I just woke up. It’s already afternoon. I don’t care because it’s Summer. This is my time to let go and just feel free. Right now all I feel is Summertime Sadness. Lana Del Rey is amazing and I feel her music. Life is just really strange and changes so fast. I feel nostalgic for all the past times. I miss my dad a lot. Sometimes I’m just drinking something in a bar and then I feel an instant feeling of sadness. I wasn’t even aware of how sad I felt at that moment. I didn’t even know where that sadness came from.

Then I come home and feel really sad and begin to cry. The good thing about crying is that it makes you fall asleep. It is also so good for your nerves. Crying release so many emotions and SO much tension in your body. When someone says you are weak because you cry a lot, then just ignore this person. They certainly don’t know anything about mental health. We need to cry. Humans need to cry. We are the only species on this earth who can actually show these kind of emotions.

That sadness I felt was just my longing for my dad. It’s been almost a year now. In October it will one year of missing him. I don’t know how time passes by so fast. It’s strange to be in Spain and not have any calls of him. I remember his calls of being angry at me and saying you have to go to the dentist!!!! These kind of little things just mean so much now. There’s nothing that can make me feel better at that moment and that is okay. Sometimes all you have to do is just sit with that emotion, feel it and let it go.

Life is just hard. Loosing someone is the hardest and also the most vulnerable feeling you can feel. To love and let go is what life is all about. Accepting it and feeling all of it. It means that the love you felt for your loved ones was real and still is even though that person isn’t there physicallly anymore. I love you daddy. I know you would be proud of me. I wrote again a story for a writing contest. If I win it’s because you are the light that guide me my way in life. You are the moon that I look up to on the nights I can’t sleep. You are the stars that shine brightly in the dark sky. Always there for us.

Life is also beautiful. I am grateful for all the time spent with my daddy together with my lovely family. I am also grateful for the bad times. It teaches us the big life lessons which you can’t always learn from the good moments in life. In the bad moments you learn who your real friends are and who will always be there for you. Everyone can be there in the good moments but being there in the worst periods of your life is something else. Those are the people who will always be there for you. Those are the kind of lifetime people who will be there for you no matter what.

The only constant in this world, in this life is change. People change. Seasons change. The world is constantly moving. Panta rei kai oudén ménei is what my daddy always said. It’s Greek and means everything flows, nothing stands still which is so true. He was a theology teacher and saw religion as science. When I talked about how I’m afraid of death he always said to enjoy life because when you aren’t there anymore you can’t enjoy it. He said that it would be the same before you were born. I was always talking so deeply with my dad and laughing so much. I miss that the most.

Life is changing each day. I’m here. It’s all unvolving the way it has to be. Nothing stays the same. Nothing last forever. At the end it’s good because that way you appreciate more things. Never take anyone or anything for granted. Love each other ❤. Love overcomes anything in life and is the most constant and fluid flow in life.

Never forget that we are all connected. We are all one with the world. One love 💞🌍