Nostalgia to the old times 🌫
Hey my loves 💞,
I really miss the good old days from WordPress. Many of my fav bloggers aren’t blogging anymore. It really makes me sooo sad. This has always been my safe space. I think I will try to post more again. Sometimes I’m away because of depression and anxiety illnesses. I feel lonely. I miss all my good life long friendships I made her. I’m happy to still be in contact with some on Instagram or other places.
I’m also thinking about Ashley who passed away. Depression. A horrible illness. I miss you, your blogs and your words. I’m so happy to have found you. May you rest in peace. I’m thankful for your support during all these years. I hate mental illnesses. I wish nobody had to suffer from any illness whether it’s a mental illness or not. I still believe that the good people in this world have to suffer so much more than the the bad ones. It’s unfair. I still prefer to be a good person because that’s who I’m. At the end of the day it’s all that matters. Being a good person, be there for people and spread love 💞🫶.
Since my daddy died almost two years ago this October I long for the past a lot. I miss him so much. Grief is hard and never ever will go away. I’m thankful that when I cry I still feel him near me. I just wish that I could hug him again. I have in my heart always. I’m so thankful for all the good values he learned me. He was angry at me at times but I know he loved me. That’s all that matters. Love. It cures everything. He was always there for me. He teached me to be honest, love others and to stand up for myself. I still find it hard to speak up but everytime I’m talking about things I feel that he would be proud of me. I love to speak up about injustice, mental health, racism, feminism and so many other topics. I love the fact that that legacy will never ever go away until the day I die.
I miss to see my mamita with my daddy hugging or holding hands. They were married for almost 45 years. I’m just so thankful for them. For everything. I guess it’s normal to go through a season of depression again with so many changes happening in my life. We sold our home in The Netherlands to live in Spain. Our family home. My childhood home. It’s a lot to process. The death of my daddy. Missing people. We all long for some things from the past at times.
I have always been a nostalgic girl like my daddy. I get happy listening to old Taylor Swift songs. I can’t wait to see her hopefully live soon in concert 😍🎶🎶🎶🥹🥹🥹. My biggest dream. I get happy when I see old pictures in a photoalbum. I get happy to see peopl from the past. I get happy from old music and books. I sometimes wonder if only I would have been born into the 70s or 80s… Would I be happier than now? We are a sad generation of happy pictures. It’s the truth.
People go and come but the only good ones will stay forevah until the end of times 🌜🌛. I’m so thankful for all of you. You guys are the best. I’m so thankful for the good and bad times. Life is a hell of a ride. It’s so hard and sometimes all I want is to just sleep it away. I know those are seasons but when you are in the midst of changes and chaos it’s normal to feel emotional. I also am just such an emotional person so it’s pretty normal for me to cry a lot and laugh in between. It’s hard when people think I’m happy all the time because I laugh out loud and smile a lot. Those who smile and laugh a lot are the ones who suffer the most. Mark my words.
I guess we are all nostalgic at times especially in times of many changes in our life. I just don’t like to feel depressed during Summer when everyone acts happy or is really happy. Summer is my fav season evah 😍🥹🌞🌈🙏🌊💞🧜♀️🏊♂️. I also know it’s important to feel our feelings so I cry and feel depressed because it’s just how I feel. I try to do the things which make me happy but it’s hard when you suffer from an illness. We do our best and that’s enough.
Thank you for all your support, love and for just being there always for me. How do you feel? Are you nostalgic too to old times? Let me know lovelies. I will speak to you all in my next blog post.
Love you all 💞,
xoxo Christina
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