read. I have always said that The fault in our stars is my favourite book but this book is a memoir, based on a real life story and I feel like this is my next favourite book. Yoga Girl also called Rachel Brathen is an international yoga teacher with her own yoga studio called Island Yoga in Aruba. She lives there with her hushband and daughter. Her story is about loss, love and gratitude. She lost her best friend in a car accident and right in that moment she had to go through surgery for her appendix in Bonaire. It’s a heart breaking story ๐Ÿ’”๐Ÿ˜ข.

Every chapter is amazing, just so beautiful, just out of the world ๐Ÿ˜. In one chapter she is writing about how in this exact moment all is well and that anxiety and fear dissapears when we think of the present. There’s this book called “The power of now” which also talks about this. I want to read it one day. I think about this a lot as I have been sleeping so bad these last nights. I thought maybe it’s because of reading this book as it’s so beautiful but also heavy. I think way too much and then get anxious of having so many thoughts in my mind ๐Ÿ˜ข. I wish I could turn them all off and be like it’s enough now and stop it. Anxiety doesn’t work that way. It’s so hard to be present when your mind is constantly in war with you. I also think social media plays a role in this too so these last days I have been using it less. I like it but it also increase my anxiety and makes me feel bad about myself. Blogging and being in communities is so much better. I can’t deal with fake people anymore. I want real connections where I can talk about real life stuff such as deep conversations about death, the universe, our dreams and struggles. Social media feels so fake. I want to learn new things and get inspired instead of getting impressed of people with their fake happiness in life.

Also I think a lot about life and death lately. I have always thought about it and now I think even more about it. I already wrote about my fear of death in this post. I have always been afraid of death โ˜ ๏ธ but also of life because my whole life I live out of fear instead of love. That’s my problem. Sometimes I’m afraid to sleep because of not waking up the next morning. Then I get panic at night and keep waking up. I just fear that everything will stop one day, that everyone I love will die one day and that all of this will stop existing one day. It’s a scary thought ๐Ÿ˜ข. I fear dying but what I fear most is just the thought of being death. I hope I’m not sounding strange but when I shared it in the community of Yoga Girl on Facebook I was happy that I wasn’t alone in this. There are more people afraid of this. It makes me feel good that I’m not the only one thinking about this.

I talk about this with some of my friends or my parents. My daddy said why would you worry about it when you are death because you wouldn’t know it and he also said that before we were born we were also not here. Life is strange. I agree with him but it just still feels strange. I’m just always thinking about the past which includes being bullied, having my heart broken and all the negative stuff and then when that’s done I began to worry and think about the future and so I’m constant in fear and anxiety anticipating the worst things in life. I know we all will die one day and that death is part of life. I just have to find a way in living a life where I can be happy and at peace with my mind. I hope that we can all find that one day as we deserve it โœจ

That’s also the reason why I don’t know if I will ever try therapy because I don’t know if it would help me as I have to move on from the past. I know I have to let it all out but I also have to let it go and not dwell in the past which only increase my anxiety. I also want to take yoga lessons ๐Ÿง˜โ€โ™€๏ธ in a class one day. From reading this book I’m learning that right now all is well. I do meditation sometimes with Yoga Girl’s podcasts which is amazing. I’m getting better with it than before. Sometimes I cry while meditating as I’m releasing my emotions. Children are always living in the present moment. I’m thinking about when we as adults stopped doing that. When did that happen? It’s sad because then everything makes sense. It’s normal to feel anxious when we are constantly thinking about the past or future. If we would think more often of the present, right now, how would we feel? I definitely would feel more at peace and less anxious. All is well. That’s going to be my mantra from now on. I know it’s difficult because anxiety often gets in the way but at least I can try.

Today was a good day too because I slept well last night and it was great weather. The sun was even shining a bit ๐ŸŒž. I got beautiful pen pal mail and Christmas presents from my friends in UK. Selena Gomez and Duncan Laurence released a new song which I loved ๐ŸŽถ. I still didn’t get my period which for one reason is good but I also don’t want to get it when I’m travelling to Spain next week. I had also fun meeting up with my best friend and had a delicious lunch together in Haarlem ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜‹. We also went stationery shopping which is just the best. You will see what I bought in another post. I also saw her family later which I loved because they are basically my second family haha. Her father always says I’m his adopted daughter.

When I came back home I was walking to my home from the bus stop. I was listening to the birds and saw the Autumn leaves ๐Ÿ‚๐Ÿ๐Ÿƒ on the street. I saw the beautiful green trees. I could smell the Fall. I felt some wind on my face and right in that moment, I felt part of this universe. All is well I thought. Everything is exactly the way it’s because it’s suppose to be this way. I will find my way in life. The universe will always have my back. I’m so blessed so blessed to be alive right now. Thank you life for all the good and bad. I have tears in my eyes right now while writing this. I mean it. I really do. This life is so fragile. We really have to be thankful for all of it ๐Ÿ™โœจ๐Ÿ’—

“If I could stay in the moment and just be, I’d always come back to the same conclusion: all is well. Every time my mind took control, I challenged myself to not get pulled into panic mode.”

– To love and let go by Rachel Brathen

Thank you all for reading this post. I hope you understand what I just shared with you all. Do you also live more in the future than in the present moment? How does it make you feel? Do you also think a lot about life and death? Let me know lovelies. I’m always here for you ๐Ÿ’–. I will speak to you all soon in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’ž,

xoxo Christina

Music of September ๐ŸŽถ๐Ÿ’—

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

Again another month full of beautiful music. A lot of Spanish music was released and also other amazing songs such as from Camila Cabello and OG3NE. I hope you all will like it a lot ๐Ÿ’—.

Ariana Grande, Miley Cyrus & Lana del Rey – Don’t call me angel

I really like this song!! I wished Lana del Rey would have song more in this song though but it’s a good song. The three queens singing together ๐Ÿ‘ธ๐Ÿ˜. We can’t ask for more, right?!

Camila Cabello – Shameless

Camila is on fire with releasing good music! ๐Ÿ”ฅ Shameless is such a good song. Also this sentence in her lyrics “Iโ€™m tired of loving somebody thatโ€™s not mineโ€ really can be so relatable.

Camila Cabello – Liar

Camila is not only a good singer but also a great actress. LOVE THIS SONG. I love the beat, the sound and also the videoclip is very fun to watch. It’s a very catchy song which can get into your head very easily.

Zahara – Con las ganas (Versiรณn 2019)

This is one of my favourite Spanish songs ever. It’s so beautiful and so emotional ๐Ÿ˜ญ. Zahara is such a good artist. This song was already released a few years ago but she made another version this year. You can also hear it in the Spanish serie ร‰lite which I didn’t watch yet and also in the Spanish talent show. The song is about a loved one who betrayed her. She composed this song while crying and singing in a grey room.

Sofia Ellar – Media Tinta

Wow such a beautiful and emotional song from one of my fav Spanish artists! ๐Ÿ’— Sofia Ellar is amazing. This song is so beautiful. I also love how she is covered with inkt as tinta in the title means inkt in Spanish. It feels so raw and vulnerable. This song is about the two Sofia’s, one is the artist and the other one is just being herself where she also show her sensitivity and sensibility.

Sofia Ellar ft. Dani Fernรกndez – Rock’n’rolles de chiquillos

This is a beautiful version with Dani of this song from Sofia. This song is about a loved one who went away and then suddenly one day that loved one rings again at your door while you are heartbroken. Such a powerful balad. The voices are so well connected to each other and seeing Sofia sing always makes me so happy as she is just so real and honest. LOVE HER SO MUCH ๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’ฏ.

OG3NE – First clash lovers

This three sisters from OG3NE are amazing. I always love their songs as well as this new song of the new album which comes out next month. I can’t wait. I love the harmony of their beautiful voices. I really hope I can see them live in The Netherlands soon.

Julia Michaels – If you need me

“I wish I could fix it, I wish I knew what to say
But everything feels likeโ€…aโ€…lie these days
Don’tโ€…know how not to feel thatโ€…way, oh
They’re reaching for reasons, it’s all gonna be okay
But everyone feels like a liar these days
Don’t know how not to feel that way

But if you need me, I’ll be right there
When you’re dreaming all your nightmares
I’ll come tackle the monsters
I’ll find where they hide in the nighttime
If you need me, I’ll be right there
When you’re happy and when you’re scared
I can still be your shoulder
I’ll be by your side even if I’m not next to you”

Such a beautiful song! Julia wrote this song inspired by the โ€œSorry For Your Lossโ€ community on Facebook. We all will have to live with loosing people in our life which will break our heart ๐Ÿ’”๐Ÿ˜ข. It’s in those times that we need such a song and remind us of the people who are right there for us to overcome the bad times in life. It broke my heart when one woman said: “It’s been so difficult not to have him. Not to have him as my person anymore.”

Julia Michaels – Priest

“Sometimes, I miss you and then I remember
That I deserve much better
Cover my tattoo about you with another
And now I’m feeling much better

Oh, you broke my heart and now you want some redemption
Oh, it’s obvious that you ain’t learned your lesson
Oh, you’re owning up so you can get to heaven
Oh, but I’m not a priest, so fuck your confession”

Finally she released the music video of this catchy song. I really like it so much. Hell yeah, we deserve much better always. We have to let our exes in the past because they are there for a reason.

Amaia – Pero no pasa nada

Amaia, the winner of the Spanish talent show Operaciรณn Triunfo finally released her first album. She is such a lovely and amazing singer. I always feel nostalgic when I listen to her songs. Before the release she already shared some amazing songs such as Quedarรก en nuestra mente, El Relรกmpago, y Nadie podrรญa hacerlo. I shared these songs in this and this post. You can see my other three favourites songs from her album below.

Amaia – Quiero que vengas

AMAZING SONG! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‘Œ Amaia also created literally art in this videoclip as she recreated famous paintings in this clip. I think she has such a beautiful style of music. It isn’t mainstream. I love that she makes music which relate to being her authentically self. I wish there would be more artists like her.

Amaia – Nuevo verano

This is such a lovely song. She sings about how she loves this world but she loves him more. She loves to talk to him. She also sings about how Summer ends and that it will not come back. I feel very happy, inspired and also nostalgic when I listen to this song.

Amaia – Porque apareciste

Her voice sounds like an angel and is so beautiful ๐Ÿงšโ€โ™€๏ธ. What I love the most of this song is her voice and hearing the guitar as background. It’s just so perfect together. She sings about that she loves someone because he appeared in her life. She loves him with all his lies.

The light the heat – Your love is my home

“You are the sunrise waking my day
You are the moonlight shining my way
This is where I call home

You are the fire warming my night
With you I’ll stay till the morning light
This is where I call home
This is where I call home

Your love is like no other
Your love is where I feel alive
My safety and my shelter
Your love is my home

I love this song so much ๐Ÿ’•. It’s so beautiful, magical and makes me feel calm โœจ. I heard this song in a video of Yoga Girl on her Instagram to announce her book tour “To love and let go”. I always love to discover new amazing music. There’s so much beautiful music to be discovered.

Agoney – Black

I also know Agoney from the Spanish talent show Operaciรณn Triunfo. His voice is beautiful and this song shows it. He sings about how this society we live in is sick and only thinks of likes. It’s just so true that we live in a fake world where it’s hard to be ourselves and be different. It feels like we have to be like everyone else is. I also really love the black atmosphere in this clip as it maches so well with this song.

Luca Hรคnni – Bella Bella

Luca is so cute, sings well and also dances well ๐Ÿ’ƒ. Luca represented Switzerland this year in Eurovision Song Contest with the song “She got me.” This is his new single and I really like it. The beat is also very nice.

Miki Nรบรฑez – Amuza

Miki from the Spanish talent show released his first album. I find his album very positive which makes me happy to dance and sing to every song of him. It’s a celebration of life ๐ŸŽ‰. I already shared how much I loved his single “Celebrate” in this post and of course his song for Eurovision “La venda”. I will maybe go to his concert next month in Spain. I will share my other favourites songs of his album below.

Miki Nรบรฑez ft. Adriร  Salas, Arnau Griso & Nil Moliner – Eterno verano

This song is only good vibes ๐Ÿ’—โœŒ๏ธ. I love Miki singing with these artists all together so much. It’s a song about living an endless Summer ๐ŸŒž. Oh how I wish that could be possible. BRING SUMMER BACK PLEASE OKAY. At least we have this song which reminds us of the sunshine. I also can relate to the sentence he sings about how waking up early is dying. I’m so a night owl haha ๐Ÿฆ‰๐Ÿ˜ด.

Miki Nรบรฑez ft. Sofia Ellar – Coral del Arrecife

My favourites Miki and Sofia sang together this amazing song. It’s a song about the coral reef. I really like the two voices combined.

Miki Nรบรฑez – Escriurem

Aaaah so beautiful!!! ๐Ÿ˜ I love this song so much. I especially love this song because he doesn’t sing in Spanish but in Catalan. There are a lot of problems right now in this region because they want to seperate from Spain. I really hope it will be solved soon ๐Ÿ™. The Spaniards and Catalans really love each other. I just think they have to dialogue and come to a peaceful solution. I don’t want to say more about this political issue as it’s hard to talk about it in Spain. I really love that Miki sings in his mother language. I really like this language and it sounds so good in this song.

Thank you all for reading this blog post and listening to some new music ๐ŸŽต. Which song did you like most? What was your favourite song in September? To which artist do yo listen to? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

World Mental Health Day 2019, you are never alone ๐ŸŒ๐Ÿ’—

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

Today is a very important day in the world ๐ŸŒ. October the 10th is World Mental Health Day. I write about this every year as I find it so important. You can find my post of 2017 here and my post of 2018 here. I never want to write exactly the same every year because otherwise it would be borring haha. I suffer from a mental illness which is anxiety. They say 1 out of 5 people suffer from a mental illness in their lives at one point. Suicide rates are really high and statistics have shown that there are more men who die by suicide than women. This is really shocking to know. I also read it in this article of BBC news. Today I’m going to talk about mental health stigma, anxiety and mental health related to gender.

To begin with, we all have mental and physical health. Our brains work together with our whole body. Some ignorant people still forget that. When I feel anxious I begin to have negative thoughts about life and death. I feel like I can’t move on in life. Right now, I’m again struggling with my mental health. I also think it’s because of the change from Summer to the Winter months. I never deal well with having less sunshine and daylight ๐Ÿ˜ญ. I can’t understand why people don’t understand that our body and mine are one and that everything is connected. So, when I begin to have unrealistic thoughts and think about all the bad things which can happen if I do a certain thing then I already begin to feel anxious. This means that I begin to feel nauseous, dizzy, feel my heart beating really fast, feel my breath becoming faster and just feel so bad. This eventually can get worse which can result in having a panic attack, totally feeling out of control and in my case also having to vomit. What I fear the most is going through that again and it just feels like I’m going to die.

We are all living in the 21th century. It’s 2019 and there are still people who feel like it’s okay to judge someone who is struggling with their mental health. I really can’t understand that. How can that be possible?! It makes me sad but most of all it makes me so angry ๐Ÿ˜ก. Life is though for everyone of us. We all deal with our own problems and struggles in life. I really do believe life is even thougher for someone going with a mental illness. The mind plays with us which makes it dangerous. How can someone say to one who is dealing with an eating disorder that they just have to eat a bit more or eat less? Why do people say to someone who is going through anxiety to just be happy and stop worrying? How they hell can people say to just go out of bed when someone is struggling with a severe depression? YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT ๐Ÿ™„. Some people don’t know what it’s like to go through a mental illness because they have never gone through it but there are also some other people who just want to hurt others with their hurtful comments.

I just had to say this because I’m done with these comments. I’m done hearing from a “friend” say to me that I don’t try hard enough to get a job and move on in life. I’m done with hearing I’m lazy because I sleep a lot. I’m done hearing to snap out of it because I just can’t. Having a mental illness is a complex and difficult think to have and for others to understand. I don’t even understand my brain so how can someone help me when I can’t explain it either. If I could snap out of it all then I would already have done it. Give me that magic bottle of that witch ๐Ÿง™โ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ”ฎ and I will drink it all. WHOEHOEEE NO ANXIETY ANYMORE I’M SO HAPPY. Well, unfortunately it doesn’t work that way. I really wish it would be that simple. I’m not going to therapy and still don’t know if I will go one day. I already said a few posts ago that I went to a woman who wasn’t a real psychologist a few years ago and had to vomit every time I had to go. I told it to her and she said it could be that I just don’t want to let myself seen. It’s really true. I hide myself all the time. I always avoid everything I fear and everything what makes me uncomfortable such as going to the dentist and other social situations. I also don’t know if therapy would really work for me. I don’t know if I will ever be free of anxiety. If I talk about anxiety, I get anxious. For me, what would be helpful is talking about the things I struggle with while taking action. Solving problems and thoughtful thinking.

Therapy isn’t for everyone as well as medication isn’t good for everyone. Natural medication doesn’t help my anxiety as I have tried lots of stuff such as St. John’s Wort and Valerian Root. I also took for two years a low dose of antidepressants just 20mg and it didn’t work as I think it was too less. What works for me is an anti anxiety medication such as Valium or Bromazepam. I only take this when I feel high anxiety or when I’m close to a panic attack. I know it isn’t good to take it often but sometimes you just need it. Taking medication for a physical health illness is okay so why would it be shameful to take something for our mental illness? Our mental health is as important as our physical health.

What for me also helps in dealing with anxiety is doing the things which makes me happy to be alive such as my passions. I love loads of things. As Taylor Swift says, we are the things we love ๐Ÿ’—. I love writing, reading good books ๐Ÿ“š, blogging (of course lol!), singing ๐ŸŽถ, surfing ๐Ÿ„โ€โ™€๏ธ, listening to music, swimming in the sea, having fun with my friends and family, photography and travelling. What I also love is following people like on this blog or on Instagram who make me feel good about myself and who inspire me. I love to follow artists such as Ariana Grande, Julia Michaels, Talor Swift, Duncan Laurence, Aitana, Alfred Garcรญa, Rosalรญa, Amaia, Sofia Ellar, Alvaro Soler, Ed Sheeran, Passenger and many more who make me happy and who align with my being โœจ. I also love Yoga Girl her postcasts so much and everything she does for this world. She’s my biggest inspiration in life ๐Ÿ˜. I really am so happy to have these people in my life as they make me so happy. I wish to meet them all (I met some of them) and enjoy their concerts live.

I really do believe that having a community such as the blogging community, Yoga Girl community or pen pal community makes our life better. Being surrounded by people who make us feel good about ourselves is so important as it can make us feel less alone. It makes us feel that we belong somewhere and that everything we feel is real and valid ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’—. I love to be honest, vulnerable and sensitive. I really do believe that the only way we can heal our hearts is with opening our hearts and share all the ugly and beautiful things in life. We heal the world with healing ourselves first. All my friends in real life or online, my family or the people I follow on social media are honest about themselves. I only crave real connections in life. I’m done with all those fake people with their fake bodies and lives. That only makes me feel worse especially when I feel anxious.

What I would like to see in the upcoming year and all the years which have to come is that we all can talk openly about our mental health and mental illnesses. I would like people to be more compassionate and show empathy. We need that in order to speak up. When you see someone struggling, be there for that person. Sometimes we need advice but sometimes all we need is someone who says that they will be there for us and give us a hug. It’s the little things which count. I also would like that society treats women and men equally in this subject of mental health. Men are not less a man because they show their emotions or because they have to cry. Women are not crazy for showing their emotions or for being more emotional. We all show our emotions in our own ways and are equal. Hopefully then the rates of suicide will be less.

I also do believe we all need the help we deserve. Going through a mental illness can happen to anyone. It doesn’t matter how old you are, what your nationality is or what gender you have. It can effect anyone of us at any moment in our lives. There needs to be better treatment available which makes asking for helping easier. The waiting lists has to change, people need to get good help after being in crisis, and just a lot of other things need to change in this system so that it can be available for everyone. People with a low income or those who are unemployed also have to get the help they need. It breaks my heart to see how in some countries there are people struggling with their mental health with no help at all ๐Ÿ’”๐Ÿ˜ข.

Always remember that you are loved and that you are not alone in this. Every day is world mental health day. Let’s stay together to end this taboo of mental health stigma. We arenโ€™t crazy in our minds. We are sick. We all need help, support and compassion. To raise awareness about world mental health day you can donate money to a mental health organization, you can draw a circle on your hand with the hastag #iamwhole or wear something yellow with the hastag #helloyellow and post it on social media. Let’s do this all together ๐Ÿ’ชโค๏ธ

Thank you all for reading this important blog post. Thank you for always being there for me like I will always be there for you all too. We are all in this together. Which mental illness do you suffer from? What helps you to feel better? What do you think of the mental health stigma? What do you think has to improve in the mental health system? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

I love you all so much ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina

September favourites ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿฅง

Hey lovelies ๐Ÿ’•,

September has flown away already! It’s time for another favourites post of all the nice things I did in September. Even though I feel bad right now and I’m struggling with my mental health I find it important to look back on the positive things that happened each month. There always things to be grateful for even though we may feel bad in that moment ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ™. It helps to bring at least a bit of light into the dark times. It rained a lot in The Netherlands last week and in Spain it’s sunny. The transition from Summer to the Winter months also makes me go into a bad mood. I’m just a Summer girl forever and want to live under the palmtrees at the beach forevah ๐Ÿ–๐ŸŒŠ๐ŸŒž๐ŸŒด. Yeah, that’s me always day dreaming. Hopefully one day I can make that dream come true. However, in September I enjoyed the fiestas of Valladolid, celebrated both my parents birthdays, bought beautiful stationery and ate some delicious food.

Things I did with my family ๐Ÿ‘จโ€๐Ÿ‘ฉโ€๐Ÿ‘ง:

My daddy’s 70th birthday ๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽ‚๐ŸŽˆ

I had a cold on his birthday so we didn’t went to a restaurant in Spain like we planned to go. Instead we went to El Corte Inglรฉs shop and ate a delicious sandwich with ham & cheese ๐Ÿฅช together with potatoes ๐ŸŸ. My mother drank wine, my daddy had a beer and I drank some tea haha give me all the tea.

I’m so thankful you are still here daddy. Writing these words out loud makes me feel emotional and make me have tears in my eyes ๐Ÿ˜ข. Life would be so different if you would have died when I was 11 years old. It’s been more than 10 years since you left the hospital. Thank God you left it. I remember you saying that it’s your second home ๐Ÿก. I’m happy you aren’t living in your second home anymore. My father had an infection in the pancreas and had to go through to 6 operations together with all the complications he suffered. It was a horrible time. Now he has diabetis. However, we still make jokes about how he lives without many organs ๐Ÿ˜‚ It’s a miracle. Love you so much! ๐Ÿ’—

Eating fondue with the family for both my parents birthdays ๐Ÿด๐Ÿ’—

We celebrated my mother’s birthday and my father’s birthday which was earlier this month together in The Netherlands too ๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽ‚๐ŸŽˆ Two birthdays in one day! I bought this amazing cake delivered and made by @greetz.nl ๐Ÿ˜ It turned out so well and it was also so delicious ๐Ÿ˜‹. It’s a pie with whipped cream, chocolate and strawberries. The picture you can see is from the wedding of my brother last year. I also made some beautiful cards for my parents. They loved it so much. I love to be creative yeahhh. It’s always great to be with the family all together celebrating birthdays. The fondue was delicious like always. We also ate vanilla ice cream and fruits. Het was heel gezellig haha like we say in Dutch. Love you all ๐Ÿ’—

Bike trip to the Cruquius for my mother’s birthday ๐Ÿšฒ

You may think we celebrate all our birthdays in the family 10000 times hahah well it’s true ๐Ÿ˜‚. My daddy always says my birthday is not just one day but a whole month lol. We had fondue on Saturday and Sunday the 22th of September was the official birthday from my mother. On that day it was so sunny and like 24 degrees. We went biking to a place where you take a ferry boat to the other side. It’s for free and we always give the volunteers some money. Then they always ring the bell. We drank a delicious mint tea ๐Ÿต in the restaurant. Afterwards, went biking to home as you can also take the bridge to the park and go home. I love living by a great park. Nature is the best natural medicine in the world. It always makes me so happy.

Enjoying a delicious tiramisu ๐Ÿฅง

Last week I enjoyed a delicious tiramisu as dessert with my mother and a friend in the restaurant De Molenplas which is in the park. I loved it! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜‹ I really like to eat only the desserts haha ๐Ÿ˜‚ It was a delicious tiramisu pie with lemon ice cream, grapes, dragon fruit, chocolate sauce, whipped cream and berries. My mother and the friend ate a delicious apple pie. We also drank a nice mint tea which is one my fav flavours of tea.

Pie and shopping time in the Hema ๐Ÿฅง๐Ÿ›๏ธ

I bought some nice stationery in the Dutch shop The Hema ๐Ÿ˜. It’s definitely one of my favourite shops. The stationery is beautiful. I bought some nice stickers with a mermaid theme and aaah I love it so much. It has mermaids ๐Ÿงœโ€โ™€๏ธ, sea shells and seahorses on it. I also bought washi tape of this theme. I also bought some design paper. It’s beautiful as it contains gold paper with glitter, blue paper with glitter and also other pages with stars and flowers. I can use that for my pen pals and write some nice quotes on it. I really love beautiful paper. My mother and I also enjoyed some delicious pie with a cup of tea. I had a chocolate pie and my mother had a strawberry one.

Watched some nice movies with my parents ๐ŸŽฌ

I love to watch movies downstairs with my parents especially when it’s getting colder as the living room is very cozy. We watched Boyhood but only until the half of it as I got scared when I saw a man being angry. I don’t want to say some spoilers. I’m a highly sensitive person so I can’t watch scary movies because it makes me anxious. However, later I watched the movie in my room and it was okay. I expected somehow more of the movie as it won some prizes as an Oscar. It’s the story of a 6 year old boy who you see growing up. I loved to see the people growing up in the movie and there were some beautiful quotes at the end. It’s just that the movie takes 3 hours and there isn’t an important plot like in other movies.

“You know how everyone’s always saying seize the moment? I don’t know, I’m kinda thinking it’s the other way around. You know, like the moment seizes us.”

I also watched the movie Brave which is such a lovely animated movie ๐Ÿ’—. I really loved the music so much, the story of the princess who don’t want to marry the prince but just want to go wild and do archery ๐ŸŽฏ. Then she runs away from the house and some magical things happen. I loved to see Merida being brave as I really do hope to be brave one day too suffering from anxiety. Lastly, I also saw the Spanish documantary Lots of kids, a monkey and a castle. It tells us the story of Julita and I find it really hilarious. She is such a great actress. This documentary also won a lot of prizes and I’m really glad about that. In one point in the documentary they have to leave the castle where they were living so they have to move all their stuff to their home which is way too much ๐Ÿ˜‚. The family is also seraching for the vertebra of Julia’s grandmother in their house. She was killed during the civil war in Spain.

Fun afternoon with my mother at the shopping mall ๐Ÿ›’๐Ÿ’—

While I was in Spain I won a prize for a free Subway menu for me and my mother. The people of the FB site said to me that it wasn’t a problem to use it now in September. So, last week we went to Subway and this man sounded grumpy and said like it was too late but he made an expection for us. I always am afraid that people are angry at me but that’s just because I’m sensitive about everything always ๐Ÿ˜ข. I was happy that we still could enjoy the menu. They didn’t told us that we had to go there between two weeks. Anyways, we had a delicious menu with a Sub 30cm with chicken, salad, olives, vegies, tomato and as sauce sweet onion. We really loved it so much ๐Ÿ˜ . I had a rainbow cookie and my mother a chocolate one. I drank green ice tea and my mother sparkling water with lemon. It was all so delicious.

I also did some shopping ๐Ÿ›’. My mother bought me beatiful nail polish of the colour light green, blue with glitters and a pink lipgloss. It was all on sale in the Hema. We also went to my favourite shop which is Action and bought some nice stationery. You can never have enough. I bought some beautiful colourful hobby carton, cardboard patters full of hearts, ice creams, donuts and other cute stuff, and a map where I can put all stickers, notes and quotes I get from my lovely pen pals.

Things I did with my lovely friends ๐Ÿ’—:

Receiving a beautiful pen pal letter from Chloe โœ’๏ธโœ‰๏ธ

I always LOVE to receive pen pal letters so much! Receiving post is just one of my happy things in life. I was happy to receive this month beautiful post from Chloe who I love so much. Thank you for your beautiful letter and for all the lovely stickers, notes, postcard and all cute stuff. You are so lovely and I can’t wait to meet you one day. I love your handwriting too so much. I wish mine wasn’t that messy hahah. Thank you for being one of my best friends. I love you so much! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’•

Fiestas of Valladolid ๐ŸŽ‰

At the beginning of September it was fiesta time in Valladolid which is also called Feria y fiestas de la Virgen de San Lorenzo ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿ’ƒ. It’s the Catholic patroness of Valladolid. I love this week so much. I ate delicious tapas like croquetas, bread with solomillo and roquefort, paella, pizza, delicious desserts like pie and ice with hot chocolate and fajitas. I also loved the nutella crรชpe with whipped cream we ate after the concert. IT WAS SO DELICIOUS LIKE OMGGGGGG GIVE ME ALL THE CHOCOLATE ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿซ๐Ÿ˜‹ I liked the cotton candy too which reminded me of my childhood aahhh good vibes. You can all eat these tapas at stands in the whole city. You can also watch the fireworks at night but we didn’t went because it’s always so crowded. I also always love to go to concerts with my friends and my mother ๐ŸŽถ. I went to see Gloria Gaynor (Who sings the popular song I will survive), Ana Belรฉn, and the flamenco kinda pop group Camela. I also wanted to see Maldita Nerea but it was raining that night so I didn’t go out. I always enjoy this week so much.

Other amazing things of September:

Reaching 400 followers ๐Ÿ’—

I’m so happy I reached 400 followers on my blog. Each one of you mean so much to me. I know not everyone interacts with me as there are a lot of marketing and dating blogs who love to follow me lol I have no idea why ๐Ÿ˜‚. I’m thankful for all the friendships I made. Thank you for all being there for me in good and worst times. WE WILL ALWAYS BE UNITED TOGETHER GOING THROUGH LIFE UNTIL THE END OF TIMES. I just had to shout this, okay? Okay. I love you all so much.

Contribution in the new book of Ashley L. Peterson ๐Ÿ“™

I feel so blessed and happy to have contributed to the book “Making sense of psychiatric diagnosis” of Ashley. She is such an amazing blogger and writer. “It covers the DSM-5 criteria for a variety of mental illnesses, including whatโ€™s involved in making a diagnosis, the symptom criteria for each diagnosis, and an explanation of what the various symptoms actually look like.ย It will explain why a personโ€™s diagnoses may change over time, and discuss some of the weaknesses in this kind of diagnostic system.” I wrote about how it is to live with generalised anxiety disorder. I’m sure you book will help a lot of people ๐Ÿ’—. Keep being you!

Thank you all for reading this blog post. I hope you all liked my favourites of this month. What did you do in September? What are your favourites from my post? Do you like the movies I have watched? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.

Much love ๐Ÿ’•,

xoxo Christina